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skayafair · 3 months ago

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"Because as soon as <...> Pippa saw herself, she did exactly what I’d do if I ever met myself at the door: she went for the throat.

-- Juno Steel, "Juno Steel and the Kitty-Cat Caper Pt.2"

a.k.a. the lines that keep me awake at night.

#the penumbra podcast #junoverse #Juno Steel #the penumbra podcast spoilers #I wouldn't be friends with myself either #but Juno really takes it to another level #I'm so happy to see how far he's come by the end of the series

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makiswirl · 5 months ago

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can i just say. and this is probably a niche hill to die on. that i am so gobsmacked every time someone vaguely hints at the idea that jotaro doesn't care meaningfully for the other crusaders, usually particularly kakyoin and joseph, when those two actually tend to be the ones he reacts to being hurt the hardest

like he cares for his loved ones!!!! that literally plays into his character motives in every single part he shows up in!!! stop lying to me!!!!!!!

#me.txt #jjba #i'm going to ramble in tags actually. excuse me #ok. rereading sdc and so confused at the general perception of jotaro and his friends/family. he's not NEARLY as flat or as dickish #i understand that the anime (particularly the dub) tends to slander him but even then he still clearly cares for them! i'm confused #i also understand that a lot of people dig against jotaro and kakyoin as a dynamic because 'they're popular' and that generally disliking #popular things across media is a thing that i've seen consistently everywhere but the discredit to them simply as a DUO and not even as a #pairing is so..... odd..... like they're considered to be a duo that clicks for a reason. i enjoyed them even before i got into the fandom #every time i see someone say jotaro is overrated/dull i take a shot and assume they're an anime-only or only read the manga like once btw #joseph and jotaro also have a neat dynamic and they obviously both love and care for each other. like they're not going to go around loudly #or anything but literally the entirety of the lovers and the prelude to the dio fight IS jotaro being worked up over joseph getting hurt #equally i don't know if it translates to the anime as much but joseph is VERY complimentary when it comes to jotaro. like he sings his #praises so often and reminds everyone that he's his grandson so frequently (d'arby the gamer is a good example of this). either way it's so #peculiar....... there's not enough avdol and jotaro content btw (also in canon) because jotaro obviously looks up to him and avdol jokes #around with him on the occasion they interact after their intro which doesn't start very well. it's very cute #i do think an important thing to note about jotaro's character is how he acts AFTER his intro because he's so drastically different. early #jotaro and later jotaro aren't the same character and i do not mean this in a character development way. excluding the jail incident he's #completely different and probably shouldn't really be taken into account (especially considering the amount of slapstick in araki's intros)#and i think that's really???? what people center on for his character? Which sucks balls bad!#anyways. i could ramble more about this if asked i have so much to say but sigh. jotaro cares so much for his friends and family he's not a #flat fully cold asshole character regardless of whether you watch the anime or ova or read the manga. you just have poor media literacy #i wouldn't recommend watching solely the anime for his character though. the dub also changes a lot so it's... questionable #i love the anime and it's still important for him though. also adds neat stuff. i need to stop myself. i have many thoughts on the matter #jotaro kujo #joseph joestar #noriaki kakyoin #adding in case anyone sees: i am not saying that he is perfect about this. in fact he is very ass about it with jolyne and holly and that's #very important. he also is in fact an asshole sometimes. NOT as much as you guys are making him though!#please don't get me started on how much of a dick etc people make kakyoin to veer away from the 'woobified' characterizations of him #in fact i think that's bad if not worse because it CLAIMS to be in character. hes a prim asshole at times but not that angry or dishevelled

