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doakaptan · 4 years ago

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code lyoko: a hidden gem of early 2000s cartoons

pov: the year is 2009, every day you come home from school to watch an unidentified cartoon on channel JoJo; only for it to disappear and never come back to tv ever again.

Hello, it is that time of the week again. I will cut the chase for you so- Basically, this semester greatly tired me and in order to go along until the school year ends, I watch shows that evoke nostalgia to get high on the feeling of temporary happiness and dissociate for a while. I am not even addressing the monstrosity that is the midterm, father-son and the holy spirit help a bro out, please. And well, Code Lyoko is exactly that show.

(from left to right: Yumi, Jeremie, Aelita, Ulrich <3 and Odd) (there is also William in later seasons but I don’t claim him)

Originally released in 2003 but, received international release just as it was canceled in 2007, Code Lyoko is a French cartoon that graced everyone’s televisions at least once before it completely disappeared from it. For my experience, I encountered Code Lyoko on a channel called JoJo while I was waiting for Yugioh GX to start.

At first glance, it honestly looked horrifying with how children had comically big foreheads but, the story and the visuals hooked me right in. First of all, I could look past the giant foreheads because the characters were good-looking for my 8-year-old taste and, the background illustrations are still beautiful regardless. Despite being beautiful, the places didn’t change much and we only saw the school, dorms and the forest that was behind it along with the old factory and the word of Lyoko but, the budget for the show was not the biggest so most of the scenes were used and reused again and again throughout the seasons.

I’m not going to lie the visuals were not as pretty as I make them out to be but, I was 8 years old and it was the first time that I ever saw a cartoon that had both 2d and 3d animation.

Also, I fell in love with Ulrich but I’ll get to that.

No, no I won’t

This is also a call-out post to me because apparently, I love everything that came before the internet and being online 24/7. Just like in How I Met Your Mother, as we are watching the world is introduced to the internet and what being online means so if I were to say that the third season is an inquiry on what the internet is and, how it works, I would not be that far off.

( Also recently Code Lyoko was added to Netflix so yeah go stream it )

To dive right into the plot: a Japanese, and 3 French(???) middle school students walked into an abandoned factory through a sewage canal and discover a supercomputer that had an artificial world (Lyoko) in it with another artificial intelligence in the name of Aelita trapped in it. By contacting Aelita they alerted an evil system that lived within the Lyoko called X.A.N.A that manipulates and hacks electronic devices through the powers of Lyoko. So as any other logical human being would do they materialized Aelita into the real world and created her a fake identity to make her study with them while they fight against X.A.N.A in both the real world and the artificial one, Lyoko. Then the school principal asks, "Why did you do that?" And the overly intelligent 12-year old that somehow hacked into the national security system and created a fake identity for an artificial intelligence replied, "Well I am a classic nerd that fell in love with an artificial intelligence I had to make her real at some point!".

Yeah... that was not funny.....

Anyways, so this is basically the entire plot of the Code Lyoko brought to you by a walked into a bar joke that did not escalate!

4 friends along with their new materialized friend Aelita try to protect the world against X.A.N.A and whatever it is trying to achieve... Is it ever clear what X.A.N.A desires? I’m not sure. I’m currently rewatching the show and I’m on season 3 but I’m kind of lost on the plot since I only care about what’s going to happen between Ulrich and Yumi...

SO, the kids spent most of their time trying to defend their school, friends, or themselves against X.A.N.A and honestly it looks like a tiring job. They miss important days, quizzes, exams... man... I don’t think they are even attending school... But worry not! Lyoko has a program called "Return to the Past" and when they are successful in defending the world against X.A.N.A in Lyoko, they get to return to the past and not miss whatever that they dropped to reach the abandoned factory.

I vividly remember wishing, praying, crying myself to sleep to have a computer like that when I was a child. I still do actually. It would be great if I were to spend the whole day beating up various machines in a virtual world then set back the time to retake an exam that I already know the questions of. Ah, a university student can only wish...

Code Lyoko was mostly sloppy in animation due to the budget cuts that had to be made in order for the show the survive but, it made up with the heart and soul it carried. The characters are all fleshed out, just like the locations and you can sense how much thought went into each and every detail the show carried. I don’t know if it's still available on the internet but I would suggest everyone who read until this point to look into the bible of the show. It is one of the greatest bibles I’ve had the pleasure of reading through.

The show aired in Turkey in 2009 on channel JoJo. The entirety of the first season and a few episodes from the second season were aired but it was pulled from airing shortly after to give Yugioh GX more slots since it entered its final season. One of the reasons was probably because JoJo pulled most of its audience from airing Yugioh. I would not blame them since I discovered Code Lyoko while I was waiting for Yugioh as well.

After Code Lyoko was pulled off from airing I forgot about it and did not think about it until recently. During our first year, while I was talking Asya’s ear off about an unrelated cartoon, I randomly remembered the theme song of Code Lyoko, and all came back to me. The sweet nostalgia. I also remember making my friends at the table watch a few episodes of it during our lunchbreak.

I am honestly glad that Code Lyoko was not one of the cartoons that got away from me. Aside from the addicting nostalgia, it gives me, it holds such a special place in my heart that I don’t think any other show can fill (maybe Yugioh GX can fill it but I will have to debate it with myself for a while).

So please, if you have time give this low-budget french cartoon a chance it will not disappoint you.

(also just a warning ulrich and yumi’s pining is one of the slowest of burns I’ve ever witnessed so be careful while rooting for them)

#man i love code lyoko #with my whole heart #i wish it had more seasons #it left on a cliffhanger jokes on you #ulrich i was in love with you when i was 8 plz call me back #also i still cannot believe this was real #code lyoko #code lyoko come back #ulrich stern #ulrich üzümlü kekim #yumi ishiyama #aelita schaeffer #odd della robbia #franz hopper dalgana bak aslanım #lyoko warriors #william sen de dalgana bak aslanım

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cesarinthefreezer · 5 years ago

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Some notes before you guys read. If you didn’t see my post I had an idea for a fic about the reader being a Cosplayer how gets transported to the jojo universe while they are cosplaying and they run into the character they are dressed as. I hope you guys enjoy the first chapter. I plan on having 3 or 4 total

Fancy seeing you here

Chapter 1

Rohan Kishibe

It’s a warm Thursday morning. It’s the first day of the convention you’ve been looking forward to for months. You’ve been staying up till god know when , sewing and building your cosplays. Styling wigs and gathering props when you have free time after class. Day 1 is Rohan Kishibe. Your number 1 favorite character. You’ve decided to go with his iconic white crop jacket outfit with gold pen tip pendents and an iconic gold head band. With your perfectly styled green wig on and your fountain pen and part 4 manga book in hand you make your way to the convention center.

As you walk down the street to meet up with your friends you feel a sudden jolt of energy and black out. When you wake up you are laying on the side walk, but you don’t recognize the street you are on. You get yourself to your feet and take in your surroundings. You don’t see any signs of the convention center or anyone in cosplay.

“Hey Rohan Sensei!”

You jump at the voice coming from behind you,

‘Thank god someone recognized my character’

You spin around to greet the person calling out to you. When you finally see the face of the voice you can’t believe your eyes.

“Wow that has to be one of the best Josuke cosplays I’ve ever seen”

The young man pauses and his jaw drops

“You’re not Rohan, you’re dressed like him but you’re not Rohan who the hell are you?”

You take a second to look him up and down

“Of course im not actually him he’s not real, but I have to say you’re Josuke is incredible, you look as if you walked right out of the manga, are you on your way to the convention”

In that moment the man dressed as Josuke grabs your wrist

“I’ve never seen you before how do you know my name, and what do you mean cosplay? This is what I look like everyday and you never explained why you are dressed like Rohan”

Pulling your wrist free you push the young man away from you and take off running down the street. You run for a few blocks before coming to what looks like a city map. It reads;

“Morioh City Map”

You freeze before opening the manga you remember you brought with you, the Morioh map in the book matches the map in front of you.

“What the actual hell is going on here I can’t seriously be in Morioh it isn’t real”

You look around to see buildings on the street line up with buildings illustrated in your book. You punch yourself in the leg several times

“Wake up, wake up, this isn’t real... wake up”

To your surprise you don’t wake up.

“If this really is Morioh then that young man was really Josuke, and I’m not in my own reality anymore, how did I even get here...... and I’m dressed up like Rohan Kishibe, god the people here are gonna think I’m crazy or that I’m actually him”

After you calm yourself down you realize this experience is kinda like a dream come true. You’re in your favorite universe. And you got to meet Josuke Higashkita. You spend the day exploring the city since you’ve read the book you know it like that back of your hand. As you explore you are careful to stay out of sight of any major characters. However a few people have greeted you as “Rohan Sensei” they think you are actually him. As you roam around you happen to see Koichi and Yukako on a date, and Okuyasu walking into tonis, but you make sure that they don’t see you.

You’ve yet to see Rohan himself, but you assume he’s most likely working in his studio. As much as you don’t want him to see you, you can’t help but wander the streets till you come across his house. You feel butterflies in your stomach.

Rohan’s character has always held a special place in your heart, hell the manga you brought along with you is the one where he makes his first appearance. The illustrations of his house are spot on to the building in front of you. After looking the house over you decide you should move on to avoid being seen. As you turn to walk away you feel some one grab you and spin you around, but before you can see the persons face you black out.

When you wake up you are on a soft, plush green couch. When you regain all your senses you finally see the person who grabbed you, hes standing above you with your manga in hand. The person staring you down is none other than Rohan Kishibe himself.

“Who are you?... why are you dressed like me, and why am I in this book of yours”

You sit up swiftly and look him in the eyes

“You just used heavens door on me didn’t you, wouldn’t that have a told you everything?”

Rohan drops the book on the floor

“How..... how did you know about my stand? And when I tried to read your pages they were blank.... you have some explaining to do”

You’re jaw drops, his stand doesn’t work on you because you’re not from his universe that has to be why

“My....my name is y/n. I’m not from here”

Rohan rolls his eyes

“That was blatantly obvious”

“I mean I’m not from this universe, where I’m from you aren’t real, this town isn’t real, it’s all just a story”

You stand up and grab the book flipping through the pages till you come to Rohan’s pages

“Where I’m from people who are fans of these books, which became a tv show dress as their favorite characters and go to conventions... that’s why I’m dressed like you”

Rohan braces himself on the couch before sitting down to process what he had just hear. After he calms down he looks up at you and smiles

“So does that mean I’m your favorite character?”

You smile

“Yes, you are, ever since you were introduced to me in the manga I fell in love with you. Your style and attitude reminded me a lot of myself”

Rohan lets out a laugh

“ A lot of people wish they could be me, you’ve really taken it to another level.... I’m flattered. Say... that do you actually look like

You blush

“ well what are you waiting for... of with the costume”

You stare at him

“I don’t have any other clothes”

He rolls his eyes

“We are both adults here just strip to your underwear, I won’t disrespect a young lady like yourself”

You remove the crop jacket and toss it on the couch then move to take of the head band and wig.

“I need a wet cloth to take of this make up if you don’t mind”

Rohan stands up and walks to his kitchen. Meanwhile you remove your wig cap, then your pants and crop top. Leaving you in your bra and underwear. Rohan returns and hands you the cloth, you wipe of your contour and green eyebrows.

“There it’s all off, you happy?”

Rohan looks you up and down

“I have to say your have quiet the talent for becoming other people, you pull me of very well for a woman... you can put your clothes back on now”

Slipping your pants and crop top back on you leave off the jacket and wig. You sit on the couch next to Rohan and explain what your universe is like and how much he means to you.

“I just don’t know how to get back to my world, I mean I don’t live here at all where am I gonna stay?... what am I gonna do?”

Realizing this send you into a panic, you start hyperventilating and crying, you then burry your face in your hands. A few moments pass before you fell a warm set of arms hold you

“Y/n it’s alright, you can stay with me till we figure out how to get you home. I don’t usually care for people all that much, but seeing how much you care about me, a person who doesn’t really exist in your world inspires me”

Hearing Rohan’s words you begin to calm down.

“Thank you Rohan, I can’t tell you how much of a dream come true this all is, in fact I’m afraid that I am dreaming still.”

Rohan smiles and grabs his sketch book

“I don’t know how long you’ll be here but I wanna capture you before you leave”

You sit quietly as Rohan sketches away thinking about how you wish you could stay here forever

“Finished, one sketch of you as you are and one sketch of you as me”

He flips around his sketch book and shows you his work, you take it in and start to cry

“Rohan, you are amazing and I wish I was half the person you are”

Rohan rips the sketch from his book

“I’m going to hang this on the wall in my studio, because I wish I was half the person you are y/n. Now let’s get you to bed it’s getting late and we have a big day tomorrow, I’m going to show you around the whole city”

Rohan leads you to the guest room, and says goodnight. You get in bed and think of the amazing day you had as you drift off to sleep.

The next morning Rohan rushes into the guest room to find it empty. You are nowhere to be found. His head falls in disappointment

“ I don’t think she’d be gone so soon, I do hope to see her again someday”

When you wake up you find yourself back in your room laying in bed in full cosplay, manga in hand. You are relived to be home but you start to cry knowing you’ll probably never see Rohan again. He will remain a fictional character here in your world. Opening your manga just so you can see his face again, you flip to a page of him sitting in his studio. As he is illustrated sitting at his desk working ,you catch a small detail , to his right there is a sketch pinned to the wall. A tear falls from your eye landing on the page, the sketch is the one he did of you.

#fanfic #jojos bizarre adventure #diamondisunbreakable #rohan #rohan x reader #jojo part 4 #rohan kishibe #jjba #jjba/reader #jjba x reader

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spark-s · 4 years ago

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to the sea

joana + water

“Life’s all about the longing, isn’t it? About the hands, about the subtle glances. It’s all about wishing for warm dawns with someone to hold. She had spent so long desperate for fingertips on her wrists and now that she has them, she feels like she can breathe."

Read on ao3 here.

She is seven years old and refuses to get out of the pool.

Her fingers are wrinkled, and her lips are blue, but if she gets out of the public pool now, she’ll have to go home, and bathtubs just aren’t the same.

“Joana!” her mother yells. Joana flips around to face her, gives her a wave, and dives back under. She swims to the other side of the pool, keeping her head in the water as she does. She wants to see how long she can hold her breath – she hopes it’s forever, because then that would make her a mermaid, right?

When she gets to the other end of the pool, her dad is there waiting for her. He’s crouched, his knees sticking out over the water and his hands dangling between them. She’s expecting him to be mad, but he has a little smile on his face – the one that he wears when he asks if she wants to go get ice cream.

She grabs the edge of the pool and lets her legs float on the water. “Are you going to tell me to get out of the water, Papa?”

He nods; she goes to sink down into the water again, but he holds her wrists fast.

“I’m sorry Jojo, but we have to go eat dinner.”

She pouts. “Can’t we eat in the pool?”

Her father laughs. “Eating and swimming at the same time will give you a really bad tummy ache.”

She notices the growl in her stomach and ponders this. She decides to negotiate.

“Can we get ice cream after?” she asks.

Her father leans forward and looks at her with eyes matching her own. He looks so serious, she’s afraid he may say no.

“Of course, we can, Jojo. But only if you get out of the pool right now and go let your mama dry you off.” He lifts her up out of the pool by her wrists in one swoop, then places her on dry ground. (She thinks of how she can convince her mother to let her come back to the pool tomorrow morning.)

She is fourteen years old and wondering if she can drown in a shower. She read somewhere that it was possible to drown in a puddle, so a shower can’t be that much different, right?

She sits in the ceramic bathtub and tries to catch her breath. She takes gulps of oxygen into her lungs and pushes them out through her noise – in, hold, and out – just like the school counsellor told her. She still can’t breathe, and it hurts. (In her lungs, her stomach, her head, her legs. It hurts everywhere.)

Her hair hangs in her face, the strands cold as they stick to her cheeks. Her body is warm, but it shakes violently; she distantly thinks of getting a blanket but the idea of anything on her skin makes her want to crawl out of it. She watches the water funnel down the drain and wonders how she could possibly be drowning when her back is still dry.

