#I still think about those friends btw. I’m positive that bestie eventually came out after we drifted apart

[tlblitz]

I didn’t know what “gay” or “trans” or even “sucking balls” meant when I was little, but I did know that I enjoyed playing with dolls. That I wanted to read books about magical unicorn gardens. That Winx Club was a cool TV show about fairy girls getting boyfriends and fighting evil. And that on a very core level, a male puberty didn’t feel right for me. That all came natural to me.

I knew that I didn’t care about Star Wars or superheroes or almost anything else that all the boys liked. That boys were “supposed to” like. Who decided what was for boys?

I disliked pink exclusively because I had been told to. It was girly, and I’d been taught that boys being girly was wrong and embarrassing. I had to suppress my girly interests and only let them out where people couldn’t see. Why teach me that? Why did I need to be taught that? Does it hurt kids to take interest in the “wrong” things? Does being different get people hurt, and if so, how?

I didn’t get why everyone made a fuss about dating. In 3rd grade, my best friend once asked if it was okay that he date a girl I had complimented once 2 years prior. My gut response was “What? Dude we’re eight. Sure, I don’t care.” I left out the middle bit because that seemed rude and my approval seemed to really matter to him. Why should kids who have barely been taught about puberty (if at all) be dating? Why should they want to date? They certainly hadn’t experienced puberty yet. What’s even the point of dating at that age?

A female friend, the other weirdest kid in class, would regularly get into staring matches with me. We’d widen our eyes and lean in so it was basically all we could see. She once whispered “You know everyone thinks we’re dating, right?” during a match. My response was “I don’t care. We know the truth.” Why should it be thought kids that young are dating? That they want to date?

At 10, that best friend and I were finally in the same class again. We were as thick as thieves. We spent recess playing together, talking about books we liked, new games we had at home, and so on. I was the weakling of the class, the crier. He was a hothead, protective of me. One day I scraped myself up on the playground mulch, because someone had bumped into me and knocked me over. He was infuriated by this and wanted to chase them down and start a fight about what was clearly an accident, and I had to convince him to just help me to the nurse. Why did he care so deeply? Would he have done that for anyone else? Any other friend? Any other boy? And why was it flattering that he cared so much, even if it was in a way that wasn’t initially helpful? Why was his instinct above all reason to protect me?

I ask these questions not to get answers, but to make you think, anon. You seem to care about influences on the young and natural feelings. I had no queer influences at that age, to the point where I didn’t know anything about queerness. And yet I was very different from my peers. I could see that they were doing things that didn’t make sense, but I couldn’t tell exactly why. I just knew that many of those things were expected of them. That I had to learn what I was supposed to like, and what I wasn’t. That I had been taught about romance, and everyone else probably had been too, and I certainly didn’t feel any internal motivation to date yet, so maybe they were doing it because they thought they were supposed to, too. That’s how children work. They learn from their surroundings, their culture, and they mimic it. And eventually, they grow up, and they identify and grow out of the things that don’t suit them. For some people, what doesn’t suit them is being straight or a certain gender. It’s as simple as that.

feel my natural balls, homie

[seven-oomen]

Hi, Ben!  Hope you had a good day, and are finally getting some rest!  So, did you know there are sites that let you design your own ugly Christmas sweaters?  May I present the one that Peter’s husbands get him for a party?  Except then the jokes on them because he won’t stop wearing it EVERYWHERE (at least I hope the image shows?  It saved in a different format on the site I used for this.)  Also, if you were ever to actually make a shirt of it, I would suggest an image from the reaction GIF you used for the alignment/meta anon.  Because, my god, that smirk.  XD  (Also, they are totally right.  And it is hilarious to me that the two officers of the law are firmly [and accurately] on the neutral side of that axis.  XD )

