#IM HOWLING AT 3AM

[spirit-tracks]

WHO MADE "no beta we die like Wild" A TAG I JUST WANNA TALK

[orangechickenpillow]

Tav waking up in a cold sweat to astarion looking for a midnight snack like

[bakawitch]

Words can not describe how much I hate it when people randomly set off fireworks in my neighbourhood without any reason. There are two dogs in my house, and every time, even a single one is set off, I have to spend an hour per dog to calm them down. Do people think that dog owners don't have enough to worry about during the firework show driven holidays?

[heliianth]

longest thing ive written in forever & despite it being unedited and also like 3AM im proud of it so im posting

The grass crunched. A cool shade fell over his back, he could feel the presence there. Shadow only hugged his knees tighter.

Sonic sat down, of course it was him. His feet kicked against the cliff face, small rocks bounced away and into the swirling sea. The setting sun lit up his face and turned his eyes golden. He paid Shadow no mind, staring out onto the horizon with an unfamiliar expression.

“What do you want?“ Shadow's voice came hoarse in his throat.

Sonic only glanced his way. ”To sit with you for a bit. That okay?”

“Do as you wish.”

“Alright.”

The waves churned beneath them, the radiant and otherworldly hum of Angel Island an ambient backdrop. The dusk light embraced the water gently, orange glow wavering, before slowly creeping beyond and leaving the world with blackness. Already the nighttime was cold. A light breeze bit into Shadow's skin. It split him open, peeled something off and carried it out of reach. Small layers of protection shed with the slightest nudge. He had company. What was wrong with him?

He found himself counting, five in through his nose and five out through his mouth. But the air was so thick despite the altitude, he felt his nose and esophagus clogging.

“Shadow,” Sonic's voice cut through it all like a hot knife. He shifted and it drew Shadow's head up. “I've never told anyone this, okay? Not even Tails. So promise you won't snitch.”

Sonic held up a gloveless paw, head still turned away and pinkie outstretched. Shadow frowned. The fur on his palms was darker, almost cream, compared to the peach on the rest of his arms. His pads were darker than that, a brown that looked black in the low lighting.

Shadow looked down at his own bare paws where they clenched the fur on his legs. Slowly, he pried one of them away and linked a red pinkie with Sonic's.

Sonic hid his profile. Cold air separated them again. But after a few seconds, he shrugged to himself, and admitted, “I know who my parents are.”

The breeze picked up, adopting a slight howl.

“I've had lots of people come to me and tell me they're my parents.“ Sonic laughed, but it came out heavy. Bitter in a way he'd never heard, almost alien coming from the blue hedgehog's mouth. ”Comes with being famously orphaned, y’know? Whatever.“

Shadow stayed silent.

“She emailed me, with the, um,” he waved a paw around, “the public address Tails set up. For fans. He assumed it was like the other times: someone making something up for attention. So I ignored it.“

His brows furrowed, eyes tracking Sonic's arm as it lowered so he could tear up a handful of grass and toss it over the cliff. It fluttered away in the wind. He could feel its fingers, its breath, climb between his teeth; ”How'd you figure out she wasn't lying?“

”It was mostly a gut feeling.” Another shrug. “There were also pictures. She asked if I wanted to meet up. Promised she wouldn't go public with it either way, told me she just wanted to see if I was doing alright and... apologize in person.”

“Did you go?” Shadow felt his body lean forward, eagerly listening despite himself.

A second clump of grass went into the sky. “Nah.”

Something molten welled up inside of him. He couldn't keep the venom off his tongue when he snapped, “Why not? She clearly loved you if she reached out.”

”I don't remember a lot of my life, before Eggman. Maybe she loved me.“ Their eyes finally met. ”But that didn't matter to her then. It wasn't enough.“

Shadow tore his gaze away, back onto the water. His paw, the one he'd used to linked pinkies, dug into the dirt. His talons gouged a chunk out. ”You don't forgive her.“

Sonic went quiet for a moment. “The way I see it what's done is done, yeah? I'm over it.”

Shadow could tell Sonic was trying to regain eye contact, felt his paw meet his shoulder like a gunshot. He flinched away, vision blurring. Sonic didn't chase it.

“I'm just telling you... you're not alone, Shadow.”

Shadow squeezed the muddy clod of earth in his fist so hard he could feel it ooze. His breaths came quick and sharp, he wanted to do something. Turn and scream at Sonic for doing this to him. He'd rejected his responsibility, the one Shadow gave him, Shadow's whole life, like it was an unsavoury article of clothing. And then he sat down and talked to him like he could understand. What could he know about loneliness? Adored by humanity, revered as a hero. Successful in all the ways Shadow would not be, even as the Ultimate Lifeform.

