#UR-1 mentions

[inkskinned]

crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.

i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.

in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.

i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.

i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.

plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.

the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.

we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.

i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.

a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.

today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.

loved beyond thinking.

[orphiclovers]

It's sort of implied Yoo Joonghyuk starts off every regression in his signature outfit already and I have. Headcanons on how that is possible.

It's explicitly stated in canon that his coat does not travel back to him when he regresses (kdj says so to sp), so the two possibilities are either he buys it as soon as possible and just does the first couple scenarios in a normal outfit (boring, unsupported by canon) or... he was already wearing the coat on the day the scenarios started. Which is what I think, and is more interesting. Since those coats already have so much narrative weight in yjh's story let me add a little more.

I think when Yoo Joonghyuk spawned into existence on the side of the road one day, he was wearing the full WoS outfit, coat included. Because, what else would the protagonist wear? This was the only outfit he was written in.

Eventually, he of course did buy normal clothes (in yoo mia side story, which happens a few years later, he wears 'an old jacket') but that coat he started off with with would have been one of the very few pieces of evidence of his supposed 'past' that he wanted to discover so badly. So even if he stopped wear it day-to-day, I think he wouldn't have gotten rid of it.

For years, A Black Infinite Dimention Space Coat hangs in his closet, totally anachronistic in a pre-scenarios world. Like Yoo Joonghyuk himself.

It's important to note that on the day the scenarios started, Yoo Joonghyuk was taking the train to meet his parents for the first time. Perhaps he felt the need to dress up, and what better way than the unusual clothing he wore on the first day he remembers? He would have finally gotten the answers he had been looking for - perhaps even to the comparatively insignificant question of why he was wearing this coat when he forgot his past.

Well, his parents house was empty, but he still gets the answer to his questions eventually, when at 7 p.m on the ride back, the scenarios start.

In a bitter irony, that outfit he chose to wear on that day would be what he wore for the next thousand regressions. But of course, it never could have happened any other way.

[nyaagolor]

Knowing now that Krauss was on a business trip from the time Natsuhi was given Lion until after Lion's "death" and has No Idea about Lion makes the entire situation uproariously funny to me because it implies one of three things:

Everyone assumed Krauss was so obedient to / scared of Kinzo that he would accept the situation without question, so they just didn't bother telling him because they didn't want to deal with him until he got back

Kinzo and Genji had so little faith in Krauss' intelligence that they figured they could just convince him that Lion was his Actual Biological Child and that Natsuhi had just been hiding a hidden pregnancy for the past 9 months

Genji and the other servants were so busy dealing with Kinzo's grief and Everything Else that they just Forgot

[popponn]

things about sae.

it's sae's turn in my brain microwave. i want to understand you, underlashes senior. headcanons +observation+ rambling. spoilers, will be updated as time goes on.

scathing, mean af vocabs. pretty rude even as a child. but compared to rin, his cursing seems to be much tamer.

is REALLY focused on soccer. but also said in the character interview to not "only be able to/focus on soccer like him".

but in his introduction to u20 shows that he seems to value someone who goes all in to soccer. and it's kind of in line with the things he "admits" and chided. example a: shidou and isagi being individuals who are undeniably soccer obsessed (though on isagi's case as they haven't even talk, if i remember correctly, this might be more because of isagi's way of winning through "making use of luck"). example b: things he said in the u20 introduction in response to sendou.

headcanonish but this guy is giving me "burnout gifted child" vibe with all the prodigal status, expectations, and being hit in the face by the world. like what are you. are you satisfied by marina??????

there are few moments where he displays something that is pretty close to 'praise', but say it not to the related person/group himself. (i.e. his thoughts of blue lock in locker room, his comment about "dont switch out any of the u20 member".)

like is he being not nice on purpose????? honestly probably. headcanonish, but if seeing his way of giving comments to rin pre-spain, it's been like that since he was little. (i will check rin's ln again later)

in contrast to rin having "natural luck", this guy seems to more " making/seeking luck". but idk yet, with only ice cream sticks as clues. sae backstory and ln spin off when.

his eyes during the confrontation with rin in that snowy night are pretty expressive. but since visual cues leave a really wide room for interpretation + bllk tendency to subvert things, i will not comment. but honestly i really agree with the sentiment that sae was hurt by rin's words, but in the end the discouragement seems to come more from a place of "i don't want you to get hurt so just go home and don't play soccer anymore" (very very hc and more of an interpretation, as sae's pov is still non existent)

aka yeah, this guy is shit at displaying concern and any sort of care. headcanon but. do you see the vibe??? with rin???? like it's similar. what is this genetic.

simple fashion, but pretty trendy and chic(?).

