#IM NOT OKAY IM UNWELL

[weirdly-specific-but-ok]

Cry

https://youtu.be/QVwESV3YW3I?si=SC0vdUkBUYXWg9eF -500 Miles

https://youtu.be/IQsww54uJ58?si=_umXzR7GWCea2pcn -They’re only Human

https://youtu.be/ZoWr2e9XKlw?si=eRedQoi3zOUpF38L -Loathing/Loving

https://youtu.be/w9yDm0Xr1Pg?si=D33sBXgMaxt_NQPz -Somebody To Love

https://youtu.be/ScjG561HrAA?si=wbO2KN_bEcKkxeVN -Runaway

https://youtu.be/iOESiNkJMwg?si=ilOuyNx9_ENkRjdW -Titanic

https://youtu.be/PIyc1q7lN74?si=KHlLG9kS7vWtmnx_ -Two birds

https://youtu.be/DvdQYzlB3E8?si=VG4oqxfsQqkBCSYg -Defying Gravity Short

https://youtu.be/n2G7QJrA5zY?si=xqb6nq-DGAYf6qdi - Defying Gravity Long

https://youtu.be/0sbgRR_IN_8?si=d1SgXh8Bdd3uXt1i -love of my life

https://youtu.be/lp4VZ8Arm4k?si=KoT9WqrEPpQUhHuZ -Until

https://youtu.be/pGu9Y6azBHI?si=diCkRmTqU5ropdor -Angeleyes

https://youtu.be/Ch4UbMQLGao?si=bnXdCNfG4-kMW21K -The Winner Takes It all

https://youtu.be/18cUGr_wdn4?si=CT5O_-ci3hxSbJNK -Heaven Knows

https://youtu.be/AnPyZB03Clo?si=0bJ2essjsiFgLULi -What Was I Made For

https://youtu.be/4hqz1QJaOgY?si=Tak32zpmClZlINta- Two Birds

https://youtu.be/0IklocqHfCg?si=gNsyHFB-fxPLaSy2 - Two Birds

https://youtu.be/ZlXxTnb8KO0?si=Ct4YVdq8YBNGZlT6 -Don’t cry because it’s over

https://youtu.be/nm-tlOtMKIE?si=Oc04dDq2SETbEoO8 - Wke me when it’s over

https://youtu.be/2X7-SzEt1cU?si=7W3F8P17kqlOq0IA -🥺

SORRY BUT WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT TO BLESS MY INBOX WITH THIS? JUST CASUALLY? I'VE JUST BEEN WATCHING THEM ONE BY ONE AND I HAVEN'T EVEN GOT THROUGH HALF AND I'M SO IN LOVE WHAT THE FUCK?

WHAT I WAS MADE FOR BROKE ME. IT JUST BROKE ME OW.

500 MILES CROWLEY WALKS ADORABLE.

THEY'RE ONLY HUMAN??? THE ANIMATION IS FUCKING STUNNING? THE SNAKE-TO-DEMON EDEN TRANSFORMATION LOOKS MORE FLAWLESS THAN IN THE SHOW?

LOATHING/LOVING I'M SO ATTRACTED TO THE INEFFABLE WIVES I'M SO SO SO ATTRACTED TO THEM NO FUCK

WE DON'T TALK ABOUT TWO BIRDS

FUCK I'LL BE FINISHING THIS LIST FOR DAYS. I'LL HAVE TO BOOKMARK THIS ASK'S TAB ON MY BROWSER. FUCK ME.

[kenchann]

talkin to him every night wwwww

[mysticalfg]

I'm extremely normal (mentally ill) about chloe frazer and nadine ross actually

[gunthermunch]

oh my god

[rockwgooglyeyes]

If only Ivan had ever been honest with Till, like, fucking hell. Then again, it isn’t as if Till was completely forthright with Ivan either but he wears his emotions on his face, he’s so much easier to read. Now, I cant help but read Till’s revulsion in Round 6 (to Ivan kissing him) as instinct, Till is flinching away, he’s surprised, he doesn’t know what’s happening, what is Ivan doing? Ivan reads that as hatred, as anger, because of course he does but if anything, it’s confusion, desperation to get free and demand an answer.

Till’s immediate reaction to most things is shock/confusion, and he defaults to fight over flight or freeze. He has a slow reaction time, it takes him a minute to fully understand something (which I can relate to) and so he’s not the fastest on his feet even if he’s fucking smart. Ivan reads that lack of immediacy as hesitation because for him, it is, he’s quick witted and it doesn’t take him very long to formulate any kind of plan.

In today’s comic, Till’s immediate reaction to Ivan's question is confusion and horror. Then, as he processes the information, he calms and placates Ivan with the concept of a birthday kiss, likely because they both know that Ivan doesn’t have a birthday. Ultimately, he’s distracted, annoyed by Ivan for being unwilling to give it up, and he doesn’t give much weight to Ivan’s words. But oh my fucking god, he isn’t opposed. To be honest, I think Till just assumes Ivan is joking because “oh that’s just how Ivan is, it doesn’t mean anything” but it does because Ivan is a fucking moron.