He wanted to kill him. The yearning was horribly safe, it buzzed in his head like a heater.

Instead, he curled up into a pathetic ball. And this time, when the nighttime wind blew in from a new direction, Sonic shielded him from the chill.

[lookismaddict]

Everyone, here is my drawing of Jong Gun Park… my “masterpiece” 😭✨ Dedicated to my fav Auntie @wannaeatramyeon 🖤

HAD TO CENSOR IT TOO. 😭😩 IM STILL HOWLING AT THIS BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. IVE BEEN DYING SINCE 3AM AND I CANT STOP CRYING OVER THIS HAJSHSKSHSKSHSSK. IT’S TAKING ME OUT, HEEELLLLPPPPP MEEEE 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀

[landwriter]

ur 70s sf au excerpts have me biting my knuckles and writhing on the floor right now at 3am like i absolutely never expected reading excerpts of fic wips on tumblr would have this much effect on me but it appears only you have that power so . im quite certain i won't survive the actual fic at this point

anon I'm so flattered by this i've been reeling all day bc I thought my 70s sf au excerpt was like, my own very personal madness and the way i have released some of that howling into the void only for you all to howl back truly may have made my week <3

anyways have some more as my thank-you for leaving such a lovely ask:

He leaves Dream’s apartment with the words What he has offered me is generous, circling around and around in his head like a dog chasing its tail. I would offer the same, he thinks. I would offer more. Anything. He imagines Dream and his mystery love meeting in the cover of darkness, meeting in cars, in parks, imagines Dream’s lips slick with spit instead of grease, and at the end, each time, the other man, who he pictures as older, chiseled, clean-cut - who must surely have a wife - reminding him he loves another, and Dream nodding, serious, straight-backed as his settee. He wonders if they kiss each other.

All evening, he presses down on the scab of it, then helplessly pries up the edges until it stings again.

Late into the night, lying restless in bed, he finds a pencil, doesn't bother turning on the light, and writes his offer into the margins of the closest piece of paper at hand:

you are a moon-creature for him - i would take you into the sun - i would show you off and say, Look, Look, he is mine, and I am his

“Enough,” he says aloud. “Enough, enough, enough.” He flips the paper over and falls asleep to the tender-new-skin thought of holding Dream’s hand and walking down Market together.

[locklylemybeloved]

Hello there! Fun round, feel free to tag as many people as you want! Please tag:

Your A Team (technically 3 other people but I'll let more than that slide because I love you)

Someone you want to see your favorite film in the theaters with

Someone who reminds you of a favorite song - share which song!

An angel disguised as a human being

Someone who you remember knowing from your first days on tumblr

Someone who you would dance all night with to any music you want

Someone that reminds you of the color yellow! What about purple? Blue?



YAY BLOG REC ANON LETS GOOOO

my a team:

@wellgoslowly @givemea-dam-break @ikeasupremacy @neewtmas @lucy-j-carlyle im saying this cause yall are my lnco moots and i love you and also u never fail to make me bawl my eyes out <3

someone i want to see my favorite film in theaters with: @thebestieyoureinlovewith lets be real u would be SO fun to watch movies with

someone who reminds me of my favorite song (literally all of them i cant choose just one): @howls-movingcastles and @lee-says-things do i rlly have to explain i mean yall are just <333

an angel disguised as a human being:

@loverswillowed @just-another-lovesong LETS BE SO FR RN

someone who you remember knowing from your first days on tumblr: @ketterdam-snack-bar u were actually my first real moot!!!

someone i would dance all night with to my dancing in the rain at 3am playlist: @the-cardigans it would be sooooo much fun to dance with drew in the rain like cmon

someone who reminds me of yellow, purple, and blue (in that order):

@howls-movingcastles @sleepless-crows @matthewkniesys

[timoswerner]

the match tonight better not boring because i will fall asleep im so tired i was kept awake by one of my parents snoring then what that stopped a cat outside decide to WAIL LIKE A BABY for an hour and then at 3am i was woken up by squeak howling like a fucking husky because she'd brought one of her toys upstairs and obviously no one was playing with her which is cute and everything but its so LOUD

[leticiahewett]

Making those phone calls

The police are taking me home from my son’s tragedy site. We drive passed my work and suddenly I realise holy shit tomorrow is Monday and I have work.. so I call my boss it’s around 9pm on the Sunday night.. she answers and im like “sorry to call so late but I guess you’ve heard about the accident on the highway, well that was my son.. can you please let Adelaide (head office) I won’t be at work tomorrow, actually make it the rest of the week”..

