#I mean it’s kind of a vent idk
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This is just an observation, but judging from my friends’ experience and reading around etc etc
The ‘argument’ of some transphobic parents that the environment is what’s ’making them trans’ and shutting off all connection from the world is so bull,
Like they tried to discover themselves and all you’re doing is shutting down your own kid’s feelings and putting yourself and your beliefs before them.
They could have just as easily been swayed by the beliefs you hold on the internet or out there but they aren’t, because they’re them.
It’s just sad to see so many parents of trans and queer folk do this. It feels like, and probably is, them putting something before their own child. Whether it’s a belief they hold true to them or a book or the like, it’s something that clouds their worldview somewhat.
It pains me to see how some people can be so hateful and selfish. It defies what those very people say they stand for a majority of the type too, and the hypocrisy makes me sick to my stomach.
Forgive me if any of this comes out odd, I don’t consider myself the best typer.
I say all this especially because a good friend of mine recently came out to her parents, and they’re…to put it bluntly, not particularly supportive.
The person in question, who for the sake of things I will refer to as Azzy, has been stressed a lot lately. They’ve felt the way they have since they were quite young and have been stressed by external factors.
They weren’t really sure whether to come out, but her mom seemed ready to accept and she finally did the other day.
But oh hell it did not go well. She was shut down fast. Limited in everything, even communications with her fellow students, on things she needed to do for school, all on the grounds of ‘personal safety concerns’ — the ‘concerns’ in question being how Azzy ‘thinks the way she does.’
As someone who’s read George Orwell’s 1984 alone, this sent a chill up my spine.
Not to mention the gaslighting by their parents they’ve been mentioning and apparently upcoming physical abuse as threatened by the parents.
I’ve recommended they speak with the police or child protective services or somebody about this but I would appreciate more resources if any of y’all have any.
why must the world be so cruel sometimes.
#tw: transphobia#tw vent#I mean it’s kind of a vent idk#thoughts#idk man#trans rights#lgbtqia#transgender
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I met the me who made different choices
#idk what this means so dont ask#got the words stuck in my head and this is what I wanted to draw for it immediately#me at my desk. so.#I dont look exactly like this obviously. doesnt matter. anyways#hard time recently in a lot of different ways#lots of work to do!#given up on getting everything done I kind of failed at that. it was too much#so now I'm just trying to get anything done that will make the next 6 months not kill me again#ideally. 3 episodes. or the book#or like at least close enough to that that its basically that#I'm feeling really screwed LOL#I dont know how I've been working every day for so long and still havent done enough...#(its because the work load is way too much)#every time I take 1 hour for myself. to cook. or clean. or draw something else. or play a game. I feel so guilty auauau#I hate webtoon I hate this damn green app...#DOESNT MATTER!!!#what DOES matter is my art is good as hell... look at this shit...#the light. the colors. I love you red I love you green#I need to get more red pants I only have the one pair.#I saw this guy with red pants that had skeleton legs on them and I was like FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!! I need them!!!!#I need to start sewing again. I dont have a sewing machine cause my apartment is too small so I havent sewn in years but I really want to..#I want to make clothes again... I need some vests I need some dresses..#I will not make pants or sleeved shirts because I dont hate myself#sketch#art#vent art I guess LMFAO its not#its just this fun little thing we like to call self expression#also this isnt how my desk setup actually is I scooted things around cause I didnt wanna draw anything twice. fuck it we ball#ok back to work
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you know, i can handle a little bit of fun "Nandor is dumb" talk, but i have a net-zero tolerance for any implication that Nandor is not educated.
Nandor would have been incredibly educated in his lifetime.
even (or especially) as a soldier in the Islamic World. being a soldier was more like getting sent to boarding school that's also a military camp. they weren't just concerned with creating loyal fodder for war. they were building the next government officials, generals, accountants, advisors, etc. it was important that young men knew how to read, write, speak multiple languages, learn philosophy...sometimes even studying art and music was mandatory.
if he was nobility (and its most likely he was), take all that shit and multiply it exponentially. Nandor would have been reading Plato at the same age most people are still potty training. he would have been specifically groomed in such a way to not be just a brilliant strategist and warrior, but also diplomate and ambassador of literally the center of scientific and cultural excellence of the age.
so like yeah, he can be a big dummy sometimes, sure. but that bitch is probably more educated than any of us will ever be.
