Anyone else get to a point in lesbian gender weirdness that makes you incapable of being attracted to straight girls? Like as a lesbian I'm specifically attracted to people who have a similar gender to me, and being sapphic makes up such an important part of my gender that I can't consider someone who's not wlw to even be in the same realm. Straight women are definitely not the same gender as me, and non-wlw nonbinary people aren't really either. Nonbinary is an umbrella term after all, and in my case the gender under that umbrella is "dyke." To me that means that other sapphics, whether they're nonbinary, transfem, or cis, are automatically gonna be closer in gender to me than anyone else. I can't be attracted to straight girls
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Caught You, Again
âYouâre eyes seem to be wandering yet again, and your cheeks are redder than rubies.. You just never get tired of me, do you?
summary: You and Gun have been in the same class since the eight grade, and you developed a little crush on him that same year. Once the ninth grade started and you two had been paired as seat mates, you started to drop subtle hints here and there with the idea of your little crush on him for the past year. Gun notices this and takes it as an opportunity to constantly tease you about it jokinglyâ until, he was no longer joking, and made a move by asking you out which then ended with you becoming his first and last girlfriend, because he made you into his first and forever wife. Yet, he never fails to see you in the not so hidden act of admiring him, which has him calling you a âsimp,â and he continues to tease you for it.
character(s) included: Park Jonggun x fem!reader
cw: fluff, teasing, playful and flirtatious gun, gun is nice, swearing, use of Y/N, mentions of physical fights gun gets into, mentions of blood/bleeding/bruises, couple nicknames, kissing, established relationship, idk much about weddings, VERY SUGGESTIVE TOWARDS THE END!! this is really long tbh đđ
unwrapped on: Saturday Night, December 03 2023
wrapped up on: Sunday Evening, April 28 2024
published on: Sunday Evening, April 28 2024
âNeed something?â Your seat mate suddenly questioned you as he shrugged a brow at you, who was blankly staring at him, obviously lost in your thoughts.
âO-uhâ No!â You quickly replied and zoned back into reality, âSorry, I was just thinking, I didnât notice tha-â You added before he cut you off and said,
âIf you like me, you could just say soâ You wouldnât be the first girl to confess to me this school year.â
âWha-! Talk about confident, also itâs literally the second week of the ninth grade..â You scoffed, a little nervous considering you have liked him since the eight grade so he technically wasnât wrong.
âThat isnât a no~â He replied with a tint of his usual smirk.
âWel-â You tried to speak right before he interrupted you once more âEnough with the excuses already, itâs boring.â
âŠ
âWell?â He added and you responded with, âWell.. What I was trying to sa-â Ding, Ding, Dingâ You were interrupted once again, but this time, by the bell. And it was now lunch time, so you two went your separate ways.
That was one of the occasional conversations you had with Gun, it just so happens that you two have been paired as seatmates since the eight grade and therefore, had to have spoken to one another atleast a number of times by now. They were just meaningless and short interactions that was just another way to kill time for him, yet those little conversations and interactions meant the world to you.
Fast forward into the school year and currently, itâs almost the fourth month of schoolâ all of your classmates along with the new/transfer students have gotten to know each other, and it just so happens that you and Gun have started to talk more aswell. From little âHey, about the homework-â, âSince were the next pair whoâll discuss, how about we-â, and âCould I borrow an extra pen, if youâve got one?â To âWhat did you get for this number..?â, âLetâs hang out at my place, we could also plan our discussion for english tomorrow.â, which also turned to him simply grabbing things out of your bag when he pleases.
The formal little questions heâd usually ask you were starting to turn casual and friendly, not only his words but his tone is shifting as well.
You never thought youâd be invited to his place so casually and heâd lend you his jacket whenever you two are hanging out. Although, he insists you keep all of them since he loves the way it looks on you. It was weird. It was all so weird. So many girls like him, heâs constantly got girls dreaming to be around him as much as you get to be. Now, if you think about itâ you never actually see ANY girls approaching him or hanging around him at all, aside from you, that is. People are constantly telling you about how you two must be dating, well you arenât, but heâs never actually denied it either. He continues to tease you almost everyday and it just has you falling for him even more.
âY/N?â Gun suddenly called out to you while you were walking out of the classroom to go home.
âHm?â
âDinner, just you and me. This Friday at 7 oâclock, howâs that sound?â
âWait, what?â You rose a brow at his sudden invitation, âWhat do you mean, by dinner with just you and me?â You briefly added.
âA dinner date, with just the two of us.â
âThat was a little, out of nowhere.. Donât you think?â
â..Yeah.â He responded, âMy bad. Maybe it was a little too soon, never mind about what I sai-â He added before you cut him off, âWai- wait! it wasnât too soon at all! Sorry, I was just taken a backâ since I really wasnât expecting this from you.â You said, visibly happy.
âWell then..?â He nervously asked and you responded with, âAre you kidding? Thatâs all Iâve ever wanted!! Iâd love to, Gun.â It was evident just how excited you were. Suddenly all bubbly and red in the cheeks, Gun found that to so adorable. âI wasnât expecting such enthusiasm from you,â Gun said as he laughed, âYouâre probably in love with me, arenât you?â to which you replied, âYou asked, I answered! And would you have wanted a no for an answer?â âA no from the girl whoâs head over heals in love with me? I highly doubted that response.â
Gun mightâve said those words so casually and care free but he really was surprised with how quick it took for you to say yes. Throughout the course of your friendship, it did become obvious that the two of you do like each other. But it was much more evident on your side, with how much people knew you like Gun and how you spoke about him and how you were whenever you were with him, versus how you were when you were with some other boys that were rumored to like you. Of course, Gun was slightly taken aback when he learned about all thisâ how could someone like you, a beautiful and simple sweet heart who doesnât even like contact with people or going out that much, like him, a guy whose name is insanely problematic and all the rumors spreading about him are mostly true and have something to do with his violent side and the things he does outside of school, a guy who people quite literally fear.
But Gun didnât really like thinking about any of that. All that mattered to him was how you felt and the adorable reactions that come out of you whenever he teases you about apparently liking him so much.
A few months passed since your first date and the two of you started dating after a while, even more time has passed since then because you two were now in your final year of high school. Despite going further into your friendship to turn it into a relationship, nothing much has really changed.
You guys were at your place this one time and you begged him to do skin care with you. He was reluctant at first but with your puppy dog eyes and some touchy convincing, he finally agreed.
âStay Still!!â You scolded your boyfriend who kept moving when you were trying to apply a full mask onto his face.
âHow am I supposed to? Itâs so wet and slimy, kinda reminds me of something..â Gun replied.
âOh shut it, I finally finished applying it, now we have matching masks on!! Come look at the mirror!â You exclaimed, âTada~!â
He looked at the mirror blankly and slowly turned to you, who was overflowing with joy.
âAwh, donât you like it?â
âItâs.. something, thatâs for sure..â
You looked at Gun with your usual pout, to which he caved in and finally went along with the whole thing, saying itâs not that bad.
âHehe, my baby looks so handsome, just as he always does~â You said as you admired Gun while squeezing his cheeks.
âYouâre such a simp, you know that, right? Gun said, slightly muffled as he looked down at you with his usual smirk.
âHmph! If you donât want my love then you could just say so!â You said as you let go off his cheeks and crossed your arms with a grouchier pout on your face.
âBaby, thereâs no need to be a brat.â He then grabbed your chin to kiss your lips (you were tiptoe-ing). Gun always knew how to deal with the unpredictable pace of your mood, given how you can go from absolutely simping over him to a pouting girl who doesnât wanna talk about it at all with him.
âYour eyes sure as hell love to wander, dont they?â Gun teased. You went all pouty again so he coated you in some more kisses to make up for the teasing about you being a complete simp.
Those were the moments that ultimately led to the situation youâre currently in. Beneath the sunset in your favorite place, dressed in an astonishing wedding dress, paired with an elegant pair of heels, just the right amount of steepness for you to walk in, given your veil and dress that was trailing on your back. Holding an extravagant boquet with all of your favorite flowers wrapped in such delicate material.
It was all so ethereal. Gun, your soon to be husband hasnât seen you. You were queued to walk down the aisle so very soon, which had you shaking in both excitement and fear. Itâs finally the day youâve been waiting for so very long. You knew you really liked Gun the moment you two became closer, yet youâre still stuck in the point where you were admiring him from technicallyâ not afar because he was right beside you the entire time. But still, you were just an admirer in awe. And now you have the same last name as him and do tons of things togetherâ cooking? hell yes, shopping? without a doubt. hopping in the shower and bathtub together? you donât even notice him coming in until you feel a strong pair of arms wrap around you and start to wander across your body.
Another thing is that Gun may seem like a âcoldâ or reserved person on the outside, but he really does care about people that matters to him and knows how to observe. One of the things he observed about your âinfatuationâ with him was how you looked at him. He really saw right through the eyes you looked at him withâ they only expressed one thing. That one thing was actual love, and it was not at all short-lived as people say what infatuation is.
It truly surprised him to see how your eyes never got gloomy or even got tired of looking at him that way even when time passed.
If anything, they became brighter and loving with every moment that passed with you looking at Gunâs dark eyes, wondering why he would ever want to have anything to do with a girl whoâs had a huge crush on him for so very long.
He realized just how much importance those little details hold. As they say, the eyes donât lie. And he sure as hell was able to experience that for himself.
He may not have wanted to admit it at first, but he slowly fell for you, in the way where you fell first but he fell harder. His entire mood and demeanor would change the exact moment that youâre around him. He could be beating up people and see that youâve come to check up on him because he specifically told you that he was just going out to get something from Goo, but ended up taking way too longâ hence, why you went to find him. He changed in an instant. Leaving behind the scene and making sure you wonât have to worry your pretty little head about it. And according to Goo, the way he talks about you is just âagitatingââ which pretty much translates to âamazingâ in your vocabulary, given that Goo doesnât care about these types of things.
Youâve heard from various of his friends that he really does love you, because he doesnât prolong any of his fights due to the very fact that he wants to make sure that he can get home to you asap. Especially when itâs late at night, he knows you like to sleep but he wants to be the one to tuck you in and cuddle and place gentle kisses on you to sleep. So even though he loves fighting worthy opponents that gets him turned on, no one can top youâ he just loves that matching pjâs set that you tend to wear, with the small pink lace ribbons and the silk fabric, the short and small shorts with the sleeveless top.
Gun told you all about what he does for Charles Choi when he fully trusted you and you guys were already dating, and he didnât expect you to stay. He was scared to tell you with there being a big chance that youâd freak out and leave him, call the cops, and do other things he wouldnât have ever wanted you of all people to do to him.
Despite all of his fears and bad expectations of what you might do when you learn of the âbadâ side of his, he still has you and always will. He really cant believe that you stayed after everything and still look at him the exact same way you did when you first met him. You somehow still retained the same feelings and love you have for him despite everythingâ and he is insanely in love with you for that. He loves teasing you about it though.
Going back to the present situation youâre in, you were now walking down the aisle as Gun absolutely stared at you in awe. Enthralled by how amazing you looked in white and how such a gorgeous woman was walking down the aisle to meet eye to eye with him and to hold him hand in hand.
The ceremony was breathtakingly beautiful, flowers of all sorts were surrounding the venue with just the right amount of lights that have been set upon with candles and dim lighting. The details in fabrics, decorations, covers, and even the architecture of the venue was simply incredible.
All of this âextranessâ as Gun would call it, was for you. Gun wasnât the type of person to have such a big wedding despite the small number in guests, but he knew you loved all of the things he had made to be included for the special day.
And even though Gun was relatively smart with his money, he was more than willing to go all out on this short event.
After all the agreements and words that the officiator had asked the two of you, you guys finally reached the most important part of the day, the one you have been dreaming of for who knows how long.
The officiator spoke once again, âDo you, Y/N, take Park Jonggun to be your lawfully wedded husbandâ To have and to hold, in sickness and in health, in good times and bad, for richer or poorer, keeping yourself unto him for as long as you both shall live?â
You looked deeply into Gunâs eyes, âI do.â
The officiator turned over to Gun, âPark Jonggun, do you take this woman to be your wifeâ to live together in holy matrimony, to love her, to honor her, to comfort her, and to keep her in sickness and in health, forsaking all others, for as long as you both shall live?
Gun held eye contact with you with a subtle yet sincere smile, âI do.â
He then carefully placed the beautiful ring on your finger, which was followed with you doing the same with his. Just after that was the unity ceremony which was such a bliss.
Of course, once that had passed, came the pronouncementâ After more words and hundreds more that you didnât pay much mind to, the officiator finally looked at the two of you deeply and stated, âI now pronounce you as husband and wife. You may kiss the bride!â
And so you guys did kiss, for a pretty long timeâ With Gunâs hands placed on your waist and one of your hands on his shoulder, and the other nestled against his face. The crowd cheered for the two of you as it all happened.
It was all so, so, so, incredibly divine.
Once the ceremony has ended and the after party was finally about to begin, you kept chatting with the guests, more particularly your closest friends who were also your bridesmaids. It genuinely made them wonder how you could be so in love with someone. The way you talked about him was absolutely adorable considering theyâve met Gun before, and think of him as the luckiest guy on earth, and you as the blindest girl.
And despite not knowing many of Gunâs friends that he invited, they were still so kind to chat with you. They told Gun when he came by that he really was one hell of a lucky guy to have someone so head over heals for him. To which he only agreed with them before he went to attend to the other guests.
âI donât understand how you could like him so much, heâs garbage..â Goo said as the other guys were talking amongst themselves at the same table you and Goo were at.
âMaybe to you he isâ but he is just the sweetest to me, and heâs hot as hell too.â You replied, obviously lost in your thoughts, imagining Gun once again.
âWoman, what the hell do you see in him for him to be considered as sweet? Do you have any idea how much people heâs arranged the organs of?â Goo questioned.
âOh please, how much have you?â
âHey. I donât like getting my hands dirty as much as Gun does.â
âRightttt..â
Goo came closer to you and whispered in your ear, âDid you know that Gun has liked you before you even attended the same school together..?â
â..What?â
âYup. You may have been led to believe that you were the first to like him all these years, but heâs just never told you that heâs actually a creepy stalker deep down.â
âYouâre bluffing.â
âNope! And you could figure it out for yourself!â Goo exclaimed.
âOh please! If he hasnât told me all this time then he wont tell me now, why donât you just tell me more about it?â
âFine, buttt! You canât tell Gun or even give him hints that I was the one to tell you all this, alright?â
âDonât worry, I wouldnât do that,â you replied.
âAlright-y then! Iâm guessing you know Gun as someone you became classmates with in the eight grade, and became friends with in the ninth. Butttt, he actually first heard of you in the seventh grade, and although he wasnât in your school that time, he transferred the next year so that you two could be classmates. He first saw you walking out of that school and he told me all about how pretty you were and how heâd like to be friends with you,â Goo explained.
âI canât tell if youâre telling the truth or not..â
âIt doesnât matter what you believe, just know that I am telling you the truth and itâs up to you to take it or not.â He said with a smile spread across his face.
Like all things, the wedding eventually came to an end, it may have been short-lived but it was truly memorable. Of course, what comes after the wedding is the honeymoon.
You guys went on a trip to somewhere tropical for your honeymoon, which resulted in Gun wearing almost nothing most of the time, and if he was wearing something, itâd be boxers or swim trunks, or a more formal outfit that just looked sooooo good on him.
There was this one instance where you guys were about to go to bed, and Gun would usually have on some loose pants or shorts, but this time.. He was wearing absolutely nothing, not even boxers or briefs of some sort. He casually walked over to your shared bed while you stared at him.
âNeed something, babe?â Gun asked he tucked himself into the blanket you were also tucked in, but you were both still sitting up.
âWell.. No, but umâŠâ You replied nervously, obviously pent up from the view you had right in front of you.
Gun looks at your eyes then down to his naked body (and mind you, you were wearing a cute yet small and slightly revealing matching- sleepwear set), âHm? Youâve seen me naked countless times before, and itâs not like youâre a virgin.â He teased as he brushed some of your hair to the side.
âYeah b-but..â You managed to utter as you were still straight up staring at his body, fresh from the shower.
âBut what? Does my wife need help with her words?â Gun teased as he leaned in closer to you and slowly lifted up your top to place his hand on your chest. To which you got very tense and nervous.
Iâm sure you already know what followed in the next moments..
But moving forward with a few more days that passed, Gun caught you staringâ maybe even admiring one of the pictures that you took together recently, specifically zoomed in on him. You hadnât realized or even noticed his presence so you were just looking at the picture like some teenage girl, obviously crushing on him.. As if you didnât just get married to him to him last week.
