#I've had them for ~20 years they're not benefiting her or anything

[running-in-the-dark]

something I've been thinking about while unpacking stuff.

I've still got my old Harry Potter books. I don't have all of them, we were poor so I borrowed most of them from a friend. but I've got 5 I think. I know I won't ever read them again. I don't like looking at them because they just make me think about bad things now. but I also don't want to throw them away. they (the physical objects) meant a lot to me when I was a kid. if I throw them away I can never get them back. I only have maybe two or three other books from when I was younger (I think I either got rid of them or they got lost during one of the many times we/I moved).

it feels stupid to keep them when I don't even want to see them, but I know there's many things I threw away in the past that I still regret now. maybe I'll just put them in a box somewhere, just to know they're still there. maybe I'll get rid of them the next time I find them again.

[tulipe-rose]

Sooo. A long Higuchi post, because honestly, I love her.

Higuchi is 19-20 years old, maybe 18, but that's very unlikely, since Tachihara refers to her as older, and he's 19 soo, yeah.

She has been a member of the Mafia for around two to three-ish years. Can't be more than that, since she didn't recognize Dazai during their first meeting. She probably joined a little later, maybe during the time Chūya was officially appointed his position as executive. The chaos would've died down a little by then.

She rose up to the rank of commander in such a short period of time. Don't believe me? That's okay, there's no forcing here, but might I remind you that both Chūya and Dazai joined at 15, one rising up to executive at 17, and the other at around 19-ish years old. (A commander is a step down from executive, whish happens to be Higuchi's rank.) That means it took them no less than 2 (4 years in Chūya's case) years to rise up in the ranks. I leave it up to you to discern whether or not that's a short period of time.

She has an unknown ability, but her equal footing (when it comes to ranking, not general strength. There's no doubt he's superior by a large margin) with Akutagawa indicates that even though it might be dormant/non-combative, her capability doesn't falter because of it.

Mōri definitely didn't apoint her commander out of nothing. He is the most rational man in Yokohama, he rules with fear, and does what's to his benefit, he answers to no one, besides Natsume. So it's either he acknowledged her enough for the role, or there's a hidden benefit to it. He does show some concerns about her fitting into the Mafia, which could mean he's either rethinking his decisions, or genuinely concerned (or some third option I didn't consider).

Which brings us to the thought of how, and why she joined the Mafia. As we can see in the Manga, she has a little sister, probably a high schooler, to provide for. That in of it's self could be her motive to join, but that doesn't justify why she didn't pick up any other job. Who recruited her? That's left to be seen, and I wouldn't be surprised if it was Mōri himself.

Her obsession with Akutagawa doesn't really make sense, and I'm torn between believing that she's a masochist, or has horrendous attachment issues. Akutagawa probably did one nice thing towards her, and even that was probably on accident, making her feelings develop. Another situation where he ends up saving her, and she's hooked. That's my theory however, feel free to share your opinion.

Something that had me raise an eyebrow or two was how she wasn't particularly respected by her colleagues, despite how important hierarchy was to the Mafia apparently. They do respect her a little more eventually, but I suppose they're close enough for that type of casualness (Tachihara calls her 'Big sis')

Akutagawa thanks her that one time (hold on I think I have the panels downloaded).

Yep, there they are. He thanks her here, meaning that there's at least a degree of respect he holds for her despite his usual cruelty towards her. She states that he's the soul reason she didn't leave the Mafia yet, meaning she didn't particularly like her job, but is doing it for him. There's definitely more to it, but that's maybe for another post.

The rest are waiting outside with a knowing look on their faces. They're all well aware of her feelings towards Akutagawa, and it seems like they're happy for her. They know something she doesn't, and I'm dying to know what it is.

I don't think I've spoken about everything, if there's anything I missed please tell me.

[no-psi-nan]

[Context]

Ok @fluffydice, sorry for the lateness on this one but as anyone following this blog for over 5 minutes probably knows, I think Aiura x Saiki x Akechi makes so much sense and it is insanely compelling to me. I've posted so much fanfic about it already and that's only like 20% of the Thoughts™ I've had about them tbh.

But when you're doing an analysis of a triad, you have to breakdown 3 different ships and also how they would work simultaneously, so I needed time to write it all up. Buckle in!

Let's talk about Saiki x Aiura first since they had the most screen time together and they're the most "canon". I was genuinely shocked to see how rare this pairing is in fandom when they're literally canonically soulmates and also actually prove it on their every interaction.

From their very first meeting, Aiura and Saiki work together flawlessly to save Yumehara's life many times in a row + the life of the truck driver. Aiura then figures out how to hang out with Saiki without having to deal with his tsundere rejection, which he can leave at any time (unlike with Teruhashi) because she knows about his powers and won't stir up trouble if he leaves. Saiki keeps allowing her to schedule 1:1 dates and is basically like "don't bother asking me, you know I'll go" about the dessert buffet date lol.

Even when they disagree and neither of them will back down, they still work wonderfully together and they both end up learning and growing from it. Saiki trusts Aiura to help him, and Aiura always agrees to help him just because she cares. That's HUGE considering how hard it is for Saiki to ask for literally anything!!

Aiura also respects Saiki's boundaries more than anyone else imo. She only joins him when he's out in public, she tries her usual heavy-handed flirting at first but quickly adjusts when she realizes he's not into it, she puts her clothes back on immediately after realizing that she misunderstood the situation, she starts asking him out instead of just joining him, she asks for a kiss and respects his "no", and she hugs him anyways because they both really need it after the stress of the day.

And Saiki responds to that, opening up more with Aiura than he has with anyone else in way less time. Aiura had under 2 years with Saiki while Saiki's core friend group had like 6 years, and yeah, she benefited some from his character growth over the past 4 years. But still, the way he banters with her shows how comfortable he is– he's more open with her than with anybody else, and not just with his annoyance like he is with Toritsuka lmao.

Also, come ON, there's just no one more deserving of an epic husband/wife local god with transformation powers than Aiura. She works so hard with her powers to help everyone and convinces Saiki to help others more and she helps him get the best outcomes for everyone. Let her get her hands on her soulmate who can make her bi dreams come true, who can give her third eye a break from constantly seeing auras and death marks, who can grow big fluffy wings to hug her with, etc etc etc!!!!! LET HER HAVE SOME FUN FFS!!

There's wayyyy more people forcing Aiura into the platonic bucket with Saiki than I've seen with Teruhashi (even though Aiura has way better chemistry with Saiki), which forces me to wonder whether it's because Aiura is more overtly sexual and "lowbrow" than Teruhashi, showing more cleavage, getting bad grades, putting stickers on her face because they're cute, showing pride in her sexual escapades. None of those make her a bad person, but a lot of people seem to think it does.

Some people more reasonably point out that if Saiki is very asexual and Aiura has a high libido then that could cause trouble for them. Well, first of all, while Saiki is pretty much obviously somewhere in the asexual and aromantic spectrum, his belief that boyfriend is the next level after best friend shows that demiromantic / demisexual is a strong possibility for him. And honestly I'd argue that whatever he has going on with Satou is at least partially sexual, though I'm not going to get into that in this already long-ass post lol.

But basically, I think there's a lot of room for a demiromantic and graysexual interpretation of Saiki and considering that Aiura has apparently stopped going out with other men for at least 2 years with no ill effects that we can see, it's quite possible that they'll be very compatible in bed after all. And if not, that's where consensual non-monogamy comes in lol. But genuinely I think that the fact that they're soulmates means that there probably aren't any major incompatibilities between them, otherwise the term would be meaningless.

So yeah, makes sense and really compelling because there's so much room for stories on how they actually got together, how they work together as their powers continue growing, and what their future looks like!

OKAY, now it's time for the Saikechi essay lol.

Actually, I don't think Saikechi needs a ton of justification, because it's kinda standard extrovert x introvert childhood friends to lovers lol. Saikechi only isn't more popular because Akechi appears for like 5 whole minutes in the undubbed second season of the anime and he was annoying for 90% of that time hsfjdlshfks rip.

But yeah, Akechi and Saiki are quite perfect together, as shown by the horse gambling episode. Akechi can see right through Saiki's tsundere facade and Akechi is extremely open about his wants and needs, which is important since Saiki can't properly understand his thoughts most of the time and is very bad at figuring that stuff out even with telepathy.

They're both some flavor of ace. Akechi offu's at Teruhashi and comments that she's the most beautiful women he's ever seen, but does not express wanting to date her, which is big ace vibes, plus he's one of the few characters that doesn't have anything to say about Aiura's boobs lol (even Teruhashi can't shut up about them). They're also similar flavors of highly intelligent + neurodivergent. Consider Akechi's analysis skills vs Saiki's ability to come up with dozens, if not hundreds of plans in extremely short notice.

Akechi is also great at making accommodations for Saiki's powers, even without knowing about all of them, and coming up with activities they can do together that will be equally fun and challenging for both of them! And I still love that it was Akechi showing Saiki what a fun low-stakes game can be like that basically repaired Kusuo's relationship with his brother (see: manga, as this was cut from the anime 😩).

It's a very nice and straightforward ship that still leaves a lot of room for fun stories. I've been dying to write a Saikechi frogboil (plotted but needs writing) just because Akechi would be so perfect at it and he would be very likely to approach Saiki that way to get around all the tsundere bullshit lol.

OKAY, now for the third leg of the triangle lol, Aiura and Akechi!!

(couldn't find an anime gif of this moment which is SO SAD)

Let's be real, Akechi and Aiura only share 5 moments on screen: the intro with all the chibis, when Aiura checks out his aura, when Aiura & Toritsuka kidnap him, the competition to find Saiki's hanky, and Akechi pestering Aiura about dress code violations in the every-character-appears episode. And 3 of those scenes are from the same chapter lmao.

Actually I think this ⬆️ scene is kinda cute because Akechi's teasing Aiura lol, I think he's being friendly in his little freak way <3

HOWEVER, if shipping was only about what we saw on screen, then it would be way more boring. So let's think about it!

Aiura and Akechi actually share a lot of similarities: they're both extroverts, they're both incomprehensible, they are both almost immune to lies, they have both have a drive to help other people including strangers, and they're both seeking someone who will love and understand them as they are.

They would just make a really great fit! Akechi could help with Aiura's fortune-telling by prompting better questions for her to ask, and Aiura might actually make Akechi's mystery-solving TOO easy, so she probably holds back on that one lol. Akechi would throw himself wholeheartedly into working against a death mark on a stranger.

They're so fun to think about too because neither of them is embarrassed easily at all and they're both completely in touch with their own feelings so they are going to be SO lovey-dovey, no matter how cringe it seems on the outside lmao.

