#ACTUAL FCKN VAMPIRE

[3am-vampire]

ok so i have now had two doctors tell me im a vampire. well, two doctors and a psychologist... eh, anyway! turns out that most people aren't completely blinded by the sun even when in their house.

this also means that all ive needed to see colours outside like a Normal Person was to wear two pairs of really dark sunglasses.

and omvgs y'all i cried when i looked up at the clouds in the sky because ive never seen them so crisp and clear. the trees are GREEN, the flowers are VIBRANT, everything is just so damn amazing - and it tooke THIRTY YEARS for someone (eye doctor) to tell me the sun is my mortal enemy but can be combatted with EXTRA SUNGLASSES, LAYERS, SUNSCREEN, AND HATS????????

[rightintheghoulies]

Very pleasant to look at.

[ca-suffit]

yeah anon I don't want to publish ur specific ask for the reasons u said, but thank u for reminding me of this post. this post from nalyra-dreaming was part of the affirmative action drama and I think a lot of what's in this post got lost out being talked about because of that. so let's talk about it. let's comb thru this so ppl can rly understand nalyra's racism and what they're defending when they want to defend her.

first off, lol take ur own advice. but anyways. this way of speaking is crazy. this is why this whole group of besties put everyone off as time went on. that's why it's lol when ppl come to me saying nobody likes u, we prefer them. okay?? ur weird and u like being yelled at idk. these ppl read some dumb books and think they work on the show. they reference each other's fanon more than anything else. there's no discussions. they talk AT u. it's a bunch of ppl who want to be seen as smart and popular. that's it lol. "we've been trying to tell them" girl u don't work on the show stfu.

this bitch is a whole bitch. u act like u have been victimized by a black fan because you had a disagreement. u play up "I tried to listen and I agree too! poor me, THEY don't want to hear anything else but what THEY want to hear :(" and THEN u have the fckn audacity to say shit like why aren't u all listening to BLACK MAN JACOB ANDERSON. why aren't u listening to black fans? why are u here making this post to act like a victim to "mean" black fans who just don't listen to facts and logic and jacob anderson himself. why are u here twisting this shit up to pretend u have empathy for black ppl by stepping over everyone here (who does not have to filter anything for show press) and saying "actually ur all wrong and stupid and ur the REAL racists because u take away jacob and bailey's own voices."

this is a real level of fucking evil racist shit and why I'm spelling this out rly slow rn so u all understand.

"Louis is not chained to his coffin guys, he could have left, and a fight which shows off power discrepancies within the show story line is not automatically domestic abuse."

u jump thru so many hoops for lestat's defense it has made u dumb as fuck.

where was louis supposed to go? he's black, his family hates him, his husband is a demon spawn who stalks everyone down who tries to leave. who BEAT HIS ASS already at the *thought* that he'd even leave. that's not DV?? he could have left?? how are u like 50 years old and victim blaming like this and then saying u have authority over analyzing these books for the peasants here lol.

the favorite go to line from this dumb group is "they're monsters" "they're vampires." anne rice was famous in the first place for using iwtv to humanize vampires. I think she used this type of "logic" over time too tho and that's prbly where this comes from. it's a bad excuse tho. we're talking about DV but u say it's not DV and then say "they're all murderers anyway so nothing matters." girl the redemption isn't about vampirism, it's about whiteness. u big fucking dummies who can't talk about race always want to pretend this is about lestat being a vampire and how we're too stupid to understand vampires and monsters. the horror of lestat rn is his whiteness. the horror is the power that gives him as he's the least capable of rational thought in that whole "family" unit. he's ignorant, controlling, and quick to anger. he never tries to fix his ignorance, he makes excuses for all his behavior because he CAN. because society allows him to do that! louis and claudia can't make any mistakes or be forgiven because black ppl are not given that same grace. u can call lestat a monster because on a white man that's still an attractive quality. ppl LUV white serial killers and abusers so much and hype them up like they're galaxy brain heroes. calling a black person a monster is just every day. with no benefit. that's the one u rly believe is the threat and then u shoot to kill.

she's so dumb omfg. isolation doesn't mean put in an empty room. lestat wove himself into every aspect of louis' life so that louis could not exist without him. yes, on a level, louis was showing off his man, but u see how the "roots" take hold more and more over time. he's living in lestat's house, lestat is now the one driving the car. more and more lestat is telling them what they're doing and becoming critical of what louis will not give up. acting up v loudly when he doesn't get his way (he brings antoinette in when louis isn't "acting right" so he can torture louis at his job so he'll fix himself already, then he "allows" louis to see other people except now I'm gonna overreact about that too, now I've chased claudia off but btw did u know I've always had a big dick and u not being fun for me anymore is why all of this has ever happened??)

again with the evilness of trying to prove ur shit point by saying "if u disagree with me then u hate black people (jacob anderson) even tho I'm speaking over all black ppl here with this post." ok lestat lol. u are always trying to excuse lestat's actions for being what they are by saying there's a book reason behind it or saying louis or whatever black or brown character is the REAL abuser. do u think abuse has to be intentional to count as abuse? do u rly think lestat's actions are justified when he could have easily explained any of it without doing all that? his response to louis' depression is to do everything I wrote above. u think that's not abuse? u think that's not isolation? "be my companion" but he didn't mean emotionally. u don't think that's maybe the arc lestat is going to have to go thru to be a better partner to louis? what do u think his arc is then, louis just made it all up and soon we won't have to care about race and lestat has been a cool guy this whole time just kidding?? anne rice rly gave u a smooth ass brain.

I don't even know what this means. u all love to skip over points and just say "okay SWEETIE u just don't understand dark themes and monsters, u won't ever get it." okay U, SWEETIE, ur 50 years old, talk slow for me. I know u can do it. if u want authority then prove u know ur shit. a loud voice by itself doesn't do anything but yell. but this is all mama rice taught u tho. so here we are lol.

"everything is unreliable narration except for lestat who is always telling the truth because his egotistical crazy ass white woman author who wanted to be a white man so badly and wrote in his voice IRL to yell at ppl for real said he's telling the truth" u are all so crazy and racist and then u get big mad when ppl notice how crazy and racist u are lol. this gap between series airing has been annoying af but it's sure exposed ur asses because ur not smart like u think u are. when someone rly shows up and breaks down ur arguments to ur face and that is the sole reason I'm here, u all have nothing to say anymore. so fuck u lol enjoy this well earned fallout.

[tinkabelle24]

To Build a Home

Chapter 26: If You Love Her...

A/N: This chapter was gonna be longer, but I'm neck-deep in assignments right now for the very last unit of my degree and really wanted to get this out. Because I doubt I'll be able to update after this for quite a while. I'm about to get myself a big girl job 😁😅

This chapter took inspiration from scenes of a few of my favourite films/TV shows; one from Spider-Man 2, one from S4 of The Vampire Diaries, one from The Corpse Bride and, strangely, I found myself regularly referring to another from Until Dawn.

TW! No trigger warnings.

Masterlist | Chapter 25

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[I'm not reading this shit. Be a man and pick up the fckn phone]

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Leo sat in the van, staring at his brother's text for what felt like hours, struggling to psych himself up enough to oblige. He'd anticipated this - no matter how sincere his written apology may be, Raph would never accept anything less than an in-person one.

Of course, Leo suspected at least part of that reason was so he'd be close enough to strangle...

Still, after everything, Raph deserved something.

With a tremulous breath, Leo finally pressed 'call', putting the shell-cell on speaker before bringing it to his lips.

The second ring barely sounded when the receiving line picked up. The leader braced himself for a barrage of insults and death threats, but none came. Only breathing...

After several long moments of this, Leo finally opened his mouth to speak-

"Why...?" Came Raph's quiet, gravelly voice, striking guilt through the eldest brother's heart – he’d been crying.

Leo failed to answer initially, unsure whether to request clarification – for fear of upsetting Raph further – or just assume the specific situation his brother was referring to. To his relief, he didn't end up having to do either.

"Why'd you do this to me...? How could'ya think this little of me, that I-I'd... I've nevah and will nevah... or-or was villifyin' me the only way you could justify to y'self the shit you've put us through...? What the hell was your endgame, Leo? Huh?? Were'ya seriously hopin' she'd leave me for you?? How fuckin' little do'ya think of her-?!"

Leo winced at that. "R-Raph-"

"Y'know," Raph sniffled. "I'd planned on askin' Val to be my forever-"

A shuddered gasp forced its way past the leader's lips as he buried his face in his hand, the weight of those words settling over him, like a lead blanket...