You were cheekily smiling at the picture, even giggling to yourself at some point when you swiped through some of the other pictures of him and you. You just loved him so bad, that even though you had him right with you, you still resorted to pictures. Gun thought that was adorable. The woman he fell in love with, sat on a chair facing away from where he was sneakily stood at, was swiping away at pictures of him when you didnât even know that you had him wrapped around your finger.
âWhatâs my dear wife up to this evening?â He spoke out of nowhere, suddenly startling you. This caused you to have the phone slip out of your hands, but he swiftly caught it and took a closer look at the photos you were staring at.
âWhat are you doing with pictures that you canât already to with the real deal right beside you?â He asked as you got increasingly nervous by the seconds passed and you were starting to fidget.
âI was just looking at what photos I wanted to keep.. And what I didnât want to keep, yâknow what I mean..?â You replied.
âIs that so?â
âYes, my dear oh dearest husband,â you said mockinglyâ âWhy are you interrogating me?â
âWouldnât you like to know? Little miss stalker,â Gun said as he sat on the chair across from you, obviously enjoying himself.
âStalkeâ? Oh wait-! That reminds me,â your husbandâs brow rose at your sudden statement, âYour close friend, Jonggoo, told me a little something when him and I were talking during the after party.â You added.
âAnd that is..?â Gun asked, skeptical of what you mightâve learned, knowing Goo very well.
âWell,â you shuffled around as you tilted your head and finally spoke, âIs it true that you only came to the school I go to in the first place because you saw me walking out there one time and.. yeahâ?â
âThat bastardâ But, yeah. That is true.â He said without a change in expression and emotion.
You gave him a teasing smile and a soft âheheâ as you looked at him. For some reason, finding out that was true only seemed to make you fall in love even more.
âOh hush, I donât understand how much a person could like someoneââ He said and he stood up to lift you into his arms for teasing him.
âHey! Why are you carrying me?â You suddenly yelped. He dropped you gently on to the bed and he climbed on top of you.
âWoman, itâs not good to start something you canât finish.â
âTsk! My nickname is now woman?â You pouted.
âMy apologies then, my wife.â He said somewhat mockingly to which you pouted even more, so he finally said it in a more sincere manner and gave you a kiss.
âWell?â He asked you as you were still in the same position, with him on top you.
âWell what?â You clarified while your eyes shamelessly wandered through his body, flustered with the position you were in and the teasing he was doing to you.
âYouâre eyes seem to be wandering yet again, and your cheeks are redder than rubies.. You just never get tired of me, do you? Gun said in a teasing tone as he leaned in closer.
This honeymoon sure as hell will be going on for a long time.
notes: I think ill prolly put out a masterlist and about me post in like a month or two who knows, also this request has been with me for so long đ I am so so so sorry to this anon, please forgive me đ”âđ« Also, I really hope that this wasnât too bad and can live up to what you were expecting and requesting, I am so sorry if it doesnât, I really tried đ ANDDD I accidentally deleted the actual request because I got a little lost with trying to navigate tumblr because I accidentally clicked the Queue button and yeah.. I donât think I really proofread this tbh
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hello!! I would like to make a request please. ellie x reader... imagine the reader is ellie's, hot, attractive, smart, sweet and flirty new roommate who ellie has a fucking crush on and was getting hard to control, mainly because her roommate wore short skirts in most of the time and until one day Ellie comes home and the reader is coming out of the bathroom with only a small towel covering her naked body making Ellie very horny and awkward at the same time? can end in kisses and smut? đ€
thank you đ«¶đ»
pt2!
a/n; you are just a fucking tease and she knows!!đ
playing games âĄ
cw; flirty! reader, weed usage, smoking, masturbation (ellie), sexual thoughts, tension, fingering (r receiving), the knee thing, thigh riding, oral (r receiving), nipple play, choking, degradation, praise, cum eating, teasing⊠18+ content minors dni!!
REMINDER: english is not my mother language so i apologize if there are some mistakes <3 !ÂĄ either ways, i hope yâall like it. <3
REPOSTS AND COMMENTS ARE VERY MUCH APPRECIATED!<3
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âels, could you please hand me that book?â your sweet voice called out for her, your beautiful eyes begging for her to reach to the top of the bookcase and hand it to you, since you couldnât reach, even on your tip-toes.
your ass was poking out, your mini little white skirt rolling up your hips as your back arched and your chest rose, nipples hard under your fluffy blouse.
ellieâs body stiffened, and her eyes tried really hard to not trail down your body âcause⊠fuuuck, weâre those lace panties you were wearing? why was that skirt so fucking short, oh godâŠ
âels?â she snapped out of her mind when you called out for her, and you pretended to not know, to not notice the way she was staring at you.
âyeah, sure.â she managed to say, stepping closer, trying not to think too much about how good you smelled. she was almost brushing you as she reached for it, and you moved back just the slightest to lay on her. she took a deep breath and handed it to you.
you smiled, looking up at her with those sweet eyes of yours and plushy lips.
âthanks.â you said, and she had to look and step away, or else sheâd sure fuck it all up and kiss you right now.
living with you was easy, or at least it was, before she had developed a crush on you. she couldnât help it really. âcause you were beautiful, and funny, and smart, and gentle andâŠ
shit. she was truly whipped.
she loved spending time with you, and seeing you smile⊠but also hated the fact that she couldnât cuddle up with you while on movie night, or kiss the lipgloss off of your lips every time you did your makeupâŠ
sometimes all she wanted was to answer to your flirty texts how she really wanted to, but she knew that you were probably messing up with her since you two were good friends⊠right?
sometimes⊠sometimes they really got to her.
you had gone away for the weekend to visit your parents, and you were missing ellie⊠so why not text her?
elsâŠ
hey pretty girl, howâs everything at your parents ?
âs good, but i miss you
i feel so alone when youâre not aroundâŠ
ellie couldnât help but blush, her heart jumping in her chest. she missed you too. so fucking muchâŠ
i miss you too
but dw, iâm sure the time will pass soon
but i want you now
her eyes widened, her breath hitched.
you need me?
mmmh, wish you were here
she sighed. she knew you werenât texting this in a dirty way. you loved having ellie around, and youâd told her so many many times, but her mind couldnât help but wonder⊠think about the possibility that you were, think about what you could be wearing. would you be on your pjs? maybe on just a shirt and panties, maybeâŠ
her eyes closed as her hand palmed her cunt over her sweatpants.
she thought about you, about how sweet you sounded late at night when you were tired and begged her to sleep with you, about how youâll always press yourself against her chest and play with her hair, about how youâd groan when sheâd move just to bury your face on her neck, breath hitting her skinâŠ
and before she knew it her hand was down her sweats, and she was so wetâŠ
âfuck.â she groaned. âyeah baby? you need me? need me to fuck you all dumb and pretty for me, hm?â she gasped, her fingers rolled her clit. âi will, shit, iâll fuck you so goodâŠ, will have you dripping all over my sheetsâŠâ she moaned loudly when her fingers plunged inside her cunt and started to fuck herself. âfuck, just like that baby, just like thatâŠâ her hips pushed against her hand. âso goodâŠâ she sighed, biting down on her lip when her fingers curled and hit that deep spot on her gummy walls that had her thighs shaking.
she lost herself to her pleasure, roughly fucking herself while thinking about you, whining and whimpering in need. shit, she knew she shouldnât be thinking about you this way, but she was gonna cum, and she couldnât stop.
it wasnât long before she was cumming all over her fingers, grunting softly and moaning your name. she was breathing heavily once she had came down from it, and her fingers were glistening in cum when she finally pulled them out from her wet pussy.
her response to your message came minutes after.
why donât i come and visit you?
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ellie had started to catch some things about you. you seemed to love short skirts, like a lot. you were always wearing them around her. and god if it wasnât driving her crazy. that, and that you liked to match your underwear to them.
tonight you had gone for black. the tiny mini jean skirt that you were wearing was pleaded, and so short that it was impossible to not show everything. and as always, youâd gone for her favorite: lace. black thin lace that hugged your ass so perfectly it had her uncomfortably shifting on the sofa, underwear getting wet.
fuck, this couldnât be real. you looked too good, like a mother fucking dream. and she was fucking high.
âso thatâs when i told her how bad her flirting was.â you laughed, smoking your own joint.
âhow so?â she asked, wanting to hear you talk for ages and ages and ages. there was nothing she loved more than your voice.
âokay. so when you want to flirt with someone, you can do it in two simple ways.â you started, and she got comfortable, shifting to face you on the sofa. âthe most subtle one, or the straight one.â she laughed.
â âthe subtle oneâ ? whatâs that?â
âwell, for starters. the eyes. you need to like let them fall, just a little bit, look more relaxed, dazed, and blink slowâŠâ you explained. âlike this.â you did so, staring at ellie in a way that made her whole body run down in shivers, but she hide it, simply humming.
âyeah? what else?â you tried to hide a smirk, playing dumb. she was getting closer.
âtouch.â you muttered, and your hand fell on her thigh, softly, just a simple stroke. ellie almost groaned. âjust the slightest, and never enough.â you smiled, never moving up, where she was aching. â and then⊠your lips.â you said. âbite them⊠lick them⊠if you wanna make it more straight forward do it while staring at the otherâs lips.â you showed her, and she almost cursed. âcause you were looking at her lips as if you truly wanted to kiss her right now, and her hands were shaking.
she nodded when you looked back at her eyes.
âyeah.â she croaked, nodding. why was it so hot in here? âyouâre⊠good.â she awkwardly said, clearing her throat, and you chuckled as she took a hit of her blunt.
âyouâre goodâ? seriously? jesus fucking christ.
âohïżŒ, iâm definitely good.â you teased her, and she almost choked. you laughed at the way her cheeks flushed and she coughed, green reddish eyes widening. âthatâs the more forward option.â you clarified, and winked an eye.
yeah. itâs⊠definitely forward.
she coughed once again, drinking some water and shifting on her seat.
and you tried to play dumb when half an hour later ellie decided to say good night early, since she was âexhaustedâ, and you surely ignored every and each one of her sighs that came out loud enough to reach your ears on the other side of the wall.
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ellie considered herself to be a really patient person. she knew how to hold it together. how to keep herself under control. but thisâŠ
you were just out of the shower when you got home, covered in just a mere fucking towel that almost didnât cover you. your whole legs were exposed, your plushy thighs on display⊠droplets of water were still sticking to your chest, and your cheeks where flushed due to the hot steam. she couldnât help but stare. stare at the little piece of cloth that hid your core, almost exposing you whole. she shifted awkwardly, trying to look away, but it was hard, every time her eyes finding back your beautiful body. shit. fuck.
your breasts were about to burst out of the towel, and when your eyes found her her heart stopped.
âels! youâre back.â you smiled at her. âhow was your day?â
she looked at your eyes, trying really hard to keep them there. âuhâŠ, ehm, good, yeah, what uhh, what about you?â she stuttered, and her cheeks flushed. fuck.
you rose your eyebrows. âeverything okay ellie?â you inquired, taking a step closer. she almost took one backwards. âyou seem kinda nervous.â you teased her, taking her one step closer.
âwhat are you doing?â she inquired, her voice low as you lifted your arms up her shoulders and circled her neck. she was boiling, her eyes falling to your chest as you curved your back and pushed it against hers.
âme?â you asked, puppy eyes and a lost gaze. playing pretend. ânothingâŠâ you whispered, leaning in, your gaze on her plushy lips. you gasped and later let out a chocked out laughter when one of her hands snapped up to your neck, holding you still, only mere inches keeping you apart.
âyouâre a fucking tease, you know that?â she chuckled, a pissed smirk on her face. âhere you got me thinking iâm imagining the way you always seem to wear those tiny clothes around me, or how you talk and look at me⊠but you really are playing with me, arenât you?â she muttered, one of her hands gripping your hip. to pull you against her. âdid you have fun seeing how much i could take, hm?â her eyes were on your lips too. âdid you wanted my attention that bad, baby?â you nodded, body aching. âwell, youâve got it.â she muttered before her lips crashed against yours, a needy moan leaving your mouth as you tugged on her hair and she pushed you against the wall, one of her thighs slotting in between your thighs.
âfuck, ellieâŠâ you cried out when she ground you down on her leg, your clint deliciously rubbing against her jeans and dampening the clothing.
âyouâre driving me insane.â she groaned, her skin itching to touch you, her bones aching to have you.
you moaned when the hand that was choking you harshly cupped your tit, the knot of the towel that covered becoming undone and exposing your breasts. her lips latched to your nipple as she pressed you harsher against the wall and the hand on her hip couldnât help but move south, finding your core. she was needy, so horny that she felt she would die if she stopped touching you, making you let out those beautiful little sounds that you where whimpering.
âshit, and youâre so fucking wetâŠâ you let out a scream when she plunged two fingers inside, instantly hitting your g spot. your back arched when she started to fuck you with them, you being so wet to made them slide easily in and out. âthis what you wanted, huh? this is what my pretty girl needed, isnât it? to be a little rough with her, fuck the little tease out of her, hm?â
âfuck, yes, ellie, yesâŠâ you sobbed, moving against her hand, fucking her fingers deeper into your cunt. âwanted this for so longâŠâ you whimpered in between the pants that left your lungs.
âyeah?â she teased you. âyou poor thing. itâs okay baby, gonna make you feel so goodâŠâ
next thing you knew? she was on her knees, and you were moaning as her tongue lapped at your juices, lips sucking on your clit. your hand tangled on her hair, pulling for more. she hummed, eating you out with hunger. you were as sweet as she had imagined, and sounded just as beautiful too as she brought you closer and closer to your orgasm.
you were crashing your hips down against her mouth, her nose bumping against her clit over and over again. you were a mess as her fingers started to curve against your g spot, her tongue licking at your leaking hole. she hummed when you tugged on her hair, and you moaned when she pushed you down harder with her hand, eating you out like a starved woman. âfuck ellie, gonna cumâŠâ you whimpered, so close to falling over the edge it was embarrassing.
âyou gonna cum on my face, baby?â you nodded and she smirked. âthatâs it, cum for me baby, atta girl.â and you did, ellie fucking you through it with her fingers as her lips sucked on your swollen and over sensitive clit, you were moaning her name over and over again as she licked everything you gave her, extending your orgasm and keeping you up when your legs wobbled. âyou did so good for me⊠such a good girlâŠâ you moaned at her praise, and tugged from her hair for more when she was back on her feet and kissing you, letting you taste yourself on her lips. âgonna keep being a good girl and help me make me feel good?â she inquired, and you nodded. âthatâs my girl.â she smiled, and before you knew it, she was tugging from your hand towards her bedroom.
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a/n; enough smut or do we want more? đ€
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hi! i love the way you write and was hoping if you had time for this rec :) ethan x reader
it's inspired by 'the summer i turned pretty'
y/n is the bailey's childhood friend, she was very close to ethan and quinn growing up, but when she comes back to newyork, richie is suddenly very interested in her and the shitty brother that he is, he know that ethan had a thing for her.
"You think she's pretty?" richie asked ethan one day.
"Yeah, and you do too," ethan replied already annoyed, trying to brush it off.
"I hadn't noticed, really," richie said, smirking.
"Come on, man. I've noticed you noticing"
richie is the it-boy of the town, always gets what he wants, cocky and arrogant. y/n was the only thing ethan had for himself only.
sorry if its long đđ its mostly angsty id say, y/n is surprised someone like richie likes her but her heart has always been yearning for ethan whom she thinks will never see her that way.
childhood best friends to lovers is one of my favorite tropes so i really had a lot of fun writing this! hope you like itđđ«¶đ»
youâre my best friend â ethan landry
word count: 2,465
pairing: ethan landry x fem!reader
summary: when y/n goes back to new york city she finds out two thingsâsheâs still crushing on ethan and richie took an interest in her.
WHEN Y/N AND HIS FAMILY HAD TO LEAVE NEW YORK FOR LONDON, THE BAILEYâS WERE LEFT HEARTBROKEN, ESPECIALLY QUINN AND ETHAN. Both of their families had been close since forever, so Quinn, Ethan, Y/N and Richie grew up together and the first three developed a really close friendship.
Y/Nâs dad got a promotion, so they had to move to England, where Y/N finished high school and started college. Now, though, her dad had been offered to go back to New York if he wanted. And because he missed the city and his friends, he said yes.
The first thing Y/N did when she found out was text her best friendsâQuinn and Ethan, with whom she had kept contact with despite the distance. She was excited to see them, and wondered what she would feel when she finally saw Ethan again. Sheâd like to think she got over her crush, but thatâs because they hadnât seen each other in four years.
