#Testo Support +

[flonkertainment]

Finally!!

After 2.5 years of waiting and medical stuff, I was finally able to start Testosterone two days ago!! (I posted this on Twitter and completely forgot about Tumblr lol) My life completely turned around when I got an unexpected call from my doctor where she told me that I can finally start T now. Before that, I was told to not expect anything until october because of summer break, and due to long waiting times I thought I would have to hold on until next year...well, until the Trans Fairies decided to just say whoop whoop f3ck summer break time for Testo NOW

So why not celebrate the probably best event in my life with a quick drawing of me and the characters that helped me through these last long months of waiting the most!

To every Trans Person out there waiting for life-saving medical care, please keep going! No matter how rough the waiting might be, it certainly was rough for me, it is worth it! Stay strong and safe everyone, you're the coolest motherf3ckers to ever exist!!

Thank you so much to everyone who supported me so far, especially the folks who stuck around from the beginning of this account and the ones who keep interacting with my stuff and saying the kindest things about it! Love you all, and have a great day!

[old-school-butch]

Hello again <3

I sent you an anon that you replied to on April 1st, which was me asking how ex-TIFs are received back into womanhood. Your reply gave me a little foothold which ended up very comforting as I started coming out rapid-fire to all my friends as detrans. this is primarily a message for other people in my situation, who are afraid and might want a template of what you might expect will happen once you do come out with it.

Predictably, most of my friends dropped me; I've 3 friends left. Two of which continue to support trans people but can accept that i have different opinions (as long as i'm "not mean") and one of which has seen the gender critical arguments, accepted them, and agrees. So, heavy losses, but not total losses. My two siblings seemed to sigh in relief and reveal that they never believed in genderism at all, which is odd, because in my 10 years of being trans not one of them challenged me on it. my mom fell into heavy guilt over "letting me" do all this, although i was 18 when i took testo and 19 when i got surgery, so she really could not have stopped me, legally. i suppose she mainly grieves knowing that had she had the right arguments she could have saved her kid this, but i've told her she is not to blame and i hope she recognizes that.

i haven't received any real harassment, not from anyone that i PERSONALLY know, though my family has received... harassment targeted at me? my sister had a classmate begin sending her copious pro-trans propaganda (contrapoints videos) which she instructed should be sent onward to me (sis did not comply). hilarious how my 10 years of direct experience is suddenly null and void and i'm assumed to know nothing about transness.... 6 months ago i was helping people sensitivity-write trans characters. now, i'm told i can't speak for the trans experience at all, and that i do not know what it's like to be a transmasc person. told that i need to listen to the arguments more carefully, that i don't LISTEN, when i literally lived this for 10 whole years. girl, on god? they tell me i don't get it and need to educate myself. and have empathy of course.

but in general, detransing, i've discovered that there are PLENTY of people who do not actually believe in genderism but who will play along simply out of fear or social pressure. my friends aside, who i knew through "queer" circles, everyone in my family (expect my mom) has revealed they never actually believed in it. i think this might contribute to why trans people bully dissenters so badly. they know this is the truth, that no one really buys it. i think, subconsciously, i have known that too. i never downloaded grindr, i never went into the men's bathrooms. i knew that despite testo and surgery and pronouns i could never challenge men as an equal in their eyes.

interestingly, making new friends is not that hard. I lead with the fact i'm detrans and "don't believe in all that shit" and people are VERY eager to be able to, suddenly, voice their real opinions without being called transphobic. they begin with probing questions, uncontroversial statements like "i agree they shouldn't put males in women's sports..." but if you continue to agree and not punish this daring on their part, they will reveal, with much relief and enthusiasm, what they really think. most people, normal people, really do not believe it all? i'm a brash person and can take irl confrontations quite well, hence i feel safe putting myself up as a transphobe off the bat. and people are very into this. so. the old ass saying, just be yourself.... normal people will not volunteer anti-genderist opinions on their own but when i continue to state thing after thing they open up and agree and eventually feel safe enough to admit their own thoughts. making friends, especially with non-gendie women, hasn't been that hard.

i'm going to write another message about same-sex attraction in the genderverse, but it's also a can of worms so i will make it separate from this one. again, thank you so much, for having anon on and listening, and letting us listen to each other without fear. i would hug you. to be continued

Thanks for the follow up!

My only comment is that I think most people play along out of kindness, it's not all bullying and fear, but that does impose a silence on everyone so everyone feels quite alone with their doubts.

[ultrasopp]

Bla bla bla sleepdeprived rambles and im not online enough for this (aka no tiktok) but. Is the obsession with trans men's hair truly that big? I see too much 1) the ideal of a hairy daddy body being pushed when testo just does not do that for everyone and 2) the CONSTANT list of products and treatments to avoid the gross receding hairline illness!!!!! Literally are we supporting trans people or are we not? fuck this honestly

(post is brought to u by cis friend 1 calling me 'hairy ass donkey' for having chest hair and cis friend 2 saying 'congrats on the receding hairline' like it was an inside joke??? girl we havent seen each other in months? hello??? i know this is tiktok's fault bc she said 'receding hairline' in english lmao)

[hotnsweetnprimrose]

Who am I? Well,

I'm part boy part girl, boygirl, the protector and mayor of transgenders! Well. Not that last one, that's not an official position nor would I claim it in a non-joking manner. I'm just a silly t4t slut :P

If you see this blog in sfw areas or engaging with sfw blogs, I’m just there to shitpost and I cannot be bothered to do a main blog switch thing lmao. But if it makes you uncomfortable, that’s okay too! I will also probably reblog sfw memes and such too. A laugh is a powerful thing.

Last Updated: Nov 14 2024

My name is Prim or Clark (switch 'em up when it's been a while). I'm 22, I am trans, non-binary, and bigender (androgyne flavor), and I'm here to fuck and get fucked, at least in what ways are possible over the internet. I'm interested in all genders, but have far more fondness in my heart for my fellow trans folk. :P

I'm a HUGE switch and vers! I am 5'1" and a tad fragile. This makes me better at domming too as well as subbing, I promise.

I prefer they/them pronouns from people who aren't close to me, but once you get to know me, we'll figure it out further :P. I might use it/its for myself while in subspace being a toy, don’t change any of your language in response unless I ask, please!

I strongly believe in trans joy and t4t joy. Transmasc transfem transneutral trans [fill in the blank] we are all so hot and cool. <3 It brings me joy to lend aid whenever and wherever I can. This blog is focused on trans 4 trans first and foremost. Cis people are an afterthought, almost always.

Send me asks if you want! DMs even! I love meeting people! Don't be shy! Unless you're cis, then I have high standards so yes do be shy. And if you’re cis and heterosexual? …. Sorry, if you’re attracted to me, you absolutely cannot be both of those things! I have a discord available after I get dm'd because tumblr dms my behated.

Please don't interact if you're a minor or don't have your age in your bio. I will block you. Immediately. Be patient and you'll have a chance to explore when it doesn't endanger yourself or others.

I also just block liberally if you aren't firmly on the side of t4t solidarity and mutual support. We're all having a hard time out here. (I also will not hesitate break mutuals if you post content that damages my mental health that I can't filter for. This is my safe haven.)

Top Surgery (No Nips!!!! Wahoo!!): 10/16/2024 [if you're seeing this in less than 3 weeks after that date, know my sleep is probably still in disarray and my ability to reply/exist is impaired.]

Anatomical Terms:

clit, tdick, tcock, cunt, pussy = GOOD!

boygirl + any term that's deemed good already= GREAT!!

hole = fine. a bit boring

vagina = BAD! too technical

If I'm dominant in your scenario, call me mastress, mixtress, or captain. Sir is on the table for those who earn it. If I'm submissive in your scenario, call me toy, pet, diminuitive names, or kitten (but only if you make jokes about it :P).

I tag my original things "Prim/Clark~" + [type of post] (space in the middle). My reblogs are tagged by kink/focus when I remember and rambling/my thoughts no matter what. [for specific tags I use for post types/original content, check under the cut for the list] I tag reblogs "primclark rbs" so I can sort them.

More stuff under the readmore including limits, kinks, and other tidbits.

