#((WHY DID THE DATE CHANGE AAAAAAAAAAAAa))

[saline-coelacanth]

Ok, actual thoughts on the new episodes. Spoilers under the cut

JAAAAAAY AAAAAAA!!! NOOOOO COME BACK!!!!!

In all seriousness though, LOVED seeing Jay being evil. That line delivery on "And I will always hate you" sent chills holy crap it was so good

And HOLY CRAP ARIN???? BUDDY??? AAAAAAAAAAAAA

Arin's whole arc this season was so good, I was doubting actual Arin villain arc but here we are. He's literally siding with Ras now

Which reminds me: What the hell did Wu do??? Apparently he caused the merge but we don't know how or why, so I'm interested in seeing how that plays out

I freaking love Roby so much he's so silly. I also think him and Wyldfyre are adorable, which I was very cautious about their relationship so I'm glad it was enjoyable

Also was not expecting Kai and Bonzle to escape so soon. I genuinely thought they'd be in there until season 3, but that's ok because Kai's return was SO BADASS OMG

KAI I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

Speaking of characters I love FRACK YOU WERE GREAT I LOVE YOU! I was really worried he was gonna be actually evil but no, he's such a good kid just on the wrong side of the fight. I'm glad he didn't go through with the shatterspin

Cinder was really fun, I love that guy. I hope we get to see more of him he was silly

Ras became such a more interesting character to me I NEED to know more about him. And the way he manipulated Arin was just AAAAAA it was so good

And Arin figuring out how to use Spinjitzu, not because of Lloyd's teachings but because of Ras' was just GKGHJK

I forget the exact line, but Lloyd being all happy that Arin figured out spinjitzu only for Arin to coldly reply "Not because of you" or something like that was just OOMF it was so good

Nokt was cool, so was his sister who's name I'm forgetting. I remember it was similar to Nokt's but I can't remember it. I'm upset we never learned what Nokt's elemental power is though, that was upsetting.

A lot of the new elemental powers were... kinda weird ngl, but I guess there's only so much you can come up with so I'm not gonna complain too much

ALSO almost forgot to mention Zeatrix. I like the twist with her, I'm just annoyed that she looks EXACLTY like Beatrix, like come on. She literally had different hair in the flashback, they changed it just to throw us off and it annoys me

Geo is great, he's always a plus even if he didn't do much. I like that he went on a little date with Cole and they found Lily's mech, that was cute

Uhhhh I wish Zane did more. My guy literally did like... nothing at all. Hopefully he gets more stuff to do in season 3 because he has just had NOTHING so far

Those are kind of my main thoughts right now. This is a little more frazzled than my thought related posts tend to be, but I was also not prepared to be watching the second half of the season today so I blame that. Really excited for season 3 because Jay is FINALLY gonna stay here for more than an episode, right? He has to, right? As a Jay fan, I cannot handle any more of this, please I need him to come home

[ny000mdraws]

GUESS WHO JUST FINISHED WATCHING EARTHSPARK???

I will contain my thoughts with a bulleted list.

- AAAAAAAAA

- i love the decepticons getting redemption/ doing good/ getting understood instead of being beaten up

- MEGATRON

- DID YOU GUYS NOTICE TWITCH USING MEGATRON’S MOVE IN THE AIR WITH THE BLASTER SHOT-

- nightshade was the mvp. they deserve some science-y gadgets after this

- when jon said “rescue bots to the rescue” I GASPED

- STARSCREAM!!! SLAY QUEEN GIRL BOSS 💅✨✨✨

- AAAAAAAAA

- my god, mandroid was ugly after that transformation

- good riddance karen is gone but JFC THE WAY SHE DIED???

- i love how all the terrans are getting adopted 😭

- that one scene where soundwave and swindle are getting a ride from hardtop. they’re friends now

- BREAKDOWN AND BEE ARE DATING. YOU LITERALLY CAN NOT CHANGE MY MIND.

- HE FCKING WINKED-

- ALSO BREAKDOWN BEING ALIVE WAS THE BIGGEST RELIEF OF MY LIFE

- starscream growing a liking for hashtag (and the other terrans) is not what i expected but i need it to stay that way 🥺

- i also like this version of star A LOT

- like yea, he is still cowardly, but there’s a lot more to his character if you watch

- like he automatically assumes nova and sky would leave him :( maybe it’s a defense mechanism for him so that he won’t feel guilt for trying to survive

- him protecting twitch and hashtag- *cries*

- the one time i got mad at megatron was when he hurt starscream. but when hashtag told him to back off? yes girl, tell him what’s up!

- also im glad megatron let him go, which shows his character. he knows him as dangerous yet when he saw star protecting the kids, he knew he had the capacity to be good

- fck mandroid and karen

- we stan dot, alex, and jon

- also fck that guy who called in ghost when the terrans subdued shockwave?? like they literally took him down in front of you?? YOU BUFFOON!!

- idk why but im so into grimlock’s voice

- i wish tarantulas showed up :(

- AAAAAAAAAAAAA

- since the energon depletion ray/ healing ray was worldwide, this is enough reason for me to believe tracks exists in this universe

- yes, i am delusional. shut up

- some other characters i hope will show up are prowl, jazz, blaster, perceptor, and thundercracker

- really any old character that never get used in animated media would be awesome like inferno or hound

Okay, I think I’m done.

[nohoperadio]

The date for my annual performance review at work has been set for one month from today. The review day itself is not a big source of stress, it's the management's opinion that I'm good at my job, it's a mildly awkward thing to go through but it's very unlikely to "go badly" on the day.

However!

I gotta fill out the paperwork first, which consists of seven pages, each page representing one of the abstract work virtues ("teamwork", "initiative", "customer service" etc), and for each of these I have to write 3+ concrete examples of things I did over the past year that exemplify that virtue, followed by a description of how each thing I did impacted the business, followed by explaining what lesson I took from each thing.

This is a chore that combines several things I hate hate hate and am bad bad bad at:

homework (the paperwork doesn't have to be done at home, you can schedule work time to do it and this is considered fine, but this doesn't work for me at all for reasons we'll get to in a bit), I'm not even good at structuring my free time when the only things I'm trying to fit into my schedule are nice things I enjoy doing, let alone this

bullshitting, the whole thing is premised on an abstract dreamt-up-by-HR model of how people's jobs work that bears so little relation to reality that it's basically impossible to complete the form without a lot of bullshitting. You have to take utterly mundane and routine moments from your job that don't mean anything and write them up in a way that emphasizes how brilliant and special and passionate you are; also because they ask for an absurdly large amount of examples, you find you spend a lot of time and mental effort figuring out how to reword stuff you've already written elsewhere in such a way that it's not too obvious you're repeating yourself. I am extremely averse to bullshitting to an extent that I fully acknowledge is irrational and unhealthy but I don't seem to be able to do much about it: at uni I would occasionally miss deadlines because I couldn't figure out what my actual opinions were about the thing the essay was about, and I couldn't bring myself to just write an essay endorsing a conclusion I wasn't sure about. I hope that doesn't come across as even slightly a boast, there is no virtue there, it's an extremely fucking stupid attitude to have, I knew that at the time but I couldn't seem to change it. And I'm still kind of like that unfortunately, I can write bullshit but it feels horrendous and takes a ton of will power and progress will be comically slow.

expressing positive sentiments about myself, this one's self-explanatory I think

The result of these points is that I find writing these things so emotionally draining that it often takes like literal hours of psyching myself up/calming myself down just to find the right state of mind where I can even get started, and then often that leads to like, two or three bullet points worth of progress and then I'm exhausted. If this sounds dumb to you, well, yeah. That's why I can't realistically do it during work time, what am I gonna do request a whole day's worth of time and then produce like 30 words by the end of it? I'm not doing that. On top of these setbacks resulting from my unfortunate personality, there's also the fact that my particular role is quite different from most people's in the company but I still have to fill out the same standard form as everyone else, e.g. I rarely deal directly with customers so I have to really reach to argue that stuff I'm doing counts as "customer service", there's a lot of that kind of thing.

I'm not sure if I'm really conveying what I find horrible about this very well, but basically it's: 1] a lot of work, which 2] relies on skills I am extremely weak on and 3] aggravates my weird neuroses in various ways, and all the while 4] the whole thing is manifestly pointless and dumb. That's a recipe for aaaaaaaaaaaaa. If this year goes like the previous two years, I'll spend the weeks leading up to it feeling guilty and panicky for a significant portion of every day and doing that thing where I procrastinate the productive task constantly while not being able to really enjoy the things I'm using as procrastination either; I'll make ludicrously small amounts of progress on a handful of good days, but ultimately somehow force my way through most of it all in one go just before the deadline.

