#I could really go for some fried Oreo’s rn

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Okay but mumbo it’s giving red velvet Oreo

(Or maybe I’m just hungry)

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A Day at the Fair

My submission for the ironstrange fanfic challenge!

Prompt: 

Tony drags Stephen out on a date to the fair, despite Stephen insisting he doesn’t want to go. Tony spends the whole day trying to show Stephen how much fun it is until finally, Stephen breaks down and confesses the real reason he didn’t want to come today. 

Tags:

Omega Stephen Strange, Alpha Tony Stark, high school au

Tony grinned, practically vibrating with excitement as he rolled out of bed. Every year he and Stephen went to the fair, the closest thing their tiny town had to offer for fun. He grabbed his phone from his nightstand.

T: Heeeeeey Steph~

S: Tony? What is it?

T: Well I was wondering if you would like to accompany me to the fair this fine day, as per our usual tradition

Stephen took a few minutes to reply. Tony set down his phone, brushed his teeth, dressed, and sat down for breakfast. Stephen still hadn’t replied. Then, as he was pouring cereal, his phone dinged.

S: Idk. I’m not feeling up to it rn

T: Okay… do you wanna come over and hang out then? My parents are out of town… I could even sneak a bottle of wine for us

S: Eh… let’s just go to the fair.

Tony smiled.

T: Great! I’ll pick you up in an hour?

S: Sure

The fair was loud and hot and crowded. It reminded Tony of every fantastic summer with Stephen he could think of. Tony squeezed Stephen’s hand, but Stephen didn’t squeeze back.

“Hey, Steph, are you okay? You seem a little off-color.”

Stephen bit his lip.

“Just tired I guess. I have a bit of a headache.”

“Oh, I’m sorry.” Tony leaned up and kissed Stephen’s cheek, then down to his unmarked scent gland. “Maybe we can sit down near the back? Have some lunch? I have Asperin too if you need it. We can even go back home if you’d like. Anything for you,” Tony said.

Stephen smiled softly.

“Lunch sounds good.”

He finally squeezed Tony’s hand back.

“Ugh, don’t they have anything remotely healthy?” Stephen bitched, scrunching up his face at the third deep-fried Oreo stand they passed.

“Oh? Are you doing another vegan kick or something?”

Stephen shook his head, cheeks pink.

“Uh- no. No, just trying to eat a little healthier, that’s all.”

“Can you take a break for today?” Tony asked. God knew he wasn’t planning on eating well today.

“Well… I mean…” Stephen worried his lip between his teeth. “I’d just feel better if I ate healthily, that’s it.” He didn’t meet Tony’s eyes.

They finally found something reasonably healthy- chicken tenders and lemonade- and sat down at a table under a large tree. Somewhere in the background, a band was playing. Stephen picked at his food while Tony happily munched away.

“After this do you want to go on a ride?” tony asked.

Stephen shook his head.

“No rides.”

“Why? Are you still not feeling well?”

Stephen didn’t meet Tony’s eyes, electing instead to look off into the never-ending distance, hazy with the feeling of the fair, a haziness that stayed in Stephen’s mind and mulled like a roiling, humid cloud of every problem that had ever graced him. The heat clung to his skin. His stomach turned and he looked down, his arms folded over his abdomen. Tony could smell the scent of unhappy omega from across the table.

“Yeah. Not feeling great,” he lied.

Tony’s eyes were so warm and comforting that Stephen’s stomach couldn’t help but crawling higher into his throat and nestling there like some sort of weak and defenseless baby bird. Stephen’s cheeks were hot with shame.

“Are you sure that’s everything? Please tell me if something’s bothering you, Stephen. I love you. I want to help.”

Stephen’s stomach churned and he ran to the nearest trashcan and threw up. Tony leaped to his feet and rushed over but Stephen waved him away.

“Oh God- oh God Stephen!” Tony cried.

“I’m- I’m fine,” Stephen coughed. He wiped his mouth and downed his lemonade, popping a few breath mints into his mouth. He let out a low groan and took a deep breath.

“Jesus Stephen, let’s go home. You’re sick. You need to rest.” “No. You brought me here on a date. We’re staying.” The resolution in Stephen’s voice felt strong and clear and hard and unwavering, the same way a freshly poured asphalt highway stretches on and on and on until it dissolves into a dazzling mirage. Endless and resolute in a way that made Tony feel tiny in comparison.

“Are you sure?”

“Yes.”

Stephen ate his last chicken tender and tossed the tray.

“Maybe we can try at one of those fair games,” Stephen offered.

“Aren’t they all rigged?”

“Well that makes winning more impressive,” Stephen said with a grin.

Stephen took Tony’s hand and they walked through the fair before stopping at a booth: balloons and darts. Stephen bent over, looking at the booth. Then there was a loud whistle and a squeak from Stephen that had Tony’s alpha growling in his chest. Tony turned and snapped at the fuck boy alpha that currently had his hand on his omega’s ass. Stephen turned and slapped the guy’s hand away, face red and furious. His blue-green eyes burned like two twin stars hovering above the ocean horizon.

“Hey sweet-cheeks, what’s a pretty little omega like you doing with a boring alpha like him?” the guy said with a thousand-watt smile.

“Not interested.”

“Aw, come on baby, don’t be like that.”

“He said he’s not interested,” Tony growled.

The guy rolled his eyes.

“Fine, tightass.”

He stalked away and Stephen’s resolve broke. His entire body drooped and he sank into his seat, the smell of pure displeasure and unhappiness radiating from him like a morning fog over a valley. Tony sighed and pulled Stephen to his chest, holding him tight.

“Fuck Stephen- I’m so sorry.”

“Not your fault,” Stephen mumbled.

But there was a flat sort of grey hanging in his eyes and Tony knew it wasn’t okay, but he also knew there was nothing he could ever do. Tony held him close, whispering gentle things into Stephen’s ears.

“Hey, I saw what happened.” Tony looked up to see the carnival stand girl looking apologetic at the two of them. “I don’t know if this would make you feel better, but would you like to play a few rounds for free? It’s on the house.”

Tony smiled and looked to Stephen.

“Does that sound fun?”

Stephen shrugged, laying his chin on the counter.

“You play. I’ll watch.”

Tony nodded, a plan in mind. He missed the first shot but nailed the next four. Then he aimed for the bright yellow balloon titled ‘10,000 points.’ It was tiny, underinflated, and unlikely to pop from elasticity tension. Tony ran a few trajectory equations through his head, nibbling at his lip. He had two darts left. Gravity was his best bet, if he could arc the dart so it landed into the balloon, he might stand a chance. All the other balloons were one point, and by now, he could maybe get Stephen one of those cute little teddy bears, but he wanted to get Stephen something bigger. Like that giant fluffy round hamster plushy the size of Tony’s body.

The first dart missed, bouncing off the board and falling to the ground. Tony took a deep breath and tossed the last dart in a high arc, watching as it fell and fell and fell and gained velocity until it popped the yellow balloon with a loud snap.

Stephen grinned and clapped and Tony did a little dance. The girl grinned.

“Congratulations! What prize would you like?”

Tony grinned and pointed up at the massive hamster. The girl pulled down the hamster and passed it to Tony who promptly passed it to Stephen.

“Hey, I know today hasn’t been great, but I’m really glad I got to spend time with you today. You never fail to make me happy, even when the whole world feels bad, and I want you to know I want to be there for you, on all the good days and bad.”

Stephen looked at the hamster, then back at Tony. He sniffled and broke down in tears.

“Oh God- Stephen? Was it something I said? Are you okay? Oh God, I’m so sorry!” Tony stammered.

Stephen whimpered, tears pouring down his face. Then he turned and ran, the hamster in his arms as he wove through the crowd and through carnival stands. Tony stared after him, heart sinking. He stood there for a second before taking off after Stephen.

It took him twenty minutes to find Stephen in one of the animal shows, surrounded by cages of fluffy baby bunnies. He was crying silently into the hamster, squeezed tight in his arms. Tony knelt beside him.

“Stephen?” His voice was soft. Something was very wrong. “Please… please just tell me what’s wrong. I want to help you.”

Stephen looked away. His chest was so full of lead he couldn’t bring himself to speak. He felt heavy and dense, like an ancient tree rooted to the ground, bark worn by the elements but still there. Unmoving. Unable to move.

“Please.”

Stephen let out a choked whimper.

“I don’t know if I’m ready to tell you.” His voice was cracking and frail. So weak. But it was the truth.

