#Bout to binge listen to it all

[bambisnc]

lie with you [or, how riize comforts you when you're crying bc of a nightmare]

pairing : ot7 x reader! genre : implied hurt n subsequent comfort cw/tw : hugging + kisses + food mention + possibly swearing? wc : idk ,,

shotaro ,. ! - im a firm believer of taro heavy sleeper agenda - bro will be out like a log, no fire alarm is waking him up anytime soon D: - but! when you wake up because of the nightmare and end up moving a bit away from him as you process it - he knows. - he just somehow subconsciously knows that there's distance between you and just reaches out for your warmth and traps you in a big hug – all while he's snoring softly (in the CUTEST way ever) - ends up comforting you without even being conscious he's just skilled tm like that yk??

eunseok ,. ! - light sleeper!!!!! his happy burritos and cream pasta dreams stop the literal second he hears the slightest whimper out of you - mentally goes "who tf hurt my darling s/o." - when he finds out it's you crying bc of a nightmare i'm sorry but he might tease you (later ofc, when you've had enough time to heal from it bbg dw) - but rn he offers distractions in the form of bingeing cutesy animes (imagine you watch horimiya's toffee scene w him or any other anime romance cliche and he goes would u like me to do that to you. i'd pass awa y)

sungchan ,. ! - you may have to wake him up depending on how tired he is :/ - but as soon as he finds out, wraps you up in the comfiest + warmest clothes he can find and throws you over his shoulder like a potato sack/holds you in a princess carry -> depends entirely on which you prefer he can do both 💪 - takes you straight to his car (we're js gonna pretend he can drive for the sake of the hc my extensive research i.e. 15 mins on reddit led me nowhere ;-;) it's time for a midnight drive! - puts on you guys' shared playlist and takes you to a grocery store snack run followed by going to an open-ish place so you can watch the stars tgt :(

wonbin ,. ! - i think his waking up abilities are honed purely due to being w you (yk like what if you need him to hug you at like 3 am. and he's too busy passed out (dreaming of you) then what.) - feels you trembling and is lowkey upset that you didn't wake him up when you needed him :( - he gets that you might not want to face him tho, so simply presses his chest against your back and places soft kisses on your neck. probably drops in a couple "'m here for you love" "it'll be okay" "i love you so so much yk that right?" he's versatile w his sweet nothings like that :( <3

seunghan ,. ! - this guy scares me ngl /j - he probably knows you're having a nightmare before you know you're having a nightmare - wakes you up by shaking you gently, comforts you with many many many hugs as you're waking up - kisses your tears away .. (i'm so weak for him) - lays your head down on his lap and lets you vent to him just listening to you, dude's gentle presence alone is enough to calm you down - BUT ALSO. imagining him drawing you a warm bath and you ending up coercing him into wearing cutesy animal face masks w you :(((

sohee ,. ! - guy who must be facing his s/o while sleeping !! gets to know and wakes up immediately when you start crying - clings to you like a koala that's it that's the hc. has his head buried in your neck, hands tied so so tightly around your waist which greatly help to ground you - also probably cracks a couple of really cringey jokes something along the lines of "i'll be your silver knight, my princess" but says it w the softest, sweetest expression and in the sincerest, honey-like tone that you can't help but melting completely :( - when he feels you've calmed down enough prob also initiates a tickle fight sorry i don't make the rules acc to him you need to laugh after a bout of crying okay??

anton ,. ! - guy who must be facing his s/o while sleeping (2) except his ass is not waking up unless you physically shake him awake - you'd probably do that though bc what better way to comfort you from a nightmare than your half-asleep bf's soothing voice? - bro is probably so out of it that he just very eloquently goes "wh huh wha" or something of that sort - when he's coherent enough (not really) he would sort of kind of roll up on top of you forgetting his 6'1 stature - but on the positive side his weight over you is a lot like a really comfy blanket (that can kiss your forehead w the utmost gentleness) - if you ask nicely he'll even sing you a lil lullaby to help you get back to sleep <3

notes : THIS WAS FUN !! ppl who dont know my current bias try guessing based on this 🤭 + [m.list]

[the-fandom-is-now-my-life]

The idea that future Leo and mc having bouts of "was that past Leo just now??? Smh" is SO funny to me like

Imagine past Leo keeps coming back to take a look at his future, and it's starting to piss Leo off like ??? Man he just wants to cuddle with his wife after work, and now there's this little shit coming in to steal his cuddles AND he's treating his wife semi poorly??? (Future Leo can't fathom that it's his own damn self that's the problem LMFAO)

Future Leo starts to leave notes and passive aggressive comments on his body so past Leo can find it. Past Leo doesn't know what's going on but every time he goes to the future he keeps finding angrier and angrier notes (first it's "treat her well, you're a guest here" and "you love her more than life itself even if you don't know it yet" but after a few rounds he gets impatient and starts going nuclear "listen you little shit you make my wife uncomfortable again I'll remember this shit and shave your head in the past" "get the fuck out and leave me alone I'm gonna make you binge eat and make you fat")

Imagine future Leo being so pissed off about the "stolen" time that he insists that he gets EXTRA loving from his wife for it (it's really not that bad, he's just being dramatic again) and whoops it looks like all those extra rounds have gotten his darling wife pregnant 🥴🥴🥴

if past Leo manages to come back in the middle of a sesh with a very obviously pregnant mc he might just have a heart attack then and there pp

The diabolical streamer might be peeking into the future too much

Leo has gotten used to popping to the future for a little while. Leo is neither used to the interruptions to his life and very upset about it

Wc: 1,6K

Notes: nah but he would actually die jsjsjsj he knew he was married to her but not that he was that down bad! This was so fun to write

Cw: she/her for the reader, implications of sex and Leo comes when his future version has sex with his wife

Leo recognizes he can be hard to get along with most of the time, he is snarky, snoops around for secrets and extorts people with them, can be cruel, among many other things. But he never expected to say that he got himself fed up with his existence.

He seems to be getting on his last nerve, Leo notes at the greenish bruises on his midriff while changing clothes after bathing. He once again visited the birdpond even if his trip was a rather short one as Sho pulled him away when he (or rather whatever consciousness from his future self he had in his body) started hitting and scratching himself on the stomach.

Sitting down on his bed, he starts spending cream on the small wounds, he would hate to have any sort of scar.

“And you want to go back tomorrow after that?” Sho asks besides him, watching the reddish and purple splotches and thin red lines across his abdomen.

“Well, yeah, I want to see what number will be drawn on the influencer gala” he says, as nonchalant as ever, as if whatever damage he did to himself was nothing more than a light annoyance.

“You are crazy, dude”

“Hush, I'm learning a TikTok dance”

And as he said, that night as soon as Alan turned off his light they both sneaked off to the hedge maze centered around the birdpond.

“So, you remember what we are doing?”

“10 minutes in and I take you off. If you start hitting yourself I'm just allowed to hold you but not lift you”

“Good! If I see one more bruise and it will be all your fault, m'kay?”

“Hey, no, wait-!” But before he is able to complain he already dipped his head underwater.

Already used to the ache inside his lungs and the feeling of drowning, it doesn't take him much longer to settle on the current situation.

There is a colorful movie playing on the 65 inches mounted tv and he feels a comfortable weight on his lap. When he looks down he sees your head on his chest and legs thrown over his own, most of the weight must be from the sleeping toddler on your legs. A string of spit threatening to spill on his leg makes Leo recoil away violently, almost making you fall off the sofa and your daughter too.

Now awake and in a bad mood Emmy pouts and kicks her little legs “Daddy!” she waddles towards him so he would pick her up and lull her to sleep as always.

With the same coldness as you remember his first year version having, he spits venom at the, honestly quite messy, child “Don't even touch me, you have spit and sugar all over yourself, you are going to mess my clothes” and he barricades himself inside the bathroom, leaving you to calm down an upset toddler.

