#I want you to understand

[vesselandmoon]

Why can't I just feel normal about this?

I don't mean the excited when Sleep Token or Vessel pops up on any social media, or the playful way in which fans comment on their attraction to the physical, or anything of that nature. It's more that I hate that the urge to connect with a stranger can be so utterly blinding sometimes. The desire for them to see and know and understand how much they mean. How much they inspire.

I rarely get like this and when I do, it's a torturous cycle of reasonably saying that it will pass, convincing myself that emotions will fade over time. That I can channel that longing into something productive and yet, it doesn't help those feelings in the mean time.

I swear it's not a dangerous thought process. I respect boundaries and have been upset recently at leaked information and doxxing that had no business taking place. It feels like an invasion of their privacy every time I accidentally wander upon information I didn't want to know.

The only danger that comes from it is to myself. That's why I need this place. Somewhere I can dump all of these moments that make me feel that I'm slipping from my hold on stability. I'm supposed to be the strong one. The one everyone goes to for advice, for support. Never cry in front of them, as that can be seen as weakness that might shatter that idea and yet when I get so caught up like this, it's hard to be that person. It's hard to keep those walls up and not feel like I have to spill my guts in a desperate attempt for someone to understand.

[understanding-hold-on]

you know it is so funny seeing english discourse about what books are good and what aren't and what children books should contain in them while I in Kazakhstan genuinely cannot find a book in Kazakh that would interest me.

Like yes there are always the classics but sometimes I do not want to read a historical-drama-tragedy. I do not want to read yet another translation.

I just want to read something I can relate to in my mother tongue. I just want to read about some silly teen doing silly stuff and getting into silly situations in Kazakh. Something that I would actually want to understand and translate and understand the plot of where the main hero is not another middle-aged man fighting against the world.

And then maybe there is someone doing that! The book might be lying in a bookshop but everything is so expensive and I just want to read something from my phone and I would even pay for the god-forsaken pdf, BUT THERE IS NO SITE. THERE IS NOTHING.

[heavenlywine]

chest // In defeat, she bumped her forehead against his chest after another failed attempt at making Hina jealous. (Charmaine)

𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐃  &  𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐅𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 (accepting)

"Come now, doll, don't actually get upset." He placed a hand over Char's head and petted on her gently, the way he typically did his fat rabbit's rump. "She's clearly moved on, and it's about time for you to do the same. There's plenty of fish in the sea." That was truly what Akihito thought. Life was short and there were too many new potentials out there to be moping around.

"You can't hold onto love once it is gone." Spoken like a wise man, except he had never experienced it himself. It was probably safer that way. "So what are you looking for? Other than someone with a house."

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[millificent]

Every Nico Di Angelo fan focusing more on the background of the episode than the actual plot

[mynnthia]

was talking with a friend about how some of dunmeshi fаndom misunderstands kabru's initial feelings towards laios.

to sum up kabru's situation via a self-contained modernized metaphor:

kabru is like a guy who lost his entire family in a highly traumatic car accident. years later he joins a discord server and takes note of laios, another server member who seems interesting, so they start chatting. then laios reveals his special interest and favorite movie of all time is David Cronenberg's Crash (1996), and invites kabru to go watch a demolition derby with him

[pissed-whizard]

my blog is a gateway drug to cooler and better blogs (my mutuals)

[emeryleewho]

People on here are always like "fuck capitalism, why can't things be weird anymore" and then write up a whole dissertation about how the biggest IPs need to change to be weirder.

Like, you are so close. You are so close to getting the point. "Big" IPs *can only exist because they are normal*. They will *never* be weird. They will *never* do what you want. Go find some smaller IPs. Bring back discovery. Bring back never having heard of a book before you buy it. Bring back watching obscure anime online that none of your friends know about. Bring back trying new things, even if they're bad or cheaply made. That is how you get *weird*.

[birdy-babe]

Blitzøs entire life spent being unwanted. So he adapted, and learned how to be something needed, something to be used.

Which is why I think he firmly believes he is being used by Stolas. He simply cannot fathom a different reality, one in which he is wanted for once in his life.

[cozymodeonpoint]

senshi fans: learning how to make nutritious meals for themselves

laios fans: down bad

marcille fans: lesbianism

chilchuck fans: putting that man in situations

[bitchofdarkness]

I hate how fandom has become "if you haven't created anything in this very specific time frame after the release of the show/movie, everyone will have moved on"

And call me old fashioned, but that's just not me. I sometimes take ages to create and publish. And I will love a show or movie for such a long time (years, babes, years) that I just can't relate to the fast consumerism that's going on.

Because, let's be real, it can get really lonely in a fandom if most have simply moved on to the next shiny thing. Is what's created less worth, just because it was created outside the hype? Why is it such a taboo for this new fandom generation to love an old or "late" fic or art?

It's so tiring and I'm too old for the 30-seconds-hype-tiktok-shit. Just tired. So, so tired.

[ravenmccookies]

Weird phenomenon I've seen on tumblr

[utilitycaster]

"why should I get invested in shows if they'll just get canceled" I was deeply invested in Heroes (2006) and it was not canceled, it just got really terrible. I also got really invested in the sandwich I had a few weeks ago despite it only lasting like 15 minutes. You must embrace the ephemeral. You must be willing to love things that may not love you back, that might betray you, or that may die an untimely death. As the great philosopher Mr. Mitchell Lee Hedberg said "I'm not gonna stop doing something because of what happens at the end."

[brainrotcharacters]

the easy grip on the knife. the leg over the seat. the hand over the other seat. the sassy "come get it" move. you know the bitch is smiling behind that mask even as he said the line.

[chloesimaginationthings]

Glitchtrap has one more FNAF task for Vanessa..

[mythicalcoolkid]

You don't wish your disability was worse or more visible, you wish your disability was taken seriously. Please stop confusing the two, I guarantee you would not get the support you need JUST by being more severe or more visible. Please listen to visibly disabled people when we tell you it isn't better on our side