#(me yapping abt how much I love my paracosm and paras)

[sillycyan]

「 Daydreamtober 2024 」

I'm using the prompts to write, explain, draw, or just daydream more about the first events or facts that come to me when I see the word. Some things will be longer or higher quality than others, so please bear with me a lil bit. I gotta post lore somehow..

⟻ Day 29 — Love ⟼ Word Count : 526

Originally, I was going to write about a pair of my paras and the connections they have with each other, but now I just want to talk about how much I love my paracosm as a whole..

It’s not perfect, but it’s always been this escape for me, where things are going better for other people. The worldbuilding is something I’ve poured so much time into, and my paras get to experience things that are kind of bits of my own life, but in ways that is their own..? I’ve done hours of research too. Law stuff, medical stuff, general historyyy, and I’m not doing it because I want to be a lawyer or doctor— Oh no no no, I’m doing it because I care. I care enough to get things right. I care to add realistic depth to this fictional world and build on what already exists.

I also looove the diversity of my paras and how I can see parts of myself in them. Ofc I project onto them, but it’s in a diff way that create a whole new reality for me. I love all 30+ of my paras, even the ones I don’t talk about much or hate or the ones with details too personal to share. It makes me happy when they have funny moments, serious moments, angsty moments, or when they learn something about themselves, or even fall in love.

Technically, I’m not in my paracosm, don’t really have a canon paraself, but I get this crazy view of them. All the miscommunications, their flaws. All from a perspective they’ll never understand yk? I see how they grew up and how it shaped who they are today, the people they surround themselves with, how they react to different situations. I can go on and on.. And every single day I put so much into each of them, and because they’re all reflections of me in their own ways, why wouldn’t I love them??? They’re not perfect, but they don’t have to be. They’re regular people and that’s what makes them worth of my loser loving.

I love that so much of my paracosm takes place in a city, because that’s what I’m used to. Sometimes there are more suburban scenes, but usually it’s in this city setting that just is more familiar for me. And I love how I throw in all these alternate universes alongside the main canon- like my personal ships and the stupid cuddle party AU, where everyone’s just this big platonic puddle of sleepiness. In that sort of world, no one’s worrying about work, bad relationships, or whether they remembered to feed their pet or not. It’s just pure cozy chaos where everyone is carefree and comfortable. It’s stupid, but I love that I can do that. I love my paras sighhh sighhh I love my paracosm sighh sighhh

This was originally going to be a much longer rant, but I gave up trying to edit my long rant of stuff I like about each of my paras... Also it wiped itself from the earth?? Maybe I'll do a separate post of me yapping about em—