#wwdits#nandor the relentless#Nandor#what we do in the shadows#i think its obvious by how much Nandor loves to read that he grew up educated#it's one of my favorite character traits of his#anyways#this was just your local psa abt the depth of Nandor's character and intelligence#and how the medieval islamic world was like - so much more advanced than it's western counterpart it's hilarious how ppl mischaracterize it#(by hilarious i mean it makes me want to break something)#this was in my drafts lolol what did i read that made me vent this? idk#also 'islamic world' is just a term some historians use to describe a specific geographical location and historical age#kind of how 'western world' is used today#it doesn't mean it's specific to one religion or nation but the broader time and location#meaning that Al Qolindar or Persia or Ilkhanate or w/e you want to call where Nandor came from#the same expectations of education and it's vibrant social/cultural world remain an accurate image of the middle east in the medieval age#if you come from the west like me#think The Forum + The Library of Alexandria + Paris/Florence + and idk anything else u think of when u think of 'Western Excellence'#and then imagine of all of that in one place at one time and then u might get close to what the world Nandor was living in as a human
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maybe its just me but i cant stand when people are like "it just doesn't sit right with me how teruhashi thought about aiura 🥺" like yes... its not supposed to ??? because her thinking badly of other girls and prioritizing male validation over everything is one of her main flaws ??? can we talk about that WITHOUT making it seem like shes not allowed to have a single actual flaw without suddenly becoming an awful person? nobody can handle complex female characters at all and its so fucking annoying
#you guys all missed the point of her development AND her and saiki's relationship development#like did you miss the parts where the only times he genuinely seems to not like something she does is when shes mean to other girls#and he still understands that she isnt a bad person for having bad thoughts in the private comfort of her mind#and besides... in this case she was literally just being a dramatic and insecure teenage girl LMAO#like dont fucking lie to me and tell me when you were her age you didnt have similar thoughts#youre worse than her if you lie about it while judging her for it#sorryyyy#she shouldve been MORE unhinged youre all just cowards#AND ALSO ? how can something even be 'mean' if its just a thought#thats like if u opened ur friends private diary without permission and then unfriended them over something they said in a random upset vent#and in this specific situation if u found out ur friend called someone a bitch because they liked the same person as her ??#LIKE THATS ?? its bad but its not as crazy as you guys make it out to be#shes allowed to be angry and insecure in the privacy of HER OWN MIND#idk if this makes sense but i just feel that her thoughts are more of a concern about her wellbeing than anything else#like she canonically is extremely kind to others even when she doesnt want to be so why are we worried about how she treats others.#theyre fine. im worried about HER.#and WHY her mindset is so negative... but u guys dont give a shit because u cant handle even a spec of complexity#sorry ive said all this before i just like to rant#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#teruhashi kokomi#meows post
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You're the only person i follow who posts about thomas sanders
And i only watch him for sanders sides, i'm not really in the fsndom online, so i guess you are the best person to ask this
Why does thomas take so long to upload new sander sides?
ten questions scientists still can't answer, anon
#to expand beyond the cynicism#idk when you joined the fandom but i was there in like The Era. 2017. virgil's name reveal. i was 14 & Unwell#wrote a lot of fic (and i mean a Lot of fic) & was in the Wattpad Scene of it all#(not to do all the fandom hierarchy popularity bullshit but if anyone's wondering why i have 1500 followers on wattpad that's why)#anyways. 5 or so years go by. fans get older. content (or at least good canon content) is few & far between#i move on. move to ao3. move to tumblr & other fandoms#idk how i found the crit tag but it's a good place as an 'ex-fander' so to speak to vent frustrations#you'll find a lot of stuff in the tag on your question anon#basically my take is thomas wants all the money from the series & merch & patreon without actually putting in the work#as he's lost passion for the series but has hyped it up way way too long to back out now#idk he's kind of a shit person from what i've seen though again there's more elequent posts on it than this tag dump#i'll leave the appropriate tags below#ts crit#ts critical#ts criticism#asks
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You talked to a regressive, misogynistic man and obvs thought what he was saying was bs but then decide you're trans bcs of it??? You're just validating his dumbass ideas, deciding you can't be a woman bcs you don't like sexist traditions. Why are you letting this guy determine that you're not a woman rather than throwing away the entire bs idea of gender?
Hi! How are you? Are you okay?? This sounds very passive agressive. I think I know the post you're trying to respond to- a vent post I wrote *weeks* ago about my stepfather's views on gender, right? Honestly I think if that rattled you enough to go dig up the subject with this ask, you either have no tact or have some issues of your own to work through.