Hidden away inside the bathroom, he sits down on the bathtub rim and swipes around his phone, looking at his TikTok account and looking for videos that are around 10 years old. For once he curses being so active in social media as when he reaches his current year Sho was pulling him up to the past.

“So? Anything good?”

“Hardly anything and her kid almost slobbers all over me”

“I think that is also your child, dude”

‘stupid child’ Adult Leo growls mentally. Each and every time his past himself would rudely interrupt in his few soft domestic hours he has with his family and treat them like shit his head would be splitting down the middle with an unbearable headache, no matter what he took or if he drank water he would have to sit down for hours until it passed. Luckily his wife and daughter would comfort him while they watched tv with very low volume.

Wobbling out of the bathroom and aiming for the modular sofa he whines for any scrap of affection he believes he is entitled to “LI, Emmy, let's watch a movie, daddy doesn't feel good”

Plopping down on ‘his’ side of the sofa he just noticed Emmy was too busy getting calmed down to watch a movie with her dad.

“What happened, Emmy? Want to tell me while we watch Cinderella?” and even after attempting to bribe her with her favorite movie she just looks the other way with a pout before stomping towards her room, slamming the door.

Noticing your husband was back you smile, a part in relief of not having to take care of your toddler alone and another part of mocking delight “Emilia is very angry at you because your past self told her you weren't going to carry her because she was dirty and was going to mess your clothes”

Mortified, Leo grasps his forehead, he doesn't remember himself as one to be that mean to kids. When he feels you sit next to him and hug his shoulder he starts acting for affection and attention.

“That stupid brat is going to make my baby hate me”

“honey, that brat is you”

The attempt at reasoning with him is met with more whining. After years of marriage he learned that there wasn't anything he couldn't get from you with enough whining “my head hurts” he digs himself a space on your clavicle “I just want to sit down and enjoy myself with my family but now I can't even do that”

Combing some fly away hairs and planting a kiss on his helix honeyed words lure him closer “Emmy might not want to be close to you now but why don't we have some personal time together”

And with a devilish smile his hands dip down your back and butt while his mouth attached itself to whatever patch of skin he can get close to.

Family vlogs are something Leo found himself doing weekly, complying with his fans' demands. There is rarely anything interesting, sometimes doctor's visits, minor sickness, projects he had to say nothing about yet still hype, that sort of day to day things.

After going over a possible trip to Spain for a gaming convention he was invited to, Leo looks over the most frequent questions of the last vlog. He is so thankful that he coded a bot to group comments with the same or similar key words.

“So, for the last question… YN they are asking if you were hungry when we filmed the last video, they say you were scrolling UberEATS for a while”

You shrug while playing with your phone, not paying him much mind “well, when I was pregnant with Emmy I was pretty hungry, it is normal that I would be now too”

It is hardly one second before his usual fake smile dropped, eyes wide and mouth slightly agape. In an attempt to turn off the video his hands fiddle with the button but it takes a few extra seconds than he expected. It is going to look awkward when he uploads it but why act as if he has ever cared about it and more so especially now?

The last few seconds it's possible to hear an ‘are you serious?’

His fans did go wild in the comment section after he posted

Leo_simp76: damn, he is locked down for real, let's cry simps

User_8274849: He already had a kid and is married, did you truly think he was free???

Leo_simp76: I would delulu into thinking he got babytrapped and was going to leave her!!

T.B.d.e: wasn't his child's first birthday one week ago?? How did she let him hit it?

Leo_simp76: I would let him as soon as I could stand. If anything it's weird it took that long!!

The last day before he took a break from looking into the future,as soon as he dips his head down to the water the usual annoyance in his lungs is overpowered by a different kind of ache caused by breathlessness like in Gym class.

“Leo, stop teasing~” a breathy moan begs from beneath him. Looking down he finds his hand snug against the column of your neck, lips connected to your skin just below your collarbone.

You were splayed under him, legs hugging his hips and one arm drawing figures on his biceps. Bodies close enough to notice your swollen stomach against his abdomen. Thankfully enough you had your eyes closed shut and couldn't notice the switch.

He on a technical level guessed this future version of himself and you fucked (as awkward as that image is for him) there was Emilia, or Emmy, that looked very much like him and you; when he snooped around he found condoms and there were multiple pregnancy tests in the en suite bathroom. But he had never barged in during the act.

Such a great fucking time he gets in, balls deep inside the nerd and an orgasm threatening to wreck him. Or so he would think if a wave of dopamine didn't swallow him whole in the same breath.

Quickly he leaves the water, if Sho had to say he almost looked horrified, eyes wide, breathing quickly, face red and… oh, he was just suddenly horny. Any teasing he might have wanted to do is cut short with Leo's nasty side eye but no explanations.

On the other side of the timeline there is a married couple with a sulking husband.

“Are you feeling alright?” opening your eyes you manage to see a very clearly upset Leo resting his forehead against your sternum and a hand on your breast.

“I can't even have sex with my wife without that brat ruining it”

“What? He was here just now?!”

“Once again, I didn't get to enjoy it”

“Wait a second! I'm still sensitive! ~~!”

[webdollzz]

💸 — meet bitchy!kook!reader

total glam. ugh, as if! black cat. dark make up, silver jewellery. fur coats & cheetah print. six inch heels, fresh acrylics. classic cat eye.

bitchy!kook!reader is the baddest bitch in the banks, who takes absolutely no shit from no one. she lives off daddies money, but doesn’t listen to a word her daddy got to say.

she don’t know bout y’all bitches but she knows her worth, n won’t settle for less. she’s the kook princess, why would she settle for the menial bare minimum?

she that friend that keeps you in check, telling you what you need to hear — never what you want to hear. but she’ll always pick you up when you’re down, give you a shoulder to cry on and soothe your worries away.

a total girls girl. she’s always got tampons, pads, lipstick, gloss — you name it, she’s got in her bag and she’s happy to share. what’s hers is yours!

adores moonlight walks on the beach, and the beach overall. you’ll often catch her freshening up her tan the authentic way — never catching fake tan in her room. she loves the sun against her skin.

divine feminine, i'm feminine .ᐟ

total black cat energy, the doberman bestfriend that scares off creepy men dancing too close to her girls in the club, with just a simple stare.

she loves her 80s/90s classics, often listening to Tupac, Eminem, and artists alike. but she also likes morden music like Frank Ocean, Tyler, The Creator, Kendrick Lamar, and along those lines. she loves music, he keeps her going throughout her days so there’s not much she doesn’t listen to.

stole her personality directly from Kat Stratford, Jade West, Chandler Bing (mainly his sarcasm and deflecting jokes), Cher Horowitz, and Maddy Perez. She is a combination of all five of them.

and despite her total man eater aura and big, loud mouth, underneath all that, deep deep down, she’s a lover girl at heart — she just hasn’t felt it in a while.

until a particular low life pogue weasled his way into her heart.

⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺

bitchy!kook!reader posts…

brat taming

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

lmaooo kenny watching you sleep is so creepy (might also be the type of person to randomly trace your nose to see if you'll wake up???)

i can imagine being in a relationship with kenny being like dealing with an unpredictable hot potato of an angry cat who can bite you at any given moment (but, like, the risks of getting scratched and bitten until you bleed outweigh petting a cute cat...)

also, i feel like kenny would just know random details about you?? like your ring size. or your shoe size. or, if you have period, when it starts. and ends. or that you used to have a fringe in seventh grade. or that your grandma likes to bake victoria sponge cake.

or like, casually remembering something small, and being, five years down the line, like, "Do you remember you told me on X day of the X week at X hour XYZ?"

and you're like ????

and sometimes, when kenny would be weirdly nice like getting you a blanket or really leaning into domesticity, you would like watch him like O.O what's next...?

would casually spring up things on you. "Let's get married." "Do you think I should test this out on a human?" "I am leaving for five days, don't contact me." "Should we freak your mother and father out by saying that I'm centuries old?" "You remind me of someone I knew in the sixteenth century. They were... interesting." "I got you a wedding dress, put it on. If you don't, there'll be consequences." "I don't think I'll kill you... I think."

high-key very unhinged... but at least you're kept on your toes all the time? right?

