#(feat. mei)

[mateoxdiaz]

a song my muse would dedicate to their loved ones

To Mei @themeixhuang 🤭

[devilsmenu]

@irresistiibles - Lucy & Mei Nianqing

"I would rather prepare for the worst before the worst happens" Lucy told the other. "Specially that this place can be weird from time to time".

[lehdenlaulu]

Oh dear, I hope someone let these guys have a break and catch some fresh air or a nap or go bang in some utility closet idk after this because the energy was definitely getting restless and not all that professional. 😆

[cloud-ya]

kurikara is actually mei's fursona (dragonsona??) - despairing fuhua anon

it's called scalie

[apieceofsushi]

PRSK x TBHK Role #13

Ena Shinonome as Shijima Mei

As the fourth school mystery, the supernatural is tied to the school through the rumor that due to her parents disapproval of her art, she killed herself, her ghost lingering around the art room, painting. While Nene comes to find that this isn't true, and rather, that Shijima's death was not of free will, the ghost still struggles with her role in the school. When she traps Nene and Emu in her "picture perfect" world, she is stunned by the two not wanting such a dream-like reality, even knowing Nene's secret. Even afterward, the latter wondered why the supernatural didn't appear sooner, but in time...

[jpopstreaming]

🆕 「 Tensai -Genius- feat. Mei Konno」 by Sean Oshima, Mei Konno Available for streaming worldwide!🌐 Added to our weekly playlist 🎧 https://spoti.fi/3lgjH73

[lint-beetle4]

Hai! I would like to request a genre I love: Powerful Being In Love With Human - for Wukong x Reader .

Just him being silly and dumb/dopey while crushing on a silly weird mortal while the Monkie gang tries to help wingman <3

A God's Touch (Sun Wukongx Reader Fluff)

I love this so much!

Wukong is notorious for being a silly, cheeky monkey

But never has been particularly dopey, there was always an air of grace and power to him

That all changed when he met you

There was something about you, something that made you slightly different than other mortals

Perhaps it was your connection with his student, perhaps it was just you

Either way, Wukong was acting a bit different once he met you

He'd be slightly more touchy, arms around your shoulder, a tight hug and slight purr from him

At some point his tail would just curl around your arm without him knowing

If you confronted him out it, Wukong would pull away in an instant with a face redder than a baboon's ass and apologies that would have the celestial realm jealous

Every word you said seemed to just charm the stone monkey further like sirens in the sea

It would've concerned Wukong more if he cared at all

No, instead all he wanted was you, to be with you, to care for you, and just have your presence with him as much as possible

Despite everything, Wukong never seemed to understand what a crush really was

Which meant MK and his friends would have to do the work for him and explain to the old monkey very gently that he was down bad for you

"So...What you're saying...Is that I'm in love." Wukong repeated to a very desperate MK. "That just doesn't make sense though."

"Monkey Man!" Mei groaned. "You literally just said that you wanted to be with them for all eternity! And, that's not love?"

"Well, how do you know it is love?"

"Do you just--chose not to listen to your body or something?" Pigsy muttered from behind the noodle shop's counter. "Jeez, you've been head over heels for them since you two met-- trust me, I know how it is."

"You've been more touchy with them than any of us." Tang explained further. "You practically melt if they so much as look as you."

Silence rang through the shop, a pregnant pause from the Monkey King before he sighed.

"So what do I do?" Wukong muttered, mostly to himself. "I'm not sure how humans court."

MK laughed, patting his mentor's back. "We got'cha, Monkey King! We'll schedule a date night how about that?"

Thus the night was planned to be held privately, lest the monkey's stage freight get the better of him. Nevertheless, Wukong's nerves still got to him as he walked up as stiff as a board with a smile that screamed fear.

Yet, at the sight of your elegant appearance, at the sight of you and your wonderful face, Wukong relaxed, taking everything in his usual stride.

"So...That's what happened!" Wukong laughed, retelling the slightly embarrassing tale.

Your laugh was like the beautiful symphony of chiming bells to him, and as you recovered from your hysteria, Wukong listened to your words eagerly, taking in your voice as if it were an oasis in a desert.

"Y'know--" Wukong chuckled, looking at you with fond eyes. "You really are wonderful...I--I wouldn't mind if we could try things out."

