#IPRMOMSIE ILL POST ART TOMORROW !!!!!!!!!!!

[sprinklina]

NOT TO GIRLBLOG. BUT since i've been going out of the house more often i want to type something out because i'm insane (long post)

my area isn't very interesting. when i get out of my neighborhood, i pass a dunkin' and other things that have been a staple. i think of how many things i haven't noticed growing up. there's a birdsnest on the sign for my pharmacy. i've noticed it when i was little, but forgot about it since it wasn't important. every time i go there, i see a nest, just above the e. i know the birds have come and gone. the new birds live there, like the ones before and the ones before that. they are still here.

and then i think of how many things i have noticed. little details that weren't important but i still remember and think about them time and time again. sometimes we pass a seafood shop. there's a giant lobster statue outside. his name is woolley. there was a bilboard that we passed to my elementary school advertising for strip club. it was changed to an advertisement for the seafood shop a few years ago. there's a farm with pumpkins and a barn and during the fall they let kids go there to take hay rides. there's a restaurant with giant red doors and beautiful dragon statues outside that has a weird slope enterance/exit that i made sure to remember because i always tripped going down. there's an autoparts shop that's been there as long as i have, and there's a car mechanic with a broken roof, and there's a rug store half the size of home depot. there's a car rental with 3 of the letters missing on the sign so it spells something funny. there's the perkins that went bankrupt and got painted all white. they have their sign outside. they kept their sign. they are still here.

and i didn't really take it in when i was little. i didn't really take in the fact that maybe when i was older, the things i saw wouldn't be there. it's a little like how stars were explained to me. i see stars, they are real, but they are gone, and the light still shines as if they were here. i didn't think that when i would get older, maybe i wouldn't see woolley when i passed by the seafood shop. maybe the bilboards would change to advertise something else. or maybe the farm would have to close, or maybe i would never go to that fancy restaurant again, or the autoparts shop isn't actually open for business, or the car mechanic left that place long ago, or that the rug store was long gone. and to see that the fields of trees i used to look at blend together much more easily, the parts of my town that were cleared for houses but only remain piles of dirt and construction material, to see the state of everything outside go downhill a little bit as i get older and go through my own issues is something.

sorry to get emotional on 11:53 pm on a tuesday but i think about how my town has grown with me. and to know it is struggling just as much as i am is something i can count on