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sidesteppostinghours · 2 months ago

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ok. question.

ortega ended up hallucinating sidestep after they "died", but sidestep doesnt know about that. they know it got bad, but never the full extent of how their death affected them. so if your sidestep Did learn, if they found out ortega looked for them in every little piece they could, would that change anything for your sidesteps? would their relationship with ortega be any different?

#pulp speaks #Am i thinking of my “ortega sees sidestep posthb” fic again? perhaps #shameless plug btw yall should read it its called 'seen' on ao3 and i still like it #but anyway the important bits: ive been thinking about it with my sidesteps and its really interesting to me how different they are #but theyre all some variation of “i didnt know you /cared/”#caine is. uncomfortable with the idea #i genuinely dont know why but i do know that in the end their feelings on the matter are “whats done is done and im back now” with a small #“ill try not to leave again” mixed in #meanwhile cyrus is a deer in headlights over it #itd be way worse if he learned it when they met again- i feel like if he learned ortega was still that attached he wouldve left and never-#-come back. he would still want to Now but hes too tangled in his relationships and ortega is his /friend/ and leaving would just explode i #-his face‚ god Damnit ortega you son of a bitch‚ he shouldve just run. you werent supposed to drag him into caring about people again.#cecilia would have mixed feelings about it. i think shed resonate with it a lot for reasons she doesnt want to face #but it would also hit her like a goddamn Truck that he chose to move on/replace her rather than try get her back and its easier to get mad-#-about that than question her own feelings. but also maybe she could use this to her advantage? maybe this time he knows theres always a-#-chance hell come back for her next time. maybe. shes hoping there wont be a next time.#cynthias an interesting case because shes in love with ortega. deeply. but ortega /never came for her/ when she /promised/ and cynthia-#-is still furious about it #ortega hallucinated her in death but she couldnt put the pieces together and go looking herself? she cared enough to look for her but-#-not enough to save her?#she would still end up settling on bitterness for abandoning her but the information would shake her to her core #anyway. i think ortega should be used as a squeaky toy 👍#caine lynzal #cyrus becker #cecilia rider #cynthia garcia #ortega #sidestep #fhr

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