Your answer was a simple one--after all, the Great Sage Equal To Heaven, courting a simple human like you.

"You're not simple." Wukong interrupted with a mutter. "You're...everything."

It was truly a nearly impossible feat to have the king so deeply entranced with you. You never thought you'd see the day where Sun Wukong would confess--to you of all people. Yet, as your fingers run through his soft mane, as his purrs rumbled through your body and his arms hugged you as if you'd disappear.

You felt as if you'd been blessed by the celestial realm itself.

[confetti-dragon]

pose practice feat. my dragon mei design

[devilsmenu]

"A crash and a whine?" Harriet asked with a frown. "This noise was on the gym?".

@devilsmenu continued from here

"Oh. . .I heard a crash and a whine so I thought something happened. My mistake." Shi Mei could've sworn he heard something happened

[the-ultimate-puppeteer]

can you do mei mei from jjk with a shy s/o

•Oh you poor poor Soul, I don't know whether to congratulate you or mourn for you

•You somehow caught the attention of this money worshiping goddess

•Well just know that you're never getting away from her

•It's rare that anything ever catches her attention outside of getting money and it was you of all people

•If you were a non-sorcerer then this is an amazing near godlike feat cause they're are so few ways you'd ever be able to even meet her

•Of you're a jujutsu sorcerer or Curse user then it makes way more sense in how you met

•So it's needless to say your gonna be spoiled by this woman

•Even If you try to protest saying that you didn't need all the things she gets you it's no use

•Of you're a sorcerer and if you're on the weak side she's probably gonna try to train you up

•The more obvious reason is so you don't die by a curse and you can even help her in battle

•The other reasons… well she doesn't want her darling S/O to break from all the things she wants to do with him

•Mei Mei is the type to flirt and tease so I see you as being in an almost constant flustered state when with her it's just how it's gonna be

•She's also pretty affectionate since she's not afraid to show her love for you and also mark her territory, your hers and she'll make sure everyone knows it

[ddejavvu]

mei!!!! i just graduated university today!!

now all i need is just the wonderful james potter bc i know that man would be so proud to see his girl graduate

baby CONGRATS!!!! i'm so proud of you, and you're right, james would be too <3

--

You see James barreling towards you from a mile away - it's hard to miss bouncing curls and a bright smile. It means you're expecting his attack, but you're by no means ready for it.

"James," You gush as he nears, but he doesn't slow down and your eyes widen as he collides with you, "Oh!"

You grip onto his muscled biceps but you don't need to; he catches you around your waist before you can fall. Your grip does help, though, when he abandons your waist for your face, gripping your cheeks and tugging you into the kiss of a lifetime.

If 4 years of university was the price for the mind-melting, spine-tingling, heart-pounding kiss James is suffocating you with, you'd do it over again. You clutch desperately at his arms and let him pull you impossibly closer, his lips pressed between your own over and over and over again.

"James," You murmur, after a moment of stunned silence, "I need-" He kisses you again, but you tap his chest. it takes you gripping his cheeks and pulling him backwards to get you oxygen, and you pant against his chest while he catches his own breath.

"I need to breathe," You laugh, giddy as you wrap your arms around him, "I did it! I graduated!"

"You did it," James crushes you in a hug, and now that his lips aren't on yours anymore, they're just about everywhere else. On your head, on your cheek, on your temple, on your nose, until you catch them when they aim for your chin in another shared kiss.

James is more than happy to resume his initial celebration, and you hear the click of a camera shutter to your left. You peer sideways, a difficult feat when James's hair is spilling into your vision, and see Sirius and Remus, grinning with cameras and flowers.

"Congrats!" Sirius holds up the bouquet, and Remus snaps another picture, "I was gonna give you a hug, but I'll let your boyfriend eat your face off, first."

"Can it," James snaps in a rare pause in your kiss, still holding your face, "If it was Remus you'd drop to your knees behind the bleachers. Lemme kiss my girl."

[camlyee]

drawing dump, feat. aventurine and kitty ratio + my ocs as ruan mei’s creations

note: the second kitty oc belongs to my friend @march1dan :]

[devilsmenu]

@ofxscavengcrs - Mei & Raven

Meu still find it out to appear in DC. Not like she wasn't used to creep things after everything she been through but was still odd, especially because she wasn't on Japan anymore. And she wasn't used to the place yet. And now she needed to be social, which wasn't easy for her, she didn't trust anyone so easily and most of times were careful choosing her friends. But, well, if she wanted to get something here she needed to get by. "Excuse me" the eyepatched girl said to the other softly and a bit shyly. "Do you know where is the closest art exhibition?".