Maybe it won't be like that this time. My general being-a-person competence has been improving year on year for the past several, maybe this is the year I only moderately suck at this type of task. I shall let that sentiment have the last word here, not because it's especially plausible but because it feels virtuous to do so.

(I feel like it would be unjust to write this post and fail to say: I like my job. A lot! It's nothing very glamorous, I work in a bookshop and get paid marginally more than minimum wage, but: I find the work satisfying, I virtually never have the "ugh I can't wait till I can go home" feeling, and there's a small number of people there who I like very much and who like me in return. All three of those are things I literally could not conceive of being true of any job before I started here; when I said above that my being-a-person competence has improved the past few years, my job is a huge part of that. I have more positive feelings towards my work than a lot of people ever get to experience and I feel lucky for that. But this one particular aspect of it which comes once a year always kind of ruins my life for the better part of a month and I really wish it didn't exist.)

[chatwithana]

((Inside a stable ana? Does that mean outside the story cthuhlu can't be interacted with? And Dagon and such?))

((Cthulhu can be interacted with— he’s just gonna be inside Ana since the circumstances that caused him to come ‘out’ of Ana are pretty specific (one of those requirements being an Exhausted Ana not in a good headspace). It’ll be like how people have talked to Canaanite Dagon, who’s inside of Old One’s Dagon. Everyone from this event can be interacted with— it’ll simply take place separate from the event’s story. Hope that helps clear some things up! ^w^))

[damn-stark]

I JUS READ CHAP 19 TODAY AAAAAAAAAAAAA JEAN AND CHERRY IS FINALLY HAPPENING

but i do wonder what did levi and jean talk about HABAHAHAHQBQHQ BUT I AM SURE THAT HE WOULD'VE GIVEN HIM A LOT OF THREATS ABT HURTING HIS PRECIOUS CHERRY ROROROROR

OMGGGG HOW DID MIKASA REACT AND THE REST OF THE CADETS IDIEJOWJEHEIWWJ

anyways u doing great as always huhuhu i hope you're resting well and i hope your food is always good mwamwamwaaaa

Thank you my love!! This made my night!! hope you’re doing well, hope you’re staying hydrated!! And for being the bestest person ever, I’ll provide some scenes of their reactions and the talk!

SPOILERS FOR CHAPTER 19 down below!! (So if you haven’t, read the chapter first!)

(These additional scenes take place during year 851)

“Sit down Jean,” Levi’s tone didn’t sound threatening, nor was it laced with anger. He didn’t sound displeased or annoyed, he sounded nonchalant as usual. Yet why was it that Jean felt threatened. “Tea?”

“Yes, thank you.” He had just drank tea, but he didn’t dare refuse the offer.

Maybe that’s what was laced with venom. A consequence for dating you, the Captain’s daughter.

“Don’t worry,” Levi assured Jean as if he had just read his mind. “It’s just tea. Can’t waste good herbs on experiments.”

Levi set the teacup down in front of Jean and didn’t spare a lingering glare, he walked around the table and sat down in his own chair with his own teacup in hand in front of Jean. However, that’s when Levi went without speaking, he crossed his leg over the other and sat up straight, his fingers clutching the rim of his cup. He slowly cocked his head to the side and narrowed his eyes, adding more fiery to his already intimidating glare.

The silence that bestowed the tent was the scariest thing, if his voice didn’t sound scary, nor intimidating, this was it. This is how Levi was choosing to threaten Jean, with a deadly silence.

And it was working. Yet it wasn’t going to scare him away. No matter how long the threatening silence lasted, Jean stayed poised, the look in his eyes might’ve given his fear away, but he didn’t let his body or voice express that same fear.

“I won’t ask what your intentions are with Cherry,” Levi broke the silence, surprising Jean. “I’m not naïve. I won’t drag this conversation either, I’ll get straight to the point of what I really want to say.” Levi takes a sip of his warm tea and slides his leg off his thigh, making sure to swallow before continuing. “With what we’re dedicated to do we can’t spare putting our feelings first when we’re out on expeditions. I told her that, and I’m now telling you the same thing. If it comes down to it, and theirs a choice between her and someone else, someone important like one of the Titan Shifters, or if you come across the choice that I had to make, tell me you’ll make the right one.”

“Would you?” Jean countered. He didn’t mean it to sound angry, but he did need to know if he’d make the same choice with you.

And it was that redirect that made Levi hesitate for a moment before deflecting it.

“Tell me you understand.” Levi demanded with no change in his demeanor.

Jean sighs and nods. “I understand.”

“And if it comes to it. She’ll do the same.” Levi puts his teacup down and sits up straight, watching Jean’s eyes lower to the cup still full in his hand. “But that’s if a choice like that comes to play. Now,” he draws out a deep breath. “I’m going to talk to you as her father.” His eyes flicker to his teacup for a moment before meeting Jean’s attentive gaze. “We both know how naïve she is. It’s something that I didn’t teach her, it’s just a part of who she is. She’s sensitive, and has attachment issues. She’s too nice for own good. So I warn you if you do anything to hurt her I’ll be the last person you ever see. I made promises to people. I intend to keep them.”

“I won’t.” Jean answered confidently. “I would never do that to her.”

“Hmm.” Levi drinks from his tea and lowers his cup from his lips after a long drink. “I trust you. Truth is I wouldn’t have preferred anyone else. Be…careful with her.”

Jean nods and assures Levi. “I will. Thank you.” Jean stood up to get ready to leave, but before he could, Levi stopped him.

“Wait. Kirstein. Tell me you know how to protect yourself…as a man.” Levi takes a drink from his tea and leaves Jean flabbergasted. At first he had trouble understanding what he truly meant, he didn’t want to assume anything, so he said what came to his troubled mind.

“What?”

Levi holds back his smirk. “You know what I mean. I assume…you’ve had that talk.”

Jean’s eyes widen and Levi stifled a teasing and malicious chuckle.

“I…I. Yes.”

As much as Levi didn’t like the thought of you doing anything. You weren’t a little girl anymore, and Jean and you were only human, things would happen no matter if he tried to forbid it. The best thing to do was be responsible about it. Which is why he had his fun with it, it helped him at least make all of it less painful to bare.

“You’re free to go now Jean.” Levi scoffs and can’t hold back his laugh anymore, startling Jean and just confusing him more. “I was just…messing with you.”

Jean leaves his teacup full and leaves the tent in a hurry and with relief to have left that conversation, leaving Levi alone with just his thoughts.

——

“You guys are finally dating?” Sasha queried, her eyes bouncing between Jean and you with curiosity.

“Yeah,” you answer her, looking between all your friends with curiosity of your own, waiting for their reactions.

Which comes slowly, they look at one another gathered around the table before focusing back on their meals—“it’s about time,” Connie spoke with his mouth full of bread. “You two were annoying in all honesty.”

“Yeah,” Sasha agreed with nonchalance. “I mean. We all knew you guys liked each other. Well…” she looks between Jean and you. “All except for you two. Which I mean, as smart as you say you are Jean. How was it not obvious that Cherry liked you?”

Jean ignores her and just huffs, picking up his cup to drink his water before slamming it down when he caught a glimpse of Eren smiling at his cup. “What’s so funny?”

Eren slowly puts his cup down and shakes his head. “Nothing.” Eren meets your gaze and then Jean’s before smiling faintly and swinging his legs over the bench to leave. Only throwing one last comment over his shoulder. “You two were very obvious and annoying. Everyone saw it coming!”

You scoff and roll your eyes. “Annoying? Tsk.”

“What’s his deal?” Jean retorts, picking his cup again and getting ready to drink, but stopping and slowly turning his head at the feeling of a glare burning into him.

When he looked at where it was coming from, he saw Mikasa shooting daggers at him before she parted lips and spoke with venom in her tone.

“If I see y/n shedding a tear over you, I’ll break every bone in your body.” She threatened him, not letting her gaze falter. “Understand?”

Jean’s jaw drops with the fear she struck in him. He could do nothing but nod his head, not daring to speak. He just scooted closer to you and watched her leave with disbelief. Now he didn’t know who to fear most, Levi or Mikasa?

“She didn’t mean that,” you laugh nervously.