“That’s okay. I just want to make sure you’re safe… are you safe?” Tony asked, taking Stephen’s hands in his.

Stephen nodded.

“It’s just… I don’t know.” Stephen hung his head.

“It’s okay not to know,” Tony whispered. “Do you want to go home now?”

Stephen shook his head.

“I want to ride the Ferris Wheel. Like we do every year.”

Tony smiled softly and hugged Stephen, staying there for a second, the way a curling vine of ivy finds comfort in cracked bark, grey with exhaustion. They stayed there for a bit, nestled amongst the animal cages and beneath the flair of the crowded festival like the world was fog and they were the grass, rooted in place.

Stephen moved first, reaching up and pulling himself to his feet and then reaching for Tony to help him up.

“You know, you’re the best alpha I could have ever wished for,” Stephen said with a small, bittersweet smile.

“Well… I couldn’t have asked for anyone better to fall in love with,” Tony responded.

“Do you promise you’ll always be with me? Through everything?” Stephen asked, squeezing Tony’s hand.

“Of course. I love you, Stephen. And nothing can ever make me stop.”

Tony leaned up and kissed Stephen softly, sweetly. Stephen let his eyes drift closed and he savored every single saccharine second.

They found the Ferris Wheel easily. It was the center of the fair, after all. And one long line later they were sitting in a car going up and up and up. Stephen fidgeted quietly. It was funny how the second all you needed was time it seemed to twist and turn and go faster and faster so blindingly fast you can barely even remembered what you prepared to say. When the carriage got halfway up its arc Stephen bit his lip, letting out a little, tightly-wound sigh.

“Tony… I need to tell you what’s wrong. I’ve been avoiding it all day, but… I just wanted one last good day with you before it all changed.” Stephen looked over the edge of the carriage and let out a dry chuckle. “Although I suppose I ruined my chance at that, too.”

“What- what are you talking about?” Tony’s voice was on edge.

“I-I’m pregnant.”

Stephen stared at Tony full-on. He kept searching for something other than shock but it was like combing a beach for something that just wasn’t there. Stephen’s hands started to shake.

“T-Tony? Please say something.”

Stephen’s voice sounded so small. He felt so small.

“Am I- Am I the dad?” Tony finally asked.

Anger flared deep in Stephen’s gut and for a moment he wanted to slap Tony off of the stupid Ferris Wheel.

“Of course you’re the father!” Stephen snapped. “You fucking idiot- you really think I’m screwing a dozen alphas behind your back?”

His scent soured and he turned away, glaring. Tony stayed quiet.

“Whatever. You probably want to break up with me now anyways. Just do it. I don’t want to have you pretend to care about this. I’ll just… forget about my full-ride to Columbia. I doubt my parents will even let me go. They want me to stay on the farm and become a good obedient little housespouse omega.” Stephen let out an involuntary whimper. Tears were pouring down his cheeks and he hugged himself. “I thought I was going to be happy… I thought I was going to have a future, but I- I don’t know anymore!”

The whole world felt like it was collapsing, folding in an compressing into one invincible singularity stuck in Stephen’s windpipe. Everything was spinning and hot and his head hurt so so much… Stephen closed his eyes and buried his face in his hands, sobbing.

Then, Tony gently wrapped his arms around Stephen, pulling the crying omega to his chest.

“Shh… it’s okay. I’m sorry, I just… I’m a father…” A small smile appeared on Tony’s face. “I couldn’t believe it. But Stephen, whatever you choose to do, this is your choice, and I will back you up 1,000%. I love you, and I meant it when I said I would stay with you no matter what. I know how much medical school means to you, and I swear that I can help you take care of our child so you can study if you choose to keep it. You don’t need to give up your dream, your dream can always stay. If you choose not to keep it, then I’ll be there for you too. No matter what you choose, we’re in this together.”

Stephen let his hands fall away from his face and his head plop on Tony’s shoulder. He was still crying and shaking, but this time from happiness. Tony wasn’t leaving him. He wasn’t going to be stuck alone on a farm his whole life. He would be okay. They would be okay.

He turned and tackled Tony in a hug, enough to rattle their cart. Tony laughed and held them as they reached the top of the Ferris Wheel, watching as the sun set over the fair and the town and everything surrounding it and turned it all to gold.

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undercover brother (2002) review

sup been a while but didnt forget about yall and your eager butts to dive head first right in the flooding words coming out of my mouth today gonna rev "undercover brother" (2002), its gonna be solid guys

so we start with an introduction where we talk about how black culture was losing its flavour after the 70s, progress was slowed down n all as we reached 2000 but dont be fooled, its all cause of a buncha events orchastred by "the man"... a big racist mf ig whos also the kkk equivalent of the team rocket boss, sitting in a ig chair, never see his face in the flashbacks or like the bad guy in inspector gadget, more like him ig since we actually see the team R boss face quite often nonetheless, theres a form of mystery folding this whole business... THE MAN acts in the shadows and he hates to see how dark those are, he wants things to be like it used to be back in slavery times good oltime for him but.. not for the fam

ofc then here is introduced THE REAL MAN OF MEN => undercover brother, our hero and damn he has the style of a whole pack of elephants trampling around in pink disco suits every ladies wanna a piece of that sweet fro he is packing up on his head, funky

ngl, the whole way this mov is filmed n edited is sike asf, dope guys especially considerin its actually made in 2002, loving it anyway then were also introduced to the other secondary protags who are from an organisation here to stop The Mans evil doings and careful: undercover bro was actually a solo act until now cause now they gonna collaborate all throughout da mov: its the B.R.O.T.H.E.R.H.O.O.D, with conspiracy brother (tbh a fav here, guys wack like the whole plot guy thinks computer comes from a story involving peanut and idk guys he keeps rambling bout bs which makes him a+ character) smart brother, chief and sister girl (original name/10)

so btw the organization is on a mission rn at the beginning to destroy The Man (lets call him tm for the rest of this rev) financial infrastructure aka funds to stop him better or smthg and it gets spicy as they get caught but ofc undercover bro barges in from nowhere wow big disguise as an old man no one noticed him so like slash bawow boom vlam, bad guys ko and he squeedaddle out of there like twas breeze gg man, he also get fed a nice editing of xrays battle like with a side of kungfu n whatnot, undercover bro knows his stuff

nice sounds effects ah yes btw romantic intrigue with sister girl begins here, its the zinc of the flinch as ub (undercover brother) notices her big wink wink nudge nudge, btw later she is asked to go enlist him in the corps so he can help stop the man with them n shit and he trynna get her in his bed cause thats we this brother is used to, getting laid as soon as he meets a chick, who can resist this dude?

he gots moves, fro, style, skills and also at times he is a pussy but k, not everyones perf sometimes you just simp for a white blond blue eyed woman (spoiler) and crawls on all four looking like a big preppy nerd btw in this review im trynna not spoil the whole plot cause guys, this movie gotta be on yo watch list kay? im not here to ruin this experience in yo life itd be pretty uncool of me so im just gonna state the big lines then its up to you to swoop the tiny ones out of the watch, knot your own breds n stuff

back on the whooper slapping: intro credits roll, we get some nice back story for our hero, making sure we can understand his cause in saving the black peeps from TMs assholery might truth n justice be your guide

so what the big plot then? well yknow how a big antag cant do shit on his own cause hes too busy sticking brooms up his ass in his private quarters? yea well same goes here so there this gay guy who will be twerking later on btw, a scene to behold, rumps to ogle at, so hes a bad guy and gay n gonna do most of the dirty work for TM, whats new? idk what to think of it yknow its a stereotype in movs so ig ok still uncool but ill see it as all in good spirit cause theres bad n good im not excepting this to be the best watch of my life, nah it wasnt either, but i had a good laugh kay? makes up for it cause unlike some here i got no shit up my ass alley its clean scrubbed up n down so i can smoothly take a chillax up n a shit out without a night tormented by constipation, nah its all sliding where it should no pain no sweat

so the big lines is that a war hero whos a black man is gonna become president and wtf no is the only react racist mf could have which is what they have, bad guys gonna stop it from happening at once and the brotherhood aint letting it happens cause obvs something is wrong as every black peeps gonna turn into a stereotype like waddup in this mad world? its all because of the poisonous fried chicken brand TM will get around ty to another poison to make our war hero delusional n so on were also introduced to white evil she-ra later btw, just dropping this in cause undercover brother really wants to make oreos with her n sister girl (his words) ig shes the second love interest, im not too invested in this romantic intrigue it was just necessary not like twas very developped anyway its even more of a bedroom intrigue when it comes the the white blue eyed blond chick, sister girl before hoes yo

