#Katerina: “Fucking Bears fucking up my shit.”

[niphuial]

Elias blinks, curiosity shining brightly in his eyes. "Auntie Katerina can swim really well though. She rescued me when I got stuck on a small piece of floaty ice going down the river when I was new to my wolf. So Alpha did a good job teaching her." He stopped, looking thoughtful. "We did end up farther downstream then she thought we were though and there was this bear too...."

A low growl left Katerina, and her eyes turned gold. "I swear I'll kill that damn sow...I already killed a male polar bear, a female can't be much harder, now can it?"

Elias nodded solemnly. "She's an enemy in our territory auntie, an affront to our very structure as a pack. Also, she tried to eat us both." He pointed out, drinking from his mug. "How can we let such an offense go? She made a mess out of your tail and pelt. Uncle Lucian laughed at you for ages."

A snicker left Lucian at the memory, and Katerina kicked him, actually hitting her target, causing him to wince. "It was funny!" He defended, shooting his sister a wounded look. "She comes home an iceball with multiple bald patches in her pelt with her tail absolutely destroyed and puppy Elias is a little iceball as well and you expect me not to laugh? No, it is still funny. Especially how it fuels her hatred of bears. I think I actually turned the whole thing into a play to show Elijah, truth be told. Made costumes and everything, just need performers now." He grins as Kol laughs and Katerina throws her remaining sausage at him, and low growl leaving her throat.

Tsking, he catches it with his mouth, smirking at his twin as she glares at him. "Thanks, sis." He murmured, smirk still on his face. "As for the drama club, you have to get the Alpha's permission to join if you're a hybrid but you aren't so..." Lucian shrugs. "Just show up to the meetings then? Although Elias will be there and according to the Child Labor Laws he gets paid per client so you'll have to start paying him as well."

this would be fun to watch

[wo-wann-was-wer]

WHAT I WAS THINKING: DARK SEASON 3 EDITION

EPISODE 1:

Who are these dudes with the harelip and what do they want

Why did she just take him to a cave and leave that’s kinda rude

So everything in this universe is just gonna be backwards. Love it

Ugh I’ve said this a million times but this show has such Fringe energy and I can’t wait to get a tattoo for this too

This is super freaking me out, i dont like that everyone’s in everyone else’s house.

Ooooh Katharina with glasses yes girl you better work.

I like Michael and this hat he’s rocking

Super into the fact that magnus and fransizka are involved in this universe too

There’s nothing cuter than sex before school. Ahhh the nostalgia

Ten bucks says that Hannah gets out of this bed and is pregnant

Fucking YEP

I am loving Martha in this Jonas journey

I know that all they did was flip the lens of the camera but my brain is breaking at this flipped Winden

Who the fuck is this random dude Martha is with

You know what he kind of looks like Jonas. I wonder if that's relevant or if I'm just grasping at straws

Bartosz looks like he's going to his first grade violin recital

I straight up just did not recognize Charlotte with makeup. She looks hot

There's got to be another person in that picture other than Ulrich because that's a lot of space to rip out for one person

okay hold up Woller looks so good and then when I saw that he was missing an arm I almost lost my fucking mind

Oh shit okay Hannah is living in Katharina's house.

Oh my God are Ulrich and Charlotte having an affair

Is it normal in Germany for kids to just walk into classes that aren't there’s and just sit down

follow up he has a clear noose mark on his neck

Aleksander looks so hot with this beard. universe B is the fucking glow up universe

It's weirding me out that the whole school is black and gray instead of light brown

The look of satisfaction on katharina's face

Wow honestly Louis just broke my heart with his facial expression when he realized his mom didn't know who he was

he looks so scared

Yes yes do it afffffffffair

Oh no you done got found out!!!

Oh the theme of the play here is red and set of gold

Fransizka looks so cute in this little outfit

Oh my God she's deaf!!!!

What the fuck. the fact that this actress can talk is blowing my mind

RIP to Regina a real queen

Peter's a fucking priest

All the fucking weird-ass freaky motherfucking trio is back

The dopplers have the same house That's cool

excuse me sir I think your child is broken

these guys are so creepy What the fuck

I definitely don't like the piano wire

oh this motherfucker is the one who gets lost

I feel like winden in this universe is just a little bit fancier

Well Charlotte and Ulrich just be fucking like crazy

Bartosz is the Jonas of this group and I love it

who was that??????

I cannot get over Aleksander in this beard

I like that things are opposite but they also have things that are different enough.

Like I'm so into the fact that they all went down into the bunker

who in the unholy fuck is that. who is that

Oh shit old Martha

What the fuck is this Tannhaus’ factory we're at

hold up Martha's in 1888

What the fuck. why is Jonas in 1888 and looking SO good

EPISODE 2:

casually sitting over your bed watching you sleep

he's look so good though

yo what the fuck everybody else is there too

Oh no things got really ugly at Mads’ wake

Not for nothing but Tronte is a dick

I kind of don't understand why Claudia would want Regina to live in such pain in this type of universe

Peter is such a good boy

lurking is the freaking national past time of this place

Oh shit we got some spin-off timeline stuff good

who is This is blind guy

I love Katharina so fucking much

I know what she's thinking and it's the same thing I'm thinking which is can I kill a child

why does this picture of Tronte make him look like Jimmy Smits

Katharina looks amazing in this jacket

Also I definitely did not just start yelling GO GET YOUR MAN KATHARINA

Regina just gets more and more badass as time goes on. Also all of the women of the tiedemann family are so fucking badass

I am so excited to watch this fucking relationship develop. they're both too cute

awwww he's using signs!

oh they're writing back and forth

DAMNIT PETER

I always feel like little Noah should do fuckboy sign offs when he leaves rooms because he's so smooth

yesterday Laurel said that this was back to the future but serious and just now Bartosz said it's not super easy to get nuclear fuel in 1888 and now I think that Laurel's right

I will never get over how good he looks JONAAAASSSSSSS

This guy feels like the OG inventor of sic mundus right

Katerina why are you even trying to check in at the front desk bitch Go and get your man

Is this Katarina's mom why does she just recognize that woman's name

everyone on the show is so talented.I spend the whole damn time being like oh my god the performances on the show and it's like yeah we know

Katerina get your man

I literally love them so much look at the look on her face She is a mama bear She is not going to let anybody take her man or her children and I love her

Not a huge fan of people who quote Shakespeare right before they kill other people or am I an enormous fan of people who use Shakespeare right before they kill other people

using a garotte to kill someone is ugly as fuck

I feel so bad for Jana

see this is one of the reasons why I'm like why would you bring Regina back to this world.

wowwwww TRONTE what's up dude

YO WHAT

Oh so how did Charlotte get back there but Elizabeth's still there too. didn't they switch places?

oh the head bump

Not excited for the mother daughter abuse stuff that's about to happen

I love these split sequences that they do at the end

anytime somebody stands and stairs for a lonely at a spot on the ground I assume to somebody died there

Oh shit that guy is a tannhausokkkk I see you

a religious images we love to see it.