She is seventeen years old and underwater. She is staring at the prettiest girl in the world and wondering if she has the courage to kiss her. She is staring, she knows she is – but so is Cris, and that makes it all alright.

She lets her eyes trace the divots of Cris’ face, mapping every pore and ridge to memory. She notices a thin white line on her forehead, right below the hairline. A scar, a small one. Cris probably got it when she was a kid - Split her head open on something, was it a brother’s fault? (Did she cry, did her mother kiss it better?)

For a second, Joana is hit with the realization of Cris having a life before this. A time in which she was not hopelessly loved by Joana, so ardently adored. She wants to know everything about that time, wants Cris to tell her about it, wants to be part of everything that follows.

(She decides it starts now.)

Now, she is kissing the prettiest girl in the world because she needs it to breathe. She’s glad to have the excuse to never let go.

She is eighteen years old and floating on the surface of the Mediterranean. She feels her skin warm under the sun and has never felt so happy to be alive.

“What are you doing?” Cris asks above her. (Joana tamps down the urge to reach out and touch; if she moves, she’ll capsize.)

“Floating,” she replies.

Cris hums. “Yes, yes I see that.” Joana hears the smile in her voice, but keeps her eyes closed to the Mallorcan sun above her.

“Would you like to join me?” She wiggles her fingers, moves her knees a little, relaxes into the embrace of the sea and wonders why she hasn’t been doing this all her life. Cris laughs, and Joana feels the ripples meet her arm as Cris melts into the water.

They rest like that – Joana has no idea for how long. She lets her body relax and focuses on the girl breathing next to her, then spreads her arms away from her sides and feels for Cris’ hand. Cris hums as she strokes the pads, the knuckles, the curve of her wrist. Joana can picture Cris, right now: eyes closed, arms outstretched, palms open to the sky. She can see her hair fanning out in the water, almost white in the afternoon light. She sees the waves lapping at her sides, her body lightly undulating with the waves.

She takes Cris’ hand in hers and pulls until she feels Cris’ shoulder against hers. She rests their hands on her stomach and takes a breath. Takes a moment to marvel at how she has worked so hard for so long for something she didn’t know. She thinks that the goal may have been this. This feeling of serenity, of calm, of belonging to the world and having it embrace you.

Life’s all about the longing, isn’t it? About the hands, about the subtle glances. It’s all about wishing for warm dawns with someone to hold. She had spent so long desperate for fingertips on her wrists and now that she has them, she feels like she can breathe.

She keeps their hands, hugs them tight to her chest. Cris’ hands belong to her now – each ivory knuckle to kiss, each vein to trace. All hers. (She doesn’t think she’ll ever give them back.)

She is twenty years old and standing in the Atlantic Ocean.

The waves rush to meet her legs. They hurdle towards her, picking up speed and debris as they flee the horizon. It’s not quite daytime yet – behind her, to the East, she feels the sun paint her spine with streaks of gold – and the sky ahead of her is still dark. A deep shade of blue, she thinks, like a bruise. Like the ones that litter her knuckles sometimes, or the one that bloomed on Cris’ knee when she fell skateboarding. (Joana had felt awful, was almost crying with the guilt and had to fight to keep the sobs in her throat, but Cris only laughed and said she’d gotten worse from her brothers. Joana had kissed that bruise every day until it faded.)

She decides that, in the future, she would like to live near the ocean. She’d have to be able to walk to it whenever she wanted, because this cannot be the last time she sees the sunrise over the ocean. She thinks she could watch the waves catch flame every morning and never tire of the sight.

She wonders if Cris would want a house near the ocean. Something a few blocks in from the beach, so that they don’t have to deal with tourists taking pictures of their home. A small place, but with a balcony and big windows and a real dining table, not just one for the kitchen. She can picture waking up with Cris every morning, with the sun warming the bed sheets and lulling them back to sleep. She can see them making dinner together and bickering over who washes the dishes, sees them jostling for space in front of the mirror when they brush their teeth. She wants to pick out the colours for their cabinets and their bedroom and their bathroom and she wants to paint every wall with Cris right next to her – if they have a paint fight, so be it.

It scares her how clearly she can see a future with Cris. She can see them growing up together, growing old together. She thinks maybe she’s not scared of the future but scared that planning it out doesn’t terrify her.

See, the future used to scare her more than anything. It would leave her shaking and paralyzed of rational thought, leaving her with only dark hypotheticals. There was a time when she didn’t think she would make it past eighteen, so the future never even made it on the radar. But right now, with the ocean as her witness, she lets herself think of her life decades down the line. She lets her ideas settle into her bones, lets them rest there and ground her to her own life.

She’s jostled from her thoughts when she hears splashes behind her. She spins around to see Cris walking towards her, her hair falling down around her shoulders and her eyes still hazy with sleep. Cris grabs her hand; Joana lets it be taken. She thinks if Cris touches her any more than that she’ll dissolve and float away. They stand like that, sand receding through their toes and the morning sun warming their backs. Joana’s mind goes quiet, and she revels in the silence. She strokes Cris’ thumb and asks the universe how it’s possible that one person could hold so much of her heart in their hands.

Joana breaks the silence when she figures out the answer.

“I’ve never been to the ocean.”

Cris looks at her and Joana wonders if she knows her eyes match the colour of the waves. “No?”

“The Mediterranean, of course. With my parents, with you in Mallorca. But never an ocean.”

“So…” Cris says, rocking back and forth on her toes and swinging their joined hands. “What do you think?”

Joana looks back out at the ocean and takes a deep breath. “It reminds me of myself. Intense, you know?”

She feels Cris hold her hand a little tighter. “It’s calm, sometimes, angry others. It’s always intense,” she continues.

“And always beautiful.”

Joana looks back at Cris, just in time to see her smile. It’s the smile only Joana gets to see – only there for a moment, subtle enough anyone would miss it if they weren’t constantly looking for it. It’s small, but it reaches her eyes and makes her whole face light up. It’s not performative, not meant to show anyone how happy she is; a smile that Cris can’t help. Joana wonders if Cris knows she sees it – watches for it, actually – and catalogues each sighting in her memory, brings them up to mind when she falls asleep at night or starts doubting real things. She uses those smiles to remind herself that their relationship is real, that Joana’s feelings are real, that their love exists and affects her and Cris and the people around them.

Cris looks away. Joana wishes she wouldn’t, wishes she could just stare into those eyes all the time and not deal with the depths of her longing. Instead, she hums in agreement. “I don’t think anything else in this world is capable of such violence and beauty at the same time.”

She says it quietly, like she’s speaking it into the waves, urging them to take the words away to never be repeated, to never be heard. (Cris hears it though – Cris hears everything.)

Joana feels a hand leave hers and an arm wrap around her waist. Cris’ fingers rub around her hipbone, beat a tattoo into the skin. Joana lifts her arm to put it around Cris and hugs her tight against her ribcage. She rests her hand against Cris’ neck and lets herself get tangled in the golden hair. She doesn’t turn her head though; neither of them do. They stay there, holding each other, staring out at the horizon. Joana feels the waves break against her shins, thinks she can taste the salt on her tongue and in her eyes. She plays with the hairs on Cris’ neck and feels their breathing align, inhaling at the same time and exhaling as if one body.

Joana thinks she could stay here, like this, for eternity. Feel the sun rise from the edge of the world and watch it sink into the horizon every single day until it never comes back up. (If she can’t have that, however, she thinks she would be content with just one more minute of feeling like her love could drown whole oceans.)

#skam españa #crisana #croana #wlw #cris soto #joana bianchi #cris x joana #fic #oceans #seas #feelings about oceans

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geek-gem · 4 years ago

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My Dog Passed Away Today

....I just want that title out of the way......but I wanna say something too. I’m not a guy while I do talk about my life sometimes or so. But I’m not a person who reveal big details. Especially of what I look like because I have some personal issues. Including you just wanna be careful with the internet. Despite two of my best friends talking about how it’s okay to show your face.

But.....something happened today and it’s that title. Today we were having this huge party. It was for the graduates that graduated this year. Especially me, and many people were in the pool. It went on for I think 2 hours my mom said. It was a lot of fun. At one point our dog Jojo, an American Bulldog was let out of this area we put him in. He got in the pool twice.

The first with many people in the pool. Basically that I recall they were cheering and glad he was in there. The second time he got in, two kids one of them being my niece was trying to water him and give him water. Despite it looked like she was trying to feed him water with a shovel. But it was nice to see him get that love and even being petted. But someone I knew but forgot said he seemed really hot. I think one of my family friends or my cousins girlfriend but I think family friend.....

So afterwards he was laying down under a palm tree. Then later I got out and was sitting on my towel on a couch...but when one of our family members or whoever was checking on him. She was having her kid play on a swing that I recall. She was wondering about him and I thought he was tired. But when I got there and just well...he wasn’t moving. She even felt him and said I think it didn’t seem like he was breathing. I even checked him and hoped I would hear a heartbeat....it felt like nothing. I even rubbed his stomach with my left hand.....then people were gathering and wondering....I was just outside. Even with my mom and dad checking on him...

I didn’t wanna believe him...I hoped it wasn’t true. But I was glad we had one of my family friends who was visiting saying stuff like he laid under a palm tree or something just this is too much details.....

When I got out there and I needed to know....heard my mom sniffing or so....she looked at me(and think she looked sad and might of sniffed) and said he passed away.

Even when I was inside....I told myself we should of let him inside more, Including I even told this to my mom and me saying I was a terrible owner, that I thought he may of never loved me. That I never prepared for something like this. I was guessing we would of put him down later in life. But she told me he was a 100 in well dog years which I asked or something......

I was actually crying....if I recall my mom said it was okay. But I said I was nearly 23 years old. With me again saying I don’t think he may of loved me. Because I mainly just fed him. She didn’t want me to look at dad holding him by what appeared to be his legs. Told her I was expecting him to carry him bridal style. I even offered to carry him but they didn’t. He put Jojo in the back of his truck.

Yet my mom was helping me or so. I said I am a man but she said it’s okay for a man to cry. But it’s the fact that I even said I handled myself better when her father died. Even told my mom, “Fuck the Summer” and that even before then the Vets should of been opened. His right eye looked weird.

Listen he was a big dog, I didn’t play with him much. He was I guess kind of lazy but I shouldn’t say that. But if I recall my mom and others told me he lived a full life. Again he was a 100 in dog years. I mainly fed him every day as much as I can. I worried and thought if I fed him too much. But just....it’s hard.

I am grateful my family and family friends were there to offer some reassurance. But I just felt angry....even said pain, misery, and suffering...I didn’t want the kids to see me like this. Luckily I took a shower. My dad told me they were gonna bury him in the backyard. But heard him mention backyard when I was done in the shower. Even asked my mom what do they do with a dead dog when I was outside....

While I didn’t see my brother much. Looked like he was affected too. He saw his corpse, but my brother was hanging out with his friends. His eyes were red and I even told my mom when the reveal was still fresh. I was telling her it shouldn’t end like this. I’m talking about the party....

I’m just grateful many people were helping out my mom clean up...even my nana was upset. Even mentioned the five stages of grief or so and I may of passed them already. But I’m just still upset.

But I’m just grateful and it feels symbolic that his last hour or his last moments. It was being surround by love, and he had got under a palm tree. I recall my mom telling me he died in his sleep. Think I even said at least or so that’s better than being put down.

I’m sorry this is long. At one point told my mom’s sister I might start drinking yet I’m not too serious. Yet she said no don’t drink or so. Even told my mom I don’t even know or just how do you tell the kids(my niece and nephew).

Again people were supportive. I felt a bit upset when my dad confirmed he didn’t have his fair share of pets dying when I asked if he had that happened. But my mom’s sister has had some pets died. My mom just came in to see if I was okay. Told her I’m doing okay I think. Yet also told her I’m gonna be in my room for a while. Along with her saying she’s out there if she wants to talk that I recall.....

Here are two photos I took of him that I would of shared with someone on Twitter of them asking to see pictures of our dogs to make him happy.....amazing this is sadly perfect timing.

The first was taken June 4th, and the second was taken June 18th.

He loved laying down there in the heat. Kind of like chilling in the sun. Especially on those rocks. The past some days he was being let in because it was getting so hot....I’m glad I kept these images...I’m definitely not gonna take a picture of his corpse because that’s fucked up. But I may take a picture when he’s buried.

Told my mom when we were outside I think at least no it was I don’t want another dog after this. I remember that I didn’t want a dog. But it was surprise that my dad got him.....I didn’t know how old he was but 100 years.....they said he lived his full life. That’s appreciated honestly. Think I may of said at least I don’t have to feed someone everyday but I forgot and that sounds stupid.......

He was a good dog. Oh my eyes a bit at times when making this. Even though I guess he was a lazy dog. But again he was a good dog. I’m sorry to say this but I felt I may know the pain Doomguy felt with Daisy....

Rest in peace Jojo. It was nice having you.

I’m wondering if I should tag this with my username tag and Jojo. But jojo is a tag and just....it’s maybe best or so not to. I just wanted to share that with all of you if I may not post some things or whatever else. I’m sorry this got long.

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ymiwritesstuff · 5 years ago

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Return

Oki once again I suddenly got an idea that I wanted to post asap so apologies if this feels idk rushed? But anyways I hope you enjoy!

Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure Part 7: Steel Ball Run

Gyro Zeppeli x Fem!Reader

Summary: Ever since Gyro sailed all the way to America in order to take part in the Steel Ball Run race, you had been eagerly waiting for his return.

Notes: Angst, SPOILERS FOR PART 7

Gyro’s emerald green eyes lit up and his lips curl into a wide grin that shows his golden teeth when his gaze falls on the envelope in his hands. With an excited chuckle his drops everything he was just about to do and sits down on his sleeping bag. Johnny glances at his friend a smile of his own apparent on his features as he has a pretty good guess about the contents of that envelope.

“Another one?” The blond asks, laying on his sleeping bag with his head leaning against his hand. The scene before him was nothing new as Gyro had received letters like this one many times in the past and judging by the Italian’s expression, he had been waiting a long time for this one.

“Yep.” He says as he opens the envelope, carefully enough so he doesn’t tear apart the letter itself, but swiftly so he can begin reading the contents of it. He had been waiting for so long to receive a response to his previous letter and the excitement bubbling inside is so intense it feels like it’s about to burst out. He can’t help it though. This letter had been delivered to him all the way from his home country and once he got the envelope open, Gyro wasted no time in reading it:

Ciao, Handsome!

How’s the race been treating you?

Upon reading the first lines of text Gyro’s smile only grows when he notices the familiar cursive handwriting of his lover he had seen so many times throughout Steel Ball Run. He missed you so much and wished he could see you in person but for now had to rely on this distant form of communication. He didn’t complain, though as frankly any contact with you was enough.

Good, I hope, you know how worried I get. I can’t help it! I love you after all.. When I read your last letter and you wrote about all that crazy shit you’ve been through I.. I couldn’t help but to feel a bit worried. I know what you’re going to say, “I promised to come back after I win this race, cara. And I won’t break that promise”.

He lets out a quiet chuckle upon reading your words. You knew him so well. The letters you sent him made him feel that familiar warmth he felt whenever he had been in your presence before his admittedly painful departure. He remembers you shedding painful tears as you watched his ship slowly move closer to the horizon. As much as he hated seeing you sad, he knew he had to do something in order to save the innocent boy’s life. However he didn’t leave before promising to return home as soon as he grasped victory.

I laughed just now, you know. And it only made me miss your laugh. I miss you so much, Gyro. I think of you every day and I can’t wait for you to come back. Honestly, a part of me wants to hop on a ship and sail to America just so I can see you again. But based on the things you’ve told me.. Perhaps it would be better for me to just stay here and try to wait for you patiently. I just want you to be safe. I don’t know what I’d do if something happened to you.

Gyro frowns his brows as his eyes scan the text before him, his fingers lightly brushing over it. He had told you about the bizarre events he experienced during the race quite openly, but a part of him wonders if it was alright to bring you so much worry with the dangerous tales. On the other hand, he had promised to always be honest with you and thought it best not to sugarcoat any of the events that occurred. Gyro was sure you respected his honesty, but it still, he couldn’t help but to question it.