whats it in conclusion about this movie? first, the plot: hilarious biznasty worthy a+ bs especially how its turned yknow, the clichés were turned upside down n if not theyre just turned into a big satire of themselves editing + music ? yknow its actually good, and funky asf im digging it, a travel in time nostalgia of times i lived acting is pretty neat its not an ironically good movie cause its hilariously ridiculous in the making way its all about the plot here, plot twists and characters, the whole universe ig like its superior to big mamma sorta plot or maybe im dropping this comparison cause its been a while since i saw big maam, for sure twas under estimated while over brought when this here? it got freshness packed in

the spoiling was light and this is cause this movie got a 69/10 rating jk 8/10 if were gonna be serious, im gonna list wats unwoke n uncool here: 1 gay villain stereot, gotta be honest here its not that big of a deal tme seeing when it was made and how i still laughed yknow idc this much but some could go apeshit over it 2 not enough conspiracy brother content: this is all i ask for 3 had no snacks while watching the movie, too bad id dig a aj or grape soda right about now n then 4 more lines for car wash chicks jk this last one idc about, but car wash representation is lacking once again in american movies, i cant believe how looked over it is, as if they didnt need smore rep in the medias its not an easy job washing car all day long, standin in those ghost buster lookin suit while staring at the hot guys in hot wheelys, whos gonna pay you a drink when youre just an old carwash lady? thought finally a hero would step up in this movie but there it goes thrown out da window, the potential was real until it got blown away sure sister girl was a solid character but give the washers some credits cut them a slack of free time n have a lil date together there on top of a truck to keep it native

nonetheless this is a top rec for anyone who feels like slipping into some conspiracy slippers

tg, out

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Welcome back fren, I always love to have you in my inbox <3

✂️ - Got any Piercings?

I do have my ears pierced, yes, but it has been so goddamn long since I’ve worn any earrings (and I’ve been on and off about making sure they stay pierced) that I probs won't be surprised if I ever do wear earrings again they’ll be closed 

🎤 - Top 5 favorite bands?

I have a general rule of thumb that for me to “like” a band I need to have three or more songs of theirs on my playlists, sooooooo going with that:

Marianas Trench

Panic! at the Disco

Pentatonix

Fall Out Boy

IDK Imagine Dragons I guess

I appear to be basic, yes, but you can pry these guys from my cold, dead hands (also despite mainly being Cover Artists (tho PTX could be one, not really sure about the nomenclature on that lol), Home Free and Voice Play are such Gods of Acapella as well please give them a look)

🔥 - Something spicy you like?

BOY DO I LOVE SPICY FOODS. And that’s not sarcasm at all I love me some spice. But I am also Northern so my little baby tongue cannot handle too much riiiip. I always tell myself Imma get a little hotter every time but then I find myself only going one step above (the same one btw) over and over again and crying every time regardless

Anyways as for the spicy thing I like I love wings. BWW is a good restaurant when they’re not having a bad night (the wings only have BBQ on them but shhhh don’t tell anyone that)

💭 - Favorite foods?

LISTEN,,, I LOVE PIZZA SO FUCKING MUCH. I WENT ON A BAND TRIP TO FLORIDA IN HIGH SCHOOL AND LITERALLY MANAGED TO HAVE PIZZA EVERYDAY AT LEAST ONCE

But yeah outside of that I do love me some generic junk food. Also, Beef Jerky when soft and salty? Mmmmm that’s good. I also love (Mega Stufed, YES IT ONLY HAS ONE F I’M NOT YANKING YOUR CHAIN) Oreos and anything overly sweet. I eat frosting straight from the can yo, I can’t be stopped. Cheese Curds are my kryptonite, esp the greasy fried ones from like the County Fair

I’m not the healthiest person lmao

🎥 - Top 5 favorite movies?

Oh man, gotta get my brain thonking for this one

Kubo and the Two Strings (ANYTHING LAIKA TBQH DOH)

PCU

The Greatest Showman

Is saying Disney in general cheating. I’d say it’s not

UNO THE MOVIE This question is just reminding me how much I don’t watch that many movies anymore, and no not because of Quarantine. My God, my attention span just gets worse and worse doesn’t it

👟 - Favorite shoe(s) to wear?

Outside of Fluffy Slippers, tennis shoes that don’t squeeze my feet to death and are actually somewhat soft are always nice. I’m still wearing one pair rn even though I probably should have taken them off when I got home lol

🐶 - Do you own a pet?

I specifically don’t, but as of this post’s posting, my family and I have a cat (that I’m still not sure what breed she is, RIP) and a Great Dane, who’s the biggest dumbass to ever exist but we love him anyway

