#<- guess i wont be using this tag much anymore

[idontwanttospoiltheparty]

mad at joe for what

for hurting Taylor :( </3

[allaboutbethsblog]

my best friend isn't talking to me as much anymore, and I feel like we're distancing.

We don't hang out anymore like we used to.

we don't call. (we used to facetime each other every other night)

We don't message each other as often as we used to.

she only wants me when she has no one else. and I'm not doing that anymore, and she's using me.

I'm not gonna let her use me anymore.

I do talk to her when I'm on the bus in the mornings. Most of the time, I'm tired and don't want to talk. I do listen to her, though

next month she's moving house and when I go into college in September she won't be on the bus.

the last thing i want to say is:

I still call her my best friend.

[steampoweredskeleton]

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Ignore

[novvaable]

Get to Know Me- Sims Edition

thank you @hurricanesims for the tag <33

sorry for taking so long to reply, for some reason it took me ages to actually answer these questions🤠

What's your favourite Sims death?

i hate when my sims die.. i can honestly say i’ve never forcefully killed any of my sims as I get so attached to them. in this case, id probably say death by old age.

Alpha CC or Maxis Match?

alpha! back when I used to play ts4 i gravitated towards maxis match.

Do you cheat your sims weight?

seems pointless to me lol

Do you use move objects?

yes!🫡🫡 impossible to build /decorate without it

Favourite Mod?

nrass master controller - it so universal and makes life a lot easier 🥺

First Expansion/Game Pack/Stuff Pack?

my first expansion was university life. it will forever have a special place in my heart, I love it so much

Do you pronounce live mode or aLIVE or LiVing?

never even thought about it honest, probably like alive??

whos your favourite sim that you've made?

my girlie marcie, she’s come so far with me so I just have a special kinda attachment to her lol

Have you made a simself?

no i think this would just make me miserable

Which is your favourite EA hair colour?

none. I always find the tones of ea hairs to just be a little off? i just use custom colours

Favourite EA hair?

well i dont use any EA hairs they look ugly I have default replacements hairs by maryjane

Favourite life stage?

young adult

are you a builder or are you in it for gameplay?

only recently have i been in it for the gameplay. but i use that phrase lightly. i wil forever be a builder at heart.

Are you a CC creator?

barely lol. sometimes i post occasional things for dl. my knowledge of cc making only scratches the surface. i can do the basics like make poses, and custom photos (alongside sims and builds - but who doesnt).

ive tried to get into cc making a couple of times but its so complicated? i have mad respect for cc makers in the community. ill leave that job to the professionals.

Do you have any Simblr friends or a Sim Squad?

back in my day... lol not so much anymore. after i took a fat hiatus a lot of the people i used to regularly talk with moved on.

@pixelevia is still my girlie. she doesnt post much, but we talk all the time off tumblr and regularly get each other excited about sims storylines that are yet to come to life lol.

Do you have any sims merch?

yes.. i am embarrassed to say that when ts4 was release i pre-ordered the deluxe version. it came with a mouse pad.. its long gone now. but i always remember it having a funky smell ??

also i dont wanna talk about the fact i paid an arm and a leg for ts4 (i dont even play it?!) and now its free. forever going to be salty over this fact.

How has your ''Sims Style'' changed throughout your years of playing?

i'd like to think it has! considering my blog is old, i feel like it has grown with me and that reflects in the style of my sims. recently ive been striving for a slightly more realistic looks to my sims

Whats your Origin ID?

i do have an origin id unfortunately. (is it stil even called that?)

i have a lot of opinions on this new ea app bs. but we wont go into that.

Who's your favourite CC creator?

everyone! honestly anyone who has the skills to be able to make beautiful and functional cc are brilliant.

but just to name a couple:

@rollo-rolls

@smallsimmer

@martassimsbook

@sourlemonsimblr

@satellite-sims

How long have you had simblr?

I had to check my email for this.. as of feb 2023, my blog turned 9 years old?! so I guess almost 10 years. (thats kind of mad)

How do you edit your pictures?

depends on the picture! usually for scenery pics I will just sharpen them and adjust the brightness / saturation / contrast.

for sim pics it really just depends on how bothered I can be.

I’ve recently made the change to gshade so that’s been doing all the heavy lifting for me.

