#I am wishing you the best of luck!!!!!!

[shibaraki]

monty V_V

transferring to a different university next semester and i’m excited and i know it’s gonna be a better choice for me , but the cost LMFAO it’s soooo much more than the one i’m attending rn i’m actually gonna throw up i’m rocking backing forth with that one audio “i’m never gonna financially recover from this” on loop in my brain

hi baby!!! I’m really glad you’re excited actually. it can be super daunting to transfer but it’s good you know what is best for you and I’m proud of you!!! lol I feel u about the student debt though. sometimes I look at mine and it makes me want to go OFF THE GRID FR

[clownsuu]

Synth called you out for your howdy sins on a live

How do you feel?

LMAOOO Tbf Synth called me out other times, but it’s all lighthearted fun (ihopeJFGFG)

[aibouart]

compilation of my other fav palette challenges from the years past... i should do them again sometime......

chara #9 belongs to @askbookwormflareon

[incorrect-mltd-quotes]

Thank you so much.

Hello, all. This isn't a post I've wanted to make, and still don't, but I think the right time has come and it's apparently better to rip that bandage off, so to speak.

I've mentioned offhandedly a couple of times that I'm struggling to keep this blog going. I've considered stepping away but wanted to continue these silly quotes for as long as possible, in the hopes they make someone out there smile. I still hold true to this and didn't think I'd feel so gutted when writing this out, aha, but I think I finally have to admit defeat.

Without absolutely rambling about my entire life story, it's sadly just a matter of how busy (and stressed) I am. I do still study, and work, and that will likely be the case for quite a while longer. It's a challenge for me to find quotes that I can use, and this is made harder by the fact that I'm barely able to keep up with Mirishita anymore. I still love the idols and the series, but if I'm finding it difficult to keep up from a fan perspective, doing it from one that's supposed to be running a decent blog is almost impossible. My mental health isn't the greatest and while I do adore making up funny things that the idols say, I need to see how I get on without it.

Thank you for all the years you've given me with this blog. Checking back to jog my memory, it's been going for a good six years, which is baffling to me. I didn't think it was as long as that! I've truly enjoyed seeing your reactions to my little posts, and I'm pretty sure my heart died from too much love whenever I got a message sent in. I'm truly sorry, but I do have to go. I did try cutting the amount of posts down, and it did help, but not enough.

I will leave this blog up for anyone who might want to peruse it. I've checked, Tumblr shouldn't delete it, and if they do, I will be very miffed. I may try and put a quote up every once in a while, perhaps a break is all I need, but unless I announce that I'm properly back, please assume that this blog is inactive for that time. Who knows? I might just be able to get my crap together and come back one day. I hope so. But, until then, thank you all. It's been an honour, and I hope I was able to make you feel even just a bit happier.

Until we meet again!

[jeeaark]

Honestly, your comics about the Emperor have really helped me parse my own complicated feelings about him. Because like, it's not as if I didn't want to trust him and find that good in him. There were times when I felt like I could see it. But as I played more, I just felt like that trust wasn't truly reciprocated.

Anyway, apologies for the rambling. Your art and comics are awesome, and Greygold is great.

I've been trying to think how to respond to this because I can RELATE but in a - beyond constructively sophisticated sounding words- way huar.

Because without -ANY- kind of hindsight, Zip Zilch NADA, this game is really REALLY good (OH SO GOOD) at portraying the Emperor as a very complicated and extremely-hard-to-trust character.

You are absolutely valid in feeling conflicted and confused with all the uncertain-in-between inner conflicts for this dingus of a squid.

Unlike Greygold, I, too, was absolutely struggling to find some form of strong evidence, validation, reassurance, SOMETHING FOOL-PROOF, to fully trust this illithid during the entire playthrough.

If it weren't for the bloodhound hunting need to find all that is lore in this game, BOY WOULD IT HAVE ALMOST BEEN NEAR IMPOSSIBLE TO TRUST THIS SQUID AT ALL for me. Those lil sneaky paper trail crumbs of 'emps just doing it's best' are what gave me enough hope to trust in spite of the overwhelming counter-lore, doubts, and Emps' terrible tact continuously just NOT HELPING IT'S CASE.

but Trust. Trust is, I suppose, the key theme for this squid. Classic 'ultimately down to your core values on what you would do with the most trust-issue-y morally grey squid to ever squid this damn squid game'.

