#1x21 Salvation

[bloodfreak-boyking]

okay but can we talk about a few things here. First of all, the way dean's looking at sam throughout all of these is fucking insane.

Second of all, SPECIFICALLY the way he's looking DIRECTLY AT HIS LIPS...WHEN THEY'RE BASICALLY PRESSED TOGETHER.

LIKE COME ON. ARE YOU GUYS SEEIN THIS SHIT?

Third, the way he looks so DISAPPOINTED in the last two.

Conclusion: Dean wanted his little brother to pull him in by his lapels and kiss him stupid and he's bummed the fuck out it didn't happen.

[stonenumberone]

SUPERNATURAL 1x21 Salvation

Sam look. The three of us.. that's all we have... that's all I have. Sometimes I feel like I'm barely holding it together man.. and without you or Dad...

[arcanespillo]

hands

[mishaesque]

Scenic Supernatural 1.21 Salvation

[oneoftheexactsciences]

If hunting this demon means getting yourself killed then I hope we never find the damn thing.

[soft-pine]

spn20rewatch: 1.21 salvation

wow okay. okay okay.

(i fear my prey-dean-core brain kicked in an cannot turn off so apologies that this one is gonna be slightly less hinged maybe)

anyway on that note. something about john saying this:

This ends, now. I'm ending it. I don't care what it takes.

and then dean coming into focus behind his shoulder really gets me.

there's so many cutting things about dean, sam, and john's conversation in the motel room.

JOHN: All right, something like this starts happening to your brother, you pick up the phone and you call me. DEAN: Call you? Are you kidding me? Dad I called you from Lawrence all right? Sam called you when I was dying. I mean, getting you on the phone? I got a better chance of winning the lottery. JOHN: You're right. Although I'm not too crazy about this new tone of yours, you're right. I'm sorry.

so things john wants to be called about: sam's visions. things john doesn't want to be called about: dean dying. like i know at this point john is actually more worried about the visions than either son's life but it's just so intense to have it confirmed like that.

and i LOVE that dean calls him out for it. i love that dean, who has been dealing with unreachable father who only seems to want a one-way communication system all season can finally express how fucked up that is! god i love him! this is what i meant last post about the fracture lines of their relationship. john describes the way dean's been acting as a "new tone." keep in mind dean has not pushed back very much against john - and yet, that is new.

now i don't usually spend much time talking about john's emotional landscape but i do think about it a lot (because i have MASSIVE DADDY ISSUES thanks for asking). and i find this line from later in that conversation very interesting.

JOHN: No Sam. I want to stop losing people we love. I want you to go to school, I want Dean to have a home. I want....I want Mary alive. It's just....I just want this to be over.

i mean i can and have pointed out all the ways and times john made choices that made those things unlikely and impossible. but i think the interesting thing here is that john genuinely wants this. i mean in 6.02, sam says that john always said hunting was temporary. 14.13 makes clear that john really did want a different future for his kids than the one he forced them into. to me i guess that is what makes him such a wholistic villain. he's acting out of crisis mode - all of the time. so he can always excuse the current cruelty or unfair situation his kids are experiencing because he's "doing the best he can" or "it's only temporary" or he "has no other choice" etcetera.

and not to get too much into it here but i think dean knows this about him and god that's such a sympathetic place to be honestly. like i can critique john till the cows come home but i won't for one second pretend i don't understand why dean empathizes with him. cause of course dean doesn't want his dad's life to be hard. he doesn't want anyone's life to be hard.

there's a theme i've been picking at through 1.11, 1.12, 1.16, 1.20, and now 1.21: dean slowly stopping believing john wants to keep him and sam safe. i mean john all but confirms that dean's life is not his priority at the beginning of the ep. but at the end of 1.16 and 1.20 we get another layer: dean still wanting to protect john himself. in 1.20 he says, "we're better as a family." and he disobeys john's orders in order to save him - clearly knowing that's at the risk of john being very angry.

i think this exchange really solidifies the two parts of this pattern:

DEAN: I'd feel a lot better if we were there backing him up. SAM: I'd feel a lot better if he were here backing us up.

dean doesn't reply. he just looks away.

dean's concern that john will throw his life away for revenge also extends to sam, who dean has to save from trying to run back into the burning house on the chance he could kill the demon.

it's interesting because between 1.09 and 1.21, dean symbolically saves each member of his family from the fire. in home, he saves the mom. in salvation, he carries the father and the baby out (again). however, he never symbolically saves the older sibling - i.e. himself.

it's interesting because the season ends with dean alone almost dying...

and i know. i know a lot of stuff happens after that and it all gets more complicated. but he can try to save his family and he can die for them but he cant save himself and so whose gonna save him? ANYWAY....