[lehdenlaulu]

So much to unpack here:

Jessie said Malkolai rights

Poor Ben is salty and a little jealous 🤭

Ben applauding Paddy's abs and correctly guessing no one cares what's going on plot-wise in that scene 😂

And supporting Dark Alina, black leather and all 🖤

Also Ben and Jessie are getting very loud, just saying

And poor Paddy is saddled with the third-wheeling duty, Daisy at least is probably used to this

He has such sweet little himbo energy though, it's pretty adorable

[bbkissme99]

F/F nsfw recs

jjk women in bed | visuals | 18+ only

wlw

𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞

Mei Mei

HEDONISTIC MEI MEI X FEM READER

Mei Mei + mommy kink

𖤐 — nsfw, pussy eating, pussy fingering, filming, mei mei is bad asf

attending a gala with mei mei

Mei feeding you with cocktail and fruit

Shoko+Mei Mei x GN!Reader

three is a crowd | mei mei & s. gojo

Yuki

₊ ⊹ 🦢 Missed your touch

Shoko

SHOKO NSFW HEADCANONS [f!reader]

𝙎𝙃𝙊𝙆𝙊 𝙄𝙀𝙄𝙍𝙄 𝙎𝙈𝙐𝙏

Shoko kissing you so hard

two stressed, hot babes (you and shoko)

FORBIDDEN FRUIT

𝐅𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐘Pairing: Shoko Ieiri x f!Reader

Somnophilia Shoko Ieiri x AFAB!Reader

golden love, shoko ieiri

The Insincerity of the Stars Chapter Warnings: Smut, Shoko x f!Reader

Just thinking about Shoko (and eating her out)

Gojo sneaks into your dorm cause he sort of “misses” you. Oh, and Shoko’s there too.

Being dommed by both Utahime and Shoko sounds like a dream

You and Shoko have been best friends for 6 years.

synopsis: two stressed, hot babes (you and shoko) decide to have spontaneous one night stand in a car

Utahime:

3some w shoko and utahime 🦪

Feat: Shoko X Fem!Reader X Utahime

making a usually cranky utahime really desperate

Utahime Brainrot

Show Off - Utahime

thinking about having a fwb relationship with your roommate utahime

threesome with utahime and miwa

miwa being introduced to toys out of utahime’s private collection.

You look so beautiful, dear.”

there’s-only-one-bed-trope

siren!Utahime,

utahime in a sundress

Maki:

girl 𝙢𝙖𝙠𝙞 𝙯𝙚𝙣'𝙞𝙣 𝙭 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧

[INVIDIA] MAKI ZENIN X FEM! READER

Maki Ze’nin eats pussy like a heathen.

⌗︙・maki complimenting you ⸜⸜・

maki buys a new toy and insists to try it out on you tonight

What Roommates Do

and they were roommates

every single drop

pussy eating with maki!

Bimbo

how maki zenin eats you out 

jjk girls - how are they in bed

sucking on maki's titties

car sex

soft dom!maki zen'in,

Maki (jjk) using a strap or cursed cock to please her gf

“Be a good girl/boy for mommy/daddy.”

E sex (Maki zenin x f!reader)

Zen’in Maki x Reader

jennifer's body - z.maki

maki (jjk) + empty lecture hall

++ 𝐌𝐀𝐊𝐈 𝐙𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍 — 𝐉𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐘

Maki x Nobara (x Reader)

Every Girls Dream Maki zenin x F!Reader x Nobara Kugisaki

𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐒𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 || 𝐌��𝐤𝐢 𝐙𝐞𝐧𝐢𝐧 𝐱 𝐅𝐞𝐦!𝐫𝐞𝐚����𝐞𝐫 𝐱 𝐍𝐨𝐛𝐚𝐫𝐚 𝐊𝐮𝐠𝐢𝐬𝐚𝐤𝐢

nobamaki smut

lyou ride Maki while Nobara ...

maki's angels

Maki and Nobara taking good good care of you in bed and outside of it

More

nobamaki thirsting

𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐝𝐮𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐢 𝐳𝐞𝐧𝐢𝐧」

Nobara

𝙇𝙖𝙩𝙚 𝙉𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝘼𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙚𝙨 Nobara x reader

First Nobara x Fem! Reader — college AU

kugisaki nobara x curvy!f!reader

mommy dommy Nobara?