Or as friggin' Withers likes to say: What is the value of one life to you? (friggin' Withers, man)

[sainz100]

Franco Colapinto | July 2024 ahead of the British GP | 📸

[iniziare]

Tag drop: Aventurine.

[theflyingfeeling]

I found a four-leaf clover, does that mean everything will turn out alright? 😭🍀

[welcome-to-green-hills]

For the Sonic posters, are they only being given away at like- special screenings for Transformers One? Or are they being given away at any theatre showing the movie?

Hi Hon!❤️✨

That’s an excellent question that wish that I had an answer to. The only thing that I know is that it’s at AMC movie theaters. I don’t know if this will be at Regal or family-owned theaters. (I’ve already called my theater since it’s a family-owned and they don’t know).

My best advice is to call your local theater and see. You might be lucky and get the secretive Shadow poster!

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

silly vampire costumes and their added benefits™️ (directly based on this)

[spearxwind]

not to sound weird but what was that work you put in to get where you are 🙏 i want to improve my life so bad but have no clue where to start. even a general gist of things

You dont sound weird! I think it's commendable to want to change your life for the better, and I want to help in any way I can :D

This is also my own perspective but I think a lot of it could be universally applied if you look at it through different lenses of ppls different situations. This also got rly long so I'm putting it under a readmore ^^;

So I had pretty much been isolating myself with increasing ferocity for years until recently. Even when trying to reach out to people I was extremely closed off, keeping my feelings behind many walls and chains always. A lot of my hard work has come from undoing all of that fuckup. I put all my eggs into my online friendships (and even then had a hard time with them).

My behavior was a cluster of personal garbage, learned mannerisms from keeping bad company, and hardwired reactions to specific behaviors. It's something pretty hurtful to realize when you do realize it, but that doesn't mean that you are a bad person or a failure or anything like that. It just means that you have certain bare minimum survival behaviors that worked before but now are only doing you damage, and you have to learn to undo them. (which is a great step!!)

Which brings me to what I have (painfully) learned over the past several years: the basis to any and every good relationship, romantic, platonic, family, or anything is crystal clear communication. Straight up for the love of god communication skills will save your life time and time and time again

And also like I said in earlier posts the solution to wanting to be more social is just BEING more social. This is arguably extremely hard, especially after years of "if they want me around they'll ask me" and always waiting to be invited but not wanting to bother anyone by asking if you can join NO!!!!!!!! GET THAT SHIT OUT OF YOUR BRAIN EFFECTIVE IMMEDIATELY!!!!! It really does NOT work that way at all. People will invite you to things if they see you express interest in them. The same way that in your head you think 'theyll invite me if they want me to go' if they dont see you express interest people will think you dont want to join. If you go someplace and just stay recluse because youre shy they likely will also think "theyre probably not comfortable or dont want to be here, so we wont force them". People are inherently kind and they are definitely NOT thinking about shunting you on purpose (and I am speaking this, genuinely, from personal experience)

While I was studying my major I got close to a group of people and thought of them as my friend group, but they always seemed cold to me, and I rarely got invited to hangouts because they seemed closer among themselves so I ended up always thinking that they didn't really want me around, and created all of these assumptions in my mind about them or what they thought of me.

Years later, recently, I found one of them again just... randomly while walking through the street and we started talking. And in my much better state of mind I asked about this whole thing because I wanted to know how the rest of the group was doing (I care very much for them still) and he revealed to me that THEY were the ones who thought I was shutting myself off of the group bc I didnt wanna be close to them. Which just blew my mind but it made a lot of sense and explained a lot. I was always on my phone too, talking with my internet friends (because it was my comfort zone), so what they'd assumed was that I already had a friend group that I was invested in and so I wasnt going to prioritize them. SO basically this whole thing ended up being resolved with clear communication and would have been solved much earlier if I had just spoken up about it and gotten braver (though my mental state did not let me at the time)

Anytime you are making up assumptions and ultimatums in your mind without communicating them to the other party you should stop and very much go and speak out loud to the other party (or parties) it will genuinely do you good cause huge as hell brain snowballs do nothing but drown you in your own mind.