But I believe in you. I know you will return with the prize money in your hands and the joy of victory by your side. I will cheer you on, even from the other side of the world. You will prevail, I am certain of it. I just can’t allow myself to forget that so easily. I know it’s dangerous and I know anything could happen, but I have faith in you, Gyro. I love you so much and I can’t wait to hold you in my arms again. Please, take care of yourself and stay safe. I’ll be waiting for you, Gyro.

Love,

(Name).

Gyro smiles to himself, your letter being able to awaken so many emotions inside of him. At this point they didn’t feel like mere letters anymore. Whenever he read them, he could hear your voice and feel your emotions, which was why he had saved every single letter he had received from you. They were like pieces of a puzzle that would combine into something bigger when all of this was over. They were memories that both of you shared and cherished. With each passing day he would think about you. Your stunning smile, your beautiful (E/C) orbs that put the stars to shame and those soft (H/C) locks he had so often ran his fingers through. He missed having you next to him, but knew that this grueling time away from you would all be worth it, because when he finally returned he’d get to pull you into an embrace he had been yearning for so long.

With a sigh, Gyro folds the letter and immediately begins to write a response on a piece of paper. There was always some delay with the delivery due to the great distance between you two so Gyro made sure to always begin writing as soon as possible. Johnny looks at his friend and smiles to himself. Gyro was often stressed and tense due to everything that had been going on, but would show signs of relief and happiness whenever he wrote his letters or read one of yours. It always managed to put a smile on the blond jockey’s face. Gyro was madly in love with you, and that love would carry him through whatever the race dared to throw at him.

When your hands touch the fresh paper of the envelope, you immediately sit down and begin to open it. It had been a good month of sending letters back and forth just like usual and Gyro was sure that it would all be over soon. Things had gotten quite a bit hectic and to quote the Italian’s own words; “It’s a shitstorm over here, but we’ll get through it.” Reading his letters in which he told you about all that was going on was like reading a story, a very dangerous, bizarre story. But it helped you to feel connected to him in a way, as if you were there with him, experiencing those events.

Upon opening the envelope and unfolding the letter your brows frown at the unusually short length of the content. It was odd considering just how long his previous letters have been and a deep part of you starts feeling something akin to concern. But that feeling quickly fades away when you start reading:

Ciao, beautiful!

Listen, I’m gonna need to keep this one a bit short simply because it won’t be long before you can actually hear my words instead of having to read them. Yep, you read right, cara. Everything is going to be over soon. The President has gotten a bit out of control with the corpse but me and Johnny are gonna take him down! Soon it will all be over and I can finally come home to you and hold you tight.

You smile at the text, relieved to hear that everything was well. Gyro had mentioned the President’s plans and initially it did hit you with a wave of concern and worry but with his letters came a reassuring wave of relief as according to his words, things had been turning for the better.

I know how much you worry, but I assure you, I will kick Valentine’s ass AND win the race so I can happily return home. Return to you. I miss you so much, you don’t even know, but the fact that this won’t last for long keeps me going. You keep me going, (Name). I can’t wait to hold you, kiss you, hug you.. I can’t wait to see you, cara.

Your reading gets interrupted when a single tear you didn’t even notice drops on the paper. The words stick onto you like glue and caused a storm of strong emotions to erupt within you. Dammit, Gyro! How dare he make you cry?! You giggle to yourself and quickly wipe your tears and continue reading:

And perhaps.. We can discuss the future. Because I want it to be with you, (Name). A future with you sounds like heaven and I really hope you feel the same way. Well, we will have time to discuss this when I return. But, feel free to consider it! If you ask me, a little Zeppeli running around would make me the happiest man in the world! But yeah, we’ll have time for that. Take care, my love and until we see each other again,

ti amo.

Gyro

The amount of tears rolling down your cheeks only increases after you finish reading his letter. Those tender, loving words he used were so rare, but they managed to cling to you and you wished nothing more than to feel the man himself next to you. The thought of having a family together with Gyro filled you with so much joy and warmth it felt like torture not having him here to make that dream a reality. Not yet, at least.

Soon, your long wait would be rewarded. Because once this would all be over, you could finally live with the man you loved so dearly. His voice, his eyes oh, how you missed them all and you could hardly wait any longer. Patience was key here. He would return, just as he promised and you’d never have to be without him ever again.

And he did return. But not in the way you were hoping. And when your (E/C) eyes that were filled with joyous tears, meant to express your happiness in finally seeing Gyro after so long land on that wooden box that Johnny was dragging behind him with a dark, sorrow-filled look dulling his blue eyes, those tears froze for a split second, only to be filled with devastation.

He promised. And he didn’t break his promise. But he broke you. Because upon his return, he didn’t hold you, kiss you, hug you, instead, you were met with a lifeless corpse that once belonged to the man you loved. Your entire world crumbled, it felt as if your soul had been dragged out of your body with him. This couldn’t be happening. But the sight before you didn’t lie. And no matter how much you cried, wailed, sobbed or screamed, deep down you knew, Gyro never returned.

And the last memory you had of him, was a letter that painfully reminded you of a dream that never became a reality.

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miafic · 4 years ago

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hi this is hurt/comfort all the way through but its not a happy ending so if that is not your thing this is not for you!

also this is not real this is just me exploring!!!! au only. zakk’s cute parents get a long time together <3

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it’s morning, and the kids are getting ready to start the day, but there’s no sign of zakk. lucas opens zakk’s bedroom door, where he finds the other counselor sitting up in bed and staring blankly at the wall. he slips in and closes the door behind himself. he has to say zakk’s name twice before zakk looks at him.

“are you okay?” lucas wonders.

“my... dad’s dead,” zakk replies, almost dreamily.

“what?!”

��i woke up to twenty-six missed calls from my mom,” he says, still sounding completely disconnected from himself.

“okay,” lucas says, shifting as far into fix-it mode as his shock will let him. “okay. what happened?”

“he was in a car accident. died instantly. i guess. i don’t - i don’t really know.”

lucas leans down, kisses his temple. “i love you,” he says, because he has no idea what the hell else to say.

zakk doesn’t reply.

“stay here,” lucas instructs. “i’m gonna make some phone calls really quick, and i’ll get you out of here.”

zakk looks at him again, the smallest hint of fear in his eyes. “come with me,” he pleads.

lucas takes one of zakk’s hands in both of his. “of course.”

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rich and jojo both come to the house within forty minutes. the boys don’t seem to notice anything’s up; to them, it’s just a shift change.

lucas packs zakk’s favorite things and a few of his own things and puts zakk into the green car. they drive home.

sometime around 8 AM, pretty soon after they’ve laid down in their bed at home, the first wave of grief hits zakk. he lies in lucas’ arms and sobs and sobs and sobs.

lucas buries his face in zakk’s hair, praying.

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early the next morning, lucas brushes a lock of zakk’s hair back behind his ear and then presses their foreheads together. “call me when you land,” he says quietly, and zakk nods, sniffles.

“okay.” zakk hugs him long and hard. “i’ll miss you.”

“i’ll miss you, too,” lucas whispers, holding him close. he kisses zakk’s hair once, twice, and then pulls back to kiss his lips. this feels so wrong, the whole thing. lucas hugs zakk again and realizes that he feels dirty, but it’s not because they’re kissing in public.

zakk gently pushes lucas off of him and tries to smile. “i’m gonna miss my flight.”

“i can’t leave you,” lucas decides a little aggressively.

“it’s okay. the kids need you, and-”

“the kids will be fine. i can - i can see if there are any tickets left-”

zakk shakes his head, rests his hand on lucas’ cheek. he blinks, and tears fall from both of his eyes, and lucas feels worse.

“i’ll be fine,” zakk murmurs, but lucas knows it’s a lie. zakk’s crying right now, right this fucking second, and lucas feels like letting him walk away is the worst and most cowardly thing he’s ever done. “i’ll give my mom a hug for you. promise.”

lucas shakes his head, and zakk shakes his, too, smiling faintly.

“i have to go, baby, or i really am gonna miss my flight. i’ll see you when i get back.”

“i love you.”

“i love you, too.”

they share one last sorrowful kiss, and zakk heads away. he looks back twice. lucas watches him until he disappears, and then he turns around, headed straight for his car. he’s already got his cell phone pressed to his ear.

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zakk’s mom opens the door that evening. “lucas,” she says in surprise. her voice is hoarse. “oh - zakk said you couldn’t make it.”

“i tried to call, but...” he shrugs. neither of them had answered. normally, he would have been worried, but given the circumstances, he’d been a little relieved. he’d hoped that it that meant zakk and his mom were spending time together.

she holds her arms out, pulls him into them, and starts to quietly cry. he goes willingly into the hug. he sets his bag on the ground and then hugs her, too, squeezing his eyes shut. his absolute worst nightmare is losing his husband, and this kind woman whom he loves is going through it. his sweet, loving mother-in-law, who is nothing like the nasty witches that he’s been warned that mother-in-laws are. she doesn’t deserve this at all. he hugs her tighter.

“mom?”

zakk’s mom doesn’t move, but lucas glances up at the top of the staircase.

“lucas,” zakk breathes, and the next thing lucas knows, zakk is flying down the stairs, running to the doorway, and crashing into the hug. lucas frees one arm from zakk’s mom to wrap it around zakk, and in the next second, zakk is sobbing into his shoulder.

“i missed you!” zakk half-yells, and lucas has to close his eyes at the ache in his chest.

“i missed you, too. i came as soon as i could.”

“thank you for being here,” zakk’s mom manages to say, and he nods.

they all sort of pull apart at once, so lucas picks his bag back up and says, “whatever i can do to help...” and then nods.

“thank you,” zakk’s mom whispers.

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upstairs in zakk’s childhood bedroom, lucas holds both of zakk’s hands and looks right into his eyes.

“-thought i’d made a crazy mistake coming here without you, you know?”

lucas nods.

“i mean, it’s one thing coming home and seeing my mom and stuff. it was awful, especially since miri’s refusing to come home, but i - it would have been weird if you were here. no offense.”

“no, i understand what you mean.”

"but i just thought about the funeral, and planning the funeral, and sleeping tonight, and i felt so homesick for you.” zakk hangs his head and starts crying again, his mouth open like a little kid.

lucas steps forward and wraps him up tightly. zakk clings to him.

“i couldn’t leave you by yourself,” lucas confesses, and he means it in his soul.

“really?”

lucas exhales. “really. i couldn’t do it.”

“why not?”

“because you’re my husband, and you just lost your dad, and i would be a monster if i wasn’t here for you. and i love you, and i kept picturing you trying to sleep, too-”

zakk cries harder.

“-and i pictured myself trying to sleep halfway across the country, worrying about you, and i just really wanted to be here. i tried to call like four times, but...”

zakk shakes his head, so lucas doesn’t bother to finish the sentence. he knows they understand each other.

“and the only thing you asked for,” lucas continues, “in all of this, was for me to come with you.”

zakk pulls back to look at him in confusion.

“in you room yesterday morning. do you remember?”

zakk shakes his head.

“i said i would make sure you got home from peace and purpose, got some time off. and you looked scared, and you said, ‘come with me.’”

“i don’t remember that,” zakk admits weakly.

“that’s okay,” lucas says, and they embrace again. lucas runs his hand over the back of zakk’s head a few times. zakk exhales heavily against his chest.

“i don’t know what the hell i was thinking, letting you get on that plane by yourself.”

“you came,” zakk tells him. “you’re here now.”

“yeah, i’m here,” lucas agrees. he presses a kiss to the top of zakk’s head.

“don’t leave, okay? i know it’s gonna be an awful week, but just.”

“it’s okay. i came here to help. with whatever you guys need. funeral stuff, phone calls, food, cleaning... seriously, anything.”

“no, i mean - i really, really need you right now.”

lucas smiles sadly. “i’m not going anywhere.”

#sorry for typos my brain is like jelly #zakk #lucas #au

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nisaadventures · 4 years ago

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I’m turning 30 in 10 days... yikes.

The last year of my life has sucked... lol. Okay, it wasn’t all bad. I’m exaggerating... but I’m also not. I know there were plenty of nice moments in the last year... but when I think about the last year of my life, its just full of so many firsts... awful firsts...

First time celebrating their birthdays without them...

First holiday season without them... anyone else miss mom’s turkey? Most people don’t like traditional thanksgiving dinner because the turkey is more often dry... mom’s was never dry... Okay the key people.. Don’t actually cook your stuffing in the turkey. Its just going to suck all the juice life out of your bird... I mean come on. Trick #1 stuff the turkey with fresh cut oranges and yes, you can leave the skin on... #2 do majority of the oven time in an oven bag to keep the moisture in. #3 cook breasts down. Its the part thats usually most dry, so duh... keep it in the juicy, buttery goodness of the pan. I never made the entire meal, I usually just helped mom with everything. These are just some things I’ve taken away in my observations.

Halloween trip to Disneyland without them... Disney is always a good time, but I’d be lying if I said my heart didn’t feel heavy in some way... and that is saying something because Disneyland is my happy place lol.

Looking forward to 2020... Hoping that it had so much better in store for us.

Dear lord... what a joke.

Going to Hawaii for our “family trip” without them...

A pandemic without them... I mean yes, I’m thankful they aren’t out there with COVID on the rise... I’m glad they’re not stuck at home because COVID. Mom and Michael are both too much of busy bees to be cooped up in the house for too long.

Not going to lie... picking up where they left has been hard. All of moms plants... The dogs.. Taking care of the backyard, where Michael usually would. Mom would definitely do too much at once. She’d be out in the yard planting something and pulling out something else in her damn UGG boots! wth mom?! Those are expensive! lol. “Oh its fine.. I’ll wash them.” Omg lol. Either that, or she’d be over here trying to move heavy a$$ pots by herself and I’d have to stop her before she hurt her back. Ayiyi.

Keanu and Aria’s birthdays without them... seeing my babies sad and missing their grandma, grandpa, and aunties has been hard. It will be out of nowhere sometimes... and all the nights of Aria waking up in the middle of the night crying. I feel you baby girl... I get it. I miss them too... Its okay to be sad... Mantras...

You were her little rays of sunshine. Grandpa and grandma loved you SOOOO much.

Mom would babysit the kids on Saturday mornings, while Kuya, Vaness, and I went to workout. They’d go get breakfast, pancakes and eggs, at UJs. She’d take them to Target, the dollar store, Walmart, etc. just so they could look and maybe get something to play with together. She always crafted with them.

Living in this house... especially with COVID... has been hard. I miss just sitting at the dinner table, eating sho mi, and talking about work. Mom and Michael getting all worked up over some crazy manager, or something going down with the union.. yup, that’s where I get it from... advocacy and leadership skills FTW. One thing they could always talk about for HOURS was work lol.

I remember when I was a little girl, Mom would let me play in the bathtub until I was all wrinkled. She would let me bring all my toys into the tub. At one point I even had a care bear doll that she, for some reason, let me take in the bath lol. She’d throw it in the dryer for me after I was done.

I remember going to the grocery store with mom and leaving with two full a$$ grocery carts because we had a full house at all times. I mean it was Kuya, my cousin Jojo, my brother Derric, my cousin John, Bubba, my cousin Jay, me and whoever else was over the house lol. When Kuya was in high school, it was all of his buddies partying at our house and crashing on the floor in the living room, dining room, and all the couches. She was the #1 host for sure.

“Are you hungry? Did you eat yet?”

Thats love.

All of Kuya’s high school friends called her Mom. My friends called her Mama Fern. She loved that.

I remember playing hide n go seek in the dark in our tiny town house.. Later in the bigger house on Glenbriar... where mom actually tripped and broke her arm... But she laughed so hard she peed her pants, so she was a good sport? lol. Needless to say, we sort of stopped playing after that.

I remember making dim sum with mom for the first time. Such a hot mess, flour and food everywhere, but so fun. We definitely didn’t do that again until there were more adults around to help lol. Mom knew how to run through a kitchen like a tornado. Hot mess! but the best cook.