"I had a ring made and everythin’; got it forged outta my old Sai... This weekend – tonight, actually – I was finally gonna give it to her... But'chu couldn't help y'self, could you? You just had to stick your nose where it didn't belong... and now, because of you, dear brothah... it seems I'll be losin’... e-everything-"

No...

"Y-you broke-"

"We're on a break," Raph corrected, venom dripping from his tongue. "And if you value your life, I suggest you stay right where you are; cuddled up with daddy, like the little bitch you are. Cos, believe it or not, Val's angrier with you right now than I am."

Before Leo could respond, he was met with a deafening silence...

On the other end, Mikey levelled Donnie a resolute look as they discreetly listened in on their eldest brothers' conversation – followed promptly by the shattering of glass and plastic against the brickwork, then quiet, mournful sobbing – beyond Raph's locked bedroom door.

"C'mon," Mikey finally muttered as he proceeded up the hallway, beckoning a puzzled Donnie to follow.

"What??" The purple-banded terrapin hissed, too near to the door to want to risk producing much sound. "Mikey...!"

His littlest brother was already halfway down the staircase, shell-cell to his ear. "We're getting our sister back."

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Leo was spoilt for choice that day – the wildflowers at the forest edge were in full bloom.

After gathering a small posy, the leader trudged back to the great oak where he laid them upon Splinter's grave mound; carefully wiping then rinsing away the dirt and moss from the marker, then finally settling onto his knees in prayer.

"Hey, dad..." He murmured, maintaining the submissive gaze as he soothingly rubbed his thighs. "It's been a while since we've visited - I'm sorry about that... and for not having any good news to share, heh... It's been, w-well-"

Shoulders sagging, he gave a quavering sigh; hot tears pricking his eyes.

"I... T-that woman who came to see you, the last time we were here - her name's Valerie. She's wonderful, dad. She's... she's helped make life a-after you good again. It saddens me that you two never met in this life..."

A tear began creeping down his cheek – he swiped it away with a sniffle.

"I've done something hideous, Master, and I don't know how to fix it... You see, u-um... I've... I've fallen in love with this woman-"

A scoff escaped Leo as he shoved off his now damp bandana, banishing another tear in the process. He'd hoped that by finally admitting it, aloud and uninterrupted, his heavy heart would unburden him, if only just a little...

…It made it infinitely worse.

"But she's with Raph... I tried not to let these feelings get in the way of their relationship, or our friendship, or our family, b-but..."

Raph's question harried Leo's mind; a question he never thought to ask himself until Val – having finally been pushed by him to her limit – spurned him...

As badly as he wanted his intentions to be wholly righteous – protecting a victim, the woman he loved, from her abuser – he knew that simply wasn't the case. Not only was he devastatingly off-base, but a hypocrite to boot.

He knew what his endgame was, and it repulsed him...

"I'll never understand why you never told us what was going on..." The tears were flowing now; Leo no longer had the strength to belay them. "If only I'd just... We weren't ready – I wasn't ready. I've no clue who I am without you... I n-need you, dad... I need this pain-"

He thumped his plastron, where his heart ached beneath.

"-to go away. If not the pain of losing you, then please...! Please, help me stop destroying our family..."

As though on queue, the once gentle breeze passing over him picked up, tossing the oak's branches about like they weighed nary a thing. Coincidence or not, Leo took this as a sign, steadying his breathing as best he could as he settled into a meditative stance...

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("Twice" - Little Dragon)

"Somebody's suspiciously quiet-"

Eyes fluttering open, Leo found himself gazing down at Val's smiling face – back in the dream he awoke from this morning, and many other mornings of late.

Stealing a glance at the family portrait before them, the leader's blood cooled in his veins at the sudden lack of a smile upon his father's greying face...

"Hey, you okay?"

Val's hand had since abandoned his shoulder, and was caressing his cheek now with it. Her touch - it felt so good. So warm, comforting... Though it pained his heart greatly to do so, he plucked it from his scales. He had no choice – he had to put an end to this delusion.

"We need to talk," Leo murmured after finally, reluctantly releasing her.

He forced himself to watch his friend's face as disconcertion befell it, accompanied by the self-soothing encircling of her hands round her body. He granted her a moment to respond, assuming she were contemplating it. Yet her lips never parted. She simply stared. Watching. Waiting.

A mirage, this woman was; identical to the real Val in every way, save for what he hopelessly wished he could change – her feelings for him.

Without an impartial ear nor effective distraction (extra training, meditation, overtime – any excuse to keep himself out of the common areas or, in more desperate cases, the Lair entirely) to help him navigate this tragic situation, Leo finally turned to his dreams - to her.

She became an enthusiastic vessel upon which he'd unburden all his inhibitions; a mouthpiece for his deepest, darkest thoughts. There was certainly a word for it, but he feared he’d be sick if he entertained the thought any longer…

Desperate not to lose the one thing that brought him solace in his lonely world, he'd managed to convince himself that no actual harm was being committed. That, here, he was free to explore his feelings, understand them, then finally resolve them, without risk of destroying his family…

...How fucking naïve.

"I really wish we could've had this conversation in person but, after what Raph told me, I..." Leo swallowed hard, fighting like hell to keep her from seeing him cry. "Val, I'm... I'm so, incredibly sorry-"

“He’s lying to you, y’know.”

There it was – the hook – the fact-defying, ego-inflating siren call that had lured him in, time and time again. Heart still helplessly clinging to the impossible, Leo felt the temptation to bite… initially. “No, he’s not-”

“I’m not mad,” Val countered; tone suddenly forceful, eyes frantic. Like a wounded animal realising it’s being corralled into a corner. “Yeah, things could’ve ended a little less dramatically between Raph and I, b-but… I’m free, now. I-I… I thought you’d be happy about that-”

“No,” Leo whispered, blinking away a tear as he stiffly shook his head. “I’m not happy about that. I’m not happy about that, at all… Val, I’ve ruined everything-”

“But you haven’t-”

“Please-” The leader retreated from her advance, leaving her blinking in befuddlement. “I beg you- don’t… don’t do that.”

At that, the desperation on Val’s face swiftly devolved into distain. Dropping the outstretched hand to her hip, she scoffed at him.

You’re upset – good.

“I’ve not been a friend to you, nor a brother to Raph, for a long time-”

“Oh, save it!” The woman snapped, voice heavy as she, too, had grown emotional. “You used me… W-what, now that you’re facing some consequences, doing the right thing’s ideal??”

That struck a nerve. Jamming his tongue into the wall of his mouth, Leo swallowed the urge to defend himself. To deny. To lie. Val continued.

“Raph was right about you – you don’t give a shit about anyone but yourself… I knew what you were doing from the very start of this, trying to convince me that I was being abused; never mind your blatant boundary stomping I felt forced to overlook to ‘keep the peace’, nor the disgusting things you were doing to me inside your head – your best f-friend, Leo...! Y'know what, I-"

She abruptly faltered, agonising over whether to make known the thought clearly burning the tip of her tongue. The thought won out.

"I'm glad Splinter isn't here to see how far you've fallen!"

Leo damn near keeled over as all the air was unceremoniously forced from his lungs. To think it was one thing, but to put it out into the world, and have it come from her lips... he almost couldn't bare it.

After taking a moment to recollect himself, the leader managed a resigned, "I-I... agree."

Val blinked at him again, the tears pooling in her eyes finally streaking her cheeks. It took everything in him not to reach out, to wipe them away...

...to feel her skin beneath his fingers, one last time.

"You're right - I have been selfish, especially with you. Please, don't take what I'm about to say as an excuse, because it's not. I just... after dad, I... things got very dark for me. I put up so many walls, I pushed everyone out... But you - you managed to tear them all down; make me feel... whole, again. Alive. The fear of losing that's turned me into someone I don't recognise... I started seeing you not as my best friend, but as a prize to be won, and Raph an obstacle..."

She was fading - he could feel it. That weight on his heart was finally lifting. But instead of relief, it was promptly replaced by another kind of pain; the kind he desperately hoped would never return - the emptiness. The chasm in his soul his father had left behind...

Ironically, it felt right.

"This, between us, should’ve never happened – I’m sorry it did, and I’m sorry it's taken this long for me to see the pain I-I'd... You mean so much more to me t-than... this - so much more. And the thought of losing your friendship forever, I d-don't..."

Shakily lifting his gaze, Leo took in his friend's visage a final time, memorising it, before tearfully whispering:

"Goodbye, Valerie. I pray that, one day, you'll be able to forgive me..."

...And just like that - in a blink, she and the zen room were gone, and he was knelt before the grave once again; the gale having conspicuously settled. All that remained were the tears on his face, and determination in his heart.