I use hunnybee’s moon syrups preset <3

What expansion/ stuff pack is your favourite?

university life!! it was the it was the first expansion pack i got and so it holds a special place in my heart. its also a pretty awesome pack too.

tagged:

@satellite-sims / @smallsimmer / @pixelevia @kitty-pixelz

[agate-dragon]

Feeling some,,, weird things about my identity

I'm not sure if otherkin/dragonkin is the right word to use to talk about my draconic identity anymore, especially now that I've started to interact with more people who identify as nonhuman creatures who aren't part of the otherkin community.

I still 100% am a dragon, I always have been and that will never change, but I'm also starting to feel a lot less connected to the idea that I'm a literal dragon soul trapped in a human body, weather that be from a past life type of deal or a "parallel life"

I'm starting to feel it more as a weird extension of my gender identity that's been tightly woven up with my experience as an autistic person, with a sprinkling of kink in there. That doesn't make my draconinity any less valid than when I identified as otherkin, but just a bit different yknow?

Ive also been trying to not pathologize any of my experiences, so I guess instead of describing everything in 100% terms, Im just gonna start taking things as they come. I'm a human, and also a dragon, I don't need any more explanation (and boy does that make me feel a lot better)

It definitely helped that I started dating someone who is "just a bunny", it really opened my eyes to hear someone say "I identify as a bunny, that's who I am. I'm not otherkin, I didn't have a bunny past life or the soul of a bunny, I just. Am a bunny." maybe I'm "just a dragon"

I wont be changing this blog much, Ill just be shifting from using the word "kin" to using the word "alterhuman", as I believe that's a much more accurate way to describe who I am and what I feel. I'll still probably use the word "dragonkin" in posts and tags however, it's just the easiest way to describe a dragon alterhuman in one word

[mitchway]

15 Questions + 15 Friends

thanks for the tag @voidspacecowboy sorry it took a thousand years to do it lol

Are you named after anyone?

nope lol

When was the last time you cried?

i had a little cry last night after briefly downloading dating apps and feeling so miserable about it that i immediately deleted them lol

Do you have kids?

nope. i want kids but doubt i'll ever have them.

What sports do you play/have you played?

i didn't start enjoying sports until i was in my twenties when there was little reason to play them anymore so uhhhh. i go to pro wrestling training every weekend and have had a few matches before (and have more lined up in the next few months) so i guess that counts but aside from that it was just the football, rugby, tennis, basketball all at school (none of which was i any good at)

Do you use sarcasm?

more than i should

What is the first thing you notice about people?

idk i guess their hair and its colour or how its styled

What's your eye color?

its somewhere between blue and green

Scary movies or happy endings?

scary movies with happy endings

Any talents?

i've had students in the past who've kept lists of iconic quotes i've said in lesson so i guess i'm pretty good with a one-liner but aside from that not much else lol

Where were you born?

oop norf

What are your hobbies?

right now its legit just napping, reading fanfic and playing assassins creed valhalla lmfao (i promise this is not a cry for help)

Do you have any pets?

no but i want a cat someday, i just have to live somewhere that isnt a middle floor flat or near a major road so i wont panic about them getting out 24/7

How tall are you?

6ft1

Favorite subject in school?

media studies (which i now teach)

Dream job?

running a board game cafe or a writer i guess but i can never actually finish more than a single chapter before i get distracted by another idea so that'll never happen

tagging uhhhhh @naturallybecca @prince-arthur @redbullracingrenault @cowboymitchell @deliachase @mikegesicki and any other moots i guess

[storiesofsvu]

Grace Muncy SFW Alphabet

A/n: first off, no clue who to tag in this so, LMK if you'd like to be added to Grace's taglist for the future! Second. as of writing/posting this we've only seen her for 3 episodes, so there's a high chance that even by next week I will not agree with some of these anymore LOL.