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storfulsten · 1 year ago

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colorful funky space friends

hm kinda sus tbh

#shading is overrated #and proportions and accurate size differences are also overrated lol #anyways #sussy space friends au #if there was an au this is probably the colors I'd go for #the letsplay inspo vibes may not quite match up with most colors but it's all mostly just guidelines rather than acual rules really tbh #it's all just vibes so who cares really ha #there's a couple more dudes I'd probably want to include but they wouldn't get the most fitting colors lol ah well they'd manage I'm sure #rn I'm too lazy to add more either way ha #so ye anyways #just doodled this bc I felt like it and wanted to help myself visualize all the dang colors on the correct people so ye #messy and lazy but fulfills its purpose well enough atm at least #so ye #maybe you wouldn't agree with the color choices but with my own au and ideas these combos work just fine ha #so agree to disagree and all that #either way I'm just vibin #lazy doodle is lazy and not very serious so ye feel free to ignore and all that #enjoy or don't #whatever floats your boat #fnf au #fnf amongus au #boyfriend #girlfriend #pico #whitty #hex #carol #ruv #sarv #I draw what I want

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sherlock-is-ace · 9 months ago

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the imposter syndrome i feel every time i even slightly think i might be autistic is insane, specially for a person who highly relates to the lived experiences of people who are professionally diagnosed.

Like I was just watching this one youtuber, and she was talking about very specific examples in her life and childhood where she saw autistic traits that made her realize she was autistic and then seek a diagnosis and then get one, and everything she was saying was like she was describing my life! But yeah no, I can't be autistic tho

#and one thing that has been filling me with dread (as if it was relevant lol) is the idea of seeking a diagnosis and #either not geting it because it's already so hard to find a diagnosis for '''''''women''''''' (afabs)#and that will make me doubt myself even more! but most importantly those around me who already don't believe me #but also i'm very scared about this one thing in particular which is the talking to your parents portion of the diagnosis #where the therapist will want to talk to people who knew me as a child... and that person will have to be my mom #and i'm pretty sure she will dismiss most signs. like she would either not bring them up because ''they're normal''#or play them as less important than they were #or maybe she didn't even notice them! because most of my struggles are internal!#things like being bullied or having no friends or liking a routine #idk if she'll be able to talk about all those #because my bullying wasn't violent it was mostly dismissive #my ''friends'' weren't really friends like i didn't CARE for them as maybe someone would have #and also they would leave me for no reason at all out of the blue... so i don't think even THEY considered ME a friend #and liking routine i guess she could say i prefered it but she doesn't know to the extent i hated going off it #i'm sure she forgot about the time i cried (as a 10 year old so not THAT young) because they made us change classroom #and i didn't know that was gonna happen... it was added to the anxiety that i thought my mother wouldn't be able to find me #but like the unknown classroom traumatized me (to this day i get anxious just thinking about that)#like... all those things i don't think she would bring up (if she could even) and i fear that will make me not get a diagnosis #not that this is a thing that's gonna happen cause as i established i cannot afford a therapist nor i'll ever get a diagnosis i don't think #so like it's not relevant #but i am anxious about it nonetheless #angel talks #personal #idk what's my point with this post btw i'm just venting and creaming to the void #dkfjhgdfg

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velvet-games · 5 months ago

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I genuinely need a hug after the completely unnecessary panic I just went through cause I thought I couldn't upload my art here anymore 😭

#ok this is literally so stupid so I'm just gonna put it in the tags #I have a vpn on my computer and not my phone #and I'm used to uploading pictures by putting it in a draft or emailing it to myself #but tumblr is blocked and so is gmail (and google stuff in general)#so I tried making a yahoo email #but it wouldn't accept my phone number bc it's not local #then I tried multiple school emails that don't use google #outlook said fuck you and didn't accept them #tried messaging my brother about the vpn but my messages don't send here #tried using wechat but I got logged out and I don't remember my password #tried slack but that was stupid for like 500 reasons #tried bandapp but it uses a google login or a phone number #also don't remember my password on there #ok I swear I keep track of passwords now I made these accs at a different time #thought about resorting to my laptop's camera but realized I wasn't that desperate yet #was gonna use my mom's phone but her phone number isn't fixed yet either #apparently discord works? but I can't message myself and I don't have a single friend on there that I would send hazbin images to #a literal hour later #I realize. I realize my phone can transfer images directly to my computer. because i'm a fucking idiot.#anyway everything's fine now #I'm gonna go lie down and cry #velvet rambles

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cartoonghosts · 4 months ago

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not vibing i feel like my depression has been sneaking up on me like I thought I was good for so long and this isn't even sudden and I'm genuinely considering death I don't know what's going in, I'm enjoying life and things are good but fuck I don't want to do this anymore. The trees aren't as beautiful as they used to be. I think it's ending.