Mom was always careful. She always wanted to make sure we were safe, that I was safe. I couldn’t go outside unless one of the boys was with me. When I would swim she would get nervous, even though I learned how to swim at a young age thanks to Kuya. One day, we were having a bbq, lots of family over, I was playing in the jacuzzi (drawing on the wall of the jacuzzi with a piece of chlorine... don’t play with chemicals kids lol) and she thought I was drowning? So she jumps her a$$ in there fully clothed and yanks my a$$ out. I was shocked as hell, so I naturally started crying hella hard and complaining about the fact that she scratched me when she yanked me up out of the water lol.

Keep in mind that that was not the first time one of the twins jumped into the pool fully clothed to “save” someone hahaha.

Speaking of fully clothed in the pool... The time auntie tripped and fell slo-mo style (that questionable, are you going to catch your balance, speed) into the pool LOL. Mom was dead laughing at her. Most hilarious video.

Those twins lol.

Jeeze.. speaking of the twins. They had this crazy connection. Tell me why when mom got sick with suspected viral meningitis and had to be hospitalized... Auntie straight up followed her right into the ICU with viral meningitis...

Who remembers their 50th birthday? Talk about doing it BIG. So much fun. All the performances. Lani was there... KMA performances and kuya and John getting down for Maglalatik. Who doesn’t like seeing some half naked, buff dudes, bang coconuts together? haha. The twins getting down with their hula performance. Cute!

I remember when Mom and pops were going through their divorce and she would text me after midnight. I was going to Sac State and of course I was team NO sleep at the time. I would be in the AIRC studying. I’d comfort as best as I could from a distance... and then come home on weekends to be there with her when I could.

She found her footing again. Started going to the gym with Kuya more... Started running all the time... all of her half marathons and finally she did the Nike Women’s Marathon.

Hiking Half Dome with her. What.a.badass.

That is really how I see her. She was so badass. When she was my age she had my 9 year old Kuya and I was on the way... She was working and supporting us and then eventually decided to make a better life for us, and went back to school... NURSING SCHOOL. wth. I can’t even imagine doing that right now, but reminding myself of where she has been and how much she PUT IN WORK... That keeps me grounded in the fact that we are responsible for our lives. If you want something, you have to work for it. You can’t just hope for better... you make better happen.

I guess its that reminder... her strength... her and Michael’s love and hard work... That keeps me going.

Being mindful... being thankful... acknowledging my own strength...

But with that said... August has been increasingly hard. I don’t like to think about my birthday. I don’t even want to plan anything. They’re not here... I can’t celebrate with all my loved ones and friends. Thank you COVID...

We’re just getting closer and closer to the anniversary? Nah.. lets not call it that... anniversary sounds like something nice... something to celebrate... This is NOT that. The day your loved ones are taken is not something to celebrate... I mean honestly, if I had to pinpoint the worst day of my life, that was it.... When I think about that day I can’t breathe. Terrible memories... so many sleepless nights. I’ve come so far. Its still hard, but I’ve come a long way.

Anyway... this post is sort of random and nostalgic. Things I hold onto. Things that make me happy cry... Things that weigh heavy on my heart.

Here’s my playlist for grief... reminders of them... collected over the last year:

Aloha for now -Kaleo Vai & Passion

One day at a time -Jennifer Chung

In the end - Gabe Bondoc, Melissa Polinar, Passion

Round and around -Kolohe Kai

Fade Away -Rebelution

Alive -The Green

New Day -Kimie’

Angels above me -Stick Figure

Memories -Maroon 5

Wish you pain -Andy Grammer

100 -Katchafire

Everyday life -Coldplay

Out of the darkness -Isla vista worship, Bre Reed

Amen -Andra Day

Grateful -13 Crowns feat. Poo Bear

Rainbow Connection -Gwen Stefani

Be okay -ZOE worship

With you -Eryn Allen Kane

Dont worry -Mesto feat. Aloe Blacc

Just livin’ -Sensi trails, Kbong

Remember me -Miguel, Natalia Lafourcade

Even more -Major

Let it be -Xav A.

Give Thanks -Iya terra, Stick figure

Mr. Sun -Sammy Johnson

Rest easy -Thrive, Nico of Tribal Theory

Sunny Days- Allen Stone

Today’s a new day -Common Kings

Mother’s Love -Jonah Jaxon, Micah G

The bones -Maren Morris, Hozier

Give you blue -Allen Stone

And we remain -Johnnyswim

Yellow -Kina Grannis

Streetcar -Daniel Caesar

Meant to be -Bebe Rexha, Florida georgia line

All you need to know -Gryffin, slander, Calle Lehmann

Like I’m gonna lose you -Jasmine Thompson

#ohanaovereverything #threeoh #grief #memories #family #loss

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yaneyanedaze · 5 years ago

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For you,Dr.Kujo.

-A Normal Teacher Au, where some characters are teachers and some are students, the reader is a beloved teacher until she becomes ill, and flowers start to appear randomly around her.-

Hope you guys love this! This now makes three stories that I have posted! And I hope this one will be just a great as the others for you!

Warnings: a little bit of Angst, sick!reader-Chan, angst with a happy ending. Maybe ooc jotaro because I suck at Jotaro writings

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“Ms. (Y/n) are you alright?..”

My eyes went wide as flowers appeared on the floor near my desk. I felt an intense feeling of sickness coming on, but didn’t know what it was. I was in the middle of a meeting with two of my students, Hirose Koichi and Higashikata Josuke. They were here to help raise their grades and discuss the project i had recently given them. They looked at me with worry as they tried to help me sit up.

Dark blue and Sky blue rose petals lay on the floor. It hurt when I tried to breath, i glanced up at Josuke and Koichi with a pained smile, “I-I’ll be fine guys..it’s probably just a cold I’m coming down with.” I said brushing it off. I stood completely up, reaching to get a broom to sweep this up. I had to clean this up before heading anywhere else, I waved goodbye to Koichi and Josuke as they walked out my class, I had to figure out what this was.

And I had to figure it out fast.

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My name is (Y/n) (L/n), I am an Art Teacher at S.W Highschool, and usually I do not get sickly that easy, but today it hit me hard. I had trouble getting from my classroom to the teachers lounge, where I scared two of my fellow colleagues. Jean Pierre Polnareff, The French teacher and Frankie Courtson, a fellow music teacher, both looked at me with equally worried looks as I stumbled in. “Woah, (Y/n)! Are you alright! You look terrible!-Ow!” “Shush. Are you alright Ms.(L/n)?” Frankie was the one to lead me to the chair to sit down, as she did, I felt the need to throw up again.

I grabbed the trash can and Polnareff held my (h/c)!hair up, more rose petals came out, they now were covered in small drops of blood. I heard the door open and I assumed another teacher came in. After about 5 minutes the footsteps came over to my area. “Yare, Yare..What did you get yourself into.?” I felt a rush of embarrassment go through me. “It was nothing Jotaro, She just came in here sick, and then speaking with her students they said she was sick during class.” Frankie explained for me. I slowly raised up and used a paper towel Polnareff handed me to wipe my mouth off. I tried standing up, but was too weak to even balance myself. I fell back into the arms of Jotaro, who just shook his head. “Find another Teacher to sub for her. I’m taking her home.” He said blankly before picking me up bridal style.

(3rd POV)

Jotaro looked over at (y/n) as she laid asleep in her bed. He had brought her to her home and using the spare key she had, got in and placed her in bed. She had begun coughing in her sleep and he saw something that confused him.

Flowers.

They were a pretty sky blue color, similar to the ocean,but they were covered in her blood. They looked pretty, but he knew they were causing her immense pain. On the car ride here, she complained of her illness getting worse, and the pain became unbearable, and she soon passed out. Jotaro knew he broke a couple of laws trying to speed his way to her home, to give her medicine to make her feel better. But he feels like something more is wrong.

He glanced around her room looking for something. He found something she was working on, a paper on her desk, with notes sprawled all around it. He picked it up and sat back in the chair, reading it, and what he read sent chills down his spine:

“The Hanahaki Disease is an Illness Born from one-sided love, where the patient throws up and coughs up flower petals when they suffer from one-sided love. The infection can be removed through surgery, but the feelings disappear along with the petals. If the patient continues to let the disease stay, it will spread throughout their lungs, and eventually they choke and die from the petals in their body. This can be cured if the one they love returns their feelings. But will worsen if they reject it.”

You were suffering from this disease.

You were going to die if who ever you loved didn’t love you back.

Jotaro glanced over to see that (y/n) was now awake and slowly beginning to sit up. “Ugh..my head..Thank you Jotaro..for bringing me hom-“ “Why didn’t you tell me..?” He interrupted with a question, his hand pulling down his hat to hide his features. He sounded hurt. (Y/n) tilted her head in confusion. Before seeing the paper in his hands, the petals on her bed and floor.

(Y/n) turned her head as a forced smile came on her face “I don’t know what you’re talking about-“ “Don’t lie to me! You’re dying and I want to help you get better!!” He yelled. Now gripping her shoulders and looking her dead in the eyes, his eyes were puffing, blood shot red. He was crying. The stoic man known as Jotaro Kujo was crying. His tears ran down his face though as he pulled her closer to his chest, nearly causing her to fall out of bed. “Just let me help..I can’t..I can’t loose you.” He muttered softly.

(First Pov)

My chest felt like it lightened from that, He cared about me. He actually cared, and not only that, he was crying for me. I thought I was dreaming until I heard him say something else.

“(Y/n)..I love you..”

I felt tears starting to well up in my eyes and I gripped onto Jotaro’s Jacket. I just let it all out, I didn’t care anymore, I really didn’t. “I’m so sorry Jojo!” I started, using my nickname for him. “I was just gonna let it play out, I couldn’t go through with the surgery. I didn’t think it’ll get this bad..” I confessed, only earning a tighter grip on my body. He let out a grunt before placing his face in the crook of my neck and beginning to speak.

“It’s..it’s fine. Just tell me..That was scary. Josuke came and told me you weren’t doing good, I rushed from my class to come check on you. My heart dropped when I didn’t see you in your classroom, so I checked the teachers lounge next. Seeing you in that position nearly killed me. I didn’t know..I didn’t know that..” he trailed off before lifting his head to look me in my eyes again. “That I caused this..” I quickled shook my head as I allowed my self to fully be seated in his lap. “It’s not your fault..I should’ve told you..” I say laying my head on his chest. I could hear his heart beating fast, before feeling another presence around me. I only assumed it was Jotaro’s Stand Star Platinum.

And if on que, the large hands of Star picked me up and held me in his arms. He also had a saddened look on his features, I placed a hand on his face and gave a smile. “I-I’m alright Star! See look! I was just a little sick that’s all” That didn’t seem to affect the large stand as he still held onto me with a protective ‘Ora!’ Jotaro stood up from the chair he was in with a “Yare Yare..” and walked over to us. He placed a small kiss on my forehead before ordering Star to put me down. The stand seemed to be reluctant but eventually placed me on my feet, just to have Jotaro pull me into another hug, lift my chin and place a soft kiss onto my lips. He ran a hand down my back before smirking.

“Starting tomorrow you’re now officially Mrs.Kujo.”

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When I arrived back to school the next Monday. I began writing in cursive on the board, my class seemed glad that I was back. But I heard shocked gasps when I finished writing.

Mrs.(Y/n)Kujo.

I smiled proudly as I began passing out the sketch books to my students. “Starting today guys, you can call me Mrs.(Y/n) or-“ “Mrs.Kujo.” I whipped my head to the door, a big grin on my face. Jotaro stood in the doorway, papers in his hands as well as a container. “You forgot your lunch. So I brought it.” He said handing it to me before turning to leave with a smirk as he glanced at the whiteboard. When he left, I was bombarded with questions from my students. Ranging from “where were you yesterday?” To “when are you two gonna have kids?”.

I giggled and continued on with class, answering some questions, other I told them to ask Mr. Kujo. I was happy.

I was happy that I was no longer sickly, and that I had the fiancé of my dreams.

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Hope you guys enjoyed this little story!

It was something I decided to do instead of schoolwork lol

#jjba #jojo no kimyou na bouken #Jojo x reader #jjba x reader #jojos bizarre adventure #hanahaki #jotaro x reader #jotaro #jotaro kujo #kujo jotaro

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dolphin-enthusiast · 4 years ago

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Part 13

Oh boy, tw: abuse, curses, family things, starvation, death, the usual.

( I did this in between heatstroke.)

“So I think the reason my hair grew is because my stand’s hair is long. It doesn’t usually grow that fast but it is shiny-” “Guys! There’s a new Italian restaurant here! When do think it open-” “WHERE IS IT!?!” “It says one hundred feet..” “That’s in front of the cemetery... Why would you open a restaurant in a remote place like that? How does it even attract customers?” “Well, I find it nice that people can dine while watching their loved ones.” “IT’S NICE BUT- Not a lot of people think like you, Sky.” “But still, it’s nice to enter a restaurant knowing that most of ingredients in the food won’t kill you.” They begin talking about how hungry they are. And I faint “Sky?!” And I awaken. “I skipped everything today.” “You weren’t hungry?” “No, I was. I’m just broke.” “Josuke, I’m jealous of you! Your hot mom cooks for you everyday!!! I gotta cook everyday by myself, plus I gotta take care of my pops. And Sky!You know how to cook from even the littlest amount of food AND since you’re a mangaka and you’re very pretty, people give you food!” “Alright, let’s go then! I’m just going to accompany you, you brought money with you right?” “I don’t have anything else in my house but money!!” “That sentence gave me more depression, Okuyasu!” “Let’s go! Sky! Bring your list of allergies!” “It’s more like a scroll of ancient wisdom but leT’S GO!!”

We get there and

“I FOUND MONEY!!!! AHAHAH FINALLY!!”

We notice that the menu is up to the person.

“Huh, that’s weird...” “JoJo, a serial killer obsessed with hands could appear and that’d probably be normal in this town’s standards

(Touché me, Touché...)

We enter, it’s weird.

“Josuke, shut the fuck up. If I come here I don’t need to socialize on the way out and that makes me happy. Besides, it could be like a restaurant near my apartment. The cook was the only one there and fewer tables means fewer work.”

“That’s right. I do everything myself here.”

“ODDIO!! MADONNA SANTA!!”

“Welcome, please sit.”

“Before you show us food, I have a scroll of allergies. I can deal with the smell with some mild irritation but if I eat it, I will literally die within minutes.”

And it’s just this long ass list:

•Peanuts

•sea animals with shell in general.(it literally lists the animals.)

•most fish except sweet water ones.

•Milk, but not dairy.

•cherry artificial flavoring

“You poor thing, how did you live like that?”

“Sir, my father starved me, I didn’t live, I survived.”

He introduced himself

“So you’re a foreigner?.”

“Yes. I am Italian. My name is Tonio Trussardi.”

“Wait, I knew I recognized you! I haven’t seen you in so long!!”