That said, the way I view my own gender is way more complicated than just one man's views on gender, and if you think I've "decided I'm trans" just because of this one conversation I had with him, you probably don't even follow me and have never seen any of my posts prior to that cjncnvmv I don't necessarily define myself as trans, and my own feelings on gender are complicated, and have been for, idk, forever? I can't really define myself as anything since I don't even understand how I feel yet. But I do like to make vent posts, from time to time, because it feels good to talk about these feelings, and it feels good to see people respond to them saying they feel the same way. It makes me feel less alone. I honestly think it's bullshit for you to come to my inbox acting like you know everything about my views and feelings on gender based on one post, especially in a way that is so... rude. I'd love to have a more in depth conversation about gender, but definitely not with you.
#listen my inbox is always open for anons bc I like to leave the option open for people who are feeling shy#and most people who send me anon asks are actually nice and either ask about my ocs or art or just have genuine questions#but this kind of mean spirited ask is not ok#if you wanna talk to someone you don't even know do so politely or don't do it at all#or make your own vent post or something. idk#asks
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Haii, how are u doing? :>
#saw this ithink it fits#hope you are doing good anon#ah wait i forgot people don't understand the letters#it says first semester in uni vs final semester something like that language its beautiful#no actually im doing good it's a miracle how some hours of going out. comfy talking. touching grass and eating a burrito#can change my whole perception of reality but im back to self isolation so the soul might rust#but dont worry don't worry we will make it we will make it i think maybe#kind of a vent in the tags? i dont know dont read this in bad mindset idk man i need to be in the forest#silly squeaking time#i feel like my life its going to end but its okk it happens you knowww it's just the fear of change#it's strange how i can feel things and understand them like it's outside of myself why can't i just feel one way i mean it keeps me alive#so its fine wait i think i might delete this later#justr to clarifyu i doont play league don't play it#im scared im not going to make it bc it's difficult to concentrate when i feel im going to die and the world its going to explode JKASHDJAK#WE STAY SILLY WE STAY SILLY WE STAY SILLY#if life lets me i will get therapy after this#i don like thinking about how i feel i start to asdfhgdshdfsdhgdgfsd
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i know this has been said 473773474833 times by the kavetham/haikaveh shippers and probably even nonshippers, but i'll say it again. I finally finished the genshin summer event and did the little after quest in sumeru and.....every time kaveh is sneaking around trying not to be noticed coming out of alhaithams house it's just such a gay vibe. he's basically screaming "I can't be caught being gay in a homophobic society!" even if that's not what the game writers are *actually* saying. that's just how it comes off and they can't make it come off any other way. with hoyo's gay history, it makes me wonder if it's on purpose and all a cover-up to have a technically different reason for it so they can get away with it lmao but we will never know.
#lee text#genshins#i can acknowledge how gay they are without liking thr ship#flashback to several kavetham/haikaveh (whatevwr their ship name is) shippers on here attacking me over not liking the ship#trying to “educate” me on why theyre sk gay and why i should ship it#look i didnt say they arent gay af. and these shippers dismissed my feelings completely#i think it was after that one event with the competition thing that kaveh won? idk but just they way they interacted#the way alhaitham talked to kaveh and the way kaveh responded TRIGGERED A TRAUMA RESPONSE IN ME#which made me dislike the ship and their dynamic! i didnt CARE if he was well meaning. the way he talked to kaveh#triggered a fight or flight response in me because it sounded similar to how ive been talked to and kaveh getting upset was similar to#how ive reacted to the same words. you can also argue my family cares about me like alhaitham does kaveh and its how he helps#but it doesnt mean its the kind of help we need and it doenst traumatize us lmao#so i dont get why people were so angry at me for getting triggered by this ship and disliking it for that reason#while i can still admit that they are gay af and seem to get a long a bit better after that and i can tolerate them now#since its been a while and i dont remember it enough to have a trauma response when seeing them anymore lmao#but its just annoying that shippers can be so toxic 💀 they care more about their fictional men ship than me. a real person. weird#not tagging the ship so i dont get more angry shippers in my notes....but they found me last time with no tags so hi. dont yell at me again!#but maybe no one will care since im putting my “anti ship propaganda” in the tags this time and not the main post lmao#just dont read my tags so you dont get mad at me for being uncomfortable by this ship dynamic. but if youre reading this...its too late#leave me alone they arent real and i am so im more important right 😅#let me shame the shippers that dismissed my real feelings because they think their ship is more important than a real person lmao#you cant tell me im wrong when a trauma response isnt a choice and happens against your will 💀#BE ASHAMED YOU NERDS#I WILL BITE YOUR KNEECAPS#sorry i just had to vent lmao
