#I saw that meme pic and I kinda had to xD

[lawain-dimensional-heroes]

"I can be your running mate, I am already a resident--"

"Ah crap-- WRONG RACE WRONG RACE--"

[seven-oomen]

Okay, let’s see if I can make anything coherent out of this, even though I should really be going to bed. XD  Will try to break up the rambling as best I can for readability.

*MASSIVE WARNING FOR SPOILERS AHEAD!*

First off, jeebus christ that opening.  They did not even slightly play around about what to expect from this movie.  I was *WHEEZING* the whole time because my brain just playing that “I’M GONNA BEAT A MOTHERFUCKER, WITH ANOTHER MOTHERFUCKER” meme the whole goddamn time.  The moment when Wade straps on the claws and manages to use them was both horrifying and genius.  XD

Also, holy crap the levels of references and meta in this film.  (A friend actually sent me a YT video that covers ALL of the Easter eggs in the film, but I’ve not had time to watch it yet, as the only comment she added was “It’s LOOOONG”)  I keep telling the coworkers I’m trying to get to watch it that “It doesn’t so much break the fourth wall as nuke it from orbit."  XD  The comments about how you’d never know that Lady DP just had a baby, about Hugh’s divorce, all the stuff with the Legacy gang.  My favorite was probably the shop called Liefeld’s Just Feet from the end sequence, every time it popped up I had to choke down a cackle.  The callbacks to the old films, the recreations of popular cover art.  Just the sheer amount of research that went into this film was just *chef’s kiss*.  I’m sure there were things I missed because I’m not totally caught up on everything, it’s been a long time since I’ve seen some of it, and everything was just happening so much, but it doesn’t even matter because everything I did catch was amazing.  Also, very much appreciated the TVA agent who was clearly meant to represent all of us.  XD  Treasure that mask my dude.  (Funnily enough, I didn’t even know about that because I hadn’t really even seen all the trailers, I went into the film fairly blind.  Was DEFINITELY part of the cheering section when he pulled that on.  And then immediately knew I had a coworker who NEEDED to do that costume.  XD )

And, omfg, the CAMEOS.  I almost screamed so many times at some of the reveals.  I’d heard lots of speculation on who (actor) and who (character) might appear, but I knew there was no way all of it was going to be true, so I just let myself be surprised in the best ways.  The only one that we didn’t get that I saw people talking about that I wish had happened was Daniel Radcliffe as "Height-Appropriate Wolvie”, especially after some of the pics I’ve seen from that film where he has guns attached to his hands or whatever.  I think it would have been fun.  One that might have been cute would have been Taron Egerton as Patch, mostly because I occasionally see him mentioned as a possible future replacement for Hugh (even though he’s not 90 yet XD, and I don’t know that Taron has quite the feral quality the character needs), as well as a possible future Bond.  Also kinda hoped for Ice Man to pop up since Pyro was there, or for a possible Loki mention because of the TVA.  My mom said that RR’s kids all appeared in the film, but I haven’t had a chance to look into that yet (maybe Thor was crying because he stole his move XD ).

But without doubt I had three favorite cameos (listed in no particular order.)  When CEvans appeared I think the whole theater lost its collective mind.  Like, literally spontaneous cheering.  I kinda wondered a bit at first, because like, the facial hair, and he didn’t really have the Dorito shape going, but I’d also heard a little about the whole Nomad thing, but as soon as he pushed the hood back and I got a better look at the collar/shoulder of his outfit, my brain started up this slow “wait…WAIT…hold up, that looks like…” and then he says it and I started cackling like a fucking hyena.  That was a truly brilliant bit of misdirection.  (Side note, I assume you saw the end end credits scene?  XD  How much do you think he enjoyed that?)  On a somewhat related note, absolute props to Emma Corrin for being so believably James McAvoy’s sister.  And also hellaciously terrifying.

Shortest favorite cameo (but worth every moment), absolutely hands-down, The Cavill-rine.  I had heard people speculating he might pop up as various characters, but again, I wasn’t particularly expecting anything or anyone.  I could tell it was someone new from the beginning, but I wasn’t certain until he turned around and then there was a whole lot of screaming from a lot of different people.  I did appreciate the adaptation of his “arm-loading” maneuver from M:I for deploying the claws, I found it very effective (though maybe it was just the tank top XD )  I’ve seen some people saying that this could be a sign that he’ll be moving over to the MCU at some point now, which I have slightly complicated feelings on mostly just because the main character I could see him being used for is Captain Britain (which would be amusing because he’d have to go blond, and if anyone remembers Stardust that can be…tricky…  XD ), but I can’t stand CB, but he also leads my fave X-team so if he DID take that part maybe we’d get an Excalibur movie, which I would love.  Part of me would want RR involved with that, though, because I’d trust him to do Nightcrawler correctly, and make commentary about it when he does (also, I don’t know if they’ve actually interacted much/at all in the comics, but I feel like Wade would absolutely enjoy meeting a guy who not only also dual wields swords on occasion, but can actually triple wield because that tail is prehensile [and yes, I have indeed seen fic where he used his tail exactly the way Wade would imagine - often on Logan as it happens.  Ah, the lawless early days of fic found on people’s unregulated personal sites or behind AdultFanFic.com’s rather lax security protocols. XD ])  Uh…sorry, went a bit off topic there…

Lastly, but very certainly not least, I almost LOST MY SHIT when Channing Tatum strolled out.  Like barely restrained dolphin screeches and wriggly seat bouncing (I choose to believe they were mostly restrained at least.)  Gambit is probably my second favorite X-man, and I have been desperate to see him done justice in a film.  Ironically the only appearance he’s had was in the same dumpster fire that gave us our first “Deadpool”, and I’m pretty sure they didn’t even make sure he had the proper accent, which.  How very dare.  I’d heard mention of Tatum’s attempts to get a solo film made off and on, and now I’m even more disappointed it never happened because he was an absolute delight.  And they did such a good job showing how useful his powers can be in a fight (I may have been chanting “where tf is his bo staff?!” in my head when the fight began, then almost cheered when I saw him using it, shhh, don’t judge me.)  That whole thing with the Legacy gang was a hoot (loved “Elektra” not being upset about the lack of a “DD"  XD )

Okay, moving along (kinda?), to the main boys.  I feel like possibly one of the only ones who engages in the more shippy side of fandom culture who didn’t see the car scene as sex?  Like, I can see WHY so many people do, but I just didn’t even process it that way in the moment.  I feel like it’s possibly just one of those aspec confusion things where my brain just doesn’t tend to make that sort of assumption about interactions, coupled with my own personal opinion of Logan’s mental state at that point.  Like, I feel like it’s entirely probable that one or both of them got off at some point during the fight, but I don’t think they "fucked nasty in the Odyssey."  Wade would absolutely have been DTF, because he’s absolutely attracted to Logan (understandable), and also, it’s what he knows, it would have been an easy outlet for all the BIG EMOTIONS that just kept happening for him, but I feel like Logan wouldn’t have been, even if he was also interested, because at that point he was still so deep in his self-loathing that I don’t think he’d have allowed himself something "pleasurable” like that.  I mean, he’d get something very similar from a fight, but he wouldn’t have to acknowledge it the same way.  It felt more like a “I’m going to punch something until the screaming in my head stops because I’m now too sober to regulate my emotions properly” type of moment to me.

For similar reasons I wasn’t really all that surprised when they didn’t obviously get together at the end.  Now, if they hadn’t pulled that stupid shit with Wade and Vanessa, it would be a different story, but they needed to wrap up that drama first.  Fix what the idiot writers decided was necessary for “growth” or whatever, (even though I feel like Wade would have also been just as determined to save his universe if they were together, even if she was encouraging him to try to do more) before you expand things, as it were (which now that I think about it is rather similar to how I felt about the OG trio in Jurassic World: Dominion…  anyway…)  And I feel like Logan was just reaching the point of allowing himself to have friends and make connections again (because did I mis-hear, or was Cassandra implying he’d had to basically mercy kill some/most of them?  Because holy shit), I don’t know that he’d be at the point of actively pursuing anything yet, though.  Like, it almost felt like they’ve seen the potential in each other as a partner by the end, but weren’t quite in a place to do anything about it yet until they’d worked through some things first (which means the sequel needs to be a full on romance.)  Like, the most I might have expected given where they were (and also, y'know, Disney) would have been Logan just sort of casually throwing his arm around Wade’s shoulders, maybe a little kiss on the temple.  (In my defense I am weak for fluff.)

However, again, so much potential for places to go from there.  I feel like it might be a little awkward at first, because Wade might not really know quite what to DO here.  Like, flirting and sex are one thing, attempting an actual relationship are very much another (especially since he’s not 100% sure where Logan stands on polyamory, and would rather not accidentally offend the man he’s trying to woo.)  He has no doubts he could seduce Logan, but he LIKES him, and convincing him of that he’s less certain of.  And it’s not like it was with Vanessa, who was just as confident and forward about what she wanted as he was.  Logan is much more reserved, and still occasionally irritable, and Wade isn’t known for coming across as serious and sincere, even when he genuinely is.  And while Logan likes him, too, he’s still adjusting to this new reality, and getting a feel for how all the dynamics work in the group.  So they dance around each other for a little while, while Vanessa keeps encouraging him to “just ASK him already!"  And then when he finally does broach the idea, he finds out Logan is not only totally down, but "this ain’t my first rodeo, so to speak."  (So.  My thought process here is partially influenced by the whole thing in one of the comic runs where people were joking that he, Jean, and Scott were in a throuple because of some weird bedroom layouts.  [Sadly the artist eventually commented on it and said that they weren’t, although my first response in my head was "they could be if you weren’t a coward.”]  And the other part was because it had seemed a little odd to me that when Logan was telling Laura about what happened in his universe, he referred to Scott and Jean by name, and everyone else by codename.  Which probably doesn’t mean anything, but I decided it did.  The fact that they were trying to get him to join them could imply that he hadn’t known them long, but there’s also no reason they couldn’t have been encouraging him to join because they’d been dating for a while, too.)  Wade is like, immediately incensed about this (“why didn’t you tell me?!” “you never asked.”), because they apparently COULD have now been fucking nasty already.  Vanessa and Al both give him much crap about this (“Boy, I’m blind as shit and even I could see he was interested in you.”)  Also, I feel like Yukio would absolutely adore Logan, but can’t decide if Negasonic and him would get along like a house on fire, or if she’d be put off by how alike they are.  XD  Given his history with volatile young girls the odds are probably in his favor.  I mean honestly; Rogue, Jubilee, Kitty, Laura.  And being besties at various points with Wade, Kurt, Ororo, etc.  For a guy who so staunchly considers himself a loner he has quite the support network.  XD

…I feel like there were probably other things, but it’s almost two o'clock in the morning, and I open tomorrow.  Also, this is already hella long (again, my apologies, lol.)  Hopefully this mostly makes sense, and is at least somewhat of an enjoyable read.  Tbf, you did encourage me.  ;P  Anyway, hope you’re still doing well, and may the weather calm down soon.  Take care!  *HUGS!*

It is approaching 1 am where I’m at, so I’m gonna reply to some of this now and maybe to some of it later. I definitely think Logan had to mercy kill at least some of his teammates in his own universe. It’s heavily implied in my opinion. Which, ooofffff, man. No wonder he feels that much guilt and is that messed up. Oh Yukio absolutely adores Logan, I feel like she might just hug him one day and just says; I’m glad you joined the family. And Logan, the big fucking softy he is, just absolutely melts and adopts the girl on the spot. As for Ellie/Negasonic, I’d say there’s a lot of posturing at first between the two. With Logan just mostly being really confused by the way she’s acting, but eventually Logan wins her over and they get along splendidly after that. I do think Laura and Negasonic become instant besties. Which spells hell for anyone else involved because they are ferocious and MeanTM. I did write some premises down for a fic for them where they slowly get together, sticking to mostly canon, with some comic references thrown around. (Creatively working my way through the messy, messy timelines). https://www.tumblr.com/seven-oomen/757474833241096192/so-story-idea-for-deadpool-and-wolverine-obvious?source=share

I think the way I’d tackle their relationship is that they didn’t get together at the end of Deadpool 3 for exactly the reasons you list above. While I would have loved the movie that much more if they did, from a character standpoint I think both Wade and Logan have some shit to figure out until they get to that point. It’s fun to wish for it though.

Things it will feature and the premise: Omega Logan Wade is just Wade/Deadpool as we know him Dualsex Omegas from Logan’s universe Deadpool and Wolverine prequel/midquel/sequel Jimmy Hudson & Ellie are twins born of Logan and Wade (Ellie is loosely based of Eleanor Camacho) Trans Jimmy Hudson Laura Kinney is adopted into the family Slow burn Poolverine Wade has some kinky shit that really ends up helping Logan through his heat. Logan and Wade are bad at feelings Flashbacks to Logan’s life during weapon X and the X-men In Logan’s timeline he and Wade met during weapon X times, though back then nothing really came out of their relationship. Logan was very much under Victor’s thumb until the aftermath of Lagos where he and Victor were experimented on. Logan survived his experimentation, Victor didn’t. Which left Logan with some abandonment and bonding issues. Eventually Logan found his way to the X-mansion, and was taken in, though that too ended in tragedy by his own making. He didn’t join when his team needed him the most and paid for that decision by losing everything. He even had to put Jean, Scott, and the professor out of their misery in the end. After that faithful night, the hunt for mutants in his universe began, with him being one of the few survivors of the purge. By the time Wade pulls him out of his own universe to act as an anchor being for his, guilt and anger are eating away at him. After shit goes down, and he realizes there’s no way back, Logan tries his best to settle back into civilian life with Wade and the rest of the family. Things get incredibly complicated when Logan’s heat hits with lasting consequences for the newly formed family.

I’m working out the kinks in this stage and figuring out the tone of the story. Would love to read your thoughts though :)

[laufire]

post nine pics of 2021!

whether it's photos you've taken or content you've made or certain screeenshots or favorite memes.

I was tagged by the lovely @angelfishofthelord​ (ty!)