This show is a whole series of pause that frame.

No I ruined something for myself!!!!

EPISODE 3

got to love those through and through Ariadne references

okay so Charlotte's great great grandfather has her watch?

who are these horrible traveler human beings

they look like less sexy Francis dolarhydes

I can't get over the fact that wollers missing an arm here I swear

we ARE the glitch BITCH

alternate universe Ulrich is a better person than standard Ulrich

what's this new like zoom-y thing they're doing

I was attracted to Magnus at this jump of the show but he looks better with dark hair

How did they not all die of fucking flu

eternally repeating deja vu

I looked at the production stills and I was like what the fuck is this hair do that Moritz has but he looks amazing

Also everyone on this show deserves an acting award

and Magnus is wearing a skeleton sweater

Hannah does that deep dive detective work any bitch knows the Nose doesn't lie

why doesn't anybody want to fuck wöller

omgggg eat the RICH

also he has that x tattoo on his hand that represents the no future thing

oh the light is rectangular and not circular ooooooh fancy

The show is also a lot of people catching each other's wrists as they walk away

I knew we couldn't trust this bitch

What did he give her

I love the parallels and characters behaviors between universe a and universe b

I want to know how Noah factored into all of this on this side

Martha has a type and her type is iconically Aryan

Oh Aleksander's back with that beard he's back

Hannah is such a snake

Omg that's her!!!!! I thought she was a trans actress.. hm. not super happy bout that :/

What is Helge talking about Ulrich did what??? omg

I would be like SIR DO WE NEED TO FIGHT STOP FOLLOWING ME

I stopped taking notes for the last half of that episode cuz I was really sucked in haha

EPISODE 4

FIRST OF ALL I'D LIKE TO GO ON RECORD THAT I DON'T CARE FOR THESE GENTLEMEN AT ALL

second of all why is this guy being like oh I took your name

why does he have Agnes's bracelet I don't like that

I don't like anything about this guy That's the end of the story

Also hold up a red hot second is Agnes dead cuz if so that's a hate crime

see what did I say

I knew that Hannah was going to get involved with Egon

from the second she walked in that office I was like that bitch has her eye on him and as she should he's handsome as fuck

Also he spoils her so much more than any other man she's ever been with AKA is Egon the only man she ever deserved

Is Hannah going to develop a heart cuz I'm not sure how I feel about that

Also what happens if Hannah gets pregnant

why is Ines a bitch I thought she was mad cool the beginning and now I feel fucking deceived

Also it's such a sweet gig that The kids who are playing kids can now play teenagers

poor Doris. Also he was shitty to her but he was far nicer than I would have been

Doris is so beautiful it's bullshit

older Magnus is so handsome

All I wanted was middle-aged Martha

bitch you have been having unprotected sex with him why do you think that pregnancy was not on the tabl

I'm like who's this guy in the church if it's not Noah I bet it's that little bitch

yeah I fucking knew it

Is this the dude that was married to Agnes I feel like this guy isn't real or something

I'm not surprised he let her go but I don't know why I'm not surprised. I feel like she's important to his timeline and I'm not sure why

look at these relationships forming between these sweet little bab

Hannah looks good in this red. Hannah looks good in all of these styles. 

who is this child

I like that already as a child Bernd had his eye on Claudia as someone who was smart and had a ton of potential

 I keep forgetting that I'm taking notes because I get so invested in episodes

Also I realize the zoomi thing which is going back and forth between the universes

Is Agnes Silja’s mom And if so with whom 

he gave her Agnes’ bracelet that dope All right Tronte

Wow Claudia needs to back off her man

Claudia force him into a relationship with her

I fucking hate Hannah but sometimes she speaks so much sense

ooh I don't need anyone Yes girl that's true You don't need anyone You needing people was what made you act fucking crazy You don't need anybody

This was always my big problem with Hannah was that I initially identified with her because she was such a survivor but then she did such horrible reprehensible things I just couldn't let it go and I absolutely couldn't identify with her anymore

Oh here's my daddy Noah looking so good

I mean okay so I have been in this position before where I was cheating and then my man cheated on me and I was like how dare you but also you cannot be mad if your partner cheats on you when you cheated too. You both fucked up

Is Hannah going to have a redemption arc cuz that's a lot

Oh my God she's not going to get rid of this child is she

Oh my great God I cannot believe that she gave Helene that necklace. 

I knew she was fucking connected to Katharina in the older generation I knew it

Louis and Lisa are a super cute couple and I know that they're not dating in real life but I think that they're very cute together

Oh everybody fucking

yeah they created the Apocalypse yeah

Oh no they have a child outside of worlds that's a mess How does that work so they had they gave birth to that ugly fuck

honestly I hate that he's their child for the most part just because he's ugly as fuck and neither of them are ugly as fuck so it makes me mad.

[shane1me]

TVD/TO/Legacies

I feel sorry for LJ Smith, having to watch something she created be massacred the way that it has been. I feel sorry for the cast and crew of the TVD, TO, and Legacies. It must be hard to sit back and watch as writers and directors make bad decision after bad decision.  It must also be hard to watch fellow cast influence or aid writers and directors in bad decisions. Especially when it has the power to affect not only ratings, cancellations, and your livelihood. Julie Plec has ruined Legacies before it even began. I never understood why the made the Originals spinoff the way they did. 1000 year old dead sperm waking up and impregnating people is absurd. It should have served as a prequel to TVD and chronicled their lives before TVD. If they never did the New Orleans storyline with the Originals TVD would still be alive. TVD should have led into Legacies.

