#Can't just leave me to bleed!
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Heres your train moment
theres a particular detail here that i'm not even sure that you realized you'd included and i'm not going to mention it but i like this very much. i now have meant to be yours stuck in my head but like it's a good thing. epic drawing
#You left me and I fell apart I punched the wall and cried#BAM BAM BAM#Then I found you changed my heart and set loose all that truthful shit inside!#And so I built a bomb#Tonight our school is Vietnam!#Let's guarantee they'll never see their senior prom!#///#We'll watch the smoke poor out the doors.#Bring marshmallows#We'll make s'mores!#We can smile and cuddle while the fire roars!#I was meant to be yours!#We were meant to be one!#I can't make this alone!#Finish what we've begun!#You were meant to be mine!#I am all that you need!#You carved open my heart!#Can't just leave me to bleed!#.#<- lyrics#like hello. pounding on the closet door with a gun and the ability to forge my suicide note. hi?#anyway i'm brave now. the detail is that his hand is wrapped all the way around my wrist. hi? couldn't run if I tried? hi?
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the underwater episode of bojack horseman makes me so SAD ..
#he gets saddled with a baby seahorse. n on the way to bring it back to its dad bonds with it and everything#and then when it's time to give it back he just stands in the doorway and watches them#the dads obviously like. what the hell do you want. tries to invite him in to eat and then tries to give him money#n bojack refuses both. he doesn't even know what he wants he's just stuck standing there#n then you see a shot of all the seahorse babies eating and being babies#AND YOU CAN'T EVEN TELL WHICH ONE WAS THE ONE HE WAS WITH FOR THE WHOLE EPISODE.#and you see in his face that HE realizes that too#and he leaves#OWWWW#the closest thing he's felt to like Actual genuine love With no fear in who knows how long And then it's over immediately#AND NOT TO FUCKING MENTION THE MAIN PLOT OF BOJACK TRYING TO GET BACK TO SAY SORRY TO KELSEY JANNINGS FOR THE WHOLE EPISODE BUT IN THE END#once he FINALLY manages to write something sincere and honest to her the ink bleeds off the page. and she drives away#OWWWWWWW#AND THE wHOLE EPISODE IS SILENT AND THAT GETS ME EVEN MORE#IM SUCH A SUCKER FOR SILENT STORYTELLING#I adore bojack so much probably my favorite protagonist from any media ever#I don't want to write a whole essay analyzing his character so ill just say this#I love him I love him I love him#it wasn't intentional but I realized that my tiger lady oc is basically just bojack with a fresh coat of paint...
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homecoming by ethel cain. yeah
#MY LOVE IS MY LOVE AND BLEEDS LIKE A WOUND!!!! YOU PRETEND NOT TO NOTICE!! SOMETHING I LIKE ABOUT YOU!!!!!#YOUNG AND SWEET ONLY SEVENTEEN!!! IM THE REAL PIG BLOOD SOAKED FUCKING HOMECOMING QUEEN!!!!!#FIRE IN MY EYES I JUST STAND HERE AND BLEED!!! CRYING IN YOUR ARMS BABY CAN'T WE JUST LEAVE??? EVERYONE'S WATCHING US AND I CAN'T BREATHE!!#THEY'RE ALL GONNA LAUGH AT ME!!!!!!!#THEY'RE ALL GONNA LAUGH AT ME THEY'RE ALL GONNA LAUGH AT ME THEY'RE ALL GONNA LAUGH AT ME THEY'RE ALL GONNA LAUGH AT ME THEY'RE ALL GONNA#LAUGH AT ME THEY'RE ALL GONNA LAUGH AT ME THEY'RE ALL GONNA LAUGH AT ME THEY'RE ALL GONNA LAUGH AT ME THEY'RE ALL GONNA LAUGH AT ME#THEY'RE ALL GONNA LAUGH!!!!!