Due to me being bigender (androgyne edition), I try not to reblog posts with "men dni" or "women dni" on them as I feel like that's denying part of my identity. Also out of principle so maybe people will be less broad with those kinds of statements OR remember multigender folks like myself exist. Please don't binarize me, that sucks.

I call the rp/kink fiction/pretend element "kayfabe" because wrestling is y'know. somewhat analogous to kink in some ways!

Setting up my queue to post all the reblogs I drafted then forgot about!!!! Please be patient!!

Not Planning on Going On T Please Don't Act Like I Am [I use tcock and tdick with the t meaning trans or t4t, not testosterone <3]

List time!!!!

g = giving, r = receiving

BIG YESES!!

body worship [g+r]

praise [g+r]

tentacles & monsters [...g+r] (used to be this blog's main theme, but I'm revamping! might still post/rb it though)

bondage & restraint & shibari [g+r]

hypnosis [g+r]

bimbofication & dumbification genre [g+r]

creampies [r+g but that requires a strap and/or imagination]

overstim [g+r]

edging [g+r]

Objectification in the sense of being a toy, a tool, something with a function that does a job [r, unsure about g]

petplay [g+r I am a kitten thank you not a puppy sadly]

gentle gender affirming genderplay/forcemasc/forcefem!!!!!! [g+r]

size kink [I'm so damn short I gotta sexualize it]

DEFINITELY MORE I DON'T REMEMBER OFF THE TOP OF MY HEAD

CONTEXT DEPENDENT (not always a big yes but the version eithout context is a no)

anal [giving ONLY, and only with gloves or a strap]

intox [giving/domming ONLY]

Consensual non-consent but ONLY if it's clearly established as such with the post/fiction (I know I'm rare in that I find the prep and negotiation hot but hey, I love communication and trust!)

Painplay [giving/domming ONLY]

Breathplay [giving/domming ONLY] (picky about this one because safety but also I got asthma so I need to breathe normally)

NOS!!!!

Any kind of pregnancy or pregnancy focused kink

Any sort of inflation (cumflation is case by case)

Breeding with the INTENT of pregnancy (see creampies above, I do love the raw sex and being cum in but pregnancy still makes me dysphoric)

Nipple/breast focused content and/or kink (don't have those anymore and they gave me dysphoria) [except if you want to do like. breast theft. then we can talk about it but I'm super picky it's basically a no] {okay I’m cool doing it for others tits but not Mine}

Detrans kink and misgendering kink (I respect you but not my thing and usually makes me dysphoric. More power to ya though!)

Kinks involving urine, scat [shit], or filth [literal] in any large capacity

Consensual Non-Consent when it's in-universe just non-con

I respect y’all but no f4uxc3st and please tag it!!!! I have it blocked because my brain goes “you want ocd symptoms abt this? Okay!” I don’t even have full ocd just traits n trauma 😔

Nudes. Not without my express and enthusiastic agreement (rare)

[all of this is subject to changes and updates when I remember things not listed here or I learn more about my tastes!]

Original Writing/Pictures Tags:

#Prim/Clark~ Says = non-horny posts/writing/updates (that's what this is tagged as)

#Prim/Clark~ Whimpers = horny writing (submissive focus)

#Prim/Clark~ Smirks = horny writing (dominant focus)

#Prim/Clark~ Moans = horny writing (generally)

#Prim/Clark~ Reveals = if I ever do post suggestive pics (probably no actual pussy in it, tasteful museum style) this is the tag for that. we'll see how I feel.

There are two sideblogs off this blog but they’re both secret. Thank you <3

[belovedapollo]

I’ve been almost one month on testosterone and I finally had a family meeting talking to my parents with my sister as support. When I tell you there is nothing scarier than talking to your dad about your emotions lol but he was very supportive. My mum was a little bit off but it’s because my mum values others more and what they think about her and her family. Anyways! Almost one month one testo and I’m beyond happy to finally being able to go this path and live my life the way I want to. 🌹

[andiatas]

Police action against Marius Borg Høiby's friend: Found 224 doses of cocaine

Now, Dagbladet can reveal that for several years, Marius Borg Høiby has holidayed and partied with people who have been convicted of serious crimes.

Dagbladet can reveal several new details about the environment Marius Borg Høiby has been in contact with and partied with for several years.

Sources have confirmed to Dagbladet that the police continuously investigate and assess the environment around the Royal Family to determine whether anyone may pose a threat.

In the environment around Marius Borg Høiby, we find rich heirs, reality celebrities and influencers. But we also see people convicted of dealing with cocaine and serious crime - and who have connections to the gang environment and the Hells Angels.

Dagbladet has presented everything that comes to light in this case, for Marius Borg Høiby's lawyer, Øyvind Bratlien, in the Bratlien law firm - and for the Royal House.

- We are referring to Borg Høiby's lawyer, writes the Royal Palace's communications manager, Guri Varpe, in an email.

Borg Høiby's lawyer has not responded to Dagbladet's inquiries in this case.

Raid against friend

First, we go back to 15 October 2019. Then, the police raided an apartment in the centre of Oslo.

A now 38-year-old man lives in the apartment.

The investigators found a total of 37 tablets of anabolic steroids.

They also found 56 grams of cocaine.

If we use Rusinfo's definition of a user dose as a basis, the seize amounted to 224 user doses. Following FHI's definition of a user dose, the seize contains over 700 user doses.

The street value, according to Rusinfo, is around NOK 56,000.

The investigators who raided his apartment were on the trail of an extensive international money laundering network. The action was part of what was to become one of Økokrim's greatest triumphs in recent years: Five people in Norway and two in Belgium ended up being sentenced to prison terms. The total sum the five were convicted of having laundered is NOK 24 million.

More connections

Dagbladet has revealed in several articles that the money-laundering case has connections to several heavily criminal circles - among other things, there is a branch to the infamous Swedish Foxtrot network and to the Kinahan cartel from Ireland, which, according to British police, sells cocaine and heroin worth billions.

The 38-year-old is among those convicted in the case.

According to several sources, he is also a good friend of Marius Borg Høiby. The source information is supported by social media, where the two are pictured together several times over several years.

The two have been to London and watched Arsenal play football together, been on holiday together, and partied together in town and privately. This is shown in pictures that the two and their friends have posted on Instagram.

Bags of cocaine

The 38-year-old appealed the verdict in the money laundering case, and on 24 May, he explained himself in the Borgarting Court of Appeal. Dagbladet was present during the explanation.

- The arrest came as a shock to me. They came with a letter on gross money laundering. Then there are some bags of cocaine on the table at my house. They asked if there was more - then I showed the rest of the cocaine. Then anabolic steroids were found - it sounds very harsh, but they are the weakest "testo pills" you will find. I was concerned with being fit at the time, said the 38-year-old.

He was eventually sentenced to 11 months in prison in the Borgarting Court of Appeal.

Confirmed drug sales

When the 38-year-old was arrested, he had NOK 16,000 in cash on him.

- Did you sell some drugs every now and then, asked the prosecutor in the case, prosecutor Håvard Kampen in Økokrim.

- I have covered my own consumption in that way. I have not been a big dealer but have sold to friends and acquaintances, replied Høiby's travel companion.

He was clearly affected when he explained himself further - and also provided information about the party environment Dagbladet is writing about today:

- In the years until I was arrested, I struggled with a lot of cocaine; I was in an environment where there was a lot of partying. It has been daily. Over time, you get a lot of anxiety. I haven't dared to talk about it. You get a little paranoid.

The Follo man

One of the 38-year-old's friends is the Follo man convicted of fraud who now lives in Dubai. The Follo man moved to Dubai this winter but has had regular contact with the environment Marius Borg Høiby frequents in Oslo.

In the fraud case, the Follo man and his father were convicted of defrauding banks of around eight million kroner - and attempting to defraud them even more - for alleged property purchases in Norway and Spain.

In Dubai, where he now lives, the Follo man has been partying with Marius Borg Høiby's 38-year-old friend, now convicted of money laundering.

Dagbladet knows that Marius Borg Høiby has also had contact with the Follo man. A few days before Høiby was charged with violence and damage in August, the two were part of a gang that ate together at a restaurant in Oslo.

