#*loud vocal stim*

[calcium-supplement]

god fucking dammit /neu/pos

i need to stim way more and way harder.

i just got off therapy appt and realized during it when talking about how dysregulated i am so much of the time, all of the brain hyperactivity and thought hyperconnectedness, that oh man a big part of this is my brain is overstimulating itself, and then, when doing some of the somatic physical/breathing exercises, *oh my god this is just stimming and i need to stim*.

i thought i was fully unmasked, i have already been stimming lots, ive ALREADY been doing what (seemed) NATURAL and good and whole, but theres still stuff being held back, still so much, still too much, and i need to fuckin YELL and SIGH and SHAKE and THUD and SWAY and MOVE and AUUUAGAHAGAHAGUHGFHHBGGHHHhhhhh....

so yeah uh. pointing at you the viewer

we have so much consciously and unconsciously holding us back from stimming and acting weird or concerning or irritating or scary to others. you are holding back stimming more than you know. please pleaspleaseplease try and build more opportunities and methods in so you can stim more than you think you need to

[dreamdropsystem]

vocal stims are NOT gross.

verbal stims are NOT annoying.

big stims are NOT aggressive.

loud stims are NOT embarrassing.

there's nothing wrong with stimming. nothing wrong with vocal or verbal stims. there's nothing wrong with big or loud stims.

you stim a little? that's cool.

you stim sometimes? that's cool.

you stim often? that's cool.

you stim constantly? that's cool too!!

as a level 2, mid to high support needs autistic system, we are still working on self injurious stimming for most alters in our system. if you are not hurting others our yourself, let yourself stim. do it alone if you got to, but there's NOTHING wrong with stimming in front of people. stimming is natural for many neurodivergent folks out there.

now at first we admit, stimming in public is scary. we don't go outside much, but when we delt with our regession, and couldn't mask constantly, we had our rehabilitation specialists that we felt safe around was there. we now stim pretty much freely in public, if we are feeling fearful of people looking, we will try to use fidget/stim toys. some alters will stim loud and big with fidgets too haha. some alters quite stim. some alters big stim.

regardless of how you stim you should be allowed to stim freely. forget what others think. we has the same issue with us bringing plushies with us in public. if it helps you, it doesn't matter what people think. we know on some level unmasking is hard, but you shouldn't feel ashamed to be youself.

anyways the point is as long as you are not hurting youself of others, you can stim as much as you like ♡ - The Dreamdrop System

art credit - Kateryna Davydenko

[princessnijireiki]

weirdest casualty of long Covid (besides. yk. the Incurable Disability) is in terms of linguistic processing I can truly no longer talk or sing as fast as I used to

not that I was super fast before, but one of the days I was sickest, words actually stopped... meaning anything? like I was at work, I was hitting my DT script, but was pushing through on pure muscle memory phonetically. I could process what I was hearing or reading just fine, but could not talk outside of this heavily repetitive workplace script, which is actually very dystopian now that I think about it. virus hitting the brain means I'm a zombie that can't speak except to say, "HIII :) whatcanIgetstartedferyouthismorning?"

anyway, thought it was just fatigue, but went to my car on my break, watched a trending video of people trying to rap along to Fergalicious at double speed. I could LIP SYNC to it just fine. I tested my theory. but I could NOT get my mouth and voice to work at the same time to actually sing/rap it. even now, tbh, I have to make myself NOT think about it while rapping it to get the words to flow out or I get stuck. like it's truly something in the brain for where you process speech, but not where you process just lyrical phonics like music. I have to consciously make a REAL effort to turn off the "word" part of my brain to be fast again.

I speak perfectly legibly, I can genuinely get up to decently fast normal talking speeds, just not Northeastern fast-fast. but it comes up in music a surprising amount, and it's kind of annoying to have lost as a skill.

[autisticdreamdrop]

vocal stims are valid!

verbal stims are valid!

big stims are valid!

loud stims are valid!

[thr4shit]

No, but seriously, can Prebrand please shut up???

S T O P –

CEASE AND DESIST???

[cb-writes-stuff]

[steady sick beat throughout]

Bop it!