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listening to heathers and feeling very normal about könig and the line "I wish we'd met before they convinced you life is war"
#JD just reminds me of könig in general#the detachment towards life#the instant resorting to violence to protect the person he loves#when veronica says 'I wanted someone strong who could protect me'#also JD's freakout in Meant To Be Yours is so könig#YOU CARVED OPEN MY HEART#CAN'T JUST LEAVE ME TO BLEED#könig#könig cod#könig x reader#könig mw2#konig#konig x reader#konig mw2#Königcore
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series 3 is so frustrating because there is like a shining core of pure diamond underneath the problems . like conceptually it rocks so incredibly hard. but the problems
#dr who#i am being so honest when i say ten should have gotten on his knees and begged for simm!master's life#they should have framed the bit between him and martha's mom so different#like yes it is 10000% in character that the doctor with his bleeding heart and loneliness wouldn't want to kill him#even after everything that happened. because he's the only person he has left. 'i forgive you' was PERFECT.#but literally anyone else that suffered from what the master did. Deserves to rip him to shreds. so very obviously#and like i know.i KNOW that i am watching the 'funny immortal alien saves people through time and space' show#but i actually despise the doctor being framed as like an all powerful savior. or treated like one. even for a little bit. is Annoying#the first part of the series 3 finale having martha be humanity's last hope was SO GOOD bc it like kind of set her up as like#having to grapple with all that responsibility and attention like the doctor does. everyone's lives are in her hands. so crunchy#but when it like slides into 'everyone pls believe in our specialest boy in the world The Doctor <3' it just. falls flat#i feel like with a couple tweaks here and there in the execution and like actual fuckinnn people of color in the writer's room#series 3 would be PEAK media. but as it is it's just. falling short.#i do really appreciate martha deciding to leave ten on her own though. first of all. qpp down. second of all#she's realized that she can't keep traveling with him. bc (as i mentioned) hes someone who simultaneously needs saving#and refuses to be saved in the ways that matter. Yes im fucking ignoring the unrequited romance angle i think#it does a gigantic disservice to martha's character if u boil her down to that. fight me i dont care if that was the authorial intent#martha in the end is too kind to ten and ten keeps making her watch his meandering path of self destruction. toxic doomed qprism to ME.#anyway fuck. idk man series 2 consensus was that im dead inside and series 3 consensus is that the version i have of it in my head is peak#series 2 is better but i think because of my ten martha insanity i actually enjoyed watching series 3 more than series 2.#even if i got mad at it more than any other season. i think something is wrong with me. um. lmao#ten and martha#10 era
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how do we feel about an 1800s (ish) old west story with a vampire still trying to get over losing the one she loved?
#sim edit#brona#after regal is officially over of course#gosh i've been putting off editing the last two posts of it because i just..... i don't know if i can accept that it'll be done lol#but i will finish it!#in the meantime i've beeen thinking about brona's story for a while now#very much contemplated not ever posting about it#i thought.... this one dies with me#but. i want her to find love again#i can't leave her to wither like she desires#she's has hundreds of years to dwell but no more!!!!#well.. if anyone is interested (^:#it would be a lot of work tbh#i've got to historical-ify chestnut ridge (whenever i decide to update) and download lots more cc and mods#which means i'd need to sort through regal mods and figure out what i want to bleed over#there's some hairs and dresses and possibly build/buy#anyways it's a lot of work but#let me know your thoughts
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do you have a favorite headcanon, from yourself or that you picked up from someone else, of either knives or vash
hmmm don't think i could say i have a favourite, bc there's so much good stuff (plus im relatively new to them and still Exploring the kv world so haven't had as much time to establish them), BUT there is one thing that im really so so so very into and it's the idea of knives and vash only being capable of having sex with each other
i already mentioned it in this post, which pretty much says most of it really
but yeah i LOVE the idea of their bodies being incompatible with human bodies and rejecting them (in the case of flower genitalia, a closed bud that never blooms and opens, and in the case of a more regular genitalia situation, an unresponsive dick/hole, no erection, no lubrication, no gape. just the tightness of an unwiling opening. just the burn of desperate need against skin rubbed raw)
and along with the lack of bodily response, we have touches and gropes being discomforting, grating, painful at times, and always feeling so, so wrong, like their entire body is on edge, wrongness crawling all over their skin.
