#I have tremors now
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I’m gonna attempt to quit drinking alcohol again. I’m only having a drink now cause I’m scared of dangerous withdrawal symptoms. (Alcohol withdrawal can kill you)
any advice/suggestions/support are immensely appreciated 🌻
#personal#tw alcohol#alcoholism#binge drinking#i feel so sick#I can’t keep doing this to my body#i legit have been drinking non stop for weeks#I have tremors now#alcoholic tw#recovering alcoholic
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attempts with my new tablet
#my drawings#leokumi#man so now that im older and my wrists suck i dont think i adjust as easily to things anymore#my new tablet is both too sensitive (it picks up my tremor lol) and not sensitive enough (i cant have a feather light touch anymore)
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Cw: Snake!
Introducing, Kevin ✨
#I saw him at the expo but didn’t get him then regretted it later ;v;#as luck would have it the breeder lived in a town near me and number 6 the guy I wanted hadn’t sold at the show!!#I had everything I needed at home already so the breeder said she’d give me a deal if I just made the trip out to go get him :’] <3#so he's home now!! Everyone meet Kevin! (Named after Kevin Bacon who played Valentine the main character in the horror movie Tremors sdjgh)#tremors#Kevin#the pet tag#he’s no bigger than a pencil right now QvQ#kenyan sand boa#Cw snake#pet snake
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when i write my first-it's-beejhawk-but-then-bj-gets-cucked-by-mulcahy-because-he-doesn't-give-hawkeye-emotional-intimacy fic then you'll ALL see
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having a hypochondriac moment pray for me babes
#keep feeling like my muscles are weird? like some kind of tremors???#specifically if I turn my head one way sometimes it feels like my head is shaking a tiny bit#which -- I cannot stress this enough -- is probably normal#but it made me hyperaware now and I feel like I have some kind of tremor from neurodegenerative disease 😭#and like I can't walk normally and none of my muscles are normal#psychosomatic nonsense is... fun#and by fun I mean miserable 👍#Lu rambles#the hypochondriac blues
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learning to draw sonic characters for. reasons
they're so hard for me to draw their proportions are so different from how i draw anthros so i have to fight my own muscle memory ;-; this is my first somewhat successful attempt out of... a few (read: too many)
#the reasons may or may not be an au sonics mass attack i'm planning??? we'll see how things work out#new special interest alert. this has gotten to yugioh levels that's how you know i have The Brainrot#the way i draw sonic characters will definitely change as i find a happy medium between my style and the sonic style#but for Practice Reasons (i.e. i bad at drawing mobians) i tried to emulate the official style here#which is why it looks a little stiff lol#most of my drawing attempts were of scourge actually#what can i say. i'm a big fan of his transmasc swag and deviantart recolour energy#(scourge might sorta kinda maybe be my favourite sonic character and also one of my favourites of all time now)#(he rivals kaiba with how much i psychoanalyze him it's nuts)#toonagi art#digital art#artists on tumblr#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#sonic fanart#heehee funny blue hedgehog :]#unfortunately the new brush i've started using is very sensitive so yall get to see my shaky ass lineart#i'm just too awesome and swagful for straight lines i guess (<- has constant hand tremors)
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chinhands. life update
my car might be totaled and it wasnt my fault and im recovering from whiplash and the er doctor said i have some early stage osteo arthritis in my lower back and i dont have a lot of money and this does throw a wrench in my work/social/personal plans but i am like. coping? like im... vaguely sort of bummed out and my body hurts but im just like. okay. well. lets constructively talk to friends abt it and. go figure it out i guess.
#got rear ended by a big ass truck at a stop light and i have neurogenic tremors rn while i recover but im like (man shrugging emoji)#not being suicidal anymore and learning coping skills and now when shit hits the fan im like oh this sucks... well... i have work tomorrow.#its WEIRD not spiraling out at every inconvenience or crisis.#i feel like that hannibal buress gif. (looking at my hands.)#pipit txt
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A tad late, but here are some halloween drawings of Tweek and Craig based off the witch Tweek and cat Craig trend I've been seeing around on instagram :>
Their costume designs are based on the ones starrvmako drew for creek week!
(click for better quality!)
