#It’s weird experience tbh-you just kinda have to be there and know the customs

[lorax-devito]

as an English person,I have witnessed many people go through the 5 stages of grief over a pint having a bit too much foam,football is more than grief,it’s the goddamn Great Depression,at least where I’m from

nothing sexier than that picture with the italian players on top of eachother after the win and the english ones going through the 5 stages of grief in the back

[bitchfitch]

i just got done with my third chiro appointment, and like. I've noticed a significant improvement in terms of how much pain I'm in but I'm also noticing i can't like. stay sitting up. I can sit, which isn't always the case, but the muscles in my back are so loosey goosey/ not responding/ spasming that I keep curling forward until my head is almost pressed to the bed in front of me while I'm sitting cross legged. Don't know what that's about but it's affecting productivity something awful.

[emmabirb8]

Galaxycon’s Animate/Nightmare Weekend Des Moines convention was so fun! I was only able to attend Sunday, so I totally lucked out that the IZ Q&A just so happened to be held that day. Everyone was SUPER friendly, welcoming, and sweet! That includes the Iowa Events Center staff and Galaxycon staff too – my mom and I were very impressed and felt completely comfortable due to their kind and energetic attitudes. Awesome overall experience!!

I got my digital IZ fan art piece as well as some other items signed by everybody and a traditional mixed media portrait I made of Jhonen Vasquez signed by the legend himself. (If you know anything about JV, you know he's a major horror enthusiast, so I tried to capture a decent horror/spooky vibe with it. I think I succeeded! 😎)

By far the best part though was when I offered Jhonen the custom doll I'd made as a gift and he ACCEPTED IT AND WAS SUPER ENTHUSIASTIC ABOUT IT!!! 😲😭💖Thankfully, I assumed correctly that he'd think it was the best kind of weird, and he immediately started showing it off to friends and coworkers. Melissa Fahn, whose table was next to his, was so impressed that she actually expressed interest in having me possibly make her a doll too! I assured her I'm no professional, but she insisted she admired my skills and thought there was some definite untapped potential there. Like!!!! 😲🤩💖💖💖 I was reeling!!! I still am!!

Jhonen doesn’t typically offer table selfies like some others, but my mom asked to get a pic of me next to him posing with the doll, and he agreed with absolutely no hesitation (which kinda surprised me tbh, but I was SO glad he did). He was so incredibly sweet and chill, omg, as if I wasn’t already a huge fan! 💚

(A full photoshoot of the doll along with details about how I made it can be found here!)

(And the clean digital version of my Zim art can be found here!)

Anyway, this was the opportunity of a LIFETIME for me, and I'm so glad I got the chance to experience something so amazing!!! 😃😊😊😊

[hells-greatestdad]

Thoughts on a Neurodivergent Lucifer

I had already had a post about Luci being on the autism spectrum at one point, but I loooost it D:

Here are my thoughts! Once again! They will not be in-depth by any means! ANDDDD this is headcanon, with some canon influence/speculation!!!

Please note that mun themself is autistic!!

So!

Autism is a SPECTRUM. You have people like me, who are super awkward/socially weird/whatever as children, and when we grow up, we learn to compensate for most of it!! Which means that the older we get and the further into adulthood, the better we get at faking being "normal"! I myself work in the field of customer service and have for five whole years, which has taught me to blend in a lot better than before I had this job!! On the other hand, I have other autistic friends who CANNOT COMPENSATE or hide their differences even if they really want to!! The traits on the spectrum vary by A LOT, both in specific traits, and in intensity of the trait!!! As for Lucifer - he'd be a "level 1", which is the "mildest" form of autism! (Please note that autism and intellectual disability are not one in the same.)

Observations I've noticed in the show itself - Lucifer seems uncomfortable and very socially awkward around people he doesn't know, or when having to interact with lots of people. The whole of episode 5 is pretty much him being a socially awkward bb~ He is extremely awkward around the hotel when he first arrives, and he is visibly uncomfortable when Mimsy talks to him. Which kinda very much resonates with my lived experience tbh

Hyperfixations are actually a major part of the autism diagnostic criteria! Lucifer's rubber duck obsession, anyone?? (That said, it can also be a sign of just how bad his depression got.)

Heading more into straight-up headcanon territory - this one ties in with hyperfixation! I write Lucifer in my threads as being very very very prone to getting so very absorbed in his tasks that hours and hour can pass and when he eventually comes out of it, he suddenly realizes he's starving, he's exhausted, he's stiff all over from not moving, etc.

Lucifer doesn't know what autism even is, really, or that that is something he is or could be

[izzy-b-hands]

12, 15, 34, 46?

Ella!! Thank u for asking 🫂🫂❤️❤️

(also apologies i am stoned and wordy aksndkfgn)

12. Your favourite book

I have a few answers for this one, but narrowed it down to the one I'm saving up to buy a new copy of eventually: Last Night at the Lobster by Stewart O'Nan.

It's fairly short, and the story subjects/setting are modern and mundane (or at least that's the critique i see leveled at it a lot, tho to me like. That's part of the punch of the entire book, but they can have their opinions, incorrect tho they may be lol), but like. the first time i read it, it just Did Something to me lmao. Part of it was the customer service experience thing, tho different industries (library at the time for me compared to restaurant in the book), and the experience in it of feeling like/having it confirmed that you, as an employee, are continually being handed more and more stress and responsibility for less reward, but you can't just drop it bc you like/tolerate your coworkers, and even on the days they piss you off, you want the best for them. And then the fallout of when a decision comes down from above your level that's shit for everyone, but you're left bearing the brunt of it from coworkers and customers alike. Very relatable, very realistically written to the point it almost makes you squirm.