Collecting the keys and solitary duffle bag from the van, Leo finally proceeded up the driveway to the farmhouse, to make himself comfortable.

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Masterlist | Chapter 27

@android-cap-007 @happymoonangel @miss-andromeda @mysticboombox @sketch-mer-6195 @jasminarts01 @obsessedftshit

[bitch-butter]

hello! it's the eion/ross anon back again from the iwtv brainrot (show only, i havent actually read any of the vampire chronicles after iwtv soooo)-- for a long time i thought ross was louis. NO! ross wants to THINK he's louis. he is actually armand.

the way my brain MELTED when i realized this.

anon we are Literally on the 👏 Same 👏 Page 👏

(how fckn good is this season btw its blowing my gd mind)

but the rossmand of it all is so deep in regards to the mirroring issue that i see in this, where like armand ross is yearning to be known by someone that does not seem to want to know him lol and he wants eion to find him interesting but eion Has no deep feelings about ross that don't directly pertain to himself and how He wants to be seen, and ross himself can only reflect that emptiness back bc he's desperate to he interesting and have depth but he just Doesn't. like there Is a deeper self somewhere in there, but it's been buried underneath this bizarre codependency where he only understands the projection of self and not the true self and so is destined to be unfulfilled and unhappy because the person he wants not only doesn't want him back but doesn't even really want to Know him the way ross desperately wants to know himself. It's Very unwell lol

and (lisa barlow voice) i love that!

[moonyasnow]

Moony's TWST Vampire AU

Part 8: Extras

Other Parts in this series:

Heartslabyul Savannaclaw Octavinelle Scarabia Pomefiore Ignihyde Diasomnia Extras (you are here)

This one is mostly just comedy honestly. SUPER short

Crowley

Along with Lilia, he's probably one of the oldest vampires. Though no one knows exactly how old. He just kinda showed up one day 600 years before modern times, presumably already being at least a few hundred years old, on account of owning an entire castle.

He owns a big castle hidden away deep in the woods somewhere. This castle also happens to have the largest vampire population in all of Twisted Wonderland! Which is…20.

It's impressive for vampires, ok!

It's kinda like why with large carnivores, only one animal, or a small family, controls a big piece of land, or 'hunting grounds'. Too many predators in one place is bound to cause problem when it comes feeding time.

And in Crowley's castle, this is solved by! Well, not by him, as a start. Obviously. Really though, this translates to the vampires who 'live' there mostly just using it as a home-base that they leave when they want fresh blood not from the bottles stored in the cellar.

He also has a massive collection of books he's amassed over the centuries. That is probably the reason he has so many vampires living with him, actually.

No one knows what he does all day

Ambrose LXIII

He keeps coming back with the same name, just in a different disguise, every 30 years or so to be the headmaster of the same school.

No, no one has questioned this enough to have him figured out yet.

Somehow.

Neige

He is a legend within the world of plays, opera and musical theatre. Many believe the name 'Neige LeBlanche' is just a title passed along from actor to actor, a title proclaiming them the 'best' actor, it's actually just been this one guy who really loves acting all this time. He says he should probably end his career soon…but he's been saying that for the past 200 years. It's not gonna happen anytime soon.

He's about 10 years younger than Vil.

Seeing one of Vil's shows as a child was actually what inspired him to go into theatre himself!

He was turned willingly by a playwrite he'd discovered to be a vampire. He said that he wanted to be immortal, so he could be on the stage forever.

Though that person, having heard rumors regarding Neige— who was at that point living isolated with a single parent whom nobody ever saw, and sometimes carrying a tired look in his eye— thought he might've had other reasons for it as well.

I'm literally only including Neige because—

Imagine how absolutely fucking livid Vil would be to find out the one he became a vampire to surpass in the first place, whose name he thinks he's been chasing after all this time, has still be around all this time! Not only that, Vil himself is the ENTIRE REASON NEIGE BECAME A VAMPIRE IN THE FIRST PLACE!

I'M SORRY BUT THAT'D BE SO FCKN FUNNY—

Rollo

Rollo is a Vampire Hunter/Exorcist who saw a vampire kill his brother when he was a child and made it everyone else in this AU's problem.

He somehow managed to gather at least some amount of intel on all of them (which is very impressive in the case of Jamil and Kalim because they are definitely the ones living the most off-the-grid).

He's a recurring villain-of-the-week lol

[evanthefunky]

Me, ranting to Rose: God I fucning HATE vampires so fucmibg much

Rose: sure you do. Seem to have a lot of facts and tidbits of info on these beings.

Me: shut up.

[violentinblack]

For the ask thing may I ask for my son Donny?...and maybe also Omar if ya want lollol

BOTH. BOTH IS GOOD.

Donny:

- a song that reminds me of them: Elephant by Tame Impala, the beat is so super Donny I get his vibes aight

- what they smell like: the woods, but also very realistically just sweat but yknow what actually he smells like sunshine I don't know what sunshine smells like but it smells like Donny Donowitz I'm pretty sure

- an otp: I cannot stress this enough DONNYOMAR SUPREMACY

- a notp: x reader lmao

- favorite platonic relationships: listen every single one of the basterds, but I like to imagine him being super close with Aldo, Hugo and Hirschberg especially, let's be real he treated Hirschberg like he would a little brother and I cry you see I love taking characters like barbie dolls and making myself cry

- a headcanon that is popular in the fandom that I disagree with: where did these people get psycho killer Donny I have no idea have you seen this teddybear of a man? Just because he's RIGHTFULLY angry at fucking nazis doesn't mean he's not a sweetheart aight

- the position they sleep in: that man takes up as much space as he possibly can nobody can sleep with him because his limbs are everywhere like a spider or something

- a crossover AU I'd like to see them in: I don't have those you see I just wanna see him live and become besties with Shosanna and Marcel

- my favorite outfit they've ever worn: by gods and heavens and whatever the fuck else I'm a weakling for Donny in a suit. A weakling. On my fckn knees-

Omar:

- a song that reminds me of them: Slow by Leonard Cohen! It's so him I think he ghostwrote that one

- what they smell like: hair gel, leather, a light summery cologne on nice days

- an otp: ahem, DONNYOMAR SUPREMACY

- a notp: I don't have notps for him actually! I just don't ship him with anyone other than Donny oops

- favorite platonic relationships: when I tell you that he and Wicki exude the same energy of a cool cat tbh they would probably be extremely chill buddies, chillest in the group probably

- a headcanon that is popular in the fandom that I disagree with: yknow what I can't pick anything for this one. You know why? BECAUSE OMAR IS NOT TALKED ABOUT ENOUGH. I NEED ME MORE OMAR CONTENT

- the position they sleep in: on his back, arms crossed, like a fresh corpse. or a vampire. you decide.

- a crossover AU I'd like to see them in: the same for him as for Donny, I don't ask for much you see I just ask for them to live and meet Shosanna and Marcel and be happy and get married possibly and- and

- favorite outfit they've ever worn: his outfit when he says he doesn't speak Italian? Sir your fit? Your fit?? Gorgeous iconic

[saintqueer]

I need a female larry in my life you know what i mean? Like a lesbian couple I can actually identify myself to. Any ideas/recommendations?

I'm here obsessed about this male gay men constantly questioning my gender and orientation like, do I wanna be with louis or be louis or BE HARRY to be with louis¿¿?? Then I'm like nope I'm in fact a lesbian woman so WHERE ARE MY LESBIAN COUPLE REFERENCES TO OBSESS ABOUT.