No. He feared both. He counted himself lucky that at least Kenny wasn’t alive to add to that fear.

[dustofthedailylife]

HELLO AWSHAJGEHAGS I HAD A DREAM WITH AYATO AAAHGHGHH IT WAS AMAZING

I'm gonna tell you about my dream cuz ✨️ayato✨️

Ok ok so;

It was like modern Cinderella Genshin AU IT WAS SOO GOOD

It's a bit long so get ready!!

You need some info first: Everyone in my dream had 2 fairies but they are like cupids

Mine were Xiao and Itto and Ayato's were Xiangling and Ganyu. They work like cupids, they match you and you meet with the person's fairies that your fairies match you, then the person him/herself.

Ahem, so there was a ball and my fairies were helping me to get ready. First we went to the pool and spa [I SAW ITTOS AND XIAO'S ABS WUAAAAAA] and then they helped me to get ready(dress and hair) but I didn't want to wear high heels[they're uncomfortable as hell] and I wore sneakers instead. After that we went to a mall, the ball was organized there, and I met with ayato's fairies. But Xiangling told me that I should wear high heels, I panicked and called xiao. At first we didn't see him but then ganyu said, "is he the one who wears a hoodie? he is right behind you" XIAO CAME UNDERCOVER AND HE WAS SO HOT IN A HOODIE AAGHHHH I COULD LEAVE AYATO RIGHT AWAY AND RUN WITH XIAO, ahem then he came with my high heels and I changed then we went upstairs with the girls.

When we arrived at the ballroom I saw ayato and AAAAAAAAAAAAA he wore his suit but it was dark blue HE WAS SO HOT OMG YOU SHOULD'VE SEEN HIM

He approached me and kissed back of my hand I DONT KNOW HOW I MANAGED TO STAY CALM then we started to dance

After a while partners switched and I was dancing with xiao, HE WAS IN A SUIT GAAAAHHH, WE MUST STAY FOCUSED BROTHERS, WE. MUST. STAY. FOCUSED. Xiao asked me if Ayato was a right choice [cuz they chose him yk] and ofc I said yes and then we changed partners and I continued to danced with ayato

I am short, 5'2 so there was a massive heigh difference even with the high heels. why am I telling this? HE LEANED DOWN AND WHISPERED IN MY EAR WHILE WE WERE DANCING AAGHHHHH PUT YOURSELF IN MY PLACE CAN YOU IMAGINE!!!!!!!

He offered to go to balcony and talk so we went. I complimented on his suit and he told me he made it himself. Then he said "I also made one for you, a dress, i would like to give it to you on our next date" [I'm in love help]

But then my cousin punched me in my face at night -_- when she woke up she told me she was fighting with giant snakes in her dream GIRL I WAS ABOUT TO GO ON A SECOND DATE WITH AYATO WITH CUPID XIAO AND ITTO PLS

Anyways that was a nice dream I hope you saw ayato or zhongli in your dream too PLS TELL US IF YOU DID I LOVE LISTENING ABOUT PEOPLE'S DREAMS

That was all luv ya <3

-⛄️

ASHIFHJAKLF, the way I screamed reading this!

Just the imagination made me blush. Sounds like quite the heavenly dream, nonnie *swoons*

Also how cool would it be to have Xiao and Itto as fairies? Certainly wouldn't become boring with them around. Also since the new quest I want more Xiao and Itto interaction. The way Itto kept calling Xiao "Little Dude" when he could probably sweep him off his feet, pls, it's so cute 😭🙏🏻

Also Xiangling telling you to wear heels? SMH, Sneaker supremacy!

Anyway, back to THE MAN himself. Dark blue suit? Oh my god, I need to see this (Hoyoverse, skin when?). And he kissed your hand and leaned down and WHISPERED IN YOUR EAR?! I am going feral just thinking about it gndnsm >///<

You certainly won the dream lottery last night, nonnie! The perfect cupid boys and Ayato *bites hand*

I didn't dream of anything I can remember unfortunately but I want to have the same dream too now. Oh, to go on a date with Ayato and kiss him... pls

Thanks for telling me about your dream, nonnie! Stay safe and hydrate enough. It was super warm here the last couple of days and I literally melted into a puddle 🥵

[norgestan]

crisana, norandro, jorgeva and amira x dani

ha, anon just wanted all the canon couples. fair enough!

CRISANA:

see, skam s3 is my favorite season of all time, but it has never been because of the love story. isak's story hits in a lot of sensitive places for me, and isak was also the first main character i encountered that was my age. i have a really special connection to him for that reason. on the other hand... i enjoy evak for what it is, but i never saw a future for their relationship after the season ended. in a lot of ways, isak's season ended just as their relationship started, a trope that i've never liked because how am i supposed to think that they will last? how am i supposed to know how they will work as a couple? it's just, ugh.

i had similar thoughts about crisana when i watched s2, except that the love confession scene and cris as a character made it even harder to get into the couple. moreover, the way people brush other characters' roles and presence on other seasons because they're so caught up on cris and joana is like... blegh. like it makes me forget that they're actually a well-written couple at times. because imo, og they never did anything really interesting with evak once they got together. but eskam........ oh, dear eskam.

there's something so beautiful about thinking of all the girls, the teenagers that will grow up watching a relationship like theirs on popular media. their entire subplot (??? can i even call it that) in s4 is proof of how GREAT of a relationship they turned out to be. like, i just wanna SCREAM thinking about it because, how is it possible that eskam saw evak and said "we're gonna make this SO good and we'll take our time and then tie it up in an incredibly satisfying and emotional way" and then did exactly that!!!!!! the way they respect each other, communicate, genuinely try to get to each other without dumb miscommunication. the way they understand each other and lift each other up! the way joana knew how to recognize cris' intelligence when everyone was telling her she's dumb, the way cris knows how to make joana feel worth it and show her affection in such a selfless, loving way. their last scene on joana's pov in s4 was the first time i cried during that season, just because it was all wrapped up so beautifully. because eskam understood that although the appeal of their relationship comes from the soulmate status of every evak couple, they had to also put in serious work to make it all work and they also managed to get that across with grounded drama, and also a hopeful message for people struggling with mental disorders. like AAAAAAAAAAAAA god what a great couple they are. maybe i'm too much of an eskam bootlicker but they're genuinely the best evak there is. i'll die on this hill. i'm so happy young wlw get to watch them as a guideline of what they should expect of a relationship.

NORANDRO: already done :)

JORGEVA:

i mean... it's eskam's fault, without a doubt. i love what eskam did with them in s1: the change of pacing, the way they created jorge, the little story changes to make it more nuanced, i think come together in a pretty satisfying way to show a teenage romance with no real support to last for more than a while. i don’t think eskam fully got the gist of what jonas was supposed to be, but it’s for the better if we think of the message in season 1. for that reason, jorge is like the one jonas who i really wouldn’t mind coming back to his eva. so why don’t i like them?

the answer is simply that i don’t enjoy their trope and i don’t think eskam made a real case of eva and jorge getting back together. they work well as friends, sure, and it’s clear as day that jorge still has feelings for eva, sure. but like, what tells me that they’re just ready to go all in again? eva goes through a really great arc and i would definitely agree she’s in a good place to be in a relationship again, but we know NOTHING about jorge’s journey. he’s just, silently pining on eva and that’s it. i do think it’s sweet and the hints of their lost romance throughout the show are wholesome, but there’s just nothing more to it. jorge and eva work AMAZINGLY as friends! i don’t see why they should push a romantic endgame for them. in my head, eva kissing jorge at that party was just a mesh of the excitement of a new era, the nostalgia of ending highschool, the high of being on this place with someone she really cares about, stuff like that, but it just ends there, and it’s great that way. nothing about eva’s character really led to her aching to be in a relationship again, and for me it feels right to end things with her being single and surrounded by great friends.

MAYBE if eskam had devoted some time showing us their progress and romantic potential instead of trying to convince us that kasim was a real, compelling character. maybe. lol.