The Follo man has not answered Dagbladet's questions in this matter.

In the case where the Follo man was convicted of fraud, another man was also sentenced to prison. This man has been convicted both earlier and later in significant amphetamine and cocaine smuggling cases.

In court papers reviewed by Dagbladet, it appears that the Follo man and the drug trafficker had contact at least as late as 2022 when they were caught speeding in a car together.

Hells Angels

We return to the Økokrim action against the apartment of the 38-year-old in Oslo, the man who has been on holiday and attended a football match with Marius Borg Høiby.

The 38-year-old's lawyer, Aleksander Greaker from the law firm Greaker x Storrvik, has not answered questions from Dagbladet.

When the police raided the 38-year-old's apartment, they didn't just find cocaine and steroids in his apartment.

According to Dagbladet's information, the investigators found a vest and several stickers with the infamous MC club Hells Angels logo.

In the garage under the 38-year-old's apartment, there was a motorcycle. It was registered to a 34-year-old man. He previously had a registered address in the Hells Angels' premises in Strømsveien in Oslo. He has also been convicted of gross, indiscriminate violence.

Dagbladet has asked the man's lawyer, Randulf Schumann Hansen at Berg / Ditlev-Simonsen, for a comment but has not yet received one.

- Do you have links to the Hells Angels, asked the prosecutor in the money laundering case, prosecutor Håvard Kampen in Økokrim.

- I had a friend who was in HA. He is no longer in HA and left it entirely voluntarily, replied the 38-year-old.

In an Instagram post from July 2018, we find the 34-year-old and the 38-year-old pictured together.

What is not written on Instagram is that the 34-year-old had not long before served time in prison - for having bought at least 300 grams of cocaine from people connected to the Albanian mafia. He was also convicted of having received at least NOK 154,000 in proceeds from drug sales.

He received the money in the premises of the Hells Angels.

A friend of the 38-year-old received drug money in the Hells Angels' premises at Alnabru in Oslo. Photo: NTB

The Albanian

In the money-laundering case in which the 38-year-old recently stood trial and was convicted, he was sent out to collect 17 million on behalf of the British-Albanian main man - Luka Murati.

Dagbladet knows that Luka Murati has also been introduced to Marius Borg Høiby.

Luka Murati. Photo: Private

In an interview with Dagbladet, Murati acknowledged that he pulled the strings in the extensive money laundering case. In the Court of Appeal, it emerged that Murati has also struggled heavily with cocaine addiction.

Murati admitted to laundering around NOK 24 million. He spent 618 days in custody and, therefore, quickly completed his sentence of three years and nine months in prison.

It has not been possible for Dagbladet to reach Murati. The number he previously used no longer works.

Nor has Marius Borg Høiby's lawyer, Øyvind Bratlien, answered Dagbladet's inquiries in this case.

Translation and editing for clarity by me of an article by Torgeir P. Krokfjord, Øistein Norum Monsen and Kjell Erik Berg for Dagbladet, published Aug. 15, 2024, at 18:01 and updated the same day at 18:12.

[eva-does-her-best]

drop the rodent list op

I feel like some of these takes will have a gun pointed at my face.

I have barely interacted with mice, I think they feel cishet but probably are just closeted. One may think they are transfems because they participate in biology research, but I think they are actually closeted bigenders. Love them so that they can feel safe enough to come out :3

Field mice, however, due to their whimsy, are merry genderqueers who frolic in fields of happyness.

Rats can be any gender but there are two kinds of rats: brats and rats with emotional support needs. They tend to be vers and switch.

Capybaras are aros, obviously, because they are the chillest and coolest rodents ever.

Guinea Pigs are obviously aces, you can see it in their wise deep eyes. Also the only capybara owners I know are all ace, coincidence? I think not.

Striped Squirrels are fem presenting bottoms while Red Squirrels are fem presenting tops (of any gender)

Prairie Dogs are cishets, the kind that is conservative but deep down is just starved for praise. (Obviously this means some may be eggs, but not all)

Beavers are quite literally gay and bisexual men, cause they smile like my friend Miguel, who is gay.

Hamsters are lesbians and lesboys, predominantly but not exclusively butch.

Naked Mole Rats are kinky.

Porcupines are testo butches, and we love them for that.

Chinchillas are non binary (broad) or non-binary (specific). They also give me girlgay energy but not as much.

Gerboa i'm torn on cause they could be transfem twinks or drag queens, two very different groups I love seeing them together.

Also my original take on rabbits and hares was more accurate than I remembered:

"Hares are definetly masc presenting but fem leaning genderwise while rabbits look a bit more fem but you can feel how masc their gender is by their aura"

[vintagebiker43]

Gramellini stamani, ha raccontato sul fondo della prima pagina del Corriere della Sera, del libro che ha appena finito di leggere.

Un libro che ieri, ahimè, ho letto anch'io sul treno, un treno puzzolente, sporco, pieno, sudato, in ritardo.

Un libro che è ambientato in una società distopica, dove due trentenni su tre sono ancora a casa dai genitori e dove uno su dieci è ancora sotto la soglia minima di povertà. Un libro che ha scritto l'ISTAT (ah, marrani! proprio ora, proprio adesso che ci sono le elezioni!), un testo terribile e paradossalmente gratuito.

Quindi un libro per cui non sono previste promozioni nelle librerie, in TV, alle radio, neanche nessun post con supporter adoranti, nessun selfie né, tantomeno, firmacopie.

Un libro che mi riporta ad un altro libro, "Fahrenheit 451 di Ray Bradbury, scritto nel '53 in cui si descrive una società distopica in cui leggere o possedere libri è reato.

Nel libro dell'ISTAT il reato è l'utilizzo della logica.

Perché basterebbe leggere la prima pagina di testo, al punto 1.1., a circa metà pagina dove dice: "Le quotazioni delle materie prime energetiche hanno continuato a mantenersi moderate. Nella media del 2023, il prezzo del Brent è stato di 82,6 dollari al barile, oltre il 17 per cento al di sotto dell'anno precedente (99,8 dollari)..."

Basterebbe questo.

E mi viene in mente quello che ha scritto su un altro fondo di prima, sulla Stampa, Mattia Feltri. Basterebbe questo per tornare indietro, a cinque anni fa, e ricordare il video dell'attuale presidente del Consiglio che dal benzinaio, poco prima delle scorse europee, con un biglietto da 50 euro raccontava che 35 euro del suo pieno andavano (e ancora vanno) ad uno stato tiranno. Lei le avrebbe tolte quelle accise lì, se fosse stata scelta.

È stata scelta!

Quelle accise sono ancora li.

Anzi, adesso metteranno tasse anche sulle auto elettriche visto che non riescono ad avere gli stessi numeri di consumo sui carburanti. Continueremo a pagare la filiera del potere, della corruzione, dell’inefficienza.

Un po' come quelli che aspettavano il treno in banchina oggi, un treno cancellato, così, senza nessun motivo da raccontare, da dire, da giustificare agli utenti.

lo sono partito con venti minuti di ritardo, un caos bestiale e quella gente era ancora lì.

Gente che lavora, magari gli stessi raccontati dall’ISTAT, quelli che nonostante l'impiego lo possiedano, non riescono comunque a garantire la sopravvivenza ai loro figli. 9,8 su cento secondo quel libro (basterebbe guardare la figura 2.5 del libro, dove si parla di retribuzioni lorde annue, una figura eh, non c'è da leggere).

E quel binario vuoto, con le bestemmie, gli zaini, i messaggi ai familiari, le richieste di informazioni chieste ai capitreno che non sanno nulla, mi hanno fatto pensare al libro di Bradbury e alle colpe che si hanno se oggi ancora leggi.

Perché se leggi, poi delle domande te le fai.

Al contrario degli slogan che ti fanno sentire tronfio, contento per una sciocchezza, il libro necessita di capacità ulteriori.

I libri, contrariamente agli slogan, ad esempio, moltiplicano l'esperienza. Gli slogan la confondono.

Ecco, quel binario sembrava la metafora della vita attuale. Dell’Italia oggi.