#Tw sh #tw suicide mention #Tw si #Tw suicidal ideation #Tw depression #Tw mental health #I feel like everyone I love is either disappearing from my life or I'm falling out of love with them #I keep telling myself I can't die bc one of my best friends needs me alive but once I'm dead her being gone won't hurt me #This way she'll be alive for my whole life #Wouldn't it be nice to never grieve #I don't know what's going on and I'm scared and I literally just want to go find my best friend and cry for a bit #But he isn't answering my texts and I think that he's getting over me #Ig I do need to wait out this week and then ask my dnd group if they'd be super disappointed if I was gone for the campaign #There's not much more I can contribute #I'm already fully burnt out at 15 #And I'm losing more and more control over my public image which means that people are migrating away from me and falling out of love with m #I just don't know what to do and I'm so tired #I can't walk very well because of my knees and my mom's solution is 'walk more' like dude why do you think they hurt #I just think my body is dying without me anyways it wouldn't hurt for it to be on my terms at least #I just need someone to talk to

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baronessblixen · 1 year ago

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First I couldn't focus on work because of a migraine. Now that I've taken something for it, I can't focus cause I feel sick. And the migraine is still there, too.

#personal #distracting myself by writing a personal post #not feeling good AT ALL #but i refuse to call in sick #i will be better once the painkiller hits #i mean i hope so #thinking about the pepto my friend bought me #that i won't get until the end of the week #and that i would really really love now #kinda wondering if that migraine was caused by my almost bike accident yesterday #either way i'm dizzy and sick and i hate migraines #wouldn't wish them on my worst enemies

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kingdomoftyto · 7 months ago

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...BIG FEELS AND BIG PLOT DEVELOPMENTS AT THE END OF THAT BOOK, HUH

#Tyto reads WoF #i know it's not the most pressing issue what with the vengeful ex-Queen and the murderous sister and all #but I still want to point out how alarming it is that the new crew are all going to be wearing seemingly radioactive rocks as jewelry now #Turtle please don't pick up strange rocks that give off their own heat for the love of all that's good #ANYWAY yeah what the actual frick is going on with Darkstalker huh. I genuinely do NOT know whether he's trustworthy or not #desperately lonely and unfairly demonized? absolutely. truly cares about Moon as a friend? I think so.#capable of integrating peacefully into modern dragon society without letting his own ego turn him into the monster he denies ever being?#....... 😬 remains to be seen #god and there's Scarlet's mysterious new accomplice(?) with the maddeningly vague physical description and also THE SCROLL(!!!!)#and i just realized we failed to get resolutions in this book for EITHER the vision of Turtle attacking Anemone OR #Flame's unique and frightening ability to sense and/or attack mindreaders????#where the HECK are we going with Flame I am going lowkey INSANE over him #ugh frick and Umber and Sora are both on the run too...!! this book is nearly as cliffhangery as Dark Secret #(though thankfully i prepared for this by checking the next book out ahead of time so i wouldn't have to wait LOL)#uhh buhh final thoughts before i force myself to go to sleep:#I love Moon and everything going on with her but I do feel like on some level it's even more of a slap in the face for poor Starflight #that the only tribe to get multiple POV characters in this first. like. extended arc(?) appears to be the NightWings #and Starflight himself doesn't get any of the tribe's unique defining features or abilities #i mean i guess the same is sort of true of Sunny and yes i know it was the POINT of book 4 that the tribe had no powers #but still idk it just feels like kicking the poor boy when he's already down. in addition to him literally getting beaten up again #(... now watch me be a total fool and the arc actually extends past book 8 or something making this point moot lol)#(I'm only assuming it ends at 8 bc that's where the previews in the back of the previous books have stopped)#EDIT: LOL yep turns out this arc does extend out to book 10 and the other POVs are Turtle and Qibli so I stand corrected.#that's what I get for nightblogging

