how old HOW OLD is chu wanning. i have been trying to figure this out the entire goddamn time. old enough that he thinks of himself as old but /young enough/ that teenagers refer to him as a “young man” teenagers think you’re old if you’re like. 30???
and then like 4 volumes in they threw me a bone and said this man is “32” OKAY. but was he 32 when he went into death/stasis for 5 yrs and we’re not counting the years he was dead—making him 28 when mo ran showed up at 15? Or are we counting the years he was dead/mostly dead as real years making him 27 at the time of his death and 23 when mo ran was 15? idk. maybe no one does. but at least there are 2 possible ages
but then 2 VOLUMES LATER the text said he’s “10 years older than mo ran” meaning he can’t have been 23 OR 28 when mo ran showed up so Somebody is lying and idk if it’s miss meat bun herself or if it’s a group of translators
The way that sometimes I’m like “stranger things has established in their universe the dead don’t come back so billy is staying dead” but then I remember the shit they pulled with hopper and I’m immediately like “nvm it’s 100% plausible for billy to come back actually”
that scene in ep #9 when they’ve set up camp temporarily. the way Jopson’s face involuntarily breaks out into a smile, the pure relief & hope i felt in him for that brief moment, when Cozier says he will not leave any man behind, regardless of their illness or suffering or slowing of pace. that it is Not Their Way. that he doesn’t mean this only for Fitzjames but that it includes the lieutenants—includes Jopson—sat before him. and i can't imagine how much it means to him to hear that from Cozier. the man he dedicated so much time, effort, kindness, patience & affection to so that he would see through Cozier's withdrawals & recovery in the earlier episode, knowing he tried in the past to do the same for his mother & yet still lost her to addiction. he shared that vulnerability with his captain & implicitly swore to him he would save him the way he could not save his mother. and he Succeeded. the poor man has lost so much & wants so Desperately not to be abandoned. he clings this crew, you can read it in his face so clearly. no matter how hard he tries to hide it he finds comfort & belonging & companionship with these men. despite the hardships, despite the struggle, he’ll brave it all knowing he is not Alone… and that breaks my heart just a little. to go on in spite of it all… not for yourself, but for the men around you. to find purpose in that even in the darkest of hours…
It’s so embarrassing and heartbreaking being in so much pain over losing someone while knowing they don’t give a fuck if you live or die. Your favorite person becoming a stranger is a special kind of hell.
Aemond getting his eye or forcing Luke to give it to him, only for the wound to become infected and Luke’s bedridden and delirious and going through what will probably be a slow, agonizing death among mostly strangers in enemy territory while Aemond is just there like🧍
i’m going out and i’m looking for my budget binder but i can’t find it anywhere so i was like okay whatever i’ll just use my trans tape I CAN’T FIND THAT EITHER