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

She can be affectionate, but it’s not what you would expect. She teases, jokes around, throws some gentle insults and that’s how you know that she actually likes you. So when she really likes you and has feelings, that’s how she gets her point across. It’s always in good nature and you know that it never comes across offensive of anything and has you laughing moments after. It’s only one on one that she shows her affection more personally and physically.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

 She’s pretty similar with friends and her friendship, there’s lots of laughter, teasing and the like. She doesn’t give too many fucks about how people think about her and she’ll just be true to herself. So she’s honest, she wont hold back when you ask her about stuff, but she’s also very defensive and will always stand up for you.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

She likes to be cuddled, but she’s gotta trust you first. If it’s a ONS situation she’s not super snuggly after, she’ll kinda just go on her way, but in an established relationship she does enjoy lying on you on the couch, a sturdy arm around her.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

She does want to settle down, but it’s not her biggest priority in life, she’s confident and comfortable on her own. I kinda hc that she’s used to being alone and doesn’t really see an issue with it, so whenever it happens, it happens kinda thing. She can cook decently enough, do the basics, she’s not overly scrub down clean type person, the house is usually a little messy but nothing gross or unmanageable.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

If it’s been a longer relationship, or even if it’s just been a handful of dates and the chemistry just ain’t there, she’ll do it in person. If it was only one date and it wasn’t great, she’ll probably ghost. If it’s somewhere in between, I wouldn’t put it past her to just do it over text. Like, it all depends on how much effort went into things, right?

F = Fiancé(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

As stated earlier, she’s not super needy about being with someone, she’s totally okay on her own so marriage is kinda something that she doesn’t think about often. She’s totally okay with commitment, but she’s always going to make sure she really knows her partner before they take it to the next level and make things exclusive. I definitely see her as a long engagement type person, like, post proposal it could be months before wedding plans are even talked about, and that’s if she wants to get married at all.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

She’s much more emotionally gentle than physically. Tbh as of right now I just really don’t see her as that much of a touchy person, like, it’s not the way she communicates. When she does touch she can be gentle, when it comes to sexy times though she’s the bottom, and she definitely loves to be roughed up a bit. When it comes to emotions I think she’s someone who can express her own pretty well, and can help her partner talk through things and sort through things pretty well and is always reassuring and soft with them for that.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Guess I just touched on that, LOL. She’s not overly huggy, you’ll see her do the one armed side hug with vics when they need it, and it’s usually only on those type of situations you’ll see her hugging people. She’d rather greet people with a wave, high five, fist bump, that kinda stuff. It’s more in the privacy of home that she’ll more accept hugs from you, she doesn’t search them out unless she’s feeling particularly needy or you’ve been gone for a while.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

She’s faster to say it in the platonic way, like to her friends or coworkers, laughing over jokes or someone brings her coffee on a long overnight shift the quick ‘god I love you’ kinda thing. When it comes to romantic relationships she’s usually not the first person to say it. She’ll feel it, but either be unsure if that’s what she’s actually feeling or if she’s just happy, but once you say it she’ll beam and say it in return.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Fight me on this, but she is a very jealous person when it comes to partners. If you’re out at a bar and you start to get hit on/flirt with someone, she’s immediately jealous. And she’s gonna be a full blown brat about it.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Her kisses range from soft and sweet to fiery with teeth nipping at lips depending on the situation. They’re almost always accompanied with a small smile, lips curving against yours. She’ll claim she hates it when you kiss the tip of her nose but she secretly loves it.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

She’s great with kids, better with the aged like, 10 plus. She’s unsure if she wants to have her own yet, would be fine being mom, would also be more than fine just being the fun aunt, she doesn’t have a burning desire to go either way when it comes to kids. I also can definitely see her wanting to adopt/foster over having her own kids.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

In bed. Lol. I’m canon-ing her to not be a morning person at all. Like, once she’s up and had some coffee and food she’s fine, but she’s a hit the snooze alarm type of person. Probably has multiple alarms set with different tones. One that’s a “you should get up now” one that’s a “if you were planning on showering you need to get up now” and the last resort one that’s “you barely have time to eat breakfast now girl” alarm.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Relaxed, probably with a beer or drink, some tasty food while you watch some mindless tv or have a movie night. She’s also super into sports, so there’s lots of that going on in the house in the evenings whether you like it or not.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

She’s definitely a one thing at a time. It’s not that she’s hiding facts or keeping secrets, things just don’t come up until they come up kinda thing. That goes for both her friendships and her romantic relationships. There’s definitely some things that need to come up right away in romantic ones and she’s fine with that, but things about like, her background, things she likes, places she’s been kinda thing come up later.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Her patience is pretty decent. I think a lot of that comes from her time working in the gang unit, she’s used to people not wanting to snitch on others so she’s used to having to sit it out until she can figure out her way in. She doesn’t necessarily get angry, but she gets annoyed as fuck pretty easily, even if she does cover that up.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

She’s somewhere in the middle, she’s not going to remember every single thing, but she’ll do her best with the most important ones. She knows how you take your coffee, your preferred alcoholic drink of choice, your birthday, favourite treats, animal, that kind of stuff.