“What do you mean? I don’t remember meeting you...-

“Now?” “Wait, Sky?” “YES, I AM!” “It’s been a while!” Okuyasu chimes in “Wait, how do you know each other?” “Mum divorced my dad when I was very young. She then remarried into Tonio’s family. In fact, I was supposed to have a brother with with his blood.” “Can we meet him?” “Josuke, I said supposed to. My dad found out and he did whatever he could so she wouldn’t move on.” “How?” Mum has problems with fertility. I’m a test tube baby.” “What is that?” “Well, it’s in vitro fertilization. Normal babies are fertilized inside of the woman’s body. Me, on the other hand, was conceived thanks to a laboratory, then a whole process happened,and I was put into my mother and by pure luck I was developed. I quite literally didn’t chose this life, this life chose me. My dad,however, did not.” “Same.” “Josuke, your dad didn’t know you existed and I was there when he found out he actually had a son. He was ecstatic. I think. It’s hard to tell, I go blind randomly. Mine, even though he was there, didn’t like me. I was not born because of his love for my mum, but because he wanted American citizenship. He abused me in every meaning of the word, I-I don’t feel comfortable saying more.” “So what was Sky as a child?!” I nod, in defeat. “She always had too much excitement, but a really monotone face. She hanged upside down-

And her nose was a little bit higher.” “Wait, you had surgery?” “No, a girl broke my nose because I called her out and they had to put it in place but they messed up-WE CAME TO EAT, NOT DISCUSS HOW I WAS AS A CHILD NOW LET’S GET SOMETHING.” “So, how’s your mother?” “Mental hospital, my stepdad is nowhere to be found. He calls mum constantly though. And my dad is with his other family. So you’re literally my only family at the moment.” We sit down, Okuyasu asks for a menu. Tonio responds by saying there is no actual menu. He states that he will determine what he makes for the customer based on his observations. He noticed how fucked up Okuyasu was and next it was me. “You didn’t sleep at all tonight since you forgot to take your pills, you haven’t eaten a proper meal in a while, your Tourette’s is controlled as your tics indicate but you went too far with one and dislocated your shoulder too far-” and one tic I recently acquired, moving my head foward slightly, just activates, happens once and stops(tics are involuntary movements caused by conditions.) Just like when you were little, happens with mention. ADHD is fine, depression is not too serious, anxiety and PTSD in control, still both dyslexic and dysgraphic, you accidentally cut your wrist moving your favorite knife and it looks like you did it on purpose, you tripped and hurt your ankle-” “Listen, we both know that I have a lot of problems and you and I both know that what you’re saying is destroying what little self esteem I built up. I only have 3,500 yen I found randomly, my service dog Iggy is in my bag, don’t worry, I washed him before leaving, you know that because of every scratch, he doesn’t shed and he’s in a special bag so don’t worry about the germs or him. He’s fine. I have holes so he can breathe. And I’m not saying this to be mean. I truly appreciate you, but I will maim you out of instinct if you don’t stop and we both know that. I’ve done it before.” “That’s true, you broke my arm once.” We nod “Some juice would be nice.” Tonio heads for the kitchen to start preparing the meals. As Josuke tries to convince us to leave the restaurant should the food taste bad, Okuyasu takes a sip of water and states that he has never tasted water so good before. I take a sip of mine. Okuyasu begins to cry, asking for Josuke's handkerchief. After a time, Okuyasu can't stop himself from crying to the point where his eyes began to deflate. Tonio explains and then Josuke says “And what about Sky?!? She’s the sweetest, most loving person I’ve ever known and the poor creature is in constant agony!! ” “We both know that her insomnia is too deep. And it’s trauma based so I can’t do anything about that.” He whispers to Okuyasu and Josuke’s ears. “If you love her as much as you show, you’d realize that I know her a lot. You two loose sleep because of her, don’t you?” “It’s ok, JoJo. You learn how to ignore it. I basically don’t feel it anymore.” Okuyasu finally stops crying and mentions that his sleepiness is gone and that he has never felt better. Tonio has already prepared the next meal for Okuyasu, a mozzarella and tomato salad.

Part 14. Soon

#talkin abt love n feels n all of dat...#deep stuff #top 10 anime romances #submission

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bboyplankton · 5 years ago

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2019 Playlist

1. A$AP Ferg & MadeinTYO – Wam

2. Action Bronson & The Alchemist – Arnold & Danny

3. Action Bronson & The Alchemist – Descendant of the Stars

4. Akon feat. Skales – Control

5. Akon feat. Olamide – Scammers

6. Alex Isley – Colors

7. Amaal – Coming & Going

8. Anderson .Paak feat. Andre 3000 – Come Home

9. Anderson .Paak feat. Smokey Robinson – Make It Better

10. Ari Lennox – I Been

11. Ari Lennox – Up Late

12. Ariana Grande – fake smile

13. Ariana Grande – in my head

14. Arin Ray feat. Kehlani – Change

15. Arin Ray - ZZZ

16. Asiahn – Like You

17. Asiahn – NOLA

18. August Alsina – Forever and a Day

19. August Alsina – For You

20. Baby Rose – Mortal

21. Beyoncé, Jay-Z & Childish Gambino feat. Oumou Sangaré – Mood 4 Eva

22. Big K.R.I.T – Blue Flame Ballet

23. Big K.R.I.T – Energy

24. Big K.R.I.T – M.I.S.S.I.S.S.I.P.P.I

25. BJ the Chicago Kid feat. JID, Buddy, & Kent Jamz – Get Away

26. Blackbear – Sick Of It All

27. The Black Keys – Sit Around And Miss You

28. The Black Keys – Tell Me Lies

29. Bobby Sparks ii feat. Robert “Sput” Searight & MonoNeon – The Comanche Are Coming

30. Boogie – Live 95

31. Boogie feat. Snoh Aalegra – Time

32. Burna Boy feat. Jeremih & Serani – Secret

33. Che Ecru – That’s My Baby

34. Ciara – Greatest Love

35. Ciara – Set

36. Ciara – Trust Myself

37. City and Colour – Mountain of Madness

38. Col3trane, DJDS, & Raye – The Fruits

39. Conway the Machine – Half of It

40. DaBaby – Bop

41. DaBaby – Goin Baby

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43. Daniel Caesar & Brandy – Love Again

44. Danny Brown – Dirty Laundry

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48. Dave East – Me & Mines

49. Denzel Curry – Speedboat

50. Devin Morrison – Bussin’

51. Devin Morrison feat. Dahvi – It’s Time

52. DJ Shadow – If I Died Today

53. DJ Shadow feat. Run The Jewels – Kings & Queens

54. DJ Shadow feat. De La Soul – Rocket Fuel

55. Doja Cat – Say So

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57. Dreamville feat. Ty Dolla $ign & Dreezy – Got Me

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60. E-40 feat. Quavo Roddy Ricch, A$AP Ferg, & ScHoolboy Q – Chase the Money

61. E-40 – Imma Find Out

62. E-40 feat. Redman, Method Man, & Bosko – Keep On Gassin

63. Earthgang feat. T-Pain – Tequila

64. Earthgang feat. Kehlani – Trippin

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68. Emotional Oranges – Someone Else

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70. Emotional Oranges – Your Best Friend Is A Hater

71. Eric Bellinger – iPod on Shuffle

72. Eric Bellinger feat. K Camp – Moist

73. Eric Bellinger – Run It Up

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76. Eric Bellinger feat. Chris Brown & OG Parker – Type a Way

77. Eric Bellinger – Undress

78. Esperanza Spalding – Touch in Mine (Fingers)

79. Fabolous feat. Jacquees – My Mind

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84. Free Nationals – Lester Diamond

85. Free Nationals feat. Syd – Shibuya

86. Free Nationals feat. Mac Miller & Kali Uchis – Time

87. Future – Crushed Up

88. Gallant – Céline

89. Gallant – Sleep On It

90. The Game – Born 2 Rap

91. The Game feat. 21 Savage – The Code

92. The Game feat. Anderson .Paak – Stainless

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94. Gang Starr feat. Ne-Yo & Nitty Scott – Get Together

95. Gary Clark Jr. – I Got My Eyes on You (Locked & Loaded)

96. GoldLink feat. WaveIQ – Spanish Song

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110. Joell Ortiz – Jamaican Food

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123. Kirk Brown – Vibes Up

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127. Kyle Dion – Hands to Yourself

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129. Larry June feat. Premo Rice – Booty Girl Club

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137. Lophiile – You’ve Changed

138. Lucky Daye – Love You Too Much

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140. Lyfe Jennings – Baby

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149. Maxo Kream feat. Megan Thee Stallion – She Live

150. Megan Thee Stallion feat. Da Baby – Cash S**t

151. Mereba – Stay Tru

152. Moonchild – Strength

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155. Nikki Jean – Driver

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157. Papoose feat. DJ Premier – Numerical Slaughter

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190. SiR feat. Smino – LA Lisa

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197. Snoop Dogg feat. Russ & Wiz Khalifa – Take Me Away

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210. Tobi lou – Waterboy

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225. Weezer – Happy Together

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228. Xavier Omär & Sango – Cry & Lie

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lasercruz · 4 years ago

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@quarterdollar fuck you and im sorry that i took so long to answer and i hope that im mostly coherent because i am. very tired as im typing this

1: Full name Nicky Jackie Marie Cruz !!

2: Age 21

3: 3 Fears Mold, tall heights if I’m not secured (like, I’m not scared of rollercoaster heights but I’m scared of like, cliffs), and balloons esp balloon animals

4: 3 things I love I love so many things uhh hh h. Jjba, adventure zone, and my friendssss 💞

I know turn ons/offs aren’t inherently sexual but i never know what to say for them so im skipping them :0

7: My best friend you 🥺🥺

8: Sexual orientation bi

9: My best first date ive never really been on a actual date :0

10: How tall am I 5′3

11: What do I miss being with my friends physically and just watching stuff or goofing around on the floor 😭

12: What time were I born 11:02pm

13: Favourite color Dark blues

14: Do I have a crush yes shh

15: Favourite quote there so much sappy quotes that are on uquizzes a lot that i like a lot the first that comes to mind is “ You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you.” and so on and also “if i loved you less i might be able to talk about it more”

16: Favourite place As far as just physically and not like people or other stuff that comes with with a place, I miss VT campus a lot tbh more than I thought I would. To pick a more specific place, the gazebo at the duck pond cause its where I’d go if I wanted to be alone or like if my roommate was sleeping or working and i didnt want to worry about being quite and it was always super peaceful

17: Favourite food I dont really have One favorite food it just depends what I’m in the mood for but my go to answer for favorite food category wise is either chinese or seafood

18: Do I use sarcasm Depends who I’m with ?? Generally no not often but if im close with someone and just goofin yeah

19: What am I listening to right now My love song playlist. its my go to thing to listen to cause my playlist with all my music has so much on it that i end up skipping half the songs until i find something im in the mood for and this one has a lot less that i end up skipping. the current song its on is day without you by keep for cheap

20: First thing I notice in new person It depends on the person like if they have something that stands out about them, thats what I tend to notice but like. How they carry themself i guess ? cause i feel like thats a easy way to get a read on somebody before talking to them

21: Shoe size 5 mens / 7 womans

22: Eye color Brown

23: Hair color Naturally dark brown but currently dyed black with rainbow bangs

24: Favourite style of clothing this question is on so many ask games and quizzes and I never know how to answer it cause i feel like i dont really have one specific style,, I like colorful and fun stuff i guess ?

25: Ever done a prank call? No and if you prank call a place of business youre annoying. i used to answer phones at work and we didn’t get them super often but GOD i hate prank callers

27: Meaning behind my URL emu is an old nickname and what i mainly went by until i settled on Nicky and this. is my blog.

28: Favourite movie Baby driver !!

29: Favourite song my go to answer for this is community gardens by the scary jokes

30: Favourite band THE SCARY JOKES

31: How I feel right now sleeby,,,,

32: Someone I love i love , my friendz ,, 🥺🥰

33: My current relationship status single ✌️

34: My relationship with my parents im close to my mom but i dont really get along with my dad ,

35: Favourite holiday Christmas !

36: Tattoos and piercing i have no tattoos, 3 piercings in each ear (2 on each earlobe and 1 on the top on each side)

37: Tattoos and piercing i want I want a interrobang on my wrist and an Aquarius symbol on my ankle and MAYBE the joestar birthmark, i wouldn’t mind more ear piercings and i want a septum piercing but ive seen videos of them getting done and they make me squirm i dont know if id go through with it

38: The reason I joined Tumblr sdklgkjgh i had a my little pony roleplay blog before i made my personal account

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? no we’re good friends !!

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? no not regularly at least

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? no

42: When did I last hold hands? my mom tried to hold my hand when i was half asleep on the couch the other day but like i was so out of it so like it was more our fingers together and the rest of my hand just loosely dangling so if that doesnt count, you

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? i give myself about 2 hours if im doing full makeup but thats purposefully longer than i need so i dont have to worry about rushing and i can relax and take my time

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? no i only shave them if they’re gonna be showing or if the Urge to be Smooth comes over me

45: Where am I right now? my room at home on my bed

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? probably Kaylie cause she doesn’t drink and i assume if im drunk with other friends there she’d be the only sober one

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Reasonable, if i have it too loud i cant think so the only time i have my music loud is if im doing nothing and want to Not Think

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Ye

49: Am I excited for anything? short term im excited for the ai crushes all banks stream tonight and long term im excited to move into our apartment

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? no im not a tell everything to someone type of person .

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? i smile most of the time like, at work (before we wore masks) id always be smiling to look nice and like. just in general if i want to Not Look Unhappy or whatever

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? my mom probably like, yesterday

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? ive never kissed any1 .

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? nope i don’t think i really trust easily so like this doesnt rlly happen,

55: What is something I disliked about today? i woke up late cause i was up late last night so ive been tired all day I dont like the feeling

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? language barriers aside itd be super cool to meet hirohiko araki

57: What do I think about most? Whatever media im currently most into so right now adventure zone and magnus archives

58: What’s my strangest talent? umm i dunno im kinda flexable i guess ? not like ~contortionist~ level but like enough that i can freak people out sometimes

59: Do I have any strange phobias? i mentioned balloons as a fear in an eariler question so yeah that but im a lot better about it than i used to be

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? in front tbh

61: What was the last lie I told? i was on phones for the last hour and a half of my shift on friday and like. when people call and ask if an item is in stock and i can’t confirm it i, just tell them its not. like, someone asked if we had a specific kayak and i usually just search the walmart app or run over to where itd be to check but the kayaks are to far for me to run to and the app said limited stock which usually means little to none so , i just put it on hold for a bit then tell him we’re out.

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? i like video chatting in theory cause its nice to see people visibly react to stuff but i tend to get too self conscious about how i look so i just do audio only

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? yes to both !! i am both

64: Do I believe in magic? yes in some ways i suppose

65: Do I believe in luck? yes im v superstitious

66: What’s the weather like right now? its a pretty good day its sunny but not too hot :oo

67: What was the last book I’ve read? its been ages since i last read a book in full 😔 i honestly dont knwo what the last one would of been 😔 😔

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? yes !!! love it

69: Do I have any nicknames? not anything i get consistently called no

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? ive never gotten super hurt that i can think of ??

71: Do I spend money or save it? save it

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? no

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? doppio bean plush ,,,,

74: Favourite animal? hedgehogs!!!!

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? on my phone probably on tiktok or something waiting for jojo to come on toonami

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? I? dont think he has one i guess ??

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? butterflies by samsa but it makes me happy in the “im crying now” kinda way itss cute

78: How can you win my heart? just by being nice and respectful tbh ,

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? idk i dont really want anything fancy just my name (chosen name please god im so scared of dying and geting my birth name on my tombstone if that happens i WILL come back as a vengeful ghost) and my birth and death dates

80: What is my favorite word? saccharine

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr by my tumblr crushes (which its been YEARS since i looked at) ; frostios, 27names4tears, smollpurrito, happynaru, and warpedlamp

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? if we being real id just get so scared dsjkfsldjglg theres so much i could say i dont know :((

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? not ? that i know of

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? why are all the questions worded super basic except this one skdlskdjfj. Shape shifting

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? i can really think of anything really as long as a friend is asking i tend to answer truthfully ?

86: What is my current desktop picture? Sobble BUT this reminded me that i wanted to change it to a xenoblade pic so its this now :

90: Failed a class? no

91: Kissed a boy? no

92: Kissed a girl? no

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? no but oh god just thinking about that im 🥺🥺🥺🥺 id die id melt 🥺🥺

94: Had job? ye i was a cashier for a year in highschool and then i work in wamlart apparel in the summers

95: Left the house without my wallet? not when I know ill need it no, but ive left it home if im just going to a friend or family member’s house or i have my mom’s card or some cash in my pocket

96: Bullied someone on the internet? no !!

