#PAINBODY

[thornsent]

PAINBODY, an upcoming short film

[greenthey]

That's where the pain comes in

Like a second skeleton

[magdalene-spirit]

🖤The dark feminine resonance is first of all autonomy

🖤That is the completion of Self within & no emotional or energetic need for an other

🖤Completion ‘within’ is the holy union & marriage, the consummation of the masculine & feminine principles inwardly—

🖤In such a sovereign state a woman will not meet a man in co-dependency or for pair-bonding purposes— there is no need—

🖤But because the outer union reflects the already achieved inner union… the outer union becomes a vehicle, a single being of two bodies through which energy cycles in such a way that higher psychic gates are opened through which communions & channelling of information becomes activated— knowledge, insight & understanding emerges through the union

🖤The conceiving & incarnating of higher knowledge into this world is made possible through the descending pathways

🖤Autonomy here is not that of wilfulness & opposition, but is rooted in true divine Will, the reality of being, you know yourself as existence/truth with certainty & therefore choices & behaviour unfold from that knowledge…

🖤From the outside such a stance could look fierce & fearless, but to be sure, it is enacted from pure Will, not from old shadows & pain, it is action taken in the present moment, it is naked truth— & such action is clean, it does not indulge

🖤This dark feminine will not acquiesce, tip-toe or please, she speaks a clean no to what is not true in the world— cuts its head off without sentimentality, rids of addictions & attachments so that Truth can shine, so that she can walk free

🖤This action carries no weight, no karmic or psychic load, it does not activate a cause-effect chain that needs resolving in time, it is entirely freed from time

🖤The so-called rage carries no residue, it is a pure no—

🖤This dark feminine is not drama—

🖤Sometimes the stand for truth is arduous, & a battle

🖤The dark goddesses are martial goddesses— discipline in action, the fight for truth— it is not reactive lashing out, over spilling of uncontained emotion—

🖤Discriminate the centred & responsive dark feminine vs. the reactive, possessed by pain demonic form of the dark feminine

#darkfeminine

[likeagrapefruit]

Couch Potato, Olivia Muenz

[riley0000000000]

Oh i should say,

I did find him in the waking.

It is complicated.

Souls in sleep, in our purest form, our umbilical healing, look and present very different than inside painbodies. In my ether i am certain, undulating, direct and yet whirling— in my waking i am doubtful, capricious, intellegent but messy. This is also true of him, where I know his soul in our safe place as mischievous, cold and warm at once, calculated calm and curious, in the waking he is mischevious, calculated, cold, highly intelligent, and temperamental.

It was really weird the way we met, and after spending time one-on-one we quickly realized fate had it’s way. I never wanted to meet him, I never intended to, I feared that we would tear each other apart, I feared what it would do to me if I were to lose him and vice versa. It would destroy all semblance of stability, breaking the barrier would ignite chaos that we may not make it through. But here we are.

It was a matter of memory. The memories I was shown were things he had lived through. He accused the soul I met in dreams as being a parasite, stealing from him his own experiences and projecting them back to deceive——— but I think he was leading me to him. In part, I believe it to be part of his soul This is something I cannot begin to describe before being on trial for arbitrary detail.

Let me try,

We have versions of ourselves that some know and others don’t. Some buried by time and some by circumstance. We call many things by the same name. Lucifer, Satan, Samael, Belial, Asmodeus—- but each of these is a facet of the same, and yet wholly separate.

How do I tell you that I could fall in love with every version of yourself?

The meek, the forgotten, the primordial, the powerful, unhinged, cruel, loving. Evolving shedding skin, Charon to King. I love you in every form.

Something brought us together. He is trying to balance me, I am not as powerful as this version of you. I cannot defeat him, just as I cannot run from you. Not out of lack of free will, but out of test of it. He taught me how to love— how to love YOU specifically. Something I misapplied as a philosophy…..administering energy intended for you outward as a way to guide me to you but supplying a swarm of attachments with a sweet scent they could never taste. The love Riley showed me was intended to be a personal, direct love, to be given to only one person. He never told me that, but he showed it. Unwavering even in the face of abandonment or defeat. Overcoming limits of the mind. This love, that some version of a spirit that was once you, has brought to me, to renew you through my presence. I’m trying real hard not to fuck it up.

