#And back under my old Deviantart username as encouragement to embrace cringe

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Okay so this story has a continuation. Turns out you can still hurt yourself from clinging to a life raft too hard. In the span of 3 years I managed to burn myself out incredibly hard in BG3 fandom. Early Access and the months after the full release were great! But I think as the honeymoon phase waned and a number of disappointments started setting in, I just sort of stopped having fun.

But I'm not immune to the sunk cost fallacy. I tried clinging on to what I loved, and it slowly made me miserable. At the end of the day, as much as being a part of a Big Popular Fandom raises your chances of experiencing that good ol' attention dopamine, its not for me.

And yes. It was playing Fire Emblem: Path of Radiance that made me realize all of this. So there's the chance this will be very ironic if I burn myself out on that. But at the very least I'm not contending with a ginormous, loud fandom in the same way Baldur's Gate 3 had.

I'm also going to try and be kinder to myself about my waxing and waning interests. Because I deserve to exist in spaces that make me happy, creating in a way that makes me happy.

On a funny note, I might switch back to a really old username that exactly one person will remember.

"Where the Hell have you Been?" Update

So the last post on this blog (aside from this one ofc) is circa April 2019. Realistically I kind of stopped posting around January/February of that year. Part of it was The Great Tumblr Tiddy Ban of 2018, which while not affecting me personally definitely drove a lot of people whose content I enjoy to other platforms. And another unfortunately, was personal drama.

And I'd prefer to leave it at that.

In late 2020 I hit a serious lowpoint. I was dealing with horrible back pain, a high-risk family member caught covid, and I couldn't shake the feeling I was stupid and annoying and all my friends secretly hated me.

...And then my very wonderful partner who I shall not be tagging but knows who she is decided to buy me Baldur's Gate 3. Thus a new hyperfixation was born! I rediscovered my love of D&D, became more confident in my artwork and characters, and I started a new blog!

TL;DR: this blog is more or less abandoned, but if you want to see a mix of Baldur's Gate 3, my OCs, and Dungeons & Dragons stuff you can find me at @sunflowerwizard