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i was tagged by @trevorfindsthestrals (LOOK i finally got internet access on my laptop again!! Sorry it took so long) 1. Coffee or tea? tea, i had my first cup of coffee on like thursday last week 2. Black and white or color? black or soft, but not pastel, colours 3. Drawings or paintings? idk, whatever is more moving in that moment i guess 4. Dresses or skirts? dresses because i never know how to match with a skirt 5. Books or movies? how DARE you make me choose, i think books, but i wanna make movies (potentially havent really explored that yet) so it seems like the wrong answer 6. Pepsi or Coke? i dont drink fizzy drinks 7. Chinese or Italian? definitely italian on an everyday basis but i LOVE chinese too 8. Early bird or night owl? its almost midnight and i havent started my reading for tomorrow, that counts as an answer right? 9. Chocolate or vanilla? chocolate, unless its a milkshake 10. Introvert or extrovert? introvert, i don’t really like people 11. Hugs or kisses? ive never been kissed so hugs 12. Hunting or fishing? aesthetics of hunting but uh with fishing you can not put a hook on the line and just kinda sit there and chill without looking like the animal lover that your family judges you for being 13. Winter or summer? yes. idk im probably more of a summer person, but i also really like the implications of winter in that everything has to die in order to be reborn, plus i can’t really breathe in the heat, but i also have poor circulation in my extremities so the cold sucks ass 14. Spring or fall? spring, i like the crisp air of fall dont get me wrong, but the rebirth and the petrichor after a spring rain with a crisp breeze that doesnt chill you is just so relaxing 15. Rural or urban? i grew up in the woods so rural but i need to at least be kinda close to a hospital to avoid panicking  16. PC or Mac? pc 17. Tan or pale? is this preference, cuz i dont have one of those, but i am so white that i was the same color as my cheer uniform in high school 18. Cake or pie? cake, i dont like pie crust 19. Ice cream or yogurt? frozen yogurt tbh, it jsut tastes fresher and less heavy 20. Ketchup or mustard? my brother likes to mock me for how much i loved ketchup when i was like 7 as if it was yesterday 21. Sweet pickles or dill pickles? i dont like pickles 22. Comedy or mystery? can we do a hybrid where its like theyre fighting crime but have no ability to act serious, cuz im basically writing a comic book like that with @spectralflutterbeast 23. Boots or sandals? i live in a colder wetter climate so usually boots, but i love sandals 24. Silver or gold? i like white gold typically because its often a mix, it has the matching ability of silver with the warmth in color of gold 25. Pop or Rock? i grew up on steve miller and journey from my mom and simon & garfunkel from my dad 26. Dancing or singing? all i can think of is my shitty karoke the other night, so uh dancing, at least i don’t suck more at that when im drunk 27. Checkers or chess? checkers is easier and i could probably actually win, but chess is more likely to hold my attention 28. Board games or video games? we used to do family board game nights (im currently holding the winnign streak for clue because any games played without everyone dont count) (my extended family is also obsessed with card games, its how we bond, we talk shit and play cards) 29. Wine or beer? wine if i have to have one of these, i dont like fizzy stuff ever so no beer but wine dries out my mouth 30. Freckles or dimples? i have freckles, and i love it when people have dimples 31. Honey mustard or BBQ sauce? i guess bbq 32. Body weight exercises or lifting weights? idk what body weight exercises includes but i have always liked lifting weights, its something im fairly good at 33. Baseball or basketball? BASEBALL IS THE BEST I LOVE IT, i miss playing it so much but its been too long for me to feel comfortable joining an intramural team 34. Crossword puzzles or sudokus? sudoku...i think 35. Facial hair or clean shaven? preference right, um stubble.... im not big on full beards (probs cuz my dad has always had one, seriously pics from when he was 20 we are the exact same but he has a beard, he says he hasnt shaved his upper lip since he was 16) clean shaven is nice too tho 36. Crushed ice or cubed ice? i prefer no ice, but if i have to i like that ice you get in hospital cafeterias 37. Skiing or snowboarding? never been 38. Smile or game face? smirking, its the happy medium 39. Bracelet or necklace? i feel naked without any piece of my jewelry (watch on right wrist, a bracelet on my left, a necklace for me to fidget with, both sets of earrings) 40. Fruit or vegetables? fruit 41. Sausage or bacon? bacon 42. Scrambled or fried? scrambled unless its on toast 43. Dark chocolate or white chocolate? dark chocolate 44. Tattoos or piercings? i have two sets of piercings and i just got my first tattoo last month 45. Antique or brand new? antique unless its something i would feel like i couldnt be comfortable using, i always wind up with a very eclectic mix 46. Dress up or dress down? dress down, never really have a reason to dress up 47. Cowboys or aliens? cowboys, space gives me anxiiety 48. Cats or dogs? dogs 49. Pancakes or waffles? depends on who is making the pancakes 50. Bond or Bourne? uhhhh what 51. Sci-Fi or fantasy? fantasy 52. Numbers or letters? letters 53. Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings? lotr tbh 54. Fair or theme park? fair, i grew up in puyallup (look it up, i can even sing the old theme song) 55. Money or fame? money, i want to buy my parents and aunt nice things 56. Washing dishes or doing laundry? laundry (no icky wet food pieces!) {this is what @trevorfindsthestrals had i just could not have said it any better myself} 57. Snakes or sharks? ummm snakes? cuz theyre smaller and i can run from them if theyre dangerous 58. Orange juice or apple juice? orange 59. Sunrise or sunset? sunsets seem more satisfactory to me 60. Slacker or over-achiever?.....i dont’ know how to answer this question 61. Pen or pencil? pencil, unless im worried about it smudging, then i bought some erasable pens for that 62. Peanut butter or jelly? peanut butter is more filling but i make jam every year so theres that 63. Grammys or Oscars? oscars 64. Detailed or abstract? why cant we do both, like a painting that is overall abstract but the closer you get the more you see the things that make it what it is, ya know, like life 65. Multiple choice questions or essay questions? idk multiple choice questions are harder to get wrong for not having enough info about a particular topic, but im good at and enjoy bsing things 66. Adventurous or cautious? i wish i was more adventurous but insecurities 67. Saver or spender? yes 68. Glasses or contacts? i dont wear either 69. Laptop or desktop? laptop 70. Classic or modern? what medium 71. Personal chef or personal fitness trainer? i would like a personal trainer until i get back in the habit of it and then i would jsut need a gym buddy 72. Internet or cell phone? cell since you cna get internet on your phone 73. Call or text? social anxiety so texting  74. Curly hair or straight? mine is beach wavy 75. Shower in the morning or shower in the evening? ive been showering in the morning because i like what it does to my hair 76. Spicy or mild? spicy please 77. Marvel or DC? wonder woman was my first favorite character, like about the time that bugs life came out because i obviously had two and the other was Flick  78. Paying a mortgage or paying rent? rent, i like assurance but i dont like permanence 79. Sky dive or bungee jump? never been but uh im not that trusting so i probably am jsut gonna go with a no 80. Oreos or Chips Ahoy? chewy chips ahoy 81. Jello or pudding? jello 82. Truth or dare? im a chicken so truth 83. Roller coaster or Ferris wheel? roller coaster, ferris wheels are all of the fear with none of the fun 84. Leather or denim? I NEED BOTH I CANT CHOOSE 85. Stripes or solids? stripes and fat people lol no, solids for me 86. Bagels or muffins? bagels probably 87. Whole wheat or white? whole wheat 88. Beads or pearls? pearls, my mother was a jeweler for 13 years, i cant not 89. Hardwood or carpet? hard wood in a hall, tile or linoleum in the kitchen and bathroom and then carpet everywhere else 90. Bright colors or neutral tones? uhhhh for what, cuz it really depends  91. Be older than you are or younger than you are? i want to be like 34, not rn obviously, im enjoying being 20 and stupid, but i feel like 34 is a good age, of course thats abotu how old my bros were when i idolized them so that might be reflective of that 92. Raisins or nuts? raisins, partially because every time my dad sees nuts he says nuts for the nutty and it has become a conditioned response for me now 93. Picnic or nice restaurant? picnic 94. Black leather or brown leather? brown 95. Long hair or short hair? mines somewhere in the middle 96. “Ready, aim, fire” or “Ready, fire, aim”? wtf does the second even mean 97. Fiction or non-fiction? fiction 98. Smoking or non-smoking? i have asthma 99. Think before you talk or talk before you think? i wish i could think before i talk more than i actually do 100. Asking questions or answering questions? i like to listen to people imma tag: @kiavachiisanoob @warriorsatthedisco @colecast1 and anyone lookinng for an excuse to do one of these

[shark-fiend]

1- none , I use the phone's music player

2- messy as shit

3- brown

4- kinda , might . change it. idk.

5- single

6- erratic , boring , tiring

7- dark brown

8- I don't drive but my dad's car is an old black Mercedes

9- pingo doce

10- weird gay fuck boy but also lazy

11- prob tumblr , I use it the most

12- its . idk the size , its a big one ? Idk if its what you would call queen sized.

13- a brother and a sister , both older

14- maybe in the us . or Canada . just because.

15- I don't use Snapchat anymore but the big mouth one was cool

16- I don't use makeup

17- oh boy . depending on my mood , I might shower almost everyday or spend the entire week without a shower (which is the case RN)

18- uh. Prob CSI ? Or some comedy

19- 37-38 in European sizes

20- 4'11 feet/1.50 m

21- sneakers

22- nope

23- good question. Could be anything really , just as long as its fun. And food. French fries are important

24- I think. 2 euros. Which is what I have in total

25- black and red

26- 1

27- no

28- some

29- made a dog go blind when I was a kid. made my dad be a drunk . I've done a lot.

30- prob vanilla , its nice

31- Daniel , Duarte , Ricardo

32- Sara , Sónia , Joana

33- prob Ryan Renolds

34- idk

35- ain't got one

36- don't really watch many movies but deadpool 2 was pretty good

37- not really , I had an harry potter phase tho , I read all the books in 5th grade

38- ain't got none , but prob brains

39- Ju , JuMigas , Brunt , Toasty Boy , Biddy , you name it

40- 3 or 4 , my family only goes there in extreme urgencies

41- oof ok , 1- this is home, cavetown , 2- lemon boy , cavetown , 3- lovesick boys , Conan Gray , 4- candles , daughter (Conan Gray cover) , 5- the judge , twenty one pilots , 6- dance to joy division , the wombats , 7- death of a bachelor , panic! at the disco , 8- pigeon , cavetown 9- green , cavetown and 10- talk to me , cavetown

42- not really , I do take painkillers almost daily tho

43- uh tbh idk , prob oily

44- public humiliation

45- prob 2

46- undercut , the top swept to one side and quite often the hairs in front of my forehead

47- guess its a medium

48- none

49- I don't remember

50- a keymash to a group chat

51- I never really believed in him

52- none

53- hate it

54- no

55- just being a cashier

56- prob would like to live in suburbs considering I live in a rural area and we don't have anything here

57- never been to an hotel

58- I think I have some on my hands , but apart from that , I don't think so

59- sometimes , mostly I make silly faces

60- 1463 apparently

61- yes

62- yes

63- we don't have Wendy's , so McDonalds

64- garlic sauce

65- hoodie and shorts usually

66- we didn't have those

67- drawing , playing uke , singing , taking walks

68- ye I guess

69- uke

70- a wix concert when I was a lil kid

71- both

72- never tried either of those

73- not really , divorcing costs way too much

74- don't got one.

75- but im not going to get married

76- black or grey I guess. Maybe dark red

77- yeah

78- closed always

79- kinda

80- annoying old portuguese men in public transports

81- my dad

82- kit kat or oreos . if there's a skittles one , that too

83- regular

84- rainbow

85- a grey hoodie of which I haven't changed out of since the start of the wrek

86- something someone drew for me. Might change it soon tho

87- I guess shy

88- yes

89- kinda . could stop screaming at midnight about their cats tho

90- no I do not , I'm gross

91- I don't think so

92- ye

93- oreo mousse

94- "blow out all the candles , blow out all the candles , you're too old to be so shy , he says to me so I stay the night"

95- summer

96- night

97- milk

98- june

99- virgo

100- I don't remember. And its done I'm tired

Unusual Asks

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? 

is your room messy or clean?

what color are your eyes?

do you like your name? why?

what is your relationship status? 

describe your personality in 3 words or less

what color hair do you have?

what kind of car do you drive? color?

where do you shop?

how would you describe your style?

favorite social media account

what size bed do you have? 

any siblings?