R = Remember (What is their favourite moment in your relationship?)

It’s gonna be something absolutely hilarious, like a moment where you were both laughing so hard you were crying kinda thing. OR it’s going to be the day you were watching some kind of sports together and you started yelling at the tv despite the fact that when you first started dating you had ZERO idea about how things worked. You’d put up with Grace’s obsession and now it was something that you were obsessed with too.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

She’s protective but not overly. She searches out partners who can already take care of themselves. Like I’ve said, she’s pretty independent and comfortable solo, and she’d want the same in a partner. She doesn’t want to have to baby them kinda thing.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

With Grace, it’s the little things. She’s not big into huge fancy dates, she’s not going to fill your apartment with roses kinda thing, she’s just not about that. She is however going to show up on Friday with your favourite pizza and a giant case of beer because she know that you had an absolute garbage day/week and she wants to make you feel better and remind you just how loved you are.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

She’s a little shit disturber, in all aspects of her life.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Like, zero percent. I think we’re all aware of that already. LOL. She does want to put on a good impression when it comes to some situations, but most of the time it’s much more about being comfortable and practicality. (like, you cannot tell me she took one look at Amanda’s HEELS and went “wtf? You chase perps in those?”)

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?) Covered this one already lol. She’s completely confident and comfortable solo and doesn’t need a partner to feel complete.

X = Xtra (A random head canon for them.)

Homegirl’s bi/pan.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

Aside from the obvious stuff…. She’s not super into the fancy ritzy part of New York, like she’s not the biggest Manhattan fan. She lives in Queens and prefers that kind of life, the Bronx kind of life. She’s not into dressing up to go out for things, she absolutely *hates* the policeman balls they have to go to, so she’s definitely not about to date someone who partakes in that kind of lifestyle.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

We already talked about how she hates getting up in the morning, so I’m gonna continue on with that and say she’s a bit of a night owl. Has zero issues with working the night shift (minus that she’s bored out of her skull), will always volunteer for late night stakeouts cause she’d be up anyways so she may as well get paid for it.

____________ @thatesqcrush @witches-unruly-heart @borg-queer

[pivsketch]

bunch of basil stuff from earlier this year and then some. like taggart's compilation of sketches, the earliest/roughest stuff is in the upper left hand corner and it kinda develops from there.

also a page of him back when he was afterburner. almost a totally different guy

Basil facts™ -------------

this got so long. im sorry. he is the main character and my special quiet weird moody boy so of course i have to throw him under the bus to talk about all his psychological problems. im grabbing and shaking you, reader. its important to know that basil sucked and now he still sucks but slightly less and in a different way

"Reformed hyper-competitive asshole" who now exclusively hangs out with the least competitive man of all time (Taggart)

He was a parkour guy in middle/high school and was extremely dedicated about it. Downright passionate. He started a group with his friends and it somehow became kind of a big deal? His parents found out he was not doing respectable sports activity and they moved after his sophomore year, which he will never forgive them for doing. He later got extremely mad about how his friends were running the group without him (lol. get it. because they… sorry) and he had this incredibly messy falling out with them. He has not done or talked about parkour since because he is just that bitter about it.

Both of Basil's parents have very serious careers in business and/or management and the personality types to go with it. Being raised by neglectful control freaks with high standards did not do Basil very well. Also, uh, see above. Unsurprisingly, he thoroughly estranged himself after he became an independent adult. Also unsurprisingly, Basil grew up to be quite an asshole!

It was one of Basil's friends who actually wanted to get into wrestling, Basil just tagged along with him to wrestleschool for moral support (and because he had nothing better to do). He ended up getting really into it. Really really into it. His friend accused him of coming along just to show him up (which… was not entirely untrue) and they got into a big argument about it. His friend quit, Basil stuck with it, and eventually got accelerated into the intermediate class (which Taggart and Chip were in).

He used to have a seasonal crab fishing job, which he quit when he got into wrestling, and then he quit wrestling, so he went back to his seasonal crab fishing job, then quit it again to mill about at home. Nowadays he occasionally helps Taggart do work at their wrestleschool (since they spend so much time using the facilities there anyway). Is it technically wrestling? Yes, but not to Basil, because he's "just helping his friend out." Whatever helps him sleep at night, I guess!!