Kol:

Should have never been left out of “Always and forever.” Never understood how there was never really any serious character development with him in TVD. A Immortal with a vast knowledge of witches and their power not being explored is a travesty, By rights Kol and Bonnie should have traveled the world together with him helping her become a better witch since she really never had anybody to teach her about her craft. they should have returned to teach at the school Instead of treating them like crap repeatedly killing them and any great storyline they should have had.

Rebekah:

Her character could have been an empowered ass kicking woman but they chose to make her needy and weak. They could have gave her some awesome fight scenes and let her travel the world and realize how awesome she really was.  Instead she ended up with a man who chose immortality and power over her.  Her and Marcel’s story was creepy/cute until you find out they called Mikael and he never tried to find her so he could rule New Orleans without the Originals.

Finn:

Another person who had potential.  He should have never been brought back to die senselessly for a senseless storyline.  Should have stayed dead, been brought back into the family, or became a main villain.

Camille:

Never understood her character always thought she would end up canon fodder.  the only human with no sense of self preservation.  Who never had any of those dark objects she was in charge of for protection until after she turned into a vampire. Plus, the moment she hooked up with Marcel they should have never tried to pull Klamille out of their asses.  WHO HOOKS UP WITH THEIR SONS LEFTOVERS. they Could have made her into a powerful character who was in charge of the human factions.

Haley:

I never liked how they treated her character from the beginning. She should have never been in New Orleans. Haley and Tyler never should have came back to Mystic Falls. She helped him break his sire bond not Caroline.  Those 2 should have had a werewolf/hybrid spinoff  and brought wolves together as a pack.  Instead we got to watch Carol Lockwood die and Caroline constantly waiting  for him to return only to choose revenge over her. those two could have had a bad ass spinoff.  

Marcel:

I liked his back story, but constantly making the main black character feel like they weren’t really a part of the family and should be grateful for being plucked out of slavery is beyond fucked.  Why couldn’t he be Klaus’ son that ruled his own kingdom instead putting them at odds.

Elijah:

I Never really liked this character until i saw him playing chase with Katerina Petrova. Other than that his only other notable performance before that was when he broke some windows with a pocket full of change.  I never understood how he could love Katherine for 500 years and then give up on her the moment the women who orchestrated the death of Kol and his entire sire line told him Katherine was responsible  for her brothers death. His story should have ended with him and Katherine in Europe with Nadia or being the person in charge of the supernatural school. Let’s be honest would you prefer Elijah MIkealson protecting your child’s school or Alaric and Caroline. That’s like asking Mr.Filch to run Hogwarts over Dumbledore.

Klaus:

For someone who waited so long to break his curse why did he know nothing about being a werewolf.  Only seeing him turn once and never again.  Why not explore his wolfside and the origins of his fathers pack.  Instead of giving him a magic baby and not fighting to raise her by keeping them away from each other then him sacrificing himself needlessly.

TVD and TO never should have seperated. The ships from TO in my opinion never should have happen.  Delena was cool for 5 seconds but never should have been endgame. Steroline would have worked if they explored it when Caroline became his sober sponsor or when he found out about Damon and Elena sleeping together. They waited 2 long and made it feel like her mother pressured him to notice her. It felt like watching to kids at prom realizing they are the only ones not dancing and saying “hey were the only ones left lets dance.” They took a great friendship and made Stefan treat Caroline like shit. Instead of her having a dream wedding it was used as a plot to kill Katherine. Forcing her to become a widow on her wedding night. Klaroline should have been endgame.  Forcing Klaus to make his daughter an orphan was shitty.  Forcing Caroline to never move on is selfish and horrible.  the fact that she will live a long life watching her kids grow up and one of them die because of the Gemini curse. Watching her friends and family grow old an die and expect her to grin and bear it alone so she can keep a shitty half a day husbands memory alive is cruel, pointless, and disgusting. The fact that she has to be alone and watch as her shitty best friend and rapist have a happy life because of her husband is cruel and heartless.

All we got is fan baiting and ignored fandoms and ships ridiculed while the writers and kept making shitty excuses for bad choices. 

Legacies could have been great with TVD and the Originals as teachers bringing in a new generation of supernaturals.

[negans-womam]

Momma Bear

Requested-no

Prompt-Katerina goes on a solo run for her group and runs into the savoirs. Negan is not Happy with what he sees

Warning-pissed of began and his dirty mouth

Pairing-Katerina and negan 

I wipe the sweat off my face as I walk around the almost empty gas station holding to at least find something to bring back to my group knowing if I bring something good Dan will pull me off of solo runs for a while at least. I'm about to give up when I find a big box of stuff food clothes and even some meds I know it'll be a hard walk home carrying this on my own but I have to not just for me.I smile as I rub my swollen belly 

"Don't worry mommy will find us something better when you decide to come out baby"

Just as I say this I hear the little bell above the door give a light ring. My eyes go wide as I quickly duck behind the counter with my prize as I hear several foot steps and someone complain about three being nothing here to a man they called Negan. Curious to how many there are I slowly peek my head out to see at least 5 men including one that looked like the leader with a baseball bat covered in wire resting on his shoulder my eyes widen as he looks over towards the counter I'm behind I quickly hide hopeing in vain that he didn't see me. I close my eyes as he whistles.

"I see you"

I whimper in fear as I hear guns turn my way before the deep voice calls out again

"Come on out. We won't hurt you if you come out peaceful. Or I can send one of my fucking men to get you he man not be as fucking nice.

I take a deep breath knowing its best to just listen to the baseball pysco

" I'm coming out but first I want your men to lower there gun's or I swear I'll take out as many of you as I can starting with you batboy!"

"Ha lady you have some huge fucking balls on you! OK cause I like your guts you got it fucking lower your guns guys."