And there she was, about to find out. Y/N was standing in front of the Baileyâs house with her parents behind her. The door opened and Y/Nâs chest grew tight in anticipation, and then she held a sigh of disappointment when Wayneâs face appeared.
The older man greeted her parents with enthusiasm, and when it was her time to say hello, the man opened his mouth in shock âOh my! Youâve grown a lot! Itâs nice to see you again, Y/Nâ
âYou too, Wayneâ she hugged him awkwardly. Y/N wasnât his biggest fan, she still remember all too well the way he treated Ethan. Always comparing him to Richie, making him feel like garbage.
âQuinn and Richie are in the kitchenâ he informed her. She nodded and made her way to said place.
As soon as she set foot on the big kitchen, she was attacked by a hug. âOh my god! Youâre here!â she recognized the voice of Quinn.
âIâm here! I missed youâ she broke the hug to take a look at her friendâs new hairstyle âRed is definitely your color, Q. You look so good.â
âAnd London certainly benefited you, holy shit. You look hot. Give me a chance?â the red-head joked.
âAbsolutelyâ she laughed, hugging her once more. âI canât believe Iâm backâ
âHi, Y/Nâ Richie finally managed to find his voice. He had been completely entranced by the girl. Quinn was right, she got hot. He had never noticed her, because well, he had always seen her as his siblingâs friend and because she had been 15 when she left. Now, she was 19 and super attractive.
âOh, sorry. Hi, Richie. Nice to see you againâ she gave him a little wave. Y/N wasnât sure she liked the way Richie was shamelessly checking her out. âWhere is Eth?â she tried not to sound so excited.
âOh, heâs in his room, as always. Drowning himself in text books and having no social life whatsoeverâ Richie rolled his eyes in annoyance.
âHe doesnât know youâre coming today, so go surprise himâ Quinn said, eyeing the way Y/Nâs knuckles turned white. She had always hated when people talked badly about Ethan, and apparently, it didnât change.
Y/N walked up the stairs, anguish filling her stomach and her heart beating so fast it made her cheeks turn red. She stood in front of the door, trying to gain the courage to knock. There was just one door separating her from Ethan, the guy who had been her first crush ever. Her best friend in the entire world.
âCome inâ she heard, and almost fainted. Not because she was seconds away from seeing his face after four years, but because she noticed the change in his voice. It was deeper, raspier and⊠hot.
Y/N took a deep breath and opened the door. There he was, lying on his bed, headphones flattening his perfect curly hair and book open on his lap.
His round brown eyes found hers, and he jumped off the bed so fast he got dizzy. Y/N laughed and ran into his arms, that were instantly wrapped around her lower back to pull her up and against his chest. Her legs locked around his waist.
âPlease tell me youâre real and Iâm not making you upâ Ethan said, face between her neck and shoulder blades.
âIâm realâ she laughed. âAnd Iâm back to stay. Holy shit, you got so fucking tallâ
âAnd you have not grown and inchâ he joked, letting her feet touch the ground again.
âMeanâ Y/N punched his arm playfully. âWhere is your Justin Bieber haircut?!â
âThat was a phase I donât want to rememberâ he shook his head. âWhat, you donât like my curls?â
âNo⊠I love them. You have amazing hairâ Y/N complimented.
Ethan blushed, and took his time to let his eyes take in her face. Her factions were more defined, her lips were fuller, eyes a little darker but still very bright, and smile as warm as ever. She had grown a bit, but she was still short compared to him, her head barely reached his shoulders. She looked even prettier than before, and Ethan couldnât believe he would be able to see her everyday.
The tall boy had also changed a lot, and Y/N needed to figure out how to stop looking at him before she weirded him out. His jawline was sharp as a diamond, his cheekbones more defined, and surprisingly, he had muscles. Enthralling, captivating muscles. He was pretty, adorable and hot at the same time and Y/Nâs doubts faded awayâher crush on him was still very much intact.
âYou look stunning, Y/N/N. I missed youâ he said in a low voice. They were so close, his arms still around her, and the moment felt intimate and cozy. It was at that moment Y/N realized how much she had missed her home.
âI missed you tooâ she smiled, happiness was radiating off her. Y/N was so happy she could cry. âCan I hug you again?â
âYou donât have to ask. You know I love your hugs, and I missed them. So, youâll have to hug me a lot to make up for the lost timeâ Ethan answered, chest almost exploding for the amount of adoration he felt for her.
None of them knew for how long they stayed in each others arms, if it had been just minutes or hours, but they did know that either way, it hadnât been enough. They couldâve stayed like that forever.
SAYING THAT Y/N CAUGHT THE ATTENTION OF EVERY BLACKMORE STUDENTS WOULD BE GOING A LITTLE TOO FAR, but she certainly had the attention of the people she had classes with. Not only because of her looks, but also because she entered in the middle of the semester, which was extremely unusual. Y/N hated the twenty pairs of eyes on her, but she was thankful she at least had Ethan by her side.
The nerdy boy felt a little uneased by the reaction Y/N caused. She had always been someone only Ethan used to noticeâthought he never understood why, because she was the most amazing girl in the worldâ, and the thought of that changing made him panic. Because there were so many guys who were better than him, and now that she had options, Ethan knew Y/N would never choose him.
âHow is your first day going?â to her surprise, Richie asked.
âUm, good?â she said, unsure. It was weird, Richie and her had never been friends. He had never cared about her well-being, what was his deal now? She didnât know.
But Ethan did, he could see it in his brotherâs eyes. Richie was interested in Y/N and it made his blood boil. He knew Ethan had feelings for her, but of course he didnât care.
âGreat. If you need anything, feel free to tell meâ he said, winking at her before leaving.
âThatâs the weirdest thing that has ever happened to me. Is he okay? Did he fell from the stairs and hit his head or something?â Y/N asked Ethan.
The brunet laughed âHe kind of became the âitâ boy of college, which fed his ego and makes him brave enough to flirt with every hot girl that crosses his path. Youâre his next target.â
Richie had always been popular amongst girlsâhe was attractive, had that attitude girls found hot, and was sometimes funnyâand exactly the type who would never look at Y/Nâs way, or so she thought.
She couldnât imagine herself with him, not only because âitâ boys werenât her kind of boys, but also because her heart yearned for Ethan. Even when she knew he would never look at her as more than a friend.
âWell, time to damage it boyâs egoâ Y/N said.
Ethan looked at her surprised âYou are not into him?â
âEthan, what the actual fuck? No!â she laughed in shock. Wasnât it painfully obvious that she had a crush on him and not Richie? Guess not. Or maybe Ethan was way too oblivious.
âOkayâ wasnât she imagine it or did she actually hear relief in his voice?
ETHAN AND RICHIE SAT ON THE BEACH CHAIRS NEXT TO THEIR POOL, THEIR EYES ON THE VOLEY MATCH HAPPENING IN FRONT OF THEM. It was Quinn and Y/N vs. Tara and Mindy, and Ethanâs eyes were specifically focused on Y/Nâs figure. Richie couldnât pass the opportunity to tease him.
"You think she's pretty?" Richie asked him, sarcasm present in his voice.
"Yeah, and you do too," his brother replied, already annoyed, trying to brush it off.
"I hadn't noticed, really," Richie said, smirking. He enjoyed seeing his brother angry so much, and he knew Y/N was his weak point.
"Come on, man. I've noticed you noticing. And she did tooâ Ethan said, frowning.
âShe does? Maybe I should ask her out, then.â Richie said, hoping this would make Ethan fume.
However, the nerdy boy gave him a smile. âDo it.â he tried to suppress a smirk at his brotherâs confused reaction.
âHey, enjoyed the game?â Y/N asked. They had been so sumerged in their conversation they hadnât noticed the match ended.
Ethan flashed her his sweet pretty smile, which she mirrored âYouâre good, Y/N/N.â
âThanks, Ethâ if her cheeks hadnât been already red from the heat and the exercise, Ethan wouldâve noticed the effect his words had on her.
âDo you want water, gorgeous?â Richie asked, with a sly grin. Ethan clenched his jaw and Y/N tried not to make a disgusted face.
âYes, but Iâll go get itâ Y/N said walking to the kitchen before Richie could beat her. Ethan followed her, feeling Richieâs eyes on the back of his head. âDoes he not get the hint? I have given no signs that I like himâ
âI should probably warn you, heâs going to ask you outâ Ethan told her, leaning against the counter and she poured water in a glass.
âOh god, you know what? Itâs fine, Iâm just going to tell him heâs not the one Iâm interested inâ Y/N said.
Ethan stiffened âWhat do you mean by that? Youâre interested in someone?â his chest contracted.
Y/N then realized what she had said. âOh⊠well, yeah.â
The boy nodded, trying not to show how much it hurt âAre they from London?â
Y/N shook her head âNo, he is from here.â she admitted.
âOh⊠you met him at college?â he asked. Why was he asking? He was a fucking masochist.
âNo⊠but he goes to our collegeâ
âSo that means you met him before you moved to Londonâ Ethan deduced.
Y/N nodded âWaay before I moved. I have known him my whole lifeâ she said. Heâs got to figure it out now.
âI have no fricking ideaâ Ethan laughed. âI donât remember you hanging out with someone who wasnât Quinn or me.â
âEthan are you serious?â Y/N groaned. Guess he really was oblivious. Ethan looked at her, very lost. âIâm talking about you, you idiot. Honestly, for someone that smart you can really be dumb sometimes.â
âMe? You like me?â Ethan pointed at himself in disbelief.
âI have liked you since we were fourteen, Eth. Never stopped liking youâ Y/N smiled nervously. What was going to happen next? Rejection or reciprocation?
âAre you sure?â he asked in a low tone.
Y/N let out a giggle âYes, Ethan, pretty sure I know my emotions. Do you know yours?â
âI winâ Ethan said, making her frown, not understanding what he meant. âI have liked you since we were thirteen. So I won.â
The girl rolled her eyes, smile painted on her face as she walked closer to him and hugged him. âWell, guess the loser is the one who has to ask the questionâ Ethan raised his eyebrows in amusement, liking were this conversation was going. âEthan, would you like to be my boyfriend?â
âI would love to be your boyfriend, Y/Nâ he replied. Y/N could feel his heartbeats through his shirt as his arms were wrapped around her lower back. âCan I kiss you, girlfriend?â
âYes, you can, boyfriendâ she closed her arms around his neck and brought him down to meet her lips. Mint got mixed with cherry, and their soft lips danced with each other in one perfect and very awaited kiss.
The slow and calm kiss turned into a rougher and wilder one. His hands went under her white tank top as hers messed with his soft curls. Ethan turned them around, so that she was now pressed against the counter. But soon, he lifted her up and set her on it. She opened her legs so he could step between them and deepened the kiss.
âYouâre my best friendâ Y/N whispered breathlessly against his lips.
Ethan smiled âYouâre my best friend, too. I love youâ
âI love youâ she said back, before kissing him once again.
Quinn, Richie, Tara and Mindy entered the kitchen and stood still at the scene happening in front of them. The two teenagers were so engrossed in their lustful kiss that they didnât notice them until Quinn yelled âNot in the counter, we use it to cook!â
âKids nowadays have zero respectâ Mindy shook her head.
âThis is a family house!â Tara exclaimed. Richie just stood there completely dumbfounded, which made Ethan feel even more victorious.
âOh, we have been waiting this for years, leave us aloneâ Y/N rolled her eyes, but got off the counter anyways. Ethan draped his arm around her shoulders and gave her a kiss on the cheek.
âTheyâre cute, you have to give them thatâ Tara said to Quinn.
âAre you two official?â Quinn asked, now unable to hide her smile.
âYesâ they said in unison, smiling to each other.
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âą Pairing: Jay Halstead x Female!Reader.
âą Requested by @stu-machers-girl: Reader had known Jay since sheâd first started as a dispatcher for Chicago. It wasnât long until sheâd developed a crush on the older man. She didnât say anything since she realized he was dating Erin but then she left. She left and Jay got kidnapped; reader heard it over the radio. Hank texted her to say theyâd found him and she left her job without saying anything and sped to the hospital. When she saw the blonde detective in the waiting room they got into a fight and reader punched her. She refused to leave the hospital until Jay woke up and laid in bed with him the entire time. When he woke up, in the heat of the moment her lips were on his in a moment.
âą Warnings: slight mention of injuries and âviolenceâ (pls bear with me I canât write fight scene not even for saving my life), cuss words. I donât know, let me know if thereâs anything else <3
âą Word count: 8368.
âą A/N: so yeah, I got carried away, pls donât hate me, I think thatâs the longest piece Iâve ever written đ. I changed it up a bit at the end, I hope itâs okay. Please let me know what you think of this? I hope youâll like it and I already apologize for any grammar error â€ïž comment, like and reblog if you want, Iâd really appreciate it. Thank you so much for your constant support, I love you all xx
It was hard.
God, why did being in love have to be so tough?
You thought itâd be easier to control your feelings. You thought you'd be better at pretending everything was fine, pretending your heart didn't actually open into a chasm every time you even heard his name.
You thought it was just a simple crush, a simple infatuation that â knowing it couldn't go any further â itâd soon vanish. But unfortunately it wasn't easy and you soon found yourself in a spiral of suffering and thuds in your stomach. Your mind knew there would never be anything but your heart didn't want to understand it.
Falling in love with Jay wasn't planned, youâd never imagine it and you couldn't even explain how it happened or when. It's those things that just happen without any warning.
You first met Jay after your first shift as a paramedic at Molly's, where your colleagues used to meet after their shifts.
You were sitting at a table with a beer in front of you, you didn't know anyone yet â except for the colleagues you had met during the day who weren't there â and you looked around, sipping the drink from time to time, wondering when you were going to start to feel that place like home.
You moved to Chicago a month prior and it goes without saying you underestimated how difficult itâd be to start a new life in a new city, starting from scratch.
Jay had seen you from afar, looking tired and disoriented and for some reason he had decided to approach you.
When you first saw him you felt the air being cut from your chest, you didn't expect someone â someone so damn beautiful â to approach you.
That stranger you soon discovered was named Jay found himself talking with you, asking you questions about yourself and why he had never seen you before. You explained to him that you had just started working and you found out he had been a detective in the Intelligence unit for about six months.
You were never one to talk to strangers, to tell someone something about your life on the first time you met them, but for some strange reason those bright green eyes and his reassuring smile made you feel at ease, and as the evening wore by, you thanked yourself for not deciding to stay home that night.
Jay was an angel to you, literally.
After that evening he promised you heâd give you a tour of the city, making you visit the most beautiful places and taking you to the best places to eat. You exchanged numbers and he also made you promise youâd call him whenever you felt alone and wanted company.
He also introduced you to the rest of his team, as well as his closest friends, and they were just as kind and welcoming, letting you know youâd meet several times even during work shifts because of criminals and things like that.
Three years have passed since that evening and Jay kept all his promises.
Over time he became your closest friend and you spent time together whenever you both could. You had become his anchor and he had become your safe haven.
You had promised yourself over the time that your friendship would never go any further â also because Jay had never done anything that couldâve made you think otherwise â but the more time you spent together, the more you found yourself falling more and more in love with him.
Youâd never tell him about it, even if it meant crying nights where you wanted to do nothing but run away and forget about him. If it was initially bearable and there was your friendship to give you strength, seeing him with another woman broke your heart more than you ever expected.
Erin was a colleague of his and you had seen their love story born right away. You'd heard Jay confide in you about her, asking you for advice on her when they were fighting, and you were there every time listening to him trying not to cry in front of him. There were times when Jay noticed that there was something wrong with you, he knew you by now, but you always managed to disengage the conversation by telling him that you were just tired from work.
You promised yourself you'd always be by his side but seeing him so happy with her⊠Damn it, it was so hard.
You couldn't take it anymore, you were a walking disaster and all your colleagues and friends saw how you weren't as happy and carefree as you used to be. Sylvie, who was one of your closest friends and who knew all the history with Jay, tried to always be by your side, convincing you to move on, to try to open up your world and that you didn't have to cry for him forever.
She was right, completely right.
Because of this, you had begun to distance yourself from Jay a little bit, making excuses not to go out after work or limiting interactions during the shift to the minimum possible and not speaking to him except from a professional point of view.
This broke your heart, you missed spending time with him, God how you missed him, but more than him you had to love yourself and you knew spending time with him, seeing him with another woman only would made you suffer.
Jay had immediately perceived this change but he couldn't explain why. He had tried so many times to talk to you but you didn't want to tell him what was going on and it made him particularly tense and uncomfortable.