Also on the being social front, if you dont have the practice in then it will be hard but a lot of it is very much "fake it till you make it" and I genuinely cannot recommend that enough. Inject yourself into conversations and places and act like yourself unapologetically because the secret isnt to craft a persona that you think people will like, its just being yourself and finding people who will love you for who you are. And like I said I just got invested in other ppls plans and asked to be able to go to places, and oftentimes just by expressing interest i got invited "oh I love this show very much!!" "well we have a plan to watch it at my pals house do you wanna come?" "we were planning on going to X place this week" "omg that sounds so cool can I come with" "of course!" Generally people will respond with "the more the merrier" so please dont be afraid to ask. And even if you get a rejection or two it's fine, don't let it discourage you. Some plans are simply not meant to be, and that's totally fine too!

Something else I worked for was reestablishing contact with old highschool friends I'd lost and I missed terribly. I went out of my way to find them again (old phone numbers, old emails, old instagram accounts that hadnt posted since 2019), and I found them!

And most of them really missed me too and were absolutely thrilled I contacted them again, we picked up right where we left off eight years prior. With a lot to catch up to but its genuinely so nice to have them in my life rather than just melancholically thinking about them and wondering if they hated me or anything. Turns out that they had also thought to contact me as well or had tried and lost my phone, or some of them even thought that it was better to leave things as they were to not "stir up shit" so we were all stuck in the same loop of insane thinking without actually confirming it until one of us (me in this case) finally broke the ice (and it took a damn long time too)

The thing is, people are just like you. We all have our own mental nonsense to fight, and we all have our assumptions and propensity to think ourselves into the grave, that's why its so so so so important to communicate things as clearly and as often as possible. Bearing your suffering alone will only make you miserable in the end, and your circle is there to help you

As a last note, I do want to say I have been incredibly lucky, because the friend group I've been adopted into I have met through that one friend from uni that I just HAPPENED to find on the street. I could have not waved him over on the street and just kept walking with my music on and ignored him. I could have said 'no' to his offer to get dinner that day if I'd wanted to be home earlier. I could have never spoken up about liking eurovision and never gotten invited to the hangout where I met my bf. And none of this would have ever happened at all. But that just strengthens my advice of "just say yes and reach out of your comfort zone" because you never know where it's going to lead you!

All this to say:

Communicate clearly with your peers to reduce misunderstandings. More likely than not they'll be in the same boat as you are. (Also extra note. Communication works BOTH WAYS. It needs to come from both parties. It is also a skill you have to nurture and hone!!)

Be kind!! and be loving!! and be yourself unapologetically!!

reach out to people the same way that you'd want to be reached out to. It sucks that sometimes (even often) you have to be the one to do it, but you eventually reap what you sow and people will learn that they can reach out to YOU

People will respond in kind to you being nice to them and a positive energy in their life. Some people will take advantage of it yes, thats just how things are, and its something you have to learn to recognize but you should never let that steel your heart. It is so so so important to remain kind and loving the world needs it so much. We're all out here trying to make our own lives and our loved ones lives a little bit brighter <3

[synthshenanigans]

I cant believe fine im fine lost by 1.4% crying

-Please listen to both instrumentals if you can! While there are the popular songs, there's a lotta good ones out there that aren't talked about enough!-

Instrumental Links:

Nerd

The Bidding

[Reblog for more of a sample size of you'd like]

[coyoteclan]

Hi! I'm doing my own Clangen and there's periods of long inactivity, where nothing happens at all. Have you dealt with that? How do you fill it?

I haven't had too many inactive moons yet, but I have had a few where there's no/very little inactivity, moon 9 being the biggest example of it lol (literally nothing happened at all). When it does happen though, I try defaulting to their relationships with each other and their little uh. personal status blurb under their name? If you can call it that, but I kinda just take it as a bit of free lore/story building time where I get to choose a bit more of what I want them to be doing!

