#‘sokaaaa

[cryptic-guy]

I love when I start tagging posts and it’s not even correct names for the things. It’s just my silly little names for them in my silly little head

[marvelmymarvel]

My Brother (Part 1)

Hisoka x Reader

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5

Synopsis: Being dragged to heavens arena was always a fun time, especially when you were able to watch your lover fight. Things were going well until you saw Gon, and then things began to crumble.

A/N: I know he's creepy and a pedophile, in my imagines I’m simply going to changed the scenario a bit (Alternate universe) bc ew. But know that I know very well how creepy he is. I just had a couple ideas and wanted to write them down, so don't come for me, please :( 

“Sokaaaa” 

Hisoka’s eyes traveled to his left, taking in your form as you roamed down the hallway looking for him. Gon and Killua were standing before him, trapped in his nen, but the sight of you caused it to falter a bit. “There you are, my love!” 

The nen dropped, his attention now 100% on you as you came to stand beside him. You didn't notice the two boys in the hall as you looked down at Hisoka, confused as to why he was sitting down. Hisoka turned his golden eyes back down the hall, “I’ve been looking for you. I didn’t know why you ran off-”

Your eyes had wandered to the place where he was looking, and once they saw green hair, your heart stopped along with your words. Hisoka paid no mind to your silence, thinking simply that you realized he was working and needed to focus, but he didn’t expect you to step forward on shaky legs. Your mind was racing a mile a minute, the green hair, the brown eyes, the fishing pole...

“Gon” 

The smaller boy’s eyes shot up to yours, confusion swimming in them as he racked his brain to where he's seen you before. Maybe you had met in the hunter’s exam? No, your eyes told him that you knew him way before then. “How do you know this boy” Hisoka questioned, hand still raised in case he had to use his nen once more. No longer a way to stop the children from commencing.

But to stop them from attacking you.

You were always a weak link to Hisoka, someone he cared for almost as much as he cared for himself. Meeting him 5 years ago didn’t make him think you’d still be here, but he begrudgingly fell head over heels for you. Judging by how he was reacting to your presence, the boys would have figured it out rather quickly that you were someone Hisoka wanted to protect.

Despite Hisoka’s threatening nature, the look in your eyes made Gon feel safe. Who were you? Why were you looking at him like that? “Y/n...” Hisoka grumbled lowly, anger radiating off of him as you took a step closer. He could stop the boys, but he couldn’t stop you. “Y/n?” Gon questioned, eyebrows crinkling in confusion as he searched his mind. Why was that name familiar to him? For some reason, the sound of it made him think of sunshine, flowers, and safety. Something he hasn’t truly felt since-

“I failed you” you cried out, hand slapping against your mouth as you fought back sobs. Your body shook in its place, your father's words boring into you harder than ever before. “Keep your brother safe, Y/n... He cant be like me” Hisoka’s eyebrows shot up as he slowly pieced together the situation, yet he didn’t lower his hand. Instead, it shook harder as the power once more grew inside him. 

You began to step forward, arms outstretched as you raced towards your brother, but Hisoka’s claws snatched you back before you made it 3 feet. Your mouth opened to scream out who you were to him, but then another man appeared. Hisoka was still sitting, one hand gripping onto your shirt while the other was still raised at the others. Venom was dripping from his eyes, challenging the three to even try and get close to you. Hisoka no longer cared if they were on this floor.

He didn’t want them close to you.

You had opened your mouth once more, but Hisoka shot up and covered it with his hand. He didn’t quite understand what was going on, but he knew that whoever Gon was to you meant that you were about to leave him. And he wasn’t ready for that. “Shhhh my love” Hisoka purred in your ear, trying his best to silence the sobs against his hand. His hands were no longer pointing to the others, instead, one was covering your mouth while the other held you close to him. He was never the best at soothing, but you were slowly teaching him how.

All four of them talked, but it all sounded muffled as you watched Gon carefully. How could you have failed him?! You left him just like dad did, but for a different reason. You didn’t think he would follow in your footsteps and become a hunter, but you were wrong, you were so wrong. “We will be back” the white-haired boy called out before turning and storming off with Gon following close behind him. Before Gon turned the corner, he shot another look your way. He didn’t remember you.

He didn’t know.

Instead of asking you who you were to him, Gon’s face hardened up before chasing after the other two, leaving you, Hisoka, and the reception lady all alone. “I’m going to ask you to leave now” Hisoka snarled at the other lady, wanting nothing more than to rip her throat out in frustration. She was supposed to keep an eye on you and make sure you wouldn’t wander into any danger, but what you wandered into was much worse. She let out a screech before taking off, leaving you still sobbing in Hisoka’s grasp. A snarl sounded out as you were slammed into the wall behind you, it was oddly sweet as Hisoka’s hands softly cradled your neck. As if he was trying to be gentle for you.

“Who is he to you?!” 

Your e/c eyes pierced his golden ones, sadness was written all over your face as you continued to cry in his grasp. You were never afraid of Hisoka, even in a position like this. His claws were digging into the back of your neck as the other hand gripped your hip in a steel-like grasp. Your body was pressed up against his while his knee rested between your legs. If you weren’t so upset, you’d be quite turned on with the predicament you were in.  

But you couldn’t stop thinking of his eyes.

Hisoka’s brain began to race with your silence. Was he a child you had with a previous lover? Was he someone you raised? Took care of? Why did any of this matter to him?! Your sobs began to come out choked, and Hisoka loosened his grasp on your neck in response as his golden eyes softened a bit at your broken face. This kid was someone important to you, and he was scared of that. “Who is he?” his soft words were like music to your ears as his thumb caressed your neck lovingly, maybe if he was patient with you. Maybe you would open up. 