The characters are all well written and realistic too; you wind up feeling like you could walk into this Lobster right now and talk to all these ppl irl, easily. That makes it just as hard at the ending to say goodbye tbh, and that's given it massive reread value for me (i think since i first read it end of HS I've since managed a reread every year to every other year. I actually accidentally packed away my copy when moving and it's been killing me not being able to do a reread rn, but i want to wait until i can have my own copy to keep again.)

Anyway i think most libraries should have it, and it's not a horribly expensive ebook, so if ur looking for a sign to read Last Night at the Lobster, this is it 🙌❤️🦞

15. Do you remember your last dream

Kind of? Tbh I passed out really hard earlier (still not sleeping amazingly with the back lol) and vaguely recall the weird, fever dreamish stuff my brain was throwing at me. That consisted of what i believe to be, ongoing all at once in the same room:

-a Tom Waits concert, with him holding but not playing an accordion

-a Bob Geldof interview, except it was Bob as he looked in the 90s

-a fire, which everyone who wasn't listening to Tom or Bob were attempting to put out by passing exactly one bucket back and forth to the inexplicable bar sink that sort of appeared and disappeared at will

Everything else was too much of a blur, but those bits really stuck out lmao 😂

34. Something old

I like this question, weirdly enough, bc I'm not one hundred percent sure how to answer it. It's vague, so i think I'm safe to interpret it kinda.. however?

(if i have that wrong tho do pls lemme know, I won't be offended and will re-answer this one if that's the case lol)

In terms of something old, I keep thinking abt my grandparents old house, even tho it's silly to do so (the thing has been sold for months now.)

Thing of it is, as of the last rare phone convo i had with my grandparents, it sounds like they really regret selling. The lack of stairs at the new place is better for their joints but like. They clearly miss the old one, the unique things that made it theirs and familiar.

Grandpa in particular mentioned a few things specific to the house that he misses, but the one that took me out was abt a bit of painted wood in the front doorway. When i was like. 6? 7? old enough to know better but still stupid enough to do it, i wrote my (dead) name on that bit of doorway, in pencil. For whatever reason, they couldn't ever get it to erase much at all, and never painted over it despite talking abt it a lot (they were soooo pissed at me the day i did it and the months after lmao), so it was still there when they sold the house.

And Grandpa tells me he wishes he would have bought some wood scraps, torn out just that bit of the doorway, and then fixed it and repainted it. Says he would have had someone reframe the whole door if needed. He even has a little shelf where he's been putting grandkid related knick knacks, that he'd put it on, apparently.

Couldn't tell him bc emotions and being that vulnerable are difficult for him, so i never want to push when he's opening up to me like that, but goddamn if he didn't make me cry with that, and i wanted to tell him how sweet it was, and that i miss the house too.

I miss that whenever Housemate and i make it back to visit ND, i won't be able to show aer the house i basically grew up in. I won't be able to show off the shed my grandpa built, say hi to Sally (mum's passed on cat from years ago, buried in the backyard with her name carved by grandpa into the wood barrier between the rock/gravel area and the bottom of the shed), lay in the backyard together under the huge tree while we snack and sip drinks (bc grandma doesn't let anyone leave the house without being fed if she can help it.) I won't get to show that spot by the front door, or show all the other million little quirky things that made the house so lovely.

If i have my way, age of the house and my own age at the time be damned, whenever I've made enough money to do it and have plenty left over, I'd love to buy the house myself. Not to live in all the time (jfc absolutely NOT i love the house but not ND lol), but to have for like. Maybe summer trips? there's enough room we could pick up friends in the area and have them come stay in the house too, tbh. I don't like the idea of it sitting empty whenever i wouldn't be there, so maybe I'd offer it to the cousins rent free to share? Take turns staying there, maybe help grandma and grandpa back to see it now and again. Idk. I just always dreamed of buying the dang thing, even if i never wanted to permanently stay in ND (and still v much do not want that, I like CT far better.)

46. Are you excited for anything

A few things rn! Housemate helped me save up enough and is going with me to see Avatar this month, and it'll be my first full show of theirs, and Housemate's first time seeing them at all!! (my first time seeing them they were just opening for Trivium lmao, so it was amazing!! but a bit of a cut down set list/overall thing, u know? didn't stay for Trivium's entire set but they were lovely too!)

We've also got several little weekend trips partially planned out: Mystic, a local flea market, a couple different beaches, getting up to York and over to Newport, plus maybe the big E and the ren faire in the fall!! I don't know if we'll manage all of it over the next few months, but I'm excited for whatever we get to!

Apologies I'm quite toasty so I'm feeling overwhelming positive for once, so i do have more! I sent a job app in to an OD office in the local costco, for a fairly chill seeming reception role, and I'm really hoping they'll want me. It seems a small enough office to be calmer than my old one, and that it's OD only and not an MD/OD office makes me feel a lot better abt it too (eye surgeons are amazing, they can do amazing wonderful things, i am grateful for them all. however. im also 97% sure 5 out of the 10 i know personally could hit me with their car and not blink, the god complex thing some surgeons have gets SO amped with this speciality in my experience, it's WILD, but I digress.)