𝗦𝘁𝗲𝗽𝗺𝗼𝗺!𝗡𝗼𝗯𝗮𝗿𝗮 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗯𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗳𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗠𝗮𝗸𝗶 𝗯𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗱 𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗻𝗲𝘄 𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗽𝗰𝗵𝗶𝗹𝗱.

Ownership Nobara x Fem!Reader Oneshot

cw: sub!nobara , soft!dom!reader, cunnilingus, fingering

First

nobara kugisaki + mutual masturbation

face sitting, chubby reader, pet play

Step sister Nobara x fem!reader

soaked

kugisaki x fem!reader

railing kugisaki

Nobara decides to have some fun with you in public

Imagine being Nobara’s senpai & guiding her through her first time

siren nobara

[selfaware-bungou-stray-dogs]

Anime Convention (feat. someone real). Interlude I

Self-Aware! Ayatsuji Yukito x GN! Reader

Description of Interlude I:

Cats can be mischievous thieves. And, sometimes, they could steal something interesting.

Ayatsuji try to make sense of what he has learned and take a trip down the memory line.

🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️

For Ayatsuji Yukito, self-awareness was a blessing. For Ayatsuji Yukito, Real World is big and unexplored. Yukito Ayatsuji must learn, how to interact with Real World.

Yukito Ayatsuji has two cats. And there is only one can of cat food left. He also has almost no tobacco left.

He needs to face Real World and went to the store.

He is lucky, that Guiding Light is also home.

A.K.A. Shy and timid Reader are more important, than they think they are.

🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️

Ayatsuji's P.O.V.

Warning: OOC. English is my second language. Slight mentions of stalking (BSD Cast had access to Reader's messenger and phone). Reader have some negative feelings towards them. Reader try to be better.

Set at the same time, as Part I, and flashback took place two weeks before Part I. [Before people started gossip about Reader, but, after people saw Albatross and Doc]

Mall trip incident described here

<| Part 1 |_________| Part II | >

___________

Ayatsuji was sitting in his chair, reading a book [Y/N] gave him. To be more specific, it was a library book, that Ayatsuji wanted to read and that was put under [Y/N]'s name. The book was a compilation of mystery novels by different authors.

It not only was a way to spend time for Ayatsuji. It was a “training”. Training, before Ayatsuji could read a book with his name on a cover.

He knew, that there was a specific someone in this world. Author. Reason, why Ayatsuji existed in the first place. The reason, why his ability was named Another, why his ability worked the way it worked. Author was the reason of everything, that was happening with Ayatsuji Yukito.

Ayatsuji can't say, for sure, who exactly he meant by “Author”. His namesake… Or…

Meowing, that came from the door to Ayatsuji's room grabbed his attention. Meowing sounded odd. Like it was muffled. Ayatsuji knew too well, what it means. Cats were back from “treasure hunting” and wanted to show him, what they have found.

Ayatsuji put a bookmark between pages and closed the book. He signed and looked at his cats. Mei and Misaki¹ were good cats, but, sometimes, they liked to steal something to show their master.

Ayatsuji blamed Karl and Poe for that behavior. Karl often brought things to Poe, and Poe also asked Karl to bring small things to Ranpo. This behavior rubbed on Ayatsuji's cats, and they started to act the same way. The only problem was that Ayatsuji didn't ask for anything to be brought to him. Unfortunately, cats refused to stop. The list of stolen things already included Dazai's bolo tie, Q's doll, Ranpo's glasses, Kunikida's notebook and Yosano's hairpin. Thankfully, cats were careful, and all things were returned to their owners good as new.

“What did you two steal this time?” mumbled Ayatsuji, standing up.

Mei, black cat, meowed again. She was holding a few papers in her mouth. No, not just papers. There were some text on them. A document?

Misaki, a calico cat, pawed on the corner of the document. Before cats could damage it, Ayatsuji took it away. Cats looked at Ayatsuji, waiting for a praise. Ayatsuji crook an eyebrow.