I’m not showing my face here lol, but have some other pictures/edits:

1. The banner I made for the Megstiel Halloween Fest, Because:

[ID: combined image of a scene from Supernatural, where after Meg saves Castiel from Hesper’s beating, they stare at each  other. Meg is in front of him, holding the bloodied angel blade she  used, and Castiel is on his knees looking up at her with blood running  down his nose. The image includes the title  “Megstiel Halloween Fest”,  in Halloween-themed dark red letters,  dripping blood, with a pumpking  as the “o” and spider webs in the “w”; it’s also framed by the silouette  of a film kodak picture.]

2. This edit I made for @nectargrapes‘s original WIP.

[Caption: three edited stills of oil paintings. The first one (Falling Star, Witold Pruszkowski), shows a woman floating in the night sky, falling and shinning among the stars. The second one (Death and the Maiden, Ana Sanchez) shows a woman drapped in a white cloth that covers her face, and a dark hooded figure with his hands on her shoulders standing behind her. The third and last one (The Eruption of Vesuvius at Night, Joseph Rebell) shows the volcano erupting, with the light of the lava surrounded by smoke and ashes.]

3. This edited image I used to illustrate an original excerpt (link here):

[ID: image of two black women dressed in golden clothes and jewelry, including diadems with runrays coming out of them, over a background with a golden cloth. They have their eyes closed; one of them is sitting down, and the other is standing up behind her, with her hands on the other’s shoulders.]

4. All the images in this post I made with my SPN women + flowers, but especially this one of Ruby:

[Caption: Poppies for Ruby, for PLEASURE, SACRIFICE, AND DEATH. The image shows Ruby lying in bed while Sam was drinking of her.]

5. Again, all of the post, but especially these two images:

[Caption: Meg is leaning up and closing her eyes, their faces put close together while they stare at each other; Castiel pushes her to the ground and walks over her to avoid the fire.]

6. This FDTD graphic I made for @chiara-mastroianni

[Caption: screenshots from the first season of From Dusk Till Dawn. The first few saw Kisa appearing as a vision asking to be freed, either directly to Richie or in reflections; the last one shows her dancing on stage, holding a snake in her arms and looking towards the camera. The images have lines and spots that made them look like old photographs, and the set includes the quote “First you will raise the island of the Sirens, those creatures who spellbind any man alive, whoever comes their way.” from the Odyssey.]

7. This edit of Max, Silver, and Jack in Black Sails, because it’s simple but illustrates their dynamic and the injerence they have in the plot when they act together *-*

[Caption: three screenshots of Black Sails. In the first one, Max sits on Silver’s lap as they conspire to sell the page (to Jack) that he stole from Flint’s prize; in the second one, Jack opens the door of the room where they’re storing the Urca’s treasure (that Silver tipped them off about) to an astonished Max; in the third and last one, Jack and Silver converse, about to make an alliance against Flint in the series finale to achieve both of their goals (thanks to Max’s plans in Philadelphia).]

8. And all of the images in this Caroline Forbes graphic (best beloved).

[Caption: Caroline smiling at Stefan while they sit on a bench to talk during Jo and Alaric’s wedding. The image includes the words “you kinda struggle not to shine.”]

9. Also, have one (1) picture from my camera roll, brought to you by the fact that I often stop on the streets to take photos of pretty flowers xD

[Caption: close-up photography of a yellow rose.]

And I had a lot of fun making icons this year, but there are too many for me to choose lol.

A couple of people were already mentioned during the post itself (so considered yourself tagged for the meme if you want). Also tagging @habibialkaysani​ @idontwikeit​ @juliareed​ @ladyculebras​ and anyone else who want to do it (no pressure!).

[marikaaajoy]

my relationship with digital art and how BNHA salvaged it

I just wanted to let out my thoughts but I can only do it here :>

This might be a downer for some people but I’d like to share it with people here. BNHA means the world to me and this is why.

I first started drawing when I was 7 years old in 2006

I think it’s ugly now, but 7 year old me remembered being so proud of this because this is a drawing of my stepfather. This is the only drawing I have that was from my childhood. I think the aim here is to draw in anime style BUT I didn’t even watch anime back then. I had a classmate who loves anime and she taught me to draw in school. Drawing became a favorite hobby immediately after that.

Then it was 2013 and I was 14 years old. Drawing is still my favorite thing to do besides being on the computer. I love anime at this point too. My parents bought an iPad for the whole family, but I was almost always the one using it. I discovered an app called ArtStudio and thought “Wow, I can draw without making a mess and with only my fingers” because I was always too lazy to take out my drawing materials and clean up afterwards.

These were my first digital drawings. The pirate one was the very first. I got obsessed real fast. I can color so easily, undo any mistake, layers are a blessing too. There was just so much more freedom. I always sucked at coloring in traditional art and I didn’t like the mess (idk my hands get so messy traditionally)

The next year, it was 2014, I was 15. My birthday is in a couple of months and I knew my parents were planning to buy me something pricey (I think it was a laptop) so I approached them and asked if they could just buy the Wacom Bamboo as a present which was cheaper anyway and I even explained how it works to them and how it would allow me to draw on the computer instead of the iPad. I tried really hard to be convincing. I would have prepared a powerpoint presentation if I had to.

They did give me the wacom as a present. They even gave it to me months before my birthday so I could use it already. I thought I was the luckiest teen in the world with my parents.

These are a collection of my favorite works from 2014 to 2016. The middle one was my second drawing using wacom and Paint Tool SAI. I was a part of a lot of fandoms in those years lol

It gets downhill from there :/

April 2016, my mom and I moved to Japan, while my stepfather and siblings stay in my country. It was tough. For someone who is obsessed with anime, you’d think I’d be thrilled to live in Japan.

I was. Though only at the first few months. It’s not the same as it’s portrayed in anime (I should’ve known but I used to be blinded by anime). It was just lonely. The language barrier sucked and then lots of financial and family issues until my parents split. I got my first boyfriend too and I thought I was blessed by the nicest boy, but the relationship became extremely toxic but I didn’t have it in me to walk away.

All the shit that happened affected me mentally and emotionally. My biggest outlet which was digital drawing, was also out of the question because I did not have a computer/laptop when we moved to Japan. We left it in our home for my stepfather and siblings, even the iPad. I have my wacom with me, but no computer/laptop to use it with. I couldn’t draw.

I tried though. I used my phone to draw, but it wasn’t the same. Then the life problems got piled up, things got worse, and I just lost motivation in anything. Literally anything. From 2016 to 2019, I stopped watching anime, I dropped out of all the fandoms I’m in, I stopped watching my favorite TV series or movies, and I stopped drawing. I even got a bit disconnected with my friends who lived in my country (we talk regularly online). My family was broken so I gave all my attention to my toxic relationship as well which made everything worse too lol

I didn’t draw besides from a few scribbles and the drawings above. I did try digital art on my phone a couple of times again and even posted them on my IG, but they weren’t any good. Eventually, I got mentally and emotionally drained and dropped out of senior high school. I just stayed home for almost a year, leeching off of my mom. I felt even more worthless and my life had no direction at this point. Nothing mattered anymore.

April 2019 or so I think, my (ex)bf bought me a laptop. He says it’s a gift, but I think the real reason was to make up for something horrible that he did (which is stupid because money /gifts won’t resolve anything). I have a laptop. I can draw again, but I didn’t. I didn’t care, I wasn’t interested in drawing anymore anyway.

Welp. June 2019, I went back to my country. My (ex) bf stayed in Japan. The distance helped me end the relationship and my friends were there (they always were) to help put me back together along with two trips to therapy. I went back to finish my senior high school in my own country this time. That said, I have to stay in my country for school (but I was happy because I didn’t wanna go back to Japan yet when the breakup was still fresh and with going back to school, my life has a direction again.)

It was weird. I remember just being sorta lost and confused because I used to put my time, effort and everything into my previous toxic relationship, which was now gone. I was free and I had so much free time that I didn’t know what to do with it. I got so used to doing nothing and being nothing.

This is where BNHA enters.

Dunno when it started, but I started seeing Bakugou frequently online. It’s usually just Bakugou. I knew who he was because my friend suggested BNHA to me back in late 2018 I think but I didn’t watch it since I’ve lost interest in everything at that point in my life.

But ye I thought he hot af but I still didn’t watch BNHA.

But then for some reason he REALLY kept appearing in my social medias and it was really frequent. The last straw was when I saw a pic of him in UA’s gym uniform and thought “damn boi aight imma watch bnha for u” (y’all gotta admit he looks good in those colors with his combat boots XD )

I watched BNHA. Fell in love with Iida along the way. Then I switched to Tokoyami (but Shoji was hot too so aaaaa), but then angry emotionally-constipated sea urchin head caught my heart again. But oof. BakuDeku moments really made me feel some type of way I haven’t felt since I moved to Japan. It felt new but nostalgic. I fell hard in that ship.

I started obsessing. From memes to posts to fanfictions to buying merch to filling my room with BNHA posters. I realized I was reverting to my old self from the time I was still happy and it was thanks to BNHA (and the good people who helped me through the worst too)

Shit I wanted to draw BNHA, I thought.

I mean, I have a laptop, I still have my wacom and drawing softwares. I could totally draw digitally again if I wanted to.

But guess what

I can’t :c

My hand physically cannot draw. My drawings don’t look the way I want them too. 3 years of not drawing really destroyed any skill I had. I was back to square one.

September (yeah they’re ugly, I laughed at it). If you’re wondering why I drew on paper, it’s because, for some reason, I really CANNOT draw digitally. I mean it. I can barely sketch digitally at this point. The lines and shapes just doesn’t come to life. They’re just scribbles. But somehow, I can kinda draw on paper with a ballpoint pen. But yeah, that was the best I could do at this point in my life

After that, I still tried to draw, to regain my old art style, but it didn’t happen... It just doesn’t look or feel the same. Drawing used to be fun. But during this phase, it felt like my ugly drawings were just mocking me (probably was just too emo that time lol)

Weirdly, around a week or two I think, after my half-assed attempts at drawing, I managed to draw digitally somehow o.o

I did a Midoriya and Todoroki drawing like this too. It was my first post here on Tumblr I think. The annoying part here is that I cannot draw digitally unless I draw on paper first, take a pic, and then trace the lineart. I couldn’t draw directly on the computer. Granted, drawing on paper and drawing on digital is very different for me in the first place anyway. But it was still a pain. And it still looked like shit. I can only draw stiff poses :/ it seems like my brain decided to delete all data about anatomy and posture and backgrounds. My lineart here is even messy af. It still really not the same as my old style.

By 2020, I think I got my old art style back. On March, I made this. This took me 27 total of hrs to make.

Right now, I think it’s not bad, but back in March, I was disappointed with the result. This is when I finally broke down crying because it didn’t look good enough and I hated that it took me 27 hrs to draw “bullshit.” I was angry at myself for losing interest in drawing for 3 years when I could’ve used that time to improve. I had to start all over again and it still didn’t look good. (Current me thinks that the drawing above is alright. I was just a lot harsher to myself back then. Used to have a lot of issues but I’m doing great now)

I cried myself to sleep that night. Woke up wanting to cry again. I wallowed in sadness for a couple of days. Eventually told my friends what’s up. Got some pep talk. Even talked to my sister (she’s great, she always hypes me up with my stuff and sometimes I think she’s my biggest fan with how she appreciates my drawings and I’m really grateful for that).

My world turned a 180 and I was weirdly positive after all that crying because brain chemicals and shit. I had a revelation. If I hate how my art style looked so much, then I should have been putting effort in changing my art style, not trying to regain my old art style (that I don’t like anymore)

I researched a lot. I analyzed different art styles and anatomy again. I did everything I could think of to find a style that works for me. I might have even neglected school for a bit to focus on digital art lmao

After all that work, I posted a fanart of middle school BakuDeku in their classroom. I love that fanart so much even if I probably have better ones by now because that was the first fanart I made that I felt like I could be proud of and it was the first one I made in my new art style. It was a milestone for me.

March 2020, I moved back to Japan and without the toxic relationship, I’m a lot positive now. Happy. I’m myself again after the previous bad years. I’m still continuously learning though, trying to improve, but at least, now, I found my own art style :) I really suck at interacting with people online, but I’m always grateful for the support everyone has been giving my fanarts. I’m happy when my content makes people happy.

This is why BNHA is important to me. The series is great alone, but it’s not just that to me. BNHA is so much more. It’s what made me find the passion to create again, only this time, it’s focused on drawing (I used to write, but now I just draw, but maybe I’ll write again for BNHA).

My family is supportive with my love for BNHA, but I think they don’t know the deeper reason why I love it. Sure, I was fine living on with nothing much going on in my life. I’ll finish school, get a job, work until I die or something. It was okay. It was the way of life. But BNHA gave my life color again. I wasn’t just blindly going through life anymore. I have something to look forward to everyday now. BNHA even became a bridge to other things. Ever since then, I’m a lot more open to people, to try new things, to explore and not just live through life and waste away. I got better at leaving my comfort zone. I’ve never been happier in my life :D

Thank you for supporting my fanarts. Thank you so much for giving me a chance to express myself through BNHA. I hope to make more content in the future and improve even more :)

[ashen-laguz]

hey my brain isn’t working and I can’t think of characters, but pick however many OCs you want to answer for 6, 15, 22, and 32 for the OC ask meme

blink for the love of god. you can’t send questions but not an oc. that’s the worst possibility. b l i n k. XD

hhh imma go with alex/leone/clover/ian cause of pat’s recent xcom campaign sorta forcing em to "the folks i'm most fixated on atm" spot, but still. blink plz.

6. what is/would be your oc’s phone wallpaper?

tbh Leone would probably just keep a phone background as whatever the default is. He wouldn’t really care enough to change it, as he’s not really the sort who would use a phone more then needed and so just sorta figures “If i’m not gonna be staring at it for long, then why do I need to make it all customized and pretty?”

