#Lyrica and her thoughts

[chaedomi]

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐑𝐎𝐖𝐍 𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒𝐒 ✦ mmgacm

fem!child!reader x lyrica nara takar + brinne sol (platonic!yan), inspiration (one / two), potential series, breanna is simply an oc who caters to reader's needs; after visiting her mother, lyrica finds herself learning about the mysterious crown princess who resides inside the sun palace. ꨄ — masterlist

LYRICA WAS having the best day of her life. Her mother had just bestowed upon her something truly precious—a silver coin, unparalleled to all the riches that could be offered. Honestly, when she lost the first silver coin she had earned back in the slums, she felt a sense of disappointment. That coin had been her pride, marked and stained with all the times she held it, dreaming of a better future. She never aspired to acquire another, as it couldn't compare to the first one she had cherished for so long. But, who cared? Even if it wasn't the same coin, it was still a silver coin—her precious silver coin.

"Ah... Huh...?" Lyrica's footsteps halted as something interesting captured her attention. The Black Dragon Chamber next door was The Crown Prince's room, and right next to it was another door—the entrance to The Crown Princess's chambers. It occurred to Lyrica that she had never laid eyes on The Crown Princess before. The Crown Princess hadn't even been present at her mother's and His Majesty's wedding!

Lyrica lifted her gaze to examine the sign above the chamber door. Said signs depicted the theme of the chambers and, by extension, identified the type of dragon associated with The Crown Princess.

However, instead of the expected dragon imagery, there was what Lyrica recognized as a constellation.

"Oh my," Brinne spoke beside Lyrica, causing the little girl to startle, as the voice was unexpected. "It seems that Your Highness has stumbled across something very interesting. Would you like me to explain, Your Highness?"

"Huh...?" Lyrica blinked at her servant before finally catching on. "O... Oh, yes, please!"

Brinne laughed in response to Lyrica's enthusiasm. "Recall when I mentioned that His Majesty and House Takar trace their lineage to dragons? I also explained that House Wolfe descends from wolves, and House Sandar's ancestry is tied to a colossal snake as thick as a tree."

Brinne’s eyelids fluttered open, and Lyrica could see for herself the fondness swirling in her amethyst-hued eyes.  Lyrica's curiosity deepened even more as a result of this reaction. Minor details about The Crown Princess's existence are known, yet she already fascinates Lyrica. In the 'White Dragon Chamber,' Lyrica remembers the information Brinne shared with her. The Founder of the prosperous Takar Nation was a dragon, leading to the Imperial Family (comprising Takars) being named after these mythical creatures.

So, why is it that you, The Crown Princess, aren't named after a dragon? Your hand was given to The Crown Prince, which rightfully places you within the Imperial Family. However, you carry the identity of something different—a star, or more precisely, a constellation of stars known as Pollux.

Lyrica resisted the urge to ask, concerned about overwhelming Brinne with questions she might not have answers to. However, the more she thought, the more she wanted answers. Despite the unsettling tales she had heard about The Emperor, her stepfather had proven to be benevolent. It wasn't as if The Emperor despised you otherwise, he wouldn't have permitted you to reside in The Sun Palace and ''''marry'''' The Crown Prince. So, why...?

Lyrica bit her lip and groaned, ultimately yielding to her curiosity. "The Family Crest of High-Ranking Nobles symbolizes their ancestry. However, considering House (L.N) bears the crest of a star, does that suggest that The Crown Princess is descended from a star?" Brinne tilted her head and beamed, satisfied with Lyrica's analysis. "Exactly!"

Although Brinne appeared content, Lyrica felt the opposite, her eyebrows furrowing in dissatisfaction. "But... I thought all Takars were named after dragons. What about The Crown Princess?" It's only at that moment that Brinne understands the confusion of The Young Princess. Brinne's smile widened further, momentarily causing Lyrica to worry about the strain on her jaw muscles.

"It's as you mentioned, Your Highness. All Takars, even those married into The Imperial Family, bear dragon names. But, The Crown Princess is only engaged to His Highness.” Brinne replied, a sly smirk gracing her stunning features. Lyrica's expression faltered as she processed her servant's words. “Your Highness, let me make it known that His Majesty deeply admires House (L.N), especially The Crown Princess."

As the realization dawned on her, Lyrica almost jumped in surprise. Tolerance and respect were one thing, but admiration? Another question was… why did Brinne tell her all of this when she had first moved into her chambers? Did she forget…?

Brinne giggled at Lyrica’s reaction. "With admiration comes a deep bond. As we know, His Majesty cannot rule forever, nor will it be advised for his nephew to rule alone. And so, because His Majesty trusts no one as he trusts House (L.N), he decided that one of them shall ascend to the throne alongside his nephew. Despite the many good suitors House (L.N) had to offer, The Crown Princess was chosen as she not only captured him with her abilities but her personality as well."

“Of course, to be a Crown Princess, you need to marry The Crown Prince first. However, His Majesty’s instructions to address Her Highness as such regardless is a way of showcasing her permanent ascension.”

Lyrica's eyebrows rose at the revelation. Well, now it makes sense why you weren’t identified as a dragon. Forget what she said about the marriage thing too. "But wait! Even if The Crown Princess didn’t receive that privilege, would she still be considered important, perhaps more so than High-Ranking Nobles?"

Brinne hummed in thought. “She would still be considered as a High-Ranking Noble even if she and those in House (L.N) hold more privileges than the others in the same noble class. …It’s all because of His Majesty’s orders. Everything is. You are aware of how absolute His Majesty’s orders are, right? If His Majesty commands people to act like animals, they will do just that. If His Majesty says to idolize an object, they will do just that! Even more so if His Majesty orders his people to respect House (L.N) just as they respect House Takar, they will do just that. It doesn’t matter if people are pleased with the arrangements or not. ...His Majesty’s reason for doing so all aligns with the shared history of House Takar and House (L.N).”

Lyrica became intrigued by that bit of information. "Shared history?" She leaned in, eager to learn more. "Can you tell me more, Brinne?" Unfortunately, Brinne responded with an apologetic smile, disappointing Lyrica.

"Regrettably, that's the extent of my knowledge regarding the relationship between House (L.N) and House Takar. It's a limit for anyone," Brinne's lips tightened. "The narrative unfolds after the nation's expansion and the allegiance of House Sandar and House Wolfe, undoubtedly including the deeds of House (L.N) that earned His Majesty's favor."

"However, crucial details of this significant historical period somehow vanished. Consequently, over time, people began crafting theories about how House (L.N) and House Takar evolved into their current relationship. Some theories were logical, while others were entirely nonsensical. And, of course, some seized the opportunity for profit, as seen in the widely popular children's fairytale, 'The Dragon Who Fell In Love With A Star.' You must have heard of it, haven't you?"

Lyrica recalled hearing a similar story in the slums, never imagining its connection to something so crucial. "That's incredible!" she exclaimed.

"Despite these theories, none have been confirmed. House (L.N) and House Takar are the only ones capable of such confirmation. However, His Majesty has maintained silence on the matter, and House (L.N) feels compelled to align with his decision."

"Yet, certain aspects remain clear. Regardless of factual evidence, His Majesty holds House (L.N) in high regard. Thus, we are to treat them with respect, just as we will respect House Takar. Whether others agree or disagree is unimportant."