Perché nonostante tu paghi soldi "buoni" per i biglietti, per gli abbonamenti, per i servizi, poi in questo racconto distopico, capita che quei biglietti, abbonamenti, servizi, all'improvviso spariscano.

Senza nessun motivo che tu possa comprendere o per cui tu possa chiedere compensazioni, o semplicemente spiegazioni.

Come quando un treno fa una linea diversa e tu rimani lì, con il tuo appuntamento del cazzo che fallisce perché qualcuno dice (se ti va bene altrimenti lo subisci e basta) che oggi, guarda un po', ci mettiamo 30 minuti di più perché passiamo sulla linea Bangalore-Varanasi.

Un mondo in cui le bugie sono le uniche certezze.

Come se tu andassi al bar a chiedere un tramezzino, lo paghi e il barista ti dica: "il tuo tramezzino arriva fra venti minuti".

O, ancora peggio, "non c'è più".

Al bar te ne puoi andare. In stazione ti attacchi al cazzo (cit. un pendolare storico accanto a me).

Ah, dimenticavo, quel libro dell’ISTAT, ripeto gratuito, parla di noi. Noi che abbiamo ministri, sottosegretari, presidenti di Regione rinviati a giudizio o indagati.

In Germania un ministro si dimise per aver copiato una tesi.

Da noi ...vabbè lasciamo stare

[lostaff]

Ch-ch-changes

🌟 Novità

Stiamo cercando di dissuadere il crawler CommonCrawl dall'estrarre contenuti da Tumblr, esattamente come facciamo con il GPTBot di OpenAI quando cerca di eseguire la scansione dei contenuti Tumblr.

Nella dashboard web, abbiamo aggiunto rel="author" al collegamento blogname nelle intestazioni dei post per migliorare l'accessibilità tramite screen reader e altri strumenti.

Nelle pagine /search sul web, abbiamo spostato la barra di ricerca dalla barra laterale alla sezione centrale/principale della pagina.

Per le persone coinvolte nel suddetto esperimento di riprogettazione dell'intestazione del reblog, abbiamo aggiunto gli avatar ai post dei blog di gruppo quando l'opzione per mostrare i ritratti degli autori è abilitata.

Quando blocchi un blog tramite invio nella tua casella di posta sul web, ora puoi bloccare sia il blog secondario (se era il destinatario) che quello principale.

Sul web abbiamo apportato alcuni miglioramenti alla formattazione dei numeri localizzati in tutte le lingue supportate.

Sul web, agli utenti non loggati che navigano all'interno di un blog, potrebbe essere richiesto di accedere dopo aver effettuato lo scorrimento per un po' di tempo.

Stiamo testando la visualizzazione del carosello "Non c'è niente di nuovo!" Per le persone con "Prima il meglio" abilitato.

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[religion-is-a-mental-illness]

By Jennifer Block

Published: Nov 7, 2023

In August, a Missouri law went into effect that limits gender treatment for minors to counseling. Such laws, which have passed in 22 states to date, can be particularly cruel. Minors already on puberty-suppressing drugs or cross-sex hormones are being effectively cut off. Trans adults on Medicaid who’ve been taking hormones for years may find their prescriptions are suddenly unaffordable. And often these laws are tied to overt acts of culture war — like a ban on drag shows in Tennessee.

This wave of legislation is unfortunate for another reason. A lot of fair-minded, thoughtful people may question whether hormones and surgery are appropriate for the growing number of young people who are distressed about their biological sex. But given all the campaigns in red states, many progressives are instead biting their tongues and trusting that doctors know what they’re doing.

The problem is that as more kids identify as transgender than ever before, it’s still worth asking whether “gender affirming care” is the right model for them. Despite the certainty advocates project that this is an open-and-shut case, it wasn’t long ago that this “affirming” approach for children was simply an idea — a hypothesis informed by experience, but an idea nonetheless. Yet in less than a decade, it became standard of care and is now practically gospel in the United States, even as other countries are redirecting services toward psychotherapy and social support.

A natural response on the left to bills restricting or even outlawing gender-related medical treatment is “keep your laws off my body.” As a vocal supporter of abortion access, I’m sympathetic. But it’s a mistake to conflate these two causes. Abortion is a thoroughly vetted, one-time procedure, and denying access to it reduces a woman to an incubator. That’s quite different from a relatively new hormonal protocol in children that can lead to major, irreversible, long-term impacts.

The practice of medicine doesn’t have perfect checks and balances, but it does have a history of proving itself wrong (for the latest episode, see: cold medicine). So when a new approach for children and adolescents involves powerful medications and surgeries, people aren’t necessarily misguided (or “anti-trans”) to voice concerns. Yet journalists, parents, researchers, and clinicians who have raised questions about the evidence have been ensnared in a conversation about identity and rights. Now it seems all we can hear are the loudest and most reactionary voices, echoing in statehouse rotundas.

Loaded terms

For as long as gender roles have existed, there have been people whose inner compass, even at an early age, felt unaligned with their bodies. What’s new today is the ability to medically address that mismatch in adolescence, before puberty has fully had its say.

And since about 2016, the number of young people receiving what are called “puberty blockers” — drugs that suppress the signal to the pituitary to release the hormones that transform tweens into sexually mature adults — has grown. An analysis by health technology company Komodo found that the number of kids between the ages of 6 and 17 in the United States who began suppressing puberty to treat gender-related distress rose every year between 2017 and 2021 and leveled off in 2022. Komodo counted more than 6,000 children in that category in that time span, although that number is likely an undercount because it only represents treatments covered by insurance. Massachusetts is among the top five states, generating 6 percent of claims.

At least 14,700 minors with a gender dysphoria diagnosis began taking prescription estrogen or testosterone from 2017 through 2021, according to Komodo’s analysis — especially testosterone, as female-born teens now outnumber males 3 to 1 in many clinics. And a recent study found that gender-related surgeries, such as breast removal, nearly tripled between 2016 and 2019, including among 12- to 18-year-olds.

Meanwhile, European countries, including those that pioneered early intervention for children with gender dysphoria, have generally limited gender-related surgery to adults.

“Puberty blockers,” “hormone therapy,” and “top surgery” fall under the umbrella of “gender-affirming care.” These are loaded terms, fraught with as much activism and obfuscation as “pro-choice” and “pro-life,” yet they were validated by medical sources like the 2018 American Academy of Pediatrics (AAP) statement in support of the “gender affirmative care model.”

This document informs clinicians that “many medical interventions can be offered to youth who identify as transgender and gender diverse,” including drugs that suppress pubertal development, cross-sex hormones, and, “on a case-by-case basis,” surgeries. These kids, even before puberty, “know their gender as clearly and as consistently as their developmentally equivalent [cisgender] peers,” the statement says. An approach of “watchful waiting” to see how a young patient’s identity develops is “outdated” and “does not serve the child because critical support is withheld.”

The statement presented the affirmative approach as settled consensus based on evidence. However this past August the AAP — under pressure by several members — announced that it would commission an independent systematic review of the evidence. That’s typically the first step in developing what the National Academy of Medicine calls “trustworthy guidelines,” so that patients and providers can make decisions informed by a thorough, unbiased evaluation of the available research. But the AAP hadn’t done that before releasing its 2018 statement. The AAP did not respond to requests for comment other than to reaffirm its 2018 statement.

Existing systematic reviews have prompted Sweden, Finland, and England to restrict treatments for minors, because the evidence that they are likely to result in more benefit than harm is of low quality. But unlike US states that have taken legislative action, these countries are allowing hormonal treatment in select cases, and they are ensuring that researchers follow the recipients over time so the evidence base gets stronger.

The case for watchful waiting

Not only do red-state gender laws tend to lack the humanity and room for inquiry seen in Europe, I think they also distract progressives from fully absorbing what the people they’re marching with are actually chanting. The argument for early treatment is not just a medical one — it is a metaphysical one. It holds that gender identity is something that exists deep inside a person’s psyche and that this diagnosis, essentially, will be revealed to the clinician, even by young children. That is a radical interpretation of patient-centered care.