I peep out seeing them lower the guns I slowly stand and walk out from my spot my arms around my belly quickly drawing the Negan mans attention his smirk lessing just a bit but still there 

"Damn no wonder you have claws doll fucking momma bear fucking protecing her cub"

"Please just let me go"

I beg him with my eyes at that moment a man with blonde hair and a scared face walks to him with my box and knife

"Negan she had these"

"Damn you hit the jack fucking pot doll even got meds enough for weeks "

"Please I need to get those to my group we need it!"

Negans face goes dark in that moment as he looks at Scarface who looks at me with narrowed eyes

"Who else is here!?" 

" no one its just me I swear"

"Calm the fuck down Dwight look doll, hell what's your name?"

"Katerina Dawson"

"That's fucking cute I'm Negan. Are you telling me Katerina that your fucking group let you go on a run alone"

I nod not sure why he's so upset I go on run a lot since Dan says I eat most of the food I should go get more. I yelp as negan hits his bat hard against a shelf knocking off a few bottles. He looks over with a worried look that gone as fast as it came

"Fuck sorry doll I'm not mad at you. You know what I have a fucking idea how about I give you a ride to your group I think I want to meet the sorry shits thatvlet a pregnant woman go off on her own"

I don't want my group in danger but know I have no chose and for some reason I trust negan he makes me feel safe for the first time in years. So I slowly nod taking his hand as he offer's it helping me to his truck.

Well this has now turned to a two partner hope you like it feel free to send ask or request let me know if you want to be tagged

@i-am-negan-trash @negandarylsatisfaction @puma67 @kazosa

[notesandcoffee]

Opinions 4.16-7

I keep getting the sinking feeling that I've missed something horribly important, no matter how I interpret this episode. I've watched them both several times at this point, and things aren't just adding up for me. I'm hoping writing this will make things clearer for me, so bear with me if it's not super-polished. UPDATE: kinda helped, but not really. Feel free to shoot me an ask if you’re confused, because chances are really high I am too.