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

favorite snapchat filter? 

favorite makeup brand(s)

how many times a week do you shower?

favorite tv show?

shoe size?

how tall are you?

sandals or sneakers? 

do you go to the gym? 

describe your dream date

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

what color socks are you wearing? 

how many pillows do you sleep with?

do you have a job? what do you do? 

how many friends do you have? 

whats the worst thing you have ever done? 

whats your favorite candle scent? 

3 favorite boy names

3 favorite girl names

favorite actor? 

favorite actress? 

who is your celebrity crush?

favorite movie? 

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? 

money or brains? 

do you have a nickname? what is it? 

how many times have you been to the hospital?

top 10 favorite songs

do you take any medications daily? 

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)

what is your biggest fear? 

how many kids do you want? 

whats your go to hair style?

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) 

who is your role model? 

what was the last compliment you received?

what was the last text you sent?

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

what is your dream car? 

opinion on smoking?

do you go to college? 

what is your dream job? 

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? 

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? 

do you have freckles? 

do you smile for pictures?

how many pictures do you have on your phone? 

have you ever peed in the woods? 

do you still watch cartoons? 

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?

Favorite dipping sauce? 

what do you wear to bed? 

have you ever won a spelling bee?

 what are your hobbies?

can you draw? 

do you play an instrument?

what was the last concert you saw? 

tea or coffee?

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

do you want to get married?

what is your crush’s first and last initial?

are you going to change your last name when you get married? 

what color looks best on you? 

do you miss anyone right now? 

do you sleep with your door open or closed?

do you believe in ghosts?

what is your biggest pet peeve? 

last person you called`

favorite ice cream flavor? 

regular oreos or golden oreos? 

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? 

what shirt are you wearing? 

what is your phone background?

are you outgoing or shy?

do you like it when people play with your hair?

do you like your neighbors? 

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

have you ever been high? 

have you ever been drunk? 

last thing you ate? 

favorite lyrics right now

summer or winter? 

day or night? 

dark, milk, or white chocolate? 

favorite month? 

what is your zodiac sign

 who was the last person you cried in front of? 

[loveliest-hobbledehoy]

Champagne, faux fur, glitter, gold, jazz, perfume, silver, sparkling water

champagne: what topic could you talk about for hours?

probably my current acapella group, the theater productions I’ve been in, basically music and theater related stuff :)faux fur: describe your wardrobeokay so here’s the thing. i have SO many clothes. but i wear like...a third of them. if that, because I tend to wear like the same 5 most comfortable things. so basically I have a very large, ecclectic wardrobe that I really need to trim down.

glitter: describe someone special to you

oh god i love talking about my friends and family tbh. Im gunna be gross and talk about my boyfriend rn though because we’ve had an emotional day, and I just really love him and lot. He’s a giant nerd with a really unique sense of humor- it’s very “dad humor” honestly, lots of puns. He’s really passionate about video games and honestly I want him to go into game design because he talks about game design SO much and really reads into every little detail of a game and I’m honestly pretty impressed by how dedicated he is to learning about them. He’s pretty much my opposite in a lot of ways, he’s very logical and efficient and straightforward, and I’m an emotional mess at all times. My favorite thing is that he’s SO nice to everyone and all my friends love him and he’s always willing to go out of his way to help out when I need him and i JUST LOVE NICE PEOPLE. Anyways he’s my best friend and my favorite person and like....I honestly don’t know how I got so lucky. (that was all really gross and sappy and I apologize)

Gold:  describe what would be your perfect mealok so Im thinking like....in an ideal world where I have enough room in my stomach for all of this and it won’t give me a heart attack, I want like one of those appetizer samplers from somewhere that has like a shit ton of different junk food, preferablly spinach artichoke dip, mozzerella sticks, onion rings and like...something else delciious and terrible for me. and then I want pasta. like REALLY good fettucine alfredo. and then deep fried oreos and icecream for dessert. or cookie dough. thats fine too.

Jazz: name a song that resonates with you and your emotions. Explain the reason why. 

this is depressing as shit but Down by Jason Walker these days, because I’m really starting to give into the idea that It’s time for me to give up on any hope for a career in performance and like...that song’s all about failing and realizing it’s time to give up kinda? that all sounds dumb and like...It’s fine because I think I can be just as happy teaching others and helping them achieve their goals instead and I think I can be a decent teacher, I guess there was just still a part of me left that kinda hoped I’d spend a year or two auditioning for stuff in NYC after graduation and I’d somehow get to perform for awhile before I taught and like...I’m just starting to accept I’m just not good enough and that’s really painful right now. 

Perfume: if you made a signature sent what would it smell like? 

lilac, lavender, and vanilla. silver: do you have any obscure hobbies? what are they?

i know how to make puppets, which is pretty cool. I haven’t made one in awhile though. I play a few table top roll playing games, I know DnD is pretty well known but I play a few of the less famous ones as well so I guess that’s kind of obscure? I also do a lot of body painting photoshoots with my friends.

sparkling water: what are your top 3 songs for the summer?

so I’m in an acapella group right now and I’m reaaaalllly excited about some of the songs we’re singing in that, particularly Samson and Hot Knife arranged by GQ (a girls barbershop quartet) which i feel is a super lame answer but those are up there. Also really feeling Jaywalk by Brayton Bowman. 

thanks for the questions lovely! sorry I may be late answering them, I didn’t see them in my inbox somehow!

[theawkwardterrier]

Tagged by @lavellenchanted

I’m tagging @imkait, @petpluto, @scandalpantsstuff, @nevertothethird, @nightlocktime

last text sent: To my brother, advising him on an email to send about a job interview

list three favourite colours: Purple, red, blue

what time did you wake up today?: Finally? 6:30.

what were you doing last night at midnight?: Sleeping. Bless.

name something you can’t wait for: Sleeping and reading for very many hours over Pesach

when was the last time you saw your mother: Last night

one thing you wish you could change about your life: More sleep, more boldness

what’s getting on your nerves right now?: Actually nothing in particular, but if I needed to pick something, basically every day it’s patrons. Many of them are very sweet, but my tolerance is getting lower and lower by the day.

favourite tv shows: West Wing, Leverage, Parks and Rec...

first best friend: I had two when I was in kindergarten and they were in first grade. Obviously very cool

listening to right now: The Sawbones episode Heroes of Patent Medicine part 2

3 fears: Fire, needles, embarassment

4 turn ons: Forearms, low-ish voices, well defined muscles, passion about issues I care about

4 turn offs: Smoking, bigotry, not reading, being unkind

sexual orientation: Straightish

senior quote in your yearbook: "I love mankind, it’s people I can’t stand” and “Life is pain, highness. Anyone who says differently is selling something.” Very cynical. I stand by them.

first thing you notice in a new person: Probably height?

shoe size: 8/8.5 depending

eye colour: Brownish leaning toward hazel

hair colour: Brownish leaning toward black

favourite item of clothing: I have this gray cardigan that I really love

what colour underwear you’re wearing rn: White with black dots

ultimate bias: ?

ultimate bias group: ??

favourite season: Summer

how much time did you spend designing your blog: Actually not that much. Katie and I spent a while on our first design, then she actually did some coding for our second, and I did probably a 15-20 minute redesign fairly recently.

the reason you joined tumblr: I wanted to start a blog (about college stuff? Don’t even remember) and had heard people talking about tumblr.

do you ever get ‘good morning’ or ‘good night’ texts?: Not really. Every once in a while, or if I’ve been texting with someone recently.

when did you last hold hands: Ugh, my dad likes to take my hand while he’s driving 

how long does it take you to get ready in the morning?: 12-15 minutes. I want to wring out every possible second of sleep, so I’ve learned to keep it minimal.

have you shaved your legs in the past three days?: Last night. I have that fun fun Eastern European hirsuiteness, so I barely go more than two days without shaving. I have a schedule. It’s a thing.

where are you right now?: At my desk at work.