When I spoke with the AAP statement’s lead author, Jason Rafferty, a child and adolescent psychiatrist in Providence, he reiterated that this model of care is fundamentally about “affirming and validating the child’s sense of identity from day one through to the end.” Its main principle is that when a patient says, “‘I’m X,’ we operate under the assumption that what they’re telling us is their truth, that the child’s sense of reality and feeling of who they are is the navigational beacon to sort of orient treatment around.”

Joshua Safer, director of the Mt. Sinai Center for Transgender Medicine and Surgery and a coauthor of the Endocrine Society’s practice guideline — another influential document — told me, “I know that kids who are talking that way when they are 9 years old are overwhelmingly consistent in their thought processes,” and thus, giving such patients puberty blockers “would save them from surgery” down the road.

But when I spoke to the Dutch clinician and researcher Thomas Steensma — who joined the team that pioneered the early treatment model that migrated to the United States — he distanced himself and his colleagues’ practice from the current American iteration. In brief, he said, “That’s not our approach.”

In the Dutch clinics, he said, young patients undergo a “long, focused” process of assessment, and even social transition is not a given. “It’s not necessarily true that a child who feels gender dysphoria or incongruence will grow up with [those feelings],” he explained. “Our approach is to make developmentally informed decisions with the child, with the family,” and through counseling to explore what might help. “Identity is not the strongest force in providing medical treatment” because it becomes more fixed during puberty. “It’s common sense,” he said, that the brain matures with the body, and that one gains greater capacity to “reflect on your body and about your identity.”

In 2016 — while the AAP statement was being drafted and reviewed — Steensma coauthored a review of 10 studies of gender-incongruent and dysphoric youth. Among 317 kids, 85 percent resolved their identity distress “around or after” puberty. The review also found that most dysphoric kids turned out to be same-sex attracted, lending credence to the concern that enthusiastically affirming kids may mean “transing away the gay.” The article made clear that “there is currently no general consensus about the best approach to dealing with the (uncertain) future development of children with gender dysphoria,” even social transition. In its 2015 guidelines, the American Psychological Association also said there was no consensus.

Steensma’s article explains that, in the model of “watchful waiting” — what the AAP derided in its 2018 statement — children are neither discouraged from nonconforming behaviors nor counseled to accept their natal sex (denounced by critics as “reparative” or “conversion” therapy, historically the term used to describe the widely condemned practice of trying to “convert” same-sex attracted adults). Rather, families are encouraged to allow their child to explore their feelings and given counseling “to bear the uncertainty of the child’s psychosexual outcome.” There’s an effort to “find a balance between an accepting and supportive attitude toward gender dysphoria while at the same time protecting the child against any negative reactions and remaining realistic about the chance that [dysphoric] feelings may desist in the future,” wrote the authors.

This is different from what has become the dominant approach in the United States, in which children’s sense of identity is supposed to be accepted as true and real by care providers and medically treated accordingly. Not affirming, by this interpretation, is tantamount to conversion therapy. But in the approach Steensma describes, children are in an unpredictable process of self discovery, and thus care providers must follow closely and exercise caution in treating. “We do think puberty suppression can be a good intervention for adolescents struggling with gender incongruence,” Steensma told me. But “you have to be very careful.” “We say, don’t make certain decisions where you close developmental pathways. Watch and see what happens with the identity.”

These competing approaches — one proactive, one restrained — could have been treated with equivalence by the AAP and other entities as they continued to evaluate the evidence. Instead, tens of thousands of pediatric providers, including the therapists charged with assessing prospective patients, were essentially told to trust their young patients in determining whether to recommend potentially life-altering treatment.

A risk-benefit calculation

In the mid-2000s, Boston Children’s Hospital became a satellite for the Dutch early treatment approach. Pediatric endocrinologist Norman Spack, now retired, told me what motivated him to pitch this to his higher-ups was years of witnessing young adult trans patients struggling. Even with hormones and surgery they couldn’t easily pass as their felt gender, they had little support from family or society to express themselves, and many were fighting addiction, homelessness, and suicidality. Spack wanted to pilot a strategy of early detection, because it was at puberty when “they started to fall apart,” he told me recently. The idea was to catch these patients before “their bodies escaped from that neutral space of pre-puberty.”

Seeing the suffering of a population is often the impetus for a preventive treatment. Obstetricians began using electronic fetal monitors in the 1970s in the hopes of preventing cerebral palsy and stillbirths. Physicians began screening men for prostate antigen in the hopes of catching and curing deadly cancers. These were solid rationales, but what happened was an epidemic of overdiagnosis and overtreatment. Strapping laboring patients to beeping machines initially succeeded in tripling the rate of Cesarean surgeries without any concomitant improvement in infant outcomes (and added harm to their mothers). PSA testing increased the rate of prostate surgeries without an overall survival benefit — and a not insignificant amount of resulting urinary and sexual dysfunction.

Spack told me that the evidence for early intervention was “the many, many years of nontreatment for transgender youth waiting until they were adults to do anything medically for them” and seeing where that led.

But what if he was only seeing a sliver of the population — the minority who continued to feel distress and seek treatment, rather than the bigger picture that included those who may have felt a mismatch in childhood and then realigned during puberty? Imagine only studying cases of emergency Cesareans and drawing policy conclusions based on those births rather than everyone who gave birth in a particular year. I ran that comparison by Gordon Guyatt, a research methodologist at McMaster University and one of the founders of evidence-based medicine. Earlier intervention is a “reasonable hypothesis,” he said, but if the population you’re observing is “a subpopulation that is unrepresentative and you make inferences about the entire population, you’re in trouble.”

Spack said the suicidality among his trans patients, even kids under 12, “was so strong that I felt we had to do something.” And he saw many kids “flourish” with treatment. Research does suggest that LGBTQ youth are at higher risk for depression and suicide, but the World Professional Association for Transgender Health’s own systematic evidence review makes clear that it can claim no definitive relationship between hormonal treatment and mental health outcomes, especially in adolescents, and that it’s “impossible” to say what impact hormonal treatment has on suicide. Long-awaited research funded by the National Institutes of Health — Spack was one of the original lead investigators — recently published in the New England Journal of Medicine reported some improvements among 315 youth receiving treatment in university-based gender clinics, but there were also two suicides. “Sometimes you have to bite the bullet, and go with more than a hunch” based on “smaller numbers and not being able to answer all the questions at once,” said Spack.

By 2011, the Dutch had published on the outcomes of a cohort of 70, which seemed reassuring, though the findings had limitations and haven’t been replicated elsewhere. Steensma told me he and his colleagues have never thought of their work as “scientific proof” that their model would work everywhere. “We always have said, ‘This is what we can provide from evidence, but you have to do your own studies.’”

In a new analysis of the mental health outcomes of the first 44 recipients of gender-related puberty suppression at the UK’s Tavistock clinic, roughly a third got better, a third got worse, and a third did neither. The National Health Service has ordered the Tavistock clinic to close after a review found the care “inadequate.”

Like the Dutch, the Boston clinic didn’t take kids at their word without psychological assessment. In fact, the staff used tools the Dutch had designed. Laura Edwards-Leeper, the clinic’s original psychologist, told me that extensive, exploratory talk therapy was historically part of the model. But lately she’s been outspoken about her concerns that “more providers do not value the mental health component, largely because they believe if the young person says they’re trans, they’re trans,” she told me.

The dramatic rise in young people presenting for treatment, especially genetically female teens, and the number of clinics that have sprung up with little to no emphasis on assessment, all make Spack “anxious.” “I run into so many people who tell me they have a child or grandchild or niece who’s trans. And I always say, ‘Well, who made that determination and when?’”

The logic of affirmation

I’ve spent the last year reporting on pediatric gender medicine and policy for The BMJ, one of the oldest medical journals. Like other journalists in this space, I’ve been accused of transphobia, hate, bias, and worse. Some of the rhetoric is extremely hostile, but the underlying logic is apparent: If people need medical treatment to exist in their identity, and kids know who they are, then anything that might impede access is an existential threat. Politicians who simultaneously target pride parades and library books and “groomers” only reinforce that terror and turn up the political heat. That’s even more reason for journalists to keep cooler heads and stay true to our duty: to hold authorities to account.

