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diabeticgirl4 · 6 years ago

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My job coach told me I don't seem very anxious, and idk how to tell him it's bcause I'm Very Good at internalizing and hiding my anxiety from everyone 24/7 so that I can come off as a Normal Functioning Person meanwhile it's almost guaranteed that I'm internally freaking out over something at any given time

#ignore me #did this make sense? sry my brain is mush rn #he also told me I don't seem very autistic from our first meeting #🙃 thanks it's the constant masking I never learned to take off #and like I know he has good intentions #but like. I already feel bad about having to ask for help in finding a job #and him going oh you're not as bad as my other clients! (not his words)#isn't helping my brain when it's doing tug-o-war #between 'I'm so anxious I can't do anything w/o help aaaa'#and 'you just need to step it up and stop whining look at all these ppl who have it so much worse jfc'#yikes sorry my tags are a mess but so is my brain #hhh I just wanna isolate myself and drown everything out w loud music #except I have family over aaaahaha halp

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