And I’m still screaming over that latest preview.  He just wants cuddles and ear scritches, Noah!  The saliva will dry, he’s just showing his appreciation for your support.  XD  And oh, yeah I knew he would eventually get better, it was more me trying to decide how quickly I was hoping for it to happen.  My “I want it asap because I hate seeing them in pain” side was warring with my “but nightmare creature cuddles would be adorbs, tho?” side (and they are).  :D  Also, terrible thought brought on by working at my job too long: since I don’t think that form has a tail like a wolf (I don’t really remember noticing one, at least?), do you think that since he can’t wag, he starts doing the wiggle-butt thing like boxers and pits tend to do?  (sorry, the thought occurred to me and I couldn’t make it stop.  XD )

Also, how dare you put the image of Noah and Chris cuddling in the window seat watching the snow fall while the listen to Peter singing ‘Hallelujah’ as he finishes the dishes, in my head?  Or them sitting at the table having coffee and joining him for the choruses?  Or Chris singing along with Tony Bennett or Harry Connick Jr on the local Christmas station?  Or Noah singing along with Chris Cornell’s version of Ave Maria (or doing a damn good impression at least [song is available on Spotify, btw, if you’ve not heard it])?  My body was not meant to hold this level of feral screaming, dude.  XD

For the undecided alignment (that don’t involve spoilers), I would vote LN for Danny and CG for John.  No specific reasons, that’s just what feels right at the moment.  And I’m curious if Noah and the kids have been in the vault at all, because Malia would be able to access it.

And, yes, I am all for mutual body positivity support among the boys.  I remember watching some BTS thing a few years back, and Linden said something about how everyone was “running around without their shirts on, and I just feel kinda old and jiggly”, and my very first thought was “Oh, please.  You may not be I’ve-had-nothing-but-chicken-for-a-week-and-haven’t-had-liquids-in-three-days ripped like the other guys, but in no way will you ever convince me you are actually out of shape in the slightest."  Also, I’m just picturing a scene where Noah accidentally(/on purpose…?) looms over Chris, who just has this moment of "oh, yeah, that’s right, you’re tall now” immediately followed by “well, I am learning a number of new things about myself right now"  XD  On a related note, how do you think he feels about dip kisses after realizing this?  Although, I do hope Noah does not sweep Chris off his feet in quite the same way Chris keeps doing to him.  XD

On an unrelated note, that post about Artoo and Luke about killed me dead.  XD  Artoo’s propensity for shenanigans and Luke’s pervading issues with impulse control is just a complete recipe for hilarious disaster and total ride-or-die besties.  It also reminded me of the post about how Rogue One leads into New Hope and Leia straight up lying right to her dad’s face.  Which, while hysterical, also makes me think about how many posts I see about how Leia is very much her father’s daughter, but almost never see any that point out how much Luke is his mother’s son.  I just have a LOT OF FEELINGS about this, okay?  But I will contain that rant.  XD  (Star Wars has been an on-again-off-again love for me since I was 9.  It’s pretty much a guaranteed way to get an emotional response out of me.  XD )

And I’m glad Mo doesn’t bother the tree or anything, though the box thing is pretty funny.  But he does seem to have that very cat-like tendency to want to completely block you from accessing the keyboard or pin you in place because he’s laying on you and you don’t want to disturb him, so I think he’s catting just fine.  XD  I mean, I have some friends who one of their cats is immune to scruffing (the downside of this is that he’s also almost completely feral still [he was a stray that stayed], and at one point he got a UTI and needed antibiotics.  I’m pretty sure my friend had to get like a falconing glove or something to get his pills in him.  XD )

That America being huge vs Europe being old thing also made me laugh because there was the section about the "long bus ride” that was like two hours, and all I could think about was how often we drove four hours both ways to visit my grandparents, and how in high school we took a trip to Canada, and I don’t remember the exact length of the bus ride up, but I know it was between twenty-three and twenty-eight hours.