“You do realize, that earlier we will have to apologize for your behavior, right?”

Cats looked unbothered by it. Ayatsuji sighs and adjust his glasses. He starts reading the document's text.

“Okay, who it belongs to…” Ayatsuji's eyes widened. It was a rent contract. With [Y/N]'s name on it. And it wasn't expired.

“They're still keeping their old apartment… Why?” whispered Ayatsuji. His gaze stopped on the rent's price. It was higher, that before.

All of them knew, how much you paid for your previous apartment. You always send screenshots, proves of successful payments, to your landlord.

Why were you renting an apartment you didn't use?

Cats rubbed against his back. They looked at their master, waiting for something. For praise, or… For an order?

Ayatsuji took his phone and took a picture of the contract. He kneeled before his cats, holding contact towards them.

“Mei, Misaki, thank you. Now, please, took it back where you found it. And I… I need to go to my collection.”

The cats purred, and Misaki took the document in her mouth. Ayatsuji and both cats left the room. Mei and Misaki ran towards [Y/N]'s room. With the corner of his eye, Ayatsuji noticed a familiar striped tail. That explained, how his cats managed to open whatever drawer, where [Y/N] hid the contract.

_____

Ayatsuji Yukito was glad, that he was able to took his collection here. It helps him think.

Surrounded by puppets, he sat in an armchair. His eyes were closed.

“Why… Why [Y/N] are keeping the apparent?” Ayatsuji mumbles under his breath.

Did [Y/N] leave something in the old apartment, that they can't move to the new house? Unlikely. Ayatsuji remembered the day they helped [Y/N] with moving out. All furniture and washing machine belonged to the landlord. The biggest and heaviest of Guiding Light's belongings were a mini fridge, microwave, mini stove and vacuum cleaner. They and the rest of [Y/N]'s belongings were transported in Annie's room and didn't take too much of a space.

So, not it.

Are [Y/N] planning to leave them? Did he and others do something wrong? Were they too forward? Are [Y/N] afraid of them?

Should Ayatsuji confront [Y/N]? Should he tell others?

Ayatsuji shook his head.

Stop. He is getting too worked up. No. He should start with the first question.

Are [Y/N] planning to leave them?

Ayatsuji opened his eyes and focused on one of the dolls. The first new addition to his collection.

Present from [Y/N].

🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️🕶️

/Two weeks ago/

Mei and Misaki were rubbing against his legs, waiting for their food.

Ayatsuji send a quick glance towards his pets, smiling slightly, but frowned, when he looked at the shelf in kitchen's cabinet, where animal food were kept.

Enough raccoon's food and birds' seeds.

And only one can of cat food left.

Enough for today. But he had to buy more.

Had to go outside, to the pet store, and buy more cat food.

Mechanically, he opened the can, put food in two bowls and put them down on the floor. Mei and Misaki purred gratefully, before digging in. Ayatsuji pet both cats, looking out the window.

Outside… All of them fight tooth and nail to get into the real world. Not only to see Guiding Light, but to finally start living their lives.

Who could guess, that they would be horrified of the real world.

Ayatsuji wasn't an exception. He was also nervous about the Real World.

And “Another” wasn't the reason for his fear.

At first, self-awareness was “shocking, but it doesn't change things for me”.

Ayatsuji, back in their world, was forced to stay away from most people. Even after they gained self-awareness, he was forced to stay away.

His uncontrollable ability could still work on others. No one would want to find out, what would happen, if Ayatsuji saw some event in the manga, that makes his ability activate.

Ayatsuji can't blame them. No one wants to die.

When Oda Sakunosuke, Shibusawa Tatsuhiko and André Gide returned to life, after Guiding Light got their cards, the experiments began.

Soon, others dead characters returned to life.

And Ayatsuji was finally part of the group. Now the results of his ability could be “fixed”.

Still, Ayatsuji could hear them. Whispers about him. If he should be allowed in real world. Specifically, if his ability should be allowed near Guiding Light.

If someone started a vote on “Should Ayatsuji be left behind”, Ayatsuji himself would say “yes”. He wanted to go to the Real World, have a full life, met Guiding Light (or Porcelain Treasure, that's how he called them, after hearing from Tsujimura about 'personal nicknames for Guiding Light'), but, he also didn't want to harm Guiding Light. What if they were a criminal? He didn't want to pay for their kindness with murdering them!