He still really likes wrestling, but he refuses to do it anymore. He fully psyched himself out of it because he realized that, despite everything hes done in his adult life (estranging himself from his folks, roughing it out on his own, working miserably on a fishing boat for years) he still grew up to sound exactly like his parents, who he hates. You know, just a bit of a majorly crippling life-identity crisis. He'd get over it faster if he just talked with anyone about it or went to therapy (but he wont) (because then what about the story??? the plot??? the narrative??????). Instead, he's just locked himself down into some sort of holding pattern as he tries to casually and nonchalantly absorb how to be a different (better?) person from Taggart, who is the kindest and nicest person he's ever known in his life. Is that love or what? Well, probably not to Basil, because his parents never really taught him that. lol. lmao. he has so many hangups

Basil's known Taggart for like ~5 years now which is probably the longest time he's ever been friends with someone without having a disastrous falling out. Good job Basil! Keep up... the good work... heh :)

He's fine with either bay-zel (like the herb) or bazzle (like the name). For a time he used to arbitrarily pick one or the other just as an excuse to give people shit for getting his name "wrong."

[niceinchnails]

Mentions game thing tagged byyy @fishgirlautism yayay

are you named after anyone? Me noo. Neither deadname (*************) or chosen name (iso) IM me. Except for my second name trent you can guess where that came from

when was the last time you cried? #Not telling

do you have kids? No.......

do you use sarcasm a lot? Online not that much cause it doesnt fit w my online sense of humour but irl yea a little

what sports do you play? I used to play soccer and was damn good at defence..I guess i play a little badminton&Im kind of good @ it

what’s the first thing you notice about people? Attitude..How you treat outher people. Basic answer but its true if youre a dick for no reason ppl wont like you

what’s your eye color? browny black yea

scary movies or happy endings? I dont like scary movies sorry. Theyre scary. Happy endings are good too but im a suckr 4 bittersweet endings okkk. Also happy endings are good yea

any special talents? Art i guess. Theres like nothing remarkable abt me except for the fact that people in my art classes like my art

where were you born? IM not from here.

what are your hobbies? art as mentioned. Math ? is math a hobby. Ok wait more specific: Digital art..traditional art w markers..Does worldbuilding count as a hobby becase im it. CODING also but not very good at it.

do you have pets? Not anymore used to have fish but they got sold AF

how tall are you? Im the most average height you can imagine

favorite subject in school? art but if ur talking abt core classes then..math Or english

dream job? Too fuckin many man. my ultimate dream goal is to be a storyboarder for movies but my parents wanna be more realistic but i am NOT Going to med school so we meet in the middle and i think i might be doing marine biology still unsue i dont know. Actually a third thing is graphic design i think id be good at it honestly

tagging blablaba You

[itsohh]

Hello! I hope you are doing well! When you first started writing here on Tumblr, did you hesitate or were nervous and if so how did you deal with it? Or did you just power through it and fuck it I'm putting my writing out there and I don't care what people say?

Long story short I'm really wanting to write on here just to do something different but I'm hella nervous and just wanted an opinion. Because I really love R6 but I have a very hard time getting out of my shell. Obviously you don't have to answer if you are uncomfortable! Till then I can't wait for your next post! 😊

hmmm I think way back when I first started writing I was a lot more care free at the time back when I was like 13.

I don't think I was ever focused on like anyone hating it or anything like that. Like I've legit never got hate for writing in all the years I've done it. Either people will hit the like button or they wont. Back then I was writing for like supernatural and marvel then eventually overwatch and a bit of Sherlock. In the case of I guess it was 'whats the worst that will happen' in all reality most of the time people who don't like x reader have the tag blocked and so only people who like said thing will find it (so long as u tag correctly)

I've sorta just got to the stage where posting doesn't really phase me in nervousness or anything, like sure for somethings I lose interest or motivation at times but when I started posting I didn't really get any like feedback at all? Like it was very rare I would get anything that wasn't a like or a reblog and requests didn't happen much. I think the fact that Tumblr is so anonymous really helps, like its almost a mask. No one actually knows who I am, worst comes to worst I can legit just delete the blog and start anew.