My back is slowly getting better too (tho I've been humbled again the last few days in the nights and early mornings, it's still very angry at those times), so I'm also just looking forward to like. Being able to move more again. Standing up to do the dishes without my back spasming. Maybe even leaving the house again and doing one of the fun things noted above, tho i know i shouldn't rush it or my back will humble me again without a second thought lmaoooo 😅)

[nerves-nebula]

I’ve never really recognized it as “religious trauma”, but I’m nodding along to ur list. It’s just kinda stuff that happened. Except for the few things that grown me was kinda at like ‘that seems a little bad actually-‘

I remember being 7 and first thinking what if God isn’t real as I was trying to sleep. So it’s like midnight and I’ve just had this world breaking thought that immediately had me spiraling down two trains of thought: Im going to hell for thinking that, and, what if he isn’t what the fuck. So of course I’m freaked out and I’m pretty sure child me needed a fucking hug or some assurance or something, so I went to my parents room, which woke up my mom. At which point I realize, I can’t tell them my actual problem because it was a thought I was ashamed of having, and I didn’t want to run the risk of getting in trouble for some nebulous comfort that was frankly unfathomable cus my parents suck. So I just said felt sick, and took “sorry” my mam gave me as comfort enough (which in hindsight is not a great response to that), and just had to go back to bed with all that. That shit stuck with me. I remember at Sunday school, maybe months or a year later, when one of the teachers said doubt was put in our minds by the devil, I was so fucking relieved.

And there’s the fact that I didn’t know other religions were a thing. I didn’t know there were other blends of Christianity. I lived in a small town and I just had never been touched by that concept until I moved at 11, and one of our religious education modules was on Judaism. Everyone else was just learning customs and calendar stuff, and I was having a whole epiphany. I was so confused until halfway into the lesson, and I realized they were talking about not being catholic. I literally searched the library for a book that would explain this arcane concept. And it was just such a mind blowing experience. I was couldn’t comprehend why no one had ever mentioned other religions if there were so many. And how did it make any sense that there were so many. The differences aren’t subtle. Point is, it was a whole thing.

If I hadn’t moved I would have been made to do my confirmation that school year. And that’s not okay! The whole point of that sacrament is that you’re choosing Christianity, like your old enough and conscious enough to make that choice. Adult in the eyes of the church and all that. Baptism but leveled up. But they make children do it. Unrelated, but when I first learnt about it I was 8, and there was a girl in my class that never had to religion with us. Which was the weirdest thing to me at the time, because sure there were people that didn’t have to do Irish or English, because they had different first languages. But religion? I always found that so weird. But she literally just. Wasn’t catholic. And I just couldn’t conceptualize that. It didn’t occur to me that could be an option.

Jesus, raising kids with a religion is brainwashing of the highest order and no one can change my mind on that. Sorry for rambling at u, that post just made me think.

If I hadn’t moved I would have been made to do my confirmation that school year. And that’s not okay! The whole point of that sacrament is that you’re choosing Christianity, like your old enough and conscious enough to make that choice. Adult in the eyes of the church and all that.

my girlfriend said this exact same thing when i was forced to be confirmed. said it didnt count but tbh that feels like a cop out. like its something ive been forced to do, like a spiritual violation or something, it still happened. but, eh, whatever

Jesus, raising kids with a religion is brainwashing of the highest order and no one can change my mind on that.

not sure i agree with you here, but i can agree that a lot of the ways kids are raised within Christianity is cult-ish and brainwash-y and bad.

[fracturedporcelaindoll]

Dear diary,

I've been considering getting hair cut short. One of those bob styles cause hate how the heat makes my medium length hair feel so icky~

Read a few articles on styles and on hair. Did you know you're hair grows the fastest between ages 15 to 20 or 25 depending on article? Apparently guys after 30, may experience thinning and hair loss because hair doesn't grow as quickly after 30 and for girls it's like after 40 to 50 that hair doesn't grow as quickly according to various beauty articles.~

So I don't know, mean could cut hair short but what if it took forever and a week to grow back out? I don't even think short hair would look good on me, less variety for styling but at the same time I just dont think am pretty atm either~

I think def want to try blunt or curtain bangs tho, they look cute and are kinda childish and tbh I want the adorable factor tho maybe I am just not that cute?~

Also like never ever foam hot cocoa pple, I ordered a small hot cocoa and the barista made it like it was a latte and the taste, sooo awful but didn't want to waste the purchase. I mean if I were a more less caring or wasn't worried about being confrontational in public I would have said something~

Pillows, I need a good pillow, am sure if I had one it might help improve sleep but I've yet to find a good one. Itd have to be fluffy like a cloud and cool like a winter breeze. I saw the most adorable pillow ever but problem is it's 270 with tax. Like if it were 80, I'd consider it sure expense but might be worth it if it's as good quality as claimed by advertising.~

Unfortunately I am just not sure, I mean I'd have to save for like at least a few months to get it and do I really need it? Its childish cause shaped like a dashound in a hot dog costume... but like where would I find such an adorable pillow again, it's unique~

I need to decide Halloween costume too, I mean if do go ahead and get gothic outfit from poll could pair it with some bat wings or angel ones and have costume. But that's like putting a bulleyes on yourself, dressing like an angelic being or succubus/bat demon girl would make people stare~

Plus the demon/succubus aspect is kinda ironically hilarious cause I can't even flirt with guys or girls for that matter, little miss shy and awkward~

I was brave and contacted customer service over missing package and about refund. I was ping ponged back and forth between company and shipping provider until finally got confirmation they'd issue refund as package was lost and couldn't determine where it got lost at etc~

I didn't actually talk, it was online communication through service line but still~

I took some pictures of sky because the clouds were particularly picturesque and fluffy~ I felt so self conscious though like do I just look weird or something? Haven't you ever seen someone look up at sky with camera before?~

I am tempted to just avoid public all together until October but realistically I'll get lured out in July for cotton candy vendors, fresh squeezed fair lemonade and prize contests to try to win cute plushies <4th of july>. Do I think fireworks are beautiful? Yes but am one of those people that would want to wear noise cancelling headphones and look like a dork cause of it~ the loud noise though just unsettles me, it's like really loud thunder or lighting makes me jump scare myself sometimes~

I found a Harry Potter themed bar crawl event and golf event that I kinda want to go too. Not so much the bar as mini golf the thing is I know it'll be crowded and am not the best at mini golf soooooo do I really want to torture myself mentally by weaving through crowds, long lines and ultimately failing to win prizes by missing the getting the golf ball into the hole?~

Plus I'd want to wear a harry potter themed costume and have nothing to wear for that~

Including pictures of clouds because I can~

[thisselflovecamebacktome]

Ok so i'll give my opnion on some things and you tell me how you feel:

1) i think selling tickets for the tour behind the stage, it's pure greed. If u want more people in the show, make a stage in the middle of the stadium 360⁰

2) Im so tired of swifities saying 'wow taylor works SO MUCH" cause like she gets paid enough for those hours, i'm sure we (not famous people) work the same if not more hours a week and like i dont have a million. I actually think she is one the few celebs that are worth million dollars and work that amount

3) Midnights sounds so boring to me. The sounds are so..... empty (very much Jack style). I listen to the album, just dont LOVE it, yk?