Ian definitely changes his background a lot, but it’s always some selfie he dragged someone he’s close with into; sometimes it might be him and a current partner, sometimes it’ll be him and Lynette, sometimes him and Alex... Mitch is the only person close to him who has evaded this, purely cause dragging Mitch into selfies is nearly impossible

Alex keeps hers as a nice pic from before her parents passed away; specifically, a pic of her mom helping her stay steady on her first motor bike. That’s her forever background, it WILL stay on every phone she ever owns

Clover’s definitely changes every now and then too. It’s always some sort of gothic imagery, though it’s usually something vaguely puppet/marionette based. There’s been some funky arts she’s made using spiderwebs patterns as marionette strings though.

15. what part of your oc’s development took you by surprise?

for Ian... this probably isn't what this is talking about, but younger laguz would just be so caught off guard by the whole direction of Ian today. Music + Loyalty to loved ones has always been a huge aspect of his character, but it was a lot more... stoic back in the day when I first made him. Sorta like an anti-social anti-hero tbh. He got friendlier when i fleshed him out a bit more, but it really wasn't till SC that I decided to make him like... FRIENDLY friendly. so.

Clover's an easy answer; that friendship with Anita sure was not something I saw coming. Didn't think goofy ball of chaos was gonna be close with someone like Anita, but alas, that sure happened. and that sure effected a lot of what I thought about doing with Clover in Phantom Manor, back when I expected Phantom Manor to be a proper thing.

Leone and Alex though, I don't think I have an answer here for em? They have not really had enough RP opportunities for the sort of character development I wouldn't just be able to plan out on my own and thus they don't have anything that's reatly surprised me? not that i can think of anyways.

22. if your oc has scars, where are they and how did they get them?

Clover wouldn't have have any sorts of serious, long-lasting scars. It's not super unusual for her to have a few cut-scars on her hands from getting snapped by puppetry wiring or some artistic accidents, but nothing that wouldn't heal up fine and be gone for good in a week or two.

Ian wouldn't really have any sort of scar either; the guy doesn't really get up to anything that'd lead to scars, so..

Alex definitely has a few on her though; nothing super serious though. One mark from a bike-crash when she was first learning to drive motorbikes, a bruise or two earned from slipping while rock-climbing that doesn't hurt anymore but is just kinda still there, ect ect.

Leone definitely has some battle scars; the boy wants to live life as a hero in an apocolyptic world, which leads to all sorts of scraps, so of course that sometimes leads to some permanent scars. You'd rarely get to see 'em since he tends to keep himself dressed pretty modestly most of the time, but he's got a ood few scars all over himself

32. what is a justification your oc uses for their bad choices that they don’t really believe themselves?

Clover's the easiest answer ever here! Attention. She's not a dumb gal, deep-down she knows the realistically, that's an awful reason for a lot of her stupid actions. She knows it's stupid and a bad idea. But also this girl is so attention starved that she simply decides she does not care.

Ian's a tough call cause he doesn't excuse much? He just... Does. He acts without thinking, but he's honestly well aware that's not always great. Nine times outta ten, he isn't gonna try to excuse stupid decisions he makes once he realizes it's a bad choice, so...

Alex's consistent bad decision would have to be alcoholism, so her personal excuse is a method of coping without having to dump her problems on others. life's rough, we all need something to take the edge off, and she sure as hell has a lot on her plate, so she isn't wrong that she needs something to help her destress. But not all coping methods are healthy, so...

Leone's bad decisions tend to come from biting off more then he can chew and take things on more solo then he should, cause he feels very inferior to the folks he's closest with and very much does not wanna be second-fiddle in a world that needs top-tier fighters to help it out, so... His excuse for that stuff deep down is pretty "I need to work up to being able to handle stuff as effectively and independently as possible to live up to the exepctations I've set on myself" but that's the side he actually believes. "I can definitely do it myself so it's fine" is the excuse that he doesn't 100% believe but will keep telling himself anyways

[shiro-0197]

You're so sweet what?? I'd write you a song too but I somehow suck at stringing melodies together 😣😣 they sound so awkward, I wish I had the talent to write songs :]

omg I remember that moment!! I was so shooketh, like damn, he's pretty strong owo, but omg you're just brilliant, don't be surprised :P I'm so proud to be your friend 😣💖 and I'm so proud of you in general. You're just all the good things rolled into one. Sweet? Soft? Adorable as fuck? A total genius? Yes—

Blondes are geniuses. I Stan. Oops, it kinda seems like you're my type, sir— kindly marry me? Skjdksjsks I think even despite the headaches and stuff, you're so intelligent, and i'm in awe of you, truly. You are one smart cookie :> (did you see what I did there? :P)

3 o clock? XD he's up at the oddest times, just like I am ✌️ my sleep schedule? ✨ Nonexistent ✨ Omg yes that would be such a good idea!! Please send me a pic if you do!! I'd love to see it. I draw bunny ears for my BTS bias, Jungkook, pretty often, because he loves joking around on his live streams and saying he's actually a rabbit and not a human (aight babe, so you're a furry—) but it's pretty cute >.<

I've had the weirdest obsession with catpeople recently 😔IDEK why tho the memes are cringey asf sjhssjak.

Yeah she's a firecracker, and she runs hot and cold. Sometimes she's the sweetest, and other times she's like this; 😶😶😶😶

I didn't like her either. Stuff got so explicit when she was on screen I had to fast forward it all xD but yeah every single character was so well thought out. I didn't expect to love Arisu as much as I do, because he was such a slob in the beginning, but I love how he's gone through character development. Aaah okok!! I love AOT so I was just curious hehe.

A guy who would help me?? Skin my useless board?? Were you?? Made for me?? 😔🤚 Tho those mfs better watch out because I'm scary when I'm angry.

nooo awww that's so cute. Picturing you smiling?? Serotonin📈📈📈 I usually wait till I'm free before I reply, and when I did it at Abigail's house she peeked over my shoulder and was like "omg such long messages, you must really love him" (I do indeed love you very much! and, if the messages are too long feel free to shorten them, idm 👉👈💖)

Thank you for the rec!! I'm gonna listen to it now. I love you too, my precious Shiro. Sleep well, sweet dreams. <333

—a tired individual

Relatable, I tried to do something in LMMS, but I have absolutely no knowledge in music theory and etc😭😭

Me too, I was like... sir?!?!??

Girl🥺🥺 I'm also vv honored to be your friend!!! Cuz like hello you're so awesome, you're smart and sweet and responsible and hardworking and !!!!!!!!!!!

Dnnsjrjsj when's our wedding🤨😻? Heheh I'm glad you think that🥺 tbh I would admit that if it werent for the fact that I cant stand history xd

Hahah, yeah! What's bothering me is that like... aren't you guys supposed to wake up early? Kuro wakes up at 6 am even though his bedtime ranges from 10pm to 5am, and there is absolutely no indicator of what's it gonna be tonight. If you'd only see his eye circles ;-;

Will do!!! Also, that's funny-- I always say I'm a chicken for absolutely no reason. They're so pretty? And tasty- ok I am so sorry XD

IM GONNA FIGHT HER CUZ NP WAY HES MINE🤬🤬🤬 WKKRKSKDKAKZK IM KIDDING KIDDING JQJFJSJDJ

True true, I watched those scenes like "ma'am.... pls". Also what she did to Chota was a bitch move, cuz she expected him to choose her because she let him fuck her🤨😡

True, Arisu wasnt the best character at first, but then I saw how damn good he was at strategies, and I was like. Goodbye😍

I'm also pretty intimidating on my own, and when I'm angry I'm like "😶" and my friends told me that I look like an angel of death I was like🤨🤨🤨🤨 that was funny XD

Hehehhe I love you too!!<33 Idk why I always feel embarrased when people see my messages, even though they're completely normal, like "omg you saw me message someone😩😩😩" I have no idea why that happens XD (trust me, I always try my best to fully respond to everything, because I'll be damned if I skip something, and if I do its mostly because I probably miss or forget to😔)

I hope you liked it!! It's my favorite song from them, alongside Never Meant To Know. Their songs are so good. Too bad I dont understand what they're about most of the time... that's why I love them, their lyrics confuse me bit they sound so good, and I really respect them for creating something like that. Cuz I could NEVER😭😩

I love you so much!! Thank you for your message<33💕💘💕💖💓💓💘💞💝💞💘💓💖💕💕💘💓

[escarlatafox]

whispers for the 'send you a series' meme, i'm tempted to just be Unoriginal and say kung fu panda, but if you'd rather something else, i'm seeing a lot of steven universe around here jfjfiea

Masha ily. You know that, right? :D

Kung Fu Panda:

Favourite character: Who else but Shifu? XD

Second favourite character: It might actually be Po

Least favourite character: Hard to think of a least favourite character. If we ONLY count the main cast + the villains in the movies and exclude any other minor characters, then I’d say Kai maybe? Just wasn’t as impactful to me as the other characters/villains. Or if we include minor characters I might say the hugging panda from the third movie because the gag and his character didn’t really add much. Also, I’ve already spoken about this in the past, possibly more than once, but back when I was a child upon watching the first movie, my answer to this question would actually be Ping. Suffice it to say, my opinion on him changed a LOT. XD

The character I’m most like: Maybe I am like Po in some ways. At my core, I’m a fangirl lol. And I like food :O

Favourite pairing: Don’t really have any ships. Crane and the girl from that one short tho. Like idk if I’d want them to get together, maybe not now that I think about it. But it would be nice to see them interact more.

Least favourite pairing: HAH. Let’s just say I really hate what Legends of Awesomeness decided to do with Shifu in the shipping realm and leave it at that. :P

Favourite moment: YOU’RE GONNA MAKE ME CHOOSE? There’s no way. I could only list off notable ones. Okay, if we narrow it down to non-Shifu moments, off the top of my head, you obviously have the iconic cannonball scene at the end of kung fu panda 2, and in the THIRD movie I love love love how when Po is in the spirit realm and he says “turns out... I’m all of them” and the music swells and the framing and the scenery is just. so gorgeous . I love. So much. If I sat here thinking too long I’d probably start recapping all the movies SO since I’ve thrown those two out there I’ll cut myself off before I get too out of hand. XD

Rating out of 10: First movie is just 10/10 for me. It’s my favourite movie, not just in the franchise but like, probably ever among movies in general, and just about every moment and scene feels like home when I watch it. The trio of movies I’d then put at probably around 9/10.

Steven Universe:

Favourite character: I can now say with confidence that it is Steven Universe.

The people who liked Steven “before it was cool” certainly have bragging rights, because I was one of those people who failed to find myself among them, as I lacked the foresight, or... future vision for it. :P. At first, in the very early days, I didn’t really care for Steven. It’s often very easy to gloss over a protagonist, and, in my case, not truly appreciate what’s great in a character like early-days Steven, or even Po. Now, Steven and Po are, naturally, quite distinct characters in their distinct franchises but there are certainly parallels that can be drawn, not only in their character but how I initially felt towards them. By asking for both fandoms in the one ask, I feel like you’ve given me the opportunity to speak about this, which has been idly on my mind every so often. XDBoth Steven and Po are the protagonist of the franchise they’re in. They’re both fond of food, they both start out needing training and then develop incredible skills along the way until they become one of, if not the most powerful in the cast. They’re both generally very easygoing, excitable, enthusiastic, FRIENDLY, and generally kind. At the start of their journeys, there’s a lot of focus on how much they’re lacking in skills and abilities, how difficult it is for them to accomplish even the basics. They both gotta Save The World, whether it be more in the sense of the universe as a whole or China.And the thing is I had the same issue with Po as I did with early-days Steven; I didn’t realise how great Po is. I was just a little too dismissive. With time, (and I’m talking around the point where I actually entered the fandom after the second movie was out, so it was mostly kid me who is guilty of not recognising Po’s greatness) I grew to realise just how cool Po is, to truly appreciate his genuine enthusiasm and excitement and also utmost reverence and admiration of kung fu. I simply Expected Po’s character to be less than it was, which is what caused the oversight. But Po is honestly so fantastic and deserves every last bit of love the fandom has to offer him. Also, seeing his potential and him reaching his potential is so damn epic. See: his “turns out, I’m all of them” quote/scene I mentioned earlier.So to bring things back to Steven, whose character arc nonetheless has its VERY stark differences from Po’s, it was around when Steven managed to calm down and stop the cluster that it fully registered in my mind how fantastic and amazing he is and how much I appreciate his character. In fact, it was a little earlier than that. Pretty sure I hadn’t actually started watching the show yet when Sadie’s Song aired, but I was getting all the deets secondhand on my dashboard and I loved what I heard and saw in gifs/pics. A boy who just wants to perform and dance around on stage in heels and a gorgeous outfit to boot (I really liked the thought of trans girl Steven at the time tbh, which was being thrown about on my dashboard back then, though of course that’s not the path the show decided to go down, so he/him it is...!). He had my full support. And THEN when he calmed the cluster down like that... (and I think I was probably watching the show at that point?) I just, loved his incredible talent to reach out to others and HELP them, I loved his magical gem abilities and how he always seemed to be triumphing against the odds, and as the show progressed his feats only started getting more and more impressive. I absolutely noticed how much responsibilities he’d started forcing onto himself, how he was trying to manage everyone and be an adult to all the adults in his life, I was kind of intrigued by how much he was shouldering, and it struck me that he had developed an Atlas Personality long, long before he was ever listed as an example of it on the wikipedia page. I simply adored Steven and his placement in the show and everything.He’s also completely ACING things as usual in the movie too.And then Steven Universe Future hit, and oh boy, that’s a whole other story. Steven truly emerged as the forefront seeing as the focus was now unrelentingly on him and his issues. What initially got me really hooked as well, was the inherent shock and intrigue of seeing a character who would usually always do the right thing, who always seemed to know what was best for everyone, who always seemed to be able to read a situation and understand who needed help and then reaching out and offering them help... not only completely failing to recognise that HE was the source of a given problem (see: the pink dome rapidly closing in), but to actively dig himself deeper by being convinced SOMEONE ELSE was at fault, and whirling around and trying to pin it all on them. Before Steven whirled around to point at Lars, there was absolutely no doubt in my mind that he was about to be like “guys, you know what? I think I’m causing this - I think I have some stuff going on” LOL NOPE. And that was only the tip of the ice berg. Steven had nowhere else to go but down, and boy, down did he go until he hit rock bottom, pulled out a shovel and started digging.