Currently praying to saintqueer

first of all, love the "currently praying to saintqueer" so fckn cute. makes me feel like all my asks are prayers...love that

also, i get you babe! i think those things are totally okay to question but i get when you feel like you know yourself and just want to be able to identify that in media. but keep having fun with those gender and orientation questions because there's no harm in exploring!

for me, i can kind of see myself in so many different representations of queerness. and i tend to zone in on those that i see myself most in (which actually might not even line up with my chosen labels of bisexual and nb femme). if it's gay shit, it's my shit.

however, i totally get the need to see yourself represented as lesbianism is still very much shit on in popular culture. AND women are still so poorly written in media especially women in wlw relationships.

i've heard there are some EXCELLENT girl direction fan fictions out there where you can read about the harry and louis you know and love but they're girls! highly suggest looking into that. i know @homosociallyyours has written some amazing ones and they might have info on where to look for more!

also, there are plenty of queer women celebrities to tune into if you want more people to obsess over! i'll put a few names here: Kate McKinnon, Hayley Kiyoko, Megan Rapinoe, Ruby Rose, Kristen Stewart, Janelle Monae, Sarah Paulson, Cara Delevigne, Cynthia Nixon, Samira Wiley, Jodie Foster, among others!

additionally, there are a few tv shows that have reallyyyy good wlw relationships that are def ship worthy: Orphan Black, The Haunting of Bly Manor, Never Have I Ever, Dickinson (haven't watched yet but the gifs are 🥵), Killing Eve (this ship is to-die-for), Buffy the Vampire Slayer (tara and willow's relationship changed me 4ever), Sense8 (this one has a trans wlw relationship that makes me melt). im sure there are more but these are the ones i know and like. if anyone wants to add onto this, ill be sure to reblog!

gay women are so underrepresented and underwritten which is why so many queer women tend to gravitate towards gay male characters and/or celebrities. but i look forward to that changing in time because like i said if it's gay shit, it's my shit whether is male or female or nonbinary!

hope i was able to answer your prayers

[patrick-hockstutter]

Modern!Bowers Gang:

Patrick:

Really into cinematography and photography of the unsettling

Never captions his Instagram posts

Goes live on Instagram a lot, even though people really wished he wouldn’t

Makes art out of dead animals or animal bones he finds

Think Banksy, but with roadkill

He’ll take some (somehow) tasteful photos of them, post them, then leave the scene there for some unexpecting bystander to find

Has a nosering (fight me)

Never uses incognito mode

If someone happens to stumble upon his search history, he’s not paying their therapy bill

He likes reading smut more than he likes watching porn

A ps4 guy

Loves spooky games like Resident Evil, Silent Hill, Until Dawn and Death Stranding

He’s not really into school, but he surprisingly reads a lot when he’s alone in his room

Only about things he likes though

Abnormal psych, criminal psych, and sometimes some zoology (u kno y)

Watches serial killer documentaries like he’s paid to

Listens to grunge, nu metal, and 80s alt

Won’t admit it, but sometimes listens to Joji

He’s not super into emo music, but he’s the only one who will listen to it with Victor (he fckn vibes to Brand New)

Ironically uses a Zune

Has an Android but lowkey wishes he had an iPhone

Doesn’t have a computer, just jailbreaks/hacks the school issued laptop

Has a black line tattooed around some of his fingers, one of his wrists, and the shell of his ear

Has a foot tattoo

Has a fucking Juul

Watches LeafyIsHere on YouTube (tell me I’m wrong)

Spends too much time on Reddit

Wears flannels, skinny jeans, and Vans (a beanie if he’s cold)

Mostly cycles through the same three or four outfits

Wears the same pair of Vans every single day

Victor:

Big into aromatherapy

He uses lavender soaps and has an essential oil diffuser in his room

Uses incognito mode to watch Vampire Diaries

A Nintendo ass b i t c h

He has the gray Switch Lite

He brings his Switch with him everywhere (yes he’s that guy)

But what else are you gonna do when you wanna ignore Patrick?

Watches conspiracy theories about ghosts, cryptids, and aliens

Also big into podcasts (mostly true crime and conspiracy ones)

He listens to them on his headphones while he takes walks or draws

Posts his drawings on Tumblr

Does art streams on Twitch when he gets really bored

Has an eyebrow piercing (but it’s a small stud one, not a ring)

Has little tattoos on his hands

Wears bomber jackets, skinny jeans, joggers, army jackets, converse, and combat boots

The boy has style okay

Had an emo phase but still listens to the music (especially Tiny Moving Parts)

The emo phase was pretty short because Henry made fun of him so much

He just fucking liked MCR and Taking Back Sunday a lot, okay?

And Pierce The Veil and Sleeping With Sirens, but he doesn’t readily admit that

Now mostly listens to new wave, synth pop, and lofi hiphop

His favorite bands are Drab Majesty and Choir Boy (look up their new album btw)

Has a black iPhone and a space gray MacBook Pro

Uses Apple Music

Vapes, but only fruity flavors

Watches BoJack Horseman

Doesn’t really eat fast food but never passes up an M&M McFlurry

Paints his (and Patrick’s) nails black

One time Patrick caught him doing a facemask, so Patrick put one on and started chasing him around screaming as a joke

Cue: hmm… this feels kinda good tho

So now Victor and Patrick have secret mini spa days

Drives a Subaru

Belch:

Makes Spotify playlists like he’s paid to

He’s just really good at putting songs together

He tried to get into music theory, but he wasn’t one for actually making his own songs

Really into metal (obvi) but also likes some classic rock and punk stuff

Has records hung up side by side all around his room where the wall meets the ceiling

Still buys CDs

His Instagram feed is full of vintage cars and custom import cars

Fast and Furious is his favorite movie series

His favorite shows are Sons of Anarchy and The Walking Dead

But he also loves early 2000s comedies

Has a mini projector to watch movies on his room wall

Wears band tees, flannels, jean jackets, Carhartt stuff, d a d  h a t s

Really wants a tattoo but always gets nervous

Uses incognito mode to watch porn and buy some of his band tees from Hot Topic

Only one in the gang that uses Facebook (Mama Huggins made him so he could keep in contact with family)

Follows a few meme pages but also some cooking ones so he can send his mom any cool recipes he finds

Victor lowkey makes fun of him for actually using the Facebook page

Invests money in really good headphones and car speakers

Has a black iPhone

It’s always at 20% battery cause it’s always connected to his headphones, Bluetooth speaker, or car stereo

Him and Victor FaceTime when they’re bored

Sometimes they won’t even say much, they just like the over the phone company

Doesn’t smoke, but sometimes hits Vic’s vape

A social vaper if you will

Watches Idubbbz and Filthy Frank on YouTube

His favorite fast food place is Wendy’s

Not really into video games but fucking slays at Guitar Hero

And when Rock Band came out nobody saw him for like two weeks

Has a black Hydroflask with band stickers on it

Henry:

He plays a lot of Xbox

Mostly Halo, COD, Destiny, any first-person shooter really

Baits people on Xbox Live cause he thinks it’s hilarious

He’s also a fucking cyberbully but we all expected that

Has Victor’s old iPhone

Never fucking charges it

He’ll text you back in 3-5 business days (if at all)

And if you try to call him he’ll block your number

Plays iMessage games like cup pong and 8 ball with Belch

The only social media he uses is Snapchat and Tinder to look at girls

In one of his Tinder photos he’s holding a fish (srrynotsrry)

Doesn’t really listen to too much music

He doesn’t dislike music, just usually prefers to do things in silence

His mind is chaotic enough, he doesn’t need background noise

But he will listen to Cigarettes After Sex and TV Girl on a really low volume when he goes to sleep

Uses incognito mode to pick and choose random soft or angsty songs that he likes to put into a bedtime playlist

Otherwise just listens to whatever Belch listens to

Has a tattoo on his wrist

Takes a lot of drives into the countryside/national forests/mountains with Belch

Takes a lot of scenery photos, but never posts them anywhere or shows anyone except Victor

Still smokes cigarettes (he thinks vaping is douchey)

Watches South Park and American Dad

If he’s willing to spend money to go see a movie, he’s going to an IMAX theater

Sometimes he likes 3D, but most of the time it just hurts his eyes after a while

Longboards everywhere

Needs prescription glasses but refuses to wear them

They’re mostly for reading, which he doesn’t do anyway

But he does listen to audiobooks sometimes

Likes Frappuccinos but will kill you before you find out

He orders them through Uber Eats under a fake name so nobody will find out

BONUS: all four!

Victor still has his childhood GameCube that they play Mario Party, Mario Kart, and Melee on

Henry is banned from playing Mario Party after breaking a controller while beating Patrick with it

Patrick only ever picks Waluigi in Mario Kart and everyone is sick of it

When they play Rock Band Patrick is on bass, Henry plays guitar, Belch absolutely slays the drums, and Vicky boy sings his lil heart out

One night a week they order a shit ton of Dominos and make a drinking game out of watching Vine compilations

Victor does everyone’s birth charts

They collectively made a fake Tinder account on Patrick’s phone and catfish guys with it

They all try to one up each other doing vape tricks yikes

They buy bags of chips and candy from Costco and lounge around eating them on weekends

They’re banned from the city metro busses because Belch’s car was in the shop for a week and that week was hell for every bus driver in the city

[emotobix]

What if Zalgo was actually a huge softy? Like..I mean picture this.

