#I've had a blank gdoc for it with Eve in ffxiv for 2.5 years now and every time I try to open it I get a lump in my throat
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
There were a total of 171.5 billion posts on Tumblr in 2019.
Text
you ever just be saying shit and suddenly realize that 13yo you was actually kinda really goin through it?
#personal;#was bitching about the shitty adoptive narrative that so often shows up in books to the (adopted) gf#(aka the moment they find out they decide the family they loved and cherished until that moment was just lying and manipulating them)#and it shifted to the fact that Eve's adopted and never ONCE did I consider her NOT thinking of her family as her FAMILY#even when it's dysfunctional (their Original Fiction had parental abuse I've since scrapped)#And just realized This Evening that I was trying to explore like three different traumas all at once#with a complexity I did not know or comprehend at that age#and I can suddenly understand why I never managed to write much of it at all ever#it's STILL hard for me to write anything to do with my Issues from being mixed race-#I've had a blank gdoc for it with Eve in ffxiv for 2.5 years now and every time I try to open it I get a lump in my throat#and 13yo me didn't even know I had that issue. I didn't know until today that I had that issue by then#I was writing a narrative where I could damn myself but at least there was someone who refused to give up no matter what#even if they damned themselves in the end#damn no WONDER i kin Homura#I've made myself feel things I think it'd bedtime
8 notes
·
View notes