Plus: i find a lot of the lyrics cringe. Some exemples-

- vigilant shit (the whole thing)

- i'm mastermind and now you're mine cause i'm a mastermind

- paris (the whole thing)

- sweet like justice, karma is a queen

- sexy baby

Anyway i"m taylor fan, just some things are weird to me

Welcome to my thoughts (3am edition) because I cannot sleep lmao.

Tickets: I think selling tickets behind the stage is fine so long as it's marked as such. Like so long as the customer knows what they're getting and can make a fully consenting choice, I think it's fine, especially in a venue where there's screens that can be watched because more people in those seats would be watching the screens a lot during the show anyway. Where it gets shady is in cases like what Ticketmaster did for Eras where some of the seats weren't marked as being behind the stage/obscured until after the purchase. In saying that, most "obscure" views actually aren't in my experience. Like a few years ago I had "obscured" tickets for Bruno Mars and it was just a side view and arguably one of the best views I've had of a stage lmao.

Taylor's Work Hours: I both agree and disagree with this. In general celebs get paid too much so I agree with that part. Likewise, I've always found the idea that she's "so brave" for continuing on with tour atm to be weird because like all of us do that in our day to day lives with our jobs and other commitments (unless we physically can't for whatever reason). In saying that, every job is more difficult in some ways and less in others. Tbh this debate reminds me of the fact my mother always thinks my jobs aren't "real" because my brother is a blue collar worker and when I've worked I've been a pink/white collar worker and while yes, his job (bartender) is more physical than mine (admin positions) will most likely ever be, my last job (receptionist at a psychological medical centre during a pandemic) was far more emotionally draining because I spent 7 - 12 hours a day listening and responding to trauma non stop. Like as someone who has done both blue and pink/white collar jobs, I can honestly say that on the most part, blue was less exhausting and a lot of my friends (both who have done both and who saw me do both) agree. And in many ways Taylor deals with both of these. Like to promote her album she kinda has to bare her soul constantly, especially because she's built her brand off of being relatable. And then with tour she's gotta be fitter than I ever will be and maintain that lmao. There's also a lot of work that celebs (and especially ones like Taylor that manages most of her career, only allowing a small team to help with certain stuff) do that we don't see. Like even if she's not working on TS11/the rerecordings atm (which I'd wager she is working on both), Taylor is not only working 9 hours a week at the moment. She's likely working as many hours as a regular person. Obviously she has the benefit of flexibility that most of us don't both in terms of hours and not having to work at all if she so chose, but yeah I'd argue that even if there was some way to prove that she doesn't work as hard, it would still be a closer call than most people think.

Midnights: So there's two parts to this. In general I agree that Midnights is not my favourite work from her, especially sonically and especially the standard edition (which is what Jack primarily worked on with the 3am songs being a mix of him and Aaron with some others). Like it reminds me of 1989 in that way. However, I don't think any of it is cringey. To be honest, I'm going to assume that you are younger than Taylor and I because in my experience the cringey vs not seems to be a gen z (people born 1996 - now) vs millennial or older (born 1995 or before) thing. Vigilante Shit is peak millennial tbh and while I cannot go into it (for legal reasons) as someone going through a situation where that song resonates, it hit from the first listen lmao. The line from Mastermind you used just sounds like something a villain would say and given she made it clear that that's the vibe she was going for (at least sonically) with the chorus, I think it fits really well. Tbh I don't understand why people find Paris cringey at all. Like it's just a cute love song, no different than Sweet Nothing or Call It What You Want. Same with that Karma line. Like she's just saying that Karma will decree the ruling that it sees fit and its word is final/there's no escaping it which is the theme of the song as a whole but especially the bridge. So the sexy baby line is not cringey but clunky to me. Like it's trying to say so much at once, and again, uses millennial references that went over a lot of people's head at first (even ones like me because I never watched 30 Rock lmao). Like I just don't think there was ever going to be a way to say all that which flowed well in my honest opinion.

But ultimately it's fine that you find stuff weird as a fan. I couldn't tell you anyone in a fandom space that doesn't find at least something weird about that particular fandom.

[oh-yes-i-did-not]

Qualifications LMAO

tbh I kinda hate when people go “Oh you’re just (insert title)”

Not because it’s not easy to correct if you’re “more” than just (insert title), if you’re someone who thinks you’re above just mere (insert title)

But because of the power dynamics it implies but also the very real world consequences it has.

This is a weird situation for me bc I do have a degree in library shits, higher degree, uni degree. But not high enough. And it’s basically why I started to notice this at all. Because I was working at libraries before going to school AT ALL and with experience I expanded my work duties. But professionally? I was just “a clerk��. I thought a degree would change things.

I sat at the desk, yes. I beeped those books out and booped them in, yes. But I also made book displays, took part in planning events, made graphics, took statistics, participated in event organization, worked overtime, weeded, sat, stood, spent my weekends on publicity events. And I was just a clerk.