“He’s my brother” 

Hisoka’s body froze against you as life seemed to vanish from his eyes. Your brother, the boy he wanted to kill most was your brother. The boy he almost killed, was your brother. Anger filled his veins as his hand tightened once more around your throat, not enough so you couldn't breathe, but enough for you to feel what he was feeling. Anger, disappointment, uncertainty, love. “Shit” he snarled out, realizing then that he was drawing blood from both your neck and your hip. Pulling away from you, he wiped his hand against his pants in order to wipe away the blood and emotions from his skin.

“SHIT” 

Your eyes slammed shut, not in fear but in knowing. He was about to lose it, he was about to kill people. Hisoka hated feeling things, hated it with his whole being. And you, God YOU. You made him feel everything. “Please don't hurt him Hisoka” you cried out as your hands grasped his shirt in angst. The thought of the man you loved killing the boy you cherished took you to a level of grief you weren’t ready to feel. Hisoka pulled your face into his neck but said nothing to reassure you that he would leave your brother be. 

“Gon has to grow my love... I may not kill him but I can't promise his safety”

You let out a sob into his skin while trying to push away from him, the monster you loved. “No Hisoka no!” your sobs were becoming uncontrollable, each one breaking the stoic man's heart more and more. He tried to hold you close but you managed to break from his grasp, “If you won't protect him, then I’ll protect him from you” you snarled out shakily. Hisoka’s golden eyes narrowed, and you felt your heart race against your chest. He wasn’t happy, it looked like it at least. 

But he was hiding his pain.

“I love you, but he's my blood... And if you truly love me, you won't kill him” He only kept staring at you as you broke down further in front of him. All you wanted to do was crawl back into his arms and forget the world, but you couldn’t. Not anymore. 

“I guess I don't love you then” 

A scoff flew out of your lips at his blatant lie, and you finally saw the heartbreak written on his face. He was stuck, but you weren’t going to stay beside him until he decided that your love was more important than taking someone's life. Spinning on your heels, you began to quickly walk after the boys. Purple waves clouded your vision, the love and angst Hisoka was sending your way only amplifying your feelings. “Let me go then if you don't love me” you mocked, head snapping to the side as you eyed him. His hand was shaking, nen full of emotion as he prayed for you to stay. When he didn’t let you go, you decided to just break free. 

Stepping forward, you broke out of the fog and continued quickly to the end of the hallway. Hisoka screamed after you, claiming that you were not safe without him in heavens arena, but you paid no mind to him as you turned the corner and disappeared from his sights. You were just fine without him.

For now.

[angelswithlightsabers]

oh, don’t let the covid get you down don’t let the worldwide virus turn your smile into a frown when the world is darkest, that’s when you need a clown, hey! don’t let the covid get you down, sokaaaa

[meteor-cities]

more hisoillu headcannons

hi so i was talking to a moot on twitter and just imagine illumi, whose had a rough childhood so age regression and dissociating are common themes for him (which is why he’s so spacey and soft-spoken) also tell me if you want more or an extension of this !

so here we go

first time illumi slips:

it’s a bittersweet moment for both him and hisoka

hisoka came home and was like -_- where’s my baby

and he walks all around and even checks his usual hidey spots

only to find illumi still in bed but he’s curled up underneath the comforter

and hisoka is used to spacey adult illumi and making death jokes with him

so he’s like “illumi istg i’ll kill you”

and cue the sniffling

illumi starts crying underneath the blanket

and hisoka is a bit shell shocked

bc illumi never cries unless it’s during sex

so hisoka removes the comforter and illumi is curled up

and illumi looks at hisoka with big, watery eyes

and is all “b-but i was good today..”

and hisoka isn’t sure how to handle this 

so he just pulls his boyfriend into his arms

and kisses his head

and apologises for scaring him

and he’s like “yes baby you’re very good now what’s wrong”

bc hisoka knows sth is off if illumi is suddenly clingy

and illumi shrugs and rests his head on hisoka’s shoulder

and makes soft lil babie noises😭

hisoka peppers kisses on illumi’s face and makes him giggle

and after a while, illumi switches back and is like :o hisoka what are u doing

and hisoka laughs bc illumi is too darn cute

illumi’s wants and needs:

illumi is a very demanding baby

he gets what he wants when he wants

“soka soka” “what baby” “juice” “alright”

hisoka is too soft for him

and will get him anything he wants

hence illumi is very VERY spoiled

their apartment has two bedrooms, and obv they share one

so over time, the other room is filled with things illumi enjoys when in his headspace

when hisoka comes home, illumi is in the other room playing

and he runs out with wide eyes and holds up a scribble like :o soka soka soka look what i did !

and hisoka frames the scribble every time

hisoka will stay up with this boy for hours bc sometimes illumi is scared of sleeping

illumi really likes strawberries

like a lot

so hisoka has a jar of candies for illumi

and he lets illumi suck on lollipops while doodling or playing with toys hisoka bought for him

they even paint together

“sokaaaa i wanna paint!” “not right now” “now!” “ugh fine”

illumi is very fond of space

very very fond of space

so his headspace room has glow in the dark stars

and illumi owns cute little hair clips that have planets on them

and a choker with saturn as the charm

sometimes illumi will just curl into hisoka’s arms when he’s home

and hisoka braids his hair and sometimes massages his scalp

all around they’re very soft together