do you like music loud or at a reasonable level?: I think it’s reasonable, but I know that I have kind of off hearing, so it might be louder than I realize

3 things you love: Lotion, pajamas, hot showers

how you feel right now: Calm

something you really really want: Naptime at work

3 things that upset you: The state of the world, having to get up early, my favourite characters dying

what do you find attractive in other people?: Slight nerdiness, kindness, sense of humor, non-elitism, intelligence

3 habits you have: High-pitched whining, wearing only one earbud, highlighting as I read online

something you fantasize about: Having a job I’m more satisfied with, living with friends, finding a relationship

something you’re talented at: Questioning/overthinking everything

the blog you give the most notes to: Tumblr says @greatestheights​

the last person that reblogged something from you: @scandalpantsstuff

do you smoke/drink: Never have I ever

your favourite food: I really like food! Tomatoes, green beans, fries, pasta...

your favourite dessert: Devil’s food cookies? Some kind of pie? I like desserts too!

what you did yesterday: Went to work, came home from work, exercised, watched some TV, read, went to sleep

number of kids you want: 4

number of siblings you have: 5

something that’s constantly on your mind: Getting through my reading list

last person you messaged on tumblr: @karenography​

can you drive?: Nope

what state or part of the world do you live in?: MA, USA

are you in school?: I finished and it’s weird never going back

do you get grossed out easily?: Depends with what.

somewhere you would like to visit for a week: Israel

I’ll love you if …:  you meet the arbitrary standards I’m feeling that day

last show you binge-watched?: It was a rewatch, but Arrested Development season 4. I have GBBO and MBMBAM planned next

what words upset you the most: I get upset by slurs or derogatory language, but usually it’s more of a tone than a word that angers me

what words make you feel the best about yourself: ones that compliment my character and make me feel really appreciated

a wish that you’ve wished for repeatedly on 11:11: I don’t think I’ve ever really done 11:11 wishes

who would you switch lives with for a day?: I don’t know that I would. If I maintained my own consciousness in the body of another person I admire, I think I would just be intimidated by the things they’re able/required to do and that would make me anxious. If I was a passenger as they controlled things, I’d just be jealous of how put together they are when I got back to my own body

your favourite ice cream: Craving some mint Oreo today. Or fresh mango sorbet

allergies: None

sexiest person to come your mind immediately: Chris Evans

your childhood career choice: Author/actor/Julie Andrews

one of your insecurities: My skin and my hands

how many blogs are you following?: 213

how many tabs/windows do you have open right now?: 2 windows, 13 tabs

coke or pepsi: Neither

tea or coffee: Tea

movie or book: Book

a sense you would be willing to lose: I guess smell/taste (my dad has limited of each and he seems fine, but I would be sad about it)

quote you live by: “Whatever you do will be insignificant, but it is very important that you do it.” 

type of accessory you wear most: I wear this one necklace from my mom every day

last awkward situation you found yourself in: Couldn’t hear what a coworker said but I was in a rush, so I just said, “haha, you too!” and speedwalked out of there

what time is it right now?: 4:26 P.M.

a song that’s made you cry: You Are My Sunshine

first song you ever sang at karaoke: I think Dancing Queen, the ABBA version

[survivingjapan]

EPISODE 14 “Pippa and the Boys.” - Pippa

Can I just say: Best.  Results.  Ever. Johnny is an AMAZING guy.  A favorite through and through.  However, him going was the best result from that rock draw (although maybe Trace/Dom/Pippa would've been better).  And without him, Trace and Dom are just kinda there.  They don't pose any immediate threat. What has now come out of this tribal is also just overall better for my game.  Drew? trusts me more.  Steffen? trusts me more.  Sarah and Crow? trust me a lot but like idk if it's more lol.  Junior? trusts me.  Tommy? needs me rn.  Andrew?  Welll actually... So Andrew and I have now had a conversation about our prior "beef" and it turns out, it was just both of us overthinking.  I know Andrew is a definite threat to me and my game, however we now will have a working relationship that can hopefully further my game more.  And he can actually maybe vote for me/I can vote for him in the end if we can continue working together from this day forward.  I was open about my vote against him and my slight like BLAH about him, and we talked it out and we're okay now !   Now, I just need to talk to Dom and Trace, try and wrap their heads around my game and we'll be gucci.  If I can go deep with connections piled on connections and people wanting to kill each other over me?  That's gold. Reminder that while I'm not the best gameplayer, I know how to work a jury.  I'm not a complete asshole.  I've learned.  Lying will get me nowhere and if Steffen wants to keep doing that, I'll genuinely go final 2/3 with him.  But I'm still not set on Drew or Sarah or Crow.  I loved all 3 of them, but they're so fucking smart.

http://youtu.be/B4Z0O0blbpY SHOOK

My names pippa and my confessional game is weak. So sarah just told me i play a great UTR game. IS that good? Idk but im not really being targetted. Im glad johnny went home in rocks last night. That just means i get no blood on my hands and i didnt have to take a good friend out. I can play nice with these people all i want but that doesnt mean im fond of any of them. Andrew wants to keep Crow in, I want Crow out. I don't trust him and he doesnt realize he buries himself in some holes with the stuff he says. Junior isnt my favorite rn either but i wanna know the 3 people who voted andrew. I know Brain was one, but who are the other two? Im convinced it was Crow and Sarah. Who knows????