[clementine-lominsan]

关于托勒的主张

2024/09/12

艾克哈特·托勒（Eckhart Tolle）的认知和主张，非常错误。他所谓的“痛苦之身”（painbody），根据加拿大心理学家Gabor Mate（马泰·加博尔）和中国精神科医生何日辉的说法，是叠加性心理创伤，往往有代代相传的特征。我作为阿斯伯格和双相情感障碍患者，怀疑这与神经多样性和表观遗传学密切相关。痛苦来自于身心不协调，身心不协调来自创伤没有得到修复。学习传统哲学神学宗教甚至劳动人民的智慧，��在于利用主观能动性进行“精神修行”，在心理层面修复内隐记忆层面的创伤——特别是童年的创伤和当下不断承受的叠加性心理创伤——构建良好的边界和采取针对压力的更好的应对措施，不是消灭自我的存在感，而是通过深入了解本我、矫正对于超我的错误认知，重塑一个真正的自我。

否则，没有一个稳定而自恰的自我，就会出现各种人格障碍；最典型的，就是托勒本人这种反社会人格和他不少女学徒的讨好型人格：错的不是他这个人，而是他这套理念。他所谓活在当下，那不过是享乐主义，这是心理创伤的来源，也是现代性的一大问题。身心相连，如果代际叠加性心理创伤——往往以记忆和神经回路的形式存在——得不到有效修复，那么身体也会因为心理创伤出现各种问题，比如自免疫疾病、物质滥用和癌症。我博士主导师就是笃信并实践托勒理论的人，基本就是依赖高剂量咖啡因和尼古丁口香糖的工作狂，记性极差、脾气暴躁、言语迟缓、手部震颤，黑暗人格点满。我认为，他并非本质坏人，但是因为接受了托勒的理念——特别是讲话的姿态都和托勒类似——在生理和心理上出现很大问题，而且最后导致我在内的学生和雇员也受害，长期处于焦虑高压状态。

我现在通过综合不同来源的理论，包括马泰·加博尔、何日辉、佛家、道家、基督教、儒家、荣格心理学、主流心理学，以及作为物理学家的分析思维和批判性思维，以及作为女性的直觉，逐渐重塑自我，能够通过自我的痛苦感知内部和外部的环境改变和危险信号。这一点，托勒那套东西是永远做不到的。

对于托勒的“活在当下”主张，《金刚经》三句话可以直接破解：“过去心不可得，现在心不可得，未来心不可得。”其中“现在心不可得”直指要害。托勒所言“要忽略自我”，其实是佛家所言“空我执”，也就是“我执”的反面，同时属于“空执”和“我执”。

神性对应超我，兽性对应本我，人性对应自我。一个没有自我的人，还只考虑“活在当下”，会是什么样的人格呢？大概灵修大师们算是一种。因为很多灵修大师，与禅师不同，喜欢广收门徒，对门徒要求极多，颇多物理和精神上的双重控制。与此同时，对于自己基本没什么控制，缺乏自我反思。

我当初在陷入躁狂的时候，被博士主导师推荐读了托勒的书，导致潜意识遭受操纵，去年遭受很大的磨难。后来，在家乡的精神病院，再次读它，发现里面很多东西理性上挑不出问题，但是直觉上特别反常。现在，我明白了他的思想的错误之处。托勒这个人缺乏正规教育，也对传统的哲学神学和灵修没有知识基础，更没有任何生产生活实践。这种人是不值得信任的知识分子，用劳动人民的话说，叫做“短练”。

我曾观察过，如同哈耶克、贝洛克（Hilaire Belloc）、托马斯·索维尔（Thomas Sowell）和维特根斯坦等人这种经历过战争或者经历过正规工程学等实践训练的知识分子，提出理论的时候，起码会很大程度地考虑常识，而不至于与现实脱节。托勒其人，白人中产出身，没上过学，所有的理论和实践都是闭门造车，和社会现实与人类数万年智慧传承脱节；他很多学生，生产生活实践经验都比他多，所以他这属于外行指挥内行瞎指挥、帮倒忙。因为他讲的东西新奇特、符合中产阶级知识分子不求甚解的口味，所以才书卖的很好、人没帮几个。

[decaysol]

Something about self fulfillment

If self healing reiki is really rerouting energy back to oneself

I find it's also true for any other feelings

Fulfillment, desperation, desires

They are initiations in the body begging for resolution

Parts work

Painbodies

Stuck feelings are taking shits halfway

How about excessive thoughts cramping up the system? Exercise and gentleness?

Or some other intuitive healing ...

