#Flutterstudytalks

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All you wanted was to survive last year

all you need is to survive now too

I don’t know how—maybe- riding on them damn coattails or any way possible. Running around asking in multiple places and scratching the walls for a handhold, midnights at the library, conviving and eavesdropping — anything that would allow you to breathe your next breath, take your next step and row your way up Niagara Falls

and yes you exist now because all of the things you’ve done before. Fingernails ripped off unknowingly from the feverishness that nullified pain you were in, scratches from the brambles you dove through as a shortcut just to catch up with the pack, sun damaged —from having little to no down time to cool off under a tree—because it’s run. Run.

now you feel crumpled — but you are the product of all decisions that came before you— and you are still alive and on the trajectory you struggled and fought to stay on ever since you gained conciousness

I think you are strong when you cry. The tears feel like rivers— feeding into a vast expanse that your soul understands it to mean —

“I exist and I am still alive, even through all the pain.”

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I was raised by criticism, molded by hardship, and held together by love

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it is almost 3 am and me and my suitemate are still up

shes working on a take home exam and im writing an essay both tyring to get shit out of the way so we can study for our exams.

david hume is kinda right but also like damn he really said that people back then were "barbarous". that's kind of funny but also really mean and untrue lol

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Someone is snoring in The library bestie it’s 9:30 am

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Im just an npc with anxiety

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Ugh stuck in the library at 1 AM trying to finish a big task — at least there are two guys also working and chatting near me so I don’t feel completely alone here

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why are there soo much makeup products everywhere, it's just the same shades packaged differently with slightly different formulations

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im realizing i only drink around 2 cups of water a day

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the way i asked my roommate if she want to turn off the light as i was leaving the room and then with no other lights in the room on just turned off the light and closed the door leaving her in pitch dark

mind you it was 2am

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not me laughing and crying at the same time at how therapist with a space between is the rapist

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me: "oh how i love being a woman"

a second later, feels the tell tale squirt of blood

me: >:(

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not me being nauseaus as fuck and not knowing why

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the invisible war rages on

and so it has been...for so long

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Starting to think I was a diversity hire

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i cant believe i just rejected an offer cause i got another better one lmao

thats fucking crazy

i guess my application frenzy paid off

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lmao all my peers in da library studying for finals while thunder storms outside

oh what a lovely time to be alive

i don't know if im being sarcastic or not

truly interesting