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technicalthinker · 10 days ago

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So I've been existing these last months unsure about how my spring will look like bc it entirely depends on what some board decides about my school application, and I've tried to just find peace in that there's nothing more I can do but wait. Well today I realized that it is finally the week. It is likely this friday that I'll get the news if my application has been approved or not.

So yeah this week I'll find out if I have a plan for this spring and 1+ years forward OR if I'll once again join the void of uncertainty with no future opportunities in sight

#amanda rambles #personal stuff #HERE'S THE THING #Im not 100% sure abt the studies bc there are so many thigns i wanna do in life B U T #it would be 1.5 years of remote studies and then guaranteed a job #it would be so good #IF IT GOT APPROVED #But it's been some messy years so at this point i dont wanna hope for anything #LIKE i might be able to talk to a study counselor for help and make it work later down the line but jc im not sure all that is worth it idk #ive been through so many rounds of trying paths now im so tired #ive told myself 'i wont worry in november bc ill write book and study this current thing'#'ill postpone the struggling and future worries until december in case i get rejected.'#SO YEAH IM STARTING TO LIKE #PREPARE MYSELF FOR A DOOMER DECEMBER IF THIS DOESNT WORK OUT

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