“Either way, the latter is not a concern,” Brinne continued. “Everyone in this nation is fond of House (L.N), or in this case, The Crown Princess.”

Lyrica cocked her head to the side. “Even you?”

"Yes, Your Highness! Why wouldn't I?" Brinne laughed. "Allow me to explain how House (L.N) operates. As we are aware, High-Ranking Nobles align themselves with the symbols on their crests. Given that House (L.N) traces its lineage to a star... it's worth noting that House (L.N) is the largest Noble Family in the nation. This serves as a symbolic representation of the countless stars that adorn the sky."

"B-Billions!?" Lyrica stammered, staring at Brinne with widened eyes.

"Oh, dear." Brinne covered her mouth. "Your Highness, House (L.N) doesn't quite literally have billions. However, like certain traits are inherent to specific Noble Families, having large kin is one characteristic of House (L.N). So, fear not, Your Highness; having a small family circle is normal. House (L.N) just happens to multiply at a very alarming rate... to the extent that they are scattered throughout all corners of the nation."

"Due to their extensive family, House (L.N) has implemented a system within their household to maintain order. Drawing inspiration from astrology, where eighty-eight constellations are recognized, House (L.N) has structured itself into eighty-eight classes, each with varying levels of power and status. However, within these eighty-eight classes, there exist twelve classes that house the highest positions. I find myself intrigued by the method they use to organize it all..."

"But, moving on!" Brinne placed her hands on her knees. "Your Highness, are you familiar with the twelve constellations of the universe?"

"Yes! Glendelyn taught me about them! It's uh... Aries, Taurus, Gemini, Cancer, Leo, Virgo, Libra, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Capricorn, Aquarius, and Pisces... right!?" Lyrica grinned, pleased with herself for recalling both the names and pronunciation.

"And those would be the twelve classes of House (L.N) with the highest status and power! The Crown Princess oversees Class Gemini of House (L.N), in part. As we know, Gemini is a twin star encompassing both Pollux and Castor. Therefore, Gemini is responsible for two individuals, with The Crown Princess having authority over Pollux."

Brinne's eyes crinkled with amusement. "It makes me wonder... if House (L.N)'s class sorting is also influenced by personality traits..."

"What makes you think that...?" Lyrica inquired, tilting her head to the side.

"Pollux means 'very sweet' or 'fit for royalty.' And when compared to both Castor and Pollux, Pollux is the brighter star of the two." Brinne giggled. "'Fit for royalty'... truly describes The Crown Princess! The Crown Princess can also be characterized as... bright and pure. Undoubtedly, she possesses the most beautiful soul in the entire nation."

In Lyrica's thoughts, she argues that her mother is the most beautiful soul of all!

"Generous, selfless, and loving. The Crown Princess consistently treats everyone impartially and respectfully, ignoring class or personality. When she had more freedom before getting engaged, The Crown Princess frequently visited the lower class, playing with the little children there. She gave them gifts, food, and clothes, disregarding the opinions of those in the Noble Status," Brinne explained.

"Now, with increased power, The Crown Princess has expressed her intent to enhance the quality of life for the lower class. His Majesty has already given his approval, leaving the timing of the project's initiation to The Crown Princess." Brinne hummed. "In summary, The Crown Princess is admired not just for her history and status. It's her demeanor and how she treats others, whether good or evil, that truly highlights her charm."

By now, Lyrica's eyes were gleaming. "She does sound amazing..." As someone who had previously lived in the slums, hearing about how The Crown Princess cared so tenderly for her fellow people deeply touched Lyrica. Typically, individuals of higher status tended to be snobbish and avoided those from lower classes, using harsh and insulting labels. Lyrica was all too familiar with that. However, there were exceptions—The Crown Princess, who cared for them despite their backgrounds, striving to improve their lives! Lyrica's thoughts began to wander, imagining what her life might have been like if she had encountered The Crown Princess in the past.

The only issue in her thoughts was, "Brinne, how exactly does The Crown Princess look?"

"Hmm... Let me think about how I can describe this. Your Highness, when you gaze at the stars at night, what's the first thing that comes to your mind?" Brinne inquired.

"Well, I always think about how beautiful the stars look tonight," Lyrica responded promptly.

“It’s the same for House (L.N). They possess a certain essence that makes them shine, glitter, and sparkle. The Crown Princess is no exception. She has gorgeous (h.c) hair that sparkles under the sunlight, and (s.c) skin that glows with the moonlight. However, what truly sets The Crown Princess apart within her House is her eyes. Those eyes of hers... are the physical embodiment of her lineage. With (e.c) eyes that sparkle like fine jewels, she carries the entire universe in them."

Lyrica's jaw dropped in amazement. "Is that another form of symbolism...?"

Brinne shook her head. "This time, it's quite literal." Seeing Lyrica's face scrunch up in suspicion, Brinne resisted the urge to giggle. "Oh my, Your Highness. I assure you, I'm not making fun of you for thinking House (L.N) consisted of billions of members. I don't blame you for being skeptical. Eyes resembling the universe? It does sound far-fetched, especially when no one else is known for having such a trait. But, it is the truth."

Lyrica pouted, fiddling with her clothes. "All of this talk just makes me want to meet The Crown Princess!"

"Huhu~ I'm certain The Crown Princess would have loved to meet you too, Your Highness. Unfortunately, current circumstances just won't allow her to do so. With The Crown Prince currently absent, The Crown Princess has temporarily taken over his responsibilities, attending to any work that needs to be accomplished in his stead."

"I can recall a day when The Crown Princess looked like a disaster, seconds away from collapsing onto the ground," Brinne shivered. "As much work as it may be, it's what needs to be done. Again, The Crown Prince and The Crown Princess are destined to ascend to the throne one day, signifying the future management of the nation. Thus, they must demonstrate their capabilities to the people, and most importantly, His Majesty."

“Oh!” Lyrica blinked.

“Hmm… Now, I’m not sure, but, come to think of it, you should be able to see The Crown Princess soon, Your Highness.” Brinne added.

“Oh!?” Lyrica exclaimed in a louder tone.

“His Highness should be returning from his feudal territory very soon. And once he does, Her Highness should be able to take a breather from her piles of work.”

Lyrica fell silent, staring at Brinne with a soft expression. Lyrica then smiled fondly, clasping her hands together. “I know The Crown Princess isn’t fully inside the family as yet… Even so, she would be my cousin. But, still… The Crown Princess… would be some form of big sister, right…?”

“Yes, Your Highness.”

“YOUR HIGHNESS! I come to you with great news! His Highness should be returning soon!” Gracefully entering the 'Constellation Pollux Chamber,' a maid carrying a golden tray of food and treats hastened toward you, seated upright in your bed, gazing at the scenery beyond your window.

Turning your attention forward, you stared at your maid with widened eyes. "Is that so?" Your surprise quickly morphed into happiness, a smile spreading across your lips as you interlaced your fingers. A flowery aura surrounded you, and your excitement was visible. "That is good news! How long has it been since Atil was gone...? Six months?"

"Precisely," your maid, Breanna, hummed, gently placing the tray on your bed tray table, which you wasted no time digging into. "I can tell that you have many ideas running through your head, Your Highness. I, too, would want to greet someone I cherish with a warm welcome after not seeing them for so long."