DAMIRA:

(god, i don’t know how long this will be LOL)

i have. so many thought about this fucking pairing. let’s see what we can do LOL. the thing about damira is that i don’t think it’s a pairing that eskam had in mind when they laid out the first two seasons. the little hints of a friendship/childhood crush that happened during cris’ season really got the fandom and they quickly became the most popular non-canon ship in the show, so that’s where i think eskam said “okay, let’s run with this”. but it’s just...... meh. like i can tell that relationships like crisana were carefully crafted (well implemented in nora’s season, greatly wrapped up in amira’s season) but i cannot say the same for dani and amira. it’s almost like virihugo, where they just started giving each other Eyes on the middle of season 3, out of NOWHERE. it just feels forced to me and so i never really felt anything for the couple in question... like, for starters, i think nora and miquel were WAY more shippable than those two, strictly talking about their setup.

if you ever saw any of my posts during s4 then you should know how i actually feel about how they developed their romance (check my anti damira tag for more?) and i don’t wanna go through all those specific points again... but damira is not only an infuriating romance, but also a bad pairing in a narrative setting. like, damira clearly exists to answer amira’s questions about how would the future of a romance with a white guy would be, right? does she get an answer? no she fucking doesn’t, their final clip is like “after all these weeks, we still have no idea so we’re gonna cut things short, go back to our initial dynamic, and wait to see if amira any of us change our minds <3″. so like, even in that sense damira is a HUGE waste of time, and just like everything that happens to amira during her season it has no lasting impacts on her character or her settings.

and personally, i love couples where they’re both equal, and communicate at last, and both make great efforts to change so the relationship can flourish. this is why i offer so much praise to norandro and crisana, where in the first couple both character go through tremendous character growth and work through their problems individually before getting together, and in the second couple they show them clashing and fighting just to display their resolutions and show how willing they are to actually talk to each other and keep their relationship stable. dani and amira, on the other hand.... blegh. eskam wants me to think dani is a knight in shining armor for liking amira but that’s all he ever does. he doesn’t defend her in front of his friends, he doesn’t make efforts to get to know her and her world, he doesn’t communicate his real feelings to her, and the one time he did he humiliated her in public. like, idk, like, even MIQUEL explicitly defended nora when his roommates berated her for not drinking alcohol LOL.

at the end of the day the problem with damira is that it completely misses the point of yousana and its target audience. making yousef a white guy is not necessarily a bad choice if you implement it well (which eskam didn’t do btw), but you have to take into account that sana’s season exists to make a primarily white christian-raised audience relate and stand up for the muslim characters in the show. when the lazier partner of the main couple who makes zero efforts to work on the relationship happens to be white, it just means people will be sympathetic of him, and nor amira - and that’s exactly what happened in the show. people either thought amira was being too harsh by laying conditions for dani before they even began dating and making sure he respected her boundaries, or just wanted all the drama to go away soon so amira could kiss dani by the end of the season. so like, yeah. terrible stuff.

i would’ve liked damira’s impact on the season and amira’s journey a lot more if it had been about a one sided childhood crush from amira’s part. i thought their friendship was charming up to s3, and i simply hate that dani is literally in no way an older brother figure for the girl squad, since it’s a dynamic that’s lacking in the show and it would be a nice way to make dani be some sort of non-creepy eskild for the girl squad (but noooo, his only interactions w the gs are hooking up with eva and dating amira. smh). it would’ve been fun to have amira intimately dealing with those feelings just to learn a lesson by the end of it, at the time that she also falls for her muslim love interest - which is actually the isak/jonas/even dynamic when you think about it, also something that eskam didn’t really do with cris’ season. but also, all of this would mean that eskam had to do the good writing thing for s4, which they kinda forgot to do throughout the entirety of the season so, yeah.

[almaasi]

reaction post typed while watching SPN 14x14 “Ouroboros”

conclusion: yes, apparently feet can look gay, and Dean and Cas are both queer by proxy

04:35pm

me: still v magnesium deficient, sick, dizzy

LET’S WATCH A THING AND THINK ABOUT IT WITH MY PUDDING BRAIN

any thoughts stated here are run through a pudding filter so please do not be alarmed if they are incoherent or a weird colour

okay it’s a Steve Yockey episode so i guess he’s gonna give us a great character and then kill them before the title card

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04:41

hang on i need to eat and i can’t eat and think at the same time so i’mma go watch an episode of shaun the sheep brb

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04:46

okay well i watched half an episode and ate half my food so,... yay

LET’S WATCH THIS OTHER THING THEN

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04:48

sam’s “i believe in us” *PUNCH* still makes me laugh

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04:49

the body on the AAAAAAAAAAAAA I’

M SCREAMING NOPE NOPE NOPE

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can i just watch this whole thing with my hand over the screen

because that is what i’ doing rn

oh god i hate this

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actually you know what

i just skipped to the title card

cause fuck that haahahhaah nope

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oh lord it didn’t skip to team free will

how much of this do i have to take

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oh okay tfw are here already

WELL GREAT NOW I HAVE TO FIGURE OUT WHERE TO SKIP BACK TO

ASJFSDFHSFHSJ

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04:54

i fuckin love rowena and how much they ask for her help even though they’re “enemies” except they’re clearly lowkey Fond of each other

also i like how this ep started in the middle of the case

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04:56

rowena: “hello castiel” ;) ;) ;)

okay well

this pleases me

because i know the only way this ends is that cas is not interested and that’s the Point

because he <3s dean

but also why the hell is rowena into cas....... surely she knows he loves dean. unless she’s just into starting shit, i wouldn’t be surprised

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04:58

the way jack says “i’m not dying”

10/10

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04:59

cas: “he’s now claimed the lives of six people in northern new mexico”

why does he say “people” like that

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05:01

dean’s throwing a looooot of salt at rowna. maybe because she keeps flirting with cas

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“everything means something”

YEAH EXACTLY

DEAN’S SALTY BECAUSE ROWENA’S FLIRTING WITH CAS I’VE DECIDED

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05:03

sam says dean can keep michael locked in his head “because he’s dean and dean is dean”

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeah okay

expert closet curator, you mean

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05:05

dean has a good feeling about bringing rowena in on this one??????????????? after all the snark????????????

cas: “they do have many books”

me: *squINTS REALLY HARD* i feel like they’re implying something else and neither of them are talking about the same thing. did dean set sam up on a date with rowena????????????

also?

DEAN AND CAS ARE ON A DATE. DEAN AND CAS ARE ON A DINNER DATE IN A DINER. ALERT ALERT ALERT

paralleling rowena and sam perhaps

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05:08

concerned head tilt

oh god their love and mutual understanding and trust in each other is killing me with its softness

i’m so so so glad we get to see them in some downtime at fucking last

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05:10

oh no jack’s coughing again

why can’t he have nice things

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05:10

dean: “that’s what i’m supposed to say, right? i’m fine? keep on moving?”

cas: “no, dean”

the fact dean lets his guard down only with cas in private ;~;

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sidenote, this episode is giving me my bloody valentine meets hunteri heroici vibes, which is nice because they’re two of my all-time fave episodes

but god i wish it would go easy on the cannibalism

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05:14

dean: “i’m barely even sleeping” :D

THAT PAINED GRIN OH GOD

but also

i’m so emotional because he told anyone at all, but especially that of all people he told cas

of course he told cas, cas is his emotional sounding board

if this were a fanfic cas would offer to share the bed with dean and help him sleep

....but i mean, who knows, maybe dean was secretly hoping for that anyway

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05:19

that’s the face of “dean doesn’t know what liturgical means”

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05:22

jack: “what’s an av club?”

cas: “it’s a special club for people who do not play sports”

dean: *points at cas* “him. he’s av club”

mmmmmmmm yup

autistic nerd

dean’s baseball and track team, cas is av club and student tutoring

but also if dean ever got cas onto the baseball field cas would hit every ball first time

and dean would be swooning

BUT ALSO DEAN WOULD FUCKING LOVE AV CLUB ARE YOU KIDDING ME

he’d be in there with charlie every fuckin day and leaning seductively on furniture while cas does his nerd thing, until the point where something properly capures dean’s interest and then HE WANTS A GO and bats away everyone else’s hands and hogs the contraption for 3 hours. also he’d fix things when they break

DEAN TONE DOWN THE PROJECTION A NOTCH WOULD YA

JEEZ

look i’m just gonna count dean calling cas “av club” as flirting, because hello yes there is no way dean doesn’t find that interesting

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05:30

i fucking knew it

the moment this episode opened and i saw the guy’s bare feet in the kitchen somehow i knew he was queer ??????????