I think also fandom size is a huge thing, is reconising your audience, there's no point comparing like notes to another fandom cause honestly it just reflects how popular said thing is. After I realised that I sorta don't worry anymore? I used to freak out a bit about people not liking my posts but now I'm just like 'eh R6S is tiny' and it is.

Honestly yeah so long as you tag correctly you should be alg. In the R6S fandom at leat people are pretty chill. (Idk there's some hate to oc's or something but as long as u don't tag as x reader u should be alg)

Anyway I'm rambling a lot but honestly yeah just go for it hun, upload. Nothing bad will happen, might feel a bit anxious or whatever but its like, yeah. You feel me? that being said if your going to write please remember capitals and new speaker new line theses are so important, as someone who breaks a lot of grammar rules those two shouldn't be broken in writing. I know a lot of people aren't a fan of first person so if you do write first person your audience would be smaller than per say second or first

Some people may have different ideas or interpretations of character but I feel as a tumblr collective (speshly this fandom) people won't like hate on you for it.

ANYWAY I went off again, yeah give it a go. eventually you will get used to it and it will become a second habit to upload, frankly so long as you ultimately always write for your enjoyment your always good. uploading writing is pretty much like the same as watching a movie with a friend id say, or like running a dnd campaign sorta vibes. kinda. but yeah just hit that post button and off u go. I guess yeah just power through it, hitting post the first time is def the hardest and you just gotta rip that bad boy off.

[candiedapplez]

I ask you all of the questions from that one reblog. Good luck/nf/j

Omg ok this will be a while then tehehehehehehhe im not complaining though!!!! Heres the questions so u can look at the questions and the answers!

1.this one is OBVIOUS!!! A-90 and Opheebop!!! DUUUUUUUH!

2.lighter. Ive never used a match before

3.ew no!!! I don't want buggies crawling in my room while im sleeping!!!! However i have before!

4. Aaaaaa ive never really gotten into that stuff so i cant really give an answer-

5. A really dark brown!!

6. Oops i did that again???

7. Well idk ive used both and they are both work really well! however i do think scrunchies are safer for your hair, i use normal hair ties more often because scrunchies are more bulky and yeah i dont prefer that, but both are great!

8. Six. I have six.

9.NONE! COFFE IS GROSS BLEEEEEEGH!!

10. Ofc!!

11. Does drawing count?

12. Good day!!!!! I havent cried yet so-

13. Not too long ago, like an hour ago actually. I had pizza! (Incase u were wondering)

14. HELL YEAH!!!

15. Nope and i never want to be 😗

16. NoooooOoOoO-

17. Nope i have perfect vision muah

18. I DONT WANNA SAY TEHE! (Sry)

19. Yea ofc!!! But they probably wont turn out good…

20. Soda…. Ive never seen or heard anyone say pop before….

21. Plushies!!!! I have a unicorn plush my old friend (we dont talk anymore since she moved) gave me for my 7th bday!!!! Yes i remember when, yes i still have it! And its in perferct condition!!! Also there was this one kid who ig had a crush on my and he gave me a basket full of stuff for valentines day and i still have said basket-

22. I have no clue what this means? I guess sensitive?

23. Love it!!!!!

24. Eating :] (and joking abt pushing each other off probably/JOKE/JOKE/JOKE/JOKE)

25. Aaaa i use all of them but i use lotion most so ig lotion?

26. Idk what to say for this one aaaaaagh

27. Like 5 i think? Ive been getting better with my sleep time!!!!

28. Not anymore, our school last year said we could take them off, however i was SO insecure about my face (still am, but not as much as before) so i would wear it every single day. If i showed up to school without one people got surprised. I stopped wearing them this year, however.

29. Hot????

30. THE FUCKING WATER BOTTLES!!!!

31. Theres a lot, i dont wanna get into it 😵‍💫

32…… is that a thing? People have favorite towels??