The situation was resolved in an interesting way.

They believed, that cards affected only 'dead' characters. They were wrong.

Ango, when he was trying to raise Guiding Light's chances on getting Yosano's cards, discovered, that they could change their abilities for a bit.

Ayatsuji was among people, who wanted to have their abilities changed. He only asked for one thing. To have control over his ability.

And it was time to wait. He could test, if changed works only in Real World.

He was grateful, that the only crime [Y/N] have committed were a crime of adorableness. At least, if changes didn't work, [Y/N] won't be harmed.

They only need to find a criminal.

With some fake documents and snooping around the police station, Ayatsuji managed to find one. A burglar, who break in a house, steal everything and murdered owners.

And when Ayatsuji explained in great details, how he solved the case, he felt it.

His ability was waiting for his command to be activated.

Changes worked.

Self-awareness was a blessing for Yukito Ayatsuji. His ability wasn't a problem anymore.

Now, there is just one issue was left.

All this people, that lived in real world.

All of them knew, how crowded and loud cities are. It was a well known fact, one of many bits of information, that were there, the moment they became self-aware. Knowledge, they were born? with created to have?

Despite “Yokohama” being a dead city. No other people, except them, no other animals, except Karl, Mei and Misaki.

Only almost two years of silence. For two years, they only have each other and Their Guiding Light.

And then, the Real World greeted them with noises. With stable day and night cycle. With animals and people. Full of life.

And this life was scary and unfamiliar.

Ayatsuji felt, like he was a sheltered child, who was taught about the outside world, but never was allowed to take a step outside. And after years of sheltered life, he was kicked in the middle of “reality” and now must live in almost unfamiliar world.

Ayatsuji shook his head, chasing away the flood of memories and thoughts. No matter, how much he was nervous to go outside, he has to buy cat food.

He will simply grab his coat and wallet and go to the pet store, while smoking his pipe.

********

He was out of tobacco. Now, he has to go to one more store.

“Just two shops. Everything will be fine…” Mumbled Ayatsuji under his breath. He was sitting in the living room, trying to get a hold on himself. He was so deep in thought, he didn't notice, that he got a company.

“Ayatsuji… Are you okay? You look nervous.” the voice, that became so familiar and dear for the last two years, was coming from behind.

Ayatsuji turned around, looking at [Y/N]. They tilted their head, a concerned expression was clear on their face. Ayatsuji couldn't help, but smile slightly. He skipped his normal distant and cold attitude. Jouno's warning was fresh in his mind.

“Mind what you said around [Y/N]. Their heartbeat… They accept all our words for truth.”

“I am fine. I'm simply trying to get enough courage to step outside and do some shopping.”

[Y/N]'s concern was replaced with worry.

“Courage?” 

Ayatsuji shrugged his shoulders.

“Mhm. Real World is too loud to immediately accept it. But I need cat food and tobacco right now, and have no time to wait before I get used to the real world.”

For one second, [Y/N]'s expression changed. Ayatsuji couldn't put his finger, on what emotion it was. 

or, perhaps, he knew this emotion too well, but didn't want to admit, that [Y/N] felt the same emotion

Nevertheless, the emotion was gone, and [Y/N]'s expression became determined.

“Do you want some company?” they asked, taking a step forward. “I need to get a package from the post office, besides, I am currently free, so, I can go with you… If you want, of course.” Immediately add [Y/N]. 

Ayatsuji thought about the proposal. It would be good to have [Y/N] near. Someone, who was comfortable in Real World. Ayatsuji nodded with a smile.

“Thank you, I will be happy, if you join me.” 

For one second, [Y/N] looked shocked, but, quickly, smiled in return.

“Got it. Give me a minute, I will be ready in a minute.” [Y/N] turned on their heels and headed to their room, only to be stopped by Ayatsuji. Detective put his hand on [Y/N]'s shoulder.

“Wait, [Y/N], do you think, I should change my outfit? I don't want to grab people's attention.” Ayatsuji shivered involuntarily. Gogol's story about that trip to the mall was an unpleasant but important warning. When you go out onto the streets of this world in your ordinary outfit, you can expect a wave of fans with a desire to take pictures and touch you, people who consider you a pervert and accusations of satanism.