Even Erin had noticed his moodiness and she hated to know it was because of you. She hated you were always there, in front of him, in his head, always on the way, she hated seeing how much he cared about you, she hated the way he dropped everything and ran to you whenever you needed him.
She hated you.
And, dear lord, how much you hated her too. The feelings between you and her were pretty mutual.
You didn't know it, but you had been the cause of many arguments a thousand times between them. Erin wanted him to stay away from you, Jay refused to and always told her if she really wanted him you were part of the deal, take it or leave it.
You were at home one evening, resting on the sofa after a grueling work shift while watching a movie on TV and eating some chips. Sylvie had offered you to go to some bar and get drunk but you declined, not in the mood to socialize or even drink. You just wanted to stay at home and rest, hoping that day would soon be forgotten.
The ringing of your doorbell almost made you jump and you furrowed your eyebrows, not expecting anyone at the time. You placed the bowl of chips on the coffee table in front of the sofa and got up and as you rubbed your hands on your shirt to remove the crumbs from the chips, you went towards the door.
You expected it to be Sylvie but, after looking through the peephole, your heart skipped a beat when you realized it was Jay.
âOh god,â you muttered to yourself, glancing at your shabby outfit which consisted of a simple pair of midnight blue leggings and a gray t-shirt.
What was he doing there?
âY/N open the door, I know you're home,â Jay's voice came muffled through the door. For a moment you considered ignoring him until he got tired of it and walked away but you knew that would never happen and heâd keep banging on the doorbell until you opened it.
You took a deep breath, trying to calm yourself down and slow down your racing heartbeat, and opened the door after removing the chain.
Jay looked up at you, his features visibly relaxing as his eyes fell on your figure. Your mouth felt dry as your gaze traveled up and down his body for an instant, as if to accept that he was fine.
âHi,â you muttered, your voice so thin you were afraid he might not hear you. Your stomach was in a vice and a flock of butterflies had exploded inside you. A wave of heat run through your body and you were sure the flush of your cheeks was comparable to a tomato. âCome in.â
Why were you feeling so damn nervous? He was always Jay, he was always your best friend.
But the best friend I love madly, added your conscience.
Maybe you were nervous because you haven't seen him in two weeks, avoiding him like the plague.
You opened the door and moved to the side, giving him space to enter and as he passed the trail of his scent hit you full in the face making you almost faint.
I canât do this.
Jay sat on the couch without saying anything, glancing at the TV that was still playing the movie, waiting for you to join him.
âYou okay?â you asked as your eyes noticed the way his face was screwed up in a less than happy expression. You tried to avoid him yes, for your own good, but the thought something mightâve happened to him was tormenting you. He sighed deeply, rubbing his hands against his face in frustration before glancing at you.
âI donât know to be honest,â he replied, but without elaborating further âWhat about you? Why did you disappear for the last couple of weeks? I texted you I don't know how many times and called you a thousand times. Did I do something wrong?â.
The crack your heart made was so loud you thought even Jay could hear it from where he sat. Your brain stopped working for a moment trying to think of a response to give him that wasn't âyou know Jay I was avoiding you because I love you and because I hate seeing you with that snakeâ.
âN-no, of course not Jay how can you think that?â You replied, moving closer to him and taking his hand in yours, instantly feeling a rush of shivers running down your spine. He glanced at your clasped hands and then at you, with an expression you couldn't quite read.
âI⊠I don't know,â he sighed, his hand caressing the back of your hand, something he didnât quite realize he was doing âI just⊠I missed you.â
If your heart was already broken, at this very moment it exploded into a thousand pieces of confetti and colors inside your chest. It was as if you had been punched in the stomach, the breath cut from your lungs. It was so good to hear him say it but so painful at the same time.
You wanted to yell at him to not to say it again, because you knew his âI missed youâ wasn't meant in the same way you missed him.
âI missed you too so much Jay,â you almost whispered, smiling at the same time to mask the sudden urge to cry. You let go of his hand, unable to maintain that contact anymore without your stomach doing somersaults. The absence of his warmth was immediately felt but you tried to remain as impassive as possible. âWhat happened? If you've come here at almost midnight it's because there's something wrong. Do you want to talk to me about it?â.
He nodded feebly, taking his gaze away from you to the ceiling. He was leaning back on the sofa, his head on it as his eyes roamed the white ceiling as if it was the most interesting thing on the planet, his hands folded on his stomach.
âErin and I broke up.â
Youâd imagined anything, a problem at work, maybe a family issue, anything else, but not the words that had just slipped from his mouth.
You couldn't hide the shock as your eyes and mouth opened wide and you even felt guilty for an instant when the only feeling you felt was⊠Relief, joy. âW-what? How? When? Why?â You bombarded him with questions âI'm sorry Jay,â but you weren't sorry about what had happened. You were sorry because seeing him like that was painful and you wouldâve done anything to make him feel better, seeing his beautiful smile on his face.
He brought his eyes from the ceiling to yours, turning his head to the side to look at you. He didn't say anything, he just looked at you. For the second time since he came over, you couldn't read his gaze and you wouldâve paid gold to know what he was thinking.
He was looking at you and you felt as if a rope had been placed around your neck and your grip tightened by the way your breath was cut in half. He looked at you with such an intensity as if he wanted to read your soul, analyzing every inch of your face at the same time and in that moment more than ever you wanted to shrink to such a point youâd disappear from his sight.
He looked at you as if he was looking at you for the first time and you felt vulnerable, exposed and while his eyes were chained to yours for an instant you feared he could find out about your feelings for him just by the was his eyes were piercing you.
It was you who looked away first, unable to maintain eye contact anymore and fearing you might say something stupid if you continued to stare at him for another few seconds.
Your heart was pounding so hard you thought it would stop any second as you kept repeating yourself to stay calm. The blush on your cheeks showed no sign of fading and you thanked God that the lights in the living room were off and that there was only the one on the TV which, however, didn't illuminate quite well your face.
The sigh Jay let out made you look up at him, noticing he was still looking at you. But when your eyes ended up on his again, he was the one to look away.
âDonât need to be sorry,â he said simply and you nodded though he couldn't even see you, âShe left.â
For the second time another wave of shock went through you and a thousand questions crossed your mind. You couldn't say you weren't sorry, you wouldâve been hypocritical to say otherwise, but you wondered what the hell had happened. How did they go from being the happiest couple alive to her walking away? For what reason did she leave?
It wouldn't have surprised you at all if she was the reason for the breakup, you didn't know her well â you didn't want to â but based on what Jay told you, she had a habit of running away from every fight and problem that came up.
âShe always does, doesnât she? She will definitely come back,â you answered even as you prayed deep inside with every fiber of your being that it wouldn't happen. You knew you were selfish, he was hurting but damn it, you were human too and you couldn't mask what you didn't feel.
He shook his head slightly. âNo, I don't think she will,â He lifted his head, sitting up straight and looking at you again. âAnd for what that matters, I don't even care if she comes back or not,â he paused again, thinking about his words âBut, I don't want to talk about it.â
âYeah sorry,â there was a moment of silence where you looked at each other again and the way he was looking at you was making your stomach twist like a contortionist âBut just tell me how you are you feeling Jay, I hate seeing you like this,â and you were sincere, although you didn't like Erin, you wished nothing but happiness for Jay and seeing him like this made you feel as helpless as few other times.
âI'm fine now,â he replied and he really seemed to be sincere âReally, I feel⊠Relieved. I just needed to be with my best friend now. You made me worry so much you know that?â.
My best friend.
You tried to ignore the thud in your heart. âI'm really sorry Jay. It was such a hectic time between work I didn't have time for anything else. I'm sorry I wasn't around so much.â
He shook his head again, as if to tell you not to worry by smiling weakly and causing a feeling of warmth to spread through your heart. âWhat matters to me is that youâre okay I⊠I really missed you.â
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The next day you went to work with the dark circles under your eyes reaching down to your feet. You only managed to sleep a couple of hours the night before, having spent most of the night talking to Jay.
God how much you loved that man.
When you were with him it was as if the world around you vanished and it didn't matter how long you lost touch or didn't speak to each other, the moment youâd meet again everything was back to the way it was before, as if time had never passed.
You found yourself talking late, losing track of time, laughing and joking as always and it was times like this that reminded you why you were in love with him. Jay didn't stop smiling even for a minute and seeing him so carefree, even if only for a while, was beautiful. He deserved to be happy, always.
You talked and talked and talked until you fell asleep on the sofa in each other's arms. Only when you opened your eyes you realized your head was resting on his chest and his arm was possessively encircling your waist. You stayed paralyzed for an instant, afraid to make any movement that might wake him up.
He must not have noticed it.
You cautiously sat up and then brought your gaze to him, letting your eyes wander over his relaxed features and you let yourself go for a moment to your fantasy. A fantasy where Jay being there next to you was normal, were you could wake up every morning in his arms as he tightly hugged you.
During your work shift you tried to keep your mind busy, focusing only on the calls and the patients youâd be treating.
Two days flew by like this, with Sylvie doing nothing but tease you about Jay after you told her what had happened. You omitted he and Erin had broken up, this wasn't about you and it wasn't your call to tell other people.
However, you hadn't heard from Jay for two days, he didn't text you or even replied to yours. Only then you understood how he mustâve felt when it was you who didn't reply to his text and you promised yourself youâd never do anything like this again.
You were scared to death because he didn't usually disappear like that, so suddenly, and given the nature of his work you couldn't help but imagine that something terrible had happened and the more time passed, the more this thesis was confirmed.
Of course, you knew he couldn't always answer the phone, and there had been other times when, for example, following an undercover operation you didn't hear from him for even a week but in those cases he did everything to warn you first, reassuring youâd see each other as soon as possible.
This time, however, you had a horrible feeling, a premonition that was sadly confirmed by Voight.
You were packing up the ambulance near the end of your shift when your cell phone rang and Sergeant Voight's name appeared on your screen. Your heart instantly skipped a beat and you instantly understood something serious mustâve happened for him to call you.
âHello? Sarge?â you answered almost immediately.
âHi kid,â his hoarse voice replied âI hope Iâm not disturbing you. Itâs about HalsteadâŠâ
You closed your eyes as if those words had caused you physical pain, as if someone had hit you in the face. All the colors disappeared from your face and anxiety twisted your stomach.
âWhat happened? Is he fine? Tell me he's okay please,â you spoke frantically, getting out of the ambulance and closing it âWhere is he?â.
You heard Voight sigh on the other end of the phone. âHe's fine now, he⊠He was kidnapped but we found him. We are at Med's. I wanted to tell you before you heard from someone else. I'm sure he'll be happy to see you.â
You couldn't describe the horrible feeling that went through you hearing those words. It was like someone ripped your heart out of your chest clamping your lungs, you stopped breathing for a second and you didn't care how exaggerated that might be, but whatever happened to him you wished it was you on the hospital bed.
âI'll be right there,â you said and closed the call before waiting for Voightâs answer. You didn't even care about warning your boss, much less some of your colleagues watched you ran away like you were nuts, you just wanted to go to him, you just wanted to see him, make sure he was okay.
The car journey to the Med's was one of the most distressing and longest of your life. You nearly collided with other cars several times but at that moment the only thought that crossed your mind was Jay.
What had happened to him? Was it serious? Was he awake?
God please let him be okay.
You tried to swallow the lump in your throat. That wasn't the time to cry, to be weak, you had to be there for Jay.
You thought for a moment what would happen if⊠God, fuck, you didn't even want to think about it, you couldn't imagine it. You couldn't even think of not having him in your life, you couldn't imagine not being able to see him anymore, getting lost in his eyes, never hearing his laughter or seeing his radiant smile again. You couldn't even think you couldn't hug him when you were sad, stuff yourselves with food watching trash TV until a nervous breakdown.
You didn't even realize you were crying until you got to Med's and parked your car. You quickly dried your tears and ran to the hospital, where, in the waiting room, you found all of his colleagues. And by all of his colleagues, you meant everyone.
Erin Lindsay was there and her disgusted gaze was on you.
âWhat the hell are you doing here?!â she exclaimed approaching you threateningly. You didn't let yourself be intimidated, on the contrary, the mere tone of her voice made your blood boil in your veins. How dare she talk to you like that?
âDon't you even dare take one more step towards me. Move out to way, Iâm here to see Jay,â you spat with venom as the others looked at each other unsure whether to intervene or not.
âLindsayâŠâ Voight called back, grabbing her arm but she jerked away from his grip, still glaring at you with contempt.
âTurn your ass and get the fuck out of here. I've had enough of you, I'm so tired of always having you around Y/N. Why don't you just understand he doesn't want you?!â.
âYou seem to be very familiar with walking away and running away don't you? Isn't that what you always do huh? Avoid problems? You really got some nerve to be here after you left him,â you pointed a finger at her. âI'm not going to stand here and make you yell at me. You really want me to believe you care about him? You wouldn't even be here if he wasnât kidnapped!â.
âI left him? Is that what he told you?â Erin let out a wry laugh âI canât believe it. I really wonder what he saw in you. Seriously, look at yourself. You're so pathetic...â
A wave of anger shot through your body and before she could even continue her insults, your fist slammed into her face, causing her to flinch back. Everyone let out a verse of bewilderment, immediately intervening to separate you and Lindsay who were about to kill each other right then and there.
âY/N! Fuckâs sake! Just calm down! Take it easy, itâs okay,â Kevin dragged you away, shaking you off your shoulders as if to bring you to your senses. You watched her walk away with Voight, one hand on her bleeding nose.
You knew the repercussions there would be but you couldn't care less because it felt so good. You've wanted to do this for so long, for the way she's always treated you, for the contempt she's always shown towards you.
âI'm calm, I'm okay,â you muttered, throwing your hands up in surrender and trying to ignore the pain in the hand you punched her with. âI'm sorry about this but⊠I have toâŠâ
âI know that's not true,â Kevin chuckled âGo,â he nodded towards Jay's room and without having to repeat it twice you immediately went to him.
You entered the room and closed the door behind you, immediately glancing at the man lying on the bed and the sound of his heartbeats coming from the machine filled the silence.
Your heart broke into a thousand pieces as you saw his battered face, a purple bruise on his cheek, a cut on his eyebrow and and other one on the lower lip which felt deep and quite sore. But despite this he was still the most beautiful man you've ever seen in your life.
You approached him, keeping as quiet as possible in an effort not to wake him up. He almost looked like an angel while he slept, as if nothing could hurt or disturb him at that moment.
You placed a hand on his cheek, caressing it with such delicacy and lightness you were almost uncertain of the contact. Your fingers ran through his hair, a gesture you knew he loved and made him relaxed.
Your eyes traveled down his chest and only then you noticed the white bandage that wrapped around his chest. You tried to keep from crying. You hated it, you hated he was suffering, you hated you weren't there with him to help him. Your heart was tightened even more as you noticed red marks on his wrists, some superficial and some a little deeper, a sign that he had been tied up.
âWhat have they done to you?â You whispered and your eyes were on his face again, continuing to run your fingers gently through his hair. âI'm so sorry Jay.â
You didn't know exactly what you were apologizing for, you just did.
You stayed next to him for an indefinite amount of time, you didn't look at the time but you understood that hours had passed when the sunlight was replaced by the darkness of the night.
Will tried to convince you to go home and rest and that heâd call you for any news but you refused, you didn't want Jay to wake up alone in that cold hospital room. You knew how much he loathed them and you wanted him to see a friendly face as soon as he opened his eyes.
The attempt of Jay's team was also useless, when they understood youâd never leave until he woke up, they recommended you to update them on any changes.
You spent hours sitting on a chair next to his bed until you too were asleep, your arms resting on Jay's legs.
When he opened his eyes he found himself plunged into darkness if it hadn't been for the dim light from the hospital chandelier. It didn't take him long to remember what had happened, what had led him to be there. He tried to stand up but an excruciating pain shot through his chest, forcing him to lay down again.
This and also the sleeping figure in front of him.
A small smile was born on his swollen lips as he watched you sleep sitting on the chair that seemed anything but comfortable. How long have you been there?
He raised a hand and didn't even have time to rest it on your arm before you snapped sitting, looking around panicked for a moment. Your eyes widened to see Jay in front of you with his eyes finally open and the joy you felt in that moment was like nothing else you've ever felt.
âJay! Thank God you're awake!â You exclaimed and in the joy of the moment you hugged him, squeezing him harder than you shouldâve and letting a small cry of pain escape him âSorry, I didn't mean to hurt you,â you pulled away from him âHow are you feeling? Are you okay? Should I call Will?â.