like

i can’t explain it

but the fact there was a shot of his feet and his feet looked gay i can’t even

anyway this probably doesn’t even count as legit queer rep given he’s seducing guys and killing them so

stupid gay feet

sidenote: did ANYONE else get queer vibes from that opening scene? CAN PEOPLE’S FEET LOOK GAY OR IS THAT JUST ME

maybe it’s like... the sensuality of bare feet + cooking, breaking pointless gender roles n stuff, my brain has been coded by society’s bullshit to perceive sensual men as non-heterosexual

idk

but also. the foot-upward view of a new character... male gaze, right? and seeing the male gaze on a male character makes it queer

goddamn

it’s a thing

it’s a thing and the directing got the point across and it took me until now to work it out

GAY FEET

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also

now i’m going back to cas’ line “six people”

my initial understanding of that line was that they weren’t all men

but the thing was the people didn’t need to be said that way if it was just men and women

my immediate instinct said the victims were non-binary, but i didn’t type it because i had no reason yet to believe that might be true and it seemed unnecessary to say it

but at this point, as the baddie hits on a guy at a truck stop in exchange for a ride, they’re clearly potentially queer victims

so

yeah that explains the inflection

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05:41

on the one hand, i’m seeing a connection to that time dean was seduced by a siren

but see my problem with this is that the guy’s either gonna end up dead or saved and i don’t know which yet

i just want happy queer stories

so i’m pretty divided about this

but on the other hand, please, god, let this gorgon guy “sense things” about dean

ALSO WAIT

IS THIS THE FIRST GAY KISS ON THIS SHOW?????????? 90% SURE THIS THE FIRST GAY KISS. there might have been a background one once

PROGRESS HAS BEEN MADE

EVEN IF IT’S EVIL AND TWISTED AND MAKES ME FEEL WEIRD

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05:44

i feel like there should’ve been an optic nerve attached to that eyeball.. and a lot of gross stuff

but also thank goodness there wasn’t

ohdfjfdg i really hate this

but also i’m smiling?

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05:46

cas: “is this amusing to you?”

the guy called him sir!!! eeheheh

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05:47

cas: “you’re not standing alone, why doesn’t he mention me?”

dean: “maybe you’re not his type”

i mean. guess he can’t see angels. BUT ALSO

CAN WE UNPACK HOW UTTERLY QUEER EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS IS

WE NOW UNDERSTAND THAT NOAH’S TYPE IS QUEER GUYS

AND DEAN KNOWS THIS

SO BY SAYING CAS ISN’T NOAH’S TYPE THAT MEANS HE’S IMPLYING THAT HE HIMSELF IS

BECAUSE HE’S QUEER AF

steve yockey, this is the episode i was waiting to see from you

team free will working a case together, dean and cas on a date talking about their feelings, on a case about queer stuff

hell fucking yes

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05:52

rowena: “need anti-venom in case one of you boys gets sloppy”

wouldn’t that mean noah kisses either cas or jack

god i’m so glad rowena’s there too

this episode is great sdgsfkg

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05:53

ROWENA AND SAM FAKING A RELATIONSHIP + A DOG OH MRJGJD IFUCKING LOVE THIS

WHERE DID THEY GET THE DOG

WHERE’S THE BIT LATER WHERE DEAN AND CAS ~FAKE~ A RELATIONSHIP PLEASE

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05:55

OH MY GOD THE VET STUCK A THERMOMETER IN JACK’S ASS

OH MY GOFH D:

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06:00

noah: “then he doesn’t have to die like all the other men”

hmmmmmmm

okay so all the victims were men

which makes me even more curious about why cas used that inflection on “people”

cas also looked like of amused? definitely a misha expression rather than a cas expression, the little lilt of a smile on his lips like the way he says any word starting with “h”

maybe some of them were transgender men and cas didn’t know them before they died so could only guess as to their gender? maybe some of the bodies they found were not gender-conforming

it also kiiiiind of sounded like misha changing the script after a discussion on set about it

but if that were true then that means someone on set doesn’t believe gay or queer men are men? maybe? maybe i’m reaching there

but i’m genuinely caught up on that inflection and the use of that word, it really stood out to me

and it stands out especially, now, because like i said, we know the victims were men, we know team free will found them all, and we know they were queer.

but also it’s not dean saying it, it’s cas

and i can’t imagine any scenario where cas would have trouble with non-binary pronouns

if anyone has further thoughts on this, please direct me towards them

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06:23

my browser broke?? and i lost a chunk of this post, but i had the above stuff backed up in email

i'mma go back a bit and try and remember what i typed

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idk i think it was just about the fact noah confirmed all his victims were men which further confused me

and then said he also eats ladies

and then said some feminist stuff which made me sad that it came from the bad guy

but also that i could imagine cas saying something similar, deadpan, and then reaching for dean’s burger

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* schmooch *

whEN DOES DEAN GET TO DO THAT

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06:28

okay YES

I KNOW WHAT I WANT TO SAY

NOAH SAYS HELLO TO DEAN

WHY JUST DEAN

WHY IS HE FIXATED ON DEAN WHEN THERE’S 3 OTHER PEOPLE IN THE ROOM? and why only write the letter to dean?

I’LL TELL YOU WHY

BECAUSE DEAN’S BISEXUAL AF

AND YES HE IS HIS TYPE

REPRESSED “STRAIGHT” MEN WHO SECRETLY LIKE GUYS

CAN THAT BE ANY MORE OBVIOUS?? I THINK NOT

i love how this episode refers back to some of the older episodes, in the best possible way

conclusion: dean is bi

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06:32

noah took the bag with the snek inside but i guess the snek esckep

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06:34

maybe true love’s kiss will wake dean up

CAS QUICK

MIGHT AS WELL TRY RIGHT

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06:40

hurts my heart how cas has apparently made peace with the fact he’ll outlive dean and sam

i guess it’s good but

can’t help but believe deep down he would rather die than live without them

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and now i’m crying because cas says the point is that you got to know them at all

suddenly catharsis for future pain

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06:47

oh NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAGGIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

D:

THIS IS THE WORST

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06:47

rowena as michael??? okay, that i can get behind

ooh

BUT ALSO

OH NO

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06:49

michael (about dean): “it didn’t work out. it was him. not me.”

flip of a classic dating line, making this QUEER AGAIN

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06:55

JACK THE LIL HERO

WHAT DID YOU DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

//waits for the silence to be over

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06:56

oh boy

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06:57

OKAY WOW

WHAT AN EPISODE

i was really hoping it would turn into a plotty one, the way changing channels does at the end

this was really well done and i enjoyed it a lot!!!!!!!!! i mean, besides the squicks, and the fact the queer rep and feminist lines came from a bad guy

dean was 100% noah’s type

jack is the bestest baby bean

i feel so bad about the thermometer thing..... like, i’m not sure if it was meant to come across as funny? but there was no indication it should be... which is good i guess? but also i feel secondhand violated

DEAN AND CAS’ DATE AND TALKING ABOUT FEELINGS WHEEE

i like that this episode actually came full circle on that “dean vs michael” point, rather than having it be a one-off conversation and things aren’t resolved until a later episode

i think i’m gonna enjoy rowena as michael. and i like that she said yes because she does care about team free will

sad about maggie :c

but also all those other extra hunters were changed out pretty much episode so there was no real way to know who they were. they seemed pretty diverse though, across various episodes

i liked the asian lady vet!!!! she was fun. and i’m glad the asian gay guy didn’t die... where did he even disappear to though? who knows

overall 10/10? it had all the good shit i like so. yep.

I WANT MORE EPISODE LIKE THIS. QUEER CHARACTERS (PREFERABLY NOT EVIL), MORE ASIAN CHARACTERS, MORE TEAM FREE WILL ON HUNTS, MORE LADIES GETTING COOL ROLES AS PART OF THE TEAM AND/OR AS AN FRENEMY, MORE JACK SAVING THE DAY

MORE ROWENA IN PANTS

yeah

but more of all

MORE GAY KISSES FOR DEAN AND CAS

i love that the fact noah was fixated on dean put him in the “noah’s type = queer” category, and when noah kissed cas it did the same thing

so really, by evil proxy, noah made a point of showing us who’s queer

i mean we already knew

but HE SHOWED US

yee

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no conclusion on why cas said p e o p l e though

[pansexualseaanimals]

Zelda fic excerpt 1 - Scorpion fight

As promised, I’ll finally start posting some excerpts of my Zelda stuff, while I’m in the process of rewriting the first chapter and editing everything else. 