I thought going to school would change that. That it would make a librarian. So I went to university of applied sciences. Because I’m fucking working class, no one in our family had gone to actual university ever before and my dumb-ass was not going to be the first one, hell no. So I worked and studied my ass out for 4 years.

And it changed nothing.

I was still just a clerk.

I had the papers to do more but now I was “just a clerk” not just by random people, but by industry people. Because the internal hierarchy said that university of applied sciences is not an actual university at all, that people who graduate from there are not trained to work at libraries because trade schools are SHIT.

You wanna know what my opinion is?

I’m more qualified to work on a library RIGHT NOW than a pure-blood university graduate is. That uni graduate knows how to program a database but I know how to fucking use it. That pure-blood university graduate knows what are the customer groups an ideal library needs to serve, I know who my customers are on a first name basis.

And my friend who went to an actual university agrees. She was so ill prepared to work that it’s not even funny, yet she had an easier time at job hunting and she landed a permanent position so fast.

Meanwhile I gave up. Even the library I had been “just a clerk”  for years didn’t want me anymore. By getting a degree on university of applied sciences, I had somehow downgraded myself. Because nobody from university of applied sciences was actually qualified, we don’t want anyone we need to train at the work place, we don’t want anyone who knows nothing. We don’t want you.

I looked for jobs for a few years but had to accept realities. I went to a wrong type of university. I was always going to be “just a clerk” or maybe even less.

And yes, if I had been open to move anywhere, I would probably have found something in the end. But I wasn’t. Not all of us are. Many of us have ties to some area and accepting shitty positions on a place, where a bus only goes three times a week is not an option.

So yeah. I still do keep my eyes open for library positions, but I graduated in 2016 so fuck off with that, basically. I wasted way too many years of my life chasing an empty promise.

[batz]

Hey I know you’re in Canada, but I just wanted to ask how hard it was to get on T/apply for top surgery when you’re not a trans man? It might be very different rules where I am, but I’ve wanted to get top surgery for ages and I’m worried about getting rejected. If you’re okay with answering this, could I ask for some advice/tips?

its honestly a different process for everyone bc it really depends on ur doctor. i was lucky to have a nonbinary gender doctor™ so they could understand the nitty gritty details of my experience with gender.

that being said, a lot of gender therapists, top surgeons, etc, are a lot more educated when it comes to gender stuff nowadays. like a lot of videos abt top surgery i watch are based in the states and other countries and quite a few of them are for nb ppl. things are changing and a lot of doctors are in the know about this kinda thing now.

the big thing is like. if you are able to, choose what doctor you want to go with. kinda like ur shopping u know? check reviews, talk with people, join facebook groups (as ancient n outdated as that sounds, it HELPS, im in a few trans fb groups for transitioning help n all that) before u find out which doctor u wanna go with. a lot of the time people will be able to tell you which doctors are educated in regards to the whole 'Do They See NB People As Legit And Real' thing.

i feel like theres a VERY small chance you'll be rejected hrt just bc ur nb. its very rare. doctors will basically just make sure ur healthy enough to take T or get top surgery or whichever. they talk to u about what u want for ur future in regards to gender stuff, ask u awkward very cis-centric questions abr gender that dont rlly matter. and... yeah... a good lot of it is just check ups and waitlists and paperwork. its kind of a pain but its worth trying, even if its nerve wracking.

[juicequeen21]

I have always had an asexual Light headcanon since I first joined the fandom 8 years ago. Maybe it's because I'm on the ace spectrum myself but he just seems completely uninterested in any sort of sex, from either men or women, and rebuffs Misa's advances continually. That, and he seems to exploit people's romantic and sexual interest in him without ever actually seeming to be interested himself. He never seems aroused in the series by anything. I just like that about him y'know? It feels kinda weird to me that a lot of people in the fandom will oversex him when he's so... nonsexual in the canon

To start I absolutely love this headcanon and I see all your points and agree that none of what Light does has to do with sex.

This is no hate to you so please don’t take it that way, I will offer up a perspective of why people sexualize him. Like you, most people find characters that they like or relate to and they put a lot of their own traits on to that character (I know I do this a lot personally), and there is nothing inherently wrong with that. People like to think (for the most) part of their favorite character either being like them or actually like them, so that will be a small part for many people. Also for people who do experience sexual attraction not everything they do is sexual, they could go months without doing anything sexual or relating to sex and that doesn’t they don’t experience sexual attraction.

I think everyone should have headcanons that make them happy and are something they enjoy. I don’t think head canons should be looked at for how much they can be supported by canon or anything like that. I also don’t think of head canons as something that are strict and rigid, I have tons of headcanons that often contradict each other. I think thoughts, ideas, head canons, aus, are meant to be adapted and tailored as much as you like. If you see one of my head canons and don’t like half of it, CHANGE IT! Apply aus to different characters, customize things, have multiple thoughts that conflict, do what ever makes you happy.

This has become a big jumble of thoughts that are hard for me to articulate and sort out. I would absolutely love to hear more about peoples thoughts on/about asexual Light! Or any kind of Light tbh! Thanks anon for sending this in, and I’m sorry my response is lackluster 💕💕

[maybeamiles]

Yeah I'm still thinking about this interview cause it was honestly such a weird experience. By the time the interview was over it was pretty clear that the owner did not want to hire me, since he kept talking about his "perfect team" and how serious his gym was and his big ambitions for the store, but he was also very intense about my qualifications. I knew going in that I would have to sell myself a bit harder than someone who looked more like a gym employee would be expected to look so I was going out of my way to point out how my previous low-intensity job was great experience for working in a gym, emphasizing my skills with managing stock, cleaning, and customer service and dealing with conflict. The only question I majorly fucked up was "what do you know about this company." From there it's all just little mismatches in what we're looking for. I'm looking for a job that pays for my food, he's looking for employees that can make up his perfect team for his high-end business. He even pitched to me his business goals and strategy after I fucked up the company question and tbh my opinion of him plummeted after he said "we cater especially to people looking to bulk up or loose weight" because ohhhh the two genders of body dysmorphia okay I see how you view fitness now.