You have your ruler of hell or some shit who's all angry and scary and stuff. He's also really well kept, clean, dressed up, fancy. Ya know, that kinda thing. SO. When he's alone. He's just lounging around in cactus pajama pants, bunny slippers, an oversized hoodie, and a sippy cup filled with apple juice with a side of avocado toast. He's just chillin' watching fckn- Vampire Diaries or some shit idek.

I have not been able to get this image out of my head for the past hour someone please draw this 😂

[crimeronan]

for the 'behind the scenes', 3, 7, and 17? Hope you have a lovely evening!

from these asks!

(my ask box)

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3. Do you write fics from start or finish, or jump around?

depends on the fic!

with oneshots, my process is usually to start from whatever mental image made me excited about writing said oneshot in the first place.  i go from there to the end.  then i go back and write the beginning up to that point.

i’ve written the whole of the self-indulgent trc vampire verse thus far this way - the first fic lines i actually drafted for each were

idiot vampire - “There was something wrong with Adam.” idiot juicebox - “Adam woke up in Ronan’s bed, and before the blur of yesterday could resolve itself into coherent memory, there was just one thought in his head: Oh, God, I killed him.” loving you - “ ‘How badly did he hurt you?’ he asked.” stupid brother - “  ‘Your piece-of-shit brother’s hurt,’ Adam said.” rescue - “ “I can’t see,” Adam whispered.”

with longer fics, i skip around a LITTLE -- but oftentimes i’m not sure exactly how character dynamics will develop until i’ve written them.  which means that for cohesion, i often have to draft pretty linearly, even if i have a detailed plot outline.

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7. Which part of writing do you struggle with the most?

oh god there are so many potential answers for this.  the one that’s on my mind at the moment though is faster-paced stuff.  my trc big bang fic is heavy on external plot, and the POV is a lot more zoomed-out than my usual comfort zone of navel-gazing introspection, and i’m spending the whole time going “I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M DOING”

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17. What fic are you most proud of?

! :D

i love this question i get to look at my ao3 and try to narrow it down

for long fic, it’s definitely the homestuck ancestor fic breathe on the ashes

having reread it recently, i can see a lot of places where i might have paced or framed scenes differently now (i am constantly getting better at writing and constructing!) but this fic was a four-year heart project & i did with it what i wanted to do & told the story i wanted to tell how i wanted to tell it & i care about it a lot.

for oneshots, it’s the trc fic in which gansey is the loneliest most connection-starved boy in the world, and ronan is full of light and love and warmth

i put. so damn much into literally every single line of this fic. i worked so Fckn Hard on it good lord. lemme find some lil bit to point at

It’s a good time for this. The early summer days are long, so the sun is high and late afternoon angled. The rays stretch inside like a ripple of fabric. Each illuminates a wedge of dancing dust motes, the air golden and ethereal. The floor bathes in sunlight. Shadows stretch long on the sides of abandoned equipment where the light doesn’t reach.

Ronan’s face is wondering, tilted up, surprised and enamored by this mundane magic. For a second, he looks the same way Gansey often feels. Like he’s been pulled out of time, experiencing the same moment over and over, every second coexisting in its own eternity.

Then Ronan shakes his head like he’s dissipating a spell. Shoves his hands in his pockets. “It suits you,” he mutters.

[anythingtrxsh]

HII Could you recommend your fav unrequited love fic’s thanks 💕

omg this one fckn hurt ngl

I Bloomed For You... [284k] by HN_North {soulmate au-- i actually haven’t read this fic bc im weak and i DONT LIKE SUFFERING tyvm}

trust your heart if the seas catch fire [131k] by maxx {canon-- while this is temporary unrequired fic, it still hurts damn good}

neu roses [119k] by merelypretty {this fic has been in my bookmarks for forever sigh}

your pretty face and electric soul [44k] by veausy {vampire au-- my baby tay told me this is rly good so here u go guys!}

use your hands (to hold me by the heart) [20k] by taetastic {childhood friends au-- not really unrequired but theyre both oblivious af?}

happy reading!!

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #260

“better think twice; your train of thought will be altered.”