Our blacklister for the first part is a bee-shirted lady hunting down bad guys in a revenge quest. I just really enjoy the thought of all of those moving parts together, but I kind of wish that we got more of a glimpse into her daily life as an apiarist rather than just her wearing her bee-shirt as therapy. I wanted to bee more invested in her, and I wanted to see evidence of the fire, rather than having it bee in an infodump there at the end. But adding all of that in would have taken screentime from other plots I prefer, so I suppose it worked out in the end. In the first part of our two-part premiere, Dembe kidnaps Aram out of Janet's arms and into the trunk of a car, which he stops to force Aram in to... the trunk of another car. Dembe has a master plan in mind to clear his name with Reddington, and that is to figure out who opened the safe first, which is why he needs our master hacker, despite not knowing the slightest else about him. Aram pulls the data from the safe, and in a bit that hits too close to home for me, the data that he pulls is fucking useless unless he can break the encryption. Around this time, Dembe realizes that Aram  doesn't want to harm him, no matter how much he waves a gun at Aram, and the two tag-team to break into the security company to get the encryption to figure out who made it into the safe. Aram's protective, hyper-analytical personality is matched by Dembe's stoic loyalty to Reddington, causing Aram to pick up on things Dembe wasn't really planning on telling his hostage. With all the courage that comes from shit-talking "Agent Zuma" in front of the guard at the crypto-security company, Aram manages to steal the encryption key without much of an issue, until his colleagues show up to collect Dembe for Reddington. At the same time, Aram's kidnapping sets off a sequence of events in the P.O. Cooper and Ressler take turns taking shots at Red, both worried for their colleague. No one's really wrong in this scenario, but considering the amount of sympathy that's been garnered for Red, the rest of the P.O. comes across as callous to the audience. Red and Liz are searching for Dembe via his daughter (and granddaughter), the only two other people Dembe cares about. The relationship between our leads appears amicable, although there are a noticed lack of sentimental moments between the two in favor of Red's long stories and Liz's focus on the search. Red also calls in Glen, who happens to be in the middle of helping a Spanish-speaking driver, and is easily the funniest part of the premiere. Glen and Red bicker and get under each other's skin while both men are giving Spanish instructions to a confused señora, with Liz tagging along in the backseat. It gives everyone (literal) whiplash how quickly the scene ends and we're left with just Red and Liz again, but I'm always happy to see Glen in an episode. The interactions between Elise Janet and Navabi are cutthroat and tense, with each making suppositions about the other. After hearing of Aram's kidnapping, Navabi grabs Janet and immediately begins interrogating her for answers, without hearing the rest of the briefing. Not to be outdone with the emotional outbursts, Janet spends a solid amount of time trying to provoke Navabi into a reaction at their relationship. Navabi is mostly focused on getting Aram back into a not-kidnapped state, but she's barely holding it together around Janet's constant prodding, mostly by talking about Aram and his past. By the time Aram confronts her, she's done with talking about him and his relationship, having heard everything she needs to know through Janet. He gives a heartfelt statement about how he actually feels about her, and she responds in turn by trying to terrify him. Love triangles are such a bland "romantic" plotline in general that it's hard for me to believe I'm looking at one, but here we are. Everyone's trying their hardest to be mature about the whole thing, but no one actually is. While there's plenty of character development to be had here, I'm confused as to why I should be invested in this storyline. No one comes out on top in any scenario. If Aram had told Navabi earlier just how much her intensity scared him, or if Navabi had been a bit more clear with her intentions when she started, or Janet could just... stop fucking trying to get Navabi to punch her for a half-second, I would have reason to root for someone. That being said, other fans are more endeared to Navabi in a way that I don't relate to through this story, and want Aram to stay with Janet, so more power to them. I'm just having a hard time figuring out who it is I should be cheering for, even though my fave is in it. For the record, I don't like Janet with Aram, because she seems more intent on controlling him and showing him off than she does actually healing the damage she did while undercover. The episode even acknowledges this at one point, as Janet throws herself at Aram as he stares over her shoulder at Navabi. From the way Aram talks to Navabi at the end, being openly honest with her about what he loves admires about her, it's not hard to guess why Janet would be as insecure as she is. But Navabi, of course, turns it back on him in an apathetic rage. She has every right to, of course, but I can't help thinking that Aram is likely more of an anxious mess after that interaction than anything else. Friend. At any rate, that's not really what people are talking about, is it? This is the point where things start to fall apart, at least for me. Full disclosure: this is my understanding of events. This may or may not be correct, but it is mine. I had to write out most of the episode to merely understand what happened, but since it's been capped and recapped by now, I'll spare you that draft and just cut to the analysis. It's revealed that Katheryn Nemec -- better known to Liz as Mr. Kaplan -- poisoned the wine and is responsible for Red's episode. There was nothing surprising or dramatic about the reveal, as the audience knew the whole time about her struggle to stay alive, but I think I would have preferred at least the attempt at humor to help balance out how dark the whole idea was. Instead we got Creeper McCreeperson blowing himself up after a fight in the woods to help protect a woman he had chained to the bed at one point. Okay, then. The difference between Kaplan and every other villain that we've had on the show is that the past isn't a thing that separates the audience from Red and the villain. Luthor Braxton knew Red before Liz, brought it up with him as he taunted him while the audience was left completely in the dark, but that's not at all the case here. Here, the attempt is made to walk us through how exactly Kate became a villain, outlining her relationships with Katerina, Annie, and Nikos all in a span of minutes, memories triggered while on a gruesome road trip literally digging up Reddington's past murders. The explanation in flashback doesn't really work how it might be intended to, for me, but it is an attempt nonetheless. We know that Kaplan's spent more time backing up Red and being there for him independently of Elizabeth; it doesn't make sense that Kate would betray Red so quickly in such a span of time, especially when her main loyalty is to Liz, and not Red. Liz has nothing to be obviously gained by betraying Red at this point, though Kaplan makes the argument before Red leaves to turn himself in. I think I would like to see Kate really struggle with the idea of betraying Red in her own mind in upcoming episodes, to really underline that betraying Red and Liz, by extension, is something she isn't at all used to. I did actually like the idea of exploring who Kaplan is and why she's such a close asset to Red, but I really wish that it was clearer where exactly the pieces fall in this case. I felt like the exploration of Kate's backstory really needed to be two episodes, and a lot of the things that would have held the story together must have ended up on the cutting room floor, likely due to time. Little details that would have made Katerina more human and not just a personal illusion, Masha's personality as a toddler, and Kaplan's life when she wasn't with the Rostovas. There were quite a few unanswered questions by the end of the episode, and I found myself trying to make sense of a myriad of continuity errors -- just in the episode itself, outside of the story arc it's located in. To cite an example I wrote too much about in a previous draft, why is "the American" described as blond when he's clearly not? And why is Dembe worthy of forgiveness for "betraying" Red when Kaplan is not? How did Kaplan get ahold of the fulcrum in a shitty motel room after a week of being inside? Why is there so much weird emphasis on Katerina's sex life? That last question was actually enough to throw me out of the story about the third or fourth time it was mentioned, and I was left wondering why we needed to care about it. The American -- later referred to as "Raymond" and very clearly not Spader -- was with Katerina in the car, but Spader insists to Kate that he had an affair with Katerina as well. It made me wonder which I should be believing, and it felt disrespectful to Katerina to watch. And Katerina's bisexual, by the way. I will not get into discussions or arguments about it because it's 100% true. Moving back to my previous point, there are a lot of continuity errors, most of them un-accidental. Kaplan's memory is shattered, and we're seeing odd-placed clips that describe her time only after meeting Katerina. In the ending story in 4.11 ("The Harem"), we hear about Kaplan's sister being involved in witness protection. Red spends the better part of that episode tracking down information related to Kate's sister, risking Liz's life in the process, making Kaplan's story -- the whole story -- of deep importance to Red. This incident had to have made an impact on Kaplan, but of all the memories we see, that isn't one of them. Either it happened before Kaplan met Katerina, it didn't happen at all, or Kaplan's memory is shattered beyond repair. The first is plausible, the second is not, and the third opens up a possibility that we don't see confirmation of on-screen -- the idea that Kaplan's memories aren't 100% accurate. One of the recurring themes of "Blacklist" is it's use of memory and how the mind can play tricks, and in some cases, torture. We spent the better part of 2 seasons trying to get into Liz's childhood memories, and spent a whole episode in Red's memories of Katerina and their relationship. But the main difference here is that if we are in Kaplan's memory, if it is shattered, it's not explained to the viewer the same way as it is with Liz and Red. Kaplan's memories are presented as unfiltered flashback, the kind that you see in a kind of extended montage. There's no hazy lighting to show that it might be a memory of a memory as we've seen in Liz, no explanation scene as we saw with Red. Just the idea that being shot in the head twice probably isn't the best way to remember the past. What does all of this mean? Is Kaplan on a weird revenge quest against Red, or a rescue mission for Liz? What's her best-case scenario in this situation? Is Dembe going to pay the same consequences as Kaplan, or is he forgiven? Has Agnes moved out with TK? Why would we not get an explanation for the gross incontinuity that is Kaplan's memory, or even a hint that it may not be accurate? What actually happened to Kaplan's sister, and why did Katerina pick Sam to take care of Liz? And who am I supposed to cheer for? The audience surrogate is Liz as a premise, and she's torn over the idea of Kaplan and Red feuding, and Red offers very little comfort in that regard. I would like to see Red actually acknowledge Liz's pain and try to comfort her. It would provide a sentimental moment between the two of them, and we would see more of how Red feels about the ordeal. Twitter kept pace with our breakneck episodes, and it was hard for me to keep up with everything and my cocktail at the same time. In truth, I think that's how I prefer it, so I won't complain. Hatley's back to interacting with all kinds of feedback again, too, but it seems most of our friends in the writers' room have been quiet, for the most part. I wonder what that's about.

[ecotone99]

(RF) Part 1 - Love is Overrated (Chapters 5-7)

Chapter 5 – The Pain Persists

I disappeared from our group for a week, I just couldn't take the pain. It was definitely too much. Chelsea was still hanging around with our friends and told me they were asking about me and she didn't know what to tell me. She said she was sorry for hurting me and if I don't want her around anymore, she understands.