Some notes: These are not edited (other than running through it to fix spelling mistakes made in my 500-mph NaNoWriMo typing), so some things may be changed in the final version, which will be posted at a later date. Until then, enjoy 

In the “Piece of Heart” project, my Link is a woman and my Zelda is a man. Most representatives of other canon characters, such as Impa, Malon, Tetra, etc. won’t undergo this change. The reason for the swap is, 1.) I’ve been wanting to write a fic with a female Link for ages and 2.) A few years ago my friends and I were joking about one of them being “The main character”, and how glad the other was to not be considered “The main character”. So I randomly made the joke “<Link friend> is Link!” and someone else said “Does that mean <Zelda friend> is Zelda?” Everybody seemed amused by the idea, so I was like well why not make a fanfic of <Link friend> having to journey across Hyrule and save all of us. Like we’re all sages and <Zelda friend> is the prince and is rescued in the end! And... I took that idea and worked with it and it eventually evolved into this project, which is so much bigger than just that now. Maybe someday I’ll write a more straightforward, simple fic of just that friend going around saving all the rest of us and it’ll not be so gargantuan and everyone can have a good laugh at it. But for now, I’m focusing on the huge story Piece of Heart has become. And Look Alive, Sunshine, of course. ^__^ 

That’s enough blabbing from me, please forgive me, you know it takes me two hours to tell a two-minute story. XD Enjoy~

The Scorpion Scene

“I heard it, too,” Link said, following carefully. They could hear the footsteps of the scorpion, too close for comfort, especially considering they couldn’t see it. “I think it’s on the roof.”

“Part of it definitely is,” Tavo nodded.

CRASH!

“AAAHH!

The end of the scorpion’s tail pierced the stone roof as if it were dirt, crashing into the floor below before it wriggled a bit and was pulled back up and out of sight.

“Yeah, that part,” Link said, running out of the house and turning around to see the gigantic creature. It was standing behind the house, but now that it was sure where its “prey” was, it started walking on top of it, crushing more of the ceiling.

“We have to protect the library,” Tavo shouted, flying toward the scorpion in a wildly twisting pattern. “Who knows what kind of knowledge could be kept in there?” Unfortunately, the gargantuan arthropod wasn’t interested in the tiny speck of light dancing in front of it; it aimed its stinger at the juicy animal it saw on the ground instead.

“Yaah!” Link roared, trying to muster up all the energy she could while rolling out of the way. The tail was so fast - yet it obliterated the wall of the building across the way.

“How can something so quick be so strong?” she asked, tensing up in preparation for another strike. This time, she rolled forward, hoping to get a chance to attack. The stinger barely missed her, and she could feel it pierce the wind just above her as she rolled. She came out of the roll with a fierce lunge of the spear, but it glanced off of the scorpion’s exoskeleton without doing any damage.

“You’re going to have to find a soft spot,” Tavo said, batting at the creature’s claw with her rapier, which finally got it to pay attention to her, even if only to swat her away. Before it could try, however, she grabbed on to its arm and hung on for the ride. “Well, I regret this instantLYYY!” The tail came down again, ripping a huge tear in Link’s outer tunic but missing her flesh. She fell to the ground and raised the spear up with both arms in defense as she saw one of the gigantic claws come at her, wide open. She closed her eyes…

CRUNCH! The scorpion had misjudged its attack by some lucky miracle, and its claw, while destroying the wooden handle of the spear between Link’s hands, had completely missed her. It rose back up into the air, and before it could strike again, she scrambled through the doorway of another building and out of the creature’s line of sight.

“I honestly should’ve seen this coming,” she murmured before shouting so Tavo could hear. “Do you have a plan?”

“Not throwing up, at the moment,” Tavo replied from outside, where she was still holding on to the claw. “How about you?”

“Think, think, think…” Link dropped the broken pieces of the spear and examined the room she was in, searching for something that could help. She saw nothing of use but a rope lying on the table and several kitchen utensils. Her gaze went to the knives, to the rope, then to the broken spear at her feet. “Maybe… Tavo, hold it off a bit longer!”

“YOU THINK I’M HOLDING IT OFF? I’M A FLEA COMPARED TO THIS THING!”

The young woman didn’t reply to this, but went right to work tying the rope to the broken handle still attached to the curved spear blade, leaving the lasso on the other end of it. She then took the knives and tucked them into her belt at her back, before grabbing one of the chairs and rolling it out of the doorway into the street.

“I’LL SAVE YOU, TAVO, JUST HANG IN THERE!”

“I’m hanging, babe, I’m hanging.”

She ran right after it, and when the stinger came down instinctively to crush the chair, she jumped and grabbed onto the tail and held on for dear life.

“Oh, so now we’re BOTH taking this ride, huh?”

“I have a plan,” Link shouted, reeling from the sheer speed with which the tail returned to its original position. She wasted no time, and jabbed one of the knives into the unprotected flesh of the tail. The bug screeched in pain and flung its tail back and forth, and Link held on as tight as she could. Eventually the tail slowed down and she took a few slow, deep breaths before continuing her plan. She grabbed the rope at the spear end and whirled it around in a circle at her left-hand side for a moment before aiming and releasing. The rope flew through the air and wrapped around the scorpion’s right arm - the very same arm with the Twilight Thorn Tavo was hanging on to.

“I GOT ‘EM, TAVO, YOU CAN LET GO NOW.” Without any verbal acknowledgment, the Faerie released her grip on the claw and flew right to the ground, puking up rainbows and faerie dust.

Link pulled the rope taut on her end, and the scorpion jerked violently, suddenly aware it was being constricted. Link tied a good length of the rope around the tail before dropping from her perch above the stinger and swinging toward the wrangled claw, pulling the tail with her. The scorpion yanked its tail away a bit, but Link held on tight. She climbed up to the top of the claw as fast as she could and, throwing the lassoed end of the rope, caught hold of the right claw. After taking a moment to catch her breath, she pulled the tethered tail, along with the claw, just a few more inches closer.

“Okay, so what’s next?” Tavo panted, glancing at all parts of this strange situation her Hylian companion had created.

In answer to this, Link nodded and grasped the remaining rope with both hands. She took in a deep gulp of air, letting it out in a hissing breath as she turned her entire body around, pulling the claw and tail just a bit farther. Another deep breath. Another exhale and turn. Just a bit farther. Deep breath. Exhale and turn. Just a bit farther! On the fourth tug, Link pulled violently, yanking the tail and right claw so hard that she flipped the creature over on its side.

“TAVO, THE ORB!”

“I got it!” The Faerie summoned all her strength to zip through the air in a flash, flying into Link’s bag while the Hylian was flipping through the air between the scorpion’s claws. She grabbed the magical orb and burst out of the rucksack as Link grasped the Twilight Thorn stuck in the creature’s left claw and pulled, pushing against the hard exoskeleton with her legs.

“AaaaaaaAAAAAA-GOT IT!” The Thorn came loose without any blood or exit wound, just as the first one had with the dragon. Tavo swooped in and covered the Thorn, as well as Link’s hand, with the orb, right as the farm girl fell to the ground, right shoulder first.

“Sorry I couldn’t catch you, Link,” Tavo panted as her companion released her hold on the Thorn and pulled her hand out of the orb.

“It’s okay,” the Hylian panted, rolling onto her back and lying there. As the two caught their breath, the scorpion started shrinking - much more than the dragon had done.

“I got it,” Tavo said, rising into the air again to grab the scorpion, who seemed to be stunned for the time being. Link opened the empty jar they had brought from the village, and her friend dropped the arachnid into it unceremoniously.

“Two down,” Link said, screwing the jar back closed before dropping back down onto her back.

“One to go.”

“Yeah… But let’s sleep first.”

And they did.

[magistralucis]

🔀 :0c

🔀 Maroon 5 - Payphone

I’m at a payphone trying to call homeAll of my change I spent on youWhere have the times gone, baby, it’s all wrongWhere are the plans we made for two

Here are some voicemails long since deleted by Franck Rivoire.

Voicemail 01: Recorded Jun 26, 6:23pm

Gesaffelstein: Monsieur Rivoire.

G.: [Short pause.] Good afternoon, Monsieur. The Chairman conveys his regrets that you couldn’t be here today, and he hopes that you’ll be well soon. [Pause. Shuffling of papers.] Your article is still due on Friday, of course. Specifically the one from when you visited Nantes. Alone.

G.: [Small intake of breath. Five seconds.]

G.: … That will be all, save for one more message from the chairman. There will be a party at some point in the next month or two, to celebrate his first full year at the office. The date is not yet set, but the announcement came an hour ago; it was only right to let you know. [Pause.] You will find out more as the days pass, I imagine. As far as I know, it will be held at a function room in one of the hotels nearby. Plus ones are permitted, as are friends. We are encouraged to bring some as he is quite intent on making an impression.

