#Banging my head on the table. I DO THINK ABOUT THIS. AND YOUVE SUMMARIZED IT PERFECTLY. AND IM SO! NORMAL!

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eiffel in relation to hilbert is so interesting because he is both similar to first mission lovelace in a lot of ways so its his past AND the culmination of his lifes work. hes a living reminder of hilberts past not even on purpose but that makes it so he cant compartmentalize his previous mission and move ahead and not think about is because eiffel is right there and alive and so familiar but also eiffel is the carrier and guinea pig of his work and hilbert is nothing but his work its the reason he wakes up in the morning do you think about this? this thought is half finished but my brain is turning into mush good luck with your illness feel better soon!

hi . Sorry this took me so long to respond every time i would read this ask i would get so excited i couldnt form a coherent post. Because yeah. Yeah. Ive spent months rewriting why the dynamic of hilbert and eiffel with eiffel/lovelace parallels and Lovelace and hilberts previous dynamic in mind makes me insane and you pinned it down perfectly in one paragraph. That’s what it’s about. Eiffel’s too familiar to hilbert to let an open wound heal and that open wound is more dangerous left open because eiffel is also everything Hilbert works for and lives for. Normal style.