it's not that glaring of an issue for nai, who would not have sex with humans (more accurately: anyone who's not vash). but in vash's case, who lives among humans, i'd find it definitely is.
although, the thing is, their bodies dont even work for themselves. not being able to have sex is one thing, but they can't masturbate either, bc their bodies need the other's to react, they don't respond to their own prods and touches and pleas. no amount of personal desire can make their bodies react, not unless the other is there. (which would negate the above comment: it is an issue for nai too, who can't properly physically manifest his desire for vash) (i dont think a nai sexually repressed for 150 yrs could lead to good things...)
and well, it's all bc essentially, they are one. two halves of a whole, made from each other and needing each other to complete each other. they exist as one and no matter how much time they spend apart, how much they clash, the truth of the fact is carved into the makeup of their bodies.
#i just think this is sooooo hot ugusdjfhsdjg#and it makes SENSE TO ME#they're plants. they're not human. why would their bodies need to be able to fuck humans. they CANT#no this isn't bc i want vash to get wrecked by ppl who can't even properly fuck him and leave him sobbing and#bruised and his hole bleeding and torn.... ahahh whaaatt ofc not#also nai would be so weird about this all the more reason for them to BE TOGETHER and for nai to TAKE HIS BROTHER bc it's what's RIGHT#HE NEEDS TO FUCK VASH BC HE WAS MADE FOR IT#f.ask#plantcest#kv#trigun#the only reason i cant say this is my fave hc is bc i dont have enough hcs for that ajfskajdas#but dw anon as my hc arsenal grows i shall share :3#ns4w#god im so normal about this this is making me crazy
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sigh. have not gotten a job yet and i feel a looming sense of dread just. hanging over my head. anyway im gonna watch pd s2 ep26 and hopefully my brain will reset itself and i'll feel slightly better
#whiskey yelling into the void#god. god. just everything fucking sucks i need to get out of my hometown i can't fucking stay here#get me out please please pleaseee#i need to LEAVE or im gonna like. idk. explode#the amount of times i feel the urge to hit my head against a wall until i start bleeding is astronomical#would love to bash my head until my brains explode out of my skull#or just like. give myself a fucking concussion
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No need to apologize 'Cause there's nothing to regret Well, this is not what I wanted Guess all the good things come to an end
So baby, bye, bye Wish you the best But most of all, I wish that I could love you less Well, maybe you're right, I'll find someone else You say it isn't me, but when did that ever help?
Hold me closer Although you'll leave before the sunrise Might be bleeding, but don't you mind, I'll be fine Oh, it kills me I found the right one at the wrong time But until the sunrise Hold tight, hold tight
Maybe it happened too fast I guess that I understand You say that you never felt this way for anyone And that's why it scares you to death
So baby, bye, bye Know it's for the best Still I can't see how that would ease the pain in my chest
Hold me closer Although you'll leave before the sunrise I'll be bleeding, but don't you mind, I'll be fine Oh, it kills me I found the right one at the wrong time But until the sunrise Could you just hold me tight? I know I have to let go, but just give me the night
'Cause tomorrow will hurt Hurt really bad 'Cause I'm about to lose the best I ever had
Hold me closer Although you'll leave before the sunrise I'll be bleeding, but don't you mind, I'll be fine Oh, it kills me I found the right one at the wrong time But until the sunrise Could you just hold me tight? (Hold tight, hold tight) I know, I have to let go But just give me the night (hold tight, hold tight)
Can't you see that you Found the right one at the wrong time? It was just the wrong time Hold tight, hold tight
@overnightheartbeats
#overnightheartbeats#tfw when ur working on lydia's phone meme thingy and this song comes up and i just instantly think of zoe & eric my hearttt#zoe x eric#'hold me closer although you'll leave before the sunrise'#'you say it isn't me but when did that ever help?' :(#i know i have to let go but just give me the night :(#still i can't see how that will ease the pain in my chest#I'M IN PAIN#in case the links being dumb its hold me closer by cornelia jakobs#i'll be bleeding but don't you mind i'll be fine :(#tomorrow will be hurt bc i'm about to lose the best i've ever had ;-; I'M SO SAD
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Bizarre Love Triangle by New Order