Wow we have SO MUCH to fuckin talk about okay where I do even start. I guess I could go with all of the messy ass strategizing that happened yesterday. So keep in mind I'm at a state fair basically all day and have to communicate to these MANIACS on shitty barn wifi for 5 hours and get home only just in time for tribal. Basically all the heroes were in and out of each others' pms all day deciding between Sarah, Brian, and Crow for the vote. I obviously do not want Crow going. Pippa and I have a game relationship with him and we can't have him leaking about the hero idol. Plus he's kinda growing on me? Even though he's a sneak and might be the death of me he's super cool and kinda hilarious. Plus he's a connection to the villains so like. Yeah! Basically we kinda decide to finally go for Sarah but make it seem like we're doing Brian. Which just seems too damn simple. Meanwhile Crow is being sketched out by Pippa and I bc there was a villains plan to split up Johnny and Trace. I told this to Junior and I guess he assumed Crow was behind it so he started spreading that that was a plan and Crow got mad at me? But I'll say right here in confessionals that I did not drop Crow's name in that plan. But nonetheless the bird was suspicious. So blah blah damage control and it's like okay well Pippa and I were kinda thinking hmmm should we go for Trace or Johnny but like, it's too risky and we'll kill our games with the heroes. Life goes on yada yada I'm just sitting there stuffing my face with fried Oreos and suddenly Johnny drops into my pms and we're both just like it's 8 and we don't have an official vote so I suggest Johnny make a chat with just all the heroes to hash shit out and figure who we're voting. I need to make sure that they get away from Crow, and I'm just like voting Sarah is free all you have to do is type out 5 letters y'all but then Johnny... Johnny fucks up. And he says why don't we go for Junior :~) And in a chat with myself, him, Pippa, and Steffen, he tells us not to worry and that he has good reason for going for Junior and that we'll thank him after tribal. So there I am. Sitting there with half a fried Oreo in my mouth while Pat Benetar is singing We Belong in the distance (she was really there y'all at 64 idk how the fuck a bum fuck Connecticut state fair booked her she's doing great btw)... And I'm like. JOHNNY IS REALLY TRYIN IT??????? See, Junior made the Big Miss Steak of telling Johnny right before the Kendall tribal that he had the villain's idol. Now I knew before Johnny did, and I advised Junior don't. But he did! So! I fucking run to Junior and say play your damn idol because Johnny is really about to TRY. IT. And this is perfect because Junior could try getting the villains to vote out a threat like Johnny or Drew. But Junior says he doesn't have sway on the villains which is like DUH and I scream and I'm like idk try dude we have like 25 minutes! So he's telling me how he went to villains and got it onto Drew but told Sarah to vote Johnny and I'm freaking out just ever so slightly because I know I could possibly possibly possibly be the vote but it's w/e. And then Miss Sarah messages me at 9:01 asking who I voted and I'm like fuckin uuuuuuuuuuu Junior? I told Junior that I voted him to save face also. And I also told Pippa Junior was playing and idol so sorry Junior! But um yeah. Sarah is just like lol well Junior has an idol and I ask oh rip well who are they voting AND GIRL ISN'T ANSWERING BUT IS TALKING IN THE TRIBE CHAT. Naturally I begin to freak out, and on top of that Drew is going into full despair in my pms saying he feels something really bad coming. Sarah just knocked on my door in a grim reaper costume and just winked before walking away, Drew is having a full Dread Episode, Pippa is like nah you're good hold onto that idol boy, and Junior is like it's good I got the votes on Drew! I think... But yeah! I did... maybe. So obviously I am freaking the absolute fuck out and I just straight up go to Junior like uuuuuu did you tell anyone you're playing this idol and he said yeah and yes he told Sarah so HAHAHA. HAH. But it's fine right? There's no way they pulled a fast one and are just voting me. Right? :') Well tribal comes around and I'm on call with Pippa and she's saying it's fine. So Junior plays and Johnny is like oh fuck. Then Drew plays. And I'm like okay? Um. Yikes. And then Sarah plays some fuck shit that doesn't work and I'm way too stressed so I play my idol! And Junior gets 8 votes! And Drew gets 2! And I get 2! And like! HELLO? So to make a long mother fuckin story short... Johnny of all people is rocked out which was FANTASTIC. CHERRY ON TOP OF THE CAKE. He knew about the villains and the beauty idol so like he could go! Too strong. And he had to get blindsided soon anyway. So Johnny I love you dude and I actually gained way more of a liking to you than I already did from hosting you so you're awesome but WHEW. FAREWELL. And now it's the fallout. Honestly? That's the most pure euphoria I've ever felt in a single moment in a game. And after hearing all the info I have, I think I have this mostly figured out. I freak a little in the chat and Tommy tells me he voted Junior which would make sense because he got 8 votes. Sarah comes and tells me she didn't vote for me, and says that she knows I voted her which w/e be a Petty Betty™ but she says that maybe if someone told her who voted her then maybe she'd tell me who voted me and I think I finally convinced her it wasn't me because I said at this point I'd trade the info? But idk oh well. Also Crow doesn't come forward confirming or denying he voted me, and I approached Brian and he admitted he voted me. Which btw that was the first time we talked in a while, and it's also just some outside of the game things but I think we ultimately hashed everything out. Anyway, Junior voted Drew so my votes were Brian and one of Sarah or Crow. And the other voted Drew. And I'll be pissed if Crow voted me tbh. But we'll see. The thing is though, Crow said to Pippa and I that himself, Sarah, Brian, and Tommy were all on call and typed in Junior, and then stepped away from their computers or something. Which is a damn lie obviously. So I decided to look back at the merge chat during tribal for shits and giggles, and then the reactions of the villains when I played my idol in particular made shit click. They were pretty standard when Junior and Drew played, but when I played was when Crow, Brian, and Sarah started yelling about rocks. And in the back of my mind I didn't think of it much at first but I was just like okay I guess? And then Crow comes to my pms and say congrats on avoiding rocks which was also confusing. But it didn't hit me till after re reading the chat that they definitely split on purpose, and the villains knew that once I played that all of the votes were gonna be null. And they were gonna go to rocks. So now I have to keep an eye out on Crow. Because there's no way he didn't know this was happening. It's all just so sketchy and idk where to go from here, but I know I need Sarah out. She's just way too chaotic, and in a weird way she saved me by sketching me out at 9:01 but also she makes everything very chaotic. She's grown on me personally but she's wild to play with. I guess I can just make a confessional on what happens now because I have shit to say about talks I had with Steffen and Drew. And this confessional got thicc as fuck so. Hope whoever read this essay enjoyed the reading material!

hi loves it's been a while! after i went through my therapy sessions, I decided that it was time to pick up the pieces of my emotional stability and make a fragile little glass ball! and then guess what happened! these fucking fools shattered it. So after merge, i came in thinking lil crow could blend into the shadows and take a day to relax! but then crow is told he has to pick a side immediately and vote out Kendall w/ Johnny/Pippa/Andrew or Junior w/ Sarah/Brian/Drew crow voted Junior cuz junior is a snake that crow has warned others about! junior stayed! kendall went. i was in minority. so after that, i ghosted the hoes. I was over it, i had more important things than these people, but then im alerted that its "me or brian" HELL NO. OH DONT U EVEN DARE TRY AND TARGET ME AND MY SON so crow caused a little bit of chaos with bullshit lies. he told andrew/pippa that he heard they wanted him out (which he didn't!) and then told hinted to johnny that the heroes were cracking (which probably was true but crow had no proof!) ALSO, he threw out trace's name for the lolz! then after I sat back and let them rat me out (cuz i know they're all rats!) they caused their own paranoia, erasing mine and Brian's name from the slate. =) in a last ditch effort to have comfort in numbers, a group was formed to vote out the ultimate snake, junior. 8 minutes b4 tribal junior comes to me asking to work with me and build trust and yadada and knowing there was a good chance he had an idol, crow played phony and told him that we needed to keep the villains strong! (thus protecting his core of brian and sarah). he agreed and suggested to vote drew, so i pretended to agree! then when junior, drew, and andrew pulled idols out of their asses, i sat pretty knowing I received no votes - but nervous about the inevitable rocks. then i drew a rock and production really TRIED me by putting me at #2 but im better than them and survived! so now im sitting in final 11 with my besties and in a somewhat decent position for a change! =)

Andrew is a paranoid ass hoe, first he thinks the second vote for him came from Sarah, then Drew....when in actuality I was the one who tried blindsiding him last tribal, I swear at this point this boy is spilling all this anti-Drew tea to me and now I'm just reveling in it because I still know Drew has an idol and when Andrew feels its time to strike, tbh it'll be time to use that idol on Drew and destroy Andrew in the process, making Drew a bigger target and next to go tbh, but right now we just need Sarah to use her idol, then take a villain out and our villainous plot will be in motion, I like evil

So Pippa or myself might be dying. Drew voted me according to Junior along with Brian who I knew bc Drew is still convinced I gave Crow the idol which yes I did but. Leave me alone! Honestly just trying to get Sarah out this round but she has that weird reset idol and also could have a merge idol so idk man. I kinda have a bad feeling about tonight and if I get these double digits again catch me going into a major depressive episode! Trace and I decided on Sarah early this morning and seemingly got Dom and Steffen on board? Dom I guess is hero strong and Steffen... I really hope he wouldn't vote me out. Or even Pippa. And then Junior wants Sarah out so like here we go I guess! Idk what the fuck Drew is gonna do because he's a snake. Sarah requested us working together today but it was bullshit. Lmao! Farewell! I'm probably dead. Or Pippa is. Last weird thing is I guess is I told Crow it's me or myself (played dumb about if it could be Pippa) and he said he wasn't letting either of those things happening? Idk! If Crow can work some magic and save me that's fine. Idk man. A bird will either save me or kill me tonight. Or Drew. Or Sarah. Pippa? BEYONCE? I'm so tired can we just have the tribal already? Also if Steffen flips I'm snapping his neck.

So if everyone votes the way they say they are, no weird items are played, and Crow throws his vote, then it could really go to rocks. Fuck! 15 minutes till my imminent death at 11th place :')

I finna think Sarah's gonna die this round and I miss her already.  A true fucking queen.  I'm so glad I finally worked with a girl in a game and that it was her because I couldn't imagine playing with anyone else.

[onseraphimwings]

+100 things i hate about me

Basics

Name x

Birthplace x

Current Location finland

Heritage x

Eye Color brown

Hair Color some kinda red right now

Hair Length a bit past my shoulders

Height 158 cm / 5′2″

Weight enough

Figure average i guess

Righty or Lefty righty, yo

Zodiac Sign cancer sun, libra moon, gemini rising

Introvert or extrovert in the social sense? i swing between the two quite a bit

Meyers-Briggs Personality type estp

Style

Clothing all black, preferably, versatile, casual

Hair updos are life

Music what does that have to do with style?

Makeup usually minimal, sometimes not. i like dark things

Body Art a few small tattoos

Car none

Decor love minimalist, but unfortunately my place is a mishmash of things

Right Now  

Current mood kinda bored

Current music nylon beat - elämä on lyhyt

Current taste coffee with hazelnut milk <3

Current hair loose

Current clothes grey dress with leopard dots and a black cardigan!

Current annoyance that i’m bored :D

Current smell coffee

Current longing someone special

Current desktop picture hummingmint xD

Current fingernail color natural

Current likes sunlight! walks with the dog. violife smoked cheese.

Current dislikes idk, i don’t think about things i don’t like that much

Current favorite article of clothing idk. i need new clothes xD

Current favorite place to be out & about

Current time you wake up in the morning 10 am ish

Current favorite word díky!