Second favourite character: Hard to say. I do know that I am crazy about the zircons (I mean c’mon - lawyers!). I was crazy about Blue Pearl when we first saw her too. My answer might’ve been Aquamarine or even Eyeball if it wasn’t for Steven Universe Future. Seeing more of them just kinda made me go “ok you know what, yeah this isn’t really what I expected and they’re not actually really my thing after all.” I reeeeally don’t know. Steven Universe has such a stellar cast of great characters. Steven Universe Future also kinda threw me off Spinel, but obviously Spinel is A+ as well.

Least favourite character: I don’t really care about Lapis. She just kind of lost appeal as a character to me and I never really understood her I guess. I was also never fond of the diamonds... because you know, discourse, and like, the discourse kind of has a point. But after Steven Universe Future I might invest more in trying to understand their positioning in the show a little more, now with the confirmation that Steven never did actually forgive them. I completely wrote-off White Diamond’s seemingly quick turnaround for the longest time and honestly never bought it and felt it was WAY too easy and rushed/forced. But I came to an internal understanding quite recently and I THINK I finally get what the show meant there so I think I can buy it now and find it believable at last, which is nice. So don’t quote me and don’t crucify me, but I might warm up to the diamonds a Little.

The character I’m most like: omg. There’s so many characters idk who is most like me hahaha

Favourite pairing: Connverse. Connie kissing Steven on the cheek in the movie made me SO pleased, and I can say this is my favourite pairing if only because the prospect of it not working out and instead going up in flames and not actually having a good resolution - which is a threat that felt so very real during Steven Universe Future - was deeply, DEEPLY upsetting to me. Like I didn’t care because I’d been taking it for GRANTED, but the moment anyone suggested, with alarming plausibility that they may split up or whatever, I was immediately on edge like “NO NO NO NO NO”.

Least favourite pairing: Stevinel. Stevidot. Just, any ship with Steven and any of the gems is an instant no from me. D:

Favourite moment: omggg. Again, there are simply way too many, so no answer I give here can or will be definitive. So I’ll simply state my love for when Steven is singing Change and Spinel yeets him in the sky and there’s the stellar animation where he goes “You can make it different... You can make it right! You can make it better! We don’t have to fight!”

Rating out of 10: I’d probably give it a 9/10, if only because, look. There are a LOT of shows out there. There are a lot of pieces of media I’m into and have watched. And Steven Universe is just. It’s good. Even when I like another piece of media MORE than Steven Universe, I can still more than readily acknowledge when/if SU has vastly superior writing. And it usually does. The only thing stopping me from giving it a 10/10 is because for the vast majority of SU’s existence I was mainly only ever a passive watcher/fan and/or got secondhand knowledge (closer to the start of it airing), so it lacks that fundamental closeness to my heart that something like Kung Fu Panda has. (Though I got way more close to it during SUF, as my reblogs can attest to LOL). The other thing stopping it from hitting that 10/10 is there are things I still take issue with, like how the Rose=Pink reveal undermines Pearl’s character (the “rebellion” aspect) and casts an EXTREMELY uncomfortable light on Pearl being in love with Rose. Yes, the show already showed us that Pearl’s obsession with Rose is unhealthy and problematised it. But regardless of how problematised it already was, I’m just not comfortable with a former slave being shown as being in love with their former master at all. What does that add, realistically? There are other valid criticisms that have been pointed out, namely how aspects of the show such as Sugilite’s role in Coach Steven do fail its Black audience. That undercurrent is there and it’s unfortunate.

[pyropsychiccollector]

Why I ship Natza

            This was the first pic that introduced me to Fairy Tail. I came across it on a random anime page on Facebook that posted memes. Basically, Erza heavily resembled Kushina from the Naruto series, and Kushina was and is one of my fav characters. So, I decided to do some light research on the series I’d never seen before. Just test the waters, stick my toes in. Who knew if I’d like it?

            … Well, two years later, I’m still drowning in it, but that’s neither here nor there. lol At first I just bothered learning some of the rules and lore of the FT universe; but pretty soon I started turning my attention to ships, not even a few episodes in. I cheated a bit and Googled a search for ships for Erza, ‘cause I didn’t know if I’d like any other ships. Surprisingly, the first one I encountered was Natza, and not Jerza, which you’d expect because of its status in the fandom as a whole. Just a total shot in the dark, but I went with it to see if I’d like it.

            … I cheated some more, however. Rather than watch from the beginning and see how it’d develop, I jumped to the end (the big moments in ToH, Battle for Fairy Tail, and Oracion Seis) to see how they looked together. I did like what I observed, so I went back and watched the earlier stuff to observe more of the development. I’m kinda thorough like that. If I ship or like something, I want strong reasons for it – likewise if I dislike something.

            Put simply, the bond between Natsu and Erza is one of the strongest ones I’ve had the pleasure of observing and analyzing. They lived as guildmates for years, building up their friendship. Well, them *and* Gray, really. But as he’s structured as a character, Gray’s values clash with them a little bit, so he’s prone to butt heads with them – especially Natsu. Point being, this isn’t a spontaneous romance like Nalu would have to be, if it ever happened. Some fans mistake this bond as one that siblings would have, and they even try to claim canon has “stated” as such, but what really happens is that those fans make assumptions about the relationship, and that’s probably in part because of their own experiences with anime and manga.

            But they’re not siblings. And nothing that we’ve been shown indicates they think of themselves as siblings. Instead, we get an unwavering faith between two warriors. Erza has declared Natsu will surpass her one day, while Natsu didn’t bat an eye when Erza went up against 100 monsters, having confidence she could take care of them easily. At times, they are concerned for one another. Natsu was worried when Erza tanked a blast from a Jupiter Cannon; when she was poisoned by Cobra; when she fell from Ajeel’s ship after winning the battle. He even got worked up when Jellal not only hurt Erza physically, but wounded her emotionally, making her *cry*. Very rarely does Natsu get worked up over his friends *crying*, and then keep that rage when a tormentor returns to life. On the other side, Erza feared if Natsu would be too weak to fight Jellal; she was concerned when he went off to confront Zero on his own; she was concerned when he, Mira, and Wendy gave no indication of how the Rescue Lucy operation was going during the GMG.

            But notably, over time, you can see the moments of worry and concern decrease. The bond, the trust gets stronger. Even as the enemies get more powerful, they have more faith in each other. It’s not blind faith; but a good, strong faith is a powerful foundation for any relationship. Erza doesn’t need Natsu to be there to hold her hand and rescue her from captors; they have each other’s back in a fight, and a relationship doesn’t get more equal than that. Despite his own feelings toward Jellal, Natsu sets them aside because Erza is distraught when the Council arrests him after the incident with Nirvana. And it’s really too bad we never got closure between Natsu, Jellal, and Erza… though, I suppose if Mashima did that, Jerza’s ship would have sunk. … Or sustained a massive hole, enough to take on a ton of water. XD When Fairy Tail disbands, Natsu leaves after only giving Lucy a note; and he doesn’t send Erza letters. But all the same, they, and the rest of FT for that matter, come back together without many accusations thrown around. Natsu, for his part, knew he’d see all of them again, but for Erza not to get upset like Lucy did, it speaks of an equally strong faith that she’d see him again. And the fact she hugged him after they celebrated Avatar’s defeat, that’s a clear sign she missed him.  

            One moment that particularly symbolizes Erza’s confidence and faith in Natsu: the time when she stopped everyone from going after him, after he raced to go fight Zeref. Gray, ever the realist, accused her of overestimating Natsu, but Erza’s quick to turn it around and accuse Gray of not believing in Natsu. She trusts in Natsu’s plan, even with Zeref being the leader of Alvarez, the boogeyman of Ishgar, and a supposed immortal. That’s a strong, powerful faith. And she probably would have throttled Natsu if she found out he almost threw his life away by trying to kill Zeref; it would’ve been a perfect opportunity to call him out on hypocrisy, considering he chided her for trying to throw her life away.

            Aside from all the heavy stuff, they really do balance each other out. Erza’s a source of maturity in Natsu’s life. Erza’s one of the main people responsible for Natsu maturing as much as he did – other people being Gildarts, Makarov, and perhaps Macao. And Natsu gets Erza to come out of her stern, authoritarian shell. She’s more fun-loving, though she will kick your ass if you mess with her cake. She also openly cares for her guildmates, at least moreso than when she maintained a distance with everyone because of her past with Jellal. In essence, she’s come to learn that they all protect her just as much as she protects them. And Natsu’s voice is frequently one she hears in her head…

            Is Natsu intimated by Erza? Comically showing fear when she appears, like after they beat Avatar? Yeah, but that “fear” is only skin-deep. Brought on by experiences of her kicking his ass and keeping him in line. If he was truly frightened of her, as some Nalu/Jerza fans claim, he wouldn’t interact with her, much less so casually. He might not even care for her as much as he does. And if she only saw him as a nuisance, likewise, she wouldn’t believe so fervently that he will surpass her one day. She wouldn’t look upon him with such love and admiration for his spectacular feats, like beating that god.

            It’s a shame canon doesn’t do more to confirm what *we* see, but honestly, I still maintain we don’t “need” the confirmation as much as the Nalu and Jerza ships do. Because Natza is one of those ships with such rich development, that it can go without saying. Natza even has the potential of “spontaneously” happening, after all they’ve been through – one day they’re friends, the next, they’re in bed together. Or the baths. Or… anywhere… Fanfiction tends to complete the development into a romantic ship and fill in the gaps, so really, we’re not so bad off as most “crackships.” We’ve got a helluva lot more going for us in the canon material than most actual crackships.

            Natza is fiery, passionate, balanced, developed, and wholesome. Anyone says otherwise, they can fight me~

Been a while since I did any kind of essay on Natza. I've pretty much said all of this before, but a review never hurts.

[dontdowhatisayandnobodygetshurt]

Take 2... ODD NUMBERS

Em you absolute MADWOMAN I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THANK YOU X’D X’D

THIS IS GONNA BE ALL THE ODD NUMBERS FROM THIS POST (feel free to still send even ones in pFFFFffffFFFt) so I’m putting it under the cut!! Gonna be looong!! If you wanna learn random stuff about The Matt, click read more. :P

1.if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?

Read: Bird by Crystal Chan. Watch: Sense8. Listen to: this song.

3.three songs that you connect with right now.

this - this - this

5.have you taken someones virginity?

Nope. Not… yet? XD

7.if you could, would you take back your last kiss?

Haven’t had a proper one yet, unfortunately.

9.what was the last concert you saw?

Never been to one, too much noise and flashing lights and people = complete sensory overload and panic attack. Cinemas are bad enough. XD BUT I would be pretty tempted to see Coldplay live!!

11.do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

Sweet Cheesus yes please.

13.a song you’d listen to during soft/slow/passionate sex?

this :D jk jk if it was somebody I rlly cared about it would be my favourite song probably

15.do you want to have kids? How many?

*hYsTeRiCaL lAuGhTeR* buddy I can barely take care of my own impulsive ass let alone a kid. But I’m never one to say never, so… I really don’t know. I’m not gonna be the one getting knocked up though, so adoption or… something else, depending on my eventual partner’s gender.

17.do you miss anyone from your past?

Yes. The two people I really miss though were slowly killing me so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ better off!!

19.have you ever broken someone’s heart?

I sure hope not! D:

21.have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

1) Haven’t had one yet :’) 2) I really really hope I never make them cry, I’ll never intend to. D’:

23.favourite weather?

A nice, cloudy, kinda chilly day with steady rain.

25.do you wanna get married?

Honestly I really don’t mind either way so it’ll depend 100% on my partner. If they want to, sure!! If they don’t, I won’t care. I do have this thing though where I tend to pass out if I stand still for a long amount of time so that’ll be… interesting. X’D my only thing will be that I want the ring bearer to be either dressed up as a Hobbit or to be a v good dog so those are my only conditions to marriage 😂😂😂

27.what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?

Frodo reaction memes. X’D

29.what’s your favorite pasta dish?

Ravioli is pretty hecking good! I’m getting back into pasta recently, I never used to like it bc we used to have gluten pasta and it made me feel sick. But now I can find out which pastas I like!!! :’DDDDD

31.what’s your favorite eye color?

Blue eyes are stunning. It’s funny, my Mum has blue eyes and I’m so bitter that I didn’t inherit them. :((( But rlly all eye colours can be super pretty!!

33.are you a morning person?

Yes in the fact that I LOVE mornings. I can be grumpy first thing sometimes when I’m still half asleep but I get really happy and energetic from overtiredness lmao quickly!! :DDDD

35.what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

My boots. I’ve had them forever and I don’t own any other shoes, apart from some runners that are still practically brand new bc I never wear them. XD

37.tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

Okay so normally when I’m awake at 3AM it’s one of 3 scenarios: 1) I got fixated on something and don’t know how much time has passed, or 2) my insomnia has flared up yet again and I am this close to having a mental breakdown because I’m so tired, or 3) I got overtired and now act pretty much drunk and have too much energy to go to sleep. One time I sent Enna three separate rambly stupid asks about her OCs and I was so tired that the next morning I remembered I sent them but I couldn’t remember anything I said. She was super sweet about it. The end. X’D

39.who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?

My Dad. We both love the stars. We were also talking about Pokemon and DND. XD

41.do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?

I don’t particularly like it, I prefer just downloading songs now. Mainly because I don’t like a lot of songs from the same band and buying a whole CD or record just for ONE song that I like on it is… meh. XD The last one I bought was an Ed Sheeran CD and it was for my mum.

43.what are your favorite memes of the year so far

I haven’t found any yet that really grab me, we’ll see. X’D

45.what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?

I got my Dad a One Direction calendar once. We both hated One Direction. (When the cashier gave 12-year-old me that kind of ‘stupid teenaged girl in love with a boy band’ look I stared right back at her and told her with a straight face we were going to light it on fire. I’ve never seen anyone look so pleasantly surprised in my entire life.) My Dad loooved it. X’DI asked my Dad for a toothpick a week before my birthday once and he didn’t have one. Guess what my “present” was that year. Guess. XD

47.describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

V tol and thoughtful and pretty and talented and nice and spams me and sends me pics of cute dogs occasionally. 11/10 good fren, would befren again. :’)

49.is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?