"I would never say that. I always want you around, even if we aren't together" I replied truthfully. Honestly, I still wanted her around. I was slowly coming back to our group and reintegrating. It was interesting because she acted as if nothing happened. We still talked, everything just slowly transitioned into being the same. We would go back to regular conversations, still call each other. We even got as far as talking about what names for children would be good.

I was curious though, was I just being pulled around? Am I blind? Is there something I'm not seeing? I was so blind by happiness that I wasn't looking carefully at the situation and analyzing it. I had forgotten everything I had learned, everything I had originally been trained for. This time, I stopped and thought about it. This is what I came up with. I thought back to a conversation we had before about her telling me that she felt as if one of our friends had a crush on her, she gets the feeling of it, but she didn't wanna hurt his feelings so she didn't want to tell people about us. Only certain people knew and the more people found out, she was still ok with it. It was just that one friend we couldn’t tell. She was going to figure out how to do it but not right now. I kept lingering on that moment.

Regardless, throughout our next conversations and interactions I kept thinking about it and it kept coming back to how her and Callie interacted because she would keep doing it. She would say she couldn't do it anymore and leave and then come back. It happened three more times after the initial break up. What could I do? I just had to sit here and endure but I couldn't anymore. I finally told myself, let me take a break and take a contract overseas for a bit. I wanted to go to South America, it seemed like fun. I told my friends I was going to be gone for a month, no worries. They understood and told me to be careful. I still talked to them and it was completely ok with everyone. Everyone but Chelsea. She was severely upset, she wanted me to come back home. It was dangerous, trying to seize drugs, trying to stop bad people in the world. I was ok, I felt fine. I wanted to do it, I'm good at it. I even offered to send her my teddy bear, a bear I had kept from childhood that went everywhere with me, so I would be forced to come back and get it from her. She declined…nay…she ignored that whole conversation until later on when she said "I should've taken Teddy." Oh well, what's done is done, I'm overseas now.

"Are you safe?" she texted.

"Yeah, I'm good. I'm stuck in the mountains just watching, everything is completely fine. Plus, I'm originally from Peru, I blend in."

"I'm just worried, I want you to come home. I want you to be safe.""I am safe. Why do you think I'm not?"

"Anything can happen there, we don't know. Please just come home. Why did you have to go in the first place?"

"I'm fine, I promise. I needed to get out for a bit. I just needed a change of scenery. I had to get away from it all. It was getting to be too much." I never did explain to her that I hated keeping everything from our friends. I hated it. It was eating me up inside. At one point she said "I would shout it from the mountains and tell everyone you're mine." It just didn't seem true, she wanted to keep everything a secret. I was abiding.

I ended up having to move to action, what else could I do? I was there for a reason. In an attempt to seize a shipment of cocaine I got into a tussle with a cartel member and fractured my leg. I had no idea, I felt nothing. It was a hairline fracture. I told Chelsea and she was upset, hated me for being there and said that now she couldn't take it, yet again. She wanted to leave my life and I said ok, well, I'll come home. I did what I was supposed to do but at this point we were so distant from each other, it was just bad.

Eventually I made it home and we didn't talk much. She spoke sporadically because I had told her I didn't wanna come home yet. What would I come home to? Her?

"Let me be clear, you're not coming home to me. I'm out of the equation."

Well, then what would it matter? Should I even care? It was just going to be me. I was happy at one point. I was. Truly.

After that last one I messaged all our friends to tell them why she was upset, and that her and I wouldn't be getting back together. I had no idea she had access to those messages, she saw them. She was very upset because she said she didn't want them in our business. They have no right. If she wanted them to know then she would tell them. I've just ruined anything left between me and her. I mean, whatever, I'm just trying to make sure they understand why she's been so upset. She kept telling me they know she's upset and were asking her but she kept pushing the question aside. So I'm telling them exactly why and they chose to ignore me. They sided with her, that's fine. I cleared my conscious and that's what matters to me. To her, it may seem like she's won but it's also how you win that matters. I was alone, no friends, but I was content with how I handled things. With the truth.

Chapter 6 – Death is So Close

She started going back through our messages and deleting them. I never would’ve noticed but she put up a message as a favorite, one that said we were a perfect fit. I didn’t know what to say.

“I like that one too. I still think it” I replied. I had nothing else to say. “Are you just going back through our messages and deleting them?” As I scrolled up I would see her deleting anything that remotely expressed warm feelings or love towards each other.

“I don’t know what I’m doing. I have no clue.”

“You can delete the messages but you can’t erase the memories.”

“I’ll probably end up deleting this too.”

“I’m sorry, about everything. Do you want to talk about it?”

“I’ve said everything already.”

In the days to come I didn’t know I would be met with cardiac complications. One of the weirder things I had ever experience, a fracture on my leg I thought was a bruise, it hurt but it wasn’t the worst thing in the world. Well, I had a fracture to the point of leaking bone marrow and lead to a heart attack. It sucked, I was hospitalized. I’m under 30, I’m low risk but such is life, you just have to roll with the punches. Our friends checked in on me, she didn’t. It was at this point in time I realized she didn’t care, at least, that’s what came across my mind. I’m sure she cares but not as much as she used to. I remember waking up in the cardiac ICU after being stable. I demanded discharge after having normal repeat labs.

I headed home and sat around for a while until I was strong enough to get around. I didn’t want to go back to work, instead I headed to Italy to relax. Was it fun? Eh…debatable, but I was able to get away and not think of anything going on, for one…damn…day… I left one of my friends at home to look after my dog, I couldn’t bring him with me. Her name is Katerina and she started reading the notes I had. I document just about everything I do and all the conversations I have, you never know when you need something, I’m just meticulous that way. The notes had discrepancies in age ranges and specific details of life just to note, I tend to forget things easily. In that hard drive I also had recorded conversations in case I needed to recall something, again, I’m just meticulous and because in my previous line of work it was good to have those things at arm’s length.