(BSH)

Twist it!

(WRKRK)

Pull it!

(wuoOP!)

Punch it!

(BAP)

Beat it!

(PSH-PSH-PSH)

Kill it!

(AAAHH!!)

Drag it!

(Fffshh)

Bury it!

(Fwi-cchk)

Leave it!

(Chrk. RRREEAA-)

Forget it!

(Huh?)

[doriandreamz]

stimminggggggg (so hard my neck hurts lol)

[steampunkhobo]

You like the accents in OBWAT because they’re fun to laugh at…I like them because they are fun to imitate…we are honestly pretty similar

Can’t emphasize enough that these are all real stims 😭 I was trained to avoid physical stuff like hand flapping and rocking as a child so now this is how it manifests

[finniestoncrane]

running around in a circle tugging at my hair and holding back tears: too many things too many things too many things too many things too many thi

[confinesofmy]

i'm not allowed to listen to pink pony club anymore because i've sung it so many times i've developed what feels like a bruise in my chest. 😑 i've genuinely never had this problem with one of my on-repeats before.

[ribombeee]

re: special interests re: that freak from dungeon meshi, when i was a child i was so obsessed with the underland chronicles series by suzanne collins that i desperately wanted my 9th birthday party to be themed after it. with like giant cockroach and rat decorations

[rivertigo]

The Monkees

[keirawantstocry]

"not sleeping because of woke"

it took me a second to get that but I love that so much I think that's my favorite joke

i love inserting specific jokes into all situations 😊

[treasure-goblin]

...

AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

...

That is all

[autisticdreamdrop]

vocal stims are NOT gross.

verbal stims are NOT annoying.

big stims are NOT aggressive.

loud stims are NOT embarrassing.

we have tics. we vocal stim. we verbal stim. we have big stims. we have loud stims. we we're shamed for it by our mother. as we went through regession, the need to stim increased. we stim constantly.

there's nothing wrong with stimming. nothing wrong with vocal or vebral stims. there's nothing wrong with big or loud stims.

you stim a little? that's cool.

you stim sometimes? that's cool.

you stim often? that's cool.

you stim constantly? that's cool too!!

as a level 2, mid to high support needs autistic system, we are still working on self injurious stimming for most alters in our system. if you are not hurting others our yourself, let yourself stim. do it alone if you got to, but there's NOTHING wrong with stimming in front of people. stimming is natural for many neurodivergent folks out there.

now at first we admit, stimming in public is scary. we don't go outside much, but when we delt with our regession, and couldn't mask constantly, we had our rehabilitation specialists that we felt safe around was there. we now stim pretty much freely in public, if we are feeling fearful of people looking, we will try to use fidget/stim toys. some alters will stim loud and big with fidgets too haha. some alters quite stim. some alters big stim.

regardless of how you stim you should be allowed to stim freely. forget what others think. we has the same issue with us bringing plushies with us in public. if it helps you, it doesn't matter what people think. we know on some level unmasking is hard, but you shouldn't feel ashamed to be youself.

anyways the point is as long as you are not hurting youself of others, you can stim as much as you like ♡ - The Dreamdrop System

art credit - Kateryna Davydenko

[multi-lefaiye]

sometimes you have a trigger that cannot be reasonably and easily accommodated for, because it would require the people around you to police themselves to an extent that is not healthy for them to do.

that doesn't make your triggers and your trauma any less real or valid or *deserving* of accommodations, but deserving does not necessarily always mean that those accommodations are possible.

sometimes the best way to handle your triggers is to recognize what triggers you and do what you have to do to handle them when they come up. find coping mechanisms that work for you, and as much as you're able to, be open with the people in your life about it. even if they can't make sure you never have to interact with something that may trigger you, they can be a support system for you to ensure you'll survive the blows as they come.

it's not always possible to avoid what triggers you and it's not always possible for others to do that for you. (to be clear: i'm not at all saying people should *seek out* content that they *know* will trigger them or that they shouldn't remove themselves from situations that are triggering when they have the ability to do so, but that sometimes it's not that easy.)

(disclaimer: this is not psychological advice and i'm not saying this applies to everyone.)