Sometimes I feel like I'm barely holding it together man...*

*man who has been concealing the cracks in himself all season. ough, oooof, owie, etc.

also when i said that dean is john's errand boy last time, i didn't realize that john is literally just like, "[did you] get it?" both times.

lastly, i have literally played myself bc i've done almost the whole first season rewatch notes and been yapping about dean and john and shit and now 1.22 is gonna hit me like that goddamn 18-wheeler.

[shirtlesssammy]

Dean Winchester every day -- 21/326

Supernatural 1x21//Salvation

[samepisodebracket]

Round 1; Group 37

[bonniehooper]

SUPERNATURAL REWATCH, 1x21: “Salvation”

-THE FIRST "ROAD SO FAR"!!!!!!

-Meg’s back!

-A pastor hunter?

-Meg: “You throw like a girl.” Really Meg?

-I think Meg wants to use you as a message my man.

-Oh God, that’s all Sam needs is more guilt!!

-Salvation, Iowa……as someone who lives in Iowa, there is no such place.

-That was pastor Jim at the beginning?!

-Well now I know where Dean and Sam get their inability to share their feelings from. John it’s okay to mourn your friend. It’s okay to have feelings!!

-And there goes Dean flirting again. He really never misses an opportunity, does he?

-Oh, damn, Sam hasn’t had a vision since the episode with Max, right?

-Yeah, okay Sam, don’t say anything weird to her.

-Oh God, the music box just stopping. That’s creepy as hell.

-Is it also a rule that the mothers that are killed have to be wearing the same nightgown as each other?

-John: “Something like this starts happening to your brother, you pick up the phone and call me.” Oh fuck you, John! He tried to call you. MULTIPLE TIMES!!!!!

-Dean: “Call you? Are you kidding me?” Get him Dean.

-Bitch, he can use whatever tone he wants with you John. Please fuck right off!!

-Damn Meg’s is such a bitch, but I love her.

-This family has so much trauma and they all seriously needed some therapy.

-Who is this guy? Meg really brought in another random demon to help her with this task?

-Of course, they slashed his tires.

-So, did Yellow Eyes get to drop any of his blood into the baby's mouth, or did they interrupt that? Because if he did then how come the show never went back to see if this little girl got powers in the future? Also, was Rosie the first one this round or were their others before her? If there were others, then how come we don’t hear about it in the future? I have so many questions now!!!!!

-Okay, I know Yellow Eyes was with the boys, but is this random demon that has John pinned against the wall, could he actually be Yellow Eyes?

-Oh shit, a “To Be Continued…” at the end. I can’t recall them doing that any other time in the series.

[bloodfreak-boyking]

"sometimes I feel like I'm barely holding it together man…and without you..."

"when it all came down to it, it was always you and me. It's always been you... and me."

[1x21 "Salvation", 15x20 "Carry On"]

[17yearslatewithlattes]

Alright I’ve suspected it this whole time but I’m taking a stance on it now. Dean doesn’t care about killing that demon anywhere near as much as keeping his family together and whole. Anywhere near as much as John or Sam do

[arcanespillo]

“Salvation”

Supernatural S1E21

[dean-winchester-pussy]

just finished 1x21 and 1x22. began going feral the moment "carry on wayward son" began to play at the beginning of "salvation". i figured that was pastor jim, sucks to be him and caleb. "smth like this happens to your brother, you pick up the phone and call me" hey john? remember when dean was literally dying and sam called you to tell you about it? and you didn't do a damn thing? glad dean made that point right after i paused it to rant about this. AND THEN DEAN SAYS "getting you on the phone, i've got a better chance at winning the lottery" AND JOHN FUCKING SAYS "you're right" I'M MURDERING THIS MAN. the holy water throughout the entire warehouse was a good idea ngl, but he shoulda figured out how to like tear it apart so the holy water would've sprayed directly at em.

"devil's trap" was sad bc doggie died :( and poor meg :( BUT BOBBY WAS HERE!!! i was really glad to see him :) but man. azazel was like "hm i'm gonna try and sound like what a good dad would sound like, i think" and dean spots the bullshit immediately because his dad isn't a good dad!!! and hey that was a horrible ending! what the fuck! at least i get to start season 2 in the morning. only two seasons left till i get to cas...

[onespncap]

s01e21 -- "Salvation"

[deanstudies101]

1x21, Salvation

Critical theory: Differing expectations—who is responsible for Sam? 

Key quotes: Pastor Jim, “Salvation was created for sinners.”; John, “I want you to go to school, and I want Dean to have a home.”; Dean, ”The three of us, it's all we have. It's all I have.”

Discussion: John is very willing to sacrifice himself in the same way that Dean is… but in this situation Dean isn’t willing for them to sacrifice themselves. They’ve already saved the people, he doesn’t need more than that. 

[seasononesam]

Stackednatural- 277/327

Salvation (1x21) April 27th, 2006