ANON . YOU GET IT.

he’s so fucking Weird . 100% stares at you sleeping and traces the bridge of your nose … smiles a little when that makes your face scrunch up a bit. he’s just fascinated by you i think!! by the fondness you make him feel. he’s like oh :) emotion :)….

AND YES. HE LITERALLY IS JUST A CAT. when it comes to dating kenny i feel like you sort of have to adjust to his whims….. he can definitely be silly and affectionate (in a mildly condescending way) but then he can also be very Cold. and come off as apathetic. he’s like a stray cat who waltzed into your home one day and let you pet and feed it…. sleeps in your bed and purrs when you scratch behind its ears but won’t hesitate to hiss if you do something he doesn’t like. random bouts of affection but only ever at his whim, y’know? like. he’s Your Cat but he also isn’t. he doesn’t always come home and it’s clear he has a life outside of you. but he likes your company enough to let you come closer than anyone else has been and that means a lot on its own!!! he’s just…. your mildly creepy cat. who watches you sleep with his big creepy eyes and protects you from the shadows.

BUT OK enough abt kenyaku (<- his Cat name)….. ANON I LOVE YOU. i agree!! on all points!!!! him knowing random little things about you….. randomly recalling certain things…. i feel like his memory is a little jumbled. kenjaku is the type to forget your bday but like … he’ll remember your thoughts on Every Single Character in the show you’ve been binging. or the exact tone of voice you had when you spoke to him for the first time. his love definitely shows in the little things… he might not tell you that he Loves You outright and i don’t think he’d care about making your relationship official in any way, but if you mention liking a brand of soda you’ll find one waiting for you in the fridge the next day. he’s cute. i’ve said this before a while ago but i also think kenny would take you on random trips a lot…. just to spend time with you!! but he doesn’t Tell You where you’re going so you just have to listen to him say ”we’re almost there ^_^” like 50 times. lmao.

ALSO BEFORE I FORGET . the period thing. you’re a genius anon. he just randomly sniffs you and then goes ”you’re on your period aren’t you” and you’re like ??? wtf is wrong with you ?????? (he was Right btw) LIKE HE’S SO STRANGE. you don’t need a period tracker because he’ll just casually let you know you’ll be getting your period tomorrow. and that it’ll probably be a little worse than usual. and he’s Always right so you just have to nod.. silently…. trying not to give him side eye……… for the record i think he also takes care of you well during your Time of The Month. tries to be a little more tender because he knows you’re sensitive and doesn’t really want to deal with you crying (he doesn’t like seeing you in distress but that’s a secret)….. makes sure you’re taking ibuprofen. makes sure you get some fresh air. lets you sleep on his lap like a puppy while he reads. places one of his big warm hands on your lower stomach. he’s a little more indulgent i think.

but ok period comfort ASIDE . the random bouts of affection/domesticity….. you Get it anon. i think he’s actually fairly physically affectionate but it’s never something He initiates. he just expects you to know when it’s okay to cling to him and not. so if he pulls you into his lap or covers you in a blanket or whatever you kind of melt a bit…. i DO think he’s a frequent hair-ruffler though. and a serial booper. he’ll mess up your hair and boop your nose and you just have to Deal with it. get booped idiot. (it’s how he shows affection :3)

"Let's get married." "Do you think I should test this out on a human?" "I am leaving for five days, don't contact me." "Should we freak your mother and father out by saying that I'm centuries old?" "You remind me of someone I knew in the sixteenth century. They were... interesting." "I got you a wedding dress, put it on. If you don't, there'll be consequences." "I don't think I'll kill you... I think."

AND FINALLY. THIS. i went insane btw. all of these r so real and true anon …. he’s just kind of silly and weird and tiptoes that line between hot and cold. but he Cares for you in his own weird way.

and!!! i don’t think he would ever kill you!!!!! i do think he’d say that last line but only to see your reaction lmao. compared to other jjk villains kenny is never shown killing anyone on a pure whim, obviously he doesn’t Mind doing it but it’s not something i see him doing casually yk?? especially not to someone whose company he genuinely enjoys…. maybe if he thinks he’s getting Too attached to you? :0 idk but!! i feel like kenny keeps you around for as long as he possibly can if he cares for you. spending time with you is important to him. even if he randomly disappears now and then. (if he genuinely Loves you i think there’s a good chance he’ll just throw you over his shoulder and bring you with him LMAO)

BUT YES. i’m OBSESSED with him. thank you soso much for feeding my kenny thoughts anon <333 the kenny talks i’ve been having lately r Really tempting me to finish some kenny fics T_T….. soon.

[yeahspider]

DIAL TONE 🕸️

Ve’s note - 100% self indulgent . sobriety is hard . it’s a struggle but we up yk . minho x fem reader . mdni . hurt/comfort . adult themes . mentions of alcohol and depression . if you’re struggling with addiction just know i love you and that recovery isn’t linear . not proofread . requests are open . enjoy <3

you didn’t want to be in this party any more . the music was too loud and you were too drunk . but you didn’t want to go back to your dorm either . what awaits you there ? silence ? isolation ? you couldn’t take another night of staring at your ceiling . it’s been weeks since you last talked to him . not that you could blame him , you were a mess . a mess that didn’t want to be cleaned . you said some things you didn’t mean , and now you’re left to suffer the consequence of your never ending stream of red solo cups .

nothing is as making the void he left better . but somewhere deep in your brain , the darkest part convinced you if you filled the hole with another drink that it would be alright . but that one drink turned into another and another and eventually the hole spilled over . so here you were pressed up against the wall by some random . his kisses up your neck left you filling emptier than before but it’s hard to tell when you’re knee deep in a binge .

another shot was all you needed . after two more the stranger started to look like minho . but then he would say something and like a jolt to your system your visage would shatter . this isn’t what you wanted . pushing the man off you and grabbing another bottle . you left the party and the terribly loud music . steeping out into the rain you felt the rest of your resolve crumbling . not even the rain could hide your tears as you you opened another bottle .

you didn’t want to live like this anymore . it’s been two years . minho was with you threw it all . and the only thing you did was push him away . you don’t know how long you’ve been sitting at the bench . could he thirty minutes could’ve been two hours . time seemed muddle when you were in this state . the rain had started to slow and you started to shiver . unlocking your phone you see the lock screen of minho you could never bring yourself to change . his smile that graced his face in rare occasion never failed to blow you away .

two minutes of indecision later . your dialing his number . and then two rings in you start to regret it . he owes you nothing . has saved you more times than he could count . so you couldn’t blame him if he didn’t pick up . not after how that last conversation ended in you slamming the door and storming out his apartment . after two more rings he picked up . you couldn’t stop the shock that flooded through you . why did you call him again ? you foundry remember . you barely registered his voice gently asking if you’re alright , or you’re shaky response that resembled a small no .

“send me your location.” you heard him say . and for the first time in your relationship you listened . he told you to stay out and that’s what you did . you couldn’t tell if it’s the liquor coursing through your veins that kept you rooted or sheer desperation to see him again . it took him five minutes to pull up . you know your shivered and soaked form was a sight to see . he stood in front of you for a second . taking in all your rock bottom glory . it room you a second to meet his eyes , and second more for you to whisper out a thank you . he only hummed as he led you to his car and back to his aortemng . only speaking in small bouts as he let you shower and change into a hoodie of his and a pair of leggings you had left at his house awhile ago .

after drying off and sobering up as much as you could you joined him in his bed you’ve spent so many nights in . his eyes caught sight of the bruises left on your neck from earlier and the bags that never seemed to leave from under your eyes . you looked a mess . but to him you were still as beautiful as ever . still his girl . even if you were a little lost . minho twirled a piece of your hair between his finger and that’s all it took for you to break into sobs . clinging on to his shirt his body heat seeped into you as you repeated your sorrys to him like a prayer . he just held you and shushed your apologies .