Akechi seems like he'd love doing traditional courtship if given half the chance, and Aiura seems like she's mostly had one-night-stand kind of situations until now, so what a perfect opportunity to indulge! What a change for Aiura to date someone who respects her and isn't just after her body! What a change for Akechi to date someone who actually wants to hear what he has to say and isn't put off by his frankness around taboo topics!

They'd pick up phrases from each other and develop so many ridiculous in-jokes that become their own sort of language, which makes them both even more incomprehensible.

We do also run into the allosexual x asexual problem here but Akechi is so unbothered by bodily functions and so quick to find compromises and enrichment that I genuinely think he'd kind of turn that into a game lmao.

And I think Akechi would be down to start a family and give his kid(s) the kind of loving home he never really got to enjoy with his parents' ongoing domestic turmoil. And their kid(s) would be sooooooooo incomprehensible, bless. 🙏🏾 Raised by 1.5 psychic parents and sprinkling both terminally online lingo and academia-level terminology into their speech from day 1. Imagine...

So Aikechi definitely gets the A+ on making sense and being compelling here!

Which FINALLY brings us back around to the main question... Does Aiura x Saiki x Akechi make sense, and is it compelling?

Well, obviously I think so, since I've posted so much about it lol.

I think the main question for the viability of this ship is whether Saiki would be comfortable with polyamory, since Aiura and Akechi are unconcerned enough with social norms that they'd probably have no problem with it.

After some time getting used to the thought that he will never have the veneer of normal he's always wanted to project and that the pleasures of living authentically far outweigh the pains of being different, I think Saiki would actually love having his best friends as lovers and not having to choose only one person.

After all, most of his struggle is about lack of connection and his alienation from humanity. Well, here are Akechi and Aiura, who respectively mirror his lonely childhood and growing up with uncontrollable powers. They're both clever enough to see through his tsundere bullshit, they're both happy and able to help him with his powers & duties to save others, and they will both stand up to him if he's wrong or letting something slide to avoid conflict.

They're both perfect for him! And Akechi and Aiura would be much happier sharing him than trying to make him choose between them since they also get along so well. And let's be real, Saiki definitely deserves to be loved by the two people who know him the best. 💜

There's also a lot of story potential for how this ends up happening. In Extra Love Stories of Psychics, Saikechi and Saiura are basically happening in parallel and the Aikechi will close in the loop in a few chapters. But in Didn't see this one coming, I wanted to focus on Aikechi, so they get together and are basically ready for Saiki to finish his character growth and join whenever lmao.

You could also have them as like a hero team of lovers if you want more action-y plots, though tbh it's really hard to come up with situations they wouldn't immediately solve lol rip.

Another nice thing about Aiura, Akechi and Saiki being together is that Aiura and Akechi get a chance to help each other overcome some of Saiki's limitations, and the stuff they can't work around, Akechi and Aiura can do together.

An easy example is hand-holding. Changing Saiki's gloves to another texture is all well and good but sometimes you want to touch skin to skin, and it's much more overwhelming than calming for Saiki to do that. Akechi and Aiura can hold each other's hands without gloves though, and while it's not the same as holding Saiki's, it helps a lot to fulfill that desire.

Also, it's almost impossible for Aiura to surprise Saiki because he can read her thoughts, but while Akechi can probably figure out that she's planning something in general, she would have a much easier time surprising him. And similarly, since Saiki can't properly read Akechi's mind and doesn't have too much emotional intelligence, Akechi has to openly communicate his needs with Saiki all the time, which isn't a problem for him. But it's really nice when Aiura can tell from his aura or from her own emotional intelligence what Akechi wants/needs without having to explain himself. And even if Saiki can literally hear Aiura's thoughts, Akechi is still better at responding to her feelings because he's not tsundere and he actually understands feelings and what to do about them.

Additionally, Aiura has said she wants to be a mother, and while Saiki's affection for kids indicates to me that he wouldn't mind having kids, I think that he would be VERY opposed to passing on his genes due to how much trouble his powers have caused him. And Aiura's genes also are probably loaded with psychic powers! But if Akechi is there, then he can knock up Aiura no problem since he doesn't seem to have any psychic powers, and then the three of them can have their own family <3 Plus all the shenanigans that comes with having 2.5 psychics (and maybe more!) under one roof!

In conclusion, they're perfect, your honor!!

Also I probably should've been writing more fic of them instead of writing this novel XD XD

Thanks for the ask!!

[mischas]

Where was that Josh quote where he said Olivia auditioned for Marissa but he wanted Mischa instead because she looked "fragile" unlike Olivia who looked "strong" from? I loved Mischa as Marissa but part of me can't help but think Marissa would have gotten better reception if she had been played by someone older (tho I think Olivia was 19 by the time the first season was shot? Still young but a bit less awkward than having a 17 year make out with a 25 year old Ben). Critics hated teenage girls.

He's said it quite a bit in press over the last 20 years so there's a lot of places but he said Olivia "had such a strong persona that she didn't need rescuing" in 2013 for The Daily Beast. I think he repeats something along those lines in the book too. Check other interviews he's done at least in the last 10 years and you'll find more I bet. And it enmeshes Mischa with Marissa here in a way I find uncomfortable. That I think Mischa has always been uncomfortable with. It also diminishes the actual work. Her age didn't help how she was perceived in the tabloids and perhaps an older girl would've faired slightly better but that just puts the onus on the victim here. Mischa has also said she felt "unprotected" on set which the book doesn't get into among other things. (And Sepinwall knows and respects MB's boundaries, but to me it's the elephant in the room)

I don't totally get your argument because, if anything, Marissa's buyable vulnerability benefits from Mischa's young age. Which is an entirely different argument that these people need to receive more whackings for, especially the casting director who said on the podcast that they deliberately cast people opposite Mischa that were older than her because people her age didn't "look right" in scenes with her. What the fuck? So she's "mature for her age" and "worldly" but then they balk at her daring to act like a teenager on set. AND they all hung out constantly during the filming of s1 so this immediate isolation line they're taking now is total rubbish.

Obviously we all agree someone older should've been cast rather than 16 y/o Mischa. And that casting her opposite 24/25 y/o Ben is problematic. Which is its own rabbit hole.

Josh says now in 2023 that if Olivia had been cast instead, he'd have done something else with the character. Well, like what? OW couldn't handle deep storylines because of the angles of her face? (an actual argument I've seen them give). There's a way of saying Mischa was really good at portraying vulnerability without immediately going to the insulting idea that she's weak and that the character's weak. It shows, to me, based on the sharp decline in Marissa's writing, his irl treatment of Mischa long before the end of s3. We'll find out more in the next 20 years, I guess.

[jodilin65]

Good stuff going on. :-)

First, I'm definitely not as cold as I have been since I started taking the vitamins daily. However, I don't want to push it, so I'm going to try taking them for two days, then taking a day off, and repeating that pattern and I hope for the best. This might be my best bet most of the time, but I still plan to step it up to every day about a week before the lab.

If Kathy ever reads this, I'm sure she won't mind because I once asked her many years ago if she minded being mentioned in my journal. She said no because there were tons of Kathys out there. Besides, I don't have anything negative to say.

So… I don't know why, but she, a beautiful Mexican woman, was suggested to me on Facebook. Maybe because I looked her up a while back. Sometimes someone will pop into my mind, or I'll read back in old journals, see a name, and then get curious as to what they might be up to these days.

Anyway, I sent Kathy a few audios saying hello and letting her know that Aly died. She sent me a friend request and a few messages in response. Aly and Kim were mutual friends, and she even knew Molly. She actually met Molly because they're both from Texas. It turns out she stupidly gave Molly one last chance, wanting to give her the benefit of the doubt, so that's how she knew she had passed. She said Molly did the same things to her that she did to Aly and partly to me as well by demanding constant attention and pitching a fit if she didn't return messages within minutes, even after giving birth to her son. She also expected her to solve her problems, mainly with others at the group home she's still in. I guess she was whining about some guy stalking her, who was also a resident there, and Kathy kept telling her to take it up with those in charge.

I told Kathy that Kim was completely out of her mind and not allowed online. She said they exchanged postal letters years ago, and her handwriting was hard to read. It was written like a first grader, and she also sealed the envelope with tons of packing tape. I can totally picture this, and that's exactly what Aly described too, LOL.

I said I would give her Kim's email and that she could let her know she got it from me if she wanted, but she didn't ask for it, so I didn't offer. I also didn't offer my blog link, but I'll give it to her if she asks. I still prefer to keep things separate these days. To a degree, anyway.

So, she's 42 now, and she and her husband, daughter, and son have been living in Oklahoma since 2018 to be closer to her husband's family.

She developed diabetes and lost a lot of weight, but as I told her, I'm unable to lose weight, so I have to improvise and work around that by cutting sugar and carbs. I've been doing really well with that, too! I haven't lost weight, of course, but hopefully, I won't be borderline next time I go to the lab, but back to 5.something instead.

I didn't get fat until my 40s, but it's funny how before my 20s and during my 20s, I wanted to lose weight for the sake of appearance. In my 30s and 40s, I just didn't give a shit. Now, in my 50s, I'm back to wishing I could lose weight for my blood sugar, cholesterol, and BP. But sometimes we just have to accept that there are some things in life we can't change due to circumstances out of our control. I think—and I certainly hope—that cutting carbs and sugar down will be enough to help.

I love that Kathy is a good writer and seems pretty smart. It's nice to be able to understand what I'm reading, but of course, she won't do audios because you know how it is. Everyone's afraid to leave their voice online. I sometimes talk-type, and other times I do audios.

I'm glad we reconnected. I really am. We acknowledge that we had our squabbles when we were in touch regularly between 2010 and 2012, but it's ancient history. I know I usually have a very hard rule against being forgiving, but it was such petty shit that it's so done and over with. No, I don't think history will repeat itself because Kathy doesn't have time to be a troll, working at Walmart and raising a 5 and 10-year-old. Websites aren't set up the way they used to be. It's so easy to block trolls now, which is why I'm much more open to online friendships. If things go wrong when it's a neighbor or someone you have to work with, it can be a lot more awkward. But online, if someone pisses me off, I just cut them off. Even if they were to keep creating new accounts, there are still ways to block communication. I would never make all my blogs private on account of any troll like I used to, but I would close communication. I've already had to do it on a couple of sites due to spammers. No biggie.

Kathy gave me some good recipe ideas. I don't know why I didn't think of this, but mixing a little cream of mushroom with heavy cream and smothering hamburger patties in it would be a great idea. I still have meatballs but no cream of mushroom until tomorrow. I have heavy cream because I put it in my coffee. I do have some pizza sauce I could dress them up with, especially since these meatballs have a bit of a weird taste.

I stopped being able to remember my dreams, which kind of sucks. I slept better last time around, though. I woke up right before loud thunderclaps. My luck may run out tomorrow, though.