G.: But then, of course. I forgot.

G.: [Quiet snicker, followed by a markedly lowered tone of voice:]

G.: You don’t have any friends now, do you, Franckie?

[END VOICEMAIL]

Yeah, I know it’s hard to rememberThe people we used to beIt’s even harder to pictureThat you’re not here next to me

Voicemail 02: Recorded Jul 18, 10:16pm

Gesaffelstein: [Inaudible murmur for the first twenty seconds. Sound of water running in the background, perhaps a bathtub. Radio and TV both on, one of which is the evening news, full volume; all of those sounds are so loud as to drown out the foreground noise, G.’s own voice included. G.’s voice is increasingly stifled with emotion as the recording goes on.]

G.: - not a writer, not a journalist, and definitely not an artist. I know you’re watching the story too, even if you aren’t taking my calls; you hear that, Franckie? You want me to turn the volume up from this end? [Does not.] Because I know you’d hate to miss it. Imagine going out of business because the mayor of goddamned Nantes sued you for slander. [Laughter.] 

G.: Oh, it’ll pass. I mean, there’s fuck all to do in Nantes; you were just the convenient target, just be sure to thank the chairman for bailing you out later. Yeah? They only didn’t name you out of some theoretical respect for your dignity, but really, you aren’t shit, Franck Rivoire. Not that you needed to hear it from me for the hundredth time, but what the hell. [The tap is abruptly shut off.] Have a present. Why not! It’s our one month anniversary - of you breaking us up! I’m so glad we made it, Franckie, let’s be miserable together forever! [Bitter laughter. Faint splash of water.] 

G.: Jesus Christ.

G.: [Continues to laugh, until he begins to sob instead in earnest. A full minute passes before either the TV or the radio is shut off, though the other remains on in the background.]

G.: Franckie. Franckie... why?

[END VOICEMAIL]

You say it’s too late to make it,But is it too late to try?And in our time that you wastedAll of our bridges burned down

Voicemail 03: Recorded Aug 12, 3:30am

Gesaffelstein: [Slurring very heavily throughout the recording; clearly intoxicated. Pronunciation unclear in some parts.] Hello? Hello? It’s me. Mike. First of all, it was lovely seeing you last night, chickpea, it’s been a-a-ges; funny how like... fucking hell, you were the one person I ought to’ve expected... heh. Never doubted you for a second [Inaudible], you always take me by surprise.

G.: Thank you for the coupons. I didn’t want to say it out loud in front of everybody, but you were spot on: I don’t think I’ve walked past a spa since I began working here. I’m overdue for a good old sugar scrub at the least; you’re right, I do need a day out to myself, don’t I. [Pause, seven seconds. The sound of a cork popping.] Too much’s been going on. Hell. Thanks for putting a word in for me at Lancôme, too. [Inaudible] - of the modelling business for so long it’s surprising anyone remembers me, let alone wants me back occasionally. [Pouring sounds. Pause. Three seconds.]

G.: That said, darling.

G.: [A glass clinks heavily upon a wooden surface.]

G.: Are you out of your mind?!

G.: [G.’s voice is a little clearer from this point on. Coaxing.] My dearest. Sweetheart. Honeybun. I thought we were over this years ago. Wild horses couldn’t drag me kicking and screaming back to the modelling industry; thanks for getting my name out there, but as for working for them? No thanks. You know how bad it was there. You were the one who helped me get out in the first place; so why, why, oh why on earth would you want me to go back? [Laughter.] Did I look that unhappy at the party or something?

G.: [Laughter, bittersweet, but not malicious.] Not that I blame you. I am unhappy and you had every reason to think that, even if we didn’t get the chance to hash it out. [Pouring sounds.] I don’t blame you, chickpea, you’re just trying to help a friend out at his time of need. Speaking of that, though - did you get a chance to talk to Franck at the party? You’ve got to spill the beans if you did, I’ll spill mine; Jesus, you won’t believe what the bastard did to me. [Heavy thud.] I’m no use to mistreatment - all that time with my fellow models, oh yes, with those glorious sons of bitches, we’ve all been bought, been sold - and yet after all this time taking the high road you’d think there would be some...

G.: ... Fucking... wrong number.

[END VOICEMAIL]

I’ve wasted my nights,You turned out the lightsNow I’m paralyzedStill stuck in that timeWhen we called it loveBut even the sun sets in paradise

Voicemail 04: Recorded Sep 24, 3:03pm

Gesaffelstein: I went to our old pâtisserie today.

G.: [Pause.]

G.: Well. Mine. I never got to take you. [Pause.] They still do your favourite macarons. The melon one’s still exquisite, you know. I mean. I know. 

G.: Didn’t think they’d recognize me after so many months away. They remember you, too, and gave me an extra box of cinnamon and red bean for you. [Longer pause.] ... Just... call me... or leave me a message, when you get this... and I’ll put them on your desk on Monday. 

G.: [Lengthy silence. Quiet breathing sounds, at one point marginally louder, as if the receiver was hitched closer to his lips.]

G.: ... There was a couple in there. Two men. I’d say a little older than us. [Pause.] They were holding the cutest little boy in their arms. They were in front of me at the counter and I waved at the kid and he smiled at me. Well. Maybe a he. I couldn’t tell. Just a baby, really. A happy family.

G.: [Silence. When he next speaks his voice is very quiet.]

G.: ... I’d have liked one, too...

[END VOICEMAIL]

If happy ever afters did exist,I would still be holding you like thisAll those fairy tales are full of shitOne more fucking love song, I’ll be sick

Notes: w e l p

I knew that I was going to do this the earliest out of all the shuffle fic requests I received but it took me this long to figure out how lmao. I’m so sorry I’m lagging behind on everything let me die ;A  ; aaaaaaaaaaaaaIn the absence of identifying information I am going to assume you’re an anon aware of the shenanigans happening over at @akchotesuggestion. So yeah. Something to sink y’alls teeth into. Try comparing some of the voicemail dates here to the earlier ‘cher journal’ entries (like this one) for a nice bonus :3

also pls keep the wrong number person in mind

[assasins]

i was tagged by the lovely Diana @citiznerased​ to answer these questions, thank u so much my dear <3

THE LAST: 1. Drink: water 2. Phone call: didnt call no one today lol 3. Text message: my friend 4. Song you listened to: love by lana del rey (i dont even like her music but that song is nice tho) 5. Time you cried: idk it was a while ago

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: nope 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: lolol yes 8. Been cheated on: no 9. Lost someone special: yes 10. Been depressed: almost 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: ugh yes

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS:

12. pink 13. black 14. red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: yes 16. Fallen out of love: no 17. Laughed until you cried: yes 18. Found out someone was talking about you: no 19. Met someone who changed you: no 20. Found out who your friends are: i knew it all already for a long time 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: i wish lol but no

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: a bunch of people from school and college that i’ve seen or talked to in real life at some point 23. Do you have any pets: yep! two dogs and one cat 24. Do you want to change your name: if i could switch the u from paula to an o to become paola i would tbh but... nah im not gonna spend time on this lol 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: boooy i was in california, we went to the santa monica pier but the weather was terrible so we decided to go to cheesecake factory lol 26. What time did you wake up: today 7 am but usually i wake up at 10 am 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 28. Name something you can’t wait for: getting a life binch!! (stealing this because same) aaaaand rock in rio next month aaaaaaaaaaaaa 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: she was here like 10 min ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: where do i start 31. What are you listening right now: nothing at this moment 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no i guess 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: today everything is fine, but last weekend i was working and i almost lost my shit because everything was so overwhelming LOL 34. Most visited Website: this site of sin

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME

35. Mole/s: yes, a fuckton of them 36. Mark/s: a lot of birthmarks 37. Childhood dream: also going to Disneyland and went there when i was 13 omg 38. Haircolour: brown 39. Long or short hair: medium lenght 40. Do you have a crush on someone: kinda 41. What do you like about yourself: my lips 42. Piercings: had one on my left nostril but had to took it off but im gonna pierce it again soon lol 43. Bloodtype: O+ 44. Nickname: some brazilian friends call me paulinha or pe 45. Relationship status: loneliness be over 46. Zodiac: aquarius 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favourite TV Show: lost 50. Right or left hand: i’m a lefty 51. Surgery: none 52. Hair dyed in different color: i dyed part of my hair pink when i was 15 and then again when i was 20, changed multiple times from teal to pink and then purple and then dyed in a slightly lighter brown than my natural 6 months later because my hair was SHITTY 53. Sport: really wanna take poledance classes 55. Vacation: rio next month 56. Pair of trainers: i hate wearing trainers ew but i have one and i wear it when i’m working in something that i’ll be standing for a long time, 