The issue then arose when she started talking to the guy that played matchmaker, for this story he’ll be referred to as J. Now J meant well, he really did, but he approached Chelsea about the concerns Katerina had told him. Due to that he received negative responses about me that I thought were unwarranted, but I took no action. I never said one bad thing about Chelsea, I never expressed hate or rancor, I simply listened and let it go. But wouldn’t you know it? It got worse from here. The rest of our friends decided to ask me why I was spreading lies…while I’m on vacation! Ugh…well, good thing I document everything. There were still things I didn’t want to share with them – not because Chelsea didn’t want them to know, just because they were hurtful to them. To this day they have no idea, I never told them everything. I told them enough for them to understand the truth and that I haven’t done anything, I’m in Italy trying to move on and forget (side note, it’s not going well). Armed with this new information they choose to confront her and, even though I said I don’t want to drive a wedge between them because I want them to remain her friends, that’s exactly what happened. Apparently some things were being said about me, I have no idea what, I never asked, but they were of a hurtful nature.

“He’s a fucking liar. I want nothing to do with him. Fuck him and anyone talking shit about me” she said to J.

“It wasn’t him that said it though. It was just someone.”

“Who? I want a name. Who said it?”

“Just someone.” That’s when the others asked me directly and I told them. We had to talk in secret, so she wouldn’t find out what we were saying. I told them the truth. She spoke all the time, just about every day. She would call me all the time and I would call her. We barely slept because of the time we spent with each other. We waited until everyone went to bed and then talked every night. I’ll never forget it. I would hang up, she would sleep for a few hours and then wake up and pass out in the middle of the day because of the lack of sleep at night. I would have to sleep in the physician’s lounge. I was sooooooo tired. I showed them our conversations. Well, I showed them portions of our conversations. I showed them timestamps of our phone calls, lengths of them, so many things. I never had them listen to the recordings themselves simply due to the fact that I didn’t want them to hear what was said. Some things were private and I wanted them to remain private.

After they decided to ask my side of the story supported by evidence, everyone’s friendship blew up. There was no fixing this. No amount of talking, no amount of apologizing, nothing in the world would fix this. It was done. The one thing I said I didn’t want to happen, happened. I told them specifically, I’m not showing you this to destroy your friendship, I just wanted the truth to be out there. I don’t know what was said between them, I don’t know what happened, I just know everyone went separate ways.

I didn’t know what I supposed to do. I just wanted to be a nice person and make sure everyone was doing well. I don’t think the perfect answer exists. I tried to rationalize every situation, I tried to think of every scenario and act upon the one I thought would be the best. Still, it sucked. Nothing I came up with came up well. Every outcome was horrible and someone was hurt. In the end I figured I should focus on the feelings of the others, not me and Chelsea. That ship has sailed and they are entitled to the truth. Something about hiding things and lying to them just seemed dirty to me. It hurt me to my soul. That, of course, meant I would never be able to repair my relationship with Chelsea. I didn’t even really see a way to repair it but if there existed any before, there doesn’t anymore. It adds to the pain and then I had the realization that I thought I was finally going to be ok but I wasn’t. I thought I was finally doing well, only to have it all ripped away from me once again. I’m done. I don’t care about people anymore. I looked at my H&K .45 and thought to myself, I think it’s time.

Chapter 7 – The Best I Could Do

What I remember the most vividly and clearly is waking up holding a bottle of whiskey and my gun. My nieces were on their knees around me shaking me and checking to see if I’m alive. They were frightened. “Oh fuck…what have I done? They need me, I need to make sure they’re ok, for my sister.”

I had to get up and get cleaned up presenting them with a story of hearing something outside and making sure we were safe. I don’t think they bought it but does it matter? It ended that conversation. My mind was still racing, months had already passed. At this point it had been 5 months, I was still alone. I cried every day, I tried to gather myself, I stopped practicing medicine, I stopped doing research. I told myself every day, “I’ve done enough for others, I don’t owe anyone anything. It’s time, I have no reason to be here. Is it really fair for me to be around and still have nightmares and suffer every day just to spare others the pain? I mean, I’m just weighing out whether their pain is more important than mine.”

“What are we having for breakfast?” asked Leilani. Her words broke my mental state, I still had four girls staring at me, looking to me for guidance and, at this exact moment, food.

“You guys want pancakes? We can order from iHop.”

“Yes!!!” they shouted collectively. Technically they all started shouting their orders but I couldn’t understand anything so to me it sounded like a yes. I told them to log onto my computer and go onto the website to order whatever they wanted. I still remember that. Breakfast was $147.82. Eh, what did I care?

After eating breakfast I sent them off to do whatever they wanted and it was at this point in time the outbreak started. Also, up to this point I didn’t get along very well with my nieces. They moved in and out constantly because I wasn’t a fan of their father. He was an ass, or rather, he is an ass. I hate the guy. So the girls hate me. Whatever, I’m still taking care of them and I have custody. I have to make sure they’re well and go to school. I try my best, I have no support. Such is life.

School was cancelled, they had to be homeschooled. I can’t do that for them, I don’t have the mental stability for that right now. I sent them off to my parents and they consolidated all the children of the family to homeschool them. We have two college professors in the family, they’re taking care of the education. Guess what? I get to live alone again. Once again I look at my handgun and tell myself it’s time. Thinking about it constantly and trying to get my affairs in order I get a call to see if I can help in the ER because they’re overwhelmed. When someone asks for help I can’t say no so I accept, just another obstacle to get over. At this point I think to myself “am I purposely putting this off?” I have no idea, but I head back to work.

I sent a text to make sure she was ok and if she needed anything, she could ask me. I didn’t expect a response but I awoke to a text response. I was surprised. We proceeded to have a conversation for the next 3 days, it was nice. I managed to trick myself into a false sense of security, telling myself things would get better. Why? Why would I do this to myself again? Why can’t I let this go? Fuck! Let go, stop it. It doesn’t matter. If anything, don’t force this. If she wanted to talk to you she would, it’s as simple as that.