"For Atil...? Erm... No, that's not why I'm so excited... I'm excited because I won't have to work as hard as I did anymore!" You beamed without shame. "Ugh, it was torturous... Left, right, and center, it was just piles of paper. Any more, and I would have begun to see the pearly white gates of heaven..."

"Oh, my, is that all? His Highness would be upset if he heard that's the only reason you missed his presence," Breanna giggled.

"...Seriously...?"

"And then there are your new family members, Your Highness."

You paused, fingers clasped around the handle of your spoon. Slowly, you lifted your head to meet your maid's gaze, (e.c) eyes locking with amethyst eyes. "Yes, I have heard about the news. How His Majesty has taken a commoner as his bride, and her child as his daughter."

Your smile widened, lips encased around the tip of the spoon. As if nature were in sync with you, the sunlight cast an ethereal glow on your frame, making you appear more enchanting. Even your maid, who wore a sly smirk seconds prior, jaw slackened, staring at you in awe.

"It's a shame I am unable to do anything at the moment. I can't express just how eager I am to meet them. But one thing's for sure... I already see them as family."

In your eyes was the universe. Stars served as pupils, they glowed with endless glee and anticipation.

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[melonminnie]

TELL ME? TELL ME!

lyrica x older! Sister! Reader

-New format! Reader can be any age as + doesn’t have any relations to the throne 😸 (Means won’t affect the storyline) appearance is the same as lyrica but with blonde hair. Sorry if it’s short </3 I’m not proud of this fyi ENJOYY 🫶💖

Lyrica was slightly upset, She’d planned a tea party with the crown prince, two hours ago!.

She’d wanted him to come, to meet him, Of course she did meet him before, but she wanted to see him again, to properly introduce herself, In a proper manner and setting.

The brunette waited an hour or two, had completely forgotten, she’d arranged to have tea with her sister the week prior, with all the excitement, She’d forgotten about it!.

Her older sister, had waited for hours on end, till she gave up and went to the garden, To her surprise she saw her little sister that she oh so loved standing there.

“Lyrica what are you doing outside?” The girl questioned walking towards her slightly angry, “Sister!, I arranged to meet the crown prince a few days ago to meet today” she answered brightly.

The girl glanced around, Looking at the servants, trying to find the person who she said she’d meet up with. “Where is he?” She asked “is he dressed as a servant?” She asked again.

Lyrica could feel her sisters angry aura, “No!, He isn’t” she defended “He just hasn’t shown up yet” she mumbled fiddling with her fingers starring at the floor.

“Why hasn’t he?” The girl walked up to her younger sister, “Maybe he’s just busy..” she thought, “Can I have tea with you instead?” She asked hesitantly, knowing well that this was meant for the crown prince.

But he hadn’t shown up so she can just, take his spot!!, she carefully watched the expression of her sister, turning from a slightly disappointed one, to a happy one.

“Yes! You can” she raised her voice accidentally grabbing her older sisters hand and making her sit on the chair that was meant for the prince.

But he didn’t show up so it’s not her fault!, the blonde haired girl just wanted to make her sister happy.

[g3m0y]

ok, so I've been reading a manhwa (mother's contract marriage) and.

its been making me feel things (emotional vulnerability), so i rlly wanted to share my thoughts abt it :D

SO the art is absolutely STUNNING ok, i need to repeat stunning.

and the story? (has made me tear up multiple times)

like lyrica (main character) is SO precious i literally ADORE her. but not only is she adorable, she is also such a tragic (and relateable) character.

!SPOILER WARNING!

like, she lives in the slums with her mother, who is also an alcoholic, and is also just a bad mother. and she works day and night to afford rent and food, she loves her (very negligent) mother with her whole being. her whole life basically revolves around her. and its just so fcking sad. her mother doesn't give a flying fck abt her, but she loves her SO fcking much. like, i don't usually enjoy rlly tragic characters, who've had "such a hard life". but, lyrica is just so fcking relatable

the whole concept is that her mother is a regressor, and she basically rlly regrets everything that she did to her daughter, and wants to turn her life around for her sake, but the story is told from lyrica's POV. its such a fun and unique concept, and has a pretty good execution, though I've heard that the novel was rlly cliché and kinda bad. BUT, the manhwa adaptation? absolute masterpiece.

not only is the art absolutely beautiful and stunning, the artist portrays emotions in a way I've never seen before. like, it genuinely made me feel things, it made me feel like i was there, and experiencing it in real time.

in chapter 3, lyrica's mom steals her life savings so she can go to the imperial ball. lyrica wakes up, alone and with her savings literally stolen by the person she trusts most. she feels so alone and betrayed, she thought her mother was someone she could trust. the way the artist portrays lyrica's feelings of betrayal and hurt, honestly (maybe its bc im not rlly in the best headspace rn) brought me to tears.

the mom has a rlly good redemption arc tho. we only get to see her pov a couple times, but it felt like i could actually understand her, yk?

like, i feel so fcking bad for her bro. you can see her trying to change for the better. for the sake of her daughter, she is willing to change, to be a better mother (and a person in general). like, i feel like i can genuinely sympathize with her. she has a lot of flaws, but thats what makes her such a well written character.

the way the artist decided to adapt the novel is THE correct way to adapt it.

Ty for listening to my yapping :D

[tabswrites]

OC Origins Tag!

I’ve been waiting so patiently for this to come around. Thanks to @pandoras-comment-box for sharing some interesting origins here!

Tagging: @rachaellawrites @finickyfelix @kaatiba @sarahlizziewrites @kaylinalexanderbooks if any of you want to share how your ocs came to be!

This is by no means comprehensive so if anyone has any specific questions, feel free to ask!

It’s Mara Time: Around the time I got the idea for ToL, I was watching The Owl House. I was not expecting to love that show as much as I do, but specifically I love Eda the Owl Lady. She became an outlaw for refusing to join a coven, preferring to live in exile so she can practice magic the way she wants to. She also happens to have a curse that transforms her into an owl beast—hence Cloud, the owl-faced smoke creature!

I really liked the idea of an exile teaching herself magic, so the vague idea of Mara was born from that. Her name comes from Mara Jade, a fiery redhead who taught young me the meaning of the word antihero. The complexity of her various arcs throughout the Star Wars EU left an impact on me. I’ve always wanted a character that felt larger than life, larger than anything.

In terms of her magic and overall aesthetic, I went first to Nico Minoru, one of my fave comic characters ever. Lyrica Okano’s portrayal of her in Marvel’s Runaways lives rent free in my head. I love that her darkness is her power, I love her passion, I love that her fierceness hides how much she cares.

(Lyrica Okano as Nico)

And I’m sure some of you saw this coming, but I was also inspired by Maleficent (the Angie Jolie version). The scene where she wakes up and finds that her best friend had taken her wings and she’s just sobbing, as a kid I couldn’t figure out if she was crying because it hurt or because he had betrayed her. It stuck me with me, and of course, years later, eventually inspired Oliver and Mara’s complicated past.

(Angelina Jolie as Maleficient)

My thoughts for Mara’s appearance were basically: Disney witch before she becomes a villain. I intend for Mara’s appearance to get creepier and more bestial as the story goes on, which is definitely misleading. I want her to still be a hero, just a creepy one.