#fanart#south park#halloween#tweek#craig#sp creek#ive been changing my traditional art style lately because i have a tremor now#so my lines arent as clean any more#the reason most of my south park doodles ive been uploading have been from the summer is because im slowly losing my ability to draw#with pencil and paper at least#hands have started shaking uncontrollably#so i require the smoothing tool on CSP#but ill figure things out#ill get better i hope
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might actually cry at the kindness of strangers rn 😭 mentioned some of the health stuff i'd been dealing with lately + my seizures + how things are getting worse in a server and someone offered to send me their old wheelchair :) it's a standard medline foldable wheelchair and i'm unsure how well ill be able to self propel in it but. i'm literally so grateful and so so so appreciative i don't even care bc i did not have $150 to spend on that right now and like. everyone in my life who knows what's going on has been telling me to think about trying out a wheelchair for things like protesting where i have to stand for multiple hours bc currently i'm crashing so bad for days afterwards. and this will allow me at least to try this out and see if this is something that can help with that while we get started on the process of figuring out if i'm eligible for insurance coverage and stuff.
actually just. so so so so so fucking grateful rn. like. holy shit 😭
#personal#also yeah health update things have gotten so much worse lately !#chronic illness tag#am now at the point where going out and doing stuff is leaving me fatigued in bed for multiple days in a week#and having multiple seizures a week#and developing weird tremors and such#using my cane a lot more but i need more support so
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spiritually banging my head against a wall. every time i start having respiratory/throat/chest symptoms from my mcas, I immediately flash back to all the times I've had anaphylaxis and get terrible anxiety. Survival mechanism, yes. But also... I am not having fun and I have not had full blown anaphylaxis since the early days of post mold exposure. so like. let's take a deep breath and calm down, body
#vent#personal#mcas#might delete later im just grumpy right now#i get a tight chest and im like. SHIT. anaphylaxis?? mcas getting worse???? epipen?????#ive only needed the epi immediately once but that was enough#overwhelmed because I just want to find a doctor that can help me manage this shit but there are no specialists around here so#my options rn are an immunologist in maryland or a gi in louisiana...#my pcp is like yeah you prob have mcas and i have other patients w mcas but he isnt comfy managing my mcas or prescribing my cromolyn bc he#not a specialist!! which is fair enough!!!#completely understanding thirteen being scared to death in you dont want to know when she has tremors. and thinking its her huntingtons#bc i feel my chest and immediately think 'is this my mcas. am i being horrendously triggered by mold again'#the momentary dread of 'is it getting bad' before I can calm myself down (stress can make reactions WORSE 🫠)#differential diagnosis
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lithium is literally poisoning me but there is absolutely fucking nothing I can do about it
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Another snippet from the MOTA 90s clubbing AU!
(This time featuring Curt/Ken and the extent to which I had to bend space and time to make the Jude Law joke work)
“Long way from home, cowboy,” Curt said as he pulled a pack of cigarettes from his pocket and flipped the top open. “Want one?” He added, holding them up toward Gale, “they’re menthols.” Gale wasn’t usually one for smoking but his tongue was begging for something to do and he did like mint so he agreed, gingerly taking one out of the packet and holding it up for Curt to light.
“You wound me,” said Bucky from the opposite side of the table, holding one hand to his chest like a mother who’d just seen her child’s first tattoo. “You don’t want my smokes but you’ll take one from this…this... fiend.” “Oh, fiend, is it? That’s a new one,” Curt mumbled as Gale said,
“You didn’t offer.” “You don’t even drink!” Bucky spluttered, gesturing far too vigorously with his burning cigarette and earning a scornful look from the woman behind him. He shook his head mournfully. “I can’t believe this. I risk life and limb to get him in here and the first chance you get, you steal him away from me.” He pointed a finger from Gale to Curt. “He smokes menthols!” Bucky finished with a huff, crossing his arms and sticking out his lower lip in a petulant show of immaturity that shouldn’t have been nearly as endearing as it was. “Told you no-one wants to kiss a guy who smokes Lucky Strikes. How old are you, eighty?” Curt said with a shrug before turning to Gale. “They have character!” Bucky exclaimed. Curt just shook his head and turned back to Gale. “Though I hate to disappoint ya Buck but I got a feeling someone special is gonna be here tonight. So I’m afraid my heart belongs to another.” “The guy who looks like Jude law?” Bucky said, his eyebrows buried somewhere up in his hairline. “Dude, don’t do it. You totally struck out last time. I saw it, I wish I didn’t but I did and it was bad.” “Yeah but that doesn’t count because I don’t remember it.” Curt said as if that made any sense whatsoever. Then he stopped dead, his eyes taking on a slightly haunted look as he met Bucky’s gaze and said solemnly. “Never let me do G again.” “It’s not my fault some people can’t hack,” said Bucky before adding, “and to be fair it wasn’t all bad. I think he thought you were kinda funny, even after you started talking about how much you liked ‘Shopping’ which he had not seen because no-one except you and me have ever seen that movie and I only watched it because you made me… but then you started making that weird groaning noise and rubbing your palms on your jeans like a sex offender.” He paused for a second, the two of them cringing in unison, “Yeah...that was- that was rough, I’m not gonna lie, so probably don’t do that again.” “Don’t have to tell me,” Curt said, shaking his head to shake off the embarrassment, “That stuff is fuckin’ evil. I’ll be stickin’ with the classics from now on.”