Jay shook his head slightly, a small smile on his lips. âI am fine. Where is the bed remote control? I need to sit up.â
You quickly grabbed the remote from the nightstand next to the bed and handed it to him, watching as the back of the bed lifted and he settled into position so he could finally take a good look at you. âCome here, why are you so far away?â He patted the mattress and you didn't let yourself repeat it twice, sitting next to him.
âVoight called meâŠâ you were the first to speak âBut he didn't tell me what happened.â
Jay let out a sigh, flinching as a pain shot through his chest. âIt was an undercover mission, nothing too difficult. I was supposed to exchange the money with the drugs and then arrest them. Easy,â he explained, âI donât know how but someone of them found out I was a cop so they kidnapped me and as you can see they beat me up for the holidays.â
Your eyes filled with tears but that time you couldn't hold them back. You felt a whirlwind of emotions, fear, happiness, anxiety, relief and it was too much for you to hold back and you lowered your gaze to not let him see you.
âHey, hey, hey,â Jay's voice came as a sweet melody to your ears âPlease don't cry Y/N, I donât like seeing you like this. It's okay now, I'm fine, it's going to take a lot longer for you to get rid of me,â he attempted to reassure you. âCome here darling.â His hands pulled you close as his arms wrapped around you in a warm hug. You hugged him back, being careful not to hurt him further, and let yourself go into a liberating cry, so grateful you still had the opportunity to be able to do this.
His lips kissed your cheek and your heart leapt in your chest at the contact.
God Jay you're killing me.
âI'm so sorry Jay, you shouldn't be the one to comfort me now,â you murmured, pulling away from the hug, still looking down. You grabbed a tissue off the top of the nightstand and wiped away your tears, still shaken from everything that had happened. You felt so selfish at the same time Jay was on a hospital bed and you were the desperate one.
âY/N don't even say that as a joke. Look at me, please.â
You did as he told you and your eyes met his, triggering a sensation that was like being kicked in the stomach.
âI'm fine, okay? These are just bruises, they hurt but they will go away. I wish I could tell you it's the last time but I can't, it will happen again but I want you to know Iâll always find a way back to you, okay? I won't leave you alone.â
His words were like a snake venom and antidote at the same time.
âJay⊠PleaseâŠâ you whispered, tears still flowing from your eyes âDon't do this to me.â
A confused expression appeared on his face. âWhat do you mean?â.
You shook your head, as if trying to tell him it didn't mean anything. âI just⊠I was so scared JayâŠI thought about losing youâŠâ
Jay reached for your hand but a frown appeared on his face as he noticed, despite the dim lights, the swelling on it. âY/N what the hell is this? What happened to you? Why is your hand like this?â.
Shit.
You withdrew your hand, moving your fingers slightly but not showing how sore it was. You had never thrown a punch before and never imagined how painful it was. âNothing. I closed my hand in the car door on the way here, it's no big deal.â
You knew heâd never buy this excuse but it was worth a try.
âDo you really think Iâm that stupid? Tell me the truth. Did someone hurt you?â.
You sighed. âYouâll hate me.â
Jay looked at you like you just sprouted a second head, really confused. âWhat? Why on earth should I hate you?â.
âI punched Erin,â you blurted out so quickly, wishing he hadn't heard you but when you saw his eyes widen so wide they almost popped out of their socket, you knew he definitely did.
âWhat? You really did it? Seriously?â He struggled to imagine that you could do something like that, youâd never hurt even a fly. âWhy? Why happened?â.
âShe started saying bad things to me and I got so mad so I just⊠Punched her,â you sighed âI didn't even realize it⊠I know I shouldn't haveâŠâ
Jay was silent for a moment, still unable to believe what you had just said. He knew there was bad blood between you and his ex-girlfriend but he never imagined youâd even punch her but he also knew, without any shadow of a doubt, that if you had come this far it was because you had a reason to.
âYou hate me now right?â.
He shook his head. âAbsolutely not Y/N. I mean, I don't like the idea of you going around punching people but I guess you had your reasons.â
You thought back to Erin's words and that was enough to make you angry again. She deserved it all right and you don't regret it even a bit.
âShe's still your ex girlfriendâŠâ
âI know.â
You noticed the way his expression didn't change a bit at the mention of her, he had no reaction. He was more worried about your hand then her. âYou donât care she was here?â.
He remained silent for a moment, observing you for a few moments and then shook his head slightly. âNot one bit, I told I wouldnât care if she came back. I know it's a bad thing to say, but that's how it is.â
âBut you were together until a few days ago how can you not care?â You were so confused.
âIâm the one broke up with her, after all. I think it's normal.â
It wasnât but still.
It was your turn to widen your eyes and mouth in shock. Did you hear that right?
âWhat? Really?! I thought she was the one who left you.â
You never expected it, you really thought sue was the one who suddenly left him and not the other way around. You had so many questions to ask him but you didn't know whether to ask him or not, after all it was none of your business.
He nodded. âIt wasn't fair to just go on with that relationship, not for me or for her.â
âAnd whyâs that?â you asked, afraid to hear the answer. Your eyes were fixed on him and even with that little light they managed to shine and stand out. Your heart was pounding so hard you thought you were having a heart attack at any moment, the air suddenly became tense and every cell in your body seemed to be on fire.
âIâŠâ he spoke âI have someone else in mind.â
Your pounding heart stopped for an instant and the thump in your stomach was such that you felt like you were about to throw up.
âOh.â
That was all you could say. You tried to keep your expression neutral as if these short simple words hadn't hit you full in the face like a lorry. Being run over wouldâve probably hurt less.
You swallowed the lump in your throat, biting the insides of your cheeks and pressing nails against your palms to avoid crying in front of him again.
You couldn't believe it, or rather, yes, you could believe it but you didn't imagine it would hurt so much. You couldnât believe it was happening again. It was like Erin all over again.
Oh god no please, I canât do this.
You wondered who she was. Was she someone you knew? He had never mentioned someone else yet you two talked about everything. Or almost everything.
You looked down rubbing your hands on your pants before standing up and walking over to the nightstand. Jay followed your movements with his eyes, watching you pour water into a glass before drinking it in one gulp.
âDo you want some?â you asked him, but without looking at him and keeping your eyes on the glass
âYes, thank you,â he replied confused âY/N⊠Are you okay?â.
âSure,â you babbled as you grabbed another glass and poured some water into it. You handed it to him, never meeting his eyes. You couldn't look at him, not at the time. If you had done it you wouldâve collapsed and you couldn't in front of him, you didn't want to.
He drank the water and the dryness in his throat finally went away, feeling suddenly better. He continued to look at you, noting how your head was turned towards the window.
âY/N⊠Can you look at me please? Whatâs going on?â he pressed confused on your sudden change of mood.
You turned to him and gave him a quick glance, noticing the empty plastic cup in his hands. âDo you want some more?â You asked feebly as you reached up to him to take your glass but before you could pull away he grabbed your wrists, his grip both firm and delicate at the same time. You jumped, not expecting it, dropping the plastic glass on the floor.
âLook at me,â he urged but you refused, your eyes watering and the lump in your throat increasingly suffocating. A solitary tear slid down your cheek as he placed his thumb and forefinger under your chin, lifting your head and forcing you to look at him.
âY/N talk to me please,â he whispered and his tone was so soft it was enough to send you over the edge. You lost control and started crying. He pulled you into a hug, wrapping his arms around your body as best as he could.
âNo⊠Just let me go...â you muttered through your tears, trying to escape his grip. You couldn't do this, it was too much for you, too much to bear. You just wanted to run away in that moment, to be away from him.
âShh, it's okay darling, it's okay. I'm here with you, I'm not going anywhere,â he whispered in your ear as his hand stroked your back in an attempt to cheer you up. But he couldn't do it.
This was all so paradoxical. He was the only person on earth able to understand you, to make you feel better with a single hug and with the mere presence of him and it was paradoxical because, at the same time, he was also the cause of your suffering.
âN-no JayâŠâ you stammered, pulling away from his embrace âPlease let me go. Don't do this to me. Stop doing this to me...â
You stood up and walked away from him, wiping your tears with the backs of your hands. âI can't take it anymore Jay, I can't do this again.â
âDoing what? Y/N please come here. Talk to me,â he begged you.
Is he serious?
You shook your head and wordlessly walked to the door to leave, but when you heard movement behind you you whirled around to see Jay taking off the covers from his body and climbing out of bed.
âWhat are you doing? No! Get back to bed,â you ordered, your cheeks still wet with tears, running towards him when his feet hit the ground and tried to get up. He grabbed your wrists again, pulling you towards him and placing you between his legs. âJayâŠâ
âTell me what's going on and I'll let you go,â his voice was firm and decisive and his tone hinted heâd live up to his words even if it meant trudging all the way out of the hospital.
âJay for fuckâs sake why canât you just understand? You really don't see it? You really canât see I canât take all of this anymore? You really can't see how much I fucking love you and how much I care about you! I can't do it anymore Jay, I really tried with Erin⊠I tried to help you, to be supportive⊠I tried but I can't take it a second time⊠I canâtâŠâ You blurted out in the heat of the moment but slapped your mouth with your hands as soon as you realized what you had just said. You wished a hole would open in the ground and the earth would swallow you alive.
Jay was looking at you as if he had just seen a ghost and the silence that had invaded the room was almost deafening. You didn't expect an answer, you knew he wouldn't say anything, but God it was so still painful.
âY/N⊠IâŠâ he stammered, speechless.
âJay⊠Don't worry, seriously,â you interjected trying to keep your composure even if you were feeling a storm inside âI know you don't feel the same and it's fine, I'm sorry for telling you like thisâŠâ you croaked, your voice broken by tears âBut now it's better if I go... You need to rest.â
The grip around your wrists loosened and you took the opportunity to free yourself away. You took a few steps back, your heart heavy as Jay continued to stare at you petrified.
You were about to leave when, suddenly and against all your expectations, you felt a hand on your arm that made you turn around and a pair of lips pressed against yours.
Your eyes widened in shock as your mind tried to process what was happening. Time seemed to stop and even though his lips were touching yours so lightly it felt like they were just caressing each other, it was as if a storm had hit you full blown.
That kiss was light, sweet, as if he was testing your reaction but when you closed your eyes and returned it, that lightness was immediately replaced by the determination with which his mouth moved against yours.
His hands were on your face as you both let go and for an instant you forgot about everything around you, that you were in a hospital room, that a minute ago you had confessed his love for him. You wanted that kiss for so long. For so long you watched him from a distance and imagined what it would be like to have his lips on yours and now that you were really feeling it, god, it felt like heaven.
No image created in your mind could compare to the flock of butterflies flying in your stomach, to the feeling that kiss made you experience.
It was like thunder hit you, like an explosion of rainbows, like being electrocuted, like being burned alive.
You wanted so badly to find the right words to describe what you felt but you just couldn't.
Jay slid his fingers from your cheeks through your hair, deepening the kiss more and more, forgetting the wound on his lip and all the pains that coursed through his body. Your hands clenched the hospital gown he wore into a fist, being careful not to touch him even though your mind was completely racing.
He was kissing you fervently now, passionately, as if his life depended on it, as if he wanted to suck your soul out of your body. And that was exactly how you felt. If you didn't know him better, you wouldâve said he was kissing you as if he too had wanted it for a long time, as if he was trying to vent all the frustration that had accumulated over time.
When you pulled away you were both out of breath like after a marathon. His hands stroked your hair before brushing your cheeks as his thumbs traced imaginary circles on your skin. His nose kept brushing yours and you didn't know how you managed to stand, your legs feeling like jelly.
âYou didn't ask me who she is,â he whispered and if he wasn't already hurt you probably wouldâve punched him. How could he say such a thing? How could he kiss you and then say that?
âJay what the fuck...â you tried to walk away but he interrupted you.
âAsk me Y/N. Ask me whoâs the person I always have in my mind. Who is the woman I left Erin for.â His eyes kept alternating between yours and your lips trembling and flushed and a little swollen from that impetuous kiss.
âFuck you! No, I don't want to know! How can you say this!â.
âShh,â he smiled slightly as his thumb traced the outline of your lips. How could he smile in such a situation and be so heartless? âPlease Y/N. Trust me. Ask me.â
âYou are such an asshole Jay, I can't believe thisâŠâ
âIt's you,â he cut you off again and you froze, not believing you heard right.
âW-what?â.
âItâs you. Youâre the person whoâs constantly on my mind, you are the one who invades my thoughts from the moment I wake up in the morning until I close my eyes at night. I couldn't continue with her, I tried, I tried to ignore it, but you were always there in front of me, always in my head even when you weren't there,â he confessed âWhen I realized you were the one I want, that it was you who made my heart beat more than anyone else ever did⊠Fuck, I canât even talk with you looking at me like this,â he stopped, pressing his fingers on your skin, as if to vent the built up tension.
âI realized it was you when the thought of losing you terrified more than I could even admit, when seeing her didnât make me turn my stomach or lose my breath like it happen with you,â he paused, taking a small breath, winching at the pain âI didn't know what to do, how to behave with you, I didn't know if you felt the same and I didn't want to risk ruining our friendship and losing you, I preferred a thousand times to have you only as a friend than not to have you at all in life. But, shit, I love you too so much you stupidâŠâ he sighed, his confession heavy in the air and at that point the tears flowed like rivers down your cheeks which he quickly wiped away with his thumbs âIt was always you, always and only you and Iâm so sorry i realized it so late, Iâm so sorry I didnât realize how you were feeling and made you suffer like that, I will never forgive myself for that. I don't want to see you cry anymore, I don't want to see a single tear come out of these beautiful eyes again, okay? I'm yours Y/N, if you want me I'll be forever and irrevocably yours.â
You didn't know what to say.
You didn't know what to do.
You have never been in such a state of total shock like in that moment.
A thousand questions crossed your mind but you couldn't find an answer to any of them.
âJay,â you exhaled in frustration, still crying âI don't want to suffer, I don't want to go to sleep crying anymore, I'm so tired of this. I can't⊠I love you, god, how much I love you. You⊠You make me lose my mind, my heart goes crazy for you but I also know I don't want to suffer and even if I'm in love I don't want to keep my eyes closed and be naive,â you spoke, your eyes locked in his âYou just got out of a relationship and I don't want to think I'm a reboundâŠâ
âBut you're not baby, I swear you will never be. You are all I wantâŠâ he urged âI left her because I want you Y/N.â
âJay this doubt wonât make me live peacefully. The moment Iâll be in a relationship with you, I want us to start it without interruption, without risks, without fears, without ghosts of the past,â you retorted âYou canât imagine how many times I wished for this to happen, more than youâll ever know, but I donât want it to be like this, not when you got out of a relationship two days ago.â
âThen I'll prove it to you, I promise Y/N. I want you, only you, forever. I understand you're scared and I promise I'll do anything to make this fear go away, I promise I'll do everything in my power to make you happy. I don't want to give up on you, not now that I know you feel the same. God I'd let you get into my head just to show you how much every single one of my thoughts are directed only and solely towards you.â He pulled your hands away from your cheeks just so he could intertwine his fingers with yours, bringing your hands up to your lips and kissing both of them, you eyes piercing your soul with their intensity.
âYouâll be mine, that's a promise.â
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Hi! Congratulations on graduating! I have a request for a Francis x reader (Malcom in the middle). I just started watching the show and I'm like in love with him. Anyways could you write about how while Francis is away his family gets new neighbors, and the reader is the daughter of the neighbors. She's really smart and shy. Malcom develops a huge crush on the reader and tells Francis all about it once he returns from military school. Francis starts teasing Malcom thinking the reader is malcoms age, however Lois invites the neighbors over for dinner to properly introduce each other. When they come over Francis is completely ready to tease his younger brother and his little crush however when the reader walks in and she's not who expected he's starstruck!And he ends up completely speechless the whole dinner having to watch Malcom awfully flirt with who he thinks is the love of his life.i can't decide how I want it to end sooo... But maybe he ends up pulling the reader aside flirting with her watching her get all flustered and then the reader admitted he's cute while being all reed in the face! I just want a cute fluffy happy ending!!đđ
The Boy Next Door's Brother (Francis Wilkerson X Reader)
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Summary: All Francis hears from Malcolm these days is how cute the new neighbor girl is. Imagine his surprise when he comes home for the weekend to find that the neighbor girl is his age and Malcolm is still trying to impress her.
A/N: M/n means momâs name and D/n means dadâs name
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Francis loved his brother. He really did. They had a deep bond created through the traumatic experience of having an insane mother. Nothing could ever break that.