And I hope you’re enjoying the Spiderman game, or will when you get to it!  As best I recall, everyone I know who has played it has had nothing but good things to say about it.  And wow, I’m rambling again.  Oh well.  Anyway, hope you’re doing well, and sending lots of good energy for finishing the chapter to your satisfaction (I know the readers certainly don’t mind the longer chapters.  :D )  Take care!  *Hugs!*

Oh my god I am absolutely in love with that sweater. Why is this not a thing XD 

And yeah, they definitely gift Peter a sweater like that, lbr. No other way about it. It definitely backfires when Peter wears it every single year and to everywhere. Including PT meetings and the parent/school board meetings? I forgot the American word for it, in Dutch we call it ouderraad. I know we talked about them before where Peter starts a war with the ‘Karen’ and completely wrecks her. And how all the other moms fall in love with the three DILFS.

But yeah, wears it everywhere and every year XD. 

Noah’s deputies, including Jordan, have definitely snapped pictures and post them on every computer desktop in the station. Including pictures of Noah’s reaction faces of that sweater.

Because you cannot convince me, that a bunch of cops, would not be dicks about this.

Chris is infinitely grateful that he does not have coworkers like that.

And god that is rather good smirk to go with that line XD. And yeah I guess it is funny. But it’s also true and that’s wow... XD 

I did a character alignment test for Peter and came out on CN so that is what I’m going to stick with in any itteration for him. 

As for the wiggle butt thing, he does not have a tail and I already had a very lengthy inner discussion with myself before getting this ask and I can tell you, he does wiggle butt like a boxer in this form. Imagine a fucking beast like that just wiggle butting with happiness. The image is so bizarre that I had to include it in the full moon chapter.

Chris is definitely learning a number of things about himself when he figures out Noah can now loom over him and press him against walls. Also Chris has a thing for being bound or pressed against objects and when Noah figures that one out, well, let’s say Peter certainly doesn’t mind watching those moments.

There’s also a revelation when Chris says; I can easily get out of these handcuffs and Noah translates it too; Good, that means that as long as you don’t try to, you’re consenting to whatever I’m doing to you. Deal? To which Chris, enthusiastically agrees. It’s a very fun game. Peter disagrees because they tend to lock him out during the games with some ash, although he is invited back in after they’re done and then the attention of two Omegas is fully on him. So I suppose he doesn’t mind too much.

Something that is both funny and sweet though is that through Ben, Noah discovers how much he misses having little kids running around. And he has a few moments of; oh god I want another kid realizations in this chapter.

Of course, considering their situation this isn’t the time and Noah more than realizes that. But it gets conversations about the future going for all three of them.

Oh and to answer your question, Malia has not been to the vault, but she and her siblings will get to see it. If that’s with dad or with Derek I haven’t decided yet. But they will end up at the vault in this story. Gotta get Peter’s necklace back.

So far I’ve had a bit of a rough day but by answering this and focusing on headcanons, and that freaking sweater!!!!, I feel a bit better. So thank you my friend, this helped me a lot <3. 

And I agree, Leia is just like her father but Luke is all Padme and people don’t talk about that enough. <3

Lots of Love from me and Mo!

[risingemini]

Astrology Information:

1. Taurus (Sun), Capricorn (Moon), Taurus (Rising)

2. If I were born again, I’d really like to have a Pisces Sun, Pisces Moon, and Libra Rising.  I just love the mystical sense that Pisces gives off, and their ability to know about their emotions without the tendency of being overwhelmed by them is just a quality I will be eternally envious of.  And Libra Rising because I’ve never been the sociable type, but Air signs always know how to keep a conversation going, and Libra’s ruling planet is the same as Taurus’: Venus!

3. I feel like my ideal placement for a soulmate (romantically) would be...Aries Sun, Pisces Moon, Aquarius Rising.  Aries Sun because the Aries I have ever met are just extremely fun to be around, plus they have that spark in their eyes that just brightens your day (blows a kiss to all my Aries Suns).  Pisces Moon because of the reasons formerly stated, and Aquarius Rising because they can be outgoing but also intellectual.