Have you ever taken a shower with anyone before? I believe Nicole and I did as kids sometimes? Do you wear your seatbelt in the car? Always. Wear your goddamn seatbelt, folks. Do you prefer to spend your time indoors or outdoors? Generally indoors, but it does depend on what I can do outside as well as the weather. How many people have you kissed? Three or four. I really can't remember if *I* ever kissed Girt. Do you just feel awkward when you dance? YIKES YUP, even when I was a dancer. Has the person you have feelings for ever told you that you’re attractive? Yes. Can you get over people easily? MOTHER OF FUCK, NO. Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay? No. Do you like to have long hair or short hair? SHORT. Does the sound of rain at night help you sleep? Ugggghhhh, yes. Especially cuddling while falling sleep in the rain is everything. Have you ever worn a pair of scrubs? Many times. Anything in your room that you’re hiding from your parents or someone else? Well, to a degree. I have artwork in here that I'm just self-conscious of others seeing, but I wouldn't DIE if my mom found them. They're not even really "hidden," just covered. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? Strawberry. Do you like hot-dogs? I wish I didn't. What’s your favorite piece of jewelry? A fuckin hot leather, spiked choker with chains draped across it. It's just a bit tight on me now. Worst injury you’ve ever had? I skinned the shit out of my knees on the road as a kid, wound up with cuts near the bones. It was not, NOOOOOT pretty and took literally years for the scars to totally vanish. What song do you want played at your funeral? Probably "Life is Beautiful" by Sixx AM. How many keys are on your key chain? What do they go to? Just the one to the house. Have you ever taken a pregnancy test? Not in the traditional sense. Before surgery, they obviously had to be sure via a urine sample, but otherwise, no. Would you rather live in a mansion or a small cozy home? Whew, the latter, easily. If you were offered to smoke some weed right now, would you accept? Nah. Do you get your eyebrows waxed, or do you pluck them? Neither, really. I just don't care; mine aren't awful, and it's too time-consuming and "required" too frequently for me to bother. They're just eyebrows. Do you and your last ex hate each other? Not at all. Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you? Well yeah, we're best friends. Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight? I was literally a madly in love teenager, you can guess. How do you handle people who are overly enthusiastic all the time? "I don’t 'handle' them, they’re actually pretty cool to be around. I appreciate having that kind of energy around me because I don’t generate a whole lot of it myself and I want it to rub off." <<<< Exactly this. Do people say you look like a certain celebrity? Nah. Who do you think you look like? No one I know of. Ever loved someone who didn’t love you back? hnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGALS;KDJFA;LKJEW Ever done karaoke? Did you like it? Nooooo sir. Ever seen a pregnant woman smoking/drinking? Yep. It was an occasion where I had to practice serious self-discipline to keep my mouth shut. :x What was the last piece of candy you ate? Miss Tobey brought me a Reese's yesterday morning so that. Nice breakfast lmao. Do you curse a lot? A real fucking lot. It's not intentional, it's just so ingrained in me as normal diction after being at Jason's so much when his mother is the definition of an Italian New Yorker and thus her son has a mouth too lmao. Personally, I don't believe in "profanity" in the traditional sense so it doesn't bother me in the way of "oh I'm saying too many bad words," I just know my dictionary is wider than "fuck" and "shit" oof. If you could be a Disney character for a day, who would you be? Probably like Kiara. Be a hot princess lion with a hot lion boyfriend and chill lion parents WOW am I a furry yet. Are you wearing anything of any sentimental value? Describe? Yeah, my friendship ring with Sara, a bracelet from her as well, and an ovarian cancer bracelet for my mom. Then tattoos, if you consider myself as "wearing" them. To you, what is especially distracting? The sound of TV when you're trying to sleep. What are some things that are important in your life right now? My mom's health, my mental health, job searching to at least get ideas for when transportation is easier, keeping the house clean, keeping up with Sara's health. When was the last time you did some major cleaning? A couple weeks back when I detail cleaned out both my shelves. Who challenges you the most? In what way?  My psychiatrist, but not in a bad way. He pushes me to keep improving with things. What was the last opportunity that you passed up, and why? I should know this, but I don't. Have you ever contemplated cheating on anyone? Oh no, I couldn't live with the guilt. Who do you know that gives very sound advice? Sara is great at that. What do you think makes a person weak? The will to drag someone down just because you're feeling that way. What makes a person strong? The determination to not give up. Who do you go to when you need comfort? Mom more than anyone. Where is your favorite place to get fries? BOJANGLE'S. You cannot live to your fullest potential until you've received the seasoned blessing of Bojangle's fries. What is the most recent article of clothing you’ve purchased? I think underwear. Have you ever made your own pie from scratch? No. Are there any waterfalls nearby? Definitely no big ones. Hell, maybe even no natural ones. There are lots of dams, but I don't think they count. What are your earliest memories of going to see a doctor? My first time getting my blood drawn and consciously understanding what was about to happen. Freaked the FUCK out, bolted from the room, and clinged like a monkey to a column while sobbing. It literally took multiple adults to get me off of it, and I was very little. And then when I actually got poked, apparently I just said, "... That's it?" Oh, little me, you'd take needles for hours later on in life in the name of art lol. What is your favorite condiment? Maybe ketchup. Do you know anyone who has been to rehab? Well, all the mental hospitals I've been to included addicts seeking recovery, and I befriended a few. For people more in my personal life, I think so. Would you consider yourself to be a picky eater? I am ridiculously picky. Have you ever slept in a car overnight? I'm quite sure no, not a full night. Has someone close to you died of murder? No, thankfully. Does your school offer driver’s ed? My high school did, which is where I took it. Have you ever done volunteering work abroad? No. Do you have a shower stall or a bath tub? A tub. Why do you do these surveys? I'm bored most of the time with absolutely nothing better to do. Sometimes it helps me contemplate some things about myself. Do you like shopping? Eh, depends on what I'm shopping for. What’s a show you wish that was still on air? MM IS COMIN BACK, FUCKERS. Do you like hip hop? Nooo. Do you like pretzels? I do, especially soft ones. You want your next pet to be what? It's probably going to be a tarantula. I'm not being sarcastic lmao. It just depends on if I can convince my mom. Do you like coconut scents? Sure. Would you spend 20 dollars on a candle? Hell no. What is a dessert that you DON’T like? Pie. And one that you love? mmmmmmmmMMMMMMMM ice cream. Would you rather be a vampire or a mermaid? Vampire, ig. Being a mermaid genuinely sounds boring. Where the fuck's the WiFi. Are you happy with your physical features? Bitch no. When you doodle, what are you usually doodling? Meerkats. Do you eat salads? Not enough, but I like them w/ regular lettuce and I'm open to different dressings. Favorite thing to do on your phone? Play Pokemon if I'm actually in a spot to get fckn balls. What magazines do you like? I don't read any. What is your favorite thing about Christmas? The feeling of really being a family. Do you prefer white or black electronics? Black. Firm pillow or soft pillow? S O F T Who was the last person you rode in a car with? Mom. Do you know anyone, personally, who is in an abusive relationship? Are you? Thank fuck no. Are there any people you don’t like for your significant other/crush to talk to? I’m single and don't have like... an "active" crush ig? What was the last alcoholic beverage you drank? I had a bombin' sangria for my birthday @ Olive Garden. Has one of your boyfriend’s best friends ever tried to get with you? Again, single, but for previous ones, no anyway. Are you 100% over the last person you kissed? No. Have any of your friends ever overdosed? I think so, but none died, thankfully. The last thing you downloaded onto your computer? Ummmm probably something for school. How many friends on Facebook do you have? 118. What age is the oldest you would date at the moment? It'd take me seriously liking someone to go slightly beyond 30. Do you want to be single? I don't know. I don't really know if I'm "fit" to be in a relationship right now, like I know I gotta figure shit out, but I think it's natural to want that companionship some days. Are you good at hiding your feelings? Well, I guess it depends on the emotion, but honestly, I don't think so, in most cases. Who did you last share a bed with? Sara. Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? Not in an ambulance, no. What are you listening to right now? An '80s-ish/synthwave cover of "Disturbia" by Rihanna. I've been on a total binge of this kinda stuff lately. Ever been on a golf cart? Ye. Do you have trust issues? Yep. Do you own something from Hot Topic? I think most of my shirts are from there. Have you ever slapped someone in the face? No. Do you have a little sister? Damn, not so little anymore. Turned 22 a few days ago. Have you ever been to New York? The state, yes. City, no. Do you actually read privacy policies when signing up for new things? Nope. Did you have a lot of birthday parties when you were younger? If so, did you invite everyone in the class? I mean, define "a lot?" I did once every year... and no. I was selective. Have you ever participated in one of those “guess how many jelly beans, mints, etc. are in this jar!” contest? If so, have you ever won? PTSD is fuckin weird. I have, and I get anxious and uncomfortable just seeing them. The very last time I hung out w/ Jason was at his brother's wife's baby shower, and something like that was there. Shitty fuckin day. Can you juggle? No. Do you live on an avenue, road, drive or something else? Road. What are your school colors? N/A Have you ever taken a picture with Santa when you were little? Yeah, I think my sisters and I did that every year? What is the population of the city you live in? Google says around 5.5k. Do you like Nerds candy? Yeah man. What’s your favourite flavour of soda, pop or whatever else you call it? Blue raspberry. What level of brightness do you usually keep your phone at? It's on about 70% during the day, and I lower it to about 20% when I'm about to go to bed. Have you ever attended a religious or private school? My previous school was a private & religious college. Do you have any pets and are they cuddly? My cat is STUPID cuddly. Absolute attention hog. My snake seems to enjoy attention, though I wouldn't define snakes as "cuddly;" their brains don't know what affection really is, which I think is mandatory in that definition. She does love to lie against me on the bed, though, when I take her out to let her wander. What’s the worst job you’ve ever had? All three of my jobs have sucked, but considering I lasted in a deli not even two hours, probs that. How many cars does your household own? One. Are there any cracks or scuffs on your phone? No. This shit is literally a Tracphone yet is incredible man, I've dropped it a good few times and it's a great phone. What’s your favourite meat? Out of most forms, probably pork, which I really wish wasn't true. I adore pigs. Or maybe chicken. Which I still feel bad about. Do you need glasses to read or drive or need them all the time? I always need them. Is the internet fast where you live? It's fine. What is your favourite meal of the day and why? Breakfast has the best options and makes me look forward to the morning lmao. Do you like long surveys or short surveys better? Ha ha, obviously long, seeing as I compile shorts ones into these larger ones. I do it because I feel individually posting with EVERY one I pick out would get annoying. Have you ever been to a cocktail bar? No. What’s the best amusement park you’ve ever visited? Disney World. Do you keep the cabinets in your kitchen and bathroom organized? More so in the kitchen. Have you ever had a romantic fling? No. Are you a very forgetful person? To a frightening point. Are your parents married or divorced? They're divorced. Do you believe in Heaven? Not the Christian one, but I do lean towards there being some peaceful existence after death. Do you eat the stems of broccoli? That's obviously the best part. Do you read blogs? No. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? I pretty much have before? Worn guy's pants and unisex or men's shirts before, I'm sure. Ever been involved with the police? No. What's your favorite shampoo/conditioner and soap? Idk, I'm just very used to Suave. Their body wash smells amazing. Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life? HELL NO. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Twirl it. Favorite restaurant? Olive Garden is GOOD SHIT. Have you watched Tiger King yet? Christ, no, and I sure am tired of seeing it everywhere online. Do you try to do something significant and meaningful every day? It's quite clear I don't, even though I really, really want to. What is your favorite pizza topping? Pepperoni. What was the name of the first pet that you loved? Chance. What color hair did your first crush have? Brown. Does anyone know who your first crush was? yeah. Who was your first celebrity crush? Whew, Jesse McCartney, lads. Have you ever had to use an epi pen? No, thankfully. What color was your first phone? Navy, I think. Do you know anyone with Down’s syndrome? Not anyone personally. How much do you weigh (only answer if comfortable)? I'm not comfortable. Have you ever been overweight? I have been since 2016. What color is your Christmas tree? Green. What color Christmas tree do you want to have in your house someday? UGGGGHHHHHHH give me a black one with fake snow on it. Omg. What color house did you grow up in? Uhhhh... I think it was white? I should know this. Have you ever been baptized? If so, how and where? Yes, when I was a baby at the Catholic church I grew up going to. What type of wedding do you want? Give it a gothic vibe ok. Are you taller or shorter or the same height as your mom? We're the same height. What is your heritage? German, Irish, and Polish. Are you excited for the upcoming summer season? Ugh, no. Not at all. At. All. Do you like crackers with your soup? No. Which ex of yours means the most to you? Depending on which way you mean, Jason or Sara. What is something that never fails to make you feel accomplished? Do a decent amount of cleaning. How do you feel about nudity, in person? Uh???? What exactly do you mean by "in person"???? I guess it depends on who, the situation, and location??? Have you taken prescription medications that didn't belong to you? Pain medicine, yes. Do wooded areas freak you out in the evening or night? I mean, to a reasonable degree, I guess. Obviously being in the wild in the dark is dangerous. Have you ever ridden on the back of a motorcycle? No. Do you iron any of your clothes? No. Can you sleep in an unmade bed? Yeah. Did the house you grew up in have a big yard? It was p good. What has been the most difficult class you’ve ever taken? Probably Latin. What was the last website you were on, before this one? I was on Facebook. Is your hometown famous for anything? No. What are some things a house would need to have for you to purchase it? I'm personally very serious about a dishwasher and laundry room. Other than that I'm... kinda blanking? Like I'm not that picky as for what the house HASSSSSS to have, besides those. Well, two bathrooms would be great. What was the last thing you heated up in your microwave? A pancake+sausage on a stick thing for breakfast. When was the last time your internet stopped working? It was having a temper yesterday. Did you ever watch Phil of the Future? Not very much, and never really by choice. Nicole would watch it sometimes though. Were you born somewhere other than a hospital? No. What was the last flavor of ice cream you had? Vanilla. Do you have an online game that you play often? None at the very moment because my personal gaming laptop has been kaput for well over a month now. Maybe close to even two. Is there a trash can near you? No. Have you ever shared sleeping accommodations with someone of the opposite sex without anything steamy happening? No. Is there a fan going in the room you’re in? Yeah, beside me.