The most important question is one that the Europeans and Americans seem to be answering differently: What if it’s possible that there are kids who identify as trans who indeed know who they are at very early ages — younger versions of the adult patients who haunted Spack — and there are also kids who identify as trans for a finite period of time? And what if there’s no sure way to tell them apart?

Before he stopped returning my calls and emails, Rafferty acknowledged that children are in a “process of discovery” and may understand themselves one way at the onset of puberty and another way five years later, but that uncertainty shouldn’t preclude medical treatment. “It needs to be an ongoing, flexible, dynamic approach that we understand from the beginning may change over time, and so we need to bring in interventions when they seem their most appropriate from our medical perspective,” he told me. “If we’re wrong, then we need to back up and say, ‘What do we need to do differently?’”

And what if a kid has taken hormones that caused permanent hair growth or vocal changes or damaged their sexual function and came to regret these effects? In a recent Zoom meeting — footage of which has been shared on social media — Marci Bowers, a California gender surgeon and president of the World Professional Association for Transgender Health, shared a startling observation: Adult patients who transitioned from male to female couldn’t have orgasms if they had been “blocked” at the earliest signs of puberty and went directly on to estrogen. Bowers told me she was sharing a hypothesis, but that it was “a wake-up call for those who counsel this group of patients.” Safer told me “there’s some discussion about adjusting the timing of some of these treatments” to achieve more optimal function. “If you come to our meetings, that’s what we’re discussing. Nobody is worried about puberty blockers for a year or two.”

Yet data suggest that more than 95 percent of the children who begin puberty blockers continue on to cross-sex hormones. “The most difficult question,” the UK pediatrician Hilary Cass wrote in her interim report of a national review of gender health services, which led to the order to close the Tavistock clinic, “is whether puberty blockers do indeed provide valuable time for children and young people to consider their options, or whether they effectively ‘lock in’ children and young people to a treatment pathway . . . by impeding the usual process of sexual orientation and gender identity development.” In 2020, following a systematic review, the UK’s National Health Service removed language that called the blockers “fully reversible” and replaced it with “little is known about the long-term side effects.”

There is an unknown number of people whose identity shifted and feel they’ve been irreparably harmed by medically transitioning. Corinna Cohn, who was born male, began hormones at 16 and had genital surgery at 19. Now, at age 48, Cohn testifies in support of laws restricting treatments in minors. “The thing that I’m most convinced of right now is that the longer somebody puts off medicalization, the more opportunities they’ll have to really clarify in their mind whether transition is actually good for them,” said Cohn, for whom “transition was a way out of having to deal with puberty. But I’m sort of stuck in a state of arrested development, because I never completed the adjustment to my body as it was becoming an adult body.”

Bowers pointed out that “you can always find someone who is going to regret” and warned me not to “single out transgender care” when one in five people regret their knee surgery, for example. “People have to take some responsibility in making those decisions,” she said.

But how can young people and their families make informed decisions without strong evidence it will make them better? How can children who’ve never experienced sexual intimacy consent to treatment that may limit their ability to have it in the future?

Edwards-Leeper believes some children do benefit from early treatment. “But to the general question of how can a young kid consent to something like this, it is a huge ethical dilemma . . . because honestly, they can’t,” she told me. “The responsibility falls on the parent.”

Rafferty told me patients who live with harms or regrets do not signal a failure of the affirmative care model. If a child or patient doesn’t like the effects of an intervention, or begins to feel different in their identity, then the provider continues to affirm by discontinuing treatment. “They’re not treatment failures if that’s what’s affirming,” he said.

In other words, the logic of affirmation seems to ensure only successful outcomes, circumventing questions of risk and benefit entirely. If parents and providers find this untenable, they are rejecting an argument — not trans people.

[ Via: https://archive.md/guho4 ]

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There are no grown-ups in charge. Children are self-diagnosing and self-treating.

[ridiasfangirlings]

hello!! thank u so much for ur misaru stuff, they keep me going!!! anyways i wanted to say what do u think about trans fushimi and oblivious yata? i think fushimi would think (at first) that despite his lack of knowledge yata is actually very supportive of who he is?? wow. and then he finds out that yata literally doesnt know about it even tho fushimi doesn't really try to hide it (he doesnt care+niki would still call him by his dead name and ridicule him so what put in the effort). they go to get testosterone for fushimi and yata will be like "ah yes. doing normal manly stuff for two cisgender dudes" while fushimi just stares dead into the distance. maybe while they were both in the red clan things started going south for fushimi (losing misaki+maybe others finding out about him being trans and while theyre overly supportive fushimi doesnt appreciate it) and so in the blue clan hes relieved that no one pays it any attention, not even munakata brings it up (aside from maybe one time). so he just boils with resentment and is sure that people have already outed him to misaki, meanwhile yata doesnt know ANYTHING hes just like aw man my friend left us and betrayed me for no reason. maybe after reconciling and going out on few dates and some kisses saruhiko contemplates telling him but he's kind of afraid that he'll break this fragile bond and so yata only realizes when they go to bed and he is bewildered to the point that saruhiko maybe leaves the house bc he counts it as rejection? while yata asks his friends if ur penis can fall off. sorry for the long ask!!! hope ur having a great day<3

Yata sweetie please learn to read the room XD Yata’s so bad at figuring out things that aren’t said and Fushimi is horrible at communication so I could kinda see this happening (I can also absolutely see Fushimi making all these scenarios in his head where he has to keep this secret or no one will accept him and meanwhile absolutely everyone else knows and accepts him). Like imagine in middle school Fushimi wears the boy’s school uniform and uses the boy’s bathroom, since he’s generally in there while skipping class no one really notices or confronts him over it. Plenty of people are aware that he’s ‘that girl who wears the boy’s uniform’ though, like imagine the bullies who steal his wallet also misgender him too. Yata overhears and assumes they’re calling Fushimi a girl as like a taunt about him being skinny and pretty, not that they think Fushimi actually is a girl. Fushimi never says anything to Yata about being trans but he figures Yata has to know, like that first time Yata meets Niki when he’s taking care of sick Fushimi Niki calls Fushimi a girl multiple times (I’m thinking Fushimi’s name would be the same though because if he’s picking his own new name he wouldn’t pick Saruhiko). Yata doesn’t bring it up and at the time Fushimi is grateful, thinking that Yata is accepting that Fushimi’s a boy just because Fushimi said so and no one else has acted that way towards him, and meanwhile Yata’s just like ‘even though that guy’s skinny and has super soft skin and is kinda pretty is no reason to call Saruhiko a girl.’

So then when they join Homra I imagine Fushimi being kinda self conscious about it, like another thing that makes him not fit in and he’s never sure if Misaki has told everyone or not, except of course Yata hasn’t told anyone because he doesn’t know. I feel like Mikoto would probably know somehow once Fushimi becomes a clansman and I think Totsuka would figure it out quick too, just giving Fushimi a look and smiling all ‘ah, I see,’ which just irritates Fushimi more. Totsuka maybe drops some small hints that Fushimi might want to talk to Yata and it’s not until some time after that he realizes that one, no Yata really doesn’t know, and two, Fushimi absolutely thinks Yata does (somehow I imagine the Homra trio discussing this and Kusanagi just facepalming like these kids I swear). Meanwhile Yata finds out about Fushimi taking testosterone and is super confused before deciding that well maybe Saruhiko is trying to build muscle. He mentions this to Totsuka, who suggests Yata talk to Fushimi about it seriously, like maybe there’s something Fushimi thinks you know that you don’t. Yata considers and then he realizes, so Fushimi’s taking testosterone and his dad used to call him a girl and come to think even though Yata doesn’t mind changing in the middle of the room Fushimi never has, there’s clearly only one answer: Fushimi is self conscious about having a small dick (somewhere Kusanagi facepalms again). Yata decides to talk to Fushimi about this to let him know that it’s totally cool and that’s how Fushimi finds out that no, Yata’s not super accepting Yata’s just an idiot.