Idk this was just a very draining interview and I was kinda hoping it would go better so I wouldn't have to keep applying for jobs because that shit is seriously draining.

Had a job interview at a gym today. Aced the customer service questions but not sure if I quite fit the vibe of "ultra serious gym for ultra serious gym-goers" the owner was going for. Being a 5-foot-nothing twink with an art degree, at least 1 mental illness and a moderately healthy view of one's body doesn't exactly scream "passionate about fitness."

[bixbythemartian]

So an embarassing thing happened tonight

I had two deliveries, one at 1234 General Street (not street name or house number) and another that doesn't matter. I took 1234 General Street first because it was really close to the store.

I pull up, and it had a vibe like a house where people aren't expecting pizza.

I don't know how to explain that in a way that makes sense, tbh. No porch light is on, I couldn't see any internal lights on from outside the house. That doesn't necessarily mean anything, but you know you deliver to like a thousand houses and you get a vibe for when the people inside are expecting pizza. I'm not always right about this but you know like when I get the vibe like 75% of the time I'm right. (now this doesn't work on apartments, they don't give off the same kind of vibes, i don't know what to tell you there's some wizardy in pizza delivery).

So I, like, triple check the house number against the address I had on my ticket, just to make sure, because it's really embarrassing to knock on the wrong door at night. (Also somewhat common, especially in older neighborhoods because the house numbers aren't very visible at night. I try not to, but it happens.)

I knock and some dude answers, and I was like 'uh hey did y'all order pizza from [pizza place]' and the dude was like 'yep' and it was prepaid so I handed him the food and left for my next delivery. nothing to it. Nervous over nothing.

i got to the store and we were chatting and we got a phone call from 1234 General Street saying they hadn't gotten their food.

Now, remember, I'd gotten a weird vibe and triple checked the number at the house. I knew I'd delivered to 1234. I describe the house, the guy insists that's not his house, I was like 'it said 1234 on the garage i seriously triple checked, it was right after 1232' like I was confident, but the guy was like 'no seriously i didn't get my food' so we remade it and i went back out.

and on my way there I passed the street before General street and went '...uh-oh'.

I'd delivered to the right house number, but on the wrong fucking street.

this isn't like completely weird, like, sometimes when you know a neighborhood fairly well you take a turn too early, but most of the time when you go to the wrong house ppl go 'oh no we didn't order anything' and if you're like '1234 general?' they're like 'no you're on Baker Street' 'oh shit sorry for bothering you my dude'

so the fact that the guy just took the food is

wild

and rare, most of the time they are kinda freaked out that your'e there

my personal theory is that he had ordered pizza from another pizza place. in my experience, even if you're in uniform, people don't actually look at your uniform. they only see pizza boxes, and often they barely hear any words you say. It's only gotten worse since third party delivery became a thing. I genuinely hope Pizza Hut or whoever got an extremely weird complaint about a customer getting the wrong food. (Bonus points if the order that the customer is complaining about was still in the store.)

the guy at the house I should have delivered to in the first place was really super sweet about it though? he gave me a big tip and said it wasn't a big deal but we should try to get the other people who took his food to pay us because that was kind of bastardy of them, but I was just so relieved he was so cool about the whole thing.

I'm still pretty embarrassed about it, but in my defense, the weather was shitty and icy and I was stressing because it was very similar to the weather I totaled my truck in a couple years back.

[mithliya]

I know you haven't been in Germany for too long so it may be hard to tell yet but from what I understand Germany (and Western countries in general) are individualistic. Are there any differences you've personally noticed in terms of lifestyle in Germany that could be traced back to that emphasis on "individuality" over collectivism? Also a random question but does Bahrain have that concept of "(saving) face"? I see it a lot in more collectivist cultures and I've always found it interesting.

i havent lived in germany for long but i HAVE lived in the US since i was 15 until 17 years old, and then the UK from 18 to 22 years old. so ill be using that as well in terms of what ive observed as differences in the west vs middle east.

i have noticed that all three western countries i've lived in are very visibly more individualistic than bahrain. but the US is the most blatantly and extremely individualistic. people don't even seem to care about their own families nevermind other people. it was insanity to me & my family to hear that it was a common practice for parents to kick out their kids once they're 18. or for parents not to pay for their kids' education beyond high school. it was also difficult for us, because we were not used to seeing homelessness all around us and seeing the extreme differences in wealth. there's income inequality in bahrain too, but i think its not as blatant and extreme (maybe im biased). america is also way more expensive to live in and especially in the area we stayed (fairfax county), so the amount we would pay to rent a massive house in bahrian, was what we would pay for a tiny shitty apartment in the US. the US is super stressful to live in tbh and it feels very lonely and isolating. its also hard to make real friends over there and people are still very much segregated in a way.