I finally get home.. I walk up the hallway looking for my brother and other son because I have the police with me to help deliver the news.. my other son is not home, my brother comes out of room and asks “where’s Isiah” to which I reply “please come to the lounge room the police need to talk with us”.. my brother continues to ask “where’s Isiah?” “Was that accident him” to which I reply “yes” my brother walks back in his room.. I ring my eldest son because he ain’t home when he answers I ask “where he is because I have news for him”, he replies “I’m safe mum I’m with friends” he told me a few times in that phone call.. eventually I scream “your brother is dead” and hang up.. shits getting real and my mind is finally catching up with what’s going on..

I head to the front yard because I’m hearing my other brother and his wife outside

By this time my other brother had contacted my children’s father to let him know “there was an accident and everyone is meeting at my place”.. while out the front yard I contact my daughter and ask her “where she is because I have something to tell her and I need the address so the police can do a welfare check on her after my phone call” she gives me the address (my phone is on loud speaker so the police officer is able to hear)

Once my daughter has given me her whereabouts I proceed to tell her “there was an accident today and unfortunately isiah passed away as a result”. My daughter tells me “to stop lying and this is a sick joke” i reply “I’m actually telling the truth and there’s police with me now” so then the police officer starts speaking to my daughter

After hanging up from my daughter I start making the phone calls to other family members.. these phone calls were very short and sweet “hey I’m just calling because unfortunately I have some bad news. There was an accident tonight on the highway and isiah has passed away as a result” there was many horrible silences with each phone call..

My phone is blowing up between calls and msgs it’s ringing again with other family or friends since news travels fast in my country town.. many of those calls were “please tell me it ain’t true”

I walk inside for some peace and quiet because my yard is now starting to fill with family and everyone’s crying or making phone calls to help me out.. My mum calls me and all I could do was scream “mum” while on the phone. I have no words to say my mum the reality and severity of shit is kicking in.. I punch a wall because wtf is going on.. this can’t be my life and this can’t be happening..

I’m back outside hugging my husband and crying… many times I’m just sobbing in his arms saying “please tell me this ain’t real and I’m just having a nightmare” even at some stage it sounded like my dogs were crying not howling actually crying..

I had visitors up until 3am, some crying, some wanting information from the nights accident, some just wanting to pay their respects.. we all sat around sharing memories of Isiah.. I zoned off into my own world and while in this zone I have an image of Isiah laying on the ground with his arms reached out like he wanted me to grab his hands.. I tell no one of this image because they’ll never believe me, I don’t even believe me

[ughgoaway]

nth much to say but just here to give u some virtual hugs bff,,, when in doubt.... its horizontal hours + matty time :( (my go-tos really- besides ur au ofc)

also for some reason ur garlic bread is in my head (i promise im normal)- ace maybe this is some cosmic sign for u to bake some maybe itll help <3 (i am now craving garlic bread at the ungodly hours of 3am help me)

- bff anon is riding thru this storm with u and miss seeing u on this hell site very much

thank you for the virtual hugs bff, you are such a sweetheart!!!

I have been horizontal for a few days now, and I am excited to finally catch up on all the great matty fic content I've missed!! I will still be rotting in bed as I do it bc that is the only place I can cope with being right now lol. so if you all suddenly see 1000 reblogs from me... shhhhh. (also, it will never fail to make me feel giddy that my silly au makes someone feel better omgggg)

YOU THINKING ABOUT MY GARLIC BREAD HAS ME HOWLING!!!! BFF I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AHAHAHAHAH

you know what, maybe this is a sign from the universe... you'll be happy to know the dough is now rising and I will be eating enough garlic bread for the both of us bestie!!! also 3am???? hello, why are we sending asks at this time?? SLEEEEEEEP!!!

I've missed you lot too, even if it's only been like 3/4 days lol. I was still lurking a little bit, but it was very strange to not post my every waking thought??? so now prepare for an onslaught of annoying posts from me (i say as if i haven't already been doing just that) :)

I love you soooooo much bff, you are an actual angel on earth <333

[wavage]

They're gossiping

Once again open it up for clearer viewing

[pyonzzz]

guys i think koga listened to bear ghost growing up and thats why he turned out the way he did

[chimerabal]

OH HOHOHO SO HOLY SHIT WE HAD OUR FIRST PERMA-DEATH ON INNISTRAD

It’s Cassiel, we were fighting an undead beholder that (I don’t think any of us realized was what it was) disintigrated him.