At this point things are strained enough between them that Fushimi doesn’t feel comfortable telling Yata the truth, assuming he’ll be rejected anyway. When he joins S4 I imagine at some point most of the squad at least know but no one says anything and they don’t see it as a big deal, the only one who ever really mentioned it was Munakata in the context of making sure Fushimi can get all the correct meds and such. In some respects Fushimi feels more relaxed here, where everyone knows and no one cares, and at the same time he’s probably stewing that someone in Homra’s certainly already outed him to Misaki. Yata never says anything though and I could see this eating at Fushimi, like he wants to just yell it in Yata’s face so Yata will reject him and get it over with, but at the same time he’s so afraid that Yata won’t want anything to do with him that he can’t say anything.

Eventually post-ROK they reconcile and kinda start dating and Fushimi keeps pushing the thought away, telling himself that Yata must know by now so there’s no reason to tell him, still afraid that Yata might not know and that Yata will hate him if Yata ever found out. One day they’re kissing and it starts progressing, Fushimi’s so lost in the sensation that he doesn’t even think about what he’s been hiding until his shirt and pants are off and Yata suddenly falls off the bed. I feel like Yata would immediately jump to ‘wait you’re really a girl,’ the idea of Fushimi being trans never crossing his mind and he’s really more bewildered than anything, but Fushimi’s already on edge so he just mumbles ‘I’m not a girl’ as he starts grabbing his clothes to make a quick exit. Yata grabs his arm like wait you can’t just go we gotta talk about this, Fushimi mutters there isn’t anything to talk about and leaves before Yata can stop him. After this I imagine Yata returning to the bar like did any of you guys know Saruhiko might be a girl and Kusanagi is just like oh finally as he sits Yata down for a lesson on trans people (and then once he gets what’s going on Yata heads back out to find Saruhiko, because he doesn’t care about Fushimi’s gender he just wants to be with Fushimi). 

[slu-tea-ftm]

not about kinks or stuff. don't answer if don't want to) bro, what was it like taking t or getting top surgery early? In my country we can only take hormones and get surgery at 18 years old. I spent my entire adolescence anxious for it. like. give me that testo, government.

I'm always happy to get asks, kinky or not!! This is gonna be long, so strap in lol

And I never mind talking about my journey, because I know it's not really the "norm," even in trans culture.

Honestly, it never really hit me exactly how early I was allowed to get hormones and surgery until a year or so ago when I was thinking back on it. It didn't feel early to me. It felt like everything was timed just right, but looking back, yeah, it was pretty early.

For a while, I just wanted the social change. Cut my hair, change my name, and change my clothes. Boom. Done. I was fine with that for a year or two (I was 11-12 when I came out). I actually cried when I got my hair cut, and my stylist was concerned that she'd upset me. Nope! I was just so happy that she cut my hair! She still cuts my hair to this day and says that I'm a completely different person (/pos).

But then I started feeling like it wasn't enough. I wanted to fit in more with The Guys (side note: I never really did, even after all the hormones and surgery bc these guys knew me since elementary and most were bigoted assholes). So we went to my doctor to try getting hormones. That took, I think, a year and a half or so? Still a pretty short time frame. At one point, I was wearing a binder and a back brace because I have scoliosis, R.I.P. my ability to b r e a t h e.

But we got it! And I was fine with that by itself, too! Until around my sophomore(?) year in high school. I always changed in the nurse's office because it was embarrassing changing with anyone else—boys or girls. So I brought up trying to get top surgery to my mom (shout out to her for being so supportive during my whole transition, gods I love my mom). By junior year, I got my tits yeeted, and I was changing with the boys in P.E. Other than locker rooms, P.E. was co-ed, so there was no "boys on this side, girls on that side" that I can remember.

Obviously, I never fit in with The Guys, and I didn't want to fit in with The Girls (even though many of my friends were girls). But I felt comfortable in my body, at least. It felt more like myself.

I don't regret any of it, even if it all did happen quite young. I got plenty of warnings from doctors and my therapists, and my mom and I had to jump through a ton of hoops to get where we did. I'm really grateful that I got everything when I did, because it probably saved me a lot of depression and anxiety I would've had now.

Even though I got approved for T "early," by medical and societal standards, I basically had to go through puberty twice lol. Because I had already gotten periods and experienced breast growth (not much, thankfully), acne, etc. And then I got testosterone and my voice was cracking a lot while it changed, my fat redistributed through my body, I think I gained more muscle?? hard to tell bc I was never really strong to begin with, my hairline receded quite a bit 🥲, and all those usual things associated with cis guy puberty....including being constantly horny. Gods, that was awful. Wet boxers every day, all the time, it was so awkward.

As for top surgery, that was the only part I was actually scared about. Not because I was anxious about regretting the surgery or the cost of it or anything like that. Just because I have trauma when it comes to people doing things to me while I'm unconscious (or so they thought). That was the only scary part. That, and the IV going in me bc I had this weird fear that if I moved my hand, then the needle would break out of my vein, into my body, and kill me or smth :)

Other than that, the surgery part was easy! Recovery took a while and sucked, especially the rules:

Don't lift more than (I think it was) 5 lbs

Don't raise your arms over your head

No showering for the next few days after surgery

Massage the skin once to twice a day (my hand hurt a lot after this part)

Don't pick at the scabs

I think that's all there was...

Now, I easily pass as a cis guy to most strangers. One of my favorite things to do is see how people react when they find out I'm trans lol. Because they never expect it! And then I show them a picture of me before transitioning, and they're like, "😲 That's you?!"

"Yep :)"

I know most people are afraid of being outed as trans, but for me I'm just like, "Look at how far I've come!!" It's not really a touchy subject for me. As long as someone is genuinely curious and not asking super invasive questions <3

[witikli]

best friend moment ?!? support him if u can or i’ll steal ur fingernails .

[vttanon]

last year on trans day of visibility i rambled on here about what it was like to live translucently, in the liminality of being out to oneself but not exactly out to the world. a lot has changed since then, and a lot hasn't.

last year i wrote "i have come so far from where i used to be, but it gets exhausting. because when you stop hating yourself and start hating the world, there’s a whole lot less you can do about it." i was hurting, then, as i had just started to tell my closest friends about my shifting identity, and they didn't yet fully see me. i understand now that these things take time, but that my pain also was justified. things have gotten a lot better since then-- my best friend wished me a happy TDOV and i have found a support system in a couple friends and teachers who i can relate to in my liminality and queerness.

by recommendation of my english teacher, i read paul b preciado's book, "testo junkie," and reading that text truly was a pivotal moment for me. i felt, as i continue to feel, seen by preciado and by the gender anarchy he embodies. since reading that book i have begun to turn more and more to literature in order to feel seen. through preciado and beauvoir and butler i am learning the words that i have needed to tell my story. i'm making up words, too. i've written a lot of autotheory this year that has allowed me to create for myself a space in the world. i have found language, which has always felt oppressing, to be empowering as i learn to wield it more deftly.

in coming into my identity as a stone butch, in addition to allowing myself to live in the word "trans," i have begun to slowly transform into a version of myself that feels honest to put forth into the world. i got my hair cut professionally for the first time in years, i got a beautiful tattoo done for my birthday, i pierced my septum and have started writing and reading relentlessly. i am writing the theory i wish had been around for me to read this day last year. i am doing the research that i have always sought out to no avail.

do i feel visible? have i succeeded in becoming opaque? i don't think so, not yet. i still am writing this here, anonymously, instead of posting it to instagram where it is attached to my face and my person. i still feel like an impostor, unworthy of claiming a trans identity despite knowing that is what's right. i'm getting there, but it hasn't happened yet, and i'm not sure if it ever will. in many respects, i am in the same place i was last year.

i have stopped hating the world, even though the world has hurt me. this is what has changed. i have fallen in love with the world and its people through the books i've read and the people who have welcomed me into their communities with open arms. i have fallen in love with the world through june henry, ezra furman, laura jane grace, ezra michel, genesis p-orridge, antonio de erauso, judith butler, paul b preciado, yannik thiem, chris letissier, through my english teacher, my tattoo artist, my dyke friends on twitter who trans both ways, my trans friends who have loved me and seen me without my even having to ask, through every trans writer and artist and musician and lover and friend in the entire world. i have seen too much beauty and compassion in this world to hate it, and so, although i am still translucent, i am less bitter. i have found a community that accepts my translucence and that has protected me this year, in the ways that i needed, even if those ways differed from theirs. i have found safety and power in the world that i claimed to hate this day last year. i have found love here.

in my translucence i want to tell you, my trans siblings who i love with all i am, that i will never stop fighting for our joy. all of the research i do is for us-- all of my writing and theorizing and organizing and vandalizing and creating is for us. someday, i will be visible and when that day comes i will hug you all so tightly, but until then, i will become corporeal through my words, and for me, that is enough.

i love you always and forever,

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Gisella Cozzo - Il singolo “I’m Living”

Il nuovo singolo dell’artista su tutti gli stores digitali e nelle radio

Milano, venerdì 12 maggio 2023 esce su tutte le piattaforme digitali e in radio I’m Living il nuovo attesissimo singolo di Gisella Cozzo cantautrice e producer italo-australiana, autrice del testo e della musica scritta insieme a Fausto Cogliati etichetta e edizioni Mamigi Publishing, distribuzione The Orchard, Sony Music. I’m Living è un brano radiofonico dalla melodia ballabile che non rinuncia, tuttavia, a veicolare un messaggio importante indirizzato a tutti: ognuno ha dentro di sé qualcosa da far valere, qualcosa che ci rende unici e speciali e che non dobbiamo dimenticare mai.

