#IM SO SORRYYYYYYYYY

[u3pxx]

what unmedicated adhd does to a mf <- binge-draw the dunmeshi characters into disco portraits apparently

[sammysammer]

Trick-or-treat

I DIDN'T SEE THIS DFJVDJF

IM SO SORRYYYY

TAKE THIS BOX OF CANDY

BELATED HAPPY HALLOWEEN MY FRIENDDDDD <33333

[hiyaitssans]

i used 2 compliment ppl i didnt know that well n b encouraging but now i realize that couldve been misconstrued as bullying ,,,,,

[lightnersdream]

i've been thinking about exactly why people portraying one of the other crew members successfully killing Jimmy as a "for what you did to Anya" kind of thing rubs me the wrong way a bit and it's because like..... this is just another form of taking agency away from Anya, in a way. it's kind of framing her as some meek, shivery woman-thing who's entirely at the mercy of the men around her, either to hurt her or save her.

(i understand these are mostly for wish fulfillment on the audience's behalf because everyone would like to see Jimmy pay for his crimes. whether or not this is the intention of the person writing it isn't really relevant, characterization happens with or without intent. i feel like it misses the point by portraying it as an 'ideal ending'.)

because... Anya is a capable person. she takes things into her own hands when she can. it was partially(?) her idea to get into the cargo,

(before he interrupts her.. remember when she interrupted Curly in the dead pixel segment?)

it was her idea to get the code scanner from the cockpit,

it was her idea to get the medication from behind the foam.

(the chance to do these things herself is not given to her.)

she'd been keeping Curly alive for months in a critical state somehow, her psych evaluations at the start are only so useless because Jimmy refuses to take it/her seriously and Curly is obviously biased when he puts it into his own hands. he's known him a long time, like he said. "I'll just put good for that one."

there's not a lot of material to work with because of how the game is framed, but it's there. we are working with two very biased perspectives and neither one lends Anya what she deserves

there's significant changes in how she speaks post- and pre- crash, and depending on who she happens to be talking to. i recommend re-reading her dialogue, because the difference is drastic

she acts the way she does around Jimmy because he has tangibly done horrible things to her, is actively hostile, and physically could not escape him by any means. she can't take away Curly's agency herself, in my eyes. you have to remember that Especially in the post-crash segments of the game, it's entirely from Jimmy's POV, and he obviously does not (and has never) thought very highly of her or treated her with a shred of respect

i've seen a general idea that she can't bear to hurt other people for any reason, but that doesn't really track to me. this is the real point of the post by the way

it seems based on the parts where she says she struggles to give Curly medication. "It just hurts him so much, I can't stand the noise." "It makes me nauseous."

it's not really the same thing as, say, hurting someone in self defense

this sounds like she did want the gun itself. this never felt worded like someone who would refuse to, at very least, threaten Jimmy with a gun, with violence. if she had been given the agency to make that decision on her own. she wasn't though

she still tries to reclaim some of it even as she's denied it

by the end she's still trying to keep that gun out of his hands

i think some people overly soften her, for similar reasons the game itself is trying to comment on. she's not a tender victim who couldn't cause pain to another out of the softness of her soul, she's a person who's had every last bit of agency ripped from her repeatedly until she couldn't take it anymore. that's the point. that's why framing her that way, "needing" someone to save her, is odd to me

she didn't need Curly to save her, she needed him to take responsibility

she didn't want to escalate things, but she's not an idiot. self defense was absolutely on her mind

but who knows im just saying shit *smiles serenely*

[spookychiptune]

Happy Valentines from the fog! 💌

[freakbullet]

N'Zoth - by Tim Shevtsov

so starved for content of this eldritch squid that I literally keep track of some non-canon card game I don't even play just for the occasional scraps. and it is totally worth it

[joelletwo]

THANK U EVERYONE WHO SAID KIND THINGS TO ME YESTERDAY MORNING abt my guilt spiral. i am taking them in at the rate im allowed to look directly at the situation and feel things about it kjshfg which is still Barely

[bizarrescribblez]

i did not care for a.lice w.ake

[risingsunresistance]

well i think i already know what post is gonna be number one in my 2024 summary thing kgjfhg

[mysunshine-youremoonlight]

marin karin.....

[skenpiel]

so sad when someone replies "investing at [number] notes" on a post that i like a lot and would like people to see because no matter how great the post actually is, the MOMENT someone says that im left there like

[brandycranby]

eepy 😥

[faeriestars]

I just quit a job w/o two weeks and the guilt is unbearable

[weaselishmcdiesel]

bravest thing a little weasel can do is tell my fucking roommate i have covid girl i am so sorry

[softshuji]

The number you are trying to reach no longer exists

-Mikey

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[alphabettcity]

hell is reading that one chapter in every classic that is a million pages long