[skinnylittlerelapse]

Still having issues. I am still at the weight I have been at for a few months. I haven't been as careful about what I eat until a few weeks ago when I started tracking again but I get a good amount of steps in a day, I averaged about 10,000 steps a day this week. I've really been making an effort. I did start counting again, I've managed to keep myself in a pretty decent range that isn't too low or too high. I try not to be too strict about it, because that will trigger a relapse. I got kind of close. I'm making huge efforts in eating better meals, lots of protein and fiber and less carbs, and drinking more water. But I haven't seen much of a difference, if any. I definitely feel better, I have more energy, but I think that's mostly the B vitamins I started taking per my doctor.

I'm kind of concerned about having a bigger health issue. Diabetes runs in my family, it's part of why I want to be healthier so badly so I don't get it. Plus I evidently have a B vitamin deficiency, my doctor never specified which ones, despite most vitamin B rich foods being foods that I regularly eat. The vitamins help my mood/energy a lot but I'm not sure why I was deficient. I feel like there's gotta be something deeper going on there, since I should have been getting enough from foods. I also wonder a bit if my ED fucked my metabolism especially since I spent the last year being pretty touch and go with a relapse.

I'm not hopeful to get any clear answers on it soon. I only got the bloodwork done after practically begging my doctor. I went in there with concerns after losing 20 pounds over what felt like overnight and then gaining it back just as quickly, I'd done my measurements and everything and the measurements reflected it too. No changes in diet or exercise during that time either.

I explained my issues with my weight, how I'm very at risk for type 2 diabetes and want to be able to prevent it through diet and exercise, how I have an ED history, how I've had trouble losing weight, and the weird jump I'd had months before. My doctor was very dismissive, she just said "That's what happens to older women!" I'M IN MY 20s!! I had to point out to her that a 20 pound overnight jump like what I had isn't normal, and thats when she agreed to do the bloodwork, but I have a feeling she did that largely to appease me. I'm still upset by this. I didn't go in there asking to be put on Ozempic or anything close, I came in with some pretty reasonable concerns.

I don't want to go back into that office for any more questions or do any follow up. I've had other issues with that office for different things, I've profiled pretty hard as a drug user which I am not. But due to insurance I'm kind of stuck with this office. I hope to be switching insurances soon because I'm finally eligible for benefits from my job, and I really hope I can go back to my old office. They're a little bit of a drive away, but I really liked them and they always took my concerns very seriously. I don't know when that change will happen, though.

[dreamwatch]

Boring personal shit: weight loss surgery, rambling and long.

I don’t know if I've mentioned it here before or not, but I’ve been accepted for weight loss surgery. The process kicked off in Nov 22, and so far I've hardly progressed, but that's to be expected, it's very slow and you have to see so many different specialists. The frustration is that there is no clear list of who you have to see, and no one to contact. Don't call us, we'll call you kind of deal.

I had an appointment with the bariatric endocrinologist scheduled for January and it was cancelled the week before. And I've been waiting and waiting, and then in the end I got cheeky and I emailed the only person in the bariatric team that I had contact details for, the bariatric dietician. It was actually her that got that appointment booked in the first place. It's not in her remit so I didn't really expect anything but god bless her she replied and chased it up and 2 days later I get a notification to say I've got an appointment for the 8th May!

I'm hoping that I don't need to have many more of the specialist appointments. Over the last year I've actually had unconnected appointents with the respsiratory and cardialogy departments, and I'm hoping any of the tests I had there will be sufficient. But we'll see.

Apparently every surgeon, and every hospital or PCT over here, has their own criteria for specialists you need to see - the standard is dietitican, cardoliogist, respiratory, endicronolgy, but it does seem to change from hospital to hospital. I'm pretty sure I will need to see the psychologist because of the good old bipolar and anxiety, but I'm not too concerned as it's been very well managed for several years.

Only after you have seen all of these specialists, and they sign you off as ok for surgery, can you join the surgeons own waiting list. At the time I spoke to the bariatric nurse (a very unpleasant woman who spent 20 minutes telling me how awful everything was in what I assume was an attempt to weed out time wasters) I was told his list was around 8 months, but that was a year ago. But it is what it is, and I can't afford to pay to do it privately so.

As frustrating as all of the waiting has been, I think it has at least given me time to really process it and be more confident in my decision. It enrages me when people say it's the easy way out, you have absolutely no idea what a massive deal this is. It doesn't stop at the surgery, the impact of the surgery is felt for life; it's a tool, not a solution. The NHS isn't paying thousands of pounds for people to have this surgery just because they're too lazy to eat salad and go for a run. For thousands, obesity is a disease and not something that can be overcome by dieting alone. I've been stressed and continually questioning whether I want to do this, but I do think I'm at the other side where the benefits outweigh the risks.

I've never been thin. Never. I can't even imagine being able to buy clothes that didn't come from a plus size store. To buy shoes and clothes because you like them, not because they're the only ones that fit.

It's scary shit all of it. I'm neck deep in online communities getting as much information as possible, and every day I read something else that makes me think 'am I making the right decision?' but I think I am.

If anyone read all that - fucking kudos to you! 😂

[lonelyangelonlyangel]

So idk why I'm sending you this but your blog is kind of a trigger. And anyways I think it might help you understand why all these men are acting the way they are. To make things short a few years back, I fell hard for this girl I met at work. I was mid 20s and a virgin. She was 21. Looking back it was clear she was gaming me for her benefit. But I genuinely thought she liked me. Her friends who were definitely mocking me behind my back were edging me on and pretending to be my friend. But when I asked her out it was "Oh I'm seeing someone" and "can't we just be friends." People told me to keep trying. And I did, because I wanted to believe I was good enough. But then she blocked me and when I barely did anything, her ex came at me making threats on insta and being alpha (the ex who cheated 7x btw) Dude. I literally would've fallen so hard for this girl. And I wanted her to be the one. My only thought is why she pretended to even like me? Was it purely narcissm. Or her own insecurities? Why not do it to a fuckboy who deserved to be treated like that. Not some insecure dude who thoughr he had a chance. And wanted something genuine. So when I see you post about these guys who are so in love with you but you want this dude who treats you like trash it just idk makes depresses me. Like why do men have to be absolute dirtbags to get what they want? She had no respect for me the minute I made a move and probably never did. I don't know why she had to make me feel so insecure about myself when she could've just literally let me live. And being like casual. Love is hard to give now. I've had 1 relationship in my whole life. I don't even hook up even tho I want to. I just feel like women gatekeep from me. And you can think I'm so gross guy. But women are always trying to flirt and get my attention and all I can think about is how they're gonna use me and waste my time. When I actually wanted something beautiful and genuine. And she wasn't some ratchet gir eitherl. She literally looked like the innocent sweet type but she was just awful. I mean I feel like her friends were a give away. But I ignored it to believe she was better. Always trust gut feelings man. I'm serious. Whatever. Ignore or hate on it. Thats the experience for most guys who aren't egocentric trash. Imo.

hi, it’s difficult to reply fully to your whole message but i would like to say sorry, i never want or intend to trigger anyone with my blog in any way, i just use it to express myself mostly.

secondly i just wanted to say i understand heartbreak very well (i have it tatted on me) and i’m very sorry someone was so careless with your heart. there’s no excuse for anyone to be cruel like that, and none of the people mentioned sound like very good people. having others make fun of you or threaten you was also terrible.

i think a lot of us fall in love with the potential of someone; they’re sweet and funny and caring for a bit, or they pretend to be, and then they show us that’s not really their character, but we’re stuck thinking they have the potential to be all these great things and the perfect boyfriend/girlfriend if only they would go back to how we originally saw them.

so i’m sorry you’ve had to deal with that, and i hope you heal.

[mir-mape]

lil ramble about hnk, and me, and change, because it's 1:20 am and i can't bear to be alone with my thoughts so i'm going to scream into the void of the internet for comfort

hnk is a story i started reading a few years ago. i didn't get past the start. sooner this year, maybe around january or so, i gave it another try, and i finished all the available chapters in the span of like two days. And i think i did so because it's fundamentally a story about change, and as a dumb child about to start college, i really need a story to cling onto that deals with that topic

don't expect me to make a lot of sense, but like,, i've always struggled with handling change. i've always been the top of my class, mom and dad's pride, the friend you can always rely onto at any given time to help you with anything. so if my life's been that great why on earth would i want to change who i am. people already are happy with who i am. changing anything about myself is unnecessary at best and an inconvinience for everyone at worst

and so when adolescence hit, instead of trying to figure out who i was, it became a game of balancing what i wanted to be and the image other people had of me that i couldn't let go of because i didn't want to disappoint them.

then the lockdown happened, and turns out having a lot of time for myself without having to take into account anyone else was really enlightening (albeit also very maddening). that and also my closests friends now have helped me realize that if i ever want to be happy, i really need to start accepting that i'm no longer who i was as a child.

But that realization didn't "cure" me of my fear of change and dissappointing people around me that knew that old version of me. I was scared that being the person I wanted to be would inconvenience them, and they'd want back who I once was, and would I really be loved then? Like, of course my close friends and family would still love me in some way or another, but everyone else? How would I go on with life knowing I had everyone's approval and I threw it all away?

I went on an impressibly long personal tangent there and I'm sorry, but going back to my relationship with houseki no kuni—

phos is like. the completely opposite thing to me. they want to change for other people because they don't feel like they're good enough as it is, and i want to change for myself, but the fear of no longer being good enough for other people has always stopped me. And tragic as hnk is, it somehow manages to give me a bit of a cathartic feeling.

i'm terrified of change. i'm going to uni in like, what, two weeks? i'm going to live independently from my parents. i'm going to meet new teachers that know nothing about me and don't expect anything from me. same goes for my new classmates!! i can make new friends that could love me, and not old me!! it's a whole change of everything!

it's literally the opportunity that i always strived for. and yet i've spent the whole summer with this heavy feeling in my chest because gosh im TERRIFIED of growing up. what if i become nothing but wasted potential. i fear that i've spent so much of my life trying to live up to my older self that i no longer can make decisions in benefit of my own, current self

and yet... it's a bit like little phos, isn't it? i've always been alone with myself, and i will always be alone with myself. and i'm taking this out of the hnk story context, but I, myself, is the only person that I can assure will always be with me. So I should always be by her side in whatever she needs.

Hnk is an interesting story with incredibly complex character arcs and story,,, and yet, I feel like I will always hold it dear to me not only for that, but mostly because of it's core concept of change. This summer's been a tough one for me, I overthought my life way too much, and hnk has managed to bring me a strange comfort in the middle of all that. In the middle of the pain of becoming, as the last comic/fanart I reblogged before writing this post (accurately) called it

[witchcraftingboop]

Further Insight on Briar's Recent Discourse & Prim's Apparent Grooming of Younger, Newer Witches

It was suggested to me that instead of making one long post (which I was genuinely sorry for creating in the moment as well), that I should offer the second half in a separate one so that it is easier to share and harder to simply ignore as a wall of text.