Yup. Should be writing 2 things and maybe doing something else but idk if I should do the thing or not so. Procrastination it is. :))))

51.what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

Any mutual of mine who just sends me nice messages or asks me stuff warms my heart so much. And anyone who has ever shown interest in my OCs has my eternal gratitude, if y’all ever need a kidney you caN HAVE MINE.

53.what’s some of your favorite album art?

Literally anything Coldplay has ever had ever.

55.do you like concept albums? which ones?

They sound pretty cool but I don’t think I have any favourites…?? Idk.

57.list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

This one (This one. This one.

59.what do you do when you’re sad?

Isolate myself + throw love at my online friends so hopefully they don’t feel like I do. Also drink warm drinks and reading and spending time with my pets bc they always help.

61.what was the best (non-romantic) night you’ve had?

I read this as sex thing wooPS. X’D Best non-romantic night I’ve ever had.. hmm… the night we got our German Shepherd. It was Good Friday. We’d finally gotten our puppy. We stayed up super late watching her toddle around and fall asleep on us. One of my absolute favourite memories. :’D

63.what’s the best piece of advice you ever received?

“You will only find your special someone when you are perfectly happy with the idea of being single forever. You can only be in a comfortable and loving relationship with somebody else when you are in a comfortable and loving relationship with yourself.”

65.what’s your secret dream?

Be in a Marvel movie one day. ^-^” oof

67.three songs that remind you of the person who sends this one

The only things that come to mind are P!nk songs ASDFGHJKL XD

69.three last songs you listened to

Pffft the songs I put on this thing X’D

71.have you ever had a friends with benefits?

Nope but I’d be open to the idea! (i may even have plans with one fren lmao)

73.Is there anyone you would die for?

My family (friends included), my pets, what’s right: if the world could be magically fixed but I had to die I’d do it on the spot.

75.do you give out second chances too easily?

I used to. But then I used up all my second chances on people who didn’t deserve them. Normally if somebody really seriously hurts me, I give them one more chance and make it very clear for them to please not do that particular thing again. Everyone makes mistakes, I get that. But if they do that exact same thing again, I’m normally gone. I’m done with waiting around and getting hurt over and over just to “be a good friend.” That’s not being a friend, that’s being a doormat/punching bag.

77.is this year the best year of your life?

So far, nope. We’ll see though!!! :DDDDD

79.who/what was your last dream about?

I think it was about Shameless?? I heard there was a trans character so I watched just those clips and I think I dreamt about it. X’D

Thank you so much for asking, Em!! ^____^

[amidalogicdive]

I was tagged by @geekgoddess813 who was interested in hearing what I would say lol. IDK why, I'm such a pleb asdfghjkl  XD  hahaha! But, I did it for you!

Instructions:

To celebrate a year of FFXV and the end of the first year of updates, let’s spread the FFXV love! I haven’t seen a tag meme like this for FFXV yet, so I decided to make one. If you see this and want to, copy/paste this list and share what your favorite things about FFXV are.

Favorite Chocobro:

Oh, my god, this isn’t fair, so I can’t say Nyx?! Lol, ok no seriously.  If Noctis counts, he’s my favorite. If it has to be one of the other three, it would be Ignis. I’ve always loved Ignis and (fun fact) before I was a huge NyxNoct shipper, I was an Ignoct shipper. If ya look back I have a few Ignoct fics...that I still need to finish.  >.<

Favorite Guest Party Member (including Ravus and Libertus from DLC):

Oh damn, this is hard. This is really hard, I’ve deleted my response like three times cuz I keep on going ‘oh but what about…’ Ugh, do I have to pick, can I plead the fifth? Ugh fine…

Ravus - Because I loved getting more backstory on him. This poor boy was so wronged, and while he did come off as an ass, everything he was doing was for Luna.

Aranea - Girl got some sass and I love it, she was fun to listen too and I’m glad she was tossed into a DLC as a guest party member. We needed more Aranea in FFXV

Cor - Damn son, I love this man here. I need to know more, I want more backstory. Seriously, he got the respect of Gilgamesh!! GILGAMESH TALKS ABOUT THIS LITTLE IMMORTAL LION! *flails*

Yeah, I couldn’t pick  :P

Favorite Minor Character(s):

Can I pick two? CAN I?! Biggs and Wedge - Ok ok, they weren’t in it a lot but I loved them. They were funny and their loyalty to Aranea was just, ugh. I really liked them and I wanted more of their back and forth, especially with Aranea lol. When she asked them to drive a train into a daemon-infested city - which was basically a suicide mission for all they knew and they are just like, oh that's all? Yes boys, yes!  

Favorite Villain:

This is so easy, frikin Ardyn ‘Trash Jesus’ Izunia. What, you didn’t hear me, let me repeat: ARDYN ‘TRASH JESUS’ IZUNIA. Ok, let me explain something here. This boy, this BOY WAS SO WRONGED. He did everything that was asked of him, and what happens? He gets fucked over by his brother, the crystal changes his mind and the gods - not only do they turn against him, but they won’t even let him pass on into the afterlife. Dragonbutt needs to get some balls, but damn son, you did nothing! You caused this problem to happen!

This man had 2000 years of suffering, hatred, and betrayal built up inside of him and he went off the deep end. Like he said, it wasn’t even about Noctis. He was just the poor sap that was born to be the King of Light. This was revenge against a crystal that denied him and the gods that turned their back on him. And you can see it, you can see he’s still hurting, you can see there is a good man that’s been tainted by thousands of years of torment. When he tells his story to Noct, you can see the pain, and when Noct beats him, you can see that he thinks Noct’s going to do the same thing the Gods, Crystal and his brother did. Erase him. I love this trashy man, and I can’t wait for this DLC.

Favorite Kingsglaive Character:

No Surprise: Nyx. Do I really need to explain why? He’s an amazing, cocksure, humble, hurting little ball of fire that fights like the daemons and just makes my heart do weird things in my chest. This man is so frikin badass, even the Kings had to bow down to him and let him take charge. This dry sense of humor and self-sacrificing nature is just asdfghjkl and though all of it he never forgot who he was and what he was fighting for. Like he said, his life means nothing but giving a future to those who wanna see it is everything. Oh, baby, your life is everything, and he deserved better, damn it.

And don’t even get me talking about the fact that three, THREE frikin people put on that ring (four of you count Luche, but eh…) and all three asked the Kings for their strength and two of them for sure (Nyx and Ignis) offered to sacrifice their life and only NYX FRIKIN DIED.

No, don’t get me started - cuz we are talking more salt then the dead sea here…  >.<

Favorite Astral/Divine Being:

Funny thing, I have always loved Shiva since like FFVIII. She’s my Queen, I bow down to her… but before I realized that Gentiana was Shiva, I was in love with Gentiana. When I saw her in clips before the game came out I was thinking: Woman I don’t know who you are, or what your role is, but please I love you. Her being Shiva, my Queen, my everything… that just made it even better. Lol, so obviously - Shiva.

Favorite Character Overall:

Noctis. He is a very self-sacrificing and strong character who goes through a lot and honestly, finds his courage and self-worth. I think he had a lot of issues before, I think he was depressed and didn’t feel like he was right for the throne, and he was just playing a part. Once he was out there, once he realized what had happened and that he was now King, things changed. He because braver, and stronger. He started putting his trust in others as much as they put their trust in him. He realized that he didn’t have to do things and save people for the recognition, just doing was enough. You can see the impact that it had in comrades, where people (just random NPCs) talk about a boy or four boys in black who saved them, or helped fix their car or did some random act for them and how much it meant. He goes from a kinda sheltered boy to a King who knows what sacrifice is. I love his change, and how he keeps going. Like he told Iggy, they can’t stop, they have to keep going or everyone who sacrificed their lives for him, it would be pointless.

Noct is a good boy.  :3

Favorite Weapon:

Nyx kukri that you get in Insomnia, oh don’t act like you’re surprised lol. Noctis always has them on him and I use them a lot.

Favorite Location:

Omg, so many people are gonna disagree and be like: What?! *flails* - I like Altissia lol. It was confusing at first, but now I know my way around pretty well, and I love the 3x exp from the hotel.  >.>

And I love the arena and gambling lol, and that was the first time I head the whole “this place is so romantic” “And you're here with us, all three of us, you are a lucky man” and about died. Lol

Favourite Quest/Questline/Hunt:

The fishing questline. Hush, don’t laugh at me… I honestly really love fishing in this game and I loved the fishing questline with Navyth.

Favorite Boss:

Ardyn, lol. He’s such a shit and I love to listen to him shit talk Noctis as they fight. Ifrit was a good fight too, so kudos to that fiery SOB. lol

Favorite Monster/Monster Family/etc:

Tonberry, I’ve always loved Tonberry with their cute little lanterns and their stabby frikin knifes. They are small, cute and ruthless. It's like that scene in Monty Python and the Holy Grail “Aww it's just a little Bunny Rabbit…. RUN AWAY RUN AWAY!!”  Yeah, Tonberry!  :D

Oh, and Coeurls. Just cuz I like cats and much respect for something that can one-shot me with lightning from its whiskers lol.

Favorite Song:

Please like I can pick just one… So like here are my top whatever:

Nox Aeterna: So short but so much emotion. Nox Divina: Badass summoning music, yes, please! Noctis: It was not what I was expecting, and it was a very pleasant surprise!   Prayer De Luna: This is just asdfghjkl she’s got a beautiful theme and ya gotta respect it. Dewdrops at Dawn: So beautiful, simple and just all the feels. Just makes me think of the people seeing the sunrise after such a long time, or for the first time for some… and realizing what Noct gave up for them. Somnus: The original, the beauty that it is. This song is a godsend, I love it and I love her voice.

Favorite Boss Theme:

Does Somnus Ultima count? I mean its basically the second part of the... fight? Damn, I love that song! Ok if not, Magna Insomnia is epic, and love it. Also, Hellfire, damn that opening (the first like 18 seconds) sounds so ominous like wtf did I get myself into here lol.

But honestly, all around this soundtrack and all of the music is epic - honestly, there is no song I hate, except maybe Stand By Me - but only because it makes me FEEL THINGS PPL SJHAFKLHSJ!! Just kidding I love it too. ;-;

Favorite Non-Episode DLC/Update/Event:

Assassin’s Festival was awesome and I want them to put the whole roof thing into Lestallum full time so we can run up there and have fun lol. Think of all the NPC’s and shit they could put up there and quests they could add. Yes, please lol.

Favorite Episode DLC:

Ugh, ok. It’s a toss-up. 

I love Episode Ignis because it adds so much to the story and the alternate endings, yes, please. I love that SE made the end of this game so transparent and said that the ending of the main game was simply an Alternate Reality, something that could have happened. Now they start tossing in all these other endings and you realize that one choice, one thing did differently could have changed the whole outcome of the game asdfghjkl. I know some don’t like it, but like Episode Ignis said: Possibilities.  And I love those possibilities.

That said - Episode Prompto, and him finally finding out who he was, dealing with it and coming to terms with it. Finally having the courage to tell his friends, look this is what I am. Not only to see them accept him but for him to accept himself… it was great!

Other Favorites of Note:

I love:

flying the Regalia, except when I crash and kill them all. 

hitting the breaks when Noctis is sitting on the trunk and seeing him getting all pissed off.  

the fishing and I need to catch them all. 

the shit talking they do while fighting

the new character switch during battle and the geeky things they do and say.

just driving around and listening to the soundtracks.

the pics that Prompto takes.

Idk, there is so much to list. I mean is it a perfect game? No. But do I love it and do I enjoy playing it? 100% Yes. 

Anyway, I sometimes like all the plot holes that they leave all over the place. Perfect for me to build a fic around and let my own imagination inspire me. I haven’t loved a Final Fantasy game like this in a long time, and I'm glad that I do. It made me meet some really nice people and fall into a perfect little life raft of feels that makes up the NyxNoct fandom!

So, let's see what y’all gotta say now. I tag (and you don’t have to do it lol especially if you already did!): @prettyprompto @aithilin @courtingdestruction @grimmvertigo @jazzraft @midnightpyres @rsasai @argent-the-moderately-useful @ghostl0rd @ignoctgirl @cardigan-carm @glaivenoct @nicolareed @nicrt @stylishchocobutt  @bezier-curve

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so i can absolutely just squeeze 50 replies into this right XD good luck finding yours! thanks for the support ♥

simphonics replied to your photoset

😍

i know right ;_; i’ll miss these two, but i already wrote more scenes for them for later ;)

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “Meanwhile, as I’ve been neglecting her, Connie has gotten quite far as...”

approve*. damn it fingers.

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “Meanwhile, as I’ve been neglecting her, Connie has gotten quite far as...”

All the filth, Annie, all of it. I approbe.

8D i’M THE QUEEN OF FILTH

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “O: *laughs* I can’t believe you wrecked me so good, Trellis! T: Well,...”

like FINE WINE

:o thats probably something trellis says abt herself all the time tbh

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “It’s another visiting day!”

iS IT TIME TO GET HYDRATED?????

nO SURPRISE IT AINT THEY HAV A NEW OBJECTIVE EVERY TIME ITS ALWAYS A SURPRISE LIKE WHATLL HAPPEN THIS TIME??? WE JUST DONT KNOW

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Meanwhile, as I’ve been neglecting her, Connie has gotten quite far as...”

bUT THIS IS SO GR8 ITS GOOD U PUBLISHED THESE BC THEY ARE ITALIAN CHEF KISS I LOV AND THE WORLD NEEDED TO SEE THIS

;___________________; i guess yea its time to stick to my tru dirty self

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Meanwhile, as I’ve been neglecting her, Connie has gotten quite far as...”

"""""forced"""""" with kindness ;)

for once yes

amixofpixels replied to your post “Hi! Once you get this share 6 facts about yourself and send it to your...”

I'd hug you and send you cherry tea, if I only knew where to get it.

i have cherry tea now xD the original obsession was cherry cinnamon, which actually doesn’t exist here...who knows why. but we got it in basically every supermarket over there?

simphonics replied to your photoset “And then he drank a serum and got really sad… S: What is wrong with...”