But he was getting sick and tired of Malcolmâs phone calls. Every time without fail, he found a way to bring up their new neighbor. Despite how much Malcolm talked about her, Francis didnât really know much. Just that her name was Y/n, she had moved there about a month ago, and she was really nice.
Francis would be coming home from military school for the weekend, and he was slightly dreading it. Not just because heâd have to deal with his overbearing mother. If he was annoyed with Malcolm and his infatuation with the neighbor girl while thousands of miles away, imagine how heâd be while living in the same house.
After a long flight, Hal picked Francis up from the airport, and soon enough, they were home. Francis now felt relieved because he could lounge around for the weekend and not worry about homework or ways that Commandant Spangler would be out to get him. His brothers were absolutely ecstatic to see him, pushing each other to get to him first. Although he wanted to rest, Francis was happy to see his little brothers as well.
âHey, Francis!â His mom yelled from the kitchen, scrubbing dishes. âHow was your flight?â
âIt was fine.â He responded, tossing his travel bag on the couch. âWhatâs for dinner?â
âSpaghetti and meatballs. Oh! I forgot to tell you, but weâre having the new neighbors over for dinner tonight. They finally got settled into the house, and we need them on our side before anyone else in the neighborhood tries to poison them against us.â
âAh yes, normal neighbor activities.â
Francis was suddenly excited. Even though Malcolm going on and on about Y/n annoyed him, he was curious to see the girl that Malcolm wouldnât shut up about.Â
âSo, Malcolm, heard your girlfriendâs coming over,â Francis smirked as he teased his brother. Malcolm started to blush, the redness reaching his ears.
âSheâs not my girlfriend.â He muttered.
âAre you sure?â Francis asked. âThe way you talk about her, I thought you guys were getting married.â
âShut up!â Malcolm whined, but there was a shy smile on his face.
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A few hours later, it was dinnertime. While Lois served up dinner, Francis heard a knock on the door. Malcolm raced to the door but was beaten to it by his brother.
âFrancis, come on!â
âNo, I wanna see the girl you keep talking about.â He pushed his little brother away and opened the door. A couple stood on the doorstep with shy but pleasant smiles.
âHi there!â The man spoke. âIâm D/n, this is my wife M/n, and our daughter Y/n should be coming soon. Sheâs finishing up her homework.â
âNice to meet you guys. Iâm Francis, the oldest. Come on in.â He allowed the couple inside, and they went to the kitchen to greet the family. He was about to close the door behind him when he heard a shout.
âWait!â He stuck his head out the door and saw a girl running across her yard to get to the door. âDonât close the door, please!â
Francis opened it wider for the girl. When she was closer to his view, he couldnât help but be amazed by the sight in front of him. All this time, Francis thought that Y/n was Malcolmâs age. But as it turns out, she seemed more around his age. Theyâd probably be in the same grade if they were in school together. Reaching the front step, he was even more taken aback by how pretty she was.
âHi.â She said, slightly out of breath. âIâm Y/n.â
âIâm Francis.â He had to push his way through the response. âIâm the oldest brother.â
âReally?â Y/n asked as he let her into the house. âIâve never seen you before.â
âI, uh, I go to military school in Alabama.â
âWow, you mustâve come a long way then!â
âHey, Y/n.â Francis suddenly became annoyed again. Malcolm was leaning against the wall with a sly smile, staring up at the girl. She grinned.
âHey, Malcolm! How have you been?â They started their own conversation, leaving Francis alone with his thoughts as they walked to the table. Shaking his head to refocus, Francis followed after them.
Francis felt both blessed and cursed. He was seated next to Y/n, but Malcolm was on the other side of her. He constantly tried to flirt with her, and Francis didnât know whether to laugh or cringe. Luckily, Y/n started talking to Francis halfway through the dinner, seemingly very interested in his life. Much to Malcolmâs annoyance, their conversation lasted way past dinner, branching off into different topics of interest.
âHe might kill me for telling you this.â Francis started, picking at a loose wood chip on the picnic table in his parentâs backyard. âBut Malcolm talks to me about you all the time.â
âAw, thatâs so sweet.â Y/n smiled.
âYeah, but I didnât expect you to be my age. I totally thought you were a middle schooler, the way he kept talking about you.â She started laughing, and it felt so contagious that Francis couldnât help but laugh along with her.
âMalcolmâs such a sweetheart. Heâs like a little brother if Iâm being honest.â If only Malcolm knew that.Â
âYou know, I also didnât expect you to be so pretty.â Francis felt bold for flirting with a girl he had just met and that his brother had a crush on. But he just couldnât help it. Maybe it was the crazy hormones his dad told him about when giving him the talk, but Francis felt like he was having a real connection with this girl.
Y/n tried to cover up her flushed cheeks and giddy smile, but it was useless.
âI canât believe Malcolm never told me he had an older brother.â Building up courage, she started tracing shapes on the table and fiddling with her hair. âAlthough, even if he did, I wouldnât have guessed that you would be this cute.âÂ
The two teens grinned shyly at each other. The rest of the night was filled with more conversations and flirtations. They talked so long that by the time Y/n said she should probably go home, her parents were already gone, and the Wilkerson family had all dispersed to do their own things.
âYou didnât have to walk me back. I mean, after all, Iâm right next door.â Y/n said as she reached her front door, turning to Francis. He shrugged.
âYeah, I know. But I like talking to you.â She grinned, and he took a deep breath, preparing to make his move. âSo, look, Iâm leaving tomorrow afternoon. And Iâd rather hear about you and your day from you instead of my brother, so⊠I was wondering if I could have your number?â He didnât know why he was so nervous. But all nerves were put at ease when Y/nâs smile widened.
âOf course! Let me grab a marker.â Y/n opened the front door and sifted through the junk drawer in the stand next to it. She pulled out a sharpie and grabbed Francisâ wrist. They both blushed at the contact. âCall me anytime.â She capped the marker, looking at him.
âDefinitely.â Deciding to make another move, Francis leaned forward and kissed her cheek, backing away immediately after in slight fear of an opposing reaction. âGood night, Y/n.â
âGood night, Francis.â She quickly kissed his cheek in return before making her way inside, closing the door behind her. Francis went home with some lip gloss residue on his cheek and a smile plastered on his lips. He quietly opened and closed the door, reminiscent of how he would when he still lived at home and would sneak in and out after curfew.
Francis got ready for bed and walked to his bed, which was the couch that sat in front of the TV. He was surprised to see Malcolm standing there waiting for him, arms crossed with a scowl.
âI canât believe you would mess with my game like that, Francis!â He scolded. Francis laughed, messing with his brotherâs hair and pushing him away from his makeshift bed.
âYou donât have any game for me to mess with, little brother.â He laid down on the couch, stretching his limbs. âNow go away.â
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"fight or flight" by conan gray but make it steve x r
so like (you don't have to incorporate this but this is what my silly little thoughts came up with) r crushing on steve despite their long, strong friendship. r having to see steve with a new girl every week. r wishing it was her. and finally, r can't take it anymore and then that's where the song comes in "well, fight or flight, i'd rather die than have to cry in front of you. fight or flight, i'd rather lie than tell you i'm in love with you." and yeah.. aslkfjlsdk sorry if this didn't make sense đđ
cleo!!! this is one of my favorite songs by conan and i hope i was able to do your request justice đ§žđ i kinda left the ending up to you to decide and i really hope you like this!!!
ive been loving the angst requests ive been getting and this is def one of my favorite ones i've written so far!!! đđ«
It was so wrong. So very, very wrong. But at this point, you shouldâve seen this coming.Â
Youâve known Steve and been his friend long before high school. The two of you practically grew up together, hung out all the time, and there was only a brief pause in your friendship when freshman year came alongâŠSteve transforming into King SteveâŠthe version of Steve you didnât quite know anymore.Â
While the break in your friendship during that time was short, it wasnât until he showed up at your doorstep apologizing for his behavior that you two reconciled. And then the two of you were back to being the best of friends, only this time, the desire for Steve starting to develop as the years went by.Â
By now the two of you had graduated high school, each of you moving out of your parentsâ home and renting out an apartment just a few minutes away from your neighborhood.
It was nice having Steve as a roommate.Â
Having someone you could talk to at two in the morning when you couldnât sleep.Â
Waking up to breakfast being made in the kitchen with coffee just the way you liked it.Â
Drunk karaoke nights where the two of you would belt out duets and receive angry letters in the mail from sleepless neighbors.Â
And of course, a person you could always give you a hug at any given moment during the day.Â
But sometimes it sucked to be roommates with Steve.Â
Three months ago, he stumbled into your shared apartment with Tina, glue to his side. Offering you a shy smile as she and him giggled their way into his bedroom and spent the night together.Â
You and Steve usually had movie nights on the weekends, and there was one instance where he phoned you from work, apologizing, saying he couldnât make it because he had scored a date with a customer.Â
The kitchen, just a few footsteps from the living room where the landline was, you could hear Steve talking to the next girl he was seeing, shooting her compliments as you tried not to seem affected by it, beating the eggs a little rougher as you tuned his voice out.Â
And the shittiest part?
Having him come to you for advice on whichever girl he was seeing. Putting on a fake smile and nodding your head like you gave a shit about any of them when the only wish you had was that it was you that Steve was seeing.Â
Fight or flight?Â
Sometimes you could expect if he was coming to you for your advice regarding his dates. This was a lifesaver because you could fight it off, telling him to just talk to them if he was so worried about not hearing back. But most times your flight would activate, pretending to be asleep when he knocked on your bedroom door telling you it was a girl emergency. Or making up excuses that you had to run errands before he had time to even ask you at all.Â
âHello? Did she really zone out?â Your frozen eyes fluttered lazily, coming back to your senses while Nancy and Robin stood in front of you, flapping their hands in your face and looking at each other.Â
âS-sorry!â You withdrew, shaking your head as you got yourself together, fingers stiffening around the red solo cup you were holding filled with lemonade.Â
Somehow you had been convinced to come to this party, by none other than Steve, of course. Thankfully, Robin, Nance, and Eddie were around too, sticking by your introverted side while Steve socialized with familiar faces.Â
Robin smiled earnestly, shaking her head at your apology. âSâok, you were justâŠstaring a bit too hard at Harrington.âÂ
âDonât be ridiculous, Robs,â Eddie chimed in, nudging her shoulder than sending a smirk your way, âshe was practically eye-fucking him.âÂ
Nancy choked on her drink, suppressing her laugh, as you rolled your eyes, doing an awful job at concealing the blush that was developing on your cheeks prompting you to turn the other way.Â
âDonât be dick!â Robin scolded, shoving at Eddieâs head as he just continued to laugh to himself.Â
You felt arms around you, flickering your eyes to Robin who was now holding you securely with her head on your shoulder, âShe just has a crush alrightâŠnothing wrong with that.âÂ
âOh, I didnât say there was anything wrong with her little crushâŠIâm just sick of these two dancing around their feelings.â Eddie noted, followed by the tsk of your tongue.Â
âThere are no feelings on his sideâŠtrust me.â You exhaled wistfully, resting your head on top of Robinâs as she and Nancy grunted skeptically.Â
On the other side of your shoulder, you felt Nance slot herself there, glancing up at you. âSteveâs an asshole and heâs bad at feelingsâŠbut I know he likes you.âÂ
âWeâve been friends for years and heâs never made a move on me.â You speculated, and Eddie rolled his eyes, taking a sip of his drink before speaking.Â
âLike Wheeler said, heâs bad with feelingsâŠshit, Iâm bad at feelings too, but that wonât stop me from getting some.âÂ
The three of you girls furrowed your brows at the somewhat tipsy metal head, âWhat the fuck are you talking about?â Robin shook her head as Eddie howled.Â
âI hate to shit on my species here, but we find ways at avoiding. Steve likes you, alright? But he just doesnât know how to tell youâŠbetter yet, heâs scared! So what does he do in return?âÂ
Nancy leans forward, shrugging her shoulders towards him. âSleep around?âÂ
âExactly!â Eddie beams and snaps his fingers, like a proud professor or something.Â
You go for another drink, teeth biting down on the plastic as you grumbled, âSeems like a pretty fucked up thing if you ask me.âÂ
Robin nods, peering up at you. âHave you ever thought about going for girls? They arenât as complicated, trust me.â She half jokes, as you laugh lightly, waving her off.Â
âMaybe you should make the first move?â Eddie proposed as you puffed, letting out an absurd laugh, shaking your head with vigor.Â
âNope!â You pointed your finger at him, wagging it back and forth as he pouted innocently, âNever going to fucking happen.âÂ
Nancy squeezed your elbow, gaining your attention. âYouâll never know what could have been unless you say something.âÂ
Your eyes widened, shaking your head even more roughly, âNo! Not you too! Câmon, back me up Robs!âÂ
You turned back to Robin who smiled, looking over towards Steve who was talking to some guys at the punch table. âThey have a pointâŠand heâs right there!âÂ
Eddie leaned closer to your ear, whispering, âAnd no girl in sight.âÂ
There was a point Eddie was making. Steve hadnât been seeing any girls that you knew of for the past couple of weeks. In fact, he was more adamant about staying in at the apartment with you. Spending nights together falling asleep on the couch watching movies and waking up in the morning a tangled mess as the two of you laughed and made breakfast together.Â
Maybe he did like you?
âOh shit! Youâre debating it, arenât you!â Robin egged on, bumping your shoulder with hysteria, seeing the look in your eyes change the second you found Steve in the crowded home.Â
Nancy yelped, jumping up and down and hitting Eddieâs chest cheerfully, âSheâs totally gonna do it!âÂ
âWell, what are you waiting for, princess?â Eddie pushed you lightly, giving you some bravery. âGo and tell the boy you love him.âÂ
You snapped back, eyes widening, âI do not love Steve!âÂ
The three rolled their eyes, sick of your horrible way of lying or being so bad at knowing your own feelings that you couldnât tell the difference between an innocent crush and the obvious love that you held for Steve.Â
âYouâve been friends for yearsâŠyou love him. How many times do you two say âI love youâ to each other on a daily basis?â
Ok true, you two did say you love each other, every night before heading off to bed and every morning before youâd part for work. But it was in a friend wayâŠright?Â
Ok maybe you said it more than those two instances.
Like when Steve would drop you off lunch even when you didnât ask. Or that one time that Steve almost forgot to turn off the stove and when he called you panicking, but you had already turned it off the second you got home and saw the red light illuminating the glass.Â
You loved SteveâŠmore than a best friend should.Â
âLadies, I think itâs finally hitting her.â Eddie declared as the two girls grinned and nodded.Â
No more fighting it and definitely no more running away.Â
You had to tell Steve how you felt.Â
Feeling the wave of certainty flow through your veins, you thrusted your now empty cup into Eddieâs chest and he grabbed it. The three of your friends watching as you took a deep breath and dragged your feet from the other side of the room to where Steve was.Â
His eyes instantly shifted to your figure the second he saw you appear his peripheral, shooting you that classic smile youâd never get tired of seeing time and time again.Â
âHey, you ok?â He sought, peering behind you to see your friends watching on with concentration.