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#byler#stranger things#bizarre love triangle playlist#mike wheeler#mike’s pov#'it's no problem of mine but it's a problem i find-- living a life that i can't leave behind'#this lyric reminds me of s3 mike bleeding into s4 mike#his line “its not my main concern. it's just a sub-concern”#this could also maybe support the theory that mike does sense will has feelings for him but he is just very scared#and so he's waiting for that final moment when will says the words he doesn't have the courage to say#'i do admit to myself that if i hurt someone else then i'll never see just what we're meant to be'#this feels like the most love triangly lyric in the song#mike is struggling with being honest w el about how he doesn't love her romantically#and he's so scared about how badly this could end#the truth could ruin his relationship with el#and then at that point does he even deserve will or anyone for that matter?#i think this is also how the ga looks at it#they can't even imagine mike breaking up with el and hurting her#and so they also can't imagine mike ending up with will#and it also doesn't help that will and el are low-key siblings now#mike has got himself in quite a pickle#a bizarre love triangle indeed#also that second gif is so iconic#they frame it from mike's pov at the start of the shot#we see it sort of zoom out from el and will who are equally visible in the frame bc those are the two people mike is focused on#but if you pay closer attention#the camera lets us see who mike is really focused on for a split second#and it's not el...#4x02#gif
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#tw period#im so sick and fucking tired of this shit#like. im not even in extreme pain! im at low-to-medium level discomfort that comes in waves all day#but that's the PRELUDE. my period hasn't even officially started yet#and i don't know what this means. idk if this means i'll be slammed as if by a fucking freight train tomorrow if i don't take my meds#i think it will bc that's becoming the norm. light periods are quickly disappearing or few and far between#im so tired#(doesn't help that i didn't get enough sleep last night but still)#and i feel that while my periods are pretty brutal they're not the level i see people with diagnosed endometriosis speak of#i've got meds that pretty much suppress the majority of it leaving me with just an undercurrent hum of pain#which is a fucking blessing btw bc without them i would be almost unable to function on day 1 and 2#so im like well ive got something that works and it's easily available drugstore medication so surely it can't be THAT level of bad#like. it's bad. but it's not [insert chronic illness] right?#i just don't fucking know. all i know is that this sucks and it happens every month and im uncomfortable to go on hormones and just.#it fucking sucks.#i remember when my periods felt the way im feeling right now (as im yet to start bleeding) and it scares me#idk if it'll get worse but it sure ain't great already#anne speaks
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My roommates are watching Lego Monkie Kid in the living room with me and I really get why this show is popular with the ADHD crowd
#spiced#lego monkie kid#adhd/autism might be more all encompassing but i have Just austism and i'm not into it so i'm choosing to leave it out for this case#i tried the first episode to be fair#the moment where he strikes the bull king so hard it shifts shit in the solar system but the bull king is just like ough that hurt a little#that's where i checked out#it's a show ideal for a demographic far too young for me to enjoy properly though i do appreciate its character design#sorry i know it's for like 8 year olds so they can't like bleed and all#but a strike that massive just had too little payoff i can't let it go with the ease it requires#anyway i still think red son and macaque are cool i tune in a little for their involvement
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Where is that one meme sorta thingy that's a crying cartoon blob
I am a crying cartoon blob :(
#just to be reallll tmi again sorry you can leave if you want im not forcing you to read about my problems#there will that be enough that this is behind the 'see all' bit i doubt it anyway#we continue!#anyway i might actually be quite ill somehow cs like. blood tests an stuff about other stuff#anyway i won't know anything until next week at least#and we are not thinking about that!#what i am a crying sad cartoon blob about rn is that im slowly being driven insane by not being able to masturbate. just to be blunt.#words for that are always a lil weird i think but 'masturbate' is also like. wow. okay. y just said it.#anyway i can't cs ive been bleeding for over two months now and just that on its own is a turn off obvs#but also now apparently just being turned on gives me a stomachache :(#i would like to fuckin do smth about it but i can't cs of all the theoretical death thoughts and now im sore as well :(#:(((#:'(((((#anyway im gonna distract myself with longwinded italian supernatural crime dramas bye now