#an extremely forced tremors reference?#on my blog?#it couldn't be#I can't help it if that is my main reference for cowboy-ish regions of the US#shopping is jude law's first big film btw#so Curt was clearly an early adopter#brief unconnected storytime: for the first 3 years of secondary school I sat next to a guy called Arshia in lots of lessons cus we were nex#to one another in the alphabet#and he loved jude law#so during IT lessons I would print out pictures of jude law and then use them to bribe him to do things#such as not be a wanker#then he moved away to canada and now I think he's a brain surgeon#I just wanna know how he feels about jude law now#Arshia man hit me up I just wanna talk#okay we can have the actual tags now#mota fanfic#mota#clegan#barry keoghan#raff law#curt/ken#ken lemmons#curtis biddick#masters of the air#cw drugs#drugs cw
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Suggestion: Daud doesn't die and Billie spares Outsider, so he gets to meet the old man
it's very strange to actually look down on the Outsider now that he can't float
bonus
(don't worry, Billie doesn't let him)
#dishonored#the outsider#daud#doto#I apologise for my godawful handwriting my hand tremor has been killing me#this prompt made me think of a whole sitcom-esque au#'you cannot keep blaming me for everything bad that ever happened in your life' 'all bad that ever happened is your fault'#'it's not I never told you to keep frowning. now you have all those wrinkles- BILLIE HELP'#ert#asks#still taking prompts btw#sorry for taking so long life isnt quite what I thought itd be and while working on another prompt my software crashed#and one last sorry if the images are Crunchy tumblr loves to chew up the quality and spit it back in my face
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stayed up late to play splatoon with my little sister who's on a horrible sleeping schedule rn and when I went to lay down in bed my joint pain and finger mobility suddenly felt so weird I couldn't control my hand (real) and I had a panic attack instantly thinking I wss having a stroke (not real) 😑 90% of the panic attacks I've had this year happened like as soon as I laid down to go to sleep. don't even know how to prevent it other then literally don't stop sleeping and napping in case you accidentally go over 12 hours of being awake and start to decline mentally. lying on back is the worst for anxiety even on a good day I can't stay like that without getting anxious for no reason and lying on my stomach is my preferred position but I can feel my heartbeat too much like that T_T and side isn't good either because I always have to switch and then I get scared.. not to mention how one side is going to feel uneven and make me think it's finally happening...
#the worst is that i know something is genuinely wrong and it makes everything im worried about more likely#when i worked as a dishwasher/general cleaning whatever i would walk for like 8 hours per shift 3 times a week#but every night i would come home feverish and it would last until days later when i was supposed to be in class#snd it didnt end for months even when i got used to it i kept getting so cold and feverish and constantly in pain and asleep i missed class#and a specific type of pain always comes with the fevers whuch is low back pain which when i first got it i was 18#and it made me collapse suddenly while walking down the stairs out of nowhere#thats when my hands started getting tremors and started having issues moving fingers right they lock and dont listen#and now im realizing the shape of my hands is so different now my fingers are so crooked and one finger has an obvious nodule on the joint#i thought it would get better because i thought antipsychotics caused my hand issues#but it just keeps getting worse and if it's like this now what will ot be like when im older#i know im b12 deficient i was hoping i couls solve that and not be in pain and tired but i think that's just a resultand not the cause#im in pain now too my body just hurts it was gone for a while but lately it's one of the worst and i didnt even do anything this time
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okay here is my review of Tremors (1990)
1. i have had three shots of whiskey
2. Reba McEntire shoots a big worm with an uzi
3. this is my first kevin bacon film and I Get It Now
4. the practical effects were NOT convincing but they WERE very cool
all in all 10/10 no notes. perfect movie for knocking back a few drinks and going mental.
#titi talks#tremors#my mom kept having to answer questions about the funeral on saturday and eventually she just stopped answering the phone#im not kidding val and ronda are going to consume me#if i wasn't ben 10 brained right now#sometimes a movie is stupid but its very charming and fun. and it means everything
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im gonna be honest i havent thought abt DBD in like a solid 2 1/2 yrs but seeing the unknown mothgerfuckner crawling up like that is making me want 2 redownload it again
#they are so fucking DISGUSTING i love it#dbd is supposed 2 be a horror game and it like royally sucked ass the past 2yrs so i just dropped it#esp being a killer all the moris were so scuffed i felt like i was being tbagged by the entity every time i logged on#but im significantly more interested in it now wtf#his moveset is also pretty chill and since im not having weird seizure/tremor time anymore i can def play killer better#excited#hrmngh choices#toby speaks#prince speaks#collective talks#dead by daylight#dbd
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