[vorefluff]

if anyone is curious

This is legit how I come up with new storylines and things. This is just a copy/paste of something I sent my girlfriend when I was in the middle of Figuring A Thing Out.

Featuring a new character, Hue and a drawing of him! Mostly this is about Blaze tho, and some stuff about John too. It sorta goes all over the place - the moment it seems like ‘oh this is what this post is about’ it switches on you.

Warnings: Lots of “so anyway”, no proofreading, completely filled with lowercase sentence starters, fragments, cussing, a couple vague s*xual references. It’s a brain barf. 

[day 1]

This is Hue. He's a werewolf boi-o and one of the shortest characters i've made so far, clocking in at 4'10". you can just barely see his bite scars under the arm hair I decided that John shouldn't be entirely partner-less because Blaze decided to be stubborn and not embrace the gay. Cause that's just unfair to john. Like, Blaze said no, John respects that, so John moves on. 

No matter how much I rlly rlly want the two to be together. 

so anyway is seems that John has a Type. smol grumpy and easy to fluster I mean, in terms of potential romantic partners. in terms of Hotness and potential one-night-stands and such he's more physically attracted to guys in snappy suits and confidence like raknu but also not raknu himself because it'd be weird to bang your boss.

[day 2]

[insert some Spoilery Things about Alchemy Brothers from my World Of Glass And Bone and my character I’m basing Hue off of. This is also a first - usually I don’t base one character off of another. I did it in this case to absolutely make 100% sure that Hue’s personality doesn’t end up being like a Blaze2.0.]

[....] cause like, yeah, I made him with the intent of finding an Actual Partner for John, but I don't want that to be his Entire Personality. I don't want him to just be off-brand discount walmart version of Blaze. I've never done this before k. Like, usually I make characters, and then decide relationships to other people, not the other way around. And now I'm just Worried and low-key Freaking Out that he won't be seen as anything more than a Blaze-wannabe.

[day 3]

so THIS is how love triangles get started, huh - throwing in Hue threw a wrench into things. so like we got John and Blaze, right? they're like. bestest buds. John is like, the only person that Blaze really actually feels completely comfortable around. and like, a big part of the reason why Blaze doesn't want to be in an Actual Official Relationship is a lot of smaller very valid reasons. 

 1) he's in denial that it's even a thing he wants at all. All relationships end in Bad Things - either death as Blaze outlives them, or breakups, or deception and misunderstanding, or other Fun Things like that. So why the fuck would he want to put himself through that again? 

2) he still gets nightmares about Alex and not over that 3) all past relationships have been either abusive or at least a little bit Toxic - including alex (just as the nature of the culture, and the social power difference between people and vampires, toxic masculinity, just straight up assholes with a pretty face, ect) and that's just sorta the standard, normal thing that Blaze expects to happen with relationships in general. So it's showing a little bit of growth on Blazes part by saying no to the perceived toxicity, but still misunderstanding what a normal relationship is. 

 4) he's still not sure he's part gay. Like, he was Trying Out A Thing with Alex and he didn't get enough time to process it or really tell if that's something for him.

5) Blaze is asexual and sex-repulsed, and John is Horny. Not that John would do anything that Blaze is uncomfortable with - just the idea that Blaze is holding John back from something that he really wants to do while simultaneously being really stuck on the idea of monogamy and being uncomfortable with the idea ofo John being with anyone else sexually if they're in a relationship. 

 6) and fear that if he says yes then He's Stuck. can't back out, can't break off, without losing John completely as a friend (which is not something John would do even if they did break off for whatever reason). but it's still intense fear, and strongly supported by the idea of 'history repeats itself'. 

 7) he's also still low-key weirded out by the thought that John was assigned female at birth and while he's Getting Better at that and normalizing it. Being closer than friends before he's finished sorting things out in his head properly only brings up those weirded out feelings more intensely and more frequently until it becomes a potential point of conflict. If they were to ever be a thing, it'd take a lot of time before it started up, for Blaze to be 100% okay and Chill and properly sort through his head around John being trans. Not that Blaze would ever insult or weaponize that against john or anything, just personally working through centuries of stigma/sterotypes/ect and trying to get to a point where that thought isn't weird or bad anymore.

and a few other little reasons here and there but those are the big main ones in the way between a Blaze and John relationship. and I've been trying to keep that in mind when writing stories between them, cause John would totally go out with Blaze, and if Blaze didn't have those blocks, then he'd totally be open to a relationship with John too. 

Like, blaze low-key has a crush on John too. And I ship is so hard. And I want it to be a thing but I feel it's unfair to Blaze's character and all the stuff he has to work through himself before he's mentally stable enough to be able to have a healthy relationship with anyone. 

 and like maybe if no one else existed, yeah, sure, they'd get together at some point but like John isn't going to wait years for the possibility of a relationship with a person who already said 'no'.

So anyway, Hue comes on scene, right? 

John is spending more time with Hue and due to the nature of time being limited and the fact that often John operates seperately in Hero Team Missions (he's a spellcaster where the others aren't - he can do a lot of behind the scenes things that the others can't) 

Blaze finds himself really really wanting John's company more which makes him question why the fuck and therefore come to the realization that yeah okay fuck fine he's part gay but what the fuck ever John's with someone else already so.

so he's trying to shove down those annoyin' fckn feelings of jealousy, and also starting to distance himself from John and also throwing in some self-hate for missing his chance because Everything Blaze Does has to be low-key toxic (bad blaze stop it-) 

and once there's something you Want that's out of reach, suddenly you start forgetting about the reasons why you didn't go for it in the first place when it was available which means at least some of the other barriers are temporarily forgotten - at least, until John is available again, then they'd re-surface with vengeance and more self-hate because now-is-you're-chance-what-are-you-waiting-for - 

so anyway Blaze is a (valid) Dramatic Bitch who can't make up his goddamn mind

And right now I'm trying to figure out the new dynamic, and how things end there. 

 I'm like maybe 20% sure that they might end up turning it into a poly relationship instead of a love triangle 

John would be down for that Hue would be down for that 

it all just depends on Blaze and his dumb stupid (meant lovingly, they're still valid) limitations and quirks and trauma and shit.

there's nothing solid yet but the idea of it being turned into a poly relationship is rlly appealing to me

also 

blaze needs a therapist

I'm pretty sure that's the first time I've said that and I don't know why I haven't said it sooner but Blaze needs a therapist.

vampires getting therapists isn't something that ever happens for lots of stupid and dumb (not valid) reasons but maybe maaaayyyyybeeeeeee Raknu can pull some strings, talk to some people, ya know. Maybe try and find a therapist who's willing to come in and try and talk to a vampire with hundreds of years of Shit.

raknu can claim it's for the good of the team, and teamwork, and shiz. I mean, having a vampire on a hero team at all is a New Thing, Blaze was one of the first. So obviously, there'll the other New Things that arise from this, that can bypass stupid rules

well I guess for Blaze to see a therapist Blaze would have to actually be willing to ya know. 

see the therapist 

that's more unlikely than raknu being able to call one in that's open to it 

Blaze does not have a very good opinion on therapists. Blaze thinks they're all quacks and wishy-washy idiots 

siiiiiiigh 

blaze why why do you have to be this way like, you've got a whole bunch of Good Things that you could've had why do you have to be stubborn 

all of these good things literally just hinge on you.

it's okay though 

blaze is just taking the scenic route the long way around to Good Times.