98: Played on a sports team? no lmao i dont do sports

99: Smoked weed? no

100: Did drugs? i had a weed brownie like once but it was such a small piece i didnt really feel anything

101: Smoked cigarettes? no

102: Drank alcohol? Ye

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? not currently i was vegan for a little bit to encourage a friend that was doing it though

104: Been overweight? no

105: Been underweight? no

106: Been to a wedding? yes three, my grandma’s when she got remarried, and both my brothers

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? probably yes lmao often

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? not TV TV but if netflix and the like count then yes

109: Been outside my home country? no :(

110: Gotten my heart broken? not ? really no

111: Been to a professional sports game? ive been to a handful of Yankee games

112: Broken a bone? no

114: Been to prom? yes i went to my highschool’s and a friend’s highschool’s my senior year

115: Been in airplane? no

116: Fly by helicopter? no

117: What concerts have I been to? none :((((

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? ye

119: Learned another language? i took 3 years of Spanish in high school but i wasn’t any good at it and dont really remember much of what i did learn

120: Wore make up? yes i do often :0

123: Dyed my hair? ye a lot

124: Voted in a presidential election? yes ever since iv been old enough to i vote

125: Rode in an ambulance? no

126: Had a surgery? dental surgery yes

127: Met someone famous? Not anyone i’d count no

128: Stalked someone on a social network? depends on what you count as stalking i guess but like not ever in a creepy way like ive been on people’s social media to find out stuff about them like. if theyre in a relationship or especially after highschool ill wonder about someone i havent talked to in awhile and ill see what theyve been up to and what theyre doing with their life and stuff

129: Peed outside? no

130: Been fishing? yes like once

131: Helped with charity? donation wise yes

132: Been rejected by a crush? ive never confessed to anyone and been rejected but once a friend told my crush i liked them and they confronted me about it and rejected me but it made me more mad at the friend that told them than it made me sad about being rejected because i knew it’d probably go like that and it justmade thing awkward between us for awhile 😔

133: Broken a mirror? ive broken the little mirrors inside eyeshadow pallets but i havent broken full ones

134: What do I want for birthday? usually just money lol or something thoughtful and cute

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? i aggresivly do NOT want kids BUT hypohetically Elliot or Xander for a boy and idk what i’d nam a girl

136: Was I named after anyone? no

137: Do I like my handwriting? its messy so no not really but if im writing something for myself like a not or whatever i dont mind as long as i can read it

138: What was my favourite toy as a child? even as a little kid i always played computer games but other than that, this guy :

139: Favourite Tv Show? Jojo

140: Where do I want to live when older? New york or japan

141: Play any musical instrument? i can kind of play harmonica

142: One of my scars, how did I get it? i burnt my thumb kinda bad on the oven a while ago its still kinda healing but right now it looks like its gonna stay a scar

143: Favourite pizza toping? i like everything/suprieme pizza but if i have to pick one single topping pepperoni

144: Am I afraid of the dark? yes :((

145: Am I afraid of heights? mentioned it earlier but yes if im not strapped in or secured etc

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? no im so scared of being caught doing something bad that i just. dont

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? i mean yes but thats life babey

149: What my greatest achievments are ive gotten awards for grades and stuff but that boring BUT i got the english department award or whatever that was called im very proud of that

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery i donate some and save the rest tbh

152: What do I like about myself i can be pretty sometimes 👉👈 im cute or whateva ,,,

153: My closest Tumblr friend i dont really havent “tumblr friends” aside from friends i know irl and also tey have tumblrs ,,

154: Something I fantasise about just. growing up and having my own place maybe with someone and. being comfortable and okay and not having to worry ,,

155: Any question you’d like? dkfjhdskhf japan :000

#ask #mine

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a-grounder-from-the-sky · 6 years ago

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SKAM España: Long Ass Analyses S02 E10 C3.

Oooh boi! I dont even know how many times I've watched that clip. Guys this two make me feel so much, one clip I'm exited the other I'm confused and then disappointed, mad, sad, happy, sad again, happy again, frustrated, all that at the same time... oof SKAM does that to you. Glad that I discovered this amazing Universe through these two beautiful girls. I wish I could watch this clip for the first time.

Vale ¡ Empezamos !

PARALLEL ! I love parallels. Cris is impatiently waiting for JoJo like "Where's my baby at !" With a beautifully well wrapped little package. One of the first thing that came into my mind was, Cris is waiting Joana the same way Joana waited for her In Perdóname. This time, Cris doesn't wait for Joana to come back she takes matters into her own hands and go to her. We love a confident Cris.

After a little while Joana finally comes into view, and I swear when her eyes locked with Cris, I saw a little rictus form on her lips or I'm wrong and just saw what I wanted to see. But whatevaaah, I know despite the face and the attitude she was giving, Joana was happy to see Cris but she had a role to maintain which was Joana "doesn't love Cris" Bianchi.

My baby Cris politely said Hola with the sweetest voice ever and JoJo was like "Bitch what is you want ?" I wanted to slap her but reminded myself that she was playing a role. But luckily, Cris does not let her tone affect her and gives Jo the pretty package saying "Here love of my life I bought you a gift", I am so proud of how well Cris is handeling the situation, very calm and composed.

Joana roughly unwrap the gift and TADAAAH a book ! Dangerous Liaisons. This book is the centre piece of this season 'cause it's a reflection of Cris and Joana's relationship I mean even the title screams CROANAAA! Dangerous Liaison. As in harsh/complicated/challenging relationship. A bumpy ride don't forget your seatbelt and I feel like it can also be apply for us, the fans, and how their relationship affected us, well at last for me. I mean I haven't had a proper 8 hour sleep in more than a month because of these two, they keep me awake, cause it's or I'm to worry to sleep or I'm to happy. Like... dude ! what is this. I'm having a dangerous liaisons with SKAM España.

Alright carry on.

When Joana sees the book she's like "I already read it, thank you next"

But Cris won't back down and says "Nope, not this one open it"

And BOOOOOOM ! Just like that mi Corazon was hit. I had to pause the video cause I became La Llorona I needed to catch my breathe and to stop my eyes from watering 'cause I couldn't see shit.

I was so not expecting it which made it 100 times better. Funny 'cause it reminded me of when Joana wrote down "Perdóname(I'm sorry)", and did you know that "I'm sorry" and "I love you" are two of the most hard phrases to say to someone ? (-> Needs verification but I'm sure I'm right).

So Cris wrote it down cause you know it's easier then saying it (little advise, when you need to say something to someone but you can't do it cause it's hard, write it down and give it to them. It helps.) And we know that she's not good with saying big and heavy words like I love you.

Cold Joana is still playing hard to get and says "Why now ?" I think she responded like that cause she didn't want to believe it you know ?

Cris answers that because it's the truth, to my surprise Cris says it out loud this time "I love you biiiiish I ain't never gonna stop loving you biiiish", while looking at Joana in the eyes. So proud my baby girl is growing, and being fearless about her feelings. Go girl ! Express yourself. Cris confesses never having said it to anyone but she wanted to tell her at least once even if Joana doesn't love her anymore( rolling my eyes at the biggest lie that I've ever heard but whatevaaah I'll ignore it for now but this needs to be rectify soon). She was so cute and being all shy while saying that. "I know you don't love me anymore but I do love you now and that's all that matters" We love that glow up.

Joana is like "Da fuck girl I told you I didn't love you because I wanted you to stay away from me and you're doing the opposite"

And to scare and push away Cris, Joana tells her that "You don't know what you are getter yourself into, I'm a fucking kinder suprise, I'm very impredictible" which Cris answer by "Reallyyy ! I love Kinder Suprise !" And adds "Please bitch ! like I haven't notice. Since I've met you feels like I'm on a rollercoaster, so tell me something I don't know"

So Joana keeps on going

"I can be really cool in the morning and a dickhead on the afternoon."

Cris: "Okay. Not even scared"

Joana:"Don't want you to have to deal with me."

Cris:"my decision not yours to make."

Frustrated-Joana-cause-Cris-doesn't-back-down:" The reason I was in the hospital is because I got extremely angry at my parents and threaten them to kill myself and almost did it"

Cris: "..............huuum.......... Nope. Still here. Keep 'em coming I won't move"

Joana: "...... Da fuck woman." I loved Joana's face when she realised that no matter what she said Cris wasn't going to Change her mind.

Cris: "I👏🏽AM👏🏽NOT👏🏽GOING👏🏽TO👏🏽RUNAWAY(No voy a salir corriendo). Stick this into your head woman."

And my heart was hit again.

And so was Joana's heart. Look at her face my baby is speechless.

Everything was perfect we got another glimpse at Joana's MI (mental illness). She loves Cris so much that she opened up a bit more to know what was Cris getting herself into, so if she wanted to back down she could even if it meant for Joana to lose Cris. But Cris was like "Nope, you don't get it do you ? I want you. And everything that comes with it. The whole package and if that means having to deal with your MI than so be it, cause it's a part of who you are. And I want ALL OF YOU."

Oh boi so beautiful.

But Joana is stubborn. Bitch stop fighting and accept the love that is giving to you. She says that right now she feels good but tomorrow she doesn't know, same for all the other next days. Which Cris replies with "Alright why the hell is you talking about tomorrow ?? How about we take it slow and think about today. Or better live in the minute. Minuto a minuto"-> OG SKAM fans must have been very happy.

New concept for Joana feels like she never thought about it. This should be known by everyone, live in the moment 'cause you might not be there tomorrow, so live as if there were no tomorrow, cause it's not just another day that you gain but it's also another day that you loose so don't waste time my friends and live minute by minute.

To ease the mood Cris propose Joana if it's possible for her to stand still for 60sec, Joana accepts the challenge and for about 10sec they are looking at eachother with smile on their faces like love birds being all cute and everything, when Cris says "Well look at that 10sec already ! No bombe has exploded that's a good start."

Well that ladies and gents is a rare species called a "Smiling Joana" haven't been seen in ages and need to be protected at all cost enjoy. She's so beautiful.

Cris thinking that she can't help anyone is beyond me cause she can brighten any situation. She's the friend and the Novìa that everyone wants.

Hugs, touching heads, kisses foreheads, staring at eachother, and hug again. And my heart can't take it. While this beautiful song by Bruno Major - Just the same, plays in the back ground. The way SKAM España picks up song is amazing always suits the moment.

I know a lot of you wanted a kiss. Understandable. But in that situation I feel like it was not needed. I've read a comment that says that Cris didn't kissed her cause Joana was so hesitant in even stepping close to her. All the caring look, hug, forehead kisses all that, was better than a kiss. So proud of Cris cause she did exactly with Joana what the girl squad did with her on the previous Clip, she showed how much important to her Joana was.

I'm going to let the lyrics of that part of the clip analyse that last paragraph. Take it as Cris' point of view you saying "Doesnt matter what happen, I'm going to be there for you, love." And you know what ? I'm crying rn 'cause this is beautiful.

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🎵So do your worst to me. Test my loyalty. I will pass with distinction of first degree. I lost my mind to you. Somewhere down the line that you drew. But I only have myself to blame. 'Cause I'd still love you just the same🎵

I personally couldn't have ask for a better reunion. And the more clips we get the more I'm having a hard time telling myself that this season and Cris' story will come to an end.

Aaaaaalriiight that was a long ass analysis hope y'all didn't fell asleep in the middle, I won't blame you and if you are still here, thank you for reading everything. I personally didn't think this clip needed an analyses cause everything was pretty clear pero bue. I did it cause it helps me.

Hasta luego amigxs.

#cris #croana #joana #skam #skamespaña #cris and joana #crisandjoana #love is love #skam españa #cris soto #crisana #cris x joana

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praphit · 5 years ago

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Jessica Biel: Whiteface & the Beast! This is my story.

Ladies and Gentlemen, the ever-lovely! - Jessica Biel.

I had a dream about her, but I'll get back to that in a sec.

If you don’t know, I normally ramble about movies. There are a lot of movies that I could have talked about this week.

"Dolemite Is My Name" -

Eddie getting back into the swing of things! I'm actually a lil concerned about this. "Coming to America 2"? The first one is a classic; what are we doing?! Does it need a sequel? Don't mess with perfection! I've heard that there will be another "Beverly Hills Cop" sequel as well! What's next? - another "Norbit"? Another "Nutty Prof"? The chronicles of Donkey?

I could have talked about "Jojo Rabbit", a comedy involving Hitler.

That is dangerous territory, my friends. BUT, with Scarjo in the mix, any offense is kinda forgiven. I mean just look at her.

If I were a cop, and I caught her red handed in murder, I'd probably let her go, and just say the victim fell in the kitchen.

It's weird how her awesomeness works when she's in offensive films, unless she is the lead.

Somehow her powers failed her in those incidences.

She hasn't tried to do black face yet though, so there's that! On that note, the only white actor allowed to do black face in my opinion is Robert Downey Jr

(Sgt Lincoln Osiris - Look up for context, kids). To this day, I'm all for giving Osiris his own franchise. Maybe have Scarjo play his black girlfriend (kinda like Foxy Cleopatra from “Austin Powers”).

This would be horribly offensive! But, I'd still love to see it, as everyone's heads explode over the fact.

I could have talked about that boring ass war movie... whatever it's called. I think Dr. Strange is in it

Or the horror movie "Countdown" I use the word "horror" loosely. It looks like fun hot garbage. Kind of a cool concept though - an entity setting a timer to beat your ass and kill you.

But, there's something else, or maybe I should say someONE else on my mind, that I need to warn y'all about. This is more important than some movie.

And it's of course Jessica Biel.

No, not THAT Jessica Biel (the ever-lovely)

Like I said, I had a dream about her, and in THAT dream she was the ever-BITCHY.

Always ordering me around:

Take out the trash, wash the dishes, walk the dog, etc. BUT, nothing I did was ever any good for her! Didn't like the way I placed the bags outside. Didn't like how I put the dishes away. I walked the dog for too long, or sometimes not for long enough.

Paint our room this color or that color, then I would paint it that color, and she'd take one look at it and want it redone. She'd always eat the food that I brought home for ME (with MY name on it!) Then be like "I didn't know."

What do you mean you didn't know?! You ain't buy it! And your name sure as hell ain't praphit!

*heavy sigh* I'm traumatized, people! In the dream, it was like we were married for decades - DECADES OF THIS! And any time I'd try to stand up to her, she'd start crying. In real life I'd never put up with this! WHAT THE HELL?! I'm still mad!

Some people would be like "Well, at least you got a dream where you're living with her, so... at least some sexy time salvages it all." NO! There was no sexy dream time had! And even if there was, I don't think it would have been worth it!

It went down in the dream like this:

Praphit: *giving sexy eyes* :)

Biel: "I'm not in the mood"

Praphit: "Again huh?? Ok... well, imma... you know... and then go to bed.

Biel: "No."

Praphit: "What do you mean NO?"

Biel: "It's cheating in the eyes of our Lord."

Praphit: "Our Lo... since when are YOU religious?"

Biel: "Don't you Christian shame me!"

Praphit: "I'm NOT, I just... *heavier sigh* anyway, FINE, I'm going to bed."

Biel: "Whatever. Leave the light on; I'm about to read."

SEE, PEOPLE!

THE EVER-BITCHY

There's a shower scene. I go into the shower. I know what some of y'all are thinking FINALLY! YES!

Nah.

She's in there crying... over something I did. I'm just in there consoling her, while getting yelled at. I didn't even get a look at what she had going on in there. No, you know... good shots in that scene. Whoever was directing my dream is fired.

Then, things got weird.

We go into my dream mom and sister's room. She kicks them out (OF THEIR OWN ROOM). I'm trying to explain myself. And apparently, what I did to her... (now, people, try to follow... cuz I certainly can't) I had been dressing up like Justin Timberlake, in white face... like Casper the ghost white face, with a curly wig on like JT from the NSYNC days. I was out performing, and everyone was buying it. AND (somehow weirder!), sometimes, I'd put makeup over top of the JT makeup in order to look like Justin Bieber, so as to perform as him as well. So... extra white face. AND EVERYONE BOUGHT IT! I'm unsure, but at some point, she had sex with either me (dressed up), or JT and thought it was me, or Bieber and thought it was me... Idk, again, I can't follow this nonsense. But, we argued forever, and somewhere in there, I woke up.

I went to work that morning, MAD! Think of a time where you argued with someone the night before, went right to bed, and when you woke up, you're still kinda in that mood; kinda like you're still arguing with them. You know?? I was doing THAT, MAD... at Jessica Biel! It doesn't even make any sense!