this guy seems like a family guy who misses his family a lot. (please make up soon with your lil bro)

watches chibi maruko chan. has habits that genuinely reminds me of old people (drinking tea, looking at sea, thinking of family).

people at blue lock think of him as someone who seems to be good at study, but looking at the pattern of hyperfocused people in blue lock it either goes two way: a) his skill at everything else is questionable at best, abysmall at worst ; b) he is an all-rounder indeed.

but then again there is also the third type aka "good at football, still functional at everything except communication and emotional management skill".

his way of talking in jp is, to put it simply, pretty casual like guys his age. the thing that are the rudest part of it was his choice of words and the fact that he seems to talk like this to everyone. even his elder. and also the way he is very blunt in expressing his opinion.

but somehow that bluntness is gone when it came to showing vulnerable emotions. talk about emotional constipation.

if his character interview is reliable and unbiased, as it is from sae's own pov, his relationship with his parents seems okay.

genuinely wondering about his parents' canon response to his and rin's cold war.

does he even have friends. no like seriously.

his brother and him are really similar in many ways. rin is probably copying him in some ways tho—that, or rin's own issues. or sae's own issues.

please just make up with your brother. (2)

after spain his bang is gone. as in he just pushed them up. in u20 it still went down sometimes in a few panels.

he likes numbers. maybe he really is smart.

genuinely looking at him like "please get a hobby" not even as an insult but out of genuine concern. this dude has so many issues and the burnout child prodigy vibe is real strong with this one.

but not fully his fault. pretty much live alone overseas, probably with no friends his age and just a manager as his support system, went through a crisis, is a (probable) family loving guy with his family far away from him, then came home to his beloved lil bro he spoiled and dotted on and shared a dream with saying hurtful things to him on his lowest point. and not supporting his new decision and dream. from sae's pov, it's brutal.

i can defend rin on this too tho. honestly please talk to each other, itoshi bros. or acknowledge that maybe neither of you were in not in the best state of mind during that confrontation.

seems logical and he does likes numbers. but honestly, he just acts as he wants—look at how he talks to journalist, how he has 0 hesitation to leave an ongoing match.

went to spain at 13 according to rin's spin off novel. also mentioned to "hate to lose" and seems to be a strict perfectionist.

must be noted however that how rin sees him seems to be very biased. a bit of rin analysis/hc, but there seems to be "putting nii chan on a pedestal" going on there. how their childhood truly is from sae's perspective is still unknown. on rin's part tho, seems to be a very nice period.

is rich. so the snobby rich condescending guy aura is probably not that far from the truth. his sense of money seems to be a mess, as a few hundred millions is a small amount for him.

this guy seems to be picky with who he respects and he really doesn't hold back in disrespecting someone he doesn't. even higher ups and older people.

does skincare canonly.

doesn't seem to have friends so far...? (nel arc, before pxg match) but if we look at how rin is now, unsurprising.

in rin's novel, rin's physique is mentioned to be "better" than sae's actually. with how "rin wins in luck" while sae "loses" motive exist through the ice cream sticks, probably this motive will come up again when sae appears again.

[holdmymetaphor]

house wanted to go to rachels jewish baby naming ceremony and he put up a fuss but he told wilson the real reason he couldnt go: hes incapable of acting normal

how many of houses self destructive tendencies are born from an avoidance of his social ineptitude? he rationalizes how he perceives the world to mask how inferior(inherently wrong or harmful, alone,etc) he feels.

and he cloaks himself in a crude and saterical version of what he believes other perceive him as so to hide the tender kid inside him who didnt understand why his father hit him.

the idea that if he does the bad things they cant hit him in his true heart. the idea that if he does the bad things he deserves whatever pain he gets in return. the idea that he is only his actions, and his actions dont matter.

so he looks in the window of the restaurant, watching his fellows form bonds under the intense work environment he throws at them. he tries to get into their personal lives in the only way he knows how. to lean into his abrasive and insensitive nature as if it were intentional.

[ar0rin]

My secret santa piece for @unseenassailant ! Happy holidays!

[flowersfortheghost]

since the spiderverse fandom is dying out, i have a confession to make

i thought gwen and miles were already dating until i saw the clocktower scene and was like "wait.. they're just friend?"