Here is the link to the first half of the current JBird and Briar discourse floating around. I highly encourage everyone involved in the Witchblr community to review both posts and not just this final addition. 

Regarding Prim stirring the pot, I actually do have proof of that on my page somewhere if you wouldn't mind my sending it to you? The person I reblogged it from, Mahi, also received death threats from Prim when they were only 16 and Prim was 20 (I can't ask him to share that though because Prim has since used her following to drive him off of Tumblr and he's still fairly [and justifiably] sensitive about it.)

Regarding Briar's statements more specifically though, I can see where the confusion is coming from. After the "in France" part, she's just defining a relevant term (hence the use of "irrelevant details) and then giving an explanation of how she came to be so knowledgeable about that term/concept. I wouldn't say she's calling Prim's activism an "irrelevant detail," but pointing out how Prim uses it as a shield against backlash whenever another blog (not just tradcrafters) calls out her platform. I don't expect you to fully understand or see what I mean when I say that, of course. Because you are still new, and these are habits I've observed of hers from nearly a year of following their interactions. I would, however, like to point out that Briar doesn't say anything racist about Prim and does not once bring up her race. In fact, I think if you read her entire post and not just point 3 as Prim has it cropped out in all of her mentions of it, you would see more fully the depth and amount of frustration Briar is trying to express. Similarly, Briar never threatened to dox Prim. She has, in fact, repeatedly tried to point out that Prim should be protecting her online information and be more aware of how to stop others from finding out about her private life/situation. These statements, however, have since been warped by Prim and her followers to come off as a threat on her life. Briar's statements above aren't a threat of doxxing. She's never once posted Prim's personal information or told others to find it or use it in any way. She has, however, searched for Taglocks on Prim, something witches especially are known to look for. In that search she found more than she was even looking for, despite trying to tell Prim repeatedly to stop being so open online with the information she posts about herself. Doxxing though is not racist. It is something used by them, sure, but it is not inherently racist.

Additionally, Prim has raised money, sure, but I still have not seen any actual receipts as to her *actually* donating it to any public or private organizations. This, for me, is highly suspect. In reality, we still have no idea where that money is. Whereas with Briar, she took no money in for a couple days on her readings and instead merely asked that those requesting a reading first submit proof of donation to an organization linked in the post. She raised substantial money for the BLM movement, but no one seems to want to bring that up in all of their "she's a racist" discourse. Also, the observation that someone is misleading or gaslighting their following is not racist. Just because she said Prim was recently using her BLM reblogs & promotions to do it *this time* still does not make it racist. Questionable wording is just something the reader disagrees with, in my opinion, and should be addressed as such.

I'm not going to lie, I do feel a little frustrated at this point. I was really hoping to come to you and see that you had concrete proof to offer that Briar is a racist. I do understand that you have your own reasons for feeding into the assumptions and twisted outlooks already taken on Briar's words, but I don't have enough energy in me to fully swallow my tongue on this one. I really do hope that you at least consider what I've said here. I'm not sure what I can say at this point because all of the information I've read from you thus far has been purely conjecture or assumptions or just "not feeling right" about the wordings on a single post. A racist, from my perspective, is not something I would ever feel comfortable calling someone off of this lack of evidence.

I understand it is hard to separate preconceived notions from your mind when reading through the words of others, but I really do miss when you were more open to the words of others. If I could ask one thing of you, it'd be to please try to read Briar's post again but from the perspective of seeing it how it was meant to be: a witch who has been on the butt end of Prim's harassment for going on three years now. She is tired of the wild accusations and constantly having to defend herself, and even when she supplied her proof a couple years ago, no one wanted to hear her. She has, largely, given up on being heard, and now screams into what feels like a void when attacked.

Proof of Prim stirring the pot that I offered: An example of Prim actively seeking out the community and trying to stir the pot with an already dealt with situation that had passed over a year ago.

A direct source that I offered as further proof of what has occurred already: This is one from the account mentioned before who was directly involved with the previous discord server where the Trio incident took place a couple years back.

[A Reply.] I think, to be fair, I saw your comments on her previous posts through your main, and with how much aggression you packed into those messages, I don't necessarily blame her for deciding not to engage with your private messages. As I've said, she's very used to people attacking her like that, and in her mind, unfortunately, you've probably been added to the list of aggressive people ready to fling the blame at her rather than look at the situation as a whole. I do apologize for the way her post may have made you feel, but I think it's also important to remember the potentially aggressive things you left on her page (I'm not saying you meant to come off that way, but even I couldn't help but read that way). Also, regarding the ask, it's no small secret that the occultists of the tradcraft group are skilled and well-versed in hexes and curses. When reading her posts about how she may respond to further antagonism on Prim's part, I see a fully realized occultist wielding their most well kept and trained weapon: baneful magic. I'm sure Prim herself also understands that the "threat on her life" she's saying she's so afraid of, isn't a physical threat, but a metaphysical one. She has repeatedly and continually tried to drag these people through the mud, and now that they're refusing to just sit back and be canceled, she's afraid. She knows how strong their magic is, and they aren't shy about it 🤷‍♀️

[A Reply.] No, I completely understand where you're coming from. I, personally, have seen your willingness to talk things through, despite how aggressive you can come off at times in the things you say, so I think that's why I was genuinely so surprised to see your comments on some of her posts. But I do think her response and refusal to further directly engage with you is warranted and her right. Unfortunately, it is hard to tell who is genuinely open to talking and who is just trying to bait and add to the problem. And with how aggressive your comments were, 8 honestly think she most likely was responding from a place of "oh look another young Prim follower here to bait and berate me." I don't think she looks down on you for your age, but her views are likely a reflection of the fact that a lot of 18yos follow Prim and have openly harassed her without even asking for her input on the matter.

At this point, I would like to talk about the second half of the title of this particular post. Grooming. This is a very serious allegation against Prim that I have not spoken on previously because I had no proof that it was happening. With this person's permission, I would like to share how exactly they wound up fighting Prim's battles for her.

I will note: I am highly disgusted by what follows.

[A Reply.] Oh no! You cannot fault yourself for this! Prim is a known manipulator, and the fact that she was able to make you somehow think this is part of your being "gullible and naive" is just testament to the fact that she's gotten wayyy too good at what she does. This is in no way your fault or because of some fault within you. Practiced manipulators are cunning and dangerous even to the best of us. It was unfortunate that she chose you, but her twisting you around is in no way a bad reflection on you as a person!

I've chosen to include my reply to this person rather than our continued discussion because of how personal and involved our conversation turned. I've included it to show, as well, that grooming others to fight your battles is (though this should go without saying) NEVER OKAY. Prim has shown her true colors, in my opinion, and while I tried to give her the benefit of the doubt time and time again, I simply cannot permit myself to ignore the harm and damage she's inflicted on not only the tradcraft community, but also this innocent group of friends. A group who that has hitherto dedicated their time to sussing out predators, terfs, nazis, and racists. A group that should never have had to deal with being gaslit and manipulated by a well-known and respected blogger on this platform.

I cannot reiterate enough how sorry and deeply shocked I am at the information this person has brought to my attention. I am still stunned by Prim's activities and unable to fathom how many other potential individuals are out there being groomed to support and fight for her cause. I am sorry to the Witchblr community as a whole. I feel as if I have sat by and watched as Witchblr has been manipulated and am therefore complacent in the damage and needless hurt that has been allowed to spread throughout our community. I am just so very, very sorry.

I will be taking a couple days off of Tumblr because of this, as I feel as if I need space and time to think, but my inbox is always open and I am always available to speak with others on my return.

[fictional-worlds-are-exquisite]

agajsksns not gonna lie being 10 feet tall sounds awesome. i have no idea how tall that is because the only thing i know about feet (that sounds so wrong) is that google is telling me that i'm 5'6 (sorry to disappoint). which is. average height right? well it doesn't feel like it coz my best friends are giants. they're both 180+ cm tall and they constantly make fun of me for being short. but honestly i win because i can always make them reach things for me.

thank you! that's very sweet, i actually only saw your reply like 20 minutes before the new year so it was right on time! i loved writing to you and waiting to hear back as well, you're a really fun person to talk to!

i know you probably won't see this for a couple of weeks before going on holiday, but have fun!

i laughed really hard at the picture my brain conjured up when reading about you dropping the vampire act and starting to pretend to be a mouse, just straight up scurrying up to the houses on all fours in a bathrobe is hilarious. i'd pay to see that. and yeah! me either. the number of times i've gone outside at night is probably like 3. that's counting that time when i went for ice cream at 11pm to the store on the other side of the street in my pajamas and then had to turn back because it apparently closes at 10 pm. that was a pretty big disappointment

a halloween themed birthday party sounds awesome! it's sort of disappointing though that you can barely remember it. the only themed birthday party i had (or at least the only one that i remember) was princess themed because i was on my princess faze back then (i was 5 or 6 i think). i still remember the sheer joy i felt at being able to wear a long fancy dress. it was brilliant

oh yeah! i'm still slightly scared of blenders because of that time. now anytime i even put my fingers close to the blade i unplug it first. also i saw you got a blender? i think we have one that's similar to the one you described. so i have a couple of suggestions! i like to make banana "ice cream". you just cut up a banana into pieces and freeze it, (i have no idea how long it takes to freeze i just generally always have frozen bananas in my freezer) then you take them out, let them sit for 10 minutes (to not break the blender when you use it) and blend them. i sometimes add frozen berries or peanut butter too! depending on what i want that day. it's great, especially because i'm slightly lactose intolerant too and i absolutely love ice cream. you can also make smoothies as you said. i usually put in mine whatever fruit we have, generally apples, bananas and oranges or grapefruits. or if i'm making one for breakfast (which i know you can't, but this is just a generally more filling option i think?) i also add spinach. you can't really feel the taste but it's supposed to be good for you and it fills you up more (it does make the smoothie super green though!). but yeah i pretty much just mix and match anything i have! also: milkshakes. ice cream, berries (optional) and milk! super easy and my little cousins love it when they visit!

ohhh your grater also seems to be out to get you. i bet it's really painful if it actually falls on your feet, because like metal. on foot. ouch. especially if it hits you with a corner! and i would definitely also get surprised every time it happened no matter how many times it did! bifocal glasses do not sound fun either tho. i would constantly forget how to use them and probably would just get headache really fast too! i get a headache from my normal glasses when i wear them (i usually wear contacts) so bifocal ones would be even worse i bet.

