#(and then an. the reason kohane azusawa sings. her singing partner. who kohane wants to be the best partner possible for.-

[slightlytoastedbagel]

thinking back to that one scene in ORS where Kohane is thinking over when she first stepped into Weekend Garage (An singing in the back blowing her away) and when she goes through the door she is attacked by bisexuality (AkiAnToya singing and then she internal monologues over how she wants to protect this feeling and sing with them and other mushy things). this is truly the most polysquad moment ever holy bingle.

[kiennjio]

I saw some discussion on Kohane "not doing enough" for An some time ago and I wanted to provide my own opinion on it, so here it is!

I think the idea of Kohane not doing enough for An came from Kohane not noticing or doing anything about An's abandonment issues and insecurities. Personally, I don't think this means Kohane didn't do enough for An.

Firstly, An has the tendency to hide her true feelings. Whenever Kohane asked her if she was alright, An would reply with "I'm fine" or something to that effect even if she wasn't. It wouldn't be nice to just force her into telling the truth.

Secondly, Kohane trusts An completely. In Awakening Beat, Kohane still lacked the confidence in herself and her singing, so An told Kohane to just trust her, because she believed in Kohane.

🎧: Let's believe in what Shiraishi An has to say, the girl who absolutely loves the way you, Azusawa Kohane, sing! I understand how it's hard for you to believe in yourself, but it's easy for you to believe what I'm saying, right? No matter what happens, I, Shiraishi An, will always believe in your ability to sing.

After that, Kohane was able to believe in herself, because An did too. So, when Kohane noticed that An was acting off, she asked her if everything was fine, and when An said that there was nothing wrong, Kohane just left it at that. This is not exactly because Kohane trusted that An was telling the truth, but because Kohane trusted that An would tell her everything when she was ready, and was confident that An had the ability to solve whatever was bothering her on her own otherwise. That's why I think Kohane never tried to help An with her abandonment issues―Kohane believes that An would confide in her when she was ready. As seen in Whip the Wimp Girl, An finally tells Kohane everything she had been feeling and Kohane was glad to have understood.

There's also the possibility that Kohane just...never realised. I mean, most of the time An felt insecure was right after Kohane did exceptionally well in an event, so it would be perfectly reasonable for Kohane to want to celebrate her performance and feel happy about it, not noticing that An was acting off.

Besides, I think it's important to take into consideration how Kohane views An. Kohane thinks An is the best partner that always makes her heart pound, always cool and passionate, and will always remain by her side. So it might have never occurred to Kohane that An felt that one day she may not be able to make Kohane's heart pound and Kohane will leave her. Why would An, when she was perfect in Kohane's eyes? This is also addressed in Whip the Wimp Girl, when An told Kohane that she was afraid that Kohane would think she was uncool because of her weaknesses, so An hiding her feelings from Kohane in particular was completely intentional.

🎧: I was afraid that you'd be disappointed, seeing such a lame side of me...

However, Kohane always thought that An was perfect, even with her flaws. (An knows that, too.)

🐹: ...! I'm not disappointed...!

🎧: Yeah. I know. You would never think something like that, Kohane.

Kohane wants to be the best partner for An. To Kohane, doing that is to trust An and to always be there for An.

On a slightly unrelated note, I want to explain how I think An's anxiousness developed and changed over time.

In Awakening Beat, everyone realised Kohane's potential, and that's when An really feared Kohane was leaving her behind for the first time. At that time, Kohane only had untapped potential and hadn't quite reached An's level yet. An thought, "Kohane may leave me if I'm not good enough", and started to work even harder to keep ahead.

Then, in Kick it Up a Notch, Kohane made another leap in her growth, and at that moment, An thought Kohane looked like Nagi, the person she had been looking up to for her entire life. That's when An started to think, "Kohane will leave me because I'm not good enough". No matter how hard she worked, An felt that she would never be able to reach Kohane's level.

In Awakening Beat, An said that she believed in Kohane. Did she really, in the same way Kohane trusted her? An has trust issues from her childhood, when RADder repeatedly broke their promise to spend time with An because they were busy with work. Thus, An didn't fully trust Kohane―she believed in Kohane's ability to sing, but didn't completely trust her as a person, even though they were partners. That's why An took such a long time to tell Kohane her true feelings.