[fisheito]

my princess nonsense is being encouraged watch ouyt imabout to be eneaabled

OK WHATF ATHAT'S SO CUTE I HAD TO MAKE IT i know realistically there's little to no chance that rei DOESN'T know how to work heels 🤣 BUT IMAGINE.....ING.... YAKUMO GENTLY GUIDING REI IN HEELS, WEEKS BEFORE THE BIG GALA AND HAVING NONE OF HIS NORMAL FEAR OF PHYSICAL TOUCH BC HIS [TEACHER MODE] IS OVERRIDING HIS INSECURITY

[apotelesmaa]

> looking for a tenma siblings relationship study

> ask the op if the study is actually about the tenmas or just treating saki like an accessory to tsukasa

> they don’t understand

> pull out an illustrated diagram explaining the difference

> they laugh and say “it’s a good relationship study sir”

> click the post

> it’s treating saki like an accessory to tsukasa

[coconut530]

Some derps for the past three Malevolent episodes ~ 🕷️👩🏻🎄

[skrunksthatwunk]

yyh shipping opinion charts (NIGHTMARE MODE)

blank versions below cut

[recareels]

i think you're trying to kill us with those delicious teacher reca & big brother sunday posts !!!! /pos please keep it coming~

HAHAHAHA oh my gosh anon i am so glad you read my tags lmaoooooo <33 UGH i’m obsessed with it!! can you imagine how upset Big Brother sunday would be to hear that his precious baby sister is fucking a man nearly thrice her age??? that goddamn director who is as sleazy as he is acclaimed??? who is also in a position of extreme power over her as her professor???

he says the term ‘director’ as if it stings his tongue, as if it’s some obscene, disgusting word, face wrinkled as he spits it through gritted teeth—that director. which is weird, you think, considering sunday was such a fan of mr reca’s refined artistry before the renowned director began to take an interest in you…

hehehe <33 i will definitely keep it coming!! it might just be in the form of tiny fragments like this, tho i did write this little piece where reader comes home, breathless with exhilaration, to tell Big Brother sunday that she secured the highly sought after internship with mr reca and sunday responds with such callous indifference to her big accomplishment >.< makes her feel small and stupid and so silly about it all >.< that’s about all i’ve got in terms of a narrative, tho!!

[oohbuggypie]

OMFG I FORGOT YOU ALSO SHIP MAGIC COMBAT BOOTS

Ne ways pls gimmie anything for em- silly hcs, silly art, anything plssss

~ fna-mans

IM SO LATE IM SRRY CHARLIEEE .. but MAGIC COMBAT BOOTS ART IS OUT 4 ALL TO FEAST UPON 🩷 i never see Kaiser + Tiger appreciation so i wanted to put some extra love into this one !! Kaiser reads his magazine for entertainment while Tiger chooses to count his lover's moles for fun instead,, which he can never get a straight answer from 🩷

all that's scribbled out is my pen testing and crayon scratches so pls ignore that ! ANYWAYZZ um i exited out of Google Translate after fighting 4 my LIFE trying to write the Hindi correctly and i actually teared up bcuz now i don't know EXACTLY what he's saying but attempted translations below !

Hindi text reads:

"...और यह दोनों भुजाओं से 43 है। क्या इस बार मैंने सही गिनती की?"

English translation:

"...and that's 43 from both arms. Did I count right this time?"

German text reads:

"Letztes Mal hast du 55 gezählt. Viel Glück beim nächsten Mal, Liebes."

English translation:

"Last time you counted 55. Better luck next time, dear."

LAST EDIT ON THIS POST I SWEAR but i forgot the super smooshed and incomplete text cuz I couldn't fit it on the magazine says "Schnurrbärte", German for mustaches 🩷

hope u like this Charlie, again srry 4 the long wait but i hope u love it 🥹

[fungal-boy-witch-yay]

the man vs bear argument is stupid because whether you pick bear or man you will be harassed and berated for your opinion. Statistics aside if you see someone pick bear, you know exactly why they picked bear, and if someone picked man, you know exactly why they picked man. If I see one more man say they wanna see a women get ripped apart my a bear or one more person get bareted and harassed simply for choosing man I will LOOSE MY SHIT.

[daikunart]

Put a finger down if u ever tried, as a teen, to keep a diary, only for a parent to find and read it and demand explanation for the random shit u wrote (wasn't even that deep bruh) and u felt so violated that u never wrote anything ever again 😶😶😶😶

[taffybuns]

What kinda games have you been into lately if any? Im looking for something new to play!

wahh not gonna lie im about to hit 600 hours playing nothing but salmon run on splatoon 3 for a year agqjshd.. lately tho ive been getting into tf2, and kirby and the forgotten land, both for the first time- lots of fun even if i'm late!

my favorite recent ones i'd recommend might be pikmin 4 (goty), rhythm doctor (an update just came out!), the rusty lake series (underground blossom just released and it was soo good), hi-fi rush (goty 2), neon white (haven't finished but gameplay is incredible), transistor (or any supergiant game really)

i could go on but not sure what genres you're looking for and i just game too much after work ajdhdkk

i hope you find something nice to play!