Fuckin’ Dust.

We have a whole camp of skaaberen and necroalchemists and No Physical Body to return to them for fixing.

He spent the last few sessions trying to repair his busted reputation among the rest of the party for being a scumbag. He didn’t Really make what I would consider actual apologies but he made some efforts, and kept sure to look out for the others in battle.

Our necromancer/healer went down, who had saved him probably three consecuitive seasions before this, so he rushed over to give her some inspiration/healing potions and got FRIED bc he put himself in the murder zone.

She said, sarcastically, “oh my hero”, which he replied, dryly, “I’m glad you think of me that way.” and then Fucking Disintigrated. He went out as close to a hero as he ever could be- which isn’t very much.

His brother who was there doesn’t realize he’s dead yet- his sister who is currently on her way to help fight this bullshit is going to be Ruined- and all of the other pcs are torn rn.

(Mechanically, Cas made himself the only viable target to this beast, the beast rolled a random beam: disibtigrate, that beam went off and still wiped out my pc’s remaining hp on a saved roll. I was given the option to fudge some rules so he could live but, narritively its So Good, so I let our bastard dice rolling app on discord decide and... it chose death.)

To follow that our necromancer’s mum- reason were here and fighting- didn’t eVEN REMEMBER HER OWN DAUGHTER AND THREATENED TORI BEFORE FUCKING OFF AGAIN. H O R R I B L E. THE WORST. TORI DIDN’T DESERVE THAT.

We are WRECKED and our chatacters are WORSE.

[slytherfriends]

(Same anon again.) Oh HOLY SHIT they actually did that to you? Damn, and here I thought your original post was just hypothetical fretting. Ugh. People tend to see animal issues in black/white perspectives and don't understand that there's a lot of factors to consider that make it more nuanced than their own limited experience. People are ignorant and I'm sorry I'm rambling while you're upset, this is just a topic that frustrates me so much! I'll fight them for you.

so I’m gonna add onto what happened last night because I was in a pretty shell shocked state.

So the “friends” who staged the “””””intervention”””” are my

Roommates

. The same roommates who got mad at me when I explained why maybe them getting a pet cat with all my reptiles was a bad idea. Mind, they agreed to live with all my pets two years ago. These animals aren’t a new development. Except for my newly purchased geckos. 

So instead they went out and got a

black market puppy mill husky

off

facebook

. ANYHOW, that’s not really the point. Except how it really is, because they spent an excess of $1800 on an unregistered puppy they later found out is a mutt. Which set them back well, $1800. Which is rent money. And Bill money. Because this dog was also an impulse purchase. No plans and no savings or anything. She hasn’t been to the vet yet and its been months. Anyway..

Right after this they corner me (yes I don’t use that term lightly I mean literally cornered me in my bathroom) to explain how they want me to pay 100% of our bills now because they think my reptiles are just now out of the goddamned blue  “jacking up” all the power/water bills. I said no. They insisted. I said I would get a breakdown of how and when our power is being used (thanks to our green power company I signed us up with they can do this) so I did a few experiments and it turns out that (shockingly!!) the reason our power bill is so high is because its summer in south Texas and three humans are living in one place. They accept this and we move on.

NBD right? We were good for a few weeks.

Except fast forward to last night. I’m watching TV, minding my own business and one of my roommates said “we need to talk” and as it turns out they have a bunch of THEIR friends (not mine i don’t know these people) over to basically publicly shame me into just... doing whatever they want. This had nothing to do with me or my pets except for how they want me to pay 100% of the household bills. It was the only thing mentioned over and over again and the last thing mentioned.

Never-mind how their dog has

no training

is basically feral

chews all our shit and constantly bites me

pisses and shits everywhere

to prevent her from shitting inside they LEAVE THE DOORS OPEN so she can go shit and piss all over our balcony that is completely unusable now because of the smell (and people have complained and tbh good on them keep complaining)

there are flies everywhere from the door being open (which they blamed my pets for? despite it being a new thing when they door started staying open)

oh and it has jacked up our bill to over $300 but somehow thats my new lizards fault 

i could go on about the time they accused me of trying to kill her but no she had indigestion one morning but somehow that was MY FAULT

fuck all of this tbh I’m too angry to continue but there is more

oh but, also, their damn dog tried to attack Gyll thru her cage

Anyway I’m not upset anymore. 

I’m goddamned FURIOUS.

[ryebreadies]

sparkles

[shieldwife]

how are you both polish and indigenous? could you elaborate on it a little bit?

there’s this funky new concept you might not have heard of: being biracial