#In The Mnemonic Station | OOC

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(( Reminder that Orvus is all ready to go for sinday and everything else over at The Neverending Party That Is My Fucking Mind or as some call it, a multimuse blog ))

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(( when u wanna finally get bck into the swing of things but your plagued by horrible nightmares that make your thin grasp on reality even thinner AAAAA ))

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(( I AWAKE FROM MY DEPRESSION SLUMBER ))

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(( sorry for taking so long to get back, I’ve been having really shit dreams that drain me emotionally, like legit I’ve been having dreams that pick at specific fears of mine and it fucks me up I blame me neglecting to take my meds before bed, WHOOPS! 

thought it’d give you all an update.

good news is though I am one step closer to coming back, I really feel like getting back into the swing of things!

don’t feel shy to send me asks, it might help! ))

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(( sorry for being so quiet this past while. I’m still checking tumblr regularly, but like.. idk... I’ve just been sorta existing you know, like I got the muse, I just haven’t the energy to write. All I wanna do is chill. Plus like doesn’t help that the last of december has been sorta hard on me, what with having to go out so often, and so much social interaction...))

(( Orvus wishes you all a Happy New Year. ))

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(( oops I didn’t do anything today. On top of feelings of emptiness/emotional numbness, I’m also quite under the weather due to me suffering from a longtime physical condition. I’ll answer asks though today, because it’s sinday and I just gotta. so come at me, memers. ))

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(( well, uh, heh, it seems that depression is hitting me pretty hard today. like. I feel so helpless that so many of you are in states of despair, and here I am, being so unbearably positive. how privileged am I that I can sit here and do nothing while everyone else has some sort of struggle. 

it’s either my depression, or I’m just really tired and haven’t had my coffee yet. regardless, I went from being so negative to the point of needing some positivity, to the point of being so positive it’s bringing me into negativity. like. fuck.

I try to be the beacon of happiness that everyone needs, considering how much I try to be funny. but then again humour is how I cope. I just. really don’t want my self-loathing to return, especially when I need to be there for everyone, I want to be there for everyone, and it’s hard sometimes.

but ignore my rambling, soon I’ll go back to having fun. ))

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(( sorry for no activity today. I was out for the early afternoon and... returned with an injury. ))

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(( guess who got their hair dyed~! ))

(( it this bug! ))

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(( time for sin ))

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(( I SURE FUCKING WISH TUMBLR WAS RECOMMENDING ME RP PROMPT BLOGS INSTEAD OF PERSONAL BLOGS. ))

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(( also btw if you want to talk to my outside of tumblr for whatever reason, I am using skype once more. IM me for my skype ))

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(( guess who just woke up ))

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(( DAD’S GONE TIME FOR SIN ))

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(( ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME I TAKE SCREENSHOTS OF SKYRIM WITH MY IPOD, ON MY TV, BECAUSE IT’S THE ONLY CHOICE I HAVE AT THIS POINT, AND THEN MY SHITTY WINDOWS 10 PC WILL NOT HAVE THE OPTION OF ME BEING ABLE TO SELECT MY PLUGGED IN IPOD SO I CAN EXTRACT THE SCREENSHOTS? LIFE HOW HARD ARE YOU TRYING TO FUCK MY ROLEPLAYING CAREER THIS GETS ME SO ))

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(( OHOHOHOHHOOHO I GOT THE MOST EVIL IDEA IN MY HEAD RN ))