[merthlock]

I gave all the vehicles in your Touhou 9 video Mario Kart - style names

Presented here in the standard format

Marisa / Street Sweeper

Sakuya / Meidocycle

Youmu / Spirit Taxi

Reisen / Machine Bun

Yuuka / Weed Killer

Cirno / Formula 9

Lyrica (+ Lunasa) / Initial Key

Medicine / Tox Tanker

Mima / The Classic

Komachi / Sanzu Rider

Eiki / Final Judgment

For some background on the designs for some of the vehicles because I never talked about them Sakuya, Lyrica, Medicine, and Komachi's vehicles were made by a friend of mine who wanted to volunteer designs for me to use, which I later refined to the designs I used. Sakuya's I specifically colored after DIO from Jojo's Bizarre Adventure Stardust Crusaders due to haha funny jojoke Youmu's car is modeled after the Fiat 500, famously used by Lupin the Third in the eponymous anime series and extremely obvious because Youmu's ghost part is wearing Jigen's hat On the same inspiration, Yuuka's car is a yellow Mercedes Benz SSK 1929 also used by Lupin the Third in the 1971 anime. Reisen's motorcycle is based on a 1984 Honda Goldwing model I found with built in gatling guns because I thought it looked cool and is how I felt Reisen was like when I played Touhou 8 Mima's (and to an extension, Cirno's) is a Ferrari 321B, which was used in the first episode of Lupin the Third 1971 anime (which is also the main inspiration for that entire video's premise(I really like Lupin III)) The numbers on the race cars are a double reference, being that the number 9 is referencing this being the 9th Touhou game and 3 referencing Phantasmagoria of Dim.Dream, alongside the 3 being that the entire video is just a giant Lupin III reference. Eiki's I just made something up on the spot because I was struggling to think on what to use so I just drew a box with wheels and rolled with it because it was easy to draw and I could make a joke about her storing hot dogs inside the trunk of it Cirno starts with a Mario Kart kart at the start because I thought it was funny Anyways my favorites are Weed Killer and Sanzu Rider thank you for making these!! Have a cat

[talesofdelight]

High School

  Lyrica and Fallon were childhood friends from Confectia and they ended up going to high school together. Fallon had a hard time adjusting due to his timid nature, so he often stayed glued to Lyrica who was always outgoing. Eventually, Fallon was able to get more confidence and make friends of his own. Him and Lyrica would still hang out a lot but they both had their own friend groups. Unfortunately, Fallon’s group was often bullied by a group of students who would use their special abilities to threaten, scare, or even harm other students (which was obviously against the rules). One of these bullies was Devon. Lyrica knew that some students were getting picked on but she didn’t know it was Fallon’s group of friends specifically since he never spoke up about it. He thought that she had helped him enough and didn’t want to worry her. 

  Devon had a lot of anger issues back in high school which lead to him falling in with a bad crowd. He and a few other students were “recruited” by the bullies because they had abilities that could easily intimidate others. Eventually, Devon started to feel bad for what he had done to others and decided to confront the “leader” of the group. All that led to was Devon getting beaten up and being told “Never do that again, or you��ll be sorry.” After the incident, Lyrica found him and brought him to the nurse. Devon never told Lyrica exactly what happened because he didn’t want anyone else involved. He also never really hung out with her after that, they would pass each other in the halls and exchange some words, but nothing more. He refused to give her his real name and told her that his white hair was natural (since all the bullies bleached their hair white) for fear she might think poorly of him if she found out  what he had done. 

  Lyrica, as nice as she is, can be oblivious. Especially if she’s busy with a hobby like her music. So, once Fallon realized that Devon was befriending her, he wasn’t having any of it. He knew what kind of Devon truly was and didn’t want him anywhere near his friend. To keep Lyrica away from him, Fallon came up with a plan to make sure she saw what kind of person Devon really was. The plan was a success and Lyrica never spoke to him again. 

  After the bullies graduated the school became a lot safer and more peaceful. Lyrica and Fallon spent more time than ever together. But, when Lyrica got scouted for her music she became too busy for much of anything and Fallon grew bitter at being neglected. So, he perused his hobbies and the family business and pushed his old friend to the back of his mind. 

  It wasn’t until after graduation when Lyrica was sitting in the garage of some band that seemed to spring up out of nowhere and talking to the keyboard player when the keyboard player brought up something her bandmate told her that he dealt with in high school and that’s when everything clicked for Lyrica. It wasn’t Devon’s fault, it was Fallon’s plan all along.

[gramarobin]

Freshly trimmed bangs, wearing my Wynonna Judd shirt & backup pair of glasses. See the bells hanging on the door knob? My dog, Buck, rings it every 10 minutes- in spurts, all day long 😑 See my index finger holding the mug? I can't bend it cuz my skin is so thick and fissured-eczema. I made it out of bed, sittin here looking up how to help my old dog, Frances, with her hip pain and dysplasia. Shes walking on 3 legs now. Big rain on the way. My adult daughter brought me 3/20mg cbd/thc gummies yesterday to try & see if it helps my postop leg and fibro pain. I smoked some pot in the 90's, a little. I am afraid to try these gummies because I'm on 2 meds that have moderate drug interaction😬 Anyone use edible mmj and take antidepressant & lyrica?? Thoughts? please share... Happy Monday...share a mugshot if ya want! @thisgingersnapped50 💙💙

[coffee-mage-sans-caffeine]

Highlights from my most recent conversation with my brother: He's now on pregoblin, which is the generic for Lyrica (it's pregabalin, bro) His wife knows so little about our family that she had to steal the phone and ask me questions because he's never even told her if I'm older than her or younger. She asked for tips for the fact that she is supposed to meet our father this summer. I told her that the most important thing to know about our father is that he's a chronic liar with no understanding of the word 'truth' and that she cannot trust a SINGLE word he says. Her response to that was "Oh! So he's just like your brother!"🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩 He's dealing with some neuro stuff (see the pregoblin) so bad his right leg is paralysed and he's lost all muscle mass to the point his right butt cheek has shrunk and he can't sit straight. He can't drive a car but he's decided he's safe to drive heavy machinery! So that's... worrying. 🚩🚩 He doesn't believe in the existence of the sacral spine. I'm a nurse. He's a ski-hill groomer. But I'm wrong about the spine and the sacrum doesn't exist. The lumbar spine is the lowest point on the spine, apparently. He sent me a picture of his dog and then lost his shit that I could see his dog. Dunno what's going on there, but he didn't know the internet was 'that fast.' He thought it would take a long time because we live in different countries maybe??? IDK. He's also angry that he hasn't been invited to our sister's hypothetical wedding? He asked me if she was married, I said I don't know (complicated reasons) and he announced he's going to yell at her for not inviting him. So yeah. That's... great.