33. Hm my school took us on a field trip to a high school so we can see animals if that counts… (i have pictures btw if u wanna see them! We saw pigs, sheep, cows and bunny! I didnt take pic of bunny tho 😢)

34. LITERALLY EVERY SIX THE MUSICAL SONG HOLY SHIT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS (the only ones i might mess up on are aywd and idnyl bc aywd is long and i dont listen to idnyl often)

35. Pst!!

36. Only once! My username used to have a 0 between the words (Candied0applez) but i changed it bc it made it sound like i candied no apples… but i was originally going to be called caramelapplez but i thought candied sounded better heheh)

37. The friend i mentioned earlier i met first day of kindergarden, her name is Alana, and this other girl Maya i met before kinder! We met eachother at a park and when we walked home we found out we were neighbors so we instantly became besties! (We still are to this day but she lives 30 mins away so i dont see her often-(

38. All…?

39. Sometimes!

40. Ice cream!!!

41. Empty. Coffee is gross

42. Hahahah yt, roblox and occasionally twitter!

43. HAND IT OVER BITCH!

44. Myself/j fucking donald trump 🤮👈🖕

45. NO ☺️

46. Oh god i dont watch any 🫢

47. | v

this actually was to the other girl i mentioned earlier! Maya! I found baby pictures of us when we were in 2nd-3rd grade and i showed her today!!!

48. Never and i dont plan on ever!

49. Never tried

50. GO AHEAD I GET SO EXCITED WHEN IM TAGGED IN SOMETHING AAAAA!

omg that took forever!!! Gosh i dont mind though!!! These were fun questions! Aaaaaaaa i enjoyed that tyty!

[abyssal-system]

It's late and we can't sleep so I thought I might as well use this blog for its actual intended purpose for once (a diary), so this post might be a little all over the place. im sort of stream-of-consciousness'ing this.

block the tag "#personal" if you dont want to see (potentially sad) personal ramblings / posts from us. be safe, curate your dash, i understand.

things have been very quiet system-wise lately. i think we have a new(?) alter but I'm not sure How new or why they split. I'm not even really sure if its not my imagination tricking me into mistaking an already established headmate as a new split...

i've been thinking about them for a little bit. They seem to go by Hadal (though thats also just a catch-all name for the system when we dont know whos fronting) and i have a sneaking suspicion that they've posted on this blog before.

I havent been dissociating as much lately which is good but ive also not been switching at all which is... not a bad thing really, i guess, but it certainly doesnt help ease my fears of Being A Faker.

i know that systems have quiet periods, and i know that me being frontstuck and also unwilling to change that (fear of loss of control is a pain) so thats probably the reason why, but its still unnerving being the only one around.

ive also been thinking about the logistics of getting a diagnosis... I have a lot of fears about the medical system and abuse within it, particularly being stuck in a mental health facility against my will with no way out. its prevented me from coming out as a system to my parents (who... I feel like theyd understand. not Understand, but im not in any danger if they know. i just worry itll change our relationship in some way, like they wont think im Me anymore) and its prevented me from seeking treatment and understanding of my disorder.

the online system community is also rife with toxicity and misinformation and i do not whatsoever feel safe interacting with people who seem to snap at others without warning, so I dont have many system friends out of fear of reliving past friend group drama

I imagine that the feeling of total isolation I feel is common among other systems, but it doesn't really help to know that. my near-debilitating anxiety controls every part of my life and prevents me from seeking help when i otherwise would have.

it also doesnt really help that the one time i tried to find a dissociation specialist, the only one i could find that said they were queer friendly was 4 hours away in another state.

... i might look again. I might just tell my parents so they can help me look for a therapist.

I worry about that though. I worry that since my plurality doesnt really impact my life all that much (i dont switch very often, I dont have amnesia barriers, and i dont lose control of my body fully when i switch out) that either means Im Faking or Its Not Bad Enough To Worry My Parents Over. Its Not Bad Enough To Drive Across The State To See A Therapist For It when i have a perfectly decent one less than 30 minutes away

... i dont know. it feels like i have all the pieces to get the ball rolling on ... Something? but im not really sure if its worth it. we barely have enough money to keep the pantry full for a week, let alone to switch therapists and drive for hours just so i can Maybe get coping mechanisms or something.

.... I dont really know how to end this. i hope this wasnt too negative for this blog, i know i try to focus on positivity and lighthearted subjects.

please be kind in the notes. there is a (very scared) person behind the screen and I am trying to be better about opening up about my worries. kind advice is always welcome though! if it doesnt help me it could potentially help somebody else.