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adore-gregor · 2 days ago

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#exams did go fairly well #hopefully nothing worse than a B but i think an A is certainly possible in at least one of them #so hopefully 🥹🥹#i did study quite a bit not as much as i hoped for but a step up from my lack of effort the last few weeks #so hopefully i can get back to better routines now #i mean i do know probably many didn't study at all for these exams as they were not that serious #buuut if you want a good grade i feel like you have to at least i studied for like 2-3 days altough i would have liked to study for a week #also my schedule is just insane i think but then maybe it's just me idk #my time management is not the best but i still wonder how others would do with so many classes and extra activities #i have like 20 classes this semester + 2 exams i intend to take extra #i'm not attending all of them that wouldn't be possible and i'm not sure i can take all the exams but i'm happy if I manage like 17 or so #but like a normal amount is 10 classes a semester in my country but in reality most students don't take this many either #well i'm basically enrolled in two programms atm so there's that ig #but often i'm just wondering when i'm gonna study #i also play tennis a lot and competiting for my club (at a rec level)#and i'm training for this entrance exam for sports (i'm currently studying teaching with other subjects + English)#altough this is making me question if i'm fit for this everyday 🫠 i'm fairly good at 2 things ball sports and just like general athleticism #we also need to dance do gymnastics and swim i struggle with all of them #i'm not fast enough at swimming and my technique is bad i can't even do a cartwheel and a bad dancer 😭#the requirements are really high though i mean when i think of people i know from tennis or football no one would even get there closely #like i was the fastest at my former football club (and at every uni football course) and i might just barely cut it for sprinting #and i'm really quite athletic when playing tennis my opponents always notice and coordinated in sports as well #but somehow coordination for gymnastics is not the same?😅 how can i be so graceful playing tennis and most sports with balls but so clumsy #otherwise like doing a handstand... no balance 🥲#but anyways i also do like general fitness stuff going to the gym running a bit and trying to eat healthy #but my studying hours are very limited often tmrw i have uni from half 2 until 8pm in the evening and i have a preparation course for sports #before uni starts at half 10 #i just really get the urge to drop everything sometimes 🥲 i also wanna see friends again more not just at uni and in the bus #i miss my semesters with 10 courses a week it was beautiful so much freedom and free time 🥹#uni was so enjoyable back then... don't get me wrong i enjoy most of my uni courses what i not enjoy is not having any time to myself

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graysanatimony · 6 days ago

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I hate the fact that I exist

I swear it would be better for everyone if I never did

#The last two days have been shit and I am just done with it #I also physically can't even cry about it cause my body refuses to make tears #Im a shit person who doesn't deserve to cry over it though #Im a shitty friend #Shitty sibling #Shitty child #Shitty cousin #Shitty student #I don't know why people put up with me #Im probably right about everyone hating me cause if I hate me why wouldn't they #Im also not letting myself listen to joker out or jann or any songs i really like so I don't associate them with feeling this shit later #Its all my fucking fault that I can't keep a friend for more than a year #Im gonna die alone #Friendless and familyless #I fucking deserve to #Im also shit at everything I try #I suck at bass #I suck at art #Singing too #School stuff isn't good either #Im going nowhere in life #Im gonna fail all my gcses #Then not be able to do a levels or any courses I want to do then I'm gonna end up homeless cause my dad will kick me out for being queer #Probably

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maddy-ferguson · 14 days ago

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talking to new people again is making me realize that (this is gonna sound dramatic) i haven't lived in five years but what i have done is watch a lot of movies and read a bunch of books and believe it or not that actually makes me an interesting conversationalist in some ways (?)