[cakesexuality]

Weight gain/loss (no specific numbers) discussion, vague mention of caloric intake, medication discussion, eating disorder discussion

I've been gaining weight and I know I'm not imagining it bc the scale reads higher

The only 2 other times I've been this weight have been when my ED was at its worst so my metabolism slowed down to conserve energy, and then again when I was at too high a dose of the wrong antipsychotic (and at first I thought I had PCOS which was causing weight gain -- turns out I don't have PCOS and it was just the Seroquel), so this is a sign to me that something is wrong

I was only able to lose the weight from those times bc I went into recovery so my body knew it would be getting consistent fuel and then bc I suddenly cut back on my dose one night, causing an episode that lasted for most of 2022

Even though I've been saying positive things about the medication, I think this weight gain from the last few months might be caused by Abilify, which is the AP least likely to cause these issues

My weight gain may also be from Alysena, which I've been saying good things about as well, and it's hard to tell bc I wasn't regularly weighing myself until very recently so it's hard to pinpoint when the weight gain began and I started Abilify not too long before starting Alysena so it's hard to say which drug is the problem

You guys were there when Latuda didn't pan out (despite being really good for my mood) bc I was getting tingling, burning, cramping, twitching, and hallucinations from it, so that's 3 for 3 APs I've tried that I'm not happy with

Someone in a mental health Discord told me to consider not taking APs anymore after reading what I had to say about this, bc they had a similar story, and I know lithium was a suggestion from the 2nd CAMH doctor and we haven't explored anticonvulsants very far (which weren't a suggestion from the CAMH doctor but I've tried Lyrica which caused an episode of some kind and I haven't tried any others) although idk how I would fare without an AP since I've been on them consistently since February of 2017 when I was having my big psychotic episode and any attempt to lower my dose beyond a certain threshold results in the resurfacing of symptoms like irritability, anxiety, and hallucinations

But there comes a few problems with asking a doctor about changing my medications to avoid weight gain

First problem is, when I gained all that weight from Seroquel and went to my nurse practitioner at the time, she insisted I was in relapse bc I said I was eating fewer than 2000 calories a day (which, at my height and activity level, is warranted even to just maintain weight... a bitch is 5'5" and sedentary), thought that I was lying about the scale reading higher (when she could have weighed me herself or asked a nurse to weigh me to make sure I was telling the truth), and said I needed a psychiatrist instead of any examination or labs to see if I had a physical ailment (bc again, I thought I had PCOS), so I'm afraid of that happening again -- although, this NP was really shitty at her job bc she wasn't willing to make sure I wouldn't go into anaphylaxis until I yelled and swore at her (something to the effect of "What the FUCK do Wellbutrin and depression have to do with my eyes being itchy and my nose being stuffy?!" and she jumped and gave a sort of "Oh, I guess youre right 😶" response and referred me to an allergist on the condition I also saw a psychiatrist, who I didn't go to see bc nobody can make me), and she had to leave the room to get out an entire book to flip through to DESPERATELY come up with the excuse of "your acne might get worse" when I pushed her to put me on Depo-Provera bc that was the only downside she could apparently find (news flash: my acne stayed the same the entire time I was on Depo)

Second problem is, like I said, it's hard to tell which medication this is from, so idk if I should ask the psychiatrist or the gynecologist or both

Third problem is, as I think I've said before, my GP is currently reluctantly in charge of my psych meds so she may not want to take me off Abilify herself and may make me wait until I see the psychiatrist, and I know she especially won't want to try me on lithium right before I'm handed off to the psychiatrist

Fourth problem is that I'm not seeing the GP until June, the psychiatrist until July, or the gynecologist until August, so it'll be a lot of simply waiting to be able to have this conversation with any prescribers

And I wouldn't be so concerned about gaining weight if it wasn't so physically uncomfortable for me to be this size

So that's where I'm at with my body and my medications 🤷‍♀️

[melonminnie]

Hello love 💕 I have a little request for: My mother got Married by contract !

Lyrica x Older!Cousin!Reader || First meeting ||

A little scenario of Reader and Lyrica meeting for the first time!!

Reader is the Older sister of the crown prince

How I imagine her:

Calm voice

Elegant

Free spirited

Cheerful

Always with colourful dresses

Lyrica x older!cousin! reader

-tysm for requesting!! <3333i tried my hardest to meet the requirements reader has the same appearance as the crown prince hope you like your request this too a little while to publish I’m sorry!

“Your majesty did you hear?, the emperor got married!” One of y/ns maids entered, her tone slightly excited when speaking, “Oh!, I heard she’s really pretty too, and that she has a daughter” the said girl added to her maids talking.

“Yes I heard that too, would you like to see her?” She questioned hoping she would say yes, “Not at the moment, I’d like to keep it a surprise!” She clasped her hands together.

“A surprise what do you mean?” The maid questioned, “I mean a surprise like meeting her without knowing,like at the garden or sneaking out at night” The girl leaned back in her chair, “that would be way more exciting then arranging a meeting to me” she added.

“B-but don’t you think that’s maybe a little informal?” The maid fidgeted with her skirt slightly, “I don’t care she’ll be considered as my younger cousin from now on right” she glanced at the floor “ I won’t do it in a practically informal way” she added “besides, I’m a nice person!, I won’t act mean” she reassured. “Yes I know that young miss but maybe she would think otherwise?”.

the maid yet again protested, y/n knew her maid didn’t have bad intentions, as she just wanted to make her look presentable, “fine!!” The girl sighed before standing up, “I don’t get why your so worried”.

The maid left the conversation at that returning to her duties thinking that at least she got so,e sense into the princess, as much as she’d like to think she did, y/n was known for never listening to anyone unless it was her uncle, or her teachers.

So she wouldn’t listen to her servant either no matter the cost, she had to look at the empires new forum of rumors!.

A few weeks had passed, to the girls dismay she wasn’t able to find a good proper moment, so she opted to her first plan!, a complete surprise.

Y/n was known as an elegant person threw out the entire country, so she had to put on her best act for her young cousin.

Step one for her plan was to find out as much as she could about lyricas schedule, her age, appearance, and appropriate timing so that it doesn’t seem too awkward when she met her.

Step two, Suprise her, in a friendly way of course, maybe bring a gift with her or sweets!.

Step three, putting her plan into action!!!.

The perfect timing was on a Friday night, which was sort of creepy but that’s okay!, sorta?, she didn’t care meeting her the brown haired girl was her top priority at the very moment, But sneaking into her room, might consider her to be an assassin, she didn’t want that either.

New plan!, find a new and suitable timing to not look like a creep <33333

After going threw the hassle of going threw all the procedures to meet lyrica, it finally worked out!.

One night, it was awfully hot, for no reason too as it was in the dead of winter, the blue haired girl(?) ( I don’t know what the crown princes hair color is it’s confusing sorry!) decided to go get water, admittedly it was quite risky as the kitchen was in the other side of the palace, but nonetheless she went anyway!.

Grabbing a candle and lighting it up, she walked out of her room, as quietly and quickly as possible, again it was a stupid idea, but she still did it, as she walked and walked and walked, until she heard a gasp, who’d be awake at this hour? She thought, before searching around to find the source of the gasp.

While searching around she noticed, a much timer girl with brown hair and crystal like eyes starring right at her, the brunette noticed when the person she’d been admiring starred directly at her before she walked up to her revealing herself, of course lyrica knew who the girl was she’d heard many thing about her, from her intelligence, elegance, and bright dresses that were eye catching to the normal noble.

Among many other thing she’d heard, the part that resonated with her were the dresses, sure she’d grown up poor and lived in poverty for the whole 8 years of her life, but even in the slums people would talk about the princess, when she got the castle she’d wanted to become friends with the said girl.

