#PD-self

[kommabortsig]

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[doomedmanic]

we are all born to die right? so is it wrong of me to speed up the process?

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

i crave being someone’s first choice so bad. why does no one ever choose me over others?

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 5: Flip Slip.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 4.5)

[abodywithnosoul]

Why is everything so heavy? 😖

[insaneinpink]

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[pdalicedraws]

I’m sure 500 people have done this but I wanted to have a go too. Initial->eventual reactions to doppelgängers…

Bonuses:

EDIT TO ADD: I'm apparently doing a whole comic thing of this now, check it out :)

[kommabortsig]

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[doomedmanic]

i'm sorry for being dumb, i'm sorry for being pathetic, i'm sorry for being ugly, i'm sorry for being ME, if i could be anyone else, trust me i would be anyone but me

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

you ever just hope you die in your sleep so you won’t have to kill yourself ?

edit: i censored the words at first because my previous account got banned and i didn’t want that to happen again but thanks for letting me know i can write it normally

[onlybecauseimhappy]

hey btw. throwing up and clawing my eyes out. im going to kill myself.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Swapping tips on how to be a bestie in the bath.

[mul-pi]

Every day I feel like my life has no meaning

[deceiver-of-god]

Man I love having NPD. I love feeling good looking at myself in the mirror and two seconds later wanting to tear off my skin, bury myself underground and never allow any living creature to see me again.

[schizoidvision]

The Schizoid Smile

As people with schizoid dynamics we often find ourselves navigating a world that demands social interaction, while our true desire leans toward keeping our distance from others. This creates a disconnect between what others expect and how we actually feel. One of the ways we manage this tension is by wearing a social mask; putting on a facade of friendliness helps us avoid discomfort, judgment, or confrontation.

When we choose not to smile or engage in typical social cues, we may inadvertently give off an impression of being hostile, rude, or stuck-up. This lack of expression can be misinterpreted by others as disinterest or even arrogance, leading them to form negative perceptions about us. These misunderstandings can invite negative reactions, which further reinforce our desire to withdraw. Ironically, the very effort to maintain distance and avoid discomfort can sometimes trigger the very conflict or confrontation we seek to avoid.

The "schizoid smile" isn't a reflection of genuine happiness or warmth. Instead, it's a survival tactic. It allows us to move through social situations without drawing unwanted attention, but deep down, it doesn't represent a desire for connection or making friends. For many of us, the act of smiling or appearing friendly is a conscious choice to meet external expectations. The world sees our smile, but internally, we maintain a psychological distance, shielding ourselves from the deeper nature of interpersonal interaction.

The challenge arises when people misinterpret this friendliness as an invitation to get to know us better. What they perceive as a sign of interest or connection is often just our protective mechanism doing its thing. This can lead to frustration on both sides, as others expect closeness that we aren't prepared to offer. It’s common to become dismissive when our smile invites further engagement, which is the opposite of what we desire. We are often misunderstood, trapped between appearing approachable and needing to maintain our distance.

For covert schizoids, this tension can be a regular experience. We have become skilled at emotional camouflage, acting in ways that satisfy social norms while internally holding onto our need for space. This gap between outward appearance and internal reality is a core feature of the schizoid experience.

[faer1efire]

lung cancer speedrun any%

drawn for bananabel_split's dtiys on twitter !!

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