And as far as the JT/JBieb thing... if she's fooled during sexy time... isn't that a lil bit her fault as well? I mean... ... it makes me think of Rachel Dolezal; remember her?

(If you don’t remember her, google her name... it’ll change your life)

(I'm waiting for the movie of her story to come out btw. Maybe Scarjo could play her)

Now, getting fooled at work by her or in the community is one thing, but sexy time? People, I'm not going to get into details, but... you know what I'm talking about. If you're fooled... what the hell is wrong with YOU?!

Anyway, Idk what to make of any of this.

I've considered that this dream is a true glimpse at the real Jessica, and that perhaps one day, Justin Timberlake will share with us his story. I've considered that it's prophetic, and that Jessica might leave Justin and pursue a rebound with a Baltimore black man like myself. Maybe God is warning me.

I've considered that Jessica Biel might be a witch - and did this to me on purpose, so she doesn't have to vent at Justin. I wouldn't hate on her if she's a witch; that's between her and our Lord.

Or maybe it's all real! Maybe when I go to sleep, I sleep walk as Justin Timberlake... AND Bieber... and then live in horrible, argumentative fashion with Jessica Biel. People, IDK! I just want closure! But, I fear, It's never gonna happen.

Today is Halloween. Imma get some candy, rock a costume, and forget/suppress all of this. In this life, you'll rarely get closure when bad stuff happens to you, BUT you can ALWAYS get candy - that's what I tell the kids.

I'll leave you all with that. Happy Halloween!

And you TRAIN yourselves to wake up if you ever spot Biel in a dream!

#jessica biel #john praphit #praphitproductions.com #dreams #dream interpretation #justin timberlake #justin bieber #praphit #movies #Movie Reviews #dolemite #Scarlett Johansson #countdown #costumes #halloween #marriage #relationships #rachel dolezal

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queenofthearchitect · 6 years ago

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Don’t you love me?

This is a challenge me and @darkxhuntress decided to do. She’s doing a fluff and I’m doing a angst/ fluff I’m also tagging @imaginexwwe

Warnings: Angsty as fuck, slight cussing, trigger warning ⚠️ kinda dad issues

Please enjoy 🧜🏼‍♀️

Today was the day Alyssa was turning 5 she had invited all her friends were over for her party their parents and I made small talk I wasn’t listening to be honest but one of them got my attention quick “so where’s your husband?” I smiled at them “oh he’s working but he told Alyssa he would be here so let’s hope work doesn’t get in the way.” I smiled on the outside but on the inside I was breaking for my little girl she promised her friends he would be here and he wasn’t here yet. I understand he’s busy but he told her he was coming I knew he wasn’t coming but I had hope he wouldn’t lie to her.

As time passed I could tell she started giving up, the more she waited for him the more upset she got I walked up to her and pulled her aside for a second “honey I know you were looking forward to your daddy to be here but-.” I know, I know mommy he’s working, but is just not fair.” I gently caressed my thumb on her cheek and I pulled her in for a hug, I heard her sniffle and it broke my heart even more, “come on butterfly don’t cry everything will be alright your dad will be here soon.” She pulled away from me and looked me in my face “stop lying to me you say that every time but he never comes home.”

She ran off and it felt like I just got hit by a truck, the parents walked over to me “is everything alright?” I quickly wiped a tear and turned and faced them “yeah Alyssa’s just upset can we just reschedule please.” They nodded at me “of course Y/N if you need anything please call me.” I smiled “yeah I will thanks so much Katie.” While they got their kids together and left I started cleaning up, after I finished I threw the trash bag in the trash can and walked up stairs to Alyssa’s room and her door was wide open she was sitting on the floor right beside her bed her face in her lap while she cried “great just fucking great Seth.” I knocked on the door and walked over to her.

“hey butterfly.” She sniffled and wiped her face “h-hi mommy.” She looked up at me and it shatter my heart her eyes were puffy and her face was red from crying, I smiled softly at her and sat beside her “daddy’s a big butt head.” I silently laughed to myself “now, now Alyssa that’s not nice you know your daddy tired the best he can.” She wiped her face again “does daddy not love me?” I looked at and grabbed her chin to make her look at me “now baby you know your daddy loves you very much he just has work.” She wiped her nose on her sleeve and she laid her head against my side.

“does he love his job more than us mommy.” I looked at her for a minute “Damn it seth I’m going to kill you when I see you.” I thought to myself and I reassured her “baby no daddy loves you to the moon and back-.” She pushed her hair back and got in my lap “then why is he never around.” I looked at her and wiped a few tears away “baby we’ve had this talk already, His job keeps him busy but when he is around he spends every moment with us.” I knew she wanted me to take her side she was my daughter after all, she may have gotten Seth’s hair and eyes but everything else she got from me, besides her being cocky lord sometimes I wanna strangle Seth.

“Mommy your my new favorite.” I looked at her “you little turd I’m suppose to be your favorite anyways cause I’m awesome.” She giggled at me “yeah plus you come to all my school stuff.” My smile went away “you got to forgive your dad princess.” She quickly shook her head “no I don’t mommy.” I sighed “yes you do baby.” I looked at the time and it was 5:00 p.m. I sighed and got up “okay squirt time to get dinner started how does paskettie sound.” She smiled at me “mommy paskettie is my favorite.” I smiled at her “I know it is baby now do you wanna help mommy cook?” She smiled “y-yes please.”

We were cooking in the kitchen making spaghetti and Seth called I answered and put him on speaker “hey honey.” I smiled when I answered the phone “hey babe is Alyssa around, I want to tell her happy birthday.” She ran off and I sighed and shook me head “yeah hold on.” I put my phone down and walked to the living room “Alyssa daddy’s on the phone come talk to him.. now.” She slowly crawled from beside the couch and got up and stomped to the kitchen “hi daddy.” She said her lip quiverd and I rubbed her back “ hey princess did you have a good birthday?” She looked at me then back at the phone “n-no.” He sounded shocked “I’m sorry sweetheart I’ll make it up to you I promise.” Tears started crying again and she ran back upstairs I sighed “great.” He responded “where did Alyssa go?” I sighed “up in her room crying.” I could hear the worried tone in his voice “what why?”

I continued to stir the hamburger meat “because you weren’t here like you promised, just like you weren’t here for Easter last year then Father’s Day.” He sighed “Y/N I can’t help that I’m busy.” I hit the spoon on the side of the pot “ I know Seth but maybe you shouldn’t promise her shit If you’re not going to be able to come.” I could tell he was getting frustrated which made me get even more frustrated “I’m sorry Y/N I have to work and that they over book me.” I laughed sarcastically “yeah well Seth maybe you shouldn’t say promises you can’t keep I get it you’re working and your busy but if you would have seen the look on her face today it would have been a slap in the face, I’m always stuck having to answer questions that our 5 year old ask and having to clean up your mess.” I could tell he was mad and now he was being a dick “I’m sure the questions cant be that bad.” I laughed “oh really well how about we trade places and I go work all year and only get a few weeks at a time off then I’m gone again, then you get asked by her if I love her or do I love my job more than I do her you think these questions are easy Seth.” I practically screamed through the phone.

He was quite for a few minutes “s-she thinks I don’t love her?” I felt bad and my anger went away and I just wanted to hug seth answer me “Y/N she thinks i don’t love her and I love my job more than her?” I sighed yeah Seth “she asked me that today.” He quickly responded “what did you tell her?” I raised my eyebrows “what, I told her you over her to the moon and back and you love her way more then you fucking job Seth what else am I suppose to tel her?” He stayed silent again “Y-Y/N I gotta go.” His voice broke and before I could say anything he hung up.

I turned and finished the noodles and the sauce and mixed it together, “Alyssa you paskettie is ready.” She walked down the stairs clutching her bear that Seth bought her “can teddy join us for dinner?” I smiled at her “sure baby.” I fixed her a plate and I fixed me a plate, after dinner I put everything away and I washed the dishes and I looked at the time 7:00 p.m. “great we are making great timing.” I ran Alyssa a bath and put bubbles in it and I turned the water off “oh butterfly-.” I quickly quit talking when I heard her talking to teddy “I know daddy loves me and I love him I just miss him.” I smiled “alright butterfly bath time, I’ll get your Elsa Pj’s and bring them to you in a second.” She smiled and walked off.

After I washed her hair for her I dried her hair and got her dressed I tucked her in and kissed her goodnight and teddy goodnight too. “M-Mommy?” I turned and looked at her “yes baby?” She smiled at me softly “I miss daddy.” I smiled at her “me too honey.” She snuggled up to teddy “I love you mommy.” I smiled at her “I love you too have beautiful dreams my little angel.” I turned off her light and flicked her night light on and shut the door. When I walked in mine and Seth’s bed room I shut the door and started crying, today has taken a toll on me I just wish Seth was here so he could hold me and tell me everything will be alright I took a shower and laid in bed, sleep quickly consumed me.

*Seth’s pov*

After I hung up with Y/N I couldn’t help myself I started crying roman walked up to me “yo bro what’s up.” I wiped my face and sniffled “Alyssa think I don’t love her.” He looked at me “Starting early huh?” I looked at him “I guess I was always around when she was younger so now I guess now that I’m not she thinks I don’t love her and I don’t know what to do.” He smiled at me “well when jojo started that galina helped her.” I quickly responded “Y/N is trying the best in her ability but Alyssa doesn’t seem to care that much.” He laughed “Seth we are talking about you and Y/Ns spawn.” She’s going to be extra stubborn.” I smiled “yeah but what can I do I missed her birthday.” He smack me in the back of the head “you need to fix it dumb dumb.” I nodded my head. Okay I will first thing tomorrow.”

If I can...

A/N: thanks for reading I’m going to be posting part 2 later today will Seth fic it with his daughter? We shall see btw I’ve started this at 1-3 and I’ve cried a lot so that made me super tired so sorry if there’s mistakes.

#seth rollins #seth rollins x reader #seth freakin rollins #seth rollins fan fic #seth rollins imagine #seth rollins angst #do you love me #amandawrites #wwe #wwe imagine #wwe x reader #wwe superstars

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dealersofatlanta · 6 years ago

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Part 1: Chapter 4

2013: May 3rd

Ace: age 21

“Nah, make that shit happen. I don’t care how yall do it, just get it done. Yall playing I’ll take them niggas out myself if yall punk asses can’t do it!” I yelled on the phone with my homies Dom and Tyrel. Jade looked over at me. We was sitting at the dinning room, she was writting down shit in her journal. After I saved her from Davis, I took her in, made sure she had a car. Taught her how to drive, how to shoot, defend herself just in case anything happens to me. She went from being my fraile scared Jade to a bad bitch. I taught her what do if anybody came after us, and shit. She know how to kill and take anybody down. That’s my baby. “Sorry baby, business” She nodded. “What you writting?” I asked coming over to her. I kissed on her face. She giggled. “Another song about you” She said. I smiled. “Ah shit not another one” I said rolling my eyes playfully. My text tone went off on my iphone. It was this hoe named La-La. “Business again?” She asked. I quickly nodded. “Yeah, Ima be home late” I told her. She sighed. “This the 3rd time this week, I told you I needed you to come to my open mic night tonight” She stressed to me. “I got work to do, you don’t shit. I got to make sure we straight and protect our home J, shit stop trippin bruh” I said. She got up from the table, and flicked me off. “Fuck you Ace, I don’t do shit, cause you don’t want me to work nigga!” She stomped upstairs. I went into the basement to pick out what gun I wanted to carry today. I ain’t mean to snap at her. She knew I had a bad temper. I had a way with my words, she been knowing this. I went back upstairs. Jade was rushing downstairs with her purse, and keys. “Aye yo where you going?” I asked. She had on a beanie with some booty shorts an tank top, and timbs. “Out nigga” She snapped. “Nah not in them little bitty ass shorts” I snapped. She laughed at me. “J! Im serious” I said sternly. She stuck her middle finger up at me again. “Man, fuck her” I said to myself. I grabbed my keys, and headed out to, setting the alarm before I left.

I head over to the WestSide of Atlanta to see La-La. I had been knowing La-La for a minute. We was fucking around when I first got out of jail. She cool, and we fuck from time to time. She keep an eye out for me on the streets. She like my side bitch, but Jade always will come before her. I knocked on her door. “I ain’t think you would come, with wifey at home and shit” She said to me. I rolled my eyes. “I come over to fuck and to hear whats been going on that’s it keep My shawty out of this” I said. She nodded and started unbuckling my pants.

Afterwards, I laid in the bed smoking a blunt with La-La. “So whats been going on?” I asked her. “Rico, been running his mouth about killing off everybody in the Ace of Spades gang. He trying to take Omari spot anf Jackalls on the eastside” She said. I laughed. “They aint bout to do shit” I said. I passed her the blunt. “Thats all I know for now” She said. I nodded. “Thanks, you a real one” I kissed her. She smiled. “You want something to eat?” She asked. I nodded. “Yeah what you bout to cook? Noodles?” I asked. She smiled. “Shut up, you love me food” She said. I nodded. “True” I said. I went to get in the shower.

Jade: age 20

I sat watching my friend Mia reciting a poem by Mya Angelou. I was nervous, my leg was shaking. “Give it up for Mia Abrams” I stood up and clapped for her. She excitedly got off the stage. “Now give it up for an aspiring singer Jade Marie, singing a cover JoJo- Keep On Keepin On”. I drank some water from my water bottle, and walked up to the stage. I was nervous as hell. I closed my eyes as the song started.

https://youtu.be/EaYCAZuSpPM (Its also on playlist)

Ooooh-ooohh

hey-yeeeah

You got to keep on keepin on

You got to keep your head up high

You gotta work with what you've got

And someday you will flyyyyy

Poor kids pouring cold water in their cereal

Second hand clothes

Surviving is pivotal

Praying to God at night

That things'll get better soon

I remember when I was in your position

Tried to tell people my story

But no one would really listen

I know times are hard right now

Happiness is hard to find right now

You got to keep on keepin on

You got to keep your head up high

You gotta work with what you've got

And someday you will flyyyyy

You got to keep on keepin on

You got to keep your head up high

You gotta work with what you've got

And someday you will flyyyyy

Lookin out the window to a rose grows in concrete

Dreamin' of the day when you'll be standing on your own feet

Hard to find the good in such a scene so bad (so so sad)

Seein other kids with their Tims on

Fresh with Air Ones, wish I had one

Longin' for a day when you get your chance to shine

Don't worry, there'll come a tiiiiiiime

Young girl sittin' on the steps of her duplex (mmmm)

Why did God choose to make my life so complex

Breathing to the beat of a slow, sad drum

Trouble is her only source of fun

I can almost guarantee you

It'll get better soooooon

After the song ended everyone started clapping. I opened my eyes smiling. “That was amazing Jade Marie everybody” I waved and quickly walked off stage. “See and you were nervous for nothing” Mia said. I laughed. “ I know”. She looked around. “Where’s your man?” She asked. I put on a smile. “He had to work” I told her. She nodded. “Hey my name is Marcus Gardener, I’m a producer in Atlanta, your performance was really good, you have a innocent star quality to you I would like to work with you... is that okay?” He asked. I nodded. “Yes! Yes I mean sure no problem, I will give you my number” I told him. He smiled and nodded. “Girl he was fine” Mia said. I rolled my eyes. “Yes but Im taken” She sucked her teeth in. “Shit then hook me up!” She said. We headed out and went to waffle house, then I headed home. Ace wasn’t home when I got home. It was 1:15 am. I sighed when I walked in. He was notorious for sometimes being gone being in the streets all night. I went upstairs and got settled in, before I could get in I called him to see where he was at. He answered the phone. “Ace where you at?” I asked. He didn’t answer I just heard moaning on the other end. “Ace!?” I yelled. I quickly hung up the phone. I was trying to keep my shit together. I took a shower and got out and I started crying. I couldn’t believe that someone I fully trusted had did this to me. I hesistated calling on if I should call Mia but I called someone else. “Hello?” I heard Omari say. “Hey O, um can I stay over there for awhile?” I asked. “Ace okay? It’s 2am suh you good?” He said. I started crying. “Can I please, I caught Ace cheating and I have no where to go” I cried. He sighed. “Aight I got you” He said. I packed some of my shit and quickly left the house. Omari had 3 houses. He luckly was at the one 15minutes from Ace crib. I pulled into his gates and drove up the drive way. I got out my G- Wagon. Omari was waiting for me at the door. “Hey J” He said hugging me. His girlfriend Naomi was sitting on the staircase. “Hey JJ” She said I softly smiled. They let me stay in the guest house. “Ima get the nigga Ace straight believe that aight. Here’s some xanax man hopefully you can sleep” He said before walking out.