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#i think. maybe ill go to bed before 8 tonight#bc my brain. i can't deal with it. and im tired#but i should not do that bc i have things i need to do#like. theres an application due the 11th. but fuck it i might not send it bc fucking whats the point#why has it become so impossible to function? i mean. i kno why but its still annoying#and its like so crazy bc i just feel like im curled up on the floor with the broken pieces of my life and nothing terribles even happened#from an outside perspective its perfectly fine and good my insides have just rottef out#like i had to spend most of today plotting an experiment and i feel bad bc im just so. im so worried that looking after yhis thing is going#to hurt. its going to drain away hours of my time. i dont kno how long it take to deal with every single day for 2 weeks#ill have to water it at 7 and 5 and take measurements all day probably and im very worried about the amount of damage thats going to do#when it already feels like i should b careful where i step. and i feel bad bc im prob such a bummer to hang around like im so sullen faced#and i just dont care. like we had to make a decision bc we could do one thing or another and it would b answering 2 diff questions#and my boss was like. well which do u find most interesting. and i just. i dont care im more concern with the amount of psychic damage this#will inflict upon me so i just dont really give a fuck and that makes me so sad bc like at one point this probably would have been fun#and now im just bitter and it hurt and i jusr want to lay down and not get up#and im like how the fuck am i supposed to find a phd position when the enthusiasm for what i do now has completely burned thru me?#like hi yes r u looking for a new student? im dizzy and my life is falling apart even tho everythings my brains just on fire#but ya kno i think id b an asset to your lab! sigh... itll b fine i kno it will bc it has to b#ill visit the school i wanna go to. hopefully not make myself look like too much of an unstable moron and then leave this place#dragg my bleeding soul across the country to shrivel up in a different area code#somethings gotta give but lets hope it waits a couple months ya kno#ugh. im just tired. i should sleep. i didnt sleep enough last night. and i didnt relax on the weekend so ive got that i don't kno what day#it is type of vertigo. but tomorrow will b better. it will bc i dont want it to b worse#unrelated#i just want to study things that made me feel something. y doesn't that have to b so hard?#let me study slime. endless days alone with the green goo
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i think about this line from rwrb a lot
#laying in bed on my stomach blasting olivia rodrigo because im sad#my dad is my dad he's so tiring to live with god my tongue is (metaphorically) bleeding from having to hold onto every thought#and feeling i have yk bite my tongue etc#and my mom. calling me like 5 days after she left for the first time just to ask about why my dad said what he said to her#and then angrily shout and complain about him to me#like. im tired. of these stupid fucking pathetic excuses of adults#i want parents real parents i can't believe god hates me so much that i feel like i have 0 inspite having 2#like. when my mom complains 'i can't believe he did this how can he even do this doesn't he see me as a human?? '#and i just listen quietly because#yeah. he doesn't. he literally said it to you in front of all of us when i was 18.i begged you to divorce him when i was 17#how is it surprising anymore obviously he's horrible he's a fucking sociopath#but you cared too much about society to leave him so just bear with him then#you doomed yourself and me with you not that you even care#every major decision he has taken in the past 5 years of my life have directly contributed to my depression#doing this degree i begged not to not sending me to college not sending me to the classes i wanted and then moving me here#so fuck you ugh fuck both of you honestly#i hate that i can't even say anything because it's literally pointless ive already said it 500 times and it doesn't matter#i don't matter really they'll fight and make up and fight and make up and continue to ruin my childhood and adulthood and they'll#die thinking oh we were such great parents#well fuck u i hope i never have to speak to you again when i move out
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M&Ms
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#nope#well...#on occasion#and I'll unconsciously make myself bleed#but it's okay#i don't feel it anymore#cleaning only becomes a factor when I'm so overwhelmed and don't know what to do with myself#it's mostly just obsessing over something that's not even important#like emails#i can't STAND notifications#they all have to be marked read#and i have to read them for them to be marked read#and then I have to respond#because I'm not leaving you on read#and I'm not superstitious#but me and M&Ms#me with anything that needs to be counted#but not really anything to do with cleaning
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