Of course this wasn’t an appropriate timing, she’d wanted to go to the crown princes bedroom to check on the items she’d given as a gift, once lyrica came to her senses she quickly bowed to the girl and said a quick greeting, “you really don’t need to do that” she explained making the girl stand up “her voice is so calm!!” She thought, “but my teacher told me I had to bow to anyone with a higher ranking status then me that’s including you” she mumbled fidgeting with her hands, “yeah I know but you don’t really need too!, I told you myself, if we ever meet by ourselves you don’t need too”

The girl starting playing with her hair softly, “what are you doing out here though?” She questioned kneeling to lyricas height, “I was going to see if the items I added in the crown princes bedroom were okay” she chirped, “items…?”, “I gave the prince items as a welcome gift!” She replied again, “Ah!, can I see” teh blue haired girl pleaded, “of course!” Lyrica replied grabbing onto the older girls hand and pulling her softly, “Ah wait I need to get water first it’s really hot” lyricas hand was still holding onto hers, “okay~ I can come with you” the brunette turned around to the way of the kitchen, and headed to the kitchen.

Once in the kitchen, y/n quickly grabbed two glasses and filled them with water, after she gave one to lyrica and one to herself, “thank you!” She smiled drinking the water, “your welcome” y/n replied also drinking the glass of water, “can I call you big sister?” Lyrica quickly asked nervously, “hm?.. of course” y/n replied, “really?” Asked again, “of course!!” She chirped grabbing lyricas tinier body into a hug.

“I’ve always wanted a sibling…” she trailed off, “I’ll be your sibling yeah?, we can even try getting my brother to become yours” she added “I’d like that..”

[sneakyscarab]

another day, another touhou post! i almost missed the deadline on this one (not that it really matters, the pace is gonna slow down a lot in a couple posts anyways once i catch up). today's game is a bit of a weird one!

nina's thoughts on Touhou 9 - Phantasmagoria of Flower View

PoFV is a pretty strange game. instead of being a single-player experience like most mainline touhou games, PoFV is a competitive 2-player danmaku vs game. there is still a 1-player story mode, but instead of 6 stages and boss fights each character has 8 versus matches against other characters tied loosely together into a storyline.

the gameplay is neat, its honestly impressive how well the concept of a competitive danmaku battle actually works and it feels pretty natural. as usual the screen fills up with enemies and bullets, but stages dont have defined patterns or moments, instead both players keep surviving through an increasing onslaught of bullets and spell cards until one slips up and takes too many hits. destroying enemies creates a small explosion around them that deals damage to nearby enemies and sends weak bullets in the range to the other player's screen. if you line it up right you can get some nasty chain reaction explosions that can clear up your screen and really put the pressure on your opponent. in addition you can put more direct pressure on the other guy by building up your spell meter, expending it to summon powerful bullet patterns or even your own character as a boss fight onto your enemys side. while at times it can get a bit ridiculous (the two 'villain' characters have completely broken spell cards and insanely good ai piloting) in general the gameplay is fair and pretty fun!

as a fighting game of sorts, PoFV naturally has a rather large character roster, a total of 14 playable characters! we have the returners in Reimu, Marisa, Sakuya, Youmu, Reisen, Cirno, Lyrica, Mystia, Tewi, and Aya. Then we have 4 characters new to this game: Medicine, Yuuka, and the 'villains' of the story Komachi and Eiki Shiki. each character has different stats, shot types, zone shapes, and spell attacks, which makes for a lot of variety in the roster.

to try and unlock everything i beat the story mode for all 12 choices (Komachi and Eiki Shiki don't have a story mode). i didn't aim for 1cc's since the game doesn't differentiate whether you used a continue or not, but a couple of the runs happened to be done without continues: Marisa, Mystia, Aya, Medicine, and Yuuka. i dont remember enough about all the different characters bullets and stats to say that i really prefer any over the others, tbh if i were to play more i would probably just pick a character based on vibes alone. Marisa is my go-to generally, but im also partial to Cirno, Mystia, and Aya.

for the four new characters, theyre cool. Yuuka is probably my favourite solely because she gets a lot of cute art with Wriggle lol. for some reason the fandom is very split on whether Yuuka is an angry masochist or a lonely but wholesome flower lady. i think shes realistically somewhere in the middle. Medicine is also a neat concept, being an abandoned doll in a field of poisonous flowers who came to life through raw poisonous energy. Komachi is goofy, shes basically the grim reaper of Gensokyo but shes also really lazy and always slacking off, pretty much every singleplayer storyline involves her getting caught snoozing by her boss Eiki Shiki. Eiki Shiki herself is probably the weakest new character imo, its funny watching her judge all the characters supposed sins, but its really all she talks about, and her annoying fight isnt winning her any points for me.

PoFV is certainly a weird outlier in the series, but i think the gameplay does genuinely work pretty well! the idea of making a competitive bullet hell is so out there and they really put in the work to make it happen.

as always, thanks for reading! and if, somehow, someone is reading this who is remotely decent at touhou and wants to try playing the 2-player mode of this game with me, Please get in contact with me through whatever means works for you. i would love to give this a shot against an actual human.

[sezja]

OC ask game:

2 for darcy

9 for martiallais

10 for melody

28 for tsimh!

OC Ask Game

2. what sort of music would they like? have you thought about what genres or bands do they lean towards? do they have a favorite song?

Darcy would love bright bubblegum pop music, I think. Or like, pop-punk. Anything loud and upbeat, much to Thren's always-migrained chagrin.

9: favorite food? least favorite? are they a picky eater? do they have any dietary restrictions?

Marty is not a picky eater, not at all. If you ask him, he'll say his favorite food is anything Tsimh cooks - but in truth, he's got a secret preference for fish. He considers it a stroke of luck that they eventually wind up moving to La Noscea, where fish are far more plentiful and varied - and where he can learn to fish, too. Tsimh remarks that she needs to brush up on her seafood recipes...

10: if they wear jewelry, what kind? do they prefer silver or gold? do they have a favorite gem?

Melody prefers minimal jewelry - too much, and she starts considering it gaudy. She'll occasionally wear more for a performance, but casually she often only wears her wedding ring and perhaps a necklace. She likes both gold and silver, and prefers garnets - sometimes rubies, but given that Lyrica often wears cabochon rubies strung on ribbons, not often.

28: how do they show that they care about someone? how do they express that they don't like someone?

Tsimh's most obvious love language is acts of service - if she cares for someone, she wants to do things for them; she wants to help them. Whether it's making them food or running an errand so they don't have to, or simply lending an ear or a shoulder to cry on, Tsimh always wants to put herself in a position where she can do things for someone she cares about. She never wants to let them feel like they're alone, or that there's no one they can turn to. Conversely, when she doesn't like someone, she... struggles to express it, honestly. She tries to turn people down, but often fails. So the best way to tell she doesn't like a person is when she doesn't leap at the chance to help, and instead needs to be talked into it.

