#And didn't have the mental bandwidth to edit like a full on loon!!

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🔬for dirty, dirty game / 📈& 🎢for bringing down the neighbourhood / 📣for waiting for someone who needs me

🔬- Was there one scene you were building up to/knew you had to get just right?

Ah, so def one of the scenes in dirty dirty game I was building to was the one where Beth stumbles upon rio's at Jamie's, and thinks he's there for her. Partly cos the original idea for the story was post s2, and that's how Beth found out rio's alive so originally that was like HUGE! 😂

But also in the reconfigured version I wanted that to be plausibly surprising, but also bc it's probably not that surprising, for it to be funny and tense and terrible (but like good terrible). Especially because in the reconfigured version, that comes quite early on which I think is fun, because you might be expecting that reveal to be teased out for a lot of the story?

And also bc Beth's obsessed with knowing if rio knew it was her for the rest of the story, and I think there's a very very very light glaze of an answer to that question hovering within the story, and this scene is definitely part of that.

📈- Was there a clear character arch you wanted____ character to go on?

But who character in bdtn?? Danny? Marcus? Me?!

I think Beth's character arc is reasonablyish clear in the story, so I'll go rio.

It's like... Super angry yet convincing himself there's a reason to keep Beth alive (which I thought was pretty thin, so thanks for the justification I guess s3 lol), then just absolutely and repeatedly baffled by her being a total mess (and like this is who bested me? I mean really? This is embarrassing, I am embarrassed) and getting hints that she wants to make nice maybe, and then slightly letting his guard down and then feeling absolutely insane for doing so and being like NOPE NOT AGAIN REMEMBER THE EMBARRASSMENT, and then discovering how obsessed she is with him too, and then feeling very vindicated by that but still being VERY CRANKY and thus being like HA YOU THINK YOU CAN BEAT ME HA, and then being like OH SHIT AM I HAVING AN EMOTION OH NO THIS IS AWFUL, and then being like HA IS SHE HAVING AN EMOTION WHAT AN IDIOT, and then being like WELL AS LONG AS SHE DOESN'T THINK I LIKE HER HA I'M GREAT AT THIS and then being like oh oh dear I think she is kinda fucked up over it oh dear would I let her make nice whoops what's happening ah oh well fuck it, maybe her jokes aren't THAT bad

 🎢- Were there any scenes you were nervous about? For audience reception or otherwise?

So one in bdtn was def the ending, but another one would be the one where they finally bone - firstly cos like it's fairly clear that's where the story is going so I still wanted it to be tense and unexpected, but also cos it features vaguely inappropriately lubricated unprotected sex cos they're stupid

📣-What was the best piece of encouragement you got?

Oh gosh, people were so nice about waiting for someone who needs me, it was ridonculous!

I think particularly bc I was having kind of a hard time with the editing process and after having an annoying fuck of a day just went YOU KNOW WHAT FUCK IT POST IT!!!!! FUCK ITTTTTT!!!! and @mego42 was like AHA YOU HAVE POSTED THIS AT THE PERFECT TIME!!! I WAS HAVING A FUCK OF A DAY AND NOW I AM CHEERED!! AND I WAS LIKE OH GOD!!!!! DAYS ARE STUPID AND I AM FUNDAMENTALLY AGAINST THEM!!! so I was like v happy that I let go of being obsessive about it and just threw it into the world rather than carried on looking at it (and then subsequently did change a couple of sentences that annoyed me anyway so win win 😂)