It was the argument of letting go but not wanting to because I still love her. I hate it. I just wish this wasn’t a feeling I had because then this issue wouldn’t be here. Regardless, we spoke, laughed, shared feelings about the breakup, how we’re doing. I thought we were doing well, I thought…maybe…just maybe…we can keep talking and be friends. One day she just stopped responding and I was upset all over again. Time would only tell if things would get better for me. At the time, no, nothing got better. Everything fucking sucked. I couldn’t stop thinking about her, I couldn’t read a book without seeing her name, I just couldn’t move on. What does this mean? I actually love this girl? I shared things with her that I never told anyone else. Should I pursue this? Hell…most of the time my mind is racing, scrambling to figure out the next step. Not now. Now, my mind is blank. It’s as if I overloaded, my mind crashed as I sit at home staring in the distance without a thought in the world.

“This is nice” I say out loud. “I can finally think.” But in reality I couldn’t think. I couldn’t form a single thought. My mind was fried. I guess this is the end of me. The thing I value most in the world, my rational mind, it’s gone. Well, I guess it’s time to nap. What else am I supposed to do? Am I going to wake up? “Interesting…” I think as everything goes black and fall asleep. My last thought being that of a younger me telling myself to keep going, people still need help in the world and you can’t give up.

Chapter 4 - https://www.reddit.com/r/shortstories/comments/gkpx4c/rf_part_1_love_is_overrated_chapter_4/

Chapter 3 - https://www.reddit.com/r/shortstories/comments/giplq6/rf_part_1_love_is_overrated_chapter_3/

Chapter 2 - https://www.reddit.com/r/shortstories/comments/gi3xks/rf_part_1_love_is_overrated_chapter_2/

Chapter 1 - https://www.reddit.com/r/shortstories/comments/gh79uk/rf_part_1_love_is_overrated/

submitted by /u/TheBaitAndTheSniper [link] [comments] via Blogger https://ift.tt/2zP4TaX

[negans-womam]

Momma Bear part 2

Request-no Prompt-katerina takes negan back to her group where Negan finds something that pisses him off more Warning-negans mouth, mention of death Pairing-negan and Katerina ***************************************** To say the ride to the old campsite was awkward would be putting it lightly. If I was honest with myself being with Negan for the first time I felt safe I’m just tired worried over my small group to completely relax around him. After an hour or so I can see the fence that Dan and some of the other men had set up around the small area with several cabins that we call home though there wasn’t enough cabins for everyone we still have tents up as well. I jump out before Negan can stop me and bang our partnered knock on the small gate, joey quickly opens it the older man looking me over in the fatherly way I’ve grown to love them notices Negan and his men who gave now gotten out of there trucks behind me “Kat you in trouble hunny?” “no joey it’s OK there with me. Where is Dan?” “probably at his cabin, he’s in a bad mood so be careful” I nod and pat joeys shoulder at his whispered warning as I walk over towards Dans cabin. Dan had been in the group since the start when there had been more people and was the one who took me in after my husband died and left me alone 2 months pregnant, Dan was very sweet in his early 30’s like me and was like the big brother I always wanted until his wife died along with some others in the group when a heard passed by. Since then he’s turned cold and bitter to everyone but a select few unfortunately I don’t fit into that few. I take a deep breath as I see his cabin and find his tall skinny form on the porch waiting for me. “Katerina where the hell have you been it’s been almost a day!” “I had to go further out this time so it took longer besides you never give me a car so of course it’ll be longer Dan” “Did you even bring back anything?” I think back to the box that Negan and his men loaded up in one of there trucks knowing its no use tell Dan that I did find something but it no longer belongs me. I look up startled when I find Dan standing right in front “you have nothing at all do you? Damn it Katerina well we will just have to ration your food you eat to damn much you and that kid in your stomach you just have to cut back by the looks of it you really need to do that I can’t tell if your pregnant or just fat” I bite my lip at Dans “joke” that only he laughs at when I feel a hand land on my shoulder pulling me back a little bit so I’m part way behind Negan. Dan looks at him in surprise not noticing the big baseball bat wielding man and his men till now. “who the hell you? Look I don’t care what she told you we don’t have room" "oh don't worry I don't want to join your little band of pussies I just wanted to meet the prick that would let a fucking pregnant woman go off on her fucking own in the shit storm that is our world" "she's fine she prefers being alone besides she and that bastard kid inside her eats most of our food it's only fair that she finds more" Before Negan can stop me from walking past him the sound of my hand connecting against Dans cheek echos through the quite camp site I almost smile as he head swings to the side from the force before I'm gently pushed back closer to Negan who has a proud grin. "fuck sweetheart I knew you had claws. I'm gonna have a little one on one talk with Dan the Dick here I want you to go with Simon here and get your stuff together" "where am I going?" "you are coming with me where I can make fucking sure you and that little cub of yours are taking care of" I look over at Dan who for the first time looks nervous standing in front of negan who makes sure his bat Lucille is within his eyesight. I look over as the man Simon who gives me a wink and a smile smile starts to lead me away before I stop. "negan please don't hurt anyone here there good people Dan not so much but everyone else has been good to me and try to help me" "don't you fucking Katerina you have my word" I give him a small smile as I lead Simon to the small tent I called home and start to pack my stuff. The whole time I get more and more relaxed as Simon cracks jokes and talks about the sanctuary, the place that will now be my home. By the time we gather the few things I have and walk back to Dans cabin I see Negans men loading up what little food and other things we have into one of there trucks they brought into the gate and see Negan leave Dans cabin Lucille covered in blood I can't find myself feeling guilty or sad for Dan he got what he deserved I know that but the sight of the blood and the copper smell I get a hold of as Negan walks closer to us has me holding on to Simon trying to keep my lunch from coming out. "fuck you OK doll?" "I'm fine my sense of smell is a little stronger due to the pregnancy so the Uh blood is making my stomach turn" Negan rubs his neck with a little chuckle as he gives Lucille to Dwight telling him to treat her gently until he can get back and clean her before he takes Simons place beside me "what's going to happen to everyone?" "they are coming with us and will be given jobs to earn their keep" "what kinda of job can I do" "you are not going to fucking work not until that little one comes out unless you want to take another option that we will talk about at a later fucking date. Now let's get you to your new home" I find myself smiling and taking his offered arm for support as we go to the trucks and I start my new life"

Well this chapter didn't turn out the way I wanted it to but hope you like it all the same I don't know if a part three will come but feel free to request it if you want and please send me request