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melathinn · 2 years ago

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As it turns out bringing attention to my eating habits my weight and my mental health has backfired! Terribly!

I’m going to see a nutritionist bc my therapist told me to and I have great insurance and my general health habits are just fucked right now. Just filling out the questionnaire was a little emotional even though my eating and body image is leaps and bounds better than it was, but my disorder eating was never once validated by anyone, quite the opposite. I feel like I never got closure, I just had to figure it out myself once I was mentally stable. So fingers crossed this helps me heal bc I’m approaching my hw and tbh it’s really really really upsetting.

#MyPlate has officially been downloaded #iiiiiiii just can’t anymore #the last straw was seeing a pic of me from a year ago #in the exact same outfit as a pic from a couple of weeks ago #very form fitting #30ish lb difference #and a nutritionist PA appointment #where she didn’t check her notes and thought I had a binge eating disorder #and she was checking all of this shit #and I was like #had this been checked at the peak of the nonsense #there would be a huge concern #but whatever #I told my nutritionist I’d drink soylent to get to 3 meals a day #it should be noted I eat like 1.5 but it’s a LOT it’s always like most of my intake #which tbh has been fine #really the thing is I bought a bunch of clothes like a year ago when I came out #that were baggy and I felt masc #and now they’re too tight #I know this is like immature #but like I have to do this I have to go back #everyone’s telling me all this shit and I like agreed like I get how to have healthy thoughts #but idk it’s just fucked #for motivation I might move to edtwt #they are INSANE over there like they are truly unwel #we are too but holy shit #edtumblr was never like that #the girlies stay fighting over there and they fight dirty #but if I get to that point where you lose motivation and I need to be triggered #that’s the spot

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