âYeah, Iâm great!â You responded too enthusiastically, making him grin again, this time reaching for a cup to serve you some punch.Â
You watched his movements, moving ever so smoothly despite the cramped space, âIâI actually have to tell you something.â You straightened up, rolling your shoulders back and taking a deep breath.Â
He nodded, keeping his eyes set on you as he spooned in a ladle full of juice into the plastic cup, offering it to you, but you shook your head, waving your hands for him to keep it.Â
âYouâre shaking,â Steve furrowed his brows, noticing your shuddering hands, placing down the cup and steadying them in his hold while he squeezed.Â
The action making your knees weak, threatening for you to melt into a pile of mush and seep into the floorboards beneath you.Â
âDid someone do something to you?â He ordered worriedly, looking around the party to study every person as if they caused this state of you.Â
âNonono!â You closed your eyes, shaking your head, psychologically preparing yourself.Â
You could hear Steve let out a sigh of relief, gripping your hands once more before you opened your eyes, facing his soft gaze.Â
âIâm in love with you.âÂ
The words flew out of your mouth too fast for your like and definitely too easily. Like there was no hesitancy behind your statement. His eyes enlarged, hands freezing against yours while the two of you stared at each other, feeling like hours were passing by when it was just milliseconds.Â
âI... I, um, wow, ok, IââÂ
Steve was stumbling, undoubtedly taken aback by this confession while trying to look deep down inside himself for the right words to finally say to you, but they never came up.Â
âSteve, whatâs going on?âÂ
A voice popped up from behind him. The girl standing with a look of hurt on her face, seeing the hands tangled together. She was just a girl he met a few nights ago, the one who invited him to this party.Â
Oh, my god. You shouldâve known.Â
You dropped his hands, eyes darting between the stranger and Steve, who looked just as remorseful and apologetic, stumbling on his words once again.Â
Fight or Flight. Fight or Flight. Fight or Flight.Â
The lump in your throat grew bigger and tighter, not knowing if you should apologize or say that it was a mistake. And you could feel the tears creeping into your eyes, just moments away from slipping out, but youâd rather die than cry in front of him right now.Â
Leave. Definitely leave.Â
Spinning around, you only caught the concerned looks of your friends before you bumped into bodies trying to find the front door so that you could flee the scene as quickly as possible.Â
Thankfully, you and Steve had gotten to the party separately. Him coming from work and you taking your car. Your fingers dug into your pocket, jamming the key into the car door once you found it, and starting up the vehicle.Â
The wind rustled as you sped, loud and deep chested sobs leaving your mouth as the roads and stoplights were a blurry mess behind your tears. Cursing at yourself for being so stupid for believing that Steve could ever quit his antics and have feelings for you.Â
There was no way you and Steve could live under the same roof again. Not after this godforsaken night. So you stormed through the apartment, collecting all your belongs and stuffing it into backpacks and stray boxes you had lying around. Needing to leave this place you once called home so that you would never have to see Steve ever again and talk about what had happened.Â
But the phone rung noisily, garnering your attention as you messily crammed clothes into already full bag of garments, wanting to avoid having to do a second trip here to get all your things because that would mean running into Steve, again.
You cried, pushing off the floor and neglecting the clutter as you ran out of your room and into the living room where the landline rested on the side table. Perhaps it was Robin or Nancy calling to check up on you, knowing they were too late when they reached the outside of the party and your car was long gone.
âHello,â You sniffled, picking up the phone and trying not to sound so crushed.Â
Cries came from the other side of the line, confusing you, âAre you his fucking roommate!?â It was a female voice that snapped at you, accompanied by more cries and expletives.Â
âW-what?â You croaked, forehead creasing as you repeated the question in your head, trying to go through the list of people who it could be.
Maybe the neighbor downstairs who could hear you scrambling from above them.Â
âAre you Steveâs roommate?â The voice ordered as you gulped, detesting to hear his name.Â
You sighed sadly, closing your eyes as you could feel the hot tears never stopping since you came home, âY-yeahâŠsoon the be ex-roommate.âÂ
There was a laugh, almost mockingly, until she spoke. âI bet youâre happy with yourself! He loves you and you stole him from me! I asked him out first and you just fucking stole him from me.âÂ
You choked, fingers tightening around the phone, eyes hurling open once you realized who it was and what she was saying.Â
Then there were noises outside the door. Frustrated curses and mumbles, along with the sounds of keys jumbling against each other.Â
Slamming the phone back down onto the receiver, you stood up, darting towards the door to open it, but it had already been unlocked from the outside and there Steve was, nearly knocking into you if he hadnât halted on time.Â
His chest was rising and falling rapidly, hands shaking just like yours earlier that night as you two stared at each other.Â
And finally he spoke.Â
âIâm in love with you, too.âÂ
This time, you didnât want to fight it or flee the scene.Â
It was up to you and Steve now.Â
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ËËâ*àłË : Stardew Valley - Polyam Fam:;
Part 1/3: Demetrius x MILF! Reader, Robin & Reader.
Contains: F/M, Poly Relationships, Family Fluff, HC's, Pregnancy, Clingy! Shy! Teen Girl From Previous Relationship, Dad Isn't In The Picture, Curious! Toddler Boys w/ Your Current Mans.
A/N: TYSM for this request! It turned out way longer than i thought it would. So I'll be posting all three separately so you don't have to wait for them to all be done before i publish. đ
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ă»â„ă»Family Life!
What a blended family you have! đ So many kids from so many different pairings, it was hard for your oldest child to get used to at first. She's usually very clingy, definitely a "mama's girl", so she was uneasy at the idea of you having so many other people to take your attention away from her.
Plus, now she had to meet and join a whole new family. She was worried they wouldn't like each other.
But eventually it all worked out when they finally started talking!
Maru was the easiest to meet, she's very friendly, not much older than her, and loves meeting new people.
Robin was also so kind, she's truly so motherly, never wanting anyone to feel left out.
Demetrius took some getting used to, he's never exactly sure how to parent a child who isn't technically his, he fears overstepping or coming off like he's trying to force himself into their life. Which in turn makes him seem like he doesn't care, but he does! He's just not sure how to deal with these types of dynamics yet.
But they became close in time, he was just the father figure your daughter needed! He was always conscious about his mistakes with raising Sebastian, and he made sure to try and not repeat it with her.
Sebastian was the toughest nut to crack. He'd never been a people-person, and he couldn't help but feel a little more isolated when more people joined the family, putting even less attention onto him.
But when he realized your daughter was an introvert like him, and also didn't have her father around, he felt guilty for excluding her, obviously knowing how bad that feels. So, he eventually opened up and started to hang out with her and Maru every once in a while.
Sometimes your daughter would actually join Maru & Demetrius in the lab, learn woodworking from Robin, or play boardgames with Sebastian, Sam, and Abigail!
You and Robin also developed a close relationship! It was awkward for you at first, since y'know, you're dating her husband and now sharing a bed with them. But she never let you feel uncomfortable around her!
Any worries that jealousy or resentment could be brewing between you two were soon gone when you realized she truly loved your company. Maybe she even had a crush on you herself. đ€
You, Robin, Maru and your daughter actually started having "girl's nights" every Sunday 28th. Which usually entailed going to dinner at the saloon, then the movies, and then having dessert & playing a board game before bed.
And in turn, that forced Seb and Demetrius to have a father-son day! Usually they'd go to Ginger Island and meet up with Sam and Kent, then hit up the saloon for dinner before going home to meet you guys for the board game.
Overall the moving-in stage of the relationship was awkward at first, but now everyone is closer than ever.
...
Especially since you soon got pregnant with twins!!!
Seb and your daughter were first scared at the thought of more siblings, knowing it would change the dynamic even more.
(But as soon as your boys were born, they loved them right away hehe.)
Everyone was soo ecstatic when you got pregnant.
It'd been a long time since anyone in the valley had had any babies, so nobody could wait to meet them!
Robin and Demetrius were so sweet and helpful.
Demetrius made sure you had a well balanced diet and kept up with some light exercise.
He would also regularly lift things for you, not wanting you to hurt your back.
Just lots of acts of service!
Like: cooking more often, carrying groceries, making sure you're taking your vitamins or medications, leg & foot massages, helping you shower or dress as the pregnancy progressed, etc... etc...
He always made sure to go to EVERY doctor appointment you made, even if it wasn't for anything baby related lol.
He listened to all of Harvey's recommendations, and made sure you listened too haha. He wouldn't let you farm, mine, drink energy tonics, or eat fish or deli meat.
And if you had any pets before you moved in, he'll be in charge of cleaning up after them now.
He's a bit overbearing and smart, but you knew what you were signing up for. đ€
Robin is of course by your side too! Esp later in you're pregnancy, always checking in with you and seeing how your feeling.
Caroline and Jodi couldn't wait to be aunts again as well!
Overall, your pregnancy was great! You had so much love and support from your family and everyone in the valley!
...
Once your twin boys were born, things definitely changed, but not in a bad way!
On one hand you were very tired, even with the help of others, the boys were never easy to handle. (That was especially true as they became able to walk.)
But on the other, you loved being a mom again, and you enjoyed being able to spend some extra time with Demetrius.
He never neglected Robin or the other kids though, instead, he took some time off of work and focused on being more family-oriented.
He's such a good dad too. He'd forgotten how much fun it is to play with and talk to babies.
I think he'd be a good (temporary) house-husband too! Since Robin had to look after your farm for you, and the older kids all had jobs, it was up to him to keep up with most of the house.
But as long as you were clear and specific about what needed to be done, he was happy to help!
Everyone was also a bit more clingy with you post-partum, they just couldn't help but wanna be around the new cute babies!!
But you didn't mind, it was nice to have a lot of people available to hold the babies or help you with tasks when you were tired.
It was also sooo adorable seeing your daughter get to know her new brothers!
And things only became more fun as the boys became toddlers, they for sure inherited their dads curious, knowledge-hungry nature. đ€ Always on the move and trying to escape your arms to go explore.
They love spending time outside with you and Demetrius!
Even though they're only just now speaking sentences, Demetrius LOVES teaching them about the local flora and fauna as if they understand what he's saying. đ
It's actually so sweet though, you'll be walking your mischievous little ones on a backpack leash through the trail behind your farm, and Demetrius will see some forage or an artifact spot or smth, and he'll immediately stop and pick it up, holding it up to the boys' faces and start telling them all about it.
Meanwhile they're just trying to grab it so they can either throw it or try to it eat. đ
But you can't help but watch with hearts in your eyes, seeing 3 of the most important boys in your life have so much fun together. <3
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Ghostbusters Frozen Empires and my little review on it :) Saw it last night and decided to share my thoughts.
Okay so I would like to start out with the non-spoiler part then get into the more in depth details. Firstly I would like to say I am a huge Ghostbusters fan and I have met McKenna Grace so I might have some bias, but I really enjoyed this movie! My parents grew up with the original Ghostbusters and are really excited that Iâm into the new generation. However, I do think that they could have focused on the lore of the new characters. It seemed very jumpy with how much they were giving us and what we had to follow along with.
With that said there was a bunch of things that I loved, McKenna Grace, Paul Rudd, Dan Aykroyd, and Emily Alyn Lind carried this movie for me. I loved all the jokes and McKenna playing Phoebe in this movie is KENDJDHSKWJSJDI. She is very talented and really brings out her skills with the way Phoebeâs character developed.
Now for the Spoilers
Iâve always related to Phoebe and being her age really made me understand her thoughts and feelings throughout very well. And my god sheâs gay too. In afterlife her character was really trying to find herself and ghostbusters was her calling and having that stripped from her in this movie to make a parallel of lostness with Melody is incredible. Having her so blindly trust anyone to find a feeling of purposeâŠeven if it means going to the extreme.
To add on top of that this poor girl is going through her first gay crush
Melody willing to do anything to move on into the afterlife, even betraying PhoebeâŠ
Having Phoebe ready to give up anything to be a ghost and on the same dimensional plane as Melody.
It had me all looking for words on how to describe the feeling I had in theaters. Get Phoebe some damn therapy she was willing to die for a few minutes for a girl she just metâ But with that I would like to see the aftermath of what happens to Phoebe after seeing Melody fade away into the fabric of the universe. I want to know how she just goes back to Ghost busting after that.
Overall my end statement is that I LOVE THIS MOVIE. Iâm gladly going to see it again and definitely write and read some fan fiction đ
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Hello there đ𫶠I just want to share this rn with you..... đ Recently i have developed a crush on a girl. She is so wonderful and we talk every day & i feel so giddy LOL. I don't even know her faceđ I am so unsure over alot of things & it is both mortifying & exhilarating to experience .. & thats the fun if it..omg.. recently i feel like so many friends are having crushes i wonde r your thoughts on this..
also i forgot how to flirt entirely so i dnt even know if its noticeable to her at all that im interested that way since i havent been bold enough LOL any advice on signaling this to her is appreciated i feel like13 again likeso clumsy LOL its so exciting too omg wishing you a beautiful day when u reaD this i hope it;s fine to send this to u i know u like your inbox used as a confessional but i'm still shy HAHA
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AWWWđđđ happy for u Anon :]....Ues it seems lately many people have been finding new love, i noticed it too the past few weeks :o I've only had that feeling a handful of times over my life, its a special one cus it can be quite fleeting depending on how fast things move, treasure itđ altho W/ me and slimbo it lasted ages so by the end of it when we finally confessed love i was FRIED from haveing butterflies in my stomach for so long lol i was losing my marbles over it. anywyas--
Honeslty im BAD at flirting like. i have noooo idea how to make a move , slimbo n i both tried to keep it .pokerface. for years because we're like, i dont even know, we're stupid we were almost enemies for a while. there was a timespan where we were SOOOO competitive and whenever we tried to play games we'd fight so much and i'd end up crying LMAO im laugjing so hard typing this cus we're not even like that now. Like as soon as we got together we became the ultimate harmonious team of considerate affectionate lovers but the courting phase was such a trainwreck lmao. i love it like its beautiful it all worked out, but yeah i suck at flirting i am swagless in that positionđ§ââïž
Altho when it's irl i definitely at least try to Thot it Up, concoct minxy outfits , move in a charming way, one of my most successful tactics has been attempting to orchestrate accidental voyeuristic scenarios for them to catch in their peripherals lol. but you have to be reeeeally subtle to pull that one off ;] i guess mostly i just try to talk to them a lot !! and be thouggtful. send telepathic uncondtional love. SHOW THEM SONGS!!!!!!! if its an internet thing, maybe u can watch movies or youtube videos together. be inquisitive and ask her lots of questions ^_^ one thing that always drew me to slimbo is how curious they are and their #intellect.. But everyones different so just feel it out day by day thru communicationđđđ
hhope that helpes in some way.. its ok to feel giddy and clumsy im sure ur crush just wants to get to know the most authentic -you- so dont stress too much about specifics ^u^ Enjoy your weekend love ~ ~ ~ P.M.d.9
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Kelly remind me sooo much of an ex boss đ she's also a nepobaby but pretty useless so she got a job as a team manager with an assistant which was the one doing all her work, poor dude. She got herself pregnant by a junior that worked there and he was like 6 years younger than her and when they broke up the baby was like 4 months, she dropped the job and move to her mother's country (her dad was the one who got her the job) and like a year later the owner's kid started working on the company and she reappear and started flirting with him in front of her ex who pretty much didn't see his kid because he don't have money to travel to another country, the owner's kid is even younger (he's like 22 i think?) and the poor kid stayed with her grandmother, dad try to sue her and got himself layoff đŹ but she did bring the kid to the country but now she's a "tiktok mommy influencer" and lives with her new boyfriend, the owner's kid is pretty nice and help him get a job and he can visit his kid now but lordd that woman is trying really hard to pass her kid as the owner's kid even though the dad is very present she always post talking about how her new boyfriend is basically the kid dad because he's been with her more (who fault is that??!?), funny enough the kid adore her dad. I don't work there anymore but I still watch her tiktoks and talk with my ex coworkers đ€
Random story time.
I, as a nepo baby, used to work with another nepo baby, except she had higher nepo cred. This girl was the dumbest person Iâve ever met to the point I honestly couldnât believe she was real.
Anyway she developed a stalker crush on the same guy I had a crush on and he totally hated her and he told me that but I couldnât tell her because I didnât want her to know how I knew that. So I was stuck listening to her talk about trying to get his attention even though I knew she had no chance and it was hella weird.
She quite seriously didnât know what dial codes were. So crazy.