“i will never give up on you my love. you’ll always have me.” said into your hair . and you beloved him . minho would never fail to dave you no matter how many times you needed it . you wanted to do anything to keep him . even if that meant getting better and healing . because you knew that he would be with you every step of the way .

[lightningmcqueeniloveyou]

Some personal Cars headcanon cuz it is living in my brain while I have other stuff that I needed to do but all I can think of is these 4 wheels fuckers.

Humanized

Mostly Lightning (cuz I love him), Doc and Sheriff is mentioned tho

Lightning is early to mid twenties in Cars (2006), he is atleast older than 21 to me, in Cars 2 he is about early thirties, and Cars 3 he is late fourties (still pretty early to retired if you ask me)

Doc was in his mid to early thirties when he crashed in 1954, ending his career waaaaaay too early, he's mid 50, pushing 60 in Cars 1. (like I know the timeline dont make sense but hey, im humanizing them, leave me alone)

I have not read much comics or books bout Cars and def will appreciate it if you guys can recommend me something that feature Doc and Sheriff's relationship. In the mean time, Sheriff and Doc are best friends, they play chess and watch soccers together every Saturday nights.

They both have a soft spot for Lightning, cuz who doesn't. They are the "tough guys" of the town, but actually are the softest, just see how Lightning worms his way into their hearts in like 3 days.

Sheriff is the softer one out of the two, he might be one of the softest people in Radiator Spring.

Lightning's real name being Montgomery was quite difficult for him to spell when he was young, so he start calling himself Monty. So most people know him as Monty, and later, Lightning.

Lightning def has atleast one (1) dino onesie.

He loves dinosaurs since he was young and still do now, binging every dino documentaries that came out inbetween his races and rides. Remember the names, what the species looks like, even specific dinosaurs. He likes the ones that travel in herds or have strong family bonds.

If you give him a chance he could talk about dinosaur all day, but he knows when to reign it in, and actually keep it quite a secret. Ever since Harv made sure he knew it wasnt "good for his image", Lightning found sharing his interests with people have left a sour taste on his tounge.

The taste is slowly going away now that he have people who actually want to listen to all his dinosaur facts!

Lightning pierced his ear when he was 16. To look cool, mostly. After he got the nickname Lightning, he bought bolt shape earrings, that when hit by the light will shine (like his sticker in the movie!!)

Later on, like much later on, he switched to a bolt pendant with a necklace, to give off a more mature look.

[foxilayde]

Danny!!! I just binged Season 2 of Case 63 last night! I'd love to hear your thoughts on it (if you're willing to share them)! 💕

You want to hear my thoughts on case 63? Oh dear sweet lovely anon, please buckle up because I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS

I listened to season one probably 4 times in the past year and season 2 twice already (I have a lot of down time this week) and i took notes on the timelines because i thought i was going crazy and it honestly turned me into Charlie Day a little bit with the red string and notes and maps on the wall, “And i march down to Eliza’s office and say “Beatrix!! Beatrix!!’”

Anyway, spoilers below the cut.

I kind of want to start with season 2 episode 9, that thing that Vincent says to Eliza “peter didn’t send you here to save the world, if you’re his wife in one of the timelines and if peter lost his wife in 2060 when she was 38 because of Pegasus, his wife has to be born in 2022. And if you were, or will be, Peter Roiter’s wife, for her to be born in 2022, then you Beatrix should have died in 2022, but you didn’t. He knew you had to die, but he couldn’t lose you. Think about it, why did he need YOU to do the injection? He needed to get you to the extraction point. He tried to hide you and protect you from your death. He sacrificed millions to send you to the past to delay your death.”

That part reminded me so much of Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind. I don’t know if you’ve ever seen that movie, but the protagonist, Joel, is running through his memories with his ex girlfriend Clementine and trying to hide her away in places she doesn’t belong, just so she can live in his brain for a tiny bit longer. It’s just so romantic and it makes sense why then Peter didn’t sound upset when Eliza told him that she couldn’t inject Marie, he doesn’t even give a shit about the timeline anymore. He just wants her to be able to LIVE and be happy adfdskjas;defsdfk

But i can’t talk about this without talking about the inconsistencies…. **play Serial theme** One of which here is Helen Vince, Peter Roiter’s wife From the future, is supposedly born in 2022 in one of these timelines, yet in the 2012 timeline she’s born in 2012? Did i miss something here? The only theory i have on that is related to that thing Peter says about “time protects us” and that’s why travelers can’t KILL Marie. I think it works in reverse as well, that you can’t escape your time coming, things will shift and bounce to fit your time clock. Which is super tragic when you think about how that’s Peter’s only goal, to give Eliza more time.

That bit IS confusing, but ALSO so is the inconsistencies with Peter’s age at some points. Like when he talks about the Egregor and being 9 years old and people dying by their own hand because of it, yet the math says he was 6 when the Berlin Purge happened and he says it was 2030 at one point and 3035 when Eliza asks for clarification.

And some other things too, he gives two separate dates for “the end of the world” (unspecified event!) and despite the Great Deletion happening, he claims that the Garnier Malet effect is “taught in all schools” since 2034, but the great deletion happened in 2033, and at another time he said it was actually in 2053???

and there are several more inconsistencies but what I’m trying to SAY is that he’s obviously not lying…. Right? Because the time travel is real, we have seen that. So the thing that he MIGHT be lying about is that “a traveler can only travel once” rule. I have a feeling this Peter Roiter has been alllll over the damn place. Probably unsanctioned missions? In order to hide Beatrix in one time or another to avoid her death.

And let’s TALK ABOUT THE NAMES OK. So we are introduced to an “Eliza Beatrix” and Peter straight up calls her Beatrix, so I THINK HE’S MET HER BEFORE and I’m not Fukin talm bout Helen Vince here. Roll with me, because when Eliza goes to Vincent’s timeline and meets herself, she tells her ten years younger self that SHE should start going by Beatrix! THAT’S PETERS BEATRIX. And that 10 year shift? Would explain a lot of the TIME INCONSISTENCIES ARE YOU WITH ME??

Let’s also not forget that i suspect that Beatrix is the Beatrix from the recording at the end of season 2, the one that Oliver Collins gives to Marie Caldwell. ALSO A STRANGE HAPPENING for him to be giving that to her because he was hysterically telling Eliza to discredit herself to Marie… very interesting.

Also super weird of Vincent to be acting the way that he was after Eliza DIED. Odd. Hmmm. Yes lets talk about Vincent Caldwell. The photo on the wall that made the bedroom look like Rome! To close the loop on the Garnier Malet! Such a cool twist in that. And when Eliza says, “By sending me here, he ensured the continuity of the dream” GUTPUNCH. There is one thing that bugs me about closing the loop and that would be the “take a flight to Rome on December 31st. Platform 23 at 4pm” thing that Peter said. Because BRO KNOWS THAT HELEN VINCE IS GOING TO BE BORN DECEMBER 12 so really and truly what the fuck was that about?? He knew that shit wasn’t ever going to happen, right? IT BUGS ME.

Also, bonus heartbreaking tidbit:: in the recording that he gives Eliza he makes it sound like “I’ll have 40 years to contact the organization to get this information to you” but bro knows that little baby Peter Roiter is going to be born sometime in 2023 (or 2024 depending on the inconsistencies) so he’s got 2 years max to live. And he doesn’t want Eliza to know.

Interesting tidbits, in the 2022 timeline, she’s in a bathroom in jfk terminal 4, but when she wakes up in 2012 she’s in terminal 8, so it’s not the “exact same spot” like she was telling herself. (Truly don’t know if that’s relevant.) And just a fun fact, when Peter is talking about his wife Helen he mentions that he did most of the cooking in their relationship and when Vincent talks about his late wife he says he did most of the cooking as well. So Peter is canonically skilled in the kitchen in every universe lmao.

I loved the tidbits about our sci-fi movies being influenced by The Project ever since 1948, i thought that was a thought provoking parallel to our current time.