I can’t read Ivan and Till’s love as anything other than mutual, now. I mean, of course, Ivan is romantically, head over heels hopeless in love with Till but, Till loves Ivan too, and I don’t think it’s familial or even fully platonic. I think Till could have loved Ivan in the way Ivan wanted, if Ivan had given him the chance. If Ivan actually talked to him about it like a normal person, they could’ve actually had something. Can you imagine? If Ivan had said something instead of just dancing around it for infinity, they could’ve been happy.

But they never got that chance. Because Ivan didn’t think that was in the cards for him, because Till was too blind to see what was right in front of him, they are both doomed to die alone.

[astrobei]

the whiplash of spending the last two years seeing everyone talk about s4 mike being a mini eddie and following in eddie’s footsteps and being inspired by him (which are all true and real) just to be shot point blank by st5 pics of mike with short hair and a dorky little outfit and dustin with eddie’s haircut and outfit and rings instead. i’m fine i swear

[gunsatthaphan]

so alan & gaipa really went on that date 🫠🥹🫶🏻

[madderruz]

let's get drinks sometime

gladiolus - bravery

zinnia - thoughts of absent friends, lasting affection

red camilia - flame in my heart

dark crimson rose - mourning

sweetpea - blissful pleasures, goodbye, thank you for a lovely time

[ybcpatrick]

like i'm so fucking ill about it. the (shipped) gold standard was the last song they needed to play to have performed every single song off of folie à deux live at least once. the record that has caused them the most pain. the one that they avoided like the plague for over a decade after its release, save for i don't care and the occasional instances of disloyal order, what a catch, or 20 dollar nose bleed when they toured with panic! that one time. the one that patrick wouldn't even talk about, for the longest time. it got them booed visciously, it got them dissected by critics, it got them pelted with garbage and glowsticks at shows, it got them stressed and strained to the point of needing to pause all efforts as a band to make sure they could still stay FRIENDS in the wake of it, and now it is the only fall out boy record that they have played 100% of, INCLUDING lullabye and fucking pavlove. and the last song left was (shipped).

you can only blame your problems on the world for so long. i want to scream "i love you" from the top of my lungs, but i'm afraid that someone else will hear me.

(or, they used to be afraid. evidently, not anymore.)

[queensend]

i turned around, there was nothing there yeah I guess, THE END IS HERE

[charcoaledrocks]

hi hello sorry for being gone for like . months on end

anyways good morning spicynoodles nation how we doing

full ver under the cut :

[kairennart]

Lieutenant McGraw...

For the Black Sails 10th anniversary week: Favorite season.

[eulergirl]

The average signalis first playthrough experience

(Im still sad abt it)

[haunted-xander]

tbh one of, if not my absolute favorite part about ffxiv, is the small little moments/sections where nothing super big or like. Plot Important happens, but that give both the characters and us, the players, some much appreciated down-time to just. Feel things. And to process what's happened and what's going on or to just. Let us exist, in the moment. In a much more grounded and human way than when there's Big And Important Things happening.

The biggest(imo) and earliest example of this is right after the Waking Sands get raided in ARR, and WoL turns to the church for guidance. The entire section of us helping them gather and bury our fallen comrades, and especially bringing Noraxia home to Little Solace so she can be laid to rest in her homeland, by her own people and in their own cultural ways, was so so important to me.

Because it wasn't just replacable allies cast aside for shock value anymore, it was real. These deaths were real and meant something. I got to actually process what just happened, and I got to watch Banana go through it right with me. And not only did it make it feel real, it also gave me a sense of closure. These people, these friends, are dead, but they also got to be treated with the respect they deserve and laid to rest properly.

And that, more than anything else, made me want to save the world. It's grounded and grounding. This world, and these people, meant something to me, the player.

And there's tons of stuff like that throughout the game, especially in shadowbringers and endwalker.

In shb we have, for example, Lyna venting her anger and frustration after the sin eater attack in Lakeland. She's on her knees yelling on the verge of tears while punching the ground, so furious at her helplessness and powerlessness, at everyone having come so far yet set back because some megalomaniacal tyrant deemed it so.

In ew we have Urianger being approached by Moenbryda's parents, who confront him about not confiding in them about his grief. When Bloewyda starts to scold him, he of course reacts guiltily, believing they blame him, only for him to be completely caught off guard when she instead goes in to hug him, telling him he should have let them grieve with him. And he just. Breaks down. He's been holding these feelings, this grief inside him all this time, and now that he is not only told it's okay to let it out, but by her very own parents at that, he just can't keep it in anymore. He cries for Moenbryda, right then and there, being held lovingly by her family.

And the thing is, these scenes aren't necessary, strictly speaking. The plot at large could go on without them, the events that happen around them are not changed by these moments in any way.

But still, they are so so important, to the world, to the characters, to the players. Everything feels real and impactful now, every death means something, every tragedy, every person, feels real.

And that, to me, is what makes this story so special.

[skitskatdacat63]

Pushing Nico out of the way istg, WHY CAN'T THAT BE ME!?!?!?

[elysiarte]

finally finished this after like 2 months