Wonder what ever happened to her đ
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i gasped when i saw how many seasons there were but i had already made up my mind so i just couldn't give up yk đ«Ąđ«Ą && for kdramas mmm i saw that u said u weren't really a big fan of thriller/gore/ horror (i am....) so im only gonna give u romance recs!
ps. these are the only romance dramas that u watched đ i haven't watched a lot but most of them are either horror or thriller so đ
business proposal (girl goes on a blind date instead of her bsf (whos the daughter of a ceo) & tries to make him dislike her so he doesnt want to marry her (her bsf) but the guy turns out to be her new boss) = v v sweet and the 2nd couple was also adorable, deffo one of my fav!! - Netflix + 12 ep / each 1h
hometown cha cha cha (dentist + city girl moves from seoul to the countryside & opens her own dentist office and there's this one guy in the village who she keeps bumping in because he has sm part time jobs and they both dislike each other so .. enemies 2 lovers!) = i loved the dynamic between the two mc! i also really like how they showed that it can be very difficult to adapt and such. imo the girl had character development & i liked that 2! - Netflix + 16 ep / 80~ min each
revenge note 1 (girl gets bullied and suddenly gets an app on her phone that allows her to take revenge on others, all the while she's dealing with having a crush on her friend) = v cute & hs!au . its actually really fun & harmless and the revenge isn't bad BAD yk, eunwoo from astro plays in it too!! i watched this one in like 2017 when i didn't even know what kdrama or kpop was so yeah đ revenge note part 2 is fun too but ik i haven't finished it for wtv reason (i don't remember it was years ago đ) - viki rakuten + 12 ep / 30 to 35 min each
crash landing on you (rich & young business woman goes paragliding, gets dragged by a tornado and released on NK land, a NK officer decides to hide her & sent her back to SK with the help of his friends) = rn im on ep5 (of 16) and i like it a lot! it's very fun and i love the characters sm!! it's also cute because the mcs are married now đż - Netflix + 16 ep / 80~ min each
IM GONNA ANSWER UR ASK IN 2 PARTS I THINK đđđđ
PLS i wouldâve also just,, felt extremely defeated if i saw that number of season fjfjdj and iâve seen my friends talk abt business proposal, hometown cha cha cha, and crash landing on u so hopefully iâll get to them soon !!! lw tho kdramas r so intimidating to me solely bc the ep lengths r sm longer than the 20 min anime/sitcom eps iâm accustomed to LMAO but i have started reply 1988 && hotel waikiki !! but i will def try to get to ur recs :D
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tenjiku falling for a female rokkie in their gangđ€đ€.like maybe they saw you punched someone for being disrespectful to you.hc pleasee
⥠Tenjiku falling for the rookie âĄ
Characters : Kurokawa Izana, Haitani Ran, Haitani Rindou, Sanzu Haruchiyo, Muto Yasuhiro, Madarame Shion, Hitto Kakucho, Mochizuki Kanji, Hanma Shuji, Kisaki Tetta, Kokonoi Hajime & F!reader
Genre : Crack
Warnings : None
A/n : Sorry for the delay sweet anon ! Idk why but the entire time I was writing this I had the "A quiĂ©n le estĂĄs diciendo shut up tu ? A mĂ me estĂĄs diciendo shut up tu ?" video in my head đ Thank you for requesting and have a nice day âĄ
"Yo look ! That's Tenjiku's new slut !"
He did not just say that, did he ? đż
He was the leader of a lame gang that had always tried to pick a fight with Tenjiku for some reason
You were tired of being looked down on because you were a girl
That's why when Izana moved, you called him and smiled softly
"I got this," you said
And damn right you did
You took that mf down in a matter of three strong punches
"Who's next ?" you asked
"S-sorry !" one of them yelled
They took their leader and left
But you've made a great impression on the others
None of them would admit it but you looked better than you ever did when you punched the other guy
Added to that, you were strong, really strong, and smart
But as you were still facing away from them, the Tenjiku boys looked at each others and they noticed
They noticed how each one of them suddenly developed a crush on you
They didn't want to talk about it at first
1) It'd be awkward
2) As an official Tenjiku member, you were always there
Yet one day you called sick, Shion seized the opportunity
"Y'all better back down, Y/n's mine."
"She's not yours, you dumbfuck," Rindou stated
"She's a human being, she's nobody's property," his brother Ran completed
"Yeah, epecially not yours and your stupid braids."
It was silent for a moment, all of them waiting for the next move, it was rare to hear Sanzu talk
"What did you say you little pink shit ?"
As they kept on bickering, Mochi said :
"Even if you're right Sanzu, Y/n will never notice your silent ass. And you, Rindou, you're invisible behind your brother. Don't you all know the saying 'The moon is beautiful tonight' ? If there's someone she can fall in love with it's me. My last name literally means "full moon". It perfectly fits."
"It's perfectly full of shit yeah," Hanma laughed, "You sound so fucking stupid man."
"That's big coming from you, Hanma. Y/n deserves someone that can actually take care of her and you're not suited for that."
"Because you think you're suited for that Kakucho," Muto asked, "You're still a kid. And isn't Izana the only love of your life ?"
"Well, do you think she'd like an adult that enjoys beating up some kids," Kisaki said, cleaning his glasses
"And you think she'd like a manipulative bastard ?" Kokonoi chuckled
"Everybody shut up !" Izana yelled
They were now all looking at him in silence
Until Shion broke it
"Now way..." he mumbled, "Don't tell me you like her too."
"Huh ? Don't be stupid Shion."
But they all saw it when he turned, they all saw the beginning of his blush
None of them talked about this matter ever again, they didn't want to fight each other
However, you noticed some changes at the next Tenjiku meeting
Izana smiled at you for the first time
Shion said less bullshit than usual
Sanzu offered two sentences
Ran wore his hair down
Rindou wasn't with his brother
Kisaki wasn't staring at everybody like the devil
Hanma tried to laugh softly, sounded like a pig in agony
Mochi asked you if you liked the moon, that was surprising
Kakucho asked you from time to time if you needed something
Kokonoi offered to pay your ride back home, which you kindly declined saying you had a bus card
Muto straight up went to you and said : "I don't enjoy beating up kids. You know that, right ?" đ
Yes, they wouldn't ever talk about it again
But would they give up on courting you ?
No.
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(real not fake) the story of david faulkner. who was taken by jigsaw in 2003 for not appreciating the life he had. getting paid the bare minimum of being an orderly and having the heart of gold to clean up after sick people. befriending a few of the older patients that were just ready to leave and get back to their normal lives. he took care of an older lady thatâd call him a sweetheart and say he reminded her of her son, even calling him by his name from time to time. when david woke up with a contraption on his face he didnât know what to think. he was scared and confused and nauseous, not knowing how or why he was there and who put him there. he had to gut someone, someone he later found out was still alive, to get a key. he unlocked the contraption and slammed it to the ground, the first thing he could do was scream and curl up. after he found an exit out into the pouring rain, he somehow stumbled his way back to the hospital and they called the police. he was brought in for questioning and was released when they found nothing on him for premeditated murder. david spent his life in fear, looking over his shoulder more than once while walking down the street, not being in a public space for more than a few minutes, refusing to speak to anyone. not even the old lady that had called him sweet. everywhere he looked put him in fear and all he could think of was that puppet. he needed to get out of there. he was unfortunately let go from his job, so he scraped together enough money and moved west. he picked up small jobs from town to town and eventually he made it to California a year later, furthest from New York. he felt safer than he had in a long time. although, he still put tough locks on the front door of his new apartment and carried pepper spray in his traveling bag. he spent a few years getting to know the town, picking up small jobs here and there and he felt that he could really live in peace with himself. some time went by and he saw a flyer for a job at a record store, a woman named Andie worked there and needed someone to stock the shelves and help keep the place running. david realized this was the moment where he could choose to meet some actual people, or coward away for a few more years, but he already found himself walking in the direction of the store. ten years had gone by since he was kidnapped by jigsaw and he was happy. turns out Andie was a sweet girl and he couldnât help but develop feelings for her, and he was sure she liked him too. he didnât think he could ever feel like that for anybody. there another girl that worked at the record store, Bess was her name, much younger than him and Andie. she was very quiet and only ever really said anything to Andie, but after overhearing a conversation they had, he learned that she had a crush on a guy named Scott. he doesnât know how he didnât see it sooner. after his and Andieâs first kiss, she kept avoiding him. obsessing over the guy, Scott. he walked over to her house and he tried apologizing for whatever he did, he just wanted to get it right, he wanted to love somebody and he wanted somebody to love him after the shit life he already had. she kissed him and he was relieved. until there was a knife in his stomach and he was up against the wall on the floor. he ended up dying on a bathroom floor, just like how his twin brother did nine years prior. SEND POST. edit: i wrote this at like 4 in the morning a few days ago so who knows what i really said in this post but i spent so long writing it i am NOT rewriting itđ
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I usually look into your acc everyday for updates and interactions. But recently I haven't come by to your acc for days since I was busy, and I said to myself that maybe a quick peek today wouldn't hurt. And here I am, speechless. Man there are so much that is happening. đ And I'ma say all my thoughts at once.
Btw, I'm the anon with a crush, with an involvement of a japanese girl. I hope you'll remember HAHA. I have sent a little update about it, do you think Tumblr may have eaten it up? I'm sad that Tumblr won't let you read it.đ
Next, about that Mommy Issues's Issues? đ I'm only just a reader here, and yeah it's quite a trigger for you as a writer for your reader's thoughts about your character. But you are trying your best to clear up things without being harsh about people's different perspectives. Especially you're now careful, Mommy Issues and the Conqueror has quite of the same issues. Like about concubines, women's and child issues. Well, I never send any ask about the 3 jk characters, but I read some asks about them as a joke rather, to see how the character will react. But you are doing great, so well as a writer to pin point something HAHA. To be honest, I do not want to be either of the jk's. It's a pass for me, even though nobody has ever made me feel special, y'know, infatuated maybe the word, I'd prefer to be alone than to be any of them. But if I had to, maybe Mommy Issues Jk HAHA. (Or maybe I want to be with them all three together, yea uhuh I'm crazy) Regards, my point is I appreciate you for everything. You're doing great as a writer.
Next thought HAHA, Mommy Issues had just been a Teaser but I think all of the answers on the asks has been giving us spoilers and insights HAHA.
Next thought. Your ask about 'After Conqueror' I think I wanna see Teach Me and Mommy Issues hehe.
Next thought!đ Not bunny koo wants to be a stripperđđ as a way he thinks it will help y/n. Though since jk has been learning so much on the television, I think oc needs to let him watch some healthy relationships related things. I don't know how to explain this HAHA. Right? Idk HAHA. Maybe it'll help the situation of him being So so SO SO S O CLINGY AND POSSESIVE. To atleast help...a bit...
I also gonna add that #little piece of shit istg âHAHAHAHA god he needs a time out at the backđ
Next issue!đ about the problematic behavior? Well, I don't/probably think you've kinda been immature to some past issues. But you've apologised for it. It helped you to clear things up and you having to have an open mind about it. A new perspective about it, that you handled very well. And I think we all got some things to fix with, but you know what's right or wrong. You don't need to prove anything to them. Just think of it as you developing to be the best version of yourself.
Next, thank you for that link about deres, I never knew about any of those. Interesting.
Next, YES I KNOW MATILDA! And Miss Honey is literally you can picture how y/n is or would be.
Next, "dora-the-whora" đđđ I need to be friends with her/him.
Next, Unpopular Opinion: Me having my period, loud rain outside, me alone with full food on the fridge and watching telly. I... Like it. I love it.đđ
Next and maybe last?đ At first, I thought jk was depressed or like his whole life has ruined and changed because of the death of his child's mother. Which I thought that it's because he loved her or like the love of his life which he lost forever. Turns out I was wrong HAHA. So when the oc came to his life and filled it with hope and colors touched me. And of course who wouldn't like oc, who is a fond of children. It's lovely. So I thought of oc must give him a chance somehow HAHA. Though of course, it's scary since he has issues but who gives a fuck? HAHAHAHA. I also thought that maybe he needs to do the first move but boy I feel like he's gonna pee his pants. Like Clyde from Loud House who's could've nose bleed. This could've add up to your ask about 'Assumptions for Characters'
+ MAKE ASSUMPTIONS ABOUT MY FIC + CLUB CHARACTERS AND THEY WILL RESPOND
MI jk would've pee his pants and have a nose bleed if ever y/n would talk with him or her asking him on a date.
Ps. Sorry for my English. Sorry for the long ask. đđ
You are so sweet and CUTE. You took your time to write all of this to me and that is so sweet, I read this ask like 3 times and thank you for ALL YOUR OF YOUR PRECIOUS THOUGHTS. I really love your way of understanding and thinking đ„șđđ
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glimpse of us â yang jungwon
pairing: bf!jungwon x gn!reader genre: heavy angst wc: 1.2k warnings: arguing, heartbreak, mentions of not eating, jungwon is kind of a bad bf note: yujin is just!! a!! name!! not shipping him with any other idols so don't think that đđ listen to: glimpse of us - joji
When you first met Jungwon, he was at his absolute lowest.
He had just been broken up with, and he was taking it hard. He refused to eat, he would sleep all day, screen all his calls, and always seemed to be in a sour mood. After all, everything reminded him of her.
Yujin. You never knew her, but you knew she was amazing. You could tell from pictures and the way your friends spoke of her that she was the prettiest girl you had ever seen, bright eyes, and a smile that lit up a room.
He never told you the reason they broke up, but then again, you never asked.
When Jungwon first asked you to be his girlfriend, it was seemingly out of nowhere. You'd developed a crush on Jungwon ever since the day you met him, and all of your friends could tell. They often teased you about it, and you were almost sure Jungwon knew.
You knew he was still healing from Yujin, which was why you refused to act on your feelings. But things fell apart when Yujin got a new boyfriend.
You found out from mutual friends, and Jungwon sure didn't take it lightly. You thought that this would set his progress back months. But when he suddenly told you he was in love with you, you had no complaints. He was hurting, that much was obvious. But if you could help him, even just a little bit, shouldn't you?
Your relationship was exhilarating, he wanted to be with you all the time and he treated you like a princess. He was everything you could ask for and so much more.
However, if it seems too good to be true, it probably is.
There was always something that wasn't quite right. The way he acted, he felt so distant, even though he was right in front of you.
The first crack in the glass came when he gifted you a sweater she used to wear for your birthday. He told you he saw it at the store and said it made him think of you. You started wearing it all the time.
You would never have known you and her owned identical sweaters if you hadn't been stalking his instagram. He kept photos of her up on his page, and brushed it off as "i haven't gotten around to deleting them" when you asked him about it. Fair enough.
There it was, a photo of her, with her arms wrapped around his neck, wearing the same damn sweater.
You chose to ignore it. After all, it could just be a big coincidence, right?
The second red flag was your one year anniversary. He told you he had a big surprise for you and that you should dress up.
You spent hours preparing, wanting to look your very best. But When he picked you up, he seemed so out of it. Not a single compliment on your appearance (not that you cared, but it would've been nice of him to notice), not even a 'hey, how are you?' just a simple nod as you got into the car.
After seeing the fancy restaurant he had taken you to, you'd forgiven him for the car thing.
"This place is so nice! How'd you find it?" You said excitedly as you sat down.
He chuckled a bit, "What are you talking about? I may be forgetful but I know this is your favorite restaurant."
You paused for a second, looking around to see if you were forgetting something. "I've never been here, Wonnie. I couldn't possibly afford this place usually."
He stopped moving for a while, seeming deep in thought as he stared into your eyes. "Oh. Right. I must have gotten confused."
You continued on with dinner normally, but you couldn't get that thought out of your head. After he said that, you knew that this was her favorite restaurant.
You observed the restaurant, wondering how many times they had been here and how many memories they made together. Had they sat at this very table before? How could he possibly confuse you with her?
The final straw was when he came home from a long day at work, practically half asleep.
"Hey, how was practice?" You asked from the kitchen right after hearing the front door open and close.
After hearing no response, you went to go check on him, who was laying down on the couch, near passed out.
You sat down next to him, putting a hand on his forehead to make sure he was okay. He must've been startled by it because he opened his eyes slightly.
He smiled when he saw you, bringing his hand up to cup your cheek. "I love you." He said.
"I love you too." You responded with a soft smile.
"You're amazing, Yujin. I'm so lucky to have you." He dozed off right after that, but you sat there dumbfounded.
He woke up on the couch next morning, incredibly confused. He found you working on your computer in the kitchen and kissed you on the cheek.
"Good morning, my love." He smiled, but was a little disappointed to see you had no reaction. He poured himself a cup of coffee as he glanced at you. "I had this crazy dream last night."
"Was it the one where you mistook me for Yujin?" You asked, making him recoil. The memories from last night came flooding back, and he physically cringed.
"Fuck, babe I'm sorry. I was tired and I wasn't thinking. It's not a big deal." He apologized, which outraged you because of how nonchalant he was being.
"Not a big deal? Oh come on, Jungwon that's bullshit. I've dealt with this for months now but you think I haven't noticed?"
"Noticed what? What are you talking about?"
"You're still in love with Yujin!" You spat, seeing his eyes widen. "I can tell by the way you look at me, the way you hug me it just- it's all wrong! The only times I feel like you're really here is when you're imagining I'm her." Your voice was shaky, and you were on the verge of tears.
Jungwon's face was unreadable. "I thought I was over her. I really did." He started, "And you- you're so amazing. But you aren't her. And every single time I look at you, I just keep thinking about the way it was."
"So you thought you could just use me in place of her? That's fucked up, Jungwon! It's been a year, just get over it!"
"You don't think I'm trying, y/n?! You don't think it makes me feel guilty that every time I see you I wish it was her?" He yelled, frustrated.
Both of you went silent for a moment, and Jungwon immediately regretted what he just said. "Hey, babe- y/n, I didn't mean that. It's just-"
"You don't owe me an explanation, Jungwon." You said softly. You don't think you could've bared to look him in the eyes, so you just stared at the floor. "I think you should go."
He didn't argue with you, instead he just walked out. You weren't sure when he would come back or what you would say to him if he did, but you didn't really want to think about that right now.
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