I really love Marie so much. She hears and accepts all this stuff from Eliza and then she says you know what? I’m going to prevent covid from ever happening. And she does! I mean, she couldn’t prevent the nuclear war, but i thought that was pretty badass of her to change the world like that, way to go, Marie!

Biggest mystery i can’t wait to have solved: how is it she’s able to co-exist alongside herself and have a conversation with herself when “one entity must die in order for the other to be born”? Hmmm? And I’d like to add, Peter cautioned her against interacting with herself saying “meeting yourself WILL create a vortex” MEANWHILE daddy Vincent says it’s okay. In FACT Vincent just drops his own little “oh btw i had a Garnier Malet that you needed to talk to yourself, byeeee” i love him— such a goober. But it all seems very key.

I’m very struck by Peter’s repetition of the phrases about broken timelines and having to travel all alone and be invisible, it sounds very personal. Idk maybe I’m projecting. But i think there’s a lot to his story that he maybe couldn’t share with Eliza.

I loooove the way Peter explains time travel, “to go into the future, the key is speed. To go into the past, the key is gravity.” I love everything about that and the “circular beams of light” I WANT TO EAT HIS WORDS and lets not forget “They call it entanglement which is a way of saying I’ve always loved you.” NOT TO MENTION the infamous, “I don’t CARE about 7 billion people” monologue. It’s like what Vincent said, this is at its heart— a love story.

I will be thoroughly shocked and impressed if anyone decided to read all that. But if you did, thanks for sticking around and please let me know about your thoughts/speculations about any and everything regarding the story!!

[pxppet]

Short Marvin and JJ fic because I have dappermagic on the brain <3

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Marvin walks through the front door, tossing their hair over their shoulder with a sigh. They step over the mess of shoes by the door and hang up their keys. Their face sags slightly, boredom and a subtle tight strain making their features look angry.

That all changes as their supernaturally good hearing picks up the shuffle of socks on the wooden hall. They look up, and find Jameson smiling at them sweetly, his hands folded in front of him. He's in a dress shirt and corduroy pants, despite not leaving the house today.

"Je t'aime, Jamie, Jamieeee~" Marvin sing-songs as they approach him, throwing arms around him. JJ's hissing laughter warms every bit of cold in them as the two wrap together. Marvin nuzzles against the slightly taller man's neck, and Jameson cups their head against himself, letting out a gentle whistle.

"Rough day?" he questions, pulling back to sign.

"Mmm," Marvin hums, eyes closing. "Just the monotony of it all I guess. I miss the theater, is all."

JJ frowns, looking over their bedraggled appearance. He lets go of the hug, coaxing a displeased whine from Marvin, and disappears down the hall. Marvin takes off their coat in the meantime, too used to JJ's random bouts of ideas to complain. Their partner comes out of the bedrooms carrying nearly every blanket they own in a massive stack that threatens to topple him over. Marvin yelps and rushes to grab the other side, laughing.

"James, what are you doing?" They know he can't respond properly with his hands full, but he winks at them and begins waddling them towards the small sitting room where the telly is. Marvin can't help laughing again at their awkward hobbling, but the blankets are successfully deposited on the floor in front of the couch.

Jameson smiles, hands on his hips proudly. He scurries into the kitchen and grabs their two kitchen chairs, and Marvin just watches on with a faint smile. JJ sets up blankets across the chairs, places the couch cushions and pillows on the floor beneath, and then covers them in the two softest blankets they own.

He turns back to look at his partner with that beautiful, wide grin with crooked teeth, holding all the joy in the world right there. "Blanket fort!" He grabs the remote from the table and waves it, signing around it. "And we can watch that show you hate!"

Marvin tsks, shaking their head at him. "Comfy forts, hate binging The Witcher, goddammit you are just fishing for boyfriend points today, blue bird." They break into a smile, the weariness falling away. "The only thing that would make it better is..."

"My famous caramel popcorn!"

"You know it, baby."

-

An hour or so of popcorn making passes as Marvin practically dozes on the fort, petting their softest blanket - the black one with an ouija board printed on it - absentmindedly. Jameson comes in holding the biggest bowl they own aloft. He whistles a triumphant tune and plops down besides them. Marvin immediately digs their hand into the still warm popcorn, not caring about the slight burn. They dig their fangs into it greedily, making their partner laugh breathily. Jameson cuddles against them and starts up the show, more than ready to listen to Marvin critique every little detail.

They settle together as the sun begins going down, illuminated only by the television and the warm yellow light of the lamp on the side-table. Marvin sighs, leaning their full weight against Jameson's chest. "Thank you, baby. Je t'aime Jamieeeee," They drawl, pinching his cheek to make him giggle. JJ hugs them tightly.

"Never forget how much you mean to me. Boring cashier or flashy magician, you're magnificent. I'll remind you every day if I have to."

Marvin grins toothily, flushing and hiding their smile against his shoulder, cuddled up safe and warm. "Oh hush it, ya sap!"

[katsu28]

a business deal:

i give u: my love and affection forever and ever and to remember to stay hydrated

u give me: whatever steeb or rafe thoughts are in ur mind rn so i can kiss ur brain and keyboard smash in ur inbox <3

🤝 i accept this business deal and will give u thoughts for both in return <33 (i drank some water btw i hope u do too babe)

steve doesn't know how to ride a bike. we're ignoring the whole bike montage from s3 for this headcanon! steve harrington never learned how to ride a bike (because his parents were never around to teach him but ANYWAYS) and he never told anyone. but one day you suggest going for a bike ride around town bc that's a couple-y thing to do idk and he's just like haha how bout a walk? we can take a walk around town! and usually you're happy to go along with whatever he says but this time you can tell he's definitely not telling you something bc he looks guilty? ashamed?

you're not sure, so you ask him stevie what's going on? and very very softly he just mentions that he never learned how to ride a bike. he just looks so defeated you make it your mission today to teach your boyfriend how to ride a bike. he gets frustrated at first because how the fuck do you balance on this thing??? but he gets the hang of it very quickly when you promise to kiss him if he manages to make it down the street and back. and at the end of the day when he's somewhat confident of his newfound ability to bike, he catches your wrist before you put your bike back and he brings you into the tightest hug with his lips pressed to the top of your head and he thanks you. you suspect it's not just for teaching him how to ride a bike, but for taking the time to do something so simple for him without pitying him because his parents were absent for his entire childhood.

rafe's love language is quality time. he grew up with the means to buy anything and everything he wanted, so most material things have lost their value to him. what he never had was genuine quality time with his loved ones, so when you came along and told him that you don't care much for expensive things, all you want is him, he's instantly in love. he often shows up at your doorstep with food so you can spend the whole day together on the couch or cuddled up in bed doing nothing but being with each other.

he's never felt so relaxed in his life with your head on his shoulder or your legs thrown across his lap. he doesn't even mind if you don't talk to each other for a bit, he just loves existing in the same space as you. dates look less like fancy expensive restaurants and more like cooking together at home and binge watching new girl until you fall asleep on him. (he says he only watches the show because you like it, but you see him chuckling to himself. he likes schmidt the most) drives around the island are also a favorite for him because he gets to drive with one hand in yours, listening to the playlist you made for him, and fall a little more in love with you as you look out the window.

sleepover weekend!!

[sparkbugs]

Been thinking bout jrwi all day it’s finally time to watch ep 104. liveblog under the cut!!

So I actually watched the intro (well Bizly’s song of the intro) at 5 am and it’s been stuck in my head ever since! Good song, really wish it was on other platforms to listen to :(

(I can’t believe I’ve “caught up” so fast) ((I’ve been binge watching episodes instead of sleeping so oops!))

Ooo Grizz got white/silver hair :o it looks so nice!!