[Y/N] were silent. They looked at him from top to bottom, then walked around him, taking a good look at his clothes.

Half-rimmed, light-colored sunglasses, white shirt with a vermilion-based checkered border and a gray knit vest, dull orange checkered knickerbocker pants, and beige boots. Ayatsuji decided to add something.

“I will wear my hat and coat.”

 [Y/N] nodded, stepping once again before him, then took their phone and started to type something. After a moment, [Y/N] looked away from the screen.

 “Hey, Ayatsuji, can you please take your glasses off? Okay, thanks. Now, please, put them on again. Thanks again.”

 [Y/N] put their phone back.

 “You don't necessary need to change your outfit. I don't think, that you would get too much attention. But, if you are worried, I think, you could change your coat and vest. You can keep hat and glasses. If someone asks about eye color, tell them, you are wearing contacts.” 

 Ayatsuji raised an eyebrow.

 “But with Gogol…”

 [Y/N] raised their hands, shushing Ayatsuji.

 “Gogol's looks are… I mean, he is… You are… Umf…” [Y/N] hide their face in both hands, breathing heavily. After a minute, [Y/N] spoke again. They were speaking slowly, choosing words carefully.

 “Gogol are well-known among… other fans… You are… Details of Kyougoku's case aren't known by everyone… I guess.”

 [Y/N] looked up. They looked extremely guilty.

“What I mean… If we didn't run into hard fans, we would be okay. I think.”

'Why [Y/N] looked like they are on a verge of crying?' ignoring the thought, Ayatsuji hummed.

“Understand… Thanks for your advice, [Y/N]. Let's meet near the front door in ten minutes.”

[Y/N] nodded and hurry to their room.

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You washed your face with cold water. Familiar feeling of helplessness and disgust squeeze your insides.

You almost (if not already) messed up. First, you thought, that someone was rude to Ayatsuji and that's why he didn't want to go outside. Then, you had to mentioned BSD Media fact. Ayatsuji and others have enough on their plate, and don't need any reminders about their origins from you.

you didn't regret of offering help that's what friends do

They would be right, if they choose to leave you. If thinking rationality…

You splash more cold water on your face. You need to remember psychology books you like to read.

Your negative feelings were unhealthy, and you really need to control your habit of trying to rationalize your feelings and find “logical” reason to fell/ not to feel/express/not express them.

You will go with Ayatsuji to the mall, you will be happy, and you won't mess it just by being near.

“You are an interesting person, you are an interesting person, you can keep friends…” you repeated this sentence like mantra, while getting ready.

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Shopping trip went, mostly, smoothly. As [Y/N] predicted, no one was bothered by Ayatsuji's appearance. People didn't pay any attention to him and [Y/N]. They were just another people in a crowd.

*******

You were glaring at the cans of cat food, Ayatsuji choose, like they were your worst enemies. Without warning, you turned your head towards Ayatsuji.

“Ayatsuji, if remember correctly, Pushkin will do the cooking tomorrow, right?”

Ayatsuji nodded.

"Yes. Something wrong with it?"

You point at the can.

"No. But, just you know, that tomorrow your cats will have duck with wild berries, while we'll munch on plain pasta with sausages."

And Ayatsuji saw it in [Y/N]'s eyes. They were waiting for something. And they were nervous. Ayatsuji chuckled.

"Agree, people, who produce cat food, really should mind, how to name their products."

Happiness, that shined in [Y/N]'s eyes were the biggest reward he could ever ask for.

***********

You didn't comment on tobacco he bought. Right after leaving the shop, Ayatsuji filled his pipe, light it and start smoking. 

Tobacco from Real World felt different. And Ayatsuji prefer it to whatever he smoked back in “Yokohama”.

Suddenly, [Y/N] let out a quiet laugh.

“You remind me of Sherlock Holmes."

Ayatsuji pulled deeply on his pipe, before asking.

"Of whom?"

In one second, your expression from happy became guilty.

"Genius detective, who smokes and wears a hat. Didn't I... watched something about him, while you were... I am sorry..."

That expression again. The expression of shame. Without hesitation, Ayatsuji put his hand on [Y/N]'s head, ruffling their hair.

"Don't sweat it, Porcelain Treasure. All of us, you included, have a long way before us. There's nothing wrong with keeping our origins in mind. Or we would have another "Gogol's shopping trip" incident.