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My ass is NOT used to genuine words despite how much/how many times I receive them
#[ ★ nervo yaps ]#like okok I might tag this as venting#but like yes I get stuff like “I'm here for you” from my family and stuff#but it just feels so different and sm more meaningful for me to hear it from my friends#but even then it's like EXTREMELY complex and hard to explain#like it means the fucking world to me when a friend offhandedly affirms me#or like they indulge in my stupid rambles#with my family it just feels like the “love your family unconditionally” kind of thing if that makes sense#it takes out the genuine part for me for some reason idk#and my mom and sister call me Ajax or masculine terms as a way to get my attention or like fun at me and it doesn't even happen often#and my dad just straight up pokes fun at me#no jokes to be made#like again they rarely even acknowledge my identity as a trans man#they occasionally acknowledge me being bi#but rlly only my mom does#my dad just nods along kinda#like he agrees but he seems indifferent to the point where he just does not care#and not in a good way#It's also when a friend says “you deserve it” (looking at devil rn) I get all giddy#that's smth I don't hear often at ALL#and it's abt smth I hold dear?#like fr???#Idk. someone put me to bed I cannot be having these thoughts at almost 4 am
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#made it back to school last night from my childhood hometown in NC#i feel so strange... i got there on thursday afternoon and came back yesterday but i feel like that weekend lasted a month#i think i am in shock still.. the area i grew up in is so utterly and completely devastated i can hardly comprehend it#not to mention the surrounding states...#and even though we were just trying to survive while i was there and it was so so scary .. it was only temporary for me#i get to go home to my cushy apartment with running water and electricity while some of my closest friends and family are wondering#if they can get enough water#and so many have lost their livelihoods or even their lives#some of them have gotten water and power back but others are still stuck. and i feel like i am still there even though im not.#its like this weird anxious guilty numbness feeling that wont go away and gets worse whenever i turn on lights or see a case of water.#i dont live there anymore but I am so emotionally tied to that area ... and i was there for the storm and saw the aftermath#but its not actually my home so i feel like... i dont know what I feel actually.#but i dont feel good#and then i feel guilty for feeling bad too!! like I dont deserve to be upset or traumatized?? maybe i should go to therapy again...#idk if any of this even makes sense... and i dont mean to be all me me me during all of this. i guess I am just tired and need to vent a bi#anyway please please pray for the people affected by the hurricane. and if you can donate that would be so so wonderful.#it seems like it will be years for the area to fully recover. if it ever even does.#if youve read this far you have my apologies for my word slop... heres a heart for you 🩷 and a caterpillar 🐛 i think i need to go to bed#i have class and rehearsal tomorrow. even though all of that just seems kind of pointless to me right now#but maybe more sleep will help...#my post
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Does anyone know how to maneuver a relationship where they are interested in dating you but you were fine being old school acquaintances who don’t speak to each other
#tgdposts#personal#aroace#actually aroace#aromantic#asexual#ace#aro#asexuality#aromanticism#we’re hanging out at an undetermined point which I’m fine with I love hanging out but I can tell he’s into me and I feel neutral about it#good new is I’ve clearly grown since last time this scenario happened because I think I’m being less of a leading on asshole about it#also ideologically I’m not about assuming they want to date instead of be friends so I don’t want to assume anything#but based on how he’s talking to me I think he likes me which I obviously do not reciprocate#fond of me as the Brits say#he’s asked how my day/weekend was for the second time in all too short a timespan which I find telling#not that it irritates me but it’s obvious he wants to pursue SOMETHING#anyway just bc I said okay to hang for coffee does not mean I want to participate in this kind of online conversation he’s initiating#his eagerness to talk is telling and I already lowkey had vibes from him after the fall semester when he asked how my winter vacay was#I was like yeah I’m SUPER BUSY with family stuff and studying for my makeup exam#tbh thought that was the end of it until recently#this is mainly a vent post I guess if anyone has opinions feel free to share#I guess my broad struggle is that I’m learning how to be aroace and assume the best of a situation without leading people on#also I feel this kind of situation is almost inevitable if I want to make friends with guys even though having them want to date me#is not the most ideal start to a friendship with someone#ok to rb although idk why you’d want to