Haha! Corruption! That sounds so good haha!! Land is going to be worse I feel but ok guys

FUCK THE FUCKING COMPASS. Chip please get rid of it please mannnnn

CORRUPTION SCORE?!? Fuck. Haha that’s a great mechanic! Terrified to see how it works out. Haha how the fuck do you get rid of your corruption points. Grizzly what the fuck /pos this is terrifying and for good reason

(I love getting ads for one piece during this campaign (I haven’t watched one piece))

God they’re all gonna die man I’m so worried godddddd

Ayo Chip calm down man jeez- QUEEN LMAOOOOO

Jay don’t fucking DRINK THE BLACK SEA.

Broken heart island :o OOOO THE TREE :o save the treeeeeee. This is the tree May Ferin draws her power from no?? Save it guys you got this- Oh shit this island is HUGE huge. Ok then

Oh I feel like burning (the tree branches in the way) will go so poorly oh god oh no. Oh… never mind then??

Alphonse ship :) hope they make him a new body that’s not a ship so he can do the things he wants too-

Yeah I think it’s an illusion maybe?? Oh it’s. Not wtf is it the hell. “We should pull up?- we should pull up” yea gillion pull up

LMAO CONTESTED DEX ROLLS AND GILLION WON??? Rip chip

Aw village :( god it would suck if they go by Gryffon (Gryffin? Gryffen??)’s home town :(

“Chip! while the tree is distracted!!” Gillion never change <3

God damn it. “Our specialty: subtle” please. You’re not being subtle and you knew that but god y’all gonna die.

Fyck here they come- “hostile mobs inbound” they’re not gonna be friendly. There’s no way there’s anyone in sane mind around here man. LMAO THEY THREW A ROCK AT HIM AHDJDHSK

Minor illusion to make sounds behind them as they go by that would be kinda smart methinks maybe but! They’re also. Out of magic almost so maybe not hm-

Yeah it’s not safer on land at fucking all man Jesus- Gillion don’t fucking go on land alone I swear to god

They need to rest so fucking badly man shitttt this is so fuckeddddd this is not gonna go welllll aaaaaaaaaa

Nightmare nightmare nightmare nightmare /ref

Man I wonder what this place looked like before the Black Sea :( it must’ve been so pretty

Ichor webs! Haha!! Not dangerous or foreboding at all

(In the tone of “the claw from Toy Story”) The Treeeee…

Aw Gryffon :( mannnn i love weeping willows I love pink cherry trees this is such a good tree I agree gillion go save it

The thumbnail is sick btw I don’t think I mentioned that, amazing colors.. I wanna eat the art /pos

God please do Not Split Up for the love of god… STOP FIGHTING YOURE GONNA ATTRACT THE BADDIES OH MH GODDD..:. Aaaaaaaaa DONT SPLIT UPPPP FUCKKK EVERYONE GO TOGETHERRRR the old men on the ship are gonna die :(

“Leave no tres” that’s amazinf holy shit “leave no cinco” is also good

“Do you guys think the tree has chicken??” ????? Chip??????

YEA JAYS THINKING ABOUT THE NOISE THING YEAAAAA the noise attracts them?? I hope. I fuckin hope. Zombie game in the pirate campaign

Hahaaa uh ohhhh… uhh ohhhhh (the uh ohs from tattletail when they get low battery) uhhh. Oooohhhhh…

CONSTRUCT??? A GOOD LIVING THING?? SOMETHING GOOD. OMG IRON GOLEM LIKE MINECRAF.

Just realizing this episode is filmed after Genloss cause of the painting in the back of Charlie’s room. Damn- IS THAG A PRETZEL PLUSHIE IN CONDIS ROOM??

MINECRAF GOLEM YEAAAA HEHEHE… oh chip wtf man :( he didn’t ask for his home to be corrupted :( thisbis a friend I’ve decided I want to keep him

Oh. A rose :D he’s such minecraf moment he’s asking to be friends- aw :( rose died. MARBLE!!! THATS A FRIEND I LOVE THEMMMM

I’ve decided I would die for Marble <3

Oh shit. The black rose!! AAAA GUYS STOP OVER THE FUCKIN TREE. Oh. Black rose pirates. Black Sea. Uhmmmm. Uhmmmmmmmmmmm there’s a connection here I’m missing besides the tragedy of The Hole in the Sea but. Somethings wrongggg mannnn

Mhm totally different gillion totally not the same.

Chip :( aw nooooo :( the memory aaggagshhaaaaa OHHHH HE WAS THERE AS A KID IM SO NORMALLL

Midroll baybeeeee honey time lesgo (Bizly stop ripping your pants)

ISNT IT THE SAME TREE? Was I wrong. WHAT. Ohh it’s in all port isn’t it . Shit

STOPPP RUNNING THROUGH THE PLACE PLEASE

marble :D

STOP RUNNINGGG… bean shape… creechur

KENKU SAVE THEMMMM OHHHG THATS A FRIEND. I too got the impression they were ignoring the party but if it does notice them. I’ll cry

Kenku friend :( save themmmm YEAAA SAVE BIRD

NOOOO WTF A TURTLE FRIEND NEEDS TO SAVE FHEM NOW TOO FUCKKK

Uh oh. Beetle guy uh oh. OH IT HAS A CUTE VOICE. Oh nos

“That’s mine.” “… Nuh uh-“ *gets flattened by hammer*

NOT A DEX SAVE FUCK- oh thank god good job gillion

Man them yawning makes me yawn wtf.

GILLIONNNNNN DONT SAY THATTTT SHHHH

Hollow knight boss lookin ass mf /pos

Kenku friend :D also grizz lookin majestic while beating the shit outta the team

Oh. My god. “You win! Im sorry” im. This is going bad

“Im on team you can just walk out, you can leave” I love jay so much

“Queen, play despacido” i hate it here- Bruno mars canon in mana??

Tortle friend and Kenku friend :D

… oh fuck. OH FUCK WHY DOES IT MOVE SO FAST

80 POINTS ?!?!!! Oh thank god. Fuck man that would’ve been insane

JAY NOO DONT CAGE THE BIRD >:( GET HER OUT THE NET

Jay is so me “I don’t wanna be dealing with this guy right now” yea me too man

Of course he gets two natural 1s in a row rip Charlie slimecicle

“EYE POWER ACTIVATE” CONDI LMAOOOOO AHSHDIDHS

THE FUCKING MIRROR HELPPPPPPPPPP HAHAHAAAA JAY NOOO

Put the big bug guy in the mirror :) catch like a Pokémon NOOOO JAYYYY . Well. Chip please get her she’s in the mirror helpp

Gillion is the Lorax moment.

GILLION NOOOOO FUCKK AWHWHDISBA FISH BOY. A FAIL ON A DEATBSAVE TOO FAURKSHAAHA this is so fine. This is soooo fine haha. This is so fineeee. Grizz realizing how bad this is,, is me right now it’s so fine thoughhhh

GILLON. Fuck that tree mannnn. CHIP GRAB THE FUCKING MIRROR. CHIP. YOU FUCKINGGNGGHDJDHSIHA HOWWWW THIS IS SO FUCKED UPOPP AAAAA IM SO SCAREDDD

GRYFFON GOOOOOOOOOO GET THEY ASS COME ONNNNNNNNN GET THEMM.

In. Frared? Infrawered?? GRIZZLY you good?

Gryffon beat they ass mannn aahdjdhdoaua

CHIP. Thank god. “YOU ALL SMELL LIKE GOOD VESSELS” ?!?!??!? HELLOOOOOO

Gillionnnnnaaaaa my boy :( my fish mannnn also GET JAY PLEASE? Didn’t chip grab the fucking mirror why hasn’t he freed her

…. Treeeeeeeeeeeeeee ….