He could feel, how [Y/N]'s cheeks were burning with embarrassment. They still weren't used to nicknames. 

"If I insisted on him wearing a disguise..."

Ayatsuji rolled his eyes and flicked [Y/N]'s nose.

Yup, they were burning with embarrassment.

"Okay, hush. Don't put the weight of our decisions on you. Otherwise, we will never learn."

[Y/N] opened their mouth to say something else, but change their mind and stay silent. 

'Okay, now, to change the subject' 

"So, can you tell me more about that Sherlock Holmes guy? He sounded interesting." Ayatsuji observed [Y/N]'s reaction. 

'Why do they look... defeated?'

"He is a book character... Created by Arthur Conan Doyle. I should have one of the books at home. I can give it to you..." it looks like [Y/N] were trying to say as less as they can. 

'Come on, I see, that you want to say more! I want to hear you! I want to talk to you!'

Ayatsuji squeezed [Y/N]'s shoulder. 

"Tell me more, please. I want to know more."

**********

Ayatsuji was waiting outside the post office, trying to hide his smile. Hearing [Y/N]'s passionate speech about Doyle, mystery novels and Sherlock Holmes were a real treat. [Y/N]'s eyes shined, when they were talking about things they liked. And when Ayatsuji paid attention and asked questions.

You still had a big smile on your face after you finished your businesses in the post office and returned to him, holding a big package in your arms.

************

Ayatsuji didn't expect that [Y/N] will come to his room later that day. They were holding a cardboard box into your arms.

"Hey, Ayatsuji, I have a present for you."

They hand him the box. 

It was a ball-jointed doll. The box looked old, but the doll looked good as knew.

"You like it?" [Y/N] sounded nervous. Ayatsuji nodded. 

"Yes. Thank you, [Y/N]." He smiled warmly at them. [Y/N] returned the gesture.

"You are welcome. Don't be bothered by an old box. This doll were with me for many years now."

Ayatsuji raised an eyebrow.

"Favorite toy?" Ball-jointed dolls wasn't that good for playing with them, but, maybe...

[Y/N] shook their head.

"No. Present from distant relative. My parents kept it hidden. They wanted to keep it for 'better times'. You have no idea how much I wanted to play with it. I often looked at the box, dreaming about playing with it. But, my father always said, that doll was a possible investment in my future." [Y/N] let out a quiet chuckle.

'They wanted to sell it in a future' mentally translated Ayatsuji. Meanwhile, [Y/N] continue talking.

"But, now, I am an adult, it belongs to me, I am the only one, who can decide, what to do with it."

Ayatsuji put box on the table.

"Are you sure? It seems, doll was important to you."

[Y/N] just waved their hand.

'They looked confident'. They are sure.'

"I am sure. Among two of us, you will be the one, who can truly appreciate the doll."

"Thank you again." Ayatsuji nodded slightly in appreciation.

[Y/N]'s smile was bright.

"You are welcome."

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Ayatsuji was gently holding his new doll.

"No. They aren't planning to leave."

In a quiet basement, Ayatsuji's voice sounded louder, that it really was.

But it means that...

He should face it. Few things, that Ayatsuji willingly ignore.

[Y/N]'s nervousness and fear.

And almost empty chat list. With chats, where [Y/N] were ignored.

Bruises, Doc were talking about.

And that little fleeting expression on [Y/N]'s face. Expression, that was too familiar to Ayatsuji Yukito. Expression, he sometimes saw in the mirror, before he stopped constantly thinking about his ability. Expression, that he saw on Gide's and Verlaine's faces.

It was an expression of self-resentment. Of self-disgust.

"Why? Why can't you see, what a great person you are?" whispered Ayatsuji. "Who... Who did this to you, [Y/N]? What could we do to help you?"

There were no answers. For now.

Ayatsuji put the doll back, leaving the basement.

Flags must return soon. They wanted to investigate your workplace.

First steps were made.

As he said, they have a long way ahead of them. He and others should learn to live in the Real World. [Y/N] should get used to have them in their live.

And Ayatsuji and others should show [Y/N], that they won't be alone and won't be ignored anymore.

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¹As long as I knew, Ayatsuji's cats don't have official names. So, I decided to named them after Misaki Mei, Main Character of “Another” novel.