in the UK, it was still more individualistic than bahrain but far less than the US. its normal today for people to stay with their parents after turning 18. people care more about their families. there's a lot of mindsets surrounding unity and community, more about helping others and caring about others. they also take queueing VERY seriously, to the point where one time a man cut in line in front of me & a random man neither of us knew started yelling at him for it. people generally seemed to care a lot about social rules and following them, as well as about being polite (didn't get any care for rules in the US, but there is this politeness culture in the US too. except it seemed really fake so i didnt like it). people really care about their personal space also, which we have basically no concept of in bahrain lol

people in germany are kinda similar to people in the UK. people seem to care about their families as well. people REALLY like their personal space. very blunt (people in the UK are as well, but in germany it feels more aggressive). very weird over their privacy, like... to an unusual degree. one time i went to this german meat food place and took pictures of the menu for my girlfriend. you can't see anyone in those pictures, only the menu. and the lady working there started yelling at me in german and saying i can't just take pictures without permission!!! it was so weird to me but i accepted it. and people look at you like an absolute freak if you smile after making eye contact. customer service is known to be nonexistant and i have no idea why. hardcore bureaucracy which is downright ridiculous but everyone just accepts it for some reason??? also germans are (generally speaking) pretty quiet and awkward. not as crazy as people in the UK also bc i haven't seen nearly as many white people that go out half-naked in the freezing cold (its almost normal to see it in the UK... but maybe im not seeing it right now thanks to COVID). also out of every country ive lived in, i feel like germany has the least catcalling. no idea why but thats just been my experience.

yes we do have that concept in bahrain (of "saving face"). i think its heightened as well since we're in a tiny island. when i go to the village my dad is from, for example, my mom sometimes makes me dress differently because she says "everyone here is related and knows your dad, they will talk about his family and it will be humiliating for their honour if they see you in a tank top". but there's also some good things i like about collectivism, like in my country there is no street homelessness. everyone has someone they could stay with and people are very generous and helpful. people are generally extremely friendly & welcoming to outsiders in bahrain (unlike the west is to foreigners, but also keep in mind we have our own issues with racism namely towards south asians so its still worthy of criticism). family is basically everything and in terms of staying with your parents, you're expected (especially as a female) to live with your parents until you're married. your parents are also expected to support you in your studies and your livelihood until that point. also as previously mentioned, in bahrain it seems that people generally have a poor concept of boundaries. like people are very friendly and touchy & i know it can be very uncomfortable and foreign to westerners (and east asians, my gf really struggled with how touchy my family was to her) when they experience that. also people often talk really loudly, and will straight up shit talk you to ur face. compared to westerners i think ppl in bahrain have way less of a filter

[6ad6ro]

not that anyone besides me cares, but here's a list of all the mini systems i have, some opinions on em, and whether or not they have an eyecatch / demo mode / screensaver that scrolls thru all the games:

NES CLASSIC - really cute eyecatch that shows big sprites from all the games, and has mario n luigi fight over a “? block”. afterwards it scrolls through all of the games and plays a little demo of each. it's amazing. just be aware that if you hack it, it won't play demos of anything besides the base games (same with snes). it'll do this weird thing where it tries to boot up a game demo for the extra games, but it just gets confused n pauses for a second before trying the next game. so if you're using hakchi, and u care about the eyecatch, i'd use the singular "more games" folder option so it only does the pause thing once per game cycle.

it’s cute af tho. would probably be my favorite all around mini system if i didn't happen to like snes games more. btw it (and snes mini) doesn't use usb for the controllers. it uses proprietary ports like wii u (or just wii? i forget) so you have a lot less controller options. and you can't just shove a usb thumbdrive in it for additional space.

SNES CLASSIC - this one is really elaborate. similar to the nes one, but no big sprites or "fighting" before getting to the game demos. instead, luigi sometimes runs out and switches the video modes. seems more basic than nes at first, but it's not. because you can actually CUSTOMIZE the eyecatch! whenever you make a savestate for one of the games, it'll actually play through the last minute of ur inputs on that save as a demo. you can enable or disable this addition to the eyecatch in the settings. it's by far the best eyecatch of any of the mini systems.

the ONLY downside is that the savestates take up a relatively large amount of disc space. so if you hack it (and you should), every new rom you put on there is talking up the space that was set aside for the savestates. and if you try and save states anyhow, it starts having weird errors like removing games and not letting you savestate etc. this kinda stuff can lead to disc corruption. so you have to balance how many extra roms you have on there if you want to use the savestates.

if you're like me and have a ton of extra roms, i'd just disable the custom demo mode (it'll still play through the developer eyecatches!). and rely on in-game saving bc sram takes up wayyy less space. tho you should still leave some space free in case you temporarily want to make a state, or accidentally save one etc (you can delete it later). but all around this is by far my favorite mini system in terms of emulation quality, game selection, hardware, and eyecatches.

PLAYSTATION CLASSIC - it doesn't even have an eyecatch. super disappointing. on the other hand, it's one of the cheapest mini systems to buy, and one of the most powerful? it's probably the BEST system to hack, but you'll want to at least use the usb stick methods. because you'll need the space for all the ps1 isos etc. hacking it also fixes the framerate issues that made these things review so poorly. and tbh, the physical system itself is pretty much just as quality as the other mini systems. it's one of those things that goes from lame to amazing if you hack it. but sadly there's NO eyecatch whatsoever. even the unmodded interface, while perfectly functional (and does a good job mimicking the original ps1 os), is totally boring and lacks the awesome music that other mini systems have.

NEOGEO ARCADE STICK PRO - i know this isn't REALLY a "mini system", but it's functionally the same. in a way, it's just a much better version of the "neogeo mini", so i'm including it. it's sadly very similar to the playstation classic in that it has NO eyecatch/demo/etc. considering it's trying to emulate the neogeo arcade experience (and home versions), you'd think it WOULD have some sort of switching eyecatch? but no. nothing. you can still obviously start each game individually and watch their original eyecatches, but... man. it's just such a missed opportunity.

the interface is even more basic than the ps classics. but when you compare the two (unmodded), the neogeo runs WAY better. the arcade stick itself is genuinely good! considering that it’s a standalone stick as well, the whole package seems worth it. tho much like the ps classic, it only REALLY shines when you mod it. i will warn you that the mod doesn’t have a lot of options (at least it didn’t back when i first modded years ago). but it does the job. gives you pretty much every neo geo game ever made and a buncha other arcade games (cps etc) on top of that. but i couldn’t individually select the games... but beggars can’t be choosers and i’m thankful somebody put all that work into a mod to begin with.