CHIP YOURE FONNA LEAVE YOUR CREW??? . Gillion. God. Damn it gillion. Aw Kenku :( Kenku friend trying to help Gill :( that’s a friend

Gillion. Pleaseeeeeeeeee fucking hell man. He’s dead AGAINNNNNNN

AWWWW BIRD BIRD TRYINF TO PROTECT GILLION NOOOOOOO BIRD BIRD :( THATS A FRIENDDDD PROTECT HER

“Do we really wanna risk our lives over this random bird?!?” “YES!!!” YEA GILLIONNNNN GET HER >:( JAYGET HER OR ILL FUCKIFN YELL >:(

NIOOOOO BIRD BIRDDDFD LET HER GO YOU BASTARD

PLEASEEEEEEE BIRD BIRD :( I’m so sad

GILLIONNNN AAAGSJDHDSHDJSHS IM SO SCAREDDDD IM SO FUCKIFNHFDISHSKA

Let her out >:( Charlie is so distraught over bird bird me too mannnn

GILLION. Grow big and make bird bird big :D BREAK BIRD BIRD OUR THE CAGE LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOO that’s a friend :D

Uh. Ohhggg… uh ohhhhh (tattletail uh ohs again)

Uh oh he’s not sleepy anymore. Uh oh. Im so fucking scared

Bird bird better not fuckinf die I love her so much

Corruption. Point. Uh oh.

noc? Knock? Kenku friend :D

NOOOOOOOOOOO BIRD BIRD IM GONNA CRY LET HER BE OKAY

Size coin… come on it better go well. LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOO

This is some power ranger like mecha battle shit power up thing idk how to explain it. (Gillion growing giant and fighting this bitch)

(It’s almost 1 am I’ve been awake too long but I need to finish this episode)

Murder bug guy :D riptide pirates the crew that gets into everyone else’s shit

Uh oh. Gillion goes down again I’m gonna. Lose my mind. Oh my god they’re gonna attract so much trouble with the noise when they fall fucking hell

I totally missed jay leaving the mirror btw she’s 60 ft away but like where??? How???

YEAAA JAY AND GRYFFON SHOOT TO KILL. MURDERRRRR

INFAWRARD LAZER BEAM CANON!!!!!!

You. Tortle. MURDERRR HDJXHSJS HAHAHA GOOD JOB CHIP. NOOOO I KNEW ITTTT THEY WERE ATTRACTING ATTENTION FUCK

“Im gonna start drinking” me fucking too gillion damn.

Good episode, fishman is still down im worried, he went down three times Jesus fuck, also! I knew they were gonna attract attention from zombie ichor guys… debating on watching ep 105 as well before sleeping but we’ll see :)

[ailelie]

Reasons I See a Therapist Regularly

She helps me track shifts in my mood, making it easier to notice when I'm keying up or down. Like, I recently had a few weeks of feeling very confident. I expressed my concern to her about this (high confidence, in my experience, leads to over-commitment) and she said we'd check in and talked about ways to add checks to myself.

I like being able to process my thoughts by sharing them with someone else. So I appreciate that she listens.

Sometimes, when I get stuck on something, she offers another point-of-view. For example, I've always viewed my horrible bingefest of stories I didn't even enjoy during my last depression bout as a waste. She had me talk through why I had binged and suggested that, maybe, the binging was a survival mechanism to keep myself from falling deeper into depression.

My therapist doesn't give me homework and rarely gives me strategies and such to try, even when I want them (such as for help with focusing), but just having to organize and talk through my thoughts regularly is very helpful. It is like I'm combing out threads before they can get too tangled.

That said, I do have various mental tricks I use to keep even keel, but those are things I figured out myself over the years. For example, when I used to fear home invaders and such, I started saying to myself, "Okay, so they break in and kill me. I might as well be well-rested. Joke's on them, I'm getting sleep and they aren't." Like, that's a ridiculous thought process, but I was able to sleep. And I've learned to adapt the technique for more likely issues.

If I'm too anxious to sleep because I'm worried about the coming day, what I do is ask myself, "can I do anything about this right now?" If yes, I do that thing. If no, then it is like the home invader then, "Disaster is going to come regardless, I might as well be well-rested when it does." (This is useful for times other than bed, too).

I also figured out fairly early that venting does help me. If I can bleed off some of my emotions, I can think more clearly. Two kinds of venting helps. (1) I vent to someone uninvolved who doesn't escalate my feelings. My grandmother is great at this. (2) I vent to someone who also gets upset. Then, their reaction becomes a check on my own. Seeing their emotional response helps me analyze and calibrate my own. The more upset they are, the calmer I become. I do try to do more of #1 than #2.

I've also gotten pretty good at recognizing when my emotions and thoughts are real and when they aren't. Like, not all of my emotions are valid. If I'm angry about X, then I'm more likely to get angry about Y when I wouldn't normally because my fuse is shorter. What's important is for me to realize is that I'm not really angry about Y. Any strong emotion has this kind of spillover. What I need to get better at is reality checks for positive strong emotions.

Other tricks aren't mental. I used to forget toiletries all the time while packing. I now have a set that never leaves my suitcase. I keep a bowl by my front door and my keys are either in my bag, my hand, or the bowl. They aren't allowed anywhere else. I now use YNAB for budgeting, which has basically obliterated my constant financial stress.

And so on.

That said, I would like more techniques on achieving and maintaining focus.

[syntia13treeman]

TMA vs insomnia, go.

What a weird night I've had.

It was late Sunday evening, and I can be a responsible adult sometimes, so knowing I'll have to get up at 6:30 I turned off my computer shortly before mightnight and went to sleep. Or tried to. Now, I do sometimes get random bouts of insomnia, when I go trough weeks of maybe 4 hours of sleep on weekdays, because I'm to wired to go to bed at reasonable time; much rarer are individual nights when without warning I'm lying down and tired to the bone, but just can't fall asleep. Today was one of those days, but I made it stranger than usuall. There are two factors I'm going to 'blame' here.

One was the weather. After a month of pretty mild winter, yesterday the temperature rapidly dropped to 13oC below zero while air pressure skyrocketed. This is what I think caused me to spend post midnight hours tossing and turning.

The other is the fact that I've been binging Magnus Archives for the past week.

When at some point I checked the time and saw it was going on 2 am and I wasn't any closer to falling asleep than 2 hours prior, I decided, what the hell, I might as well listen to spooky bedtime stories and hope for the best. And so I grabbed my phone, turned volume as low as it would go and listned to a couple episodes before deciding it was enough, and putting the phone away. Half an hour later I realized that sleep still wasn't happening, so I grabbed the phone again. I repeated this process several times, and only once I suddenly got confused about what was happening, checked the phone, and saw that I was a few minutes into an episode with a title I didn't recognize. But I only had to go one episode back and found a familiar spot halfway through it, so I know I only nodded off for 15 minutes tops. And I was once again wide awake, and so I continued to listen.

And then, eventually, my alarm clock went of and I got up, dressed and put in my contacts and went into the winter morning/night and drove to work, watching in real time the fog of my breacth freazing on the windshield into the most beautiful tiny fractal flowers.

I'm there now, sitting at the computer, and when I look out the window, I see the first lines of dawn in the sky behind the line of leafless trees. A day of work lies ahead.

Wish me luck.

P.S. all through the drive I also felt strangly awake, and kept wondering if I'm actually clear headed and alert, or was I like that thing when drunk people would swear they are not drunk at all, and if I was, in fact, barely awake and about to drive right throug a shop window any second. I've never been so carefull navigating the iced-over turns as today, I can tell you that. :D

[petrichoraline]

I saw you wanted some ask so I will slip'n'slide in there.

It's been raining for nearly 10 days here, so I am currently listening to summery french songs to lift my spirit: "florence en italie" by yelle, "ma piscine (vas-y danse!)" by la belle vie, "magnolias for ever" by emma peters & leo kodian, and "j'aime les filles" by evergreen. Hopefully they bring u a little sunshine too!