Aw poor Shine :(

i know ;_; he doesn’t need this and doesn’t deserve this fuck science stuff

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “It’s so good we came out here today, isn’t it? Oh, can you hear the...”

I meant Ficus, but hit enter instead of backspace. NNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “It’s so good we came out here today, isn’t it? Oh, can you hear the...”

Also, Snowdrift is me.

congratulations you have something in common with my um...berry siamese half favorite son??? (also the other half probably, in this case)

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “It’s so good we came out here today, isn’t it? Oh, can you hear the...”

AAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEE, you are never a disappointment and I've missed you on this one. However, I still got to chill with you on your hiding.

;__________; i might not be a disappointment to you because you are an ANGEL

buckleysims replied to your photoset “It’s so good we came out here today, isn’t it? Oh, can you hear the...”

You've never disappointed me with your sims! If you like to play/post berry sims, that's what matters. :)

shmdfbaksjfnakjfa THANK YOU!!! tbh this means a lot esp coming from you since your stuff is rly next level and i envy you for your skills XD

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “G: ARBHLLLLLLLBRLDHR!! S: *laughs* Please don’t fire me.”

technically ur getting WATERED..........

fU C C I NEVER SAW THIS????? TUMBLR WTH HIDING THE BEST DAMN COMMENT FROM ME literally this is my new best comment nomination

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “G: Are you sure this is safe, Shine? S: Very! I know that my...”

i sure hope his grandparents didnt get a leech to the privates

i d I E i dont think so

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset

thats some good cheering right there

always effective (except for that one time we dont talk about when they forgot how to boink...)

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “They might look terrifying, but they’re still so in love ♥”

are u shitting me aur needs to wear more llama head

he can wear more llama head for u but please not with a clippy shirt

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “G: Well, that’s a surprise, bro! You here! How’s it going, how’s the...”

dfgfkfdkffd i want a romance advisor shine too

you just generally want a shine admit it

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset

the only thing ur right in is that it RLY WAS THE DARK SOULS OF FICUS FRIDAYS BC IT WAS TOUGH AS SHIT BUT THE END RESULT WAS INCREDIBLY REWARDING AKA IT IS NOT SHITTY

SHHHHHHHHHHHH BUT ALSO DONT BUT ALSO SHHHHHH BUT ALSO THANK YOU im so ashamed every time i remember i freaked out for nothing smh @ that paysafecard for hiding from me so good

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Just things best work pals do.”

i too want a work bud like that

same...i want a work bud like that i want a work bud i want work

pixeldemographics replied to your photo “P U L S A T I L L A   E L D E R B E R R Y compulsive hedonist...”

also dan annie back at it with the aesthetic!!!!!

can u not call my stuff aesthetic it feels like bLASPHEMY

pixeldemographics replied to your photo “P U L S A T I L L A   E L D E R B E R R Y compulsive hedonist...”

STRONG FINGERED BI I ASPIRE TO THAT

its been a while hasnt it

pixeldemographics replied to your photo “P U L S A T I L L A   E L D E R B E R R Y compulsive hedonist...”

if u wanted me to fall more in lov with pulse u managed

that was the goal yes

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “G: This was amazing, Shine. I feel young again! I can’t thank you...”

YES THEY WILL I LOV THESE KIDS THEYRE SO GR8

sAAAAAAAAAAAME ;_;

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “S: Ok no bad idea bad idea bad idea”

BEST IDEA MY DADSON

nooooo it aint his soft butt isnt used to this kinda treatment

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset

can i cuddle with them and watch the clouds with my dadsons????

yes you can in game if you do that thing youve been meaning to do for 3 months

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset

dAD NIIIIIIGHT DAD NIGHT

I KNOW FINALLY

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset

i cant believe sims can watch bojack horseman now

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset

is that.... a horse??

iT IS I CANT BELIEVE I DIDNT SEE THE HORSE??? IM SHAME this is your dream come true isnt it

chaoticpxl replied to your photoset “i wANT DO DIE WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO THE SQUAD GAME”

THIS IS NOT OKAY

I KNOW I SHOULD INSTALL THAT MOD BUT I ALSO LOVE DISGUSTING MYSELF SO

chaoticpxl replied to your photoset “They might look terrifying, but they’re still so in love ♥”

I WENT PAST THIS NOT EVEN REALISING IT WAS THEM WHAT THE FUCK

chaoticpxl replied to your photoset “They might look terrifying, but they’re still so in love ♥”

WHAT HAS THE GAME DONE TO THEM

idk they’re in the game’s hands now it does to them what it wants ;_; at least they’re still in love that’s all i ask also true i had no idea it was them either

chaoticpxl replied to your photoset

im accepting applications

chaoticpxl replied to your photoset

honestly i strive to be like this with someone somday

well that’s new hello there <.<

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “G: Well, that’s a surprise, bro! You here! How’s it going, how’s the...”

Are all the siblings together?

noooo Rad and Sparkle are missing :/

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “Shimmer called Shine, so I thought why not let them meet up ♥”

I know you go by a naming theme but shimmer and shine are the best combined.

well that’s why i chose them XD but Sparkle also had to be part of it, so...can you believe I’m choosing triplets three times just for a theme i can

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “S: The Puddings? T: Yep. My last match. I need to do this well. S: And...”

AWWWWWWW

;_____; i kNOW he’s so stupidly cute i love him

twinsimskeletons replied to your photoset “i wANT DO DIE WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO THE SQUAD GAME”

not acceptable

trUUUE

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “i wANT DO DIE WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO THE SQUAD GAME”

i'm crying

same

monets-pixels replied to your photoset

👌👌👌 ❤❤❤

👀

amixofpixels replied to your photoset

IT'S NOT A SHITTY FICUS DAY!!!!

ALL THE FICUS FRIDAYS HAVE BEEN SEMI SHITTY BUT I LOVE THEM IN EVERY PIC STILL

monets-pixels replied to your photoset

hot mama

very hot esp since she now has pepper all over her

twinsimskeletons replied to your photoset

faaaaaces

:o rly

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “S: Ok no bad idea bad idea bad idea”

Rip Shine, you will be greatly missed

my wonderful science boy you did such good work you were a skilled husband and supportive dad except for the connie bet which is something nobody will ever forgive you for, may you rest in peace either way you will be remembered as the man who had no room for his own rocket

monets-pixels replied to your post “1-10 for my babes”

10 is so true

everyone would like to be punched by pulse

monets-pixels replied to your photo “and with shameless meme #2 i am done for the day”

IM SCREAMING

trust me, so is he 👀

monets-pixels replied to your photoset

strong mom

you’d probably thank her too for punching you

pixeldemographics replied to your photo “and with shameless meme #2 i am done for the day”

Jksksksksksksoeooe THIS IS THE BEST MEME EVER 🎉👌🏼😭

please you think this is all i can do?? just you wait i aint done yet

chaoticpxl replied to your photo “and with shameless meme #2 i am done for the day”

soon <.<

technically now, in the ficus friday save

pixeldemographics replied to your photo “Project Give The Meme Son More Memes has officially begun! When...”

THE MEMERACLE LEGACY IS OOOOOOOON I LOV IT SO MUCH

lets hope i can think of more man

chaoticpxl replied to your photo “Project Give The Meme Son More Memes has officially begun! When...”

i will continue to fuel this

chaoticpxl replied to your photo “Project Give The Meme Son More Memes has officially begun! When...”

i feel like i've done my job well

you have done a great job yes please do i NEED EVERY MEME AND MORE

pixeldemographics replied to your post “4, 6, 8, 12, 20! ����?”

I LOV ALL THE AUR REP THIS GOLD BOY NEEDS ALL THE REP

i mean as a president he probably got quite enough rep but yes more can never hurt esp not when it comes to his v special talents

pixeldemographics replied to your post “4, 6, 8, 12, 20! ����?”

GOOD GOOD

pixeldemographics replied to your post “4, 6, 8, 12, 20! ����?”

SO THIS ENTIRE FAMILY IS TOO GOOD TOO PURE IS WHAT UR SAYING????

um...pROBABLY OOPS O O P S HOW BORING

[aomitois]

2, 3, 5, 6, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 27, 28, 31, 34, 35, 37, 38, 40, 45, 46, 47 and 48 for Adorable ask please? Sorry if it's too much!!

it’s never too much (｡◕‿◕｡)

2. Favorite color when you were younger, and now?i think i liked pink the most? just because everyone else liked blue and i wanted to be more original than them. now they are icy blue and red-violet.

3. Do you wear eye-shadow? What color?yasss baby all the time! i have so many eyeshadows it would be a shame to not use them. i love doing my eye makeup. my phone is full of eye makeup tutorials and everyday i choose one at random to follow. the most common colors are black, silver, bronze, blue, gold and white. Here my make up from few days ago, made with white, pink and navy blue.

5. In your opinion, is love at first sight real?prooobably not, but who knows? you can develop a crush so fast, but love is a deeper and more complex feeling i guess, that needs more time.

6. Are you an optimist, realist, opportunist, or pessimist?all of them, it depends on situation. i guess opportunist the most. i wanted to be optimist but it’s just safer to always assume worst cases to be prepared for them, or at least most possible options.

9. What’s your aesthetic?honestly no idea, everything and nothing at the same time?? flowers, laces, cold, warm, black, fluffy, minimalistic, rich, spacewhat is aesthetic even anymore

10. Do you wear dresses, and skirts?i wish i did, since they make me feel good and pretty. i have 2 dresses and 1 skirt as casual wear in my closet (which means i wear them somewhere around once in few months? because of my clothes choosing system). on formal occasions i always wear a simple black dress. i have SO MANY more in my ‘not used clothes’, but they’re almost all maxi and mom tells me i look terrible in them so i shouldn’t wear them (she bought me them all without even asking btw)

11. What is your hair like?it frizzies easily and if i don’t use 50 conditioners i’ll have big messy nest. at least thanks to them now it’s really soft and shiny. it’s half straight, half wavy and idk why. i don’t like the wavy part, especially if it forms around my face. i always wanted to have as long as possible, but these fuckers don’t grow past my bra. naturally it look like this (in best state after pouring dozens of conditioners)

also recently i dyed them dark plum, already posted a pic here

12. Does time go by fast or slow to you?definitely too fast. so much to do, so much to see and i feel like time is dripping between my fingers like a sand.

13. What time do you go to bed? What time do you wake up?it’s totally random, whenever i feel like and don’t have anymore to do. i guess it usually oscillates around 1 o’clock, but really i switch easily, like for example during finals i went to sleep at 7 and woke up at 15, then switched to going to sleep at 14 and waking up at 21. i wake up 1,5h before school, but if i’m too tired to study anything more at night i wake up few hours earlier to finish it.

14. Favorite sweet food?yooooo i have giant sweet tooth, sugar is the only purpose of life i like milk chocolate, condensed milk, cakes, pancakes, fruits like watermelon, rasberries, fragaria, milkshakes, those rice desserts, ice cream, things with cocoa flakes, cereals - especially the nougat pockets

15. Tea, coffee, or hot cocoa?i’d say hot cocoa but it makes me feel a tiny bit sick… so tea

16. Space, Ocean, City, or Forest?Space.forest makes me uneasy. there are bugs everywhere, whatever i touch. the ground is uneven and hidden. and the forests i’ve been to are just tiny ones.i’ve never seen ocean irl, only sea. it doesn’t seem that fascinating.the city is good to live, good as story set, but plain old boooringand the space is 👌😤😤  astronomy is something i’m really interested in. all the stuff is just so fascinating and overwhelming. also stargazing at night is really melancholic and set me in the good mood to sort out my feelings, since that’s when they’re the strongest.

17. Favorite game as a child?not like video game but the child play - 2 propellers. me and bro held hands and rotated quickly until someone hit something, while telling crazy stories about adventures of our made up guardians agency - aomitois. when i was maybe seven we got the only console in my life, probably pegasus? and we couldn’t get enough of mario. then i just played random flash games i found in webs, can’t remember which were faves.

18. Comfort book?none, i’m not really a book reader or a reader at all ^^”

19. Princess, Fairy, Mermaid, or Unicorn?fairy! loved club winx. also has the best powers from them all. the rest are weak.

20. Do you fall in love easily?no idea… how do i even know if i’m in love, just crushing, or am i too atached and mistake it for love? am i even capable of love, when i feel nothing towards my family?sure, i do get crushes easily. like, really easily. felt the transition of simple crush into deeper feelings probably only twice in my life, but was that just a different type of crush or actually being in love? can’t tell.

21. Favorite word?polish curse words are so rich i’m cryingthey so good, so expressive, has such specific meanings to them, not like english. english curses are so weak. what english have? fuck? shit? bitch? and that’s literally allmost of my personal faves can’t even be translated, bc english is that weakwyjebane, zjebać, jebaniutki, pierdolec, jeb, popierdolone, wkurwiać, zajebać

also there are words that i find aesthetically beautiful. they have nice ring to them, have pretty color in my mind, and don’t consist of ugly letters. the example of these words is: melody.

22. Describe your life in 3 words.stagnant, stable, growing

23. Do you dance? Slow dance?only if no one’s around and when i’m in mood. the mood happens pretty often, but i’m not alone then. since the music i listen to isn’t slow, the dance isn’t either.

27. What makes you smile?lots of things tbh. i smile most of the time i’m awake. memes, jokes, seeing a cat, a friend, sudden memory of something funny, talking with anyone (i’m grinning and giggling like an idiot whenever i chat with anyone online and parents are really concerned about it)

28. Have you ever cried in a book or movie?boi. all the time. during every emotional moment that happens.

31. Are you superstitious?nope, tho i’m trying out every possibility of things that could grand my wish.

34. Favorite holiday?Christmas! love everything about it, whole tradition. dressing the tree? sign me up! making and trying 12 dishes? i hate most of them but will do! the carols? perfection! the presents?? 👌👌👌

35. Favorite season?winter definitely! snow is good shit. cold is neat af. no bugss 👀 and there’s my birthday, Christmas, Santa’s day, new year’s eve :D

37. Are you quiet or loud?quiet. i don’t talk unless it’s necessary. and everyone tells me i speak too quietly. my natural state of voice is actually really loud, like we all in our house screaming all the time, but probably social anxiety makes me as quiet as possible.