SEGA GENESIS MINI - i’ll be honest, this comes REALLY close to the quality of the nintendo systems. the physical unit itself might even be a bit better? it just has all these little touches to make it super cool. the base game selection is great, tho it’s easy to mod as well (uses hakchi just like nes and snes). the interface is definitely more simple than the nintendo systems, but it’s still cute. and the music is great. you can even change the system language for a different game selection and interface (usa is genesis, japan is megadrive etc etc). the only negative is it seems like the dpad is a touch too sensitive for the menu, but it’s not a big deal. and yes, it has an eyecatch! you have to wait a LONG time on the game selection menu, but it’s there. it doesn’t have the lil animations like the nintendo systems, instead it just switches to the next game after the eyecatch completes. but at the end of the day, it’s still a great eyecatch and i love it. the games play great btw, and the controllers feel good. would def recommend! SO there’s definitely a few mini systems i’m missing, but i did actually order the pc engine mini (turbografx16). i have a strong suspicion that it has an eyecatch as well since it was made by m2 (same ppl who did the genesis mini). from what i’ve seen, everything is even BETTER than the gen? but i guess i’ll have to see when it gets here. i’m also kinda excited for the mega drive mini 2, which seems like it’s pretty much just a mini sega cd. torn if i’ll actually get that one though, due to the fact that localization is up in the air and i have so many as it is? of course if they do it right and it has an eyecatch and usa snatcher etc... i’ll be so tempted. bc these mini systems are such a cute lil display piece.

[nabesthetics]

“and friends” ghfjdk that’s one way to put it

L is for Location (Favorite places to do the do)

Well, Alastor’s fine with nearly anywhere as long as it’s safe enough. His favorite location is “under/on top of his lover”, lmao. Specifics, though? Those depends on the LI.

(So a lot of the following text is just headcanons for Asra, Muriel and Lucio tbh, pfft)

Asra

Mostly well-secluded places.

These two did it on nearly every horizontal (and not only) surface of their home. Aside from some of the kitchen, maybe, kind of awkward when the Stove Salamander is right there.

The countertops and the card reading table have to be cleaned quite regularly, though - both Asra and Alastor are fond of teasing each other throughout the day, so when the last customer of the day leaves, getting to the bedroom is just an unnecessary delay tbh.

When travelling, open fields with tall grass are probably a favorite, closely followed by all kinds of springs & lakes, both because it makes cleanup easier and because, if they’re feeling especially frisky, the water acts as an easy way to the Realms.

Yup. While they don’t do that very often, the Realms are an exciting place for sex. Incredible views and magical environments are already nice features, but as the Realms can react to he person’s state of mind, traveling there while horny results in a whole array of interesting effects, from convenient spots in a seemingly innocent landscape to flowers and fruits with the exact effect you’re thinking about. And as Alastor’s developing Fool abilities allow him navigate the Realms more easily, those trips aren’t quite as dangerous as they would be before.

More importantly though, the both magicians are in their element in the magic Realms, with their senses boosted & some spells that would never work in the waking world suddenly being relatively easy to pull off.

I’m just saying, they don’t need the Magician to get double Asra action.

Their bond grows stronger too, and while that’s something that they can do outside of the Realms, sharing their emotional and physical feelings becomes easier. With that, another feature of the Realms becomes very useful: they can be as loud as they want.

Muriel

Most of the time it’s the safety and seclusion of their home where they can both be at ease and not worry about getting interrupted/spotted.

Muriel is definitely not immune to Alastor’s teasing, but he has the patience to wait until they get back home before giving in and picking the mischievously giggling dragon up and carrying him to bed (…or table, or the fur nest in front of the fireplace, that works too)

Admittedly, they aren’t always patient enough, so some (lockable) rooms at the Palace are used if the tension is high enough or if they’re staying there for a few days. The Palace baths are definitely one of the favorites, though both of them are more likely to pass out from blushing too hard before admitting it.

Muri lived in the forest long enough to know the most hidden spots for all kinds of activities. The peaceful evenings and early nights often turn into intimate lovemaking under the stars; the forest is also a place where Alastor can turn half-dragon without worrying about having enough space for the tail and 7′ worth of wings.

A particular cave with magic-loaded hot springs isn’t forgotten, either – that’s where they had sex for the first time, after all, so they do come back every once in a while – although they do stay clear of the water during the sex itself after that one time when an emotionally charged magic flare caused them to swap bodies for some time, which is a really weird experience when you’re technically different species.

(Not that they didn’t explore that area of magic later in a more controlled environment, mind you.)

Lucio

What isn’t??

Look, they’re not picky. Adventuring lifestyle doesn’t really leave too much room for luxury, and while they do stay at inns overnight when possible, if it’s just one night they both might just crash to bed, too exhausted from the day for anything else. (That does often lead to morning sex, though)

So fucking “in the wild” is just a usual, often spontaneous thing. Sometimes even in the middle of a job, especially after some dangerous encounter because…

that. Lucio’s into seeing his magician being badass, Alastor is into the disheveled look + body scents, it all kinda works out.

Forests? Y’know it. Hot springs?? Hell yeah. Caves? Eh, basically Alastor’s natural habitat. Ancient ruins? As long as it’s not a catacomb, I guess. You get the idea.

They do, however, have that guest room at the Palace that’s pretty much theirs at this point, at least until they get their own place in Vesuvia, which might take a while because someone keeps spending all of their earnings.

Anyway, that room is now magically soundproofed for a reason, they fully intend to make good use of those break days. (Also you can imagine that evening. “What are you doing?” “Um, I’m. Putting… sound blocking charms. On the door.” “.....”)