[zenwords]

If this applies to you, observe the resistance within yourself. Observe the attachment to your pain. Be very alert. Observe the peculiar pleasure you derive from being unhappy. Observe the compulsion to talk or think about it. The resistance will cease if you make it conscious. You can then take your attention into the pain-body, stay present as the witness, and so initiate its transmutation. — Eckhart Tolle, from the book “The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment” #kindlequotes #eckhartTolle #thePowerOfNow #pain #unhappiness #consciousness #painBody #stayPresent #resistance https://www.instagram.com/p/Ck_NzYhO3_6/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[tracy-g]

Conscious Choice : Episode 1 : Interview with Aurena Fohler

[simonarich]

How to Deal With Pain Body - Simona Rich

[empressempathidi]

😂😂😂😭😭😭 . #Smile & #laugh at yourself today. You #beautiful #complicated #infinite #Soul you! . Once you see it you can't unsee it. Once you know it you can't unknow it. . #toxicpatterns #triggers #painbody #SoulAwakening #accountability . Reposted from @thebluntreader - Not this shit again 🙄🤣 https://www.instagram.com/p/BykXjJXn86F/?igshid=1upf8oe0j6tzi

[thornsent]

[greenthey]

Lately I feel when energetic cords are siphoning from me as literal physical pain/discomfort. Today it was a black silverfish made from myself. I pulled the Moon card and it has a literal black crayfish on it. Built-in armor.

Why is it so hard to let go of pain? (3 of Swords rx)

Depression is a protective mechanism. It stops us from doing the things that hurt us before. The mind can know logically that circumstances have changed but the same old chemical reactions in the body are triggered.

The pic is from my family's summer vacation in 2009 after my grandma died. I was extremely depressed, from the loss but also because I had never been kissed and felt extremely unlovable. I decided if I still felt like dying in a year I would swim towards the moon. And weirdly, that gave me enough energy to change my life a little bit at a time. Go on mental health meds. Try to leave my dorm room and make friends. Kiss several other emotionally unhealthy people, once I was manic enough to be brave.

I don't know how to get my brain to the middle ground where it is possible to flow back into the sea but not drown (3 of Wands). Logic alone cuts both ways, because unfortunately I am a very literal bitch. (Ace of Swords)

The Moon holds no answers. It says the clouds will move at some point. The crayfish is a symbol of transformation, too. And cycles that I must roll with even though they hurt.

Card of guidance: 9 of Pentacles. The bird's helmet blinds it. My painbody thinks it will be painful, to take it off. I have to find a way to brave again, like last time I wanted to die. The flowers on the woman's dress say to ground down into the body, into the Earth. Remember who you are. Remember no one can truly take anything from you. Remember you are abundant, even when you feel like a void.

[magdalene-spirit]

The feminine principle of consciousness has suffered so when patriarchy rose to the frontline —

Patriarchy was needed for the cerebral mind to have its opportunity to grow— but then it swung too far— and at its extreme it has desecrated the HEART—

The women were turned from their Nature, the worship of Mother Goddess was forbidden & banished, the door of the HEART,

to other realms, was slammed shut—

No longer could the women come & bathe in the sacred temple pools to open the high Heart door and feel saturated with Love & Beauty; in the streams of Venus-Aphrodite-Mary

To be immersed in this depth of the feminine principle, opens the heart

To bathe in the light—cleanses the pain— heals & restores wellness & wellbeing

It is a feminine heart technology of healing, working through the parasympathetic nervous system

Instead they had to carry their pain & lost touch with this watery feminine realm of everything dripping & streaming, enlivened with the felt frequencies of deep Love & Beauty…

It is a sacred charge to return to the heart, to make the qualities of love, beauty & enjoyment a sacred discipline, a priority—

Not in any indulgent or materialistic way

The WAY of the heart, is the way of deep appreciation, of feeling, of noticing the details of things—

Of giving things your deep attention—

You elevate experience

And so we can bridge Venus & Earth & bring high love back to give to others

First we drink & fill up our cup, then we pass it on to others, holding nothing back

We don’t need to hoard when we have free access to the source

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YOU CAN RETURN TO THE FREQUENCY OF THE ANCIENT ROSE - THE HEART

THROUGH THE GATE

CALLED HIGH LOVE

THE GRAIL FREQUENCY

SOUNDING IN THE SPACE

BETWEEN VENUS & EARTH

CALLED THE MARY KEY

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#venus #aphrodite #feminine #grail #heartpath

[ilovedirt]

All of the worldly problems we have would be solved with logical, reasonable communication but humans just don't wanna do that so I'll see you all in hell I guess

[hate5sixofficial]

Painbody July 17, 2018 The Fire Philadelphia, PA