38. Favorite time period? (80′s, 60′s, etc.)PRESENT it’s the only acceptable time period imo

40. The best dream/ worst nightmare you’ve ever had?Best: one time i managed to have half-lucid dream. i controlled my actions and kinda shaped the world around me, but the plot processed as in normal dream. which is really good bc my consciousness have shit creativity while my unconsciousness is amazingly wild. i controlled many superpowers in that dream and was really overpowered.Worst: can’t pinpoint one but sometimes i dream about gross spiders and then i wake up in sweat, weirded out, grossed out until i tell myself it was only a dream. They are usually either about single giant one, or few of middle size.

45. What’s your style?i like wearing really feminine things and blending in. mostly i wear shirts and tees with random prints + colorful jeans or tunics with yoga pants. the colors that i feel good it are intense and dark, like red-violet, claret, navy blue, emerald, dark purple.

46. Do you blush?i have no idea… never saw myself blush, neither anyone told me i’m blushing. i guess i do get a bit red.

47. Do you feel everything, nothing, or you don’t know what to feel?all of above. most of the time i’m in apathy. my emotions are easily triggered, and die as quickly. and currently i’m confused. i don’t know what the recent feelings are. since it’s all that’s on my mind lately i couldn’t focus, but i can’t afford it bc of deadlines q_q why can’t i just figure out wtf are those

48. Are you a crier? Do you smile?already answered above, i smile lotsa and cry often xD

[sofuckingchuffed]

RULES: you must answer this 92 statements and tag 20 people.

I was tagged by @thatblindworm​and @suspectsim

THE LAST:

1. Drink: Green tea

2. Phone call: Home (so my ma)

3. Text Message: @hayleysmile xx

4. Song you listened to: Brotherhood of Man from How to Succeed in Business Without Really Trying

5. Time you cried: Hm. Probably Thursday?

6. Dated someone twice: Uh. Never? XD

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Yes.

8. Been cheated on: No.

9. Lost someone special: Yes.

10. Been depressed: Yes.

11. Gotten drunk and throwing up: Yes. Unfortunately.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Yellow

13. Purple

14. BLACK

IN THE LAST YEAR, HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yeah.

16. Fallen out of love: Nah

17. Laughed until you cried: Yeah

18. Found out someone was talking about you: Not explicitly, but I KNOW?

19. Met someone who changed you: No

20. Found out who your friends are: Kinda yeah

21. Kissed someone on your facebooklist: Wow I haven’t kissed someone in well over a year...

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Almost all of them. I think there’s three I’ve never met because Murrica

23. Do you have any pets: Yup, but y’all know that already.

24. Do you want to change your name: Nah 25. What did you do for your last birthday: Um... I know I was visiting Wagga. I’m pretty sure I was either driving to Wagga or I was lounging around my parents place being a hermit. Not a big deal at all lol.

26. What time did you wake up: 8:30ish

27: What were you doing at midnight last night: Reading fanfic

28. Name something you can’t wait for: London Christmas!!!

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: Like half an hour ago.

30. Favourite food: I never even know how to answer this. If I could pick one meal to always have made available to me it would be my old housemates green curry though.

31. What are you listening to right now: silence

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes. I was singing (rapping?) My Shot to a cat named Tom earlier? 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: My Dad’s general lack of hygiene.

34. Most visited website: Tumblr or AO3 lol

35. Background: Lock screen is Raúl and background is Alan Cumming’s EmCee (same as my tumblr pic)

36. What are you wearing right now: Pajamas

37: Hobby: um. giffing I guess?

38: Hair color: brown

39. Long or short hair: shooooort

40. Do you have a crush on someone: Unless Raúl counts, nah

41. What do you like about yourself: Not much at the moment.

42. Piercings: None

43. Blood type: Don’t know.

44. Nickname: Cherry, usually. Chez recently by a new friend.

45. Relationship status: single

46. Zodiac: Virgo

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favorite TV show: Doctor Who even though I’m not even enjoying it atm

49. Tattoos: Yeah, I have a bird silhouette on my right wrist, the Deathly Hallows sign on my left ankle (which is totally fucked looking now sigh too many scars on it), a little basic fox on my left upper arm, and a gorgeous Jon Carling rabbit artwork on my right thigh

50. Right or left-handed: right handed

51. Surgery: Mmm only keyhole.

52. Scent: Coconut and coffee

53. Sport: To watch? AFL. To play? Netball.

54. Vacation: Going to London for xmas/new year, and was in Hawaii in Feb this year.

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: Not currenty?

58. Drinking: Also not currently?

59. I’m about to: Go to bed.

61. Waiting for: A direction to take.

62. Want: Contentment

63. Get married: Nah

64. Career: I don’t have one and I feel no shame in that.

WHICH IS BETTER:

65. Hug or kisses: Hugs

66. Lips or eyes: Eyes

67. Shorter or taller: Could not care less

68. Older or younger: Context is everything. But in terms of relationships (which I am assuming this is) I don’t care

69. Children or no children: no children

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: aaaaaaarms

72. Hook up or relationship: Relationship.

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Mostly hesitant.

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger: Yes. 

75. Drank hard liquor: Yes.

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: No - I don’t need either

77. Turned someone down: Yes.

78. Sex on the first date: No

79. Broken someone’s heart: I don’t think so

80. Had your heart broken: No

81. Been arrested: No

82. Cried when someone died: Yes.

83. Fallen for a friend: Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: Surprisingly yeah

85. Miracles: No

86. Love at first sight: No

87. Santa Claus: Lol sure why not

88. Kiss on the first date: Go with the flow

89. Angels: No

OTHER:

90. Current best friend’s name: Hayley

91. Eye color: brown

92. Favorite movie: Love Actually

I can’t tag 20 people omg...okay lemme try and sorry if you’ve already done this. @skittle479 @ohbelieveyoume @oh-little-owl @xserpx @minidodds @do-me-carisi @reginalds @hayleysmile @frankenchilidilly @larkistin @larkin21 @r-o-s-e-h-i-p-s, @raul-esparza-and-memes @discovampireforjesus @justraulesparza @mrschiltoncat @booyahkendell @khughes830 @fizzy-custard @eighthmark

I DID IT

[kittyburrito69]

It’s over 90!

Shaddup! Don’t gimme that look. We’re doing this. 

Btw as a heads up, as I typed this up I....forgot how much of a depressed fuck I am XD The less you know of me the better because I don’t want you to think of me any different than my usual inu posts so you might wanna refrain from reading if that’s the case 😛So I apologize in advance for quite a bit of my answers. I do try to lighten it up with some Inu pics though. If you’re able to stomach through the whole thing, you have my deepest respects. With that said...

tagged by @inuykago

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

LAST…

Drink: Water

Phone call: My brother a couple days ago

Text message: My mom about how I had to swerve out of the way to avoid running over a bunny this morning. But the bunny’s safe  😀

Song you listened to: Schism - Tool

Time you cried: I’m so broken my tear ducts barely work anymore 🙂but it was November 2015 when, due to multiple circumstances, I had to end a relationship. 

HAVE YOU…

Dated someone twice: It was an online relationship but yes

Kissed someone and regretted it: No because if not for that kiss, my loser ass would never have gotten his first kiss :’D 

Been cheated on: still online relationship but yes 

Lost someone special: Too many to count

Been depressed: You’re mocking me aren’t you? 😒For at least 5 yearsish but probably longer

Gotten drunk and thrown up: I don’t drink so no

Made new friends: I suppose you can call them that 

Fallen out of love: Kinda yeah

Laughed until you cried: Love that feeling. So yes

Found out someone was talking about you: Who hasn’t? 

Met someone who changed you: Yep. And then leave me like everyone else yay :’D 

Found out who your friends are: ehh...

Kissed someone from your Facebook list: Si

Kissed a stranger: I wish :’D 

Drank hard liquor: Don’t drink so no

Lost glasses/contact lenses: Temporarily but refound. But one of the handle thingies is broken so it’s like a fancy 2 eyed monocle. Feel so fancy

Turned someone down: Back in the IMVU days lulz. Accidentally making someone like you online is so much easier than in person. Maybe it’s because the avatar is actually attractive 😜

Sex on the first date: Stop mocking my virgin ass 😭

Broken someone’s heart: The last time I cried, yes

Had your heart broken: I’m pretty sure I lost a decent portion of the pieces because of the frequent amount of times it’s had to be put together so...yes. Wish I could put it together like the sacred jewel.

Been arrested: Nope. I’m a good boy 😇

SHUT UP YES I AM! JESUS LOVES ME

Cried when someone died: I think I have. It’s hard for me to cry being so empty but I think I did when my grandma passed. Or at least fought it. I know for sure when I had to put my dog down.

Fallen for a friend: For my pathetic ass, they’re the only ones I’m attracted to. *shrugs* I just always believed the best relationships are those who end up with their best friends. Stupid fantasy romance I guess.

Kissed on the first date: Yes. I was wearing a hat and it knocked into our foreheads so like everything in life, awkward as fuck XD 

SHUSH YOU!

GENERAL

List 3 favorite colors: Black, Red, and Blue

How many Facebook friends do you know in real life: A decent portion at least

Do you have any pets: 2 kitties, a pupper, a bearded dragon, and a dumbo rat. 

Do you want to change your name: Nah Ray Din has a cool stage name ring to it. Almost like the mortal kombat character 😎

What time did you wake up: Alarm went off at 3:30, then backup alarm at 3:40 so....about 3:47 I guess 😜 I don’t get a lot of sleep though so I end up looking like this fellow below 

What were you watching at midnight last night: I was asleep so whatever dream simulation I had

Name something you can’t wait for: The sweet release of death 😜 The next RWBY volume would be cool though. 

When was the last time you saw your mom: 4 days ago

What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: Start from scratch and not end up a depressed awkward fuck would be nice 😜Getting a good job and away from retail would be nice though. Might as well make some use of my degree.

What are you listening to right now: Alestom! 

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Sounds like the name of a corporate fuck I used to work with. So maybe 

Something that is getting on your nerves right now: Realizing how pathetic I sound as I’m typing this. @inuykago I’m so sorry :’D 

Most visited website: Facebook. So many memes. Remember the best kind of memes are

Mole/s: I’m dolphin smooth baby

Mark/s: birth marks here and there. Like not so frequent polka dots 

Childhood dream: I wanted to be a super hero as a wee one

Do you have a crush on someone: Not really. Notice people are attractive but not crushing on anyone. Trying to fight that habit. 

HALFWAY POINT! Still with us,mutt? 

Good boy I’ll take that as a yes. Moving on....

What do you like about yourself: um...ehehehehe...not much XD I do like the followers I attract though for putting up with my spam of posts. Seeing you liking and reblogging my posts makes it seem like someone gives a shit. You’re all amazing ❤

Piercings: None. Although it’s kinda funny because I have a birth mark on an ear lobe so if I were to get an ear piercing, it’s the perfect target. 

Blood type: I’ll have Inuyasha iron reaver soul steal my ass and using blades of blood to find out for me 

Nickname: I don’t really have much. I’ll let you all decide some for me 😜

Relationship status: Forever alone with a decent amount of cats in my future

Zodiac: Aquarius 

Pronouns: it, thing 😜 or him. that’s cool too I guess

Favorite TV show: Ahh too many. You’d think Inuyasha or other anime :P but if you mean a regular tv with normal people watching ummm I’ll say Doctor Who for now 

Tattoos: none 

Right or left hand: depending on the use. HEY YO but I’m a rightie 

Surgery: None yet

Hair dyed in different color: I used to add a tinge of red during my emo days 

Sport: baseball and basketball although I’m not much of a sports person

Vacation: Anywhere but here. 

Pair of trainers: no idea what that is so.....Nora from RWBY  :D 

Current and all-time best friend name: ......

Eye color: Brown

Favorite movie: Always depends on my mood. I’ll say usually all time is Tenacious D and the Pick of Destiny

CALM YOUR TITS WE’RE ALMOST DONE

WHICH IS BETTER?

Hugs or kisses: Kisses depends on the person XD so in general, a nice good hug

Lips or eyes: eyes. You can add makeup and make your lips as flashy as you want but eyes are untouchable. But if you do use makeup, the sango makeup would be a nice touch 😜

Shorter or taller: Shorter would be ideal. HEADPATS FOR ALL

Nice arms or stomach: stomache. coochie coochie coo!

Sensitive or loud: Sensitive. Loud people tend to comment on me being so quiet. Introvert problems :’D 

Hook up or relationship: Relationship. But I’m so lonely I’ll even take a hookup nowadays 

Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

Yourself: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH no

Miracles: it’s a miracle I’m still kicking with the way I eat 😜

Love at first sight: Lust but not love

Santa Claus: That little shit still owes me my pony

WE DID IT! Phew. How ya feeling? 

Works for me. If you read it this far, then kudos! Thank you for taking interest.  And there must be something obviously wrong with you for continuing your curiosity this far but that’s what I love about you :D Again, I apologize for a lot of the answers and hope I was still able to entertain you somewhat. Inuposting will continue so don’t worry. I’ll paste a template in the comments so you don’t have to copy and edit the shit out of this disaster I made. Normally at the end of this you’re supposed to tag 20 people but...fuck that shit xD I’ve tagged a bunch in my last one and don’t wanna be a bother to them...or direct their attention to this XD But if you’re reading this and wanna take the 92 Q  challenge, then I tag you :D Thanks again. Love you people. Peace ✌ EDIT:  God dammit tumblr doesn’t wanna cooperate so template is here 

tagged by

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

LAST… Drink:

Phone call:

Text message:

Song you listened to:

Time you cried:

HAVE YOU…

Dated someone twice:

Kissed someone and regretted it:

Been cheated on:

Lost someone special:

Been depressed:

Gotten drunk and thrown up:

Made new friends:

Fallen out of love:

Laughed until you cried:

Found out someone was talking about you:

Met someone who changed you:

Found out who your friends are:

Kissed someone from your Facebook list:

Kissed a stranger:

Drank hard liquor:

Lost glasses/contact lenses:

Turned someone down:

Sex on the first date:

Broken someone’s heart:

Had your heart broken:

Been arrested:

Cried when someone died:

Fallen for a friend:

Kissed on the first date:

GENERAL

List 3 favorite colors:

How many Facebook friends do you know in real life:

Do you have any pets:

Do you want to change your name:

What time did you wake up:

What were you watching at midnight last night:

Name something you can’t wait for:

When was the last time you saw your mom:

What is one thing you wish you could change in your life:

What are you listening to right now:

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom:

Something that is getting on your nerves right now:

Most visited website:

Mole/s:

Mark/s:

Childhood dream:

Do you have a crush on someone:

What do you like about yourself:

Piercings:

Blood type: Nickname:

Relationship status:

Zodiac:

Pronouns:

Favorite TV show:

Tattoos:

Right or left hand:

Surgery:

Hair dyed in different color: Sport:

Vacation:

Pair of trainers:

Current and all-time best friend name:

Eye color:

Favorite movie:

WHICH IS BETTER?