exactly. i had no idea what "hot" means. i thought you were supposed to use it when you thought a person was aesthetically pleasing? or like you thought they look cute? i dunno. i used it a couple of times before i realised that was not what that meant and then i was just like uhhhh yeah i'm gonna delete that word from my vocab. yeah! i think that ace and probably aro too are pretty hard to figure out because it's the lack of something.

ahahsksns i can imagine tiny Lindsey waking up on Christmas morning and running to the window expecting snow in the middle of summer and it's so funny! i can't say anything though because we have this saying in lithuanian which is used essentially when someone does something unexpected and unusual for them so you say "it's gonna snow tomorrow". as in "wow, [name] did [something super unexpected from them], it must be snowing tomorrow" (because like those are equally unexpected things i guess? but it's said in winter too so it's just something you say whenever, i'm sorry it's hard to explain!) but yeah a figure of speech. and anytime i heard that, even in the middle of summer, the next morning i'd run to my window and look for snow and when there was none, i'd just stare accusatorily at my parents. like wow, i can't believe you lied/let someone lie to me

horse races sound fun, i've never been to one though! and a picnic luch sounds awesome! i love picnics but we have them very rarely, i definitely think we should have them more often

and yeah, i get that acid reflux more of an annoyance than a problem but still! i completely agree with you about peanut butter though. it's amazing, i could eat it everyday

I know exactly how tall 10 feet is purely because I’m 5 foot so two of me is 10 foot. I barely know feet but I got used to people being confused when I was like oh, I’m 155cm! so I learnt what my height was in feet but I can really only visualise heights when I put them into centimetres. Someone can be like I’m 6 foot! and that’s great but I don’t have the faintest idea how tall that actually is. 182cm on the other hand is easy. that’s just like one ruler above my height. I can picture that. 5 foot 6 is probably average but as a short person, I consider you tall. That really isn’t saying much at my height but still sdflshdfks. Biggest benefit of tall best friends is indeed making them reach high things though. 

And now we’re almost three weeks into the new year. Time seems to be flying this year. This is a very late reply indeed sdfjhskdfs. I did see this before I left but didn’t have time to reply, thank you though! I did have lots of fun. I had some birds try to invade the unit up in Orewa and I had a dotterel (I think) follow me along the beach at Ngarimu Bay playing some sort of red light green light game with me (it only moved closer and started following me again when I looked away) and I think a blackbird started some sort of mating performance at me which was flattering but uhhhh I’m a bit of a big bird mate. Maybe choose someone else. there was also beaches and gorgeous views etc etc but birds, y’know. birds.

i would 100% do that for money with no regrets. on one hand I could get a job and contribute to society. on the other hand I could do that as my main income. not a hard choice. hire me by the hour to freak your family and friends out. i have no respect for myself i’ll do it to anyone for the right price. damn. only closed one hour earlier. that’s a massive disappointment. i was out at night willingly for my high school prom and for a creative writing night at my uni and inside a car if that counts when I think my family was travelling back from the south island when I was younger. So three times that come to mind. Oh. And if stupid camp burma trails count then add a few times to that but those were not night outings I did willingly.

I can barely remember most of my life, I just assume it happened and I wasn’t just planted here at 12 years old as an alien spy. Anything’s possible though. I remember my birthday cakes more than my birthday parties to be honest with you. My mum always made the cake and when I was young she’d make fun designs. A bee, a bat, a swimming pool and a cat come to me off the top of my head. They were mostly just sponge cats but she cut them and iced them expertly. A princess-themed party seems like a very fun type of party for kids who like that. Kids always seem very happy to dress up in pretty dresses and cool outfits to attend those kinds of parties. I can imagine the joy. I know my little cousin looooves that sort of thing, and her brother isn’t willing to be left out either

thank god you unplug it first now sdfjhsdf that’s incredibly reassuring. Ooo thank you for those suggestions!!! this is great!! I was wanting to try something with bananas and that sounds easy enough. I had an apple and feijoa smoothie while I was away on holiday and all I want is another one of those. So I’m very very very interested in trying out fruit smoothies now because they seem like they can be very very tasty. Spinach seems like such an odd thing to add but I’ve heard that several times now so clearly it’s a thing. I don’t think I’ve ever even had spinach. I’ll keep it in mind though. I suppose if I just try whatever fruit we have on hand eventually I’ll get something that tastes good. I have dairy free ice cream and dairy free milk so it seems like this could work out for me in a way where I’m not regretting my entire life. Normally when I go near a milkshake I regret the day I was born.

It isn’t a super heavy grater but I have intense survival instincts every now and then so it hasn’t actually hit my foot yet. I go diving in the other direction. But I think if it did I’d probably curse a few times before moving on with my life. I don’t think it’d be THAT bad. But I live in fear regardless. oh no. do your normal glasses have a slightly wrong prescription or is this just a thing that happens when you normally wear contacts,,, I’ve never worn contacts because I fear touching my squishy eyeball and also I think my shitty eyesight is too awkward for contacts so I have no idea if that’s a thing.

oh yes haha hot has been solidly deleted from my vocab for many years except in terms of temperature. It has a word that has never naturally come to mind and I’m sure it never will. It just seems weird when I use it. 

I was a fool of a child and absolutely nothing has changed there! I mean I know how hemispheres work now but I’m still a dumbass at heart. Hahahahahaha oh nooooo. That’s incredible but oh noooo. I get what you mean by the saying though, that’d make a lot of sense here honestly since it never snows ever. Locally, at least. 

i think horse races are just a form of betting and losing money that is frowned upon less than actual buildings based on gambling and such. I mean I only ever attended those ones, idk if all horse races are like that, but I know there was buying tickets for whatever horse you thought would win, and if they did you got money, if they didn’t you lost money. I don’t think it was a whole lot of money ? just like a few bucks ? but maybe you could choose to bet more ? I really don’t remember how it worked, I just remember accidentally finding a ticket on the ground and handing it in only to receive some money because the horse won. I think it was like 5 or 10 bucks which seemed like a LOT to my kid self. picnic lunches are fun though. my family keeps a tartan blanket in the back of the car that we use whenever we have picnics and also whenever we get takeaways (we put it in the middle of the lounge floor as the rest of my family eats fish and chips and I eat sushi, normally). But we don’t have as many as we used to. They are fun though.

can confirm i do eat peanut butter everyday and it goes brilliantly.

[incorrectheartbreakers]

20 things I learned before I turned 69.

By IHB Tom Petty

Tom: According to my birth certificate I'm turning 69 today, which is odd because part of me still feels like 30 while the other part of me feels 149 but my current age (until the clock strikes 12) is actually 68 and it's 2019, people have said that sharing is caring so here's 20 lessons that I've learned.

One: I learned to read contracts carefully.

It was one of life's hardest lessons about being a musician that I have come to learn is reading a contract carefully and understand what everything means. Understand what publishing is, know how much you should be paid to make your record and when in doubt, file for bankruptcy, write a song about it, go on tour to pay for legal fees, don't give into the big business guys, if you're recording a record during this whole ordeal and the court they start to imply that they have the right to come and seize anything you're working on, get someone to switch the names on the master tapes and have them hide it where no one can find them after you get done recording. So if you're asked in court where the tapes are..you don't know. And be sure to have drills to see how fast you can get them out of the studio.

Two: Being a snakecharmer to dogs comes in handy. From carrying treats on you to learn how to read the body language of a dog. Being a dog charmer is quite the catch.

Three: Playing pranks on your kids is the best form of entertainment. When one of your daughter's ex boyfriend's accidentally leaves a pair of his underwear at your house, It's a free for all. Put them on her car, put them in a box, wrap it up and leave it under the Christmas tree for them to open on Christmas morning. It'll be talked about for years and years to come. Trust me.

Four: Payback from your kids is the worst. Sometimes the result of pranking your kids is the worst you could experience. Okay that's a little far fetched but it definitely isn't pleasant. I couldn't tell you how many times AnnaKim bugged me about buttless chaps...all chaps are buttless AnnaKim.

Five: Know the difference between fin and not fun. Being on a tour bus and mooning people while they drive by with your drummer as the rest of the band looks on in shock? Fun. Getting chased by your bassist's cat while your trying to eat because they want your dinner and everyone else is laughing? Not fun. Buying a bunch of hash in a country where it's legal? Fun. Getting pulled out of line while you're trying to get to your flight on time because they found some residue on the pipe your drummer has in his suitcase and then missing rehearsals for a TV  show you're supposed to be on? Not fun. Seeing your bassist eating a whole chunk of hash while customs is questioning said drummer? To be honest I'm not even sure where to put that one. For me? Not fun. For him? Fun. Lighting fireworks on the fourth? Fun. Putting a bunch of bottle rockets next to each other in a straight line and then lighting them all off? Not fun. We almost burned down our old house.

Six: If you're moving, get a U-haul. We would have had way less trips to make between our current house and our old house if we just rented a U-haul.

Seven: Recently, I discovered command tape and Blu-tack, and I would definitely have less holes in my walls if Howie mentioned it sooner. Thank you Howie, thank you command tape. And no this isn't paid advertisement, they're just great products.

Eight: There are times where tough love doesn't work, and you lose the people you care most about because of it and there are times where it does work but that's not always the case.

Nine: Don't get too close to the front of the stage. After getting ripped down the first time I've learned the hard way not to get too close.

Ten: Climbing on top of the roof isn't a good idea either, after we got done doing that episode of incorrect heartbreakers it took almost four hours just to get me down from the roof. We had to call the local fire department.

Eleven: Some modeling clay can be put in the oven while others are not made to be baked all together. Earlier this month Howie wanted to test some random modeling clay he ordered off of Amazon, so he handed me a piece and had me put it in the oven to see if it would bake. Needless to say when I checked on it not even five minutes later it turned into a puddle.

Twelve: Take your driving lessons seriously, back when I took my first driving lesson I didn't take some things the instructor was saying into account. I didn't pass the first five tests. I'm still not good at driving after all of these years either.

Thirteen: Just because you don't think it's a good idea to put a new song on a greatest hits album doesn't mean it won't do well. When the greatest hits album was due I really didn't like the idea of doing it let alone putting new songs on it. But the album sold 12,000,000, was certified 12x platinum in the US and the only single released from it went number 1 on the US Billboard album rock tracks, so what do I know?

Fourteen: Breaking your hand is not a way to resolve things you're struggling with. During the recording process of Southern Accents, I broke my hand out of frustration due to my own fault. I wasn't in the right mind and if I was I probably could have avoided the whole thing.

Fifteen: Fashion is all about playful experimentation. If you don’t look back at pictures of some of your old looks and cringe, you’re doing it wrong. See: Marcus Amphitheater, 2001 and Bridge school benefit, 2002.