That's all I have; thanks for reading!

[toyaslove]

----☆Introduction☆----

Hello! Here around tumblr, you can call me Coffee or Kohi! (Kohi means the same thing as coffee in japanese)

My real name is Yuki (You can call me Fuyu), I am 16 years old.

He/Him👍🏻 || She/her👎🏻|| They/Them👎🏻

My mbti is INTJ, and my enneagram is 4w5 (same as Toya's)

My flags:

(Monogamous, oriented aroace & homosexual)

My biggest kin is Toya Aoyagi

My hobbies:

— Reading

— Watching anime (dw, I'm not an otaku)

— Playing games (mainly pjsk)

— Studying/Acknowledgment

— Cosplaying

— Drawing

— Singing (probably it'll be for my professional life)

— Playing drums set (percussion)

— Listening to music

I'm bad at:

— Social interaction (irl)

— Sports/physical activities

— Expressing myself

— Talking to strangers/authorities

— Maintaining relationships (it's draining ☹️)

Things I like:

— Toya Aoyagi

— Music

— Playing games

— Coffee

— Math

— Earrings (Autistic hyperfixation 🚨🔥‼️)

— Introvert people

— Talking abt pjsk

— The blue color

— My dog

— Animals

— Plushies

— Singing

Things I dislike:

— Disrespectful people

— Big crouds (social phobia)

— Parties

— Loud noises (like smth popping/explosion, etc)

— People screaming/speaking loud

— Birthdays (mainly mine)

Things I'm good at:

— Teaching (when I feel like socializing)

— Claw machines/crane games

— Anything related to music

— Writing

— English (I guess so)

— Aprimorating my language accents (I have a good accent speaking Japanese/English)

— Math

— Drawing

— Singing

— Teaching

Some other kins I have (most of them aren't THAT much):

Akito Shinonome

Mizuki Hikawa

Kohane Azusawa

Tsukasa Tenma

Tadano Hitohito

Wanderer

Kazuha

Honami Mochizuki

Asada Shino

An Shiraishi

Nene Kusanagi

♡ My favorite characters:

— Toya Aoyagi

— Akito Shinonome

— Toru Miyama

— Wriothesley

— You Huo

— Kisaragi Shintaro

— Mizuki Hikawa

— Wanderer

— Kazuha

— Venti

My favorite artists!

Vivid Bad Squad

GIGA

Ayase

Kent Ito

Soraru

Mafumafu

Deco*27

Misumi

Eve

Ado

Wowaka

Reol

Wotaku

Natori

Syudou

Kikuo

Peg

Umetora

niki

☆Curiosities about me!

The translation of my name, "Yuki", means "snow" in japanese

My social name is Fuyu because the kanji for Toya's name is Fuyu Wataru

I'm touch starved because of traumas in past relationships, but I want to touch who I love

Kashika's literally me

I have a female dog (I'm so proud to be her dad 😭🫶🏻)

My favorite color is blue!

I'm good at fixing things (like, when smth mine break, I fix it, no matter how long it takes, mainly my personal stuff)

I'm a cosplayer! I already cosplayed different Toya's, Kazuha and Angel from HH

My dream is to become a J-Pop singer/composer (with a partner if it's not ask too much)

Well, I want to be a singer, but I have strong social anxiety, which makes me quiver when I take the microphone in my hands (also rlly overcame this)

My biggest trauma/fear/reason for panic attacks, anxiety crisis and autistic meltdowns is an OBJECT. It's ridiculous but it is the truth (it's so terrible that I can't spell the name of the object) and I forgot, I can throw up or pass out in some situations with it, yh, I know

I'm almost a genius about music, but I don't think that about myself (the opposite)

I have chronic anxiety, depression and i'm autistic

I was born on April 29th

I speak Portuguese, English and I'm learning Japanese

I'm nationally Brazilian

I always try to be empathetic! (Sometimes, I forgot to take care of myself bc of this)

I'm addicted to caffeine (😭)

I have an Instagram account for my Toya plushies GDJAHJFJ

I have another instagram acc to express my love for Toya 😭

Btw, it's nice to meet you guys! If you want to become friends, just dm me!

Btw I think I forgot smth about me, if I remember I'll put it here