When I woke up the next morning. I got up , and seen I had alot of messages from Ace.

I got up and washed my face before walking into the other house. I seen Ace car outside. I opened the back door into the house. “Man! I fucked up I know!” I heard Ace yelling. Naomi was sitting on the bar stool looking at me. “Well I was hoping you wasn’t going to walk into this” She said. “She been through alot! Why would you get with her to put her through more shit, you always fucking up Ace!” I heard Omari yell. “Oh yeah thats me Ace the fuck up! Man fuck that shit im out!” Ace yelled. “You always walk away Ace, come fix this shit” Omari yelled. Ace walked into the kitchen and looked at me. “J, come out with me real quick” He said. I looked away from him. “Im good Ace” I said to him. “J baby please” He stressed. I got up and went to the guest house door he followed me. “J, I was just fucking her thats it. I don’t love her, like I love you” He stressed. I looked at him and I walked back into the house and closed the door. He banged on the door for a minute. “Ima stay out here all day, all week all month J. I can’t live without you” He said outside the door. Jade don’t open that door I thought to myself. I put my hand on the handle, then took it off. He kept knocking on the door. I took another pill to knock me out. I took pride in listening to him bang and plead outside, I fell asleep listening to Trey Songs “Smartphones”. I woke up to hearing glass break. I got up quickly and seen Ace at the door with his hand bleeding. “Are you crazy!?” I yelled. He had blood leaking from his hand. “Don’t leave me! I need you!” He stressed. His face was red, I can tell he been crying. “Im soo sorry. I’ma come to your music shit, ima take you all over the world. Give me one more chance J baby” He said. I grabbed the first aid kit under the kitchen sink. I washed his hand off and wrapped it up, after putting peroxide on it. He grabbed my face and kissed me, I couldn’t resist him so I kissed him back. I pulled him back. “Ace, if you do this again. I will never forgive you” I said to him. He nodded. “I ain’t fucking up again”.

2months later: July 30th 2013

Omari: age 27

Naomi and I were doing a wedding registry in Neiman Marcus. We had been together for 2 years and I was certain she was it. After the 1st year, I introduced her to my lifestyle. I was scared she would run but she slowly accepted it. She begged me to quit, but then asked me to show her my world. Ace, X and I agreed the women in our lives needed to be protected. I had Naomi trained with Mackel, and X taught her the business, I showed her around. She learned pretty face, after that I wanted to make her my Queen fast. I know it was wrong for me to steal my homies girl but Teej was in jail, and they wasn’t even that serious. “Ooh baby, this is nice. Im adding this” She said. I nodded. “Whatever you want” I spoiled her like no other. I had her leave her job, finish school paying off her tuition. I got her 2 cars. She wanted a Range Rover, and A Merceedes. We was getting married soon, only 3 weeks away.

3 weeks later: August 13th 2013

Naomi: age 24

“You sure?” I asked Doctor O’hara. “Yeah, two heart beats” She said. I looked at the monitor again. “Thats not my heart beat and the baby’s?” I asked. She laughed, and shook her head. “No that’s definitely two babies in there” She said to me. I sighed. Omari is going to fucking flip his shit. “Can I get those to go?” I asked. She nodded. “Sure”. I had been knowing I was pregnant for a while, but wanted to keep it lowkey because of the wedding. I grabbed my evenlope from the doctors and left the building and got into my car. I took out the evenlope and looked at my ultrasound pictures. “Twins?, man what the fuck?” I said out loud. I put the pictures away, I started my car and drove to the venue. I was getting married in 24hours. “Naomi where have you been? We been looking all over for you!” My bestfriends Teddy and Keisha said. The grabbed me and brought me inside. I seen they had through me a mini party. “We bought to get fucked up!” Teddy screamed. My mom was throwing back shots with my aunt Kiki. “Come on drink Mimi!” Teddy yelled. I shook my head. “I dont want to be hungover at my wedding” I lied. Teddy sighed. “Take one shot” He said. I shook my head. He grabbed me into the bathroom in the hotel room of Chataue Elan. “Bitch are you knocked up?” He said. I sighed, and started crying. “Yesss, and Im having twins” I cried. Teddy was in shock. “Bitch what?” He said. I nodded. “I went to the doctors today, Im 13 weeks pregnant, and its 2 babies Teddy, 2 fucking kids at the same time, like what the fuck!” I cried. He snatched my shot out my hand and chugged it. “Honey, Congradulations I guess babies are a blessing. God ain’t giving you nothing you can’t handle” He said to me. I nodded slowly. Teddy didn’t understand. Im marrying Atlantas top organized drug dealer, who has hits on him at the moment then on top of that! Im pregnant with two babies! Twin babies. Like God I see what your doing, Im very blessed but now I’m overwhelmed. I groaned. “I need to see O” I stressed. Teddy shook his head. “He is having his bachelor party wait till tomorrow” He said. I nodded, he brought me back out to the party. “Ima fix you some food” He said. Keish came up to me. “You good?” I nodded. I didn’t want everyone knowing when my baby daddy/husband didn’t even know yet. Teddy passed me a plate of Rotel, and Fried Fish. I inhaled the fish and my stomach turned. I quickly put the plate down and ran to the bathroom to throw up. I heard a knock at the door and seen Jade. I opened the door for her. “You okay Naomi?” She asked. I started crying again. She got a towel and wet it, passing it to me while rubbing my back. “Is it like them wedding jitters or whatever?” She asked. I shook my head. “Im um Im having a baby” I said. She smiled widely. “Oh my gosh congrats girl” She said. I shook my head. “Im not happy about it” I told her. She shrugged. “Why not?” She asked. “Getting married is one thing but im marrying into the game, now you want me to put my babies at risk too?” I said. Her eyes widened. “Twins?” She asked. I nodded. “Well I been knowing Ace since I was 13, and I been around the game so much I got used to the ins and the outs, and you knew O was down when you fell for him, you knew the risk, the one thing you should know is them niggas aint going to ever let shit happen to us or the people they love, yall got this you good” She told me. I wiped my face. “You right” I said. Teddy busted into the bathroom with my mom. Teddy looked at me and sighed. “This is killing my high, I mean my buzz” He said. He walked out the bathroom. “Mimi you good?” She asked. I nodded.

After I threw up, I went to sleep in Jade’s room, since Ace was going to be with O all night. I didn’t want to ruin the mini bachelorette they through me so I just left them to party while I got some sleep. I woke up to my alarm, letting me know it was time to get dressed. My nerves were shot. I been throwing all morning, and crying. “Mimi fucking chill!” Keisha yelled annoyed. “Man fuck this” I got up with my hair pincurled and my make up done. I had on a robe and slippers. I left my make up stylist room and went down to Omaris floor. I heard Rich As Fuck by Lil Wayne blasting. I banged on the door. “Yooo wazzam sis” Ace said. His breath smelled like henny. “Um its bad luck Naomi” X said. I waved him off. “I need to talk to you” I said to O. He looked at me crazy and nodded. He grabbed my hand, and lead me to the balcony. “You look beautiful, but I aint supposed to see you right now, whats up baby, you bout to dip on a nigga?” He asked. I shook my head. “Uhhh I been scared to tell you this but I wanted to say something before the wedding” I said fiddling with my fingers. “What? Baby just say that shit” He said. “Im pregnant” I said. He stepped back a little. “Since when?” He asked. I rolled my eyes. “Since 13 weeks ago nigga! Im pregnant okay, 13 weeks to be exact” I said. He wiped his hand across his face. “Aight okay thats cool, its all good baby” He simply said. I shook my head, and handed him a picture. “Whats this the baby?” He asked analyzing the picture. “Babies and yes” I simply said. He looked at me then the picture, “Babies?” He asked. I nodded and put up the number 2. “Twins” I said. He quickly walked back in and snatched the henny bottle from Ace and started downing the liquor. “Twins!” He yelled. I sighed and nodded. “O please dont make a scene” I calmly stated. He walked back over to me. “So look, we going to figure this out just please get ready so I can marry your beautiful ass, my fucking baby mama” He said to me kissing me. I smiled at him. I nodded and left to go back up to my suite to get dressed. “OMG nigga! We thought you ran, you got 30minutes come on!” Keisha panicked.

X age 18:

“So you want this type of wedding one day or nah?” I asked Heiress. She smiled at me as we danced. “Something quiet, intimate” She simply said. “I can deal with that” I said smiling. She looked at me. “Are you insinuating that you want to marry me Xander Domonic Knight?” She asked. “Ehhhh maybe” I said. She laughed at me. “I love a man that knows what he wants” She simply said. We were dancing to “Must be nice” by Lyfe Jennings. “Okay man, let me go ahead and give this toast” Ace said clickling on Wine Glass. “First off I want to thank my baby J, for being there for me regardless, and to my big bruh, you my nigga man Im happy you found a bitch to hold you down” Ace said. Naomi awkwardly smiled, O shook his head and laughed. The older people shook they head at his speech. “Uh thanks bruh” O said. I tapped on my glass I grabbed off a table. “Uh thanks for that speech Ace., uh Naomi thank you for being down with O, and being a real one by his side, he’s a great dude. An amazing big brother and we love yall and wish yall nothing but love”. O and Naomi lifted their glasses. “Thank yall” Naomi said. O stood up. “I want to thank all yall coming to celebrate our union, I also want to let everyone know that Naomi and I will be welcoming our first kids, twins come 2014” He said. Everyone looked shocked but started clapping including me and Heiress. “Wow” I said. “Congrats nigga!” Ace yelled. He was drunk as fuck. “Congrats yall” We all said. The DJ went back to playing music.

6 months later: January 14th 2014

Over the pass 2 years, Heiress and I had graduated highschool, she went to Georgia State for nursing, and I went to Georgia Tech to major in business, then after that I was going to Cordon Bleu to be a chef, O had moved out to a house in Kennesaw with Naomi since they was starting a family, so I had the whole Mansion to myself. Heiress had wanted a college life before she decided to move in with me, plus her mom wasn’t feeling it. I had got a call from Omari while I was in school. He had left me like 4 missed calls. I pulled up at the spot, where we supplied our shit and did our deals. “What’s going on? I was in the middle of a test when you called” I told O. He had his gun out, along with K.C and was shushing me. He passed me a gun and a bullet proof vest. “Niggas in here robbing us”. He whispered. I heard a silent engine roaring. I looked and seen it was Ace in his Ashton Martin. His door lifted up and he got out the car clocking his gun with his vest already on. “Man the fuck yall out here standing for, niggas messing with our money” Ace walked pass us. K.C shook his head “Shit bout to be messy forreal now”. Ace walked in and I was behind him. We seen niggas in all black stuffing shit in they bags. Ace aint hesitate and started shooting. O was fighting a nigga, K.C and I went upstairs. The men started shooting at us. I shoot back. We had a big shoot out. Finally all the niggas was dead in the spot except one who O had held for questioning. “We need to get this shit out before police show up and set up another spot” I simply said. O nodded. Ace was sitting on the counter eating chips with blood splatter on his face. I shook my head. Homie was crazy. K.C laughed. “You always eating after a shoot out, weird ass” He said. Ace shrugged. “Shit had me hungry” He said. “Who sent you, Ima ask you one more time before I paint these walls with whats left of you?!” O yelled with a machete in his hand. “Jackall” He simply said. “Who is that?” I asked. “The king of East Atlanta” He simply said. “How you find our shit?” O asked. “Jackall said he has connections” O nodded. “We got a snitch in our crew?” He asked him. The nigga shrugged. “I know nothing else just what was told, I swear” He said. “Aight” O said. Before O could untie him, shots rang off killing the nigga. O looked over at Ace. “Nigga, Damn” O said. Ace simply looked at us. “My shawty cooking tonight, I got to be home before she start bitchin, and he was just going to run his mouth anyways. Cops 15 minutes away lets pack shit and head out” Ace said. K.C started laughing. “He’s such a Gemini” He said. I started laughing too, cause he wasn’t lying. We grabbed most of our shit, cleared the place out of any identity, and got the hell on to reload our shit into another safe house to reload. I headed out home, to get cleaned up.

When I got to my crib. I seen Heiress car in the drive way. I had gave her a key to my crib eventhough we don’t live together. I walked inside the house. “Heiri” I called out. “Im in here” She said from my dinning room. I walked in and seen her sitting there with my guns on the table. I sighed. “Why do you have 4 guns?” She asked. I actually had a gun in each room, bathroom and 5 in the kitchen. I shrugged. “Protection, my dad gave them to me” I lied. She slowly nodded. “But there not even normal guns X, what is this like an Ak-47? what about this a pistol? I dont know what you call these other two, are these even registered X. What if the police find these, and theres bodies on these you will go to jail!” She panicked. “Heiress, baby chill man please I been having these it’s okay” I said to her. She folded her arms. “You sure?” She asked. I nodded. “Baby its all good, Just protection” I stated. She slowly nodded her head. “I came over to surprise you by cleaning your big ass house and cooking dinner, Im sorry I got nosey” She told me. I grabbed her and kissed her forehead. “Mi casa su casa” I said to her. She smiled. “You already being a wife to yo man, I love it! I love you!” I said to her. She smirked. I took the guns off the table and took them down to the basement. The basement had a key pad entry. If it didn’t Heiress would have found the drugs that I had in the basement. My trap phone buzzed. “Wazzam?” I answered. “We got more problems X, that Jackall nigga hijacked our stash while we was shooting the niggas in the spot earlier today” K.C said. I sighed. “Shit! We got to put out a hit now, but we wait on O, what he say?” I asked. “Naomi went into early labor, O is busy. I just got to call Ace” He stated. I nodded. “Ace would handle that shit quick” I said. K.C laughed. “Aight, Ima get Ace” He hung up the phone. I heard knocking on the basement door. I ran up the steps. “What’s up?” I asked closing the door behind me. “When are you going to show me what’s down there?” Heiress said. I shrugged. “One day” I simply said. She pouted. “When is that?” She asked. I sighed. “What you cooking?” I asked her. She rolled her eyes. “Whats down there X just tell me!” She said. “My dads business stuff, that’s it” I said. She shrugged, “Well let me look?” She said. Someone knocked on the door. I quickly went to the door to see who it was. It was Ace. “What up bruh bruh?” Ace said dapping me up. He looked at Heiress. “What up Heiress?” He said. She put on a smile coming over to hug Ace. “Hey Ace” She said greeting him. “Lets talk” Ace said. Heiress went back to kitchen. We walked down stairs to the basement. “Whats up?” I asked. “My gang ready to roll, problem is my nigga said he seen TiTi hanging over at the eastside spot where Jackall hide out is” He told me. I looked up at him. “Tiana?” I asked he nodded. “Aint want to shoot up the whole spot killing your blood” He said. I nodded. “Ima handle Tiana” Ace nodded. “I got to get back to the east side and secure my shit on my turf” He simply said. We went back upstairs. “You leaving?” Heiress asked. I nodded. “Tiana shit again” I told her. She rolled her eyes. “Tiana is such a problem but okay go be a big brother, I will see you later” She said kissing me. Ace made a funny face. “Yuck” He said. “You don’t kiss you shawty?” I asked. He smirked. “We do alot but I don’t like seeing yall kiss, but I got to dip and go with Jade to check on MiMi yall coming?” He asked. I nodded remembering O was at the hospital with his wife. “Yeah Ima see yall there” He nodded and got in his car. I drove to Decatur to visit Tiana. She wasn’t answring her phone.

Character Pics:

La-La (Alexis Sky) age 19:

Heiress: age 18

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Jade:

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