Il video clip, realizzato in una delle location più affascinanti della città di Lecco, Villa Sormani Marzorati Uva, con la sua architettura barocca e il suo giardino all'italiana, mette in evidenza un forte contrasto tra il moderno e l'antico, tema centrale del video. La regia di Simone Forti D-Video Production con il suo team, ha saputo mettere in risalto ogni particolare della splendida Villa dove vede Gisella elegantissima negli outfit di Alexander McQueen e Piccione, con la sua voce potente e coinvolgente, ci trascina in un’atmosfera suggestiva e magica dove musica, arte e moda si fondono regalando emozioni.

Gisella Cozzo con la sua grinta da show girl, in I’m Living sottolinea come sia fondamentale saper stare in equilibrio anche da soli per guardarci dentro e credere nelle nostre potenzialità e dichiara:

“Bisogna imparare a stare da soli, se si vuole stare anche con gli altri nel modo giusto. I momenti di riflessione sono la nostra risorsa per capire le nostre debolezze, saperle accettare e lavorarci per migliorarle, altrimenti nel mondo, saremo sempre fragili e perdenti. Ho imparato nel corso della mia lunga carriera - aggiunge Gisella - come sia fondamentale lavorare su sé stessi per raggiungere gli obiettivi prefissati, perché dopo i giorni bui, c’è sempre luce. Io non ho ancora smesso di guardarmi dentro, per crescere e migliorarmi ancora e mi piace essere così, come nel video, molto elegante, come se fosse l’ultimo giorno, ma anche mostrarmi al naturale. Credo di essere una donna forte, che non ha paura di niente, ma che, nonostante tutto, ha le sue fragilità, che conosce e accetta. Questo è l’augurio che voglio fare a tutti, uomini e donne perché ognuno di noi merita di “brillare” della propria luce e gridare al mondo…I’m Living, sto vivendo!”.

Gisella, che ha pubblicato i primi dischi in inglese per il mondo pop/dance con alcuni brani prodotti dai Fratelli La Bionda e Silvio Amato, è conosciuta soprattutto per gli innumerevoli spot ai quali ha dato la voce e che spesso ha scritto lei stessa. Spot come Ciobar, Chante Clair, Rio Casa Mia, Poste Italiane, Coca Cola, Levi’s (Dockers) che l’hanno consacrata “Regina degli Spot.” Tra tutte, la più celebre, è il suo intramontabile tormentone estivo, Joy, I Feel Good I Feel Fine, colonna sonora della Coppa del Nonno e di tante estati italiane, andato in onda per oltre venticinque anni.

L’ artista, ancora una volta, non delude i suoi tanti fans e con I’m Living, ci trascina su una melodia ritmata a riflettere su quanta bellezza ci sia dentro di noi e in ciò che ci circonda. Immagini delicate che la vedono protagonista, tra saloni, scalinate e meravigliosi viali, che si alternano a scorci di vita per raccontare l’Amore in ogni sua declinazione e con tutta la sua forza.

 Gisella Cozzo nasce da genitori italiani, in Australia, nella città cosmopolita di Melbourne. Studia canto e recitazione dall'età di nove anni e si diploma alla St Aloysius College, in Arte Drammatica.

AUSTRALIA: DEBUTTO ARTISTICO IN TV

A 16 anni Gisella vince il talent show più importante in Australia “Young Talent Time” con “The greatest love of all” di Whitney Houston.

IN TOUR a 17 anni-19 anni

Gira l’Australia ed apre i concerti come “support artist” di Eros Ramazzotti, Pupo, Marcella Bella, I Ricchi e Poveri, Toto Cutugno, Mario Merola, Fiordaliso e tanti altri ancora.

INIZI

A Milano, la sua carriera artistica decolla: nel 1988, vince il premio Rino Gaetano ed è premiata dalla rivista Cioè ‘New Generation’ con il brano “Get Up”. Nel 1990 Gisella pubblica il suo primo album in Inglese “Gisa” prodotto dai Fratelli La Bionda e Silvio Amato. Nel 93’ Gisella è finalista a Castrocaro e nello stesso anno partecipa a diversi Festival Europei della canzone Internazionale. In questi festival condivide palchi prestigiosi insieme ad artisti del calibro di Jerry Lee Lewis, Dione Warwick & Kylie Minogue. Interpreta, scrive e pubblica singoli nel mondo della pop/dance per la Time, Emi, Warner e Sony Music. Scrive e interpreta colonne sonore per la TV, cinema italiano ed Internazionale con grandi musicisti e compositori. Collabora con diversi artisti quali Jovanotti, Anna Oxa, Laura Pausini, Al Bano, Fred Bongusto, Sabrina Salerno, Jo Squillo, Albano, Gianluca Grignani e tanti altri ancora. Vince una borsa di studio come compositrice al C.E.T. la scuola di Mogol. Nel 94’ partecipa al Festival Italiano su Retequattro assieme a Gianni Bella.

“REGINA DEGLI SPOT”

Carmelo La Bionda scopre Gisella e fa cantare i suoi primi spot Internazionali come Nescafè, Coca Cola (sensazione Unica) e da allora l’artista è stata consacrata come la ‘regina degli spot’. Gisella diventa l’interprete e creatrice degli spot TV più significativi in Italia ed all’estero. Milioni di Italiani ricordano gli spot cantati da Gisella e negli anni sono diventati evergreen, iconici, come la Coppa del Nonno (‘I feel good, I feel fine’) Nescafé, Levi’s, Rio casa mia, il gallo del pulito di Chante Claire, Ciobar, Chiquita Banana e tanti, tanti altri ancora. Nel 2010 Yoko Ono scelse la voce di Gisella per cantare la cover “Power to the people” di John Lennon. Guardate gli spot qui: https://gisellacozzo.com/media/tv-commercials/

DISCOGRAFIA

Gisella nella sua carriera ha pubblicato dieci album, due EP, ventinove singoli ed inoltre, i suoi brani, sono state inseriti in ventiquattro compilation. La cantautrice ha scritto canzoni per diversi artisti ed è coautrice con Laura Pausini e Cheope del brano Good Morning Happiness per I Neri Per Caso. Lo stesso brano è anche contenuto in una veste insolita, bilingue, nell'album di Gisella, intitolato Double.

SOCIALE

Gisella è spesso ideatrice di progetti musicali per il sociale e associazioni benefiche. Ha collaborato con Hope Onlus, Fondazione Rava, Comunità di San Patrignano, Paolo Zorzi Ass. Attualmente è testimonial per l’associazione “Scarpetta rossa Aps” contro la violenza sulle donne. Il 24 marzo 2023 esce in tutte le piattaforme streaming “GISA - 2023 Remaster” l’album debutto del 1990 di GISELLA COZZO. Il 12 maggio 2023 esce ‘I’ m Living’ il nuovo singolo di Gisella Cozzo in tutte le piattaforme streaming, distribuito da The Orchard, Sony Music. Scritto da Gisella Cozzo e Fausto Cogliati.

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