Sixteen: Everyone deserves to be treated equally. From a very young age I was always enraged with injustice. As the years went on and I learned more and more I took every chance I got to stand up, voice my opinion and I think every person should.

Seventeen: A very more recent one, always have band-aids on you, in every room possible, in every suitcase and in your pockets in general.

Eighteen: Never judge someone until you talk to them one on one. I took this one from a friend after having a two hour conversation over the phone. You never judge someone until you talk to them one on one.

Nineteen: Love isn't forever, I've had my fair share of breakups and heartaches. But the one thing that I have learned from it all is that love doesn't last forever. People grow apart, feelings change and so do people. And sometimes it's for the better.

Twenty: if you see it bubbling after you get done heating something up, don't touch it. Another recent one as I just made myself my own birthday cake, I decided to put caramel on it and I touched it, thus burning my fingers. At least it tastes good.

Bonus: if the instructions say 3 tablespoons add more, if it looks well still like nothing but powder keep adding what the recipe calls for until it looks right. And if you add too much. Pour some out, it'll be fine. Or add in more flour or mix.

[abstract-apocalypse]

tagged by @mojave-musing!!

answering as kerry long, my ghoul oc whomst i only have one picture of

1. What is your name?

Kerry Long.

2. How old are you?

245 years old. All things considered, I think I look pretty good.

3. What do you look like?

Crispy, mostly. Tall, kinda lean, no hair, beef jerky complexion.

4. Where are you from? Where do you live now?

I'm from Cambridge, and now I live in Sanctuary Hills. The Commonwealth, Massachusetts, whatever you wanna call it, it's my home.

5. What was your childhood like?

Not too bad. That was before shit really started to go downhill for America.

6. What groups are you friendly with? Are you allied with any factions?

I'm a Minuteman, I take care of repair work and engineering for them. The Railroad aren't bad, I like their commitment to equality. We could've used some of that in the years before the War.

7. Tell me about your best friend.

There's so many important people in my life, it's hard to name just one. Audrey Anderson was frozen in Vault 111, so she gets me on the level of being from before the War, and she's a lovely person. Anytime I'm in Diamond City, I have to go see her. Lynn is an amazing woman, and such an inspiration-- without her the Commonwealth might still be a lawless wasteland.

8. Do you have a family? Tell me about them!

My parents are long dead, and I don't have any siblings, but Nellie is basically my daughter. I love her to death, she's an amazing kid and I'd do anything for her. Gwen too, see above photo.

9. What about a partner or partners?

Sturges. He's pretty great.

10. Who are your enemies, and why?

The Institute, they're terrorizing the Commonwealth and the Minutemen won't stand for that shit. And on a more personal level, the Brotherhood bug me for ghoulish reasons.

11. Have you ever heard of the Brotherhood of Steel? What do you think about them?

I'm pretty familiar. Can't say I'm a fan, what with their superiority complex to the common people, their attitude towards ghouls, synths, and anyone who's different from them, their technology obsession... They remind me of all the worst parts of Pre-War America.

12. What about The Enclave?

I remember back when they were the actual government, and they started out evil and only got worse. I'm glad they're gone.

13. How do you feel about Super Mutants?

Mixed. Obviously I'm not a fan of the ones who kill humans, but I get that it's tough to be an ex-human as it were, and some are nice. I wish FEV had never existed, though, that stuff is a crime.

14. What's the craziest fight you've ever been in?

I do my best to avoid crazy fights, but once I happened to be at Sunshine Tidings, on the roof of one of the buildings working on a turret, when some raiders decided that was a good time to attack. So I had to try and not get shot in this extremely visible position, while shooting at a way longer range than I'm comfortable at. I still don't know how I managed to get out of that alive. Not the craziest story ever, but I try to avoid that kind of stuff.

15. Have you ever fought a Deathclaw?

Hell no. I like being alive and having all my limbs attached.

16. Do you like fighting?

No. I hope someday we can forge a world where people won't need to kill each other anymore, until then it's a dirty chore.

17. What's your weapon of choice?

I don't like to fight directly, does a turret count? If not, then I guess just my 10mm pistol.

18. How do you survive? Your wits, your charm, your skills, brute force, some combination? (a.k.a. what's your S.P.E.C.I.A.L?

At the risk of tooting my own horn, I'm smart as hell. I can build and repair just about anything. I'm pretty lucky, too, as evidenced by not being dead.

19. Have you ever been in a vault? What do you think about them?

I have. They're definitely a mixed bag. It's good that people survived to rebuild and move forward, and the vaults helped with that, but they were very exclusionary about who got in. That means only "great Americans," wealthy, obedient, willing to toe the line and not question anything too hard. Heck, I only got in because they knew they needed an engineer to take care of the vault systems, otherwise they never would've accepted anyone Chinese.

20. How do you beat all the radiation around here? Has it affected you?

Well, I didn't exactly "beat it." I was late getting to the vault, and we were far enough from the blast that it didn't kill me, but I got to be a firsthand study on ghoulification. Now radiation's not a concern for me at all.

21. What's your favorite wasteland critter?

I like dogs, do they count? If it has to be something new, then I'd say brahmin. They're useful, gentle, and some of them are downright cuddly if you give them a snack.

22. What's your least favorite wasteland critter?

Bloodbugs are just annoying, and don't even give a decent amount of meat.

23. How do you feel about robots?

They're a tool, and how I feel about them depends entirely on who's using that tool. The government before the war used them to oppress people, so those robots are bad, but the Minutemen use turrets and the like to protect the people, so those ones are good.

24. How many caps do you have on you right now?

200. I don't travel much without warning, so I usually leave my main stash in Sanctuary.

25. Nuka Cola or Sunset Sarsaparilla?

I haven't had a Sunset Sarsaparilla since before the war, so I'm gonna go with Nuka Cola.

26. Do you do chems?

Never. I've fought long and hard to stay alive, I'm not ready to risk that for some short term benefits.

27. Do you ever think about the Pre-War world?

All the time. Mostly what we can do this time around to avoid falling to the same fate.

28. What's your deepest regret? What would you do differently?

Hard to say.

29. What's your biggest achievement? Or what do you hope to achieve?

My biggest achievement so far is the work I've contributed to building the Commonwealth. Lots of the turrets, generators, and utilities you see around Minutemen settlements are my design. In the future, I'd like to keep working towards a better world-- one that won't make the same mistakes as before the War.

30. What do you want for the future? For yourself? Your friends? The world?

How ambitious can we get? Ideally, I'd say an end to violence, universal prosperity, everyone just being safe and happy. I probably won't live to see that happen, and maybe it never will, but I can try and get us a little bit closer.

[pokefanbri]

1st I have to say this b4 I repeat the post from fb. This is a place where I can speak my mind freely without judgement, speak my peace even. Which is exactly what im gonna do so prepare for a read. So think what u want idc, but the last thing I wanna do is tick some1 I know off cause on some level there's a mutual appreciation & respect regardless of my impression. And anyone that reads this isn't obligated to understand my opinion & I dont expect u to. With my brain its my thought process to let information out of my head so I can put things aside, observe & absorb more lol. Writing is another tool or coping mechanism for my anxieties & other psych ailments, treatment for my mental health depends on it & other hobbies in other words, especially during shutdown, something to focus on. Heck even youtube is recommended by my doctor if it keeps me happy lol. But because ill be working again, I may not have time to do alot of things I like sadly..idk i just wouldnt want to be burnt out & focus on more important things. I have a high respect for anyone working around people during this time & it must worrisome for u too, means I have to keep on my toes as well soon..its a scary world out there for an introvert but I was killin it in NY too. It was just a slow steady process with all the limitations & moving my life up there wasn't easy to begin with but I pulled through & did it all...only for it to be taken away.

So, I'm an Irish, German, Canadian,British Mut from tucson. Maternal & paternal immidiate families lineage mixed made me, including my NY blood from my bio dad. The rest is all over Europe but u get the idea. Tucson may be where i was born & my 1st home without a father & raised not knowing (were mardi gras babies btw 😒)

But NY is & will forever be my 2nd home i dont care what any1 says, I felt I belonged there. Its the other half of me quite literally.Theres a memory that's really been bugging me. Last day b4 i left it, a bald eagle flew across my path in the sky no joke going NE & I was departing back to the SW. I chose the eagle years ago cause I identify with it. including the background symbolism in different phases of my life that included them lol, but to actually see one was just amazing.

They symbolize strength+freedom in general despite it standing for the country from sea to shining sea lol. Also Braviary was always in my pokemon team besides pikachu since its gen came out lol. I've always been strong, whether some believe it to be true or not is their problem, only I know the things I've gone through. Point is different ends of the spectrum its always been with me throughout in some way & im glad i got to share it with someone that gave me the freedom I needed.

But yea I experienced what its like to be there & got to know that part of me even if I didn't find him & maybe didnt care...I feel I was meant to be there. I was in touch with my roots, lower Temps & above sea level rather than high temps & below sea level 🤣 I loved everything about my time up there. It'll always be a part of me, & I hope to see it again. But I digress.

But in regards to the relationship itself, emphasizing on what i said b4. Just as it i got "settled" in it was gone & I had no clue what was happening without my knowledge, the whole plan to bring me back, all of it, the whole chain of events that unfolded the way it did starting with leaving a marriage in the 1st place to be with him i mean come on lol. Chasing a dream that didn't play out the way we had hoped. I took leap of faith & I ended up starting over twice in 1 year with no benefit of the doubt. I still have my ny health insurance for the rest of the yr, I have to add it to my list to apply again in az. Ive been wearing the wrong prescription glasses for 6 months under quarantine & they're just now getting to stage 4 of opening lol. Just understand how frustrating that actually is for someone like me & u totally get it 😅 U want to take care of business but sometimes you're limited & gotta work around it. had all that covered there & then was told I settled, wrong thing to say & its no wonder I didn't blow up in his face right there & then 😒. But I have retraint & can control myself. Though it was out of my hands the new relationship didn't have to go sour, been just as long if not more, could've actually thrived given the proper balance with room to grow. Idk, Sometimes I honestly don't think anyone believed in me. I mean I have no debt, no record, no kids, im a clean slate type of girl lol. Yes I did end up feeling unappreciated, underestimated, a bit neglected, insecure about my body, ashamed for being myself, & I shouldn't have to feel that way at all & if that happens there obviously something off. I just didnt know what it is he wanted & needed, i wanted to help & be a good partner to this dude but why is it bad to ask the same in return? I shouldn't have to drastically change myself to fit someones standard i know, but...i needed the old him back, I missed the old us & wanted to get back to that.. Was always so closed off & probably ended up in his own head who knows, maybe there was guilt for some of the things he did & didnt want to hurt me anymore, spare my feelings any more than it did b4 it was too late.idk whatever the excuse i still don't know what triggered it all to fail so easily & i don't think i ever will. But ending up with the conclusion that I was the problem, its narcissistic to even believe that & i won't accept it. Not when he can't confront his own issuse & put blame onto himself too.. it was a low blow & literally felt like my heart was pierced at the sound of it. If im to blame its the other way around as well. My point of view wasn't acknowledged so this is my take & experiences of happened so plz dont hate me for speaking my truth.