Hobbies:

1. I really enjoy writing and drawing in my bullet journal, I make a spread every week and I even made an account for it with my friend Dom (@bujobaddies)

2. I play some instruments (Violin, Viola, Piano mainly) and I’m also in my school’s orchestra, I learned Viola unintentionally actually because my teacher was holding auditions again even for returning students to place them in certain positions and since we didn’t have a large viola section, he allowed anyone willing to learn viola to play it in the orchestra without auditioning.  Too scared to audition with my violin, I picked up the Viola instead.

3. AND DID YOU GUYS ALSO KNOW I RAN AN ASTROLOGY BLOG?!?!?!  But seriously I love having this blog to look at and to see how people react to or think about our posts, even if they don’t necessarily like what we’re posting!  I love seeing people’s suggestions.  

Personal Stuff:

1. I’m gay, and honestly I’m still not used to being able to say it, much less type it and seeing it for myself.  For such a long time I denied this part of myself to have light shed upon it because I was ashamed of it because of what my parents told me about homosexuality.  But eventually I came to disregard the homophobic things they’ve said and slowly I’ve started to embrace it!  Even though accepting my sexuality was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do, it was no doubt one of the best things, and I’m elated that I lack the fear to share this part of my self with you :).

2. I really, and I mean REALLY want to get into college.  Like I’m not exactly the brightest student (in a history test I turned in my test and I was wondering why I had turned it in so early and I was MAD confident but then I realized there was a back page that I completely forgot to do and yeah I got docked 30% for that) but I’m trying my best!  My top three schools as of now are University of Washington (it’s my dream school, so not exactly a target), University of Oregon, and then San Diego State University (although my Mom is against me going to this one).  

3. Speaking of college, my dream job is to become a Speech Language Pathologist (SLP for short, aka Speech Therapist)!  I really love sign language (I’ll be taking 3 years of it by this June, as of now 2 years) and to be quite honest It’s just a fascinating language to me!  I also like social sciences in general, like psychology and sociology (though I’ve yet to take the latter!) but I’m really wishing on a star to get into one of those 3 schools with this major!

4. I’ll be an incoming senior this fall, and honestly I’m rather scared.  All my friends have their SAT scores and GPA thingies all set and I’m still here trying to take the test.  But nonetheless I’m really hoping that I can pull through and not only succeed my senior year, but HAVE FUN TOO!  And also, congrats to all you folks in the class of 2018!  We done good :)

5. To be quite honest, Gender isn’t really something I care much for (in context to myself, of course).  Like if I woke up and biologically became a girl I’d be like “oh ok sure”.  Joey and I have actually talked about this, and I forgot what she said in particular (srry bb) but I remember saying that I would want the name Rose, pronounced Rose or Rose-ee (no particularly deep reason, literally it’s because that’s the stage name of one of my favorite Kpop performers).

Fun Facts:

1.  I hate room temperature water, I’m sorry but it’s just nasty

2. The reason why the blog is called risingemini and not ascendantaurus is because my dad gave me my wrong birth time when I started this blog, and gave me the hour AFTER I was born:D.  By the time I got the correct time I thought it was too late, and that Joey and I would stick with risingemini

3. My taste of music is rather disappointing. For the majority of the time i listen to Kpop (my friend asked me to do a ‘the signs as kpop groups’ and i snorted.  Btw for those interested my top 5 groups are Sistar, BESTie, f(x), Wondergirls, and 4minute) and if I DO listen to English music, well I’m particularly basic so its largely pop.  

4. My favorite color is pink (hence the pink highlights and stuff in our blog aesthetic) and it always has been.  I’m not a fan of hot or bright, but pastels.

5. Something really embarrassing about me is that I tend to daze out a lot, especially in crowded places or social situations, but it gets really bad when I start singing.  I’m not one for self-diagnosing but I’m quite certain I’m tone-deaf, even in karaoke I never get a score above a 20 (out of 100), and when I notice I do sing 6/10 times my friend is looking at me weird asking if I was just singing.