Also, as a side note, you put Destined gifs on my dash and I have been binging it all of last week (am now waiting (im)patiently for the next ep ^^) so thank you again for fantastic cdrama ref ♡♡

Sending you love! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･���✧

i knew i could rely on you, lovely, a metaphorical sigh of relief escaped me when i saw your notif lol 💖

omg I'm just now reading this ask and it's a doozie! first, another ask bout rain? love that you mention it, the weather is such an infamous conversation topic but i love getting updates from places far away <3 youve given me french song recs which is amazing but I find it cute since i played zaz (and stromae, I'm basic, sue me) both yesterday and today and so i attempted reading the lyrics. it's so much fun cause you never know where the next lyric is going, you think "well this one just MUST be pronounced like this, considering what I've seen so far it makes sense!" and then it's nothing like what you thought NOR what's written down. there's smth utterly charming about it but I think I enjoy it all because I get to sing some easy parts which repeat hahah, if I didn't have that pleasure i'd probably not enjoy the mindfuckery as much lol

I just saw destined on a website and thought a bit bout starting it but I am not good with spoiled angst and I've already seen babies are going THROUGH it but also

I GOT YOU TO WATCH A SHOW A G A I N? loveliest, you're so special for this, thank you, it gets me so aaa! and it feels like such an accomplishment tbh like i haven't even seen it 🤣

this is amazing, thank you for the extensive message, you're *mwah* so *smooch* sweet and considerate!! 🥰🫠

@dangermousie pretty sure you're the reason i got a person to watch a show i have barely any idea of, and they're joyful about it! I hope this fact brings you happiness as well hahah

[ghostbustermelanieking]

the way i originally started ofmd is interesting, too -- i started watching s1 as a pick me up during a very bad bout of depression, actually on the night that 1x09 and 1x10 dropped for the first time. i think i'd expected it to be similar in tone to wwdits, and was surprised that the show actually did take itself seriously; i actually quit that night in the middle of 1x04 because the scenes of stede being sad in his marriage were so depressing to me. but then!! that weekend, i got up and binged the rest of 1x04 -- significantly, finally getting to the part where ed and stede meet -- all the way through the finale. and then proceeded to lose my mind while listening to miles from nowhere for the rest of the summer

[omegawhiskers]

Why I started watching WWE again

The earliest memory I have of professional wrestling is The Undertaker/Yokozuna feud. This fond memory was the catalyst to moulding my enjoyment to this form of entertainment.

Years later I began watching WWE/WWF on a full-time basis because it was aired weekend mornings. The Stone Cole Steve Austin/Vince McMahon feud hooked me. As a child, it was an awesome to see an authority type figure getting their ass kicked. Both McMahon and Austin produced classics moments in wrestling history. I bought PPV’s on VHS such as St Valentine’s Day Massacre. I must of watched that tape a couple of times a day over the next few weeks.

WWE became a part of my life. I made it my business to watch Raw and Smackdown every week; I even watched Velocity and Sunday Night Heat. I couldn't get enough! I tried to get my hands on stuff from independents and in 2004 I did some pro wrestling training. But if WWE was such an important part of my life then why did I stop watching it?

2017 wasn’t the worst year in WWE. The Chris Jericho and Kevin Owens feud was fantastic, The Hardyz returned, Kurt Angle was inducted into the Hall of Fame, The Shield reunited, and Samoa Joe made his debut. Despite all of this, a babyface Roman Reigns just couldn’t get over and Jinder Mahal was WWE Champion. I’m not even going to go into the House of Horrors match, but it was something. But it’s OK to have bad moments. They can teach you to never repeat those mistakes again…or can they?

2018 was worse. Some moments left a bad taste in my mouth such as Dean Ambrose turning heel on his fellow Shield member, Seth Rollins. This was the same night that Roman announced that he had leukemia. What the fuck was Vince thinking? The storyline was uglier than a dog’s dinner. Dean would leave the company less than a year later. WWE also went into a controversial deal with Saudi Arabia. The Saudi PPV saw Shane McMahon win WWE World Cup tournament becoming the ‘’Best in the World’’.  This is the same PPV where Shawn Michaels came out of retirement for an awful tag team bout. The worst part to 2018 was on December 17, when Vince McMahon came to the ring followed by Stephanie McMahon, HHH and Shane. Stephanie would go on to say ‘’We haven’t been doing a good for you lately.’’ She would rattle on about not listening to us, the fans. We were told that we were now the authority. This was such a surreal moment.

Months prior we got the first All In PPV that would eventually lead to the formation of All Elite Wrestling. The All In card was stacked and displayed some incredible matches that left me wanting more. I started to binge watch BTE on YouTube as well as a history The Bullet Club. I began to attend Irish wrestling shows from Over The Top Wrestling. The first shows I went to featured Will Ospreay, Gunther and Pac. Seeing new talent and the interesting ways they told stories was refreshing. Witnessing smaller promotions putting on better shows compared to a billion-dollar company creating mediocre content was shocking to me.

Appointing us - the fans - as the authority figure was a great rib by WWE as they continued to sling crap in our faces as 2019 saw The Undertaker battling Goldberg in another Saudi show that resulted embarrassing bout. You can visibly see the disappointed on Taker's face post-match. Kurt Angle would have his retirement match against Baron Corbin. Angle is on my mount Rushmore, so for his career to lead to anti-climax was a disgrace. Seth Rollins was on a babyface run and I was enjoying it, until the infamous Hell in the Cell match with The Fiend. This match should have been a decent bout, but the arena was casted in ugly red light and the finish came in form a DQ. During a live reaction broadcast WWE were putting out at the time, X-Pac said ‘’You may not ask me back for one of these but how do you get DQ’d in a Hell in a fricking Cell match.’’ I often ask myself this. Things would get worse when Kofi Kingston was squashed in seven seconds against Brock Lesner. Kofi’s six-month title reign came to an abrupt and miserable end and so did my love for WWE. At this point I felt cheated and insulted. How can I continue to watch a product that simply didn't care?

At the tail end of 2019, AEW was launched. The new promotion featured new faces, different styles of wrestling and an opportunity for talent to thrive. I gravitated towards this. I periodically watched WWE clips, but it was clear Vince was out of touch. Talent were also fired during the pandemic. It was as if Vince didn't care anymore. Remembers Erik Rowen’s spider? On top of all this, Vince's scandal was aired across the internet. During this insane time, Vinny had the balls to appear on Smackdown just to wave his ego around.

So, what's changed?

I watched night 1 of WrestleMania and I was impressed. The highlight was Rhea Ripley vs. Charlotte Flair. I liked what I saw with the Bloodline storyline. It was great to see Cody Rhodes, and a heel Dominik Mysterio intrigued me. I kept up with things and noticed consistent story telling. With Vince gone, it felt like everything was moving in a cohesive way. Yes, Vince gave us years of entertainment, but he also held on for too long and it was clear it was causing damage.

I decided to tune back into WWE full time and write about my viewing experience. If you’ve read my past posts, then you know that I still have issues with WWE, but I’ve never seen a promotion do anything perfect. I think WWE do a much better job with their women’s division and keeping storylines simple and clear, but they lack on match quality with many silly finishes. They play things safe, but that's okay. For now I'm enjoying the ride. And that's good enough.

[imamotherfuckingstar-lord]

I would loveeee a pairing with a marvel man pleaseee :)

I am a straight female, I have brown hair and brown eyes.

I like sports and all types of music, I love watching movies and binging shows. I am kind and caring and sarcastic at times. I can be stubborn and stand up for those I care about when I need to. I care bout others, I try to be very understanding and a good listener and I give good advice when people need it. I have a good sense of humour and enjoy a good time. I dont judge people on their past if they have shown to be better in the present and I am very loyal to those I am close to.

I love romance and the idea of love and being in love. I love the idea of the ‘old fashioned’ romance. I am a middle child and love my family.

If anymore info is needed lmk:)

I ship you with Steve Rogers!

Who can possibly be more stubborn than Steve Rogers? Oh, maybe you. He likes that you’re quick to stand up for people and how caring you are.

Going to see movies is his favorite date idea and getting dinner after, when the two of you can spend hours dissecting the film. He always holds your hand while walking about, makes sure to open doors and pull out chairs for you. He’s always a gentlemen and he’s kinda a hopeless romantic. He brings flowers to you every week and likes to watch you replace the old flowers for the new ones. He also loves spending time with your family and seeing you interact with them- it gives me a glimpse of what he could have with you in the future ❤️