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: nope 58. Drinking: nope 59. I’m about to: go to a job interview 61. Waiting for: that green light (i’m aint apologizing for this) 62. Want: travel, tattoos and self esteem 63. Get married: i guess?? but dont want children 64. Career: i’m a photographer 65. Hugs or kisses: hugs 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: taller 68. Older or younger: older 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms 71. Sensitive or loud: binch idk what do u mean lol 72. Hook up or relationship: hook ups are fun for a while but rn i’m seeking a relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: again, what does that mean LOL

HAVE YOU EVER 74. Kissed a stranger: jfnvjdknj yes 75. Drank hard liquor: lmfao yes many times 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: lost my glasses but only in the middle of my own mess in my house and contact lenses inside my own fucking eye idk how to explain this rgfhdjsifgfnjkdlkiglfçdjmgk 77. Turned someone down: no 78. Sex in the first date: not yet but i dont see a problem in this, it depends on the circumstances... idk why people create such a polemic over this tbh 79. Broken someone’s heart: nah 80. Had your heart broken: nope 81. Been arrested: no 82. Cried when someone died: yes 83. Fallen for a friend: no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: working on it ma’m 85. Miracles: not exactly, but things happen for a reason i must say 86. Love at first sight: no 87. Santa Claus: used to when i was a kid 88. Kiss on the first date: yes!! if there’s some chemistry going on why not, i’d go for it 89. Angels: idk

OTHER: 90. Current best friends name: ângela, rayssa and débora 91. Eyecolour: green brown 92. Favourite movie: uptown girls

i tag @thoughtsofadyingneil​ @crushed-andpulverised​ @problemxtique​ @spiral-static​ @140smashedguitars​ @we-were-kissing-gods​

[anacchi24]

Just Another Tag game

Tagged by @pokkipo and @too-many-goddamn-fandoms, thank you both~! :3

Rules: Always post the rules. Answer the questions asked, then write eleven new ones. Tag eleven people to answer your questions as well as the person who tagged you.

Pokki’s Questions

1. Do you have any OCs? If so, what are their name(s)?

I have several OCs, to be honest. 4 Hunter x Hunter OCs (Ruronuelle, Ariabelle, Sakura, and Serena) and 1 Servamp OC (Ayano Yurika). I also have other OCs from my original stories but I’ve never written anything about them yet xD //shot// My favorite ones are Ruri (Ruronuelle’s nickname) and Yurika, though <3

2. What’s your favorite eye color?

Brown. Any shades of brown. I just love how they glow when sunlight shines upon them :D

3. How would you name your kids? Or, if you don’t want kids, what are your favorite names?

Welp, this is a hard question xD I wanna say Trois but I can already imagine all the horrible nicknames the child could possibly get because I’m pretty sure most Indonesians don’t know hot to spell Trois correctly

4. What’s your favorite quote?

”There's no shame in falling down! True shame is to not stand up again after such a fall!” Midorima Shintarou (am currently trying to apply this to my actual life lol)

5. What’s the last anime you watched?

Servamp, episode 10, English Dub. It’s still sad, but it’s slightly funnier than the sub imo

6. Do you like cosplays?

Wearing them? Nope. Seeing them? Heck yes! I know several cosplayer and actually went to a con with one and boy, that experience changed my whole view for cosplayers. It’s amazing how they can put so many efforts into one outfit and heck, most of them aren’t even paid for doing it! It’s always nice to see people act on their hobbies~

7. Do you have a crush on someone? (A real person or a fictional character, it doesn’t matter~)

Did you mean: crushes? Because I’m currently in love with Mahiru, Chiaki, and Trois xD <3

8. How many siblings do you have?

One biological sister, one self-proclaimed twin, and several online siblings lololol

9. What would your ideal date be like?

An in-home date where we have a long movie marathon while eating pizza and potato chips or go outside for stargazing during the night.

10. Do you like your handwriting? Why?

Not really because they’re inconsistent. They always change and a friend of mine always teases me about them (his handwriting is like 10x better than mine. Not that I’ll ever admit this in front of him ‘cause that’s the same as admitting my defeat huff)

11. Now, say something positive about yourself!~  c:

Oh boi, this is the hardest one of them all. Uhm... Errr... *five whole minutes of thinking later* Ehmm.... maybe how I can low-key do anything if I actually try? Though the only things I’m really interested and take pleasure in doing right now are drawing, sleeping, and writing (just a bit, tho, still no finished work yet) lololol

Avi’s Questions

1: What is you’re favorite series and why? (Could be anything from TV shows, books, anime, ect..)

To be honest?? It all differs according to the form of media lololol xD My fave anime is Hunter x Hunter, manga is Servamp, novel is Illana Tan’s 4 seasons (not really a series since the plot are all different but the characters from each books know each other and that’s just smart), TV shows: How I Met Your Mother and Voltron: Legendary Defender.

Speaking of Voltron, I just finished both seasons today and I’m so disappointed that no one had forced me to watch it sooner because man, that shit was so awesome and I love Pidge. and Keith. And Shiro is so cool man, they’re all so awesome aaaaaaaaaaaaa-//shot

2: What is your favorite weather and time of day?

Light drizzle like it’s raining but not pouring, just the water gently hitting on the ground, y’al get what I mean, right? xD And I like night the best in a whole day. Idk why, but I’m more productive at night lololol

3: Favorite Fictional character? Why?

*puts a bunch of characters from KnB, Servamp, and EnStars* YOU CANT MAKE ME CHOOSE A FEW OF THEM, MUCH LESS ONE. FITE ME ON THIS. //slapped// xD

4: Favorite video game? Why?

I don’t play video games that much but I’m gonna say Outlast just for the sake of (not so) good memories lol

5: What are your hobbies?

Drawing, surfing the net, refreshing Tumblr and Facebook, playing Enstars, listening to music, drowning in self-hatred :D 

6: If you could pick one fictional world to live in, what world would you pick and why?

I’ll take Hunter x Hunter :3 I’d like to be a conjurer :3

7: Favorite animal?

HEDGEHOG HANDS DOWN :D

8: Do you have any pets? If so, what are their names and what are they?

I used to have a virtual pet hedgehog named Hyde but it died ever since EnStars took all of my attention :’D

9: Do you have any original stories? Tell me something about them!

All the past stories I tried to write were romance stories that are too embarrassing to tell, so I’ll just tell you about a new story I just came up with today! The main character is a girl who is pretty much done with her life. When she decides to commit suicide and jumped off from an old abandoned building, she ends up getting caught by a wizard who was practicing flying in his new stolen broomstick. This guy is actually a thief and is a fugitive of a magical government and now they think the girl is on his side. There are still a lot of things needed to be thought about for this story so that’s all I can tell you about right now xD

10: If you have any ocs, who was your first? If you don’t have any, who was your first favorite character and why?

As mentioned above, I have several OCs but Ruri was my first one (which is also why she’s one of my favorites) :3

11: You have three wishes, what would you wish for?

1. for the happiness of the people whom I love and care about, 2. A permission from my parents to live on my own, 3. A chance to travel all over the world with my self-proclaimed twin <3

Now, here are my questions~! :3

1. Do you draw? If yes, how many years has it been since you’ve started?

2. Do you write? If yes, could you copy paste a line from your latest work?

3. What is/are your nickname(s)? If you don’t have any, can I give you one?

4. When is your birthday? If you’re not comfortable with it, then what is your favorite day of the whole year and why?

5. What are the 5 things that never fail to brighten up your day or put a smile on your face?

6. Why did you join Tumblr?

7. IOS or Android?

8. In the scale of 1 to 10, how much do you love yourself?

9. Are you the type who pours the cereal before the milk or the milk before the cereal?

10. How is 2017 treating you so far?

11. Do you like pigeons? XD

Tagging: @catslab @petrichor-note @stirlingphoenix @freezingdreamer @shibakamiko @wonderfulchaos69 @tsubeki @empress-of-purgatory @pocket-luv101 @shiroekoyuki @liablackpandora