#and like i say: brf slt #they don't know i'm crazy and as long as you're normal about it having seen a lot of movies just makes you come off as someone who's like #interested in culture i guess. which i am. but it's fun #and the books thing too and also knowing a lot about sociology #i have things to say jokes to make so in two months they haven't even realized i haven't lived a life yet🙏#i didn't even do it on purpose the way it happened is in 2019 i was very depressed suicidal etc then i got better but i was focused on #like...idk. basically getting used to being okay with being alive again? then it was 2020 and we didn't have classes in person full time #until september 2021. that's how it was for university students here. i did hang out with people but no one i LOVED or actually became #close with and it's true that i could have tried harder but i didn't because guys i love being by myself😭😭😭#then three years went by and now we're here. it's fine it's just that i don't have a lot of anecdotes that aren't old because LITERALLY #nothing has happened to me. nothing #that's not true i did talk about something semi-recent to my bff on friday it was about my 'friends' who hated on everyone the same way i #did when i was literally 12 and about how anxiety inducing it was because after a while i was like is this how they talk about me when i'm #not around🤨 i actually talked about that then. january or february 2023 #this has been in my drafts for a week and i talked about the post i talk about in that last tag last week when i talked about my mutual who #blocked me that's the post she replied to to give me advice😔#also it's funny i said they don't know i'm crazy and a guy asked me what my favorite tv shows were and i don't know why i actually gave him #my full list like it's funny because like i said they think i like like good movies and good television and interesting books and stuff #and i know the shows i told him made him reassess that (which is fine but it's just funny) and also i told him i'm watching gilmore girls #for the 18th time and he was like you're joking i was like hm...and then he was like no you're being serious because it's way too #precise...and THAT i could have not told him. i was like whyyy did i tell him that...but it's fine #HE HADN'T EVEN HEARD OF SUCCESSION? 34-year-olds...#i mentioned the sopranos a couple weeks ago and my future bff was like what is that and i was like ? then i asked two more people and they #didn't know the show either so i was like i'll ask him (34-year-old) i know he'll know the sopranos and he was like OBVIOUSLY i know #the sopranos it's supposed to be one of the best shows of all time and later i asked if he had seen succession and he'd never even heard of #it? crazy. i mean if it had been anyone else i wouldn't have thought it was crazy but i expected HIM to know succession

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mirmidones · 2 months ago

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do you ever notice someone's story on instagram is for "close friends" and realize you are therefore part of those and instead of being i don't know touched? that they included you you can only think. that's crazy. why on earth would you do that

#crazy to me honestly. im very picky with the close friends feature bc it's actually usefully & if i could have a mutuals only option on #here i Would use it for some posts #so seeing it used to carelessly baffles me i guess #like you sure as hell aren't on my list???? and if i were you i wouldn't put myself either #anyways. all of this to waste some time before i pee and watch the other lessons i need to watch before tomorrow #x #useful*#so*#UGH

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astrxealis · 1 year ago

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my favorite teacher plays dnd and bg3 do you know how crazy that is to me

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#LOTS OF THOUGHTS HII GOOD NOON TODAY WAS A REAL FUN DAY #I ALMOST BROKE DOWN AND ALSO I KINDA VENTED AND G #UH. WHY IS TUMBLR WEIRD AND CLOSING MY POST. ANYWAY!#i did vent to my friends abt annoying classmates (aka annoying ppl who are irresponsible) that bring me and my friends and groups grades #down. and yeah. but i bonded a lot w various frienda and and and fun day and and and I LEARN ^^ AND #things are quite bad sometimes but sometimes they aren't actually that bad and idk school is just really fun i'm almost sad #just really happy with where i am rn and my friends are noticing too sniffs ..... noticing how i'm talking more or whatnot #and more comfy and whatnot and hey it did take like. quite a while. but still! just. really happy #bcs this Quite A While was either basically immediate but in the making (two friends) or gradual but always getting there (group in class)#and etc !!! like hey maybe some friends online or irl i am not talking to as much atm but there's the comfort that we still greatly care #for wach other. and whatnot. and there's just a lot and damn if i gave up this wouldn't be happening lol my point is things do get better #and a lot of it tbh is on how you improve and see things (???) idk but damn i'm just rlly proud of myself #I COULD STILL DO BETTER mbut idk all of this is me and im just rlly secure in that and i have been since the longest time ngl. im amazing #yeehaw ANYWAYYYYFGEGKR BG3 I STARTED A DARK URGE RUN LAST NIGHT YE GODS ITS A BIT SCARY TO ME BUT I LOVE THE BLOOD #im trying to fight against it bcs im using my main tav but boom make him a durge guy so ^_^

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moonlit-orchid · 6 months ago

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good evening to everyone except a certain few fucking anons