But yea I can tell when somethings not right & feel strong empathy for others emotions. I knew something was different, there were signs everywhere since the mistrust started & during the last half of that time with him I questioned everything but sat in my own headspace as well as he did just thinking about it. If anything we failed eachother, the blame is on us both but idk what else i could've done to get through to him. That's the stubbornness, he wouldn't budge. Despite how things went down..Leaves me to think, what was the point of having me there in the 1st place, to not follow through with our shared hopes & dreams but instead spiral into such resentment for me that the interest faded. But at the at the same time...even if it ended early for him, I didn't give up & I fought to keep us okay which it was for the most part. Hindsight is 20/20, it definitely wasn't negative all the time. In fact things were great between us & acted like goofballs together, that right there is a friend despite if the stronger feelings weren't mutual. Nobody with hate in their heart acts like that, he was good, the best, cheered me up when I was down, shared interests & did things for eachother. But that alone makes me question what was truth & what was fiction sometimes ever since the trust between us started to fade. Am I in the right to feel what im feeling right now? Im angry & upset yes very, but the kindness he had throughout..he did care in his own way...which makes things so much harder.

Tripadoodle if some way you're listening, I hope u know now where im coming from. For your own benefit & quest to be a better man like you always wanted...actually try. Head my advice. Making yourself better shouldn't be put on a womans shoulders to do for u without her getting lifted in return...its alot of weight to handle for 1 person to carry lol. Get off your ass & build on yourself, learn from everything that happened & become better for yourself & the sake of others, Because it starts with u. Go to church if possible or watch them, it really does help. Even from across the country I still want u to do just as good & help u as a friend. You promised we could remain friends & im holding my end of the bargain whether u like it or not lol it was your idea during the ride here. All I wanted in the end was to not lose u in my life completely...but i should be patient i know.. Theres more space, im not contacting u directly & respecting that, eventually ill stfu lol but I feel I need this rn. I should hate u,but I cant hate u, I do still care, u had that affect on me so much that I can't really listen to others when they say ur a douchbag lol, u were still my rock the whole time even if u didn't feel the same after a while & u did help me alot as well. I see the good in people & u are good, with well balanced snarkiness & humorous sass to boot. light a fire under ur own ass & ull be okay lol. Never stopped believing in u. Ive seen what you can do, you're very smart & know your sh*t, u will go far lol. And as a friend I'd lend u my strength if I could but the most I can do is pray for things like safety/protection, healing, forgiveness, guidance, etc. Leave it to God if u feel compelled to. Give zanabell a hug for me.

God i talk way too much 😅 No im not doing any of this for attention, I want my voice to be heard as well as a possible learning experience if it had that effect on anyone. The things we learn build character & help us understand a little more about ourselves. Probably shouldn't share cuz its nobody's business, yea ive thought of that too.. But its a blog lol, Tumblr allowed it to be that space, opinions and rants are allowed & encouraged. Nothing wrong with that 🤷‍♀️ so who gives a crap.

These are pictures of the NY sunrise & AZ sunset. Clouds always get me cuz of the shapes, used to to take pics of them all the time. once saw mario holding a hammer when I was a kid 😂 3rd & 4th pic is a split rainbow, never seen that b4...either someone found the gold or its deciding whether or not to connect. Probably was connected but I missed it lol. But then I looked behind me after the split 1 disappeared & a double rainbow was forming. Nature can be scary but also beautiful

[jonsking-blog]

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Chris Liddell, assistant to the president and director of strategic initiatives at the White House said that "Perhaps most important ... is implementing foundational data standards now, so that the U.S. can be in position to harness the potential of blockchain and other technologies moving ahead."As we look to the future, we want to ensure that today's reforms do not hinder tomorrow's adoption of emerging technologies," he said...It doesn't take a genius to see that cryptocurrencies could be the future of money.And my research indicates that Ethereum could give investors an even bigger return than Bitcoin.The reason is simple.A Single Massive Development Could Make This Blockchain Reach Billions of People.Where once you had a few cryptocurrencies on the fringe...Now you have a cryptocurrency eco-system - with millions of investors raking in cash from this emerging technology.And while Bitcoin has been around since 2010 and most of the huge gains have already been made...Ethereum is still only 2 years old, which is why investors are feverishly bullish on this promising new technology.Like I mentioned before, there is a major catalyst that will signaling exactly when and what to buy.The last time this event occurred... the price of Ethereum jumped over 100%.Since then, ERC-20 tokens have grown 20X that.And the next phase is rumored to be only weeks away.My "formula" indicates that this event is going to be the defining moment for Ethereum, and ERC-20 Tokens.LionShare Capital Group.comIncluding what to do before, during, and after the upcoming catalyst that could deliver 319,000% returns virtually overnight.In plain English, I've laid out which ERC-20 tokens, powered by Ethereum, could dominate the blockchain and its technology.Just like Bitcoin, for instance. It was the hottest investment story back in 2013 and 2014.In June of 2013, I alerted Wallstreet that the time to get into this digital currency had arrived.That's because just weeks before, I had met with several CEOs, founders, and venture capitalists in California. They were at the forefront, developing the currency exchanges and investment funds that would push Bitcoin into the headlines.At that time, Bitcoin was trading for $90.Bitcoin skyrocketed 1,192% over the five months that followed.It peaked at $1,163People from across the country were making hundreds of thousands of dollars.Some were even banking millions.I look at investing in Ethereum and ICOs today just like I did Bitcoin back then.I believe it gives you the chance to become a millionaire.That's why I'm in this business - I want every one of my readers to have a shot at making a fortune for themselves.I was one of the first to recognize the potential for huge profits from rare earth metals because I personally knew the advisors and board members of many rare earth mining companies.But I want to do this for a very specific reason.I predicted the run would be historic...And that's exactly what happened.And for the folks who've already joined LionShare Capital Group, received my initial recommendation on cryptocurrency- and made investments in Ethereum-well the payoff was enormous.Like I mentioned, recently Ethereum began absolutely exploding.Folks had the opportunity to make thousands upon thousands of extra dollars.And a small stake in this red hot market could have made them instant millionaires.So I congratulate those people for going with their gut - being bold - and making the move to invest in our fund.As I said before - I am looking at Ethereum purely as a market analyst. When it comes to cryptocurrencies , all I care about is can investors make money in this market.And the answer is heck YES - and tons of it.A lot of folks stood on the sidelines the first go round.But I sincerely don't want them to miss this next big opportunity.A small stake in the cryptocurrency I'm recommending could make you more money than the stock market ever made period.Remember, big catalysts are coming.So, I also don't want you to miss out as this cryptocurrency flies even higher than before.That's why I'm letting everyone get my cryptocurrency fund management fee free first year! lionsharecapitalgroup.com