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Apparently after X many months of suicidal ideation you're supposed to actually make an attempt on your life but I am world's greatest loser and despite the fact that i think about wanting to die all the time my mum told me I'm not allowed to and so I haven't tried again. And that's why I have autism
#sophie speaks#tw vent#tw suicide#tw suicide ideation#rule following is so ingrained in me i wish i could break the law or something#or idk whatever normal rebellious things are#i kind of only work in extremes unfortunately#sooooo sick of existing it's soooo hard and painful and i mean that in a physical sense#eating hurts drinking hurts bathing hurts brushing your hair and teeth hurts looking at any light hurts#like bitch i am done w this shite tbh#throws my hat on the floor in a very british manner
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Finally deleted MyFitnessPal off my phone for my own personal sanity
#got some memories with that app#at first it was just sitting there bc I couldn’t stop myself from tracking the calories of some things#but after a 13 day streak shit could only get worse so I deleted it#proud of myself#that thing had me in chokehold last year did not want a repeat#tw myfitnesspal#tw mentions of eating disorder#random post#ooc post#kind of vent#???#started to wake up stressed out about what I’m gonna eat and I was like nooo not ts again#was literally restricting myself to 1200 cals a day AND IM 5’7#tw eating issues#sucks when you’re not even underweight so you don’t feel valid#waitttt I was not meant to trauma dump in this post#can we not bring being 2000s model skinny back into being trendy bc why are body types a tend in the first place#I can change fashion but definitely not my body#no bc this world is fucked up why was I scared to die alone bc I wasn’t skinny when I was literally 10#I hate that it’s normalized to praise people’s bodies#like idc if that makes me soft but a girl just living and everyone just talking about how good her body is#why is that okay bc yes it is positive but it also creates so many negatives#like does anyone get what I mean#it’s a compliment but it also makes everyone including that person afraid to be anything but ‘body goals’#idk how to explain it but like imo bodies shouldn’t serve aesthetic purposes#they actually have functions and needs and they allow us to live#tw body image issues#I hate wiead’s too but that’s just because why is everyone’s food so gourmet I literally just slap some butter onto toast lol#late night post
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sometimes i think about how me and my twin brother used to make elaborate plans about how our future homes would be right next to each other or connected somehow. for a long while we did live right next to each other and i mooched off his wifi from my front porch because i never got mine installed. now we live in the same house again. i hope we always stay close because those human-sized hamster tunnels between houses we always discussed would be really awesome to bring to fruition
#it’s so funny because if he weren’t my bro he’d be the LAST person i would wanna roommate with#but because he’s my bro the thought of not greeting him as soon as i leave my room each morning hurts#like. lately i’ve been considering looking into a dorm situation for myself so i can save on gas getting to college#and. i’m not throwing that out the window just yet. but i’m hesitant to leave home also#i think i just need to see him every day until things get better because being without him makes it worse#gear diary#i hope i never forget how hard it was to be without him though because it helps me keep my priorities straight#does this sound like some kind of vague vent post bc i don’t mean it that way. lmao. just been … idk lost in thot lately
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Plato-repulsed people don't need your pity just because a relatively common bond repulses us. We know it sounds difficult but its literally something we experience on a first hand basis. Why are you saying that it sounds hard to deal with instead of acknowledging that perhaps society should avoid making friendship(or any relationship type) the default??
#plato repulsion#vent#plato repulsed#actually plato repulsed#look I have no idea what that anon was on abt but I think that anon was being kind of aplphobic then tumblr glitched and didnt let me block#the anon. if that anon sees this maybe send something clarifying what you fucking mean and I guess if youre an aplphobe we'll just block#you lol#apl#friendship repulsed#friendship repulsion#aspec#aplatonic#apothiplatonic#platonormativity#Idk if that person was sympathising about it or treating plato repulsion as some sad pathetic thing but like. shrug
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Because I'm seeing more and more of them; I will not reblog posts that say you have to reblog them to be a good person, or posts that accuse people of being some variety if -phobic for not reblogging them - posts like that ring as awful for me, and I'm not going to be encouraging them.
#I'm bad at phrasing things and there are a hundred people who've said it better then me#but those kinds of posts are fucking awful for a lot of people with ocd#speaking as someone who struggles with it and knows other people who do#This doesn't mean I don't care#It just means as soon as I see 'Reblog if you care' or 'if you don't reblog you're -phobic' I'm not touching that shit with a ten foot pole#Don't reblog reblog bait#honey speaks#Venting#?#Idk if this counts as venting lol
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