[red-dyed-sarumane]

what the fuck is up with akire ocs. masterpost made way too quick while i need to sleep. i was going to add images but im tired feel free to look at the toyhouse pages tho

723 - behavioral issues. by choice. shes just like that.

aira - trapped in xeir own personal ever changing hell. like literally xi is stuck in a world that feeds off of & changes based on fears.

aisha - killed by her best friend.

alstroemeria - selectively mute until an injury made her permanently mute. often mistreated by people who think they know best bc she can't verbally argue with them

amari - she is willingly in such a fucked up relationship. constantly being framed by and the subject of bad rumors from her gf (fuyue)

amaryllis - no one listened to her or took her seriously so she ran away & when no one came to look for her realized no one really cared anyway! (isolation)

ash - was trapped in the same hell world as aira but made a deal to get out. her morals are destroyed from it & she tries to trap others in the world so she doesnt have to go back

cestria - idk what her deal is. shes just violent. hashtag influencer things i guess

cherry - u know what i dont think she has any. hm.

chime - no sense of self. theyre exclusively a mirror, intentional or not, of the people around them

chira - commits to the bit too much. will exploit people for views

cleo - refuses to get involved even when she can help. she only wants the scoop on drama

crian - currently, she beats herself up over not being able to help void before they ran away & thinks its partly her fault

daelryc - trust issues

dusk - naturally more violent than ur average person. also trapped against her will

feisha - family issues only fushia knows about. they wont talk about it to anyone else.

fjahva - his mom hates him. he gets kicked out if he tries to come back home. among other mistreatments

flora - trapped against her will & forced to participate in ethically questionable experiments

fushia - mild childhood bullying

fuyue - everything (no). malicious, petty thief, constantly lying for her own amusement, frames her gf for her crimes, blackmails, etc etc etc. why? shes bored

glacia - bully. manipulator. potential murderer but she hasnt stooped that low yet

greeml - theyre self conscious of their ears bc theyre pointy. thats like their worst problem. bc i love them

hanabi - social media poisoned mind. shes not an influencer she just needs to get offline

helix - playboy. self obsessed. used his own blessings on himself enough the other deities demoted him to demigod.

iono - despite neither of her parents being qualified to care for a kid she surprisingly doesnt have any serious problems

iraidis - carrying the weight of being rejected by several generations of people & erasure of proof of her existence

itsumi - shut in by choice & lost all her communication skills. very familiar with escapism

jade - idk i havent thought about it enough yet

keppi - also carrying the weight of generational rejection and erasure

kin - theres just so much wrong with her. she's taking herself down and the world with her. or just kinako. either works

kinako - straight up no will to live she endures whatever kin does to her. or doesnt. she dies a lot.

konome - orphan? lives in the woods with his sister & causes problems for people (""natural"" disasters)

kumo - god complex (they are not a god). the fact they arent dead is a miracle bc they are so stupid and bold and rash

kyeslu - weird girl. no one hates her per se but no one really gets along with her either.

lavender - also trapped in her own hell world

lilium - cave explorer. in the tundra. i think that counts.

linesus - (my sister :) ) well. shes dead. guess she had worm farming trauma too idk

lyra - bullied :(

lyrica - also in personal hell world

maien - shes just massively unlucky.

malshay - power complex (is that what its called??) needs to prove shes better than everyone.

manayo - causes problems on purpose. shes a fox demon she can do what she want tho

meimu - haha trauma of dying repeatedly while the worlds falling apart etc etc shes an aru sekai fan oc thats all i need to say

meision - idk i need to think about her more

meringue - got mad once (unfairly discharged from her job) and now shes a serial killer. hashtag girlboss or whatever

meshika - orphan? lives in the forest with her brother causing problems for people. has definitely killed people but good luck proving it

mkoom - victim of capitalism

nuria - disrespected & killed. now carries the stress of maintaining an entire world with her mind

oken - trauma (?) of turning into a cat against his will

paolo - would rather be a bird than a person

pomgara - distrusted & frustrated by it so shes rather sharp

refrichi - trauma of using her ability. not only accidentally killing people but also casual self harm so she can protect herself (she controls blood. if that makes it make more sense)

rhonda - unsuited to her home country & the problems that come with that. not necessarily stockholmed but she did fall in love with a serial killer

roselii - bad home life. she's overprotective bc of it

ryuusei - isolation of being in space only to come to earth & have to act like a celebrity

sarlina - blank spots in her life bc her ability consumes memories if shes not careful.

saturday - petty.

saturn - burden of maintaining balance in the world. emotionally isolated bc of it

scarlet - bully manipulator liar etc etc and all for her own gain. started bc she didnt want to get punished for bad grades & then she never stopped

sepheria - trust issues. emotional isolation bc shes from a different time period & no one will understand

sera - forced into a sort of celebrity type role he didnt want

seyla - idk what to say here she doesnt really cause problems & she doesnt really have any. mischievous at most

shaia - abandoned his duties as the weight of them was too much. somehow still a deity regardless

sometya - doesnt like people. scaredy cat. yet theyre always off exploring other worlds

sora - ability related trauma. naturally a kind hearted person but she's killed people & it haunts her

teila - tired of rejection she'll promise anything to get her way. ironically shes a shitty mom who rejected her son

tobio - trust issues & quick to argue.

towaka - accidentally got herself trapped in a video game & no longer has control over herself or a way to communicate

vanilla - fear of the unknown & stays in an area that frustrates her bc of it

viridia - victim of her own sister, verbally tormented, tricked into going places she shouldnt & losing important items bc of her only to come home and get told her sister wouldnt do that she should be more like her.

void - we've been over this. bullying into a mental breakdown into 8 years of physical and emotional isolation

wyndi - also carrying the weight of generations of rejection & erasure

xeli - victim of various poisoning attempts that dont work bc theyre immune

yuclenya - isekai'd into a world she knew nothing about, didnt speak the language, was cornered by people looking for a fight, only found out she had an ability when she used it out of fear & it thoroughly cut up her hands

[sarahdogoc80]

(Same anon from the last ask) before Lily can use your story to discredit you (if she tries saying that you were a child taking it so obviously an adult like her wouldn’t have the same effects or some shit), I was taking oxy as an adult only for 2 weeks and only used it when the pain was too much to function or sleep but shit, did I have the classic effects.

I cannot imagine having a pain that Lily is describing that requires oxy to mitigate and then not taking that oxy in order to be more coherent on my blog/discord/twitch/youtube. Either she only takes it during bedtime or she actively doesn’t use it at all just so she isn’t high while doing her tumblr blog which like… girl, once again you’re choosing the internet and your hatred over your health… or she’s straight up lying and doesn’t take oxy.

Yeah I get that. I'm surpost to take a lyrica and tramadol at bed time so I can sleep. Plus even if personal experience isn't enough I've seen plenty of people taking oxy both not as percriped and as percriped. Plus Opeits have a LONG history with humanity so we have plenty of video and medical reports what taking oxy does.

While it can be possible to not want to take it unless you absolutely have to. My grandpa did that. Even as he was dying and bleeding out he refused morphine and stopped taking pain medication his last years of life as he died of cancer. Because of personal choices.

But what makes me doubt her even more is Lily said she takes Adderall (which it 100 possible and no wear near as controlled or valuable). You shouldn't mix those two as there is a risk of your heart stopping. Because of this then she can't have her Adderall. If she is only taking it at bedtime which I guess is possible. Thought idk a single doctor who would risk rupturing someone's heart by giving them both. Because then they would get in deep trouble if she died from that. They would rather give you strong sleeping pills then pain medicine like that. And if they have to they go with norcos or perc. Or even a popular one right now is gabapentin or lyrica. Which are non Opeits pain medication.

My biggest problem mostly comes from it being oxy. I would have believed it if she didn't say that specific pain medicine because of how much I know that's specific one is controlled. Especially the Canadian version. I don't think she's taking something that strong but I think it's possible she is taking a lower dose one like codin. If she has some kind of painful bacterial infection.