ONE Cryptocurrency Soaring. If you don’t invest in cryptocurrency right now, you could regret it for the rest of your life…If you have ever thought about cryptocurrencies as an investment, I urge you to listen to what I have to say.  Because if you make the right decision, you could find yourself jumping for joy on top of an enormous pile of cash. Ready or not, a growing number of economies, banks, and billionaires are backing these new forms of tender. And once you understand how easy it is to profit from cryptocurrencies , it’s easy to see why…The cryptocurrency market is preparing to take off. Anything you’ve seen up to this point is going to be shadowed by the amount of money that’s about to come pouring in. And for investors who get in before November 10th, digital currencies are going to be a once-in-a lifetime opportunity…And just one investment – even one under $10,000 – could put you one step closer to being wealthier than you’ve ever dreamt of…And here’s the best part…You don’t have to know a single thing about cryptocurrencies to build your fortune. Just give me 5 minutes and I’ll show you how…The only caveat is that you must act quickly…Because on November 10th, one event could send a tiny cryptocurrency soaring upwards of 319,000% And all you have to do is wait for my word, and you stand to make millions in easy money. Investors who wait idly on the sidelines until the media tells them ‘buy now’ are going to lose out on millions and potentially billions of dollars. And if you wait for the media to tell you when cryptocurrencies are safe, you’ll be doing just that…I’m not here to double or triple my money, when I can potentially create 10X, 100X or ever 1,000X my money.  And any of my clients can tell you…When I share an opportunity like this…A lot of people can become incredibly wealthy. If prospects and hhad listened to me, they could have turned $1,000 into $253,000.00And if those prospects had held for 6 more weeks, they could have seen gains of 1,663%.Take Joshua Herring…He started making money immediately…Nos, you’re probably getting tired of hearing about smart homes, smart cars, smart phones, smart frying pans – every smart gadget.Well I was “in” early on that massive trend as well.And when North America started having a conversation about the legalization of Marijuana, my clients had a chance to turn even bigger gains! Barry Ponce.He says he made over $39,000 in a month and a half.And Jeff Wentz says he made nearly $45,000 – in under a month. Now he’s targeting his first million.And so far this year, a whopping 97% of my trades have been winners.I want to repeat that…This year, 97% of my recommendations have been winners.But that’s all in the past.The opportunity I’m talking about today has the potential to mint millionaires virtually overnight.I’ll tell you more about that in a few minutes.Right now, I’d like to give you a quick rundown of my three rules for buying cryptocurrencies .If I want to keep my 97% win rate, every cryptocurrency I touch must adhere to every single one of these rules.Rule #1: The Asset Must Have Intrinsic ValueWhen Bitcoin first launched – the concept was simple: An electronic payment system based on mathematical proof.The idea was to produce a currency independent of any central authority, transferable electronically, more or less instantly, with very low transaction fees.Ethereum took the concepts that drive Bitcoin’s growth several steps further…The Ethereum blockchain not only provides greater security, anonymity, and functionality; it also gives the Ether tokens intrinsic value.The value of Ether tokens is based upon the demand to build on the Ethereum blockchain.Because of Ethereum’s superior security, and functionality, Significantly more fortune 500 companies are building platforms on the Ethereum blockchain than any other.Just look at some of the players…From banking giants like…J.P MorganCredit SuisseUBSINGNational Bank of CanadaAnd more…To other multinational corporations like…BPIntelMastercardSamsungToyotaMicrosoftAnd more…In all, there are over 100 companies, including the ones above, who are members of the Enterprise Ethereum Alliance (EEA).The EEA connects Fortune 500 enterprises, startups, academics, and technology vendors with Ethereum.That means they’re betting big on Ethereum.And with every application they build on the Ethereum blockchain will come a Fortune 500 bump in demand for Ether.Ether is designed to be safer than the U.S. Dollar, or physical gold…And, Ether’s intrinsic value is the crux of its design.Rule #2: The Asset Must Be New… But Not Too NewYou may have see this chart before…You’re looking at the 5 Customer Segments of Technology Adoption.And I’m going to show you exactly where you want to buy a cryptocurrency.Segment #1: InnovatorsInnovators get in on the groundfloor of some very interesting startups.But without awareness from the general public, they have no way of telling whether a technology will thrive.I do not recommend you buy a cryptocurrency at this stage.It’s too risky for me…Remember, I have a 97% win rate to uphold.Segment #2: Early AdoptersConsider the early adopters, “testers.”Early adopters basically decide whEther a technology is useful or not.They tell us whEther our cryptocurrency is worth what its creators have touted.They’re still in a risky spot – just not nearly as risky as the innovators.Segment #3: Early MajorityIf you invest here…Cross your fingers and hope your investment is a sure thing…Because you’ll be lucky to even see gains of 20% in a year.I believe this is where we are with Bitcoin — and that well may have already dried up.Segment #4: Late MajorityThe late majority are typically skeptical about innovation…Many of my readers fall into this category.I get it… And it’s ok.They’re the readers of mine who are genuinely overwhelmed with the fast pace of the technology world, but they understand how important technology is to the current (and future) U.S. Economy.They read my work so they can comfortably invest in technology without having to worry about what the newest iPhone will mean for Apple shares; or what the Presidents Tweets mean for Twitter stock.The majority are some of my biggest supporters, and I’ve helped a lot of them become very wealthy over the years.Segment #5: LaggardsNo matter how technologically illiterate you are, you do not fall into this group.After all, you’re reading this letter on a device that’s connected to the internet.Laggards may not even be using digital computers yet.These are the folks who invest by burying gold in their back yards, because they don’t even trust banks.I get it… I’m ok with them, too.I just wish I could teach them about cryptocurrencies .Because cryptocurrencies were built out of distrust for banks.And they have several advantages over banks…Cryptocurrencies Are 100% AnonymousI don’t mean “anonymous” like, no one will be able to track how much money you have invested in cryptocurrencies , or whether you made a transaction or not.That part is airtight. Better than any bank today.I mean, no one has to know your personal details.Think about it like this – your bank might use your social security number to connect your assets and make assumptions about how you should invest.cryptocurrencies and blockchains instead use a unique ID.Meaning, your personal information, like Social Security Number, is at a significantly lower risk of ever being stolen.Yes, that’s right…The use of cryptocurrency, and blockchain could have prevented last month’s data breach that threatens the safety of all of our personal information.Cryptocurrencies Are 100% Legal Tax HavensSo, not only are some blockchains safer places for your money than banks…They’re also legal tax havens.You see, any money you keep in Ethereum is non-taxable.It’s like keeping your money in a Cayman Island bank account…If the Cayman Island bank offered a potential for an exceptional 319,000% gain.So, when should I buy?In my years as a stockbroker…The world of cryptocurrencies is different.It’s volatile, and unpredictable.The downside for innovators is HUGE…And the upside for the early majority is still larger than even the riskiest conventional investments.That’s why I recommend buying when the early adopters stage is exactly 75% complete.Investing at this stage can help avoid a vast majority of risk, and puts us in position for the fastest and easiest gains.I could go on and on about the benefits of ERC-20 Tokens…But, I’ll spare you the technical jargon.In short, ERC-20 tokens are cryptocurrencies that are built on the Ethereum blockchain, and must comply to a specific set of standards.As previously mentioned, Ethereum is the most powerful blockchain in existance.ERC-20 tokens are able to harness the security and power of the Ethereum blockchain, and also nourish growth through projects independent of Ethereum as a whole.So you can buy an ERC-20 cryptocurrency, gain thousands of percentages regardless of what Ether is doing.And, at the same time, investors who buy a completely separate ERC-20 cryptocurrency should increase the price of Ether, and therefore your cryptocurrency.ERC-20 tokens present the definition of “having your cake and eating it too.”I want to tell you a story…I love America… and I love the freedom and opportunity it creates for us.This is a story about opportunity in America…And I think it illustrates the opportunity that’s taking place for every day Americans right now.The opportunity to create wealth for your family for centuries to come…The year is 1849.America was in expansion, and California was growing.The Spanish (Innovators) who made it out there first, had no idea what mix of opportunity and disaster the new land would bring.They were looking for gold, but never found it.Social strife and economics, and the knowledge that California was not out of reach drove more Americans (Early Adoptors) westward.And, one day – in what we refer to as “the bay area” of California – gold was found.Not just a little bit of gold…Enough gold to make the early adapters some of the wealthiest Americans at the time.Back east, word of the gold strike spread like wild fire.Now, tens of thousands of Americans (Early Majority) en route to California had one thing on their minds: GoldSwarms of Americans risked life and limb to make the journey…And by the time they arrived…It was too late.Gold was few and far between.The early adapters had already claimed almost all of the gold.The rest of the new Californian settlers had to mine tirelessly for little more than dust.The story of the California gold rush is almost exactly the same as what’s happening now – and what’s about to happen this year – except for three facts:There is significantly more wealth to be made today, with cryptocurrencies.Building a fortune in cryptocurrencies requires almost no work. (You can trade on your smart phone).You don’t have to risk more than $100 to potentially make millions.I can’t stress this enough…The digital currency boom that’s happening right now is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.You may never have a chance to make this kind of money, this easily, ever again in your life…Making Millions In cryptocurrencies Is As Easy as Investing GetsOrdinary Americans have been able to build massive fortunes…Buying up small amounts of cryptocurrencies with their spare change here and there…They’re watching as their pocket change turns into a six-figure payday.And I’m Going to Make It Even Easier For YouNow, if you’ve listened to anything I’ve had to say today, you’re asking yourself three questions:1. What is the next cryptocurrency to take off?2. What is this event Jon King mentioned earlier?3. How do I get in?That’s where I come in…www.lionsharecapitalgroup.comThe time I’ve spent working with high-tech start-ups has given me access to information less than 1% of crypto investors have access to…And I have the smartest and most-dedicated research team in the industry.With them at my disposal, we can evaluate all of the potential initial coin offering (ICO) opportunities…And find the ones that could mint you a millionaire in a matter of months… weeks… or even days.Prospective investors would be wise to note that.The Money Is Pouring In…Billionaire investor Michael Novogratz estimated that the crypto currency market could reach 5 trillion as early as 2022.And what’s more… ICO funding hit a record $800 million in Q2 2017.The cryptocurrency industry is ripe… Right where we want it.So all you have to do is:Follow my lead…Now…What’s important to focus on right now for new investors is a single, binary event that is set to send the entire crypto-space into a parabolic rise.And it’s coming sooner than you think.Things Are Moving Quickly…Russia, a country that had outlawed cryptocurrency in 2016, is now moving towards full legalization.In fact, Vladimir Putin recently sat down with one of the founders of this cryptocurrency to discuss using it as a tool to diversify the Russian economy.The Emirate of Dubai has also expressed serious interest. Crown Prince Sheikh Maktoum says he wants Dubai to “execute ALL transactions” with a program that includes this universal currency “by 2020.”Even the White House is signaling that it is preparing for a future with blockchain technology at the forefront. Chris Liddell, assistant to the president and director of strategic initiatives at the White House said that “Perhaps most important … is implementing foundational data standards now, so that the U.S. can be in position to harness the potential of blockchain and other technologies moving ahead.”As we look to the future, we want to ensure that today’s reforms do not hinder tomorrow’s adoption of emerging technologies,” he said…It doesn’t take a genius to see that cryptocurrencies could be the future of money.And my research indicates that Ethereum could give investors an even bigger return than Bitcoin.The reason is simple.A Single Massive Development Could Make This Blockchain Reach Billions of People.Where once you had a few cryptocurrencies on the fringe…Now you have a cryptocurrency eco-system – with millions of investors raking in cash from this emerging technology.And while Bitcoin has been around since 2010 and most of the huge gains have already been made…Ethereum is still only 2 years old, which is why investors are feverishly bullish on this promising new technology.Like I mentioned before, there is a major catalyst that will signaling exactly when and what to buy.The last time this event occurred… the price of Ethereum jumped over 100%.Since then, ERC-20 tokens have grown 20X that.And the next phase is rumored to be only weeks away.My “formula” indicates that this event is going to be the defining moment for Ethereum, and ERC-20 Tokens.LionShare Capital Group.comIncluding what to do before, during, and after the upcoming catalyst that could deliver 319,000% returns virtually overnight.In plain English, I’ve laid out which ERC-20 tokens, powered by Ethereum, could dominate the blockchain and its technology.Just like Bitcoin, for instance. It was the hottest investment story back in 2013 and 2014.In June of 2013, I alerted Wallstreet that the time to get into this digital currency had arrived.That’s because just weeks before, I had met with several CEOs, founders, and venture capitalists in California. They were at the forefront, developing the currency exchanges and investment funds that would push Bitcoin into the headlines.At that time, Bitcoin was trading for $90.Bitcoin skyrocketed 1,192% over the five months that followed.It peaked at $1,163People from across the country were making hundreds of thousands of dollars.Some were even banking millions.I look at investing in Ethereum and ICOs today just like I did Bitcoin back then.I believe it gives you the chance to become a millionaire.That’s why I’m in this business – I want every one of my readers to have a shot at making a fortune for themselves.I was one of the first to recognize the potential for huge profits from rare earth metals because I personally knew the advisors and board members of many rare earth mining companies.But I want to do this for a very specific reason.I predicted the run would be historic…And that’s exactly what happened.And for the folks who’ve already joined LionShare Capital Group, received my initial recommendation on cryptocurrency- and made investments in Ethereum-well the payoff was enormous.Like I mentioned, recently Ethereum began absolutely exploding.Folks had the opportunity to make thousands upon thousands of extra dollars.And a small stake in this red hot market could have made them instant millionaires.So I congratulate those people for going with their gut – being bold – and making the move to invest in our fund.As I said before – I am looking at Ethereum purely as a market analyst. When it comes to cryptocurrencies , all I care about is can investors make money in this market.And the answer is heck YES – and tons of it.A lot of folks stood on the sidelines the first go round.But I sincerely don’t want them to miss this next big opportunity.A small stake in the cryptocurrency I’m recommending could make you more money than the stock market ever made period.Remember, big catalysts are coming.So, I also don’t want you to miss out as this cryptocurrency flies even higher than before.That’s why I’m letting everyone get my cryptocurrency fund management fee free first year! lionsharecapitalgroup.com