#ꗃ ⋆ ࣪ . [ ashi ! ] ❤ . ★

[kaevch]

MUTUALS !!? ヾ๑ˊᵕˋ๑◞♡

THE BESTEST!! I LOVE YOU ALL 🫶 I'D FIGHT OFF MOUNTAIN LIONS FOR YOU GUYS.

in my traditional language, da means older brother and che (read as ché) means older sister! if i call you that and it makes you uncomfortable/sounds weird, please tell me. i'll stop it :3

@khoipyan - khoi/shrimp !! ヾ(＾-＾)ノ

@sk2lton - helix !! (◍•ᴗ•◍)

@v-anrouge - aster !! (∩´∀`∩)*゜

@ghostivities - ghostie!! (≧∇≦)/

@ashipiko - ashi !! (♡´▽`♡)

@h2llish - devil !! ꉂ(ˊᗜˋ*)♡

@ynkfva - yelena !! (ˊ˘ˋ*)

@shinysparklesapphires - sapphi !! (≡^∇^≡)

@cphalopunk - ven !! ヾ(´︶`♡)ﾉ

@sailor-song - irah !! （☆/＞u＜/）

@eme0w - gecko !! ヾ(〃^∇^)ﾉ

@nervocat - nervo !! (ﾟ▽＾*)☆

also if u wanna break mutuals w me for whatever reason or removed from this list, js dm me ^^

[kaevch]

WJWJSJSHSJJS I JUST SAW THID RN ASHI WTFFFF AWWWW THEYRE SO FUCKJXBG CUYE I CANNOT DO THIS 😭😭 LOOK AT TEHMMMMM ID DEFINITELY BUY PLUSHIES OF THEM AND MAKE TGEM HOLD HANDS AND NEVER SEPERATE THEM AND KISS THEM BOTH GOODNIGBT ON THE FOREHEAD WAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

You’re so delicate, so in the bubble ♪

[kaevch]

AWWW THEY'RE SO CUYE 😢😢💓

<3 mskz late night doodle

[kaevch]

OHMYGDOD HELELEOW WTWFFEFWTYWIWIAOXGWJWJPQOQ LOOK AT TEHMW AAGAGAGGWGWUQQ0QPQPDWOSBIW I L9VE ASHI SM WTFFFWFGWGW

DANCE WITH ME YOU LI-IA-IAR ♡

OVERBLOT ASHI??? ANYBODY??? the ANGST that this baby can store!!! SHEESH!!!!!!! <3 I only have one post dedicated to her and liar dance lyric analysis (the post is kinda outdated in gen) BUT…… I also have an overblot monologue as a treat 🫶 I wanted to better explain her angst and so!!! BABAM!!! enjoy

ASHI’S MONOLOGUE:

Sometimes I wonder why I ended up here.

A place named “Twisted Wonderland”, and at a school named “Night Raven College”.

At first, I figured that I was the odd one out— Y’know, the Ramshackle prefect and everything. The magicless girl at the magical all boys school? Nuts, ain’t it?

I’m known for a lot of things. Things that are different from the others. The fact that I stand out is part of the Ashi charm, something I’m known for.

But… Over time I found myself sorta feeling in place here.

Because as much as I try to believe it, I can’t safely say that I’m better than anyone else here.

I’m a fake. I make conversation and lots of friends, but for what? A backup in case something goes wrong? A sense of protection for my reputation? In what case are any of those friendships something I truly want? In what case are any of these strings just a tool instead of a thread made of my real feelings?

Behind this, I’m no different from any other student here. Even through my individuality, my cheerfulness, my endearing oddness… I’m still a horrible person. Using people to get what I want, toying with people and their feelings in order to gain power and gain a spot the top. All to become untouchable. It’s screwed. It’s not right.

My insides are ugly. The truth of me is something I want to keep tucked away deeply, because I don’t want people to see this part of me. A brash, annoying, selfish version of me, everything people hate to see. I don’t want this side of me to be seen because people will run away— people I don’t care much about, sures, but people I love, too. I don’t want to drive them away. So I keep quiet and give them a shallow show.

I give them a source of entertainment that’s controlled by the real me, every calculated movement translating into a marionette-like response. The only show I allow you to see is one that’s so carefully crafted by the chaotic clown backstage. The one that is shunned away from the light, the strings being the only hint of the puppet’s phony existence to the foolish audience.

But suddenly, I feel as if being here has started to let this side of me come crawling back into the spotlight.

It scares me.

It scares me to be vulnerable, let all of my faults lay out on the table like playing cards. To take the risk without the protection, to gamble everything I’ve built up away just like that. But you…

You.

You make me feel safe. You make me feel as if I don’t need to hide anything. I can give you the key to my heart and you would have no malicious intent. You wouldn’t cut out the parts people don’t like. You would enjoy the performance in full, every bit of it.

You make me believe that I’m nothing special, and yet something so valuable at the same time.

It’s silly. You’re silly. And yet that’s something that’s helped me.

It’s helped me realize that that truly is just how people are.

We aren’t villains. We aren’t antagonists. We aren’t monsters.

We are nothing but people, with faults and feelings that should be valued.

I am more than just a jester, a sake of entertainment.

I’m a person who is entirely worthy of love. All of me.

It reminds me that I must’ve came here for a reason.

Because this is where I belong.