What are you...

Thinking of that i should resume today’s czech studies

Feeling BOREDOM

Remembering nothing

Doing nothing T.T

Planning convincing my mom to sponsor my ticket to prague xD

What were you doing  

1 hour ago i was out walking my dog

1 day ago probably wasted time here

1 week ago i was in romania doing stuff! <3

1 month ago probs just hanging out with the boyfriend

1 year ago crying that my life was miserable lololol

5 years ago feeling stuck in a relationship that wasn’t going anywhere

10 years ago felt stuck and constrained by high school and everything

Your favorite  

Music depends. right now i’m kinda into finnish rock music

Cartoon lol, i don’t really watch any, save for the simpsons occasionally

Font LOL

Color gold, copper

Song pää kii - apinoiden planeetalla

Flavor chocolate!

Scent i loooooove givenchy’s ange ou demon <3

Magazine none

TV Show none

Book love is a hound from hell by bukowski

Movie the royal tenenbaums

Language japanese! and finnish xD

Food soba noodles

Beverage COFFEE

Fruit i like them all!

Vegetable right now: celery, zucchini, aubergine, cucumber 

Season spring

Subject in School none

Weekend Activity dancing and wandering to random places

Ice Cream Flavor mint or licorice

Pizza toppings zucchini, mushrooms, lots of olives

Preferences

Cola or Other

Coke or Pepsi ... neither

Fried, Scrambled, or Poached ... i’m vegan xD

Pancakes or Waffles

Dogs or Cats

Coffee or Tea

Iced or Hot

Looking out the window or into the room

One Pillow or Two

Chocolate or Vanilla

High Achiever or Easy-Going

Single or Taken

Pen or Pencil

Gloves or Mittens

Planned or Spontaneous

Food or Candy xD

Matches or a Lighter

Typed or Handwritten

Walk or Run

Elevator or Stairs

Walk or Drive

Facing into the restaurant or away from the other people

Eating alone, with one friend, or with lots of friends

Home or "Out"

Alone, with one friend, or with a group?

Who Would You Like To...

Hear From a few of my friends

Never Hear From Again a friend i’ve left behind

Look Like me but better >:)

Be Like idk. me but more mature.

Meet awesome people!

Get to Know no one in particular, but i’d like to make new friends

Learn from / Study With my dog

Impress EVERYONE!

Teach depends on what i have to teach xD

Do you...?  

Have any tattoos (where?) yes, the runes for dagaz and hagalaz on my hands and a star on my left ankle

Have any piercings (where?) nope

Have any scars quite a bit, in random places

Get along with your parents? yes and no, but better these days

Get motion sickness very rarely

Think you're a health nut no but my friends think otherwise xD

Type with your fingers on the right keys what does that even mean?!

Play an instrument nope. just my voice xD

Play an instrument well no

Sleep with stuffed animals sometimes

Have a significant other yup!

Have a dream that keeps coming back NO way

Believe there is life on other planets maybe. but even so, we’re unlikely to encounter them

Read the newspaper sometimes

Read the comics sometimes

Read the sports pages sometimes

Check the weather forecast yes

Go to restaurants alone yep

Consider yourself tolerant of others i do

Like the taste of alcohol sure xD

Drink yes, various things

Smoke nope

Swear yep :<

Sing yep

Sing in public yep

Sing in the shower yep

Laugh yep

Joke all of my life is a joke

Read sometimes xD

Exercise i guess

Diet sometimes

Cook yep!

Believe in astrology yes and no

Read your horoscope no

Believe in magic yes and no

Believe in miracles it’s a miracle i’m still alive

Go to church yeah! especially abandoned ones

Have any secrets sure

Have any pets not really, my dog lives with my dad

Have any children no

Have any brothers or sisters yes, one sister

Work .... no :<

Have a college degree kinda

Chat to strangers who instant message you i used to when i had aim!

Talk to strangers on the bus LOL NO

Wear hats in winter, yes

Like yourself most of the time

Wish on stars hardly ever, really

Like your handwriting i don’t feel either way about it

Trust others easily not really

Like puns YES

Have a good sense of humor ofc

Take walks in the rain sometimes!

Do you prefer  

Traveling

Staying home

Going out

Cooking

Eating out

Entertaining at home

Large parties

Small parties where you know everyone

Quiet evenings with a few friends

Being alone

Leisure Time: Do you like to...

Read

Go out, anywhere!

Go dancing

See a show

Rent a video

Listen to music

Go for a walk

Watch television

Surf the web

Chat with friends online

Meet people for coffee and conversation

Go to a party

Stay home

...?

Sports and recreation: Do you...

Jog

Run

Walk

Ski

Swim

Play on a team

Play "pickup" games

Bowl

Work Out

...?

Creative outlets: Do you...

Paint or draw

Sculpt, do pottery, mold clay...

Build scale models

Collect... (what?)

Write (what?)

Compose music

Choreograph dances

Dance

Develop software

Meditate

Daydream

...?

Have you ever...?  

Eaten an entire box of Oreos

Thought about eating an entire box of Oreos

Baked a cake

Cooked Thanksgiving Dinner for a group

Eaten sushi

Been on stage

Gone skating

Made homemade cookies

Gone skinny dipping

Dyed your hair

Broken a bone

Been hospitalized overnight

Had your name appear in the newspaper

Published a story, poem, novel...

Played a game that required removal of clothing

Gotten drunk or extremely intoxicated

Been arrested

Changed your name

Changed your "look"

Changed who you were to fit in

Traveled outside the country

Memories - The Past

Last Thing You Bought sugar-free red bull

Last Interesting Thing You Did went to romania!

Last Interesting Thing You Heard: can’t remember

Last Interesting Thing You Said nothing that i can recall rn

Last Interesting Thing You Saw: my dog

Last Thing You Touched: keyboard

Last Thing You Had To Eat oatmeal!

Last Thing You Had To Drink coffee

Last Thing You Watched On Tv ice hockey game between sweden and finland xD

Last Book You Read jane eyre

Last Music You Listened To nylon beat

Last Movie You Saw .... probably an old finnish one my dad was watching

Last Movie You Saw On The Big Screen sing

Last Person You Called On The Phone my mom

Last Person You Talked To Online my darling!

Last Person You Emailed a friend

Last Time You Cried last month

Last Time You Smiled today

Last Time You Laughed today xD

Last Person You Hugged my darling <3

Last Person You Kissed my darling, ofc The Future   Miscellany   What is...   Moods  

Where do you see yourself in five years? far away from here

Describe your Dream Career traveling and exploring new things on a regular basis

What do you want to be when you grow up? anthony bourdain xD at some point, i would also like to be dead

What country would you most like to visit? idk. too many to mention.

Where are you going to live? when i settle down? hopefully far away from here...

How many rings until you answer the phone? 2 or 3

What's on your mouse pad?  i don’t have one xD

Do you like thunderstorms? yeah!

Do you like snow? most of the time, yes

How many houses have you lived in? 5-10

How many schools have you gone to? i think 5

Do you like to drive? i do!

What color is your bedroom carpet? i don’t have a bedroom... but i have 3 carpets, one is green, the second is off-white and the third kinda grey

If you were stranded on a desert island and you could only take one thing (not person) with you what would you take? a machete

What was the best time of your life so far? NOW

The last thought you go to sleep with probably something awesome that happened that day

Your first waking thoughts coffee!

The first feature you notice in someone you just met their face and body language

Your best physical feature idk. i’m cute in general lolol

Your greatest fear that i won’t get anywhere in life and i’ll be misrable

Your biggest weakness my loved ones

Your strongest attribute i’m self-assured and independent

Your greatest accomplishment having made it this far and having enjoyed myself along the way

Your most cherished memory really, there is no one memory. and while i have lots of good memories, i don’t spend too much time thinking about them.

I Hurt rarely and even when i do, i don’t want to show it

I Love y’all! haha.

I Hate it when nothing is happening

I Fear that this moment will vanish and i will lose everything

I Hope that the above is an irrational fear

I Feel feelings y’all

I LIsten to my dog snoring

I Hide when people start demanding too much from me

I Drive at night, on empty highways, as fast as possible

I Play a game, it’s called insincerity~

I Miss him.

I Learned that my dog is scared of a lot of things

I Know i’m in no hurry to figure things out.

I Wait for myself to get sleepy.

I Need sleep!

I Want sleep!