[wishful-seeker]

Im gonna talk about physical disability/ chronic illness

i diagnosed myself

Well kinda

My therapist, like yours, had a patient with crps (complex regional pain syndrome) and i had been suffering from an undiagnosed chronic joint pain that left me bedridden for over 2 years and housebound. She said my symptoms were similar to her other patient and advised me to try ketamine. She is not a doctor.

So i find a local ketamine place, and a nurse practioner, who does NOT have the authority to diagnose me, agrees i have crps and we began infusions without a diagnosis. It worked. Like REALLY worked. So i knew i had crps.

I had been to countless doctors, mostly rheumatologists, literally begging and crying for even 𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘥𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘰𝘪𝘥𝘴, 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘭𝘶 and they wouldn't even give me that. Keep in mind crps is rated one of "the most painful chronic pain conditions known to man" rating higher suffering than cancer pain, amputation, and childbirth. AND THEY WOULDN'T GIVE ME MEDS ANY ADULT CAN GET WHEN HAVING A COLD. Rheumatologists are literally the cruelest, most cowardly people i have EVER met. They literally had the audacity to say "i don't feel COMFORTABLE treating you."

So, i asked my primary care doctor (bc the rheumatologists wouldn't) if she could refer me to a neurologist, she did, i saw her and said i was looking to be tested for crps. She said ok, i did a brain mri and a very painful test where im stabbed with needles that shock me to record my brains response. Afterwards the neurologist said "tests are negative" i said "i thought crps had no test, does this mean i don't have it?" She said "your right, there is no definitive test, but i actually can't diagnose it, its not my expertise."

When she left the room i hit the medical bed as hard as i could and sobbed. 4 years, 4 YEARS of this literal interaction over and over again. This one really broke me because she made us spend money and makes me go through painful tests KNOWING she couldn't diagnose me. She got my hopes up, waisted my time and money. After that my mind and body were done, there was no way i could handle that interaction again.

So i searched "CRPS doctor near me" and found one 40 minutes away, i called, and because he was a new doctor there i didn't need a referral, and got an appointment. I HAD TO DO THAT MYSELF, ALL ON MY OWN because doctors either didn't know where to send me or "didn't think i had crps" (its a rare disease, most nurses don't even know what it is.)

So, i go to my appointment, i tell him my story which is about 5 minutes. He can see that my feet are red/purple while talking to me (one of the symptoms) as soon as im done talking he says:

"So yeah, crps is really tough to treat, its a long road, but we can try physical therapy, ketamine, and lyrica-"

I interrupt him "wait, you're saying i have it?"

"Yes."

"And you can officially diagnose it?"

"Yes."

"Like on paper?"

"Yes."

He diagnosed me without touching me, looking at me, no tests. 𝘐𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘰𝘣𝘷𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘪 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 4 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘵𝘶𝘱𝘪𝘥 𝘤𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘺 𝘥𝘰𝘤𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘴 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘧𝘪𝘨𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘰𝘶𝘵.

My mom started crying, i have a really hard time processing big stuff so i stayed calm, listened, asked questions, and then it was done. Mom pulled over in the car to cry more.

I had to diagnose myself

I had to find my doctor myself

If it wasn't for my therapist and nurse practioner who knows how many more years I'd have to wait.

Moral of the story: good therapists save lives, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘨𝘶𝘵.

i got paired up with a new therapist who specializes in and works primarily with neurodivergent patients. i felt comfortable enough to tell her that i'm autistic. she asked if i've ever received a formal diagnosis- i said no, because i've attempted in the past and i've been turned down because i'm "too articulate," i "speak too well," and they see my feminine deadname and that i'm legally AFAB and dismiss me, because "women can't be autistic".

my therapist told me that self-diagnosis is valid.

as we continued to talk through that session, she readily pointed out several autistic behaviors that i had been displaying without even realizing; i began infodumping about queer history and psychology without even realizing it, which she pointed out and then remarked that those are definitely special interests of mine. i felt floored. i knew these things about myself, but she acknowledged them effortlessly without hesitation.

in the next session, she pointed out that my tendency to re-analyze social interactions well past the time that they are over is also an autistic trait, and that i wasn't ruminating anxiously, but rather that's just how many autistic people process- we "over" analyze things in ways that allistics do not. it's difficult for many of us to figure out the entirety of what's happening in the moment, we process over time.

after that, she told me that during our next session, she wanted to spend that appointment talking about my special interests so she could get a better picture of me- specifically using that wording, calling them special interests.

after years of trying and failing to get acknowledgement for my neurotype, all it took was one therapist who specializes in neurodivergence to see the signs. one. sometimes all it takes is one person to make the difference. don't give up if you think you are autistic and are struggling to get a diagnosis or just recognition for it. it doesn't mean you're wrong. the average allistic knows nothing about how autism actually presents itself, only what they know from media, memes and mean jokes. sometimes all it takes is meeting one person who knows what autism looks like.

don't give up. you know who you are.

[pokemonxhyperfixation]

This is a late birthday gift for an IRL friend.

So my friend Swirly (That's what she goes by online, so I'll just call her that) had her birthday six days ago, and I made a team for her favorite Touhou character with her beforehand and planned to post it on her birthday. Then I forgot to. Woops. Anyways, have Raiko.

Honestly, Rillaboom is a freeby. I'm not explaining why the girl who's a living drum has the drum monkey.

So, Swirly INSISTED that Raiko have a Melloetta, as it's the funny music legendary. I allowed it. When I make the Prismriver Sisters, they'll have a hole in their team, and that's because the Prismrivers and Raiko share ownership of this Melloetta. I imagine Raiko caught this thing and got it Rune Song when she went to the outside world.

Mudsdale is kinda a strange one. For some reason I can't place, I felt REALLY compelled to give Raiko a Horse. IDK why, but I did. Well, actually the reason is just because I could see her going into the Outside World and traveling on horse back on her journey of self discovery. We decided the work horse Mudsdale would be the most fitting. (Also it's the only one that realistically has the strength to help her carry her drumset around.)

Raiko is often associated with electricity, and after racking our brains for a hole 5 seconds, we came to Toxtricity. It's a music based electric type, and the Punk Rock vibes on this guy really feels fitting for Raiko's character. Went with Low Key because we felt that it fit her vibe more.

So, fun Swirly lore, she used to be a percussionist (no wonder she likes Raiko so much). I mention this because this background allowed us to decide to add a marginally less traditional percussion instrument. We were originally gonna do wind chimes with Chimecho, but Chimecho is fucking terrible so we decided to do a Bell with Bronzong instead. While I know Bronzong is a bell, and the kinds of big bells don't really sound TOO similar to this, I could honestly see her kinda useing Bronzong in place of a Gong.

Slowking is a really weird one. I had the idea that we should give her a Belly Drum pokemon, and Swirly agreed, so we checked what Pokemon got Belly Drum. Swirly just decided that Slowking was the most fitting for her, so that's what we went with.

Honorable mention to Chatot. We both collectively decided that Raiko AND the Prismrivers have Chatots, but that they don't use them in battles. So yeah.

(Also fun fact, the first draft of Raiko's Trainer Card used Lyrica as the Character, because Pokecharms' Classic Trainer Card Maker I use DOES have Touhou Character Icons, it's just that they are Reimu, Marisa, Flandre, Byakuren and Fucking LYRICA for some reason. Thought this Red Headed one felt more fitting, so I changed it when we added Toxtricity.)