Hugs or kisses:

Lips or eyes:

Shorter or taller:

Nice arms or stomach:

Sensitive or loud:

Hook up or relationship:

Troublemaker or hesitant:

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

Yourself:

Miracles:

Love at first sight:

Santa Claus:

[juhaku-inspired]

1, 2, 5, 7, 11, 12, 14, 20, 21, 23, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 32, 34, 35, 36, 39, 41, 44, 45, 47, 48, and 50 for the mm ask meme lololol~

jesus christ mika xD but thank you~

under a read-more for obvious reasons:

1- Favorite Character

Zen of course~

2. Favorite route

Seven’s route !!

5. Favorite “Cheritz” voice

probably Saeran’s cause it doesn’t sound like what you’d expect from him and I love it

7. Favorite chat emoji

and

11. Favorite party guest

ohh boy.... Maybe Longcat? or the Hackers Chasing Hackers guy cause it was fun completing the emails for them xD

12. Favorite chat

oh god there are so many how do you choose?? idk what one it was but the one where Zen’s saying how he doesn’t care what MC looks like cause “you’re already snug in my heart.” and he’s just being really sappy and I love him. Yoosung was there too. I have pics on my tablet but it’s dead rn so rip

14. Favorite CG

All of Zen’s Probably these:

*insert Seven’s heart emoji again*

20. Favorite ship (platonic/romantic)

...Zen x MC... YooRan is nice too. And SevenZen. I also kinda like Zen x MC x Seven but idk if that’s an actual ship haha  

21. Favorite character interaction with each other

Ahh in...Seven’s route? when Yoosung’s over Zen’s place and drunk af and Zen calls MC and is talking and calls them princess and Yoosung’s like “but Seven has the princess~~~~” it broke my heart but I also just love how Zen and Yoosung interact?? and Zen and Jaehee in Jaehee’s route. I love the mutual support gahhh~

23. Best character development

JUMIN HAN. Definitely. 

26. Best character design

Hmm probably Seven or Saeran... Saeran’s design is v interesting and edgy

27. Character who left the biggest impression on you

Zen~ tbh the first time I played it at the beginning I didn’t like him and thought he’d just be that narcissistic asshole character and I didn’t like how he picked on Yoosung about video games so much. but now I love him and yes he’s great.

28. Character you’d want to be BFFs with

Jaehee!! and Yoosung. I have a lot in common with Yoosung, I think we’d get along well.

29. Character you romantically ship yourself with

...Zen... just to point out....don’t think/play the game as my smol 16 y/o self I imagine me as like an adult, like 25, post top,...maybe not a best selling author but well off...ha....

30. Most relatable character

Yoosung~ for me at least. 

32. Funniest character

Seven ofc. And Jumin tbh, his sense of humor is hilarious.

34. First impression of the game

I had no idea how the mechanics worked and it’s not like I thought it was super realistic and adapted to every single choice you made but I didn’t understand routes and all that so I guess I thought it was more of an AI than it is....? I’m not sure what I mean but

35. First impression for each character

Yoosung- poor bby I too like playing video games 24/7 its ok I support you (hence why I got his route first xD)

Zen- asshole why are u so mean to Yoosung ur so narcissistic my g o d shut up

Jaehee- I’m not sure I remember?? She doesn’t trust you in the beginning ik so maybe I was a lil on edge cause of that. though I prob understood why she was cautious.

Jumin- I prob thought he was an uptight formal boss man. which he is. and yet he’s so much more than that that the same time...

Seven- the comic relief boi. haha, I don’t remember but probably something like that.

Rika- wow what a tragic story poor girl :c she deserved better. ...ha... It also made me feel weird about being in her apartment. like...living in a dead person’s house is kinda weird....

V- pOOR WIDOW WHAT A POOR SOUL PROTECT HIM THIS IS SO TRAGIC. I also thought it was really weird that people wanted a V route and romance w/ V cause??? he’s a mourning widow?? (do you even call males widows btw?) he’s not ready for another relationship his true love just fucking died?? What a wild time... 

Unknown- weirdo bad guy villain. I’m not sure what I thought lmao. 

36. First character you fell for

Hmmm good question?? Probably Seven, tbh?? I mean maybe more so Yoosung cause he was my first route but I remember in Yoo’s route at the party, seeing Seven so fucking sad and sorry broke my heart so much. fuck I love him

39. How did you find out about this game? What made you decide to download it? 

Tumblr was freaking out over it for a while. I didn’t get it right away but once it became all I saw on my dash I was like ‘alright I’ll try it ffs’ and the rest is history, kids. 

41. Have you completed all the routes and unlocked the secret endings?

I have~ I’ve gotten all the good endings and done the secret endings. I’ve also done a few of the normal endings (Seven’s, Zen’s, and Yoosung’s, I think) and I have very few of the bad end CGs cause it hurts me too much to try and get them, no matter what character it is haha.

44. How dedicated are you to this game? Do you set alarms and try to get 100% for each day etc? 

oh god there was a time where I set alarms for 2 or 4 AM in order to not miss chats. fuckin insane. I also used to write down all the chat times and checked the app every 2 hours once I learned the pattern of chat rooms. I’ve calmed down a lot now, and since I still have a bunch of HG from the VIP pack (and buying google play cards- yikes) I just pay for chats I miss. Which are usually only the ones from midnight-9~ish AM while I’m asleep xD. I’m still diligent in checking it every 2~ish hours during the day haha...

45. Do you play the game blindly or follow walkthroughs?

I played blindly until I got Seven’s day 10 bad ending which was my first bad end (I went through Yoo’s and Zen’s routes flawlessly??) and I panicked and used a walkthrough. I also used walkthroughs to get Jaehee and Jumin’s routes but played theirs blind unless I really needed help. Waitin’ on walkthroughs for DLCs so I can get the got damn CGs I need cause I cAN’T GET SAERAN’S ROUTE IN THE XMAS DLC FOR SOME STUPID REASON. 

47. Moments that made you laugh out loud?

So many. Mostly Jumin’s and Seven’s jokes :3

48. Ever cried or shed a tear while playing?

I already cry easy but the waterworks were constantly flowing because of this fuckin game. god damn. 

50. How has this game affected you overall? Do you regret playing it?

This game’s definitely changed my life for the better. I don’t regret playing it at all. It’s really helped me through a lot of things and probably affects me daily. If I’m sad I’ll look up at the sky cause I remember that one phone call where Seven says looking at the sky makes him feel better. That flower Zen sent that he says to look at when you feel anxious is something I’m seriously considering making my first tattoo. I fuckin named a floppy disk squishable (stuffed animal thing) Saeyoung and I have a build-a-bear Eevee I named Saeran. Nevermind how Zen’s route/ his character in general (and seven too tbh!!) have helped me with my body image and general self-love. Weird to rely on a mobile otome app for your mental health but, hey, whatever works right?

[euphorica-smiles]

Rules: tag 20 followers you want to know better

Tagged by: @principessabel; sorry took me so long XD; I kind of forgot until I remember vaguely I got tagged something and I got scatter-brained but yeh haha;; also I remember very vaguely I got tagged for something similar by I thiiiiiiiiink (was it you @aochii9113, i thinkkk? I remember you did tag me but i just can’t remember what ‘tagged meme’ thing it was ;w;;; so so sorry) but anyway yeah moving onnn 

Name: Jasmine 

Nickname: lord where do I begin XD uh Jas, Jassy, Jazzy, Jaz, Jas Jas, Jasmine the flower, Jasmine tea, Jasmine rice, flower, tea 

Gender: female

Star sign: Gemini

Height: 160cm - yas I is smol XD which reminds me I think bout as small as Chuya even 

Sexual orientation: Biromantic asexual. Took me a while to really come to terms. 

Hogwarts house: I.....actually do not know because I haven’t watched Harry Potters for so long so XD really..not sure. 

Favorite color: Blue, sky blue, purple, maroon and lime green (strangely). 

Favorite animal: UNICORNS AND DRAG-- I mean, I like all animals! I really do XD Except...except.... *thinks* Yeah actually I like all animals. But specific favorites would be cats and horses. 

Time right now: 11:26AM

Average hours of sleep: depends; if insomnia hits, 1 to 2 hours maximum. But my usual would be around 2 to 4 hours. Longest I had was 6 hours. Which may explain why I’m more like a forced early riser because much as I want to go back to sleep, I just can’t. So I wake up very early but very tired/drowsy. 

Cat or dog person: I have both XD 7 cats and a dog. And I hate/love all of them but ultimately love all of them. They’re all fluffy demons. ALL OF THEM I TELL YOU.

Favorite fictional characters: Mmmm hmmm... well, if by ranking honestly it’s Chuya, Dazai and Sebastian. Otoge rankings would beeee Impey, Toma and Dui. This is kinda hard because for me Chuya is top and king husbando, everyone else are boyfies and waifus in the harem XD. But aaanyway my other fictional biases include: Hakurei Reimu, Marisa Kirisame, EE.VE.RY.ONE from Bungo Stray Dogs, Toma from Amnesia, Impey Barbicane, Saint-Germain, Van Helsing and Arsene Lupin from Code: Realize (goodness me I am still working on that essay LOL), Genjyo Sanzo and Kougaiji from Saiyuki, Kiryuin Satsuki from Kill la Kill; Gouda Takeo, Makoto Sunakawa and Yamato Rinko from Ore Monogatari, Shizuo Heiwajima from Durarara!!, Kotobuki Reiji and Ichinose Tokiya from UtaPri. Fukuyama Jun from Devil Lady,  Midou Ban (Get Backers), and..... whoa quite a lot honestly. Especially mostly the ones named are the ones that have a lot of impact through my childhood and life. Everyone so far named are either queens, princes, princesses, dukes and duchesses but CHUYA IS KING AND EMPEROR WHOOPS LOL. 

Number of blankets I sleep with: One, because like @principessabel mentioned how it’s hot in Phil, it’s like daily inferno and walking in oven here in MY. I’m a roasted potato here. 

Favorite Singer/band: I can’t answer this for sure because I have so many to name so I’ll just say my entire itunes playlist consisting of 68,950 songs is my life source. 

Dream trip: Mmm I’ve been to Seoul for a month and it was quite enlightening as well as life learning experience - plus it was during the autumn season so GOD YES THE COLDDD - there had been talks about going there again so that’s one. However, there’s a definite plan on saving up and planning to go to Japan this year - so hopefully if I’m starting my degree very late, health in decent condition and financially well I’ll be able to go to Japan with my sister, because really if I don’t travel to Japan sooner I have a feeling when I get older my health will be in decline to go anywhere and do anything within limits. I also aspire to visit as many European countries >w<

Dream job: Writer. That’s about it. Although I also aspire to be an educator. ... For writing. XD

When this blog was created: Four years ago. Around September 2013. 

When did your blog reach its peak: Took me some time to remember this because I think what it was my ‘Voltage Inc text messages’ that took this blog to its peak - I started accepting requests, and then later it was the fanfics for Voltage Inc otome. I’m mostly not too involved with the fandom community as much due to a lot of fall outs and some personal disputes but I still love otome so I mostly just really enjoy it by myself in this blog and with closer friends rather than mixing around like I used to - But I admit I’ve met great people and great friends, some stayed and some drifted. When I got into Bungo Stray Dogs, I’ve never really paid much mind to think how I’d socialize around here again but ever since I posted some Chuya and BSD here and there, wrote fanfics, and started to self-indulgently post pics of my merch and especially my beloved Chuya shrine, I’ve got acquainted with many of you lovely people (including the ones who tagged me in this) so again I just want to say that honestly, my blog wouldn’t have reach to any peaks without a lot of you - followers, friends, mutuals and even just visitors of this blog alike. So once again, thank you so much. 

What made you decide to make a Tumblr: I’ve always like blogging ever since Livejournal era but I haven’t found something that could really make me stay. When I got into mobile otome gaming aka start of voltage inc love, I saw so many cute and funny to serious and thought-provoking posts on Tumblr, I decided I wanted to make my own and there we go XD. Now this Tumblr is like my main go-to blog for any blogging to non-creative and creative writing plus a lot of shitposting ahem

why did you choose your URL: I started this main blog as ‘sunnydewdew’ but due to, as I had mentioned, personal disputes and some fall outs plus I just didn’t want to be closely associated to the kind of messy dirty history with ‘sunnydewdew’, I changed to ‘euphorica-smiles’. ‘Euphoria’ has always been my favorite word (another is mellifluous), but it felt weird to put ‘euphoria-smiles’ XD;? Euphorica is nonexistent but I wanted something that goes well with ‘smiles’ because smiles don’t always mean happiness - it can mean sadness or even ambivalence, which is what this blog is made of as well. So I was like ‘Ah okay nevermind, euphorica-smiles would sound nice I think’ andddd there we go. Was thinking of possible url name change but like ehhhhh I don’t wanna confuse people and it would be really annoying to keep changing urls for wtfs really.  

Not gonna tag anyone because too many of you lol so uh if you guys wanna do this, feel free! :3 consider yourself tagged