I mean tbh you can go pretty crazy with some of the smallest little things it gives you sometimes. It can be kinda stressful to see "Nothing interesting happened this moon" but the little flavor text and relationship tab can be used as GREAT inspo when you really need it (if coyoteclan was more Rufus-central I could use this to show off how he got where he is)

alternatively you could totally use the longer stretches for world building! Show off some of the territory, maybe your cats have a little quirk to the way they do things that you haven't been able to show off yet. Have something from a previous moon you didn't feel like putting in at the time? Could be great backup content for an empty moon!

And if absolutely nothing happens at ALL for a long while? try skipping a few more moons ahead until you hit something and use that to figure out what your cat's might've done during the quiet!

[lethesbeastie]

I want so badly to create art but I am instead trapped within a Russian nesting doll of personal hells, outside of which resides a worse, tenth circle of hell.

[jabeur]

Hi Nico! Sorry if this question is too personal, you don't have to answer it in case it is, but have you known you're trans for a long time? (I think I might be too but I'm scared and uncertain, it seems people always know since they're very young and I'm not anymore) thank you ❤️

hi dear! not too personal, no worries, i'm open to discussing trans things as long as the other person comes from a place of respect and this is definitely the case

tbh the exact timeline is a little hazy in my mind bc sadly all my life is like that in my memories :/ but i started questioning my gender when i was around 18? and i guess i knew for sure when i was 19? it was hard at first bc uh almost no one who i tried to tell and then get to call me with different pronouns understood so it wasn't easy to be sure of my identity, honestly. i think the way to be in fact sure is to explore your gender as much as you can and one thing that really helps is having people around you, even internet friends bc i know it can be very very hard coming out irl, refer to you in different ways, different pronouns or names or using different words that you feel like trying to see what feels good. yeah it wasn't easy for me, but it has to be factored in that i have a personality disorder so knowing myself, having a strong sense of self, is hard, so that made an already not necessarily easy process even harder.

anyway, to address your worry: it's not really true that people always know since they're very young. i know or have met several trans people who figured it out in their late 20s/early 30s. i know of people who have realized at 40, 50 or older. it's never too late and there is no right moment to have it figured out. there is no expiration date for the moment you could possibly go "oh, yeah, i'm trans". you can be questioning for as long as you need. for as long as it takes to know. and you can realise that you are not trans, in the end. there is really no rule, you know? as with every minority or group of people, we aren't a monolith and so it would simply not be correct to say "every trans person knows by the time they hit puberty" or "every trans person knows when they're in their 30s" or anything else. we're all different. i know trans people who have always known, in one way or another. since they were kids. and that's definitely a valid and common enough trans experience. i also know a lot of trans people who have figured it out later in life. as i said, i knew when i was around 19, which is quite young but i would not say i had any idea prior to being 18, which some might see as realising "late". i started coming out in my 20s, i started medically transitioning when i was 23, i've still got steps in my transition i haven't gotten to but want to and i'm 28. the timeline's different for everyone.

it's not too late, is what i'm saying, no matter your age. you could be 80 and it would still 100% be worth it to know yourself more deeply and truthfully. i really believe that. i know it's scary, and can be confusing, i really do know. it was for me too. i thought there was no way i could be trans and be happy, if i'm being perfectly honest, but now my transness is just another part of me, an important one to me, one that can give me pains (but.. it's 99% of the time bc of cis people), but just one facet of who i am. and it can take time to get to a point when you're sure of who you are and as happy with it as you can be, but i want you to know it's okay. it's okay if it takes time, there is no rush. listen to yourself. you will know what you need to feel good with yourself in time! and please also know i'm here if you were ever in need of someone to talk to!

[willowser]

Your blog is my safest space in the midst of exams and feeling isolated living in a big city alone. Your writing brings me so much joy and comfort, and I hope you understand just how talented and how beautifully you write💛💛💛

omg friend !!! 🥺🥺🥺 i am putting all my softest blankets on the floor and taking my sheets clean and fresh from the dryer and tacking them up on chairs and the top of the tv and even to the wall so that it hangs over us like a fort and i am bringing all my comfiest, biggest pillows so we can sit in the cozy together 🥺🥺🥺 i hope that your exams are not stressing you too much !!! but if they are, then i will have the sheet pulled back enough that you can come squirm right in with us and we can eat snacks and drink tea and chat about a million other things to get your mind off it !!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🩷