I think what would be required for Blaze to see a therapist would be for someone he sees as similar to him - not wishy-washy, negativity and toxic central, similar opinion of therapists in general - to go in and see one first, and actually be helped and have their life improved. 

then maybe blaze would give it a try and-  

ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 

heheheheheheh 

AHAHAHAHAHAHA 

this is where it comes full circle!!! 

This is perfect!!!! 

Hue! 

it all comes back to HUE! 

Hue goes to therapy which then convinces Blaze to accept therapy which means Blaze can actually Work Through Some Of His Shit 

and then we can have a valid Poly Relationship with John and Blaze and Hue and it wouldn't have been possible without Hue which low-key starts them off in a positive relationship, which is bolstered by John really liking Hue, and therefor Blaze has someone else he can Really Actually Enjoy And Feel Comfortable Around instead of being stuck on just John 

Bonus Little Story Thing For Making It This Far:

Blaze tentatively kisses the top of Smol John’s head, giving a hesitant little smile. John blushes and grins, leaning against the vampire. 

Glancing up though, Blaze sees Hue with a raised eyebrow and a an amused smirk.

A very intense possessiveness washes over Blaze. Blaze makes direct eye contact with Hue. 

“aAURG!! wHAt the HECK!!!” John exclaims as Blaze’s teeth firmly rest on his back, pressing him into the tongue protecting him from the vampire’s bottom teeth. 

Blaze lifts John up from his hand like that, pulling his tongue in and bringing John with it. John fumbles for an oxygen tank from his pockets. 

Blaze maintains eye contact with Hue the entire time, swallowing the small form. 

Hue is amused, a little disturbed, but mostly confused. 

Finally Hue breaks the silence. “Couldn’t resist such a snacc, huh?” 

[dipshithqs]

☠ ◞ ashton moio . 23 . cismale . he/him . › is that rocco mena i see walking through the campgrounds ? i can’t believe that the sagittarius is spending their summer here . i heard that MOUSE is a pizza delivery boy when they’re at home in chandler , arizona . but while they’re here , i’ve seen them stuffing his face while humming all night longer by sammy adams . i’ve called them the village idiot but that’s only because of their PLAYFUL and DIMWITTED tendencies . apparently , they’re back at camp silver lake this year because he missed the place . ‹ played by t , he/they , 18+ , mst . ›

INTRODUCTION

name. rocco age. 23 birthday. 11/23 sexuality. heterosexual

EXTENDED

full name. rocco spencer mena pronunciation. ROCK-oh SPEHN-suhr meh-NUH meaning of name. “rest” aliases. mouse, ,rocky, roc gender. cismale pronouns. he/him species. human zodiac sign. sagittarius hometown. chandler, arizona occupation. pizza delivery boy/camp counselor label. the village idiot faceclaim. ashton moio

RUNDOWN

🍕 a Very Dumb™ 🍕 obsessed w/ rap/hip-hop and constantly tries to write his own songs 🍕 super bad at writing but actually a decent rapper 🍕 generally liked by the kids ,, , mostly bc they can get away w/ a lotta shit w/ him 🍕 pinterest board 🍕 has been a pizza delivery boy fr 3 years 🍕 was a clerk n a babysitter before that 🍕 never taken seriously 🍕 loves energy drinks 🍕 still lives w/ his parents 🍕 developed a panic disorder n started getting panic attacks at 13 ,, , after his first run at camp silver lake 🍕 Would Rather Be Sleeping 🍕 bit of a momma’s boy 🍕 spotify playlist 🍕 a Good Choice if all you wanna do is sit around n eat cheetos all day 🍕 been skateboarding since he was 9 🍕 was close friends w/ 3 out of the 10 kids that disappeared 🍕 parties like a frat boy

QUESTIONS

why are they labeled as the trope that you applied for ? remember that kid in class that used to sit at the table during arts and crafts time just eating glue and putting stickers on his face ? that was mouse ... . ... and he hasn’t changed, ,,,he’s labeled the village idiot ‘cause homeboy is dumb as dirt ! !!!!!!!!! !!!!!!! !! a safety hazard. w/ the kinda luck he has too,,, he’d end up getting someone else ( along with himself ) killed ,,, fortunately, , where he lacks intelligence ... . n luck ,, ,  he makes up for in friendliness who are some of their character inspirations ? ( bonus points if you list some horror movie or television show characters ) gOd i wish i had more characters frm horror movies/tv but highkey philip j. fry from futurama, , a dash of charlie kelly from it’s always sunny in philidelpha,, touch of michael kelso from that ‘70s show minus the narcissism ( tho mouse has his moments ), ,,,, , andy dwyer from parks and recreation ,, , lowkey xander harris from buffy the vampire slayer do you think they’d run into danger or run away from it ? it depends tbh, ,,but probably run away , ,, like 93% of the time he’d run away what are the worst parts of their personality ? o god he is so. .. .. .. .. .. .... ..... ..so dumb, ,,fatally dumb, ,, , keep-your-distance dumb,, ,, actually making him annoying at times ( especially in serious situations ) ,, , n he can b V lazy so asking him to do. .. ... Anything .. ... can b such a Chore, ,, this makes him appear selfish at times,,, as well what are some connections that they would have formed at camp the first time they were around ? his main focus would’ve probably been the boys at camp the first go around, ,, since he was just set on having fun w/ a group a friends n girls just seemed Annoying at the time,,, , so BROS !!!!!! [ insert me and the boys meme here ] there’s a possibility he’d gotten a hardcore crush at camp the second go around ( at 14 ) tho are they nervous about returning back to camp silver lake ? why or why not ? noooooo he is v much Excited to b returning,, , thanks to his good ol’ ‘ subconsiously blocking out tramatic experiences ’ method ,, ,albeit ... .. . he didn’t expect to come back ,, , but couldn’t resist what’s their favorite scary movie ? so hard !!!! he’s def more into comedy or cartoons than scary or gore but he can b down fr a good funny horror ,, ,,, probably tucker and dale vs evil finally, what are some connections you’d like for them to have ? ( please list a minimum of three ) would fckn Love something along the lines of those two guys/heterosexual life-partners (shaggy/scooby, jay/silent bob, monty/jasper, etc) pLease ,,, might b pushing it but maybe something like cloudcuckoolander’s minder ?? listen .. ... ... ..he’s gonna die Quick w/o a smack whenever he tries to do smthn stupid (n thts all th time fjds),, !!! just friends !!! r smthin like it,, , def can see him crushing on someone, ,trying to hit on ‘em,,, , pulling out those cheesy pick up lines n they just Do Not Want , ,,,, ,lbh he’s not bf material, ,, ,, ok but i'm down fr aaannnnyyyytttthhhiinnngggg tho honstly it’s cool to just come up w somethin on the fly, ,, pLS HMU !!!!!!!

APPEARANCE

height. 5′8″ weight. 138 lbs eyes. brown hair. dark brown race. hispanic/latino nationality. american complexion. beige build. scrawny voice. x scent. cheese dust,, fruity pebbles, ,,body spray

RELATIONSHIPS

parents. donté + maría siblings. jamie children. none enemies. none ( that he knows of )

MENTAL

education. high school languages. english, spanish disorders. panic disorder habits. eating 'til he passes out, ,taking looooong ass naps ,, ,playing on his skateboard in the cabins ,, ignoring his general duties as a councellor/steering the kids off course

TRAITS

positive. optimistic, supportive, playful, tenderhearted, easygoing negative. lazy, dimwitted, self-indulgent, immature, careless

CHARACTERIZATION

moral alignment. neutral good jung. enfp-a enneagram. the peacemaker four temperaments. phlegmatic tropes. crying wolf, the ditz, buffy speak, dumb is good, too dumb to live, kindhearted simpleton, casanova wannabe, manchild, butt-monkey, the slacker, know-nothing know-it-all, fun personified, extreme omnivore, cloudcuckoolander, adorkable, unfazed everyman, innocently insensitive archetypes. the performer, the caregiver, the rebel aura. red tarot card. the sun

ATTRIBUTES

strength. 3/10 dexterity. 4/10 magic. 0/10 cunning. 2/10 willpower. 4/10 constitution. 8/10

INTELLECT

musical-rhythmic intelligence. 6/10 visual-spatial intelligence. 2/10 verbal-linguistic intelligence. 3/10 logical-mathematical intelligence. 1/10 bodily-kinesthetic intelligence. 3/10 interpersonal intelligence. 6/10 intrapersonal intelligence. 5/10 existential intelligence. 6/10 naturalistic intelligence. 2/10