[lmanburg-letter-service]

Dear Schlatt, Dear Sapnap and Karl

Im dividing this into two after this, this paragraph is for all of you. Im doing way way better than I ever was and I'm with someone amazing, I love them with every part of my being. I feel guilty though, I can never find myself to take of my necklace with the rings or take out my gold tooth [I'll elaborate later on]. I've moved on and I have a chance to start again here, no wars, no backstabbing, no elections and shit, no having to run las nevadas, not having to worry anymore. Im not forgetting anything but I'm moving on. I'll never forget. I dont miss you at all Schlatt, Karl and Nick I miss you a bit but not in such a way I'd want to find you. Im with the genuine love of my life, someone who wont leave me, dae love me more than anything and I love her. When I started Las Nevadas, I gave up wanting to love, needing love. All it would do was hurt me all over again, yet here I am now giggling over the phone with dem genuinely happy. Im happy guys, you proud of me?

Now here's where I split it into two, part for Schlatt and the other for Nick and Karl.

Schlatt, I fucking loathe you. The shit you did to not only me but everyone around you, especially Tubbo, you're own fucking son. I know I've done fucked up shit and I've accepted that, yet if you're still the same old Schlatt you used to be, I would pray for you in hopes you've come to terms with how much of a shit person you are but in truth there is no point praying for a man who broke himself. I dont know if you ever loved me nor do I care if you did. Seeing you in that coffin infuriated me, you didnt even deserve a coffin nor a funeral, you deserved you're death and to rot at the bottom of the ocean. You tore apart my heart so I returned the favor, rather literally. As for our rings, I melted them down and made my gold tooth outta them, I wasnt putting good gold to waste.

To Karl and Nick, I haven't forgot about you. Though now I read into that sentence I realise the irony of it. You forgot about me but im not doing the same. I still wear the necklace with the rings on, rarely, but I do. I loved you both, I really did. But I guess that couldn't stop anything. Karl I know you didnt forget on purpose ofc but it hurts still. I dont really know what else to say. I loved you both.

Have fun with your new lives cos im living mine to its full potential with the people who care and a man I cherish

You're ex-fiance/husband, Quackity

Don't tag as kin, please and thank you.

[Letter Sent!]

[castlebyersafterdark]

just seen some people say they didnt vibe with max's running up that hill scene and i think that reactions and people reacting quickly about media for socials is part of the cause of this new thing where people have so many divisive opinions. when i watch something new i am eyes and ears at full alert, taking in everything as it goes rather than trying to figure the plot out ahead of time, and i realised i would make a shit reactor because it's all happening internally. i dont want to express anything aloud as i watch because you would miss something; dialogue, music, emotional beats? even if stories aren't meant to be consumed in dead silence, i'm amazed at how quickly people form coherent opinions about characters a split second after they've done something instead of just seeing how everything plays out. i'm thinking about lucas 'betraying' the party in s4, people thinking he was genuinely hunting eddie instead of just seeing where his story went. in terms of byler, even now with the story unfinished i am so unable to conjecture real 'proof' or evidences of byler wholly because its open ended! i wont judge anyone until the story is complete.

i'm just amazed by these reactors because theyre usually just GA/nerds, and its fascinating to see them respond and react so quickly and so judgementally, i wonder if it's partially for views now instead of an honest reaction theyre sharing online.

Reaction videos are not something I watch, unless a very funny clip gets shared, I guess because I'm maybe feeling some of the same things you are - they don't feel sincere a lot of the time? I don't think there's anything wrong with all of them. I know a lot of people like watching them especially after they finish a show so they can go back and see what others are taking away which could be interesting. It depends on the reactor. So I can understand the appeal to an extent, but I don't personally like a lot of that format because like you said, the initial over the top gut reaction isn't that useful to me? I'm also mentally absorbing a show if I watch. I'll gasp or maybe cry a little at a scene, laugh, but mostly I'm just watching. The reactor videos are a performance, but then these folks use that performance to inform their opinion. It's a little too off the cuff for my personal taste.

I think for me, I just can't imagine ever filming myself watching something to showcase my emotions, especially if it's something I really care about? So I don't trust reactors as true fans. Because it's just not so authentic. You're aware of the content you're trying to capture. You overly emote, you pay more attention to the fact that you're recording. It's never completely a natural opinion or reaction. I'm not so much into livetweeting/liveblogging, either, so that's probably a factor. Sounds pretentious, but if I care about a movie or show, the first time I watch it I need to be present.

I know when season five drops, I'm turning off my phone from the moment it's available on netflix until I've finished watching what's out myself. That's my plan. Divisive is the key word. Social media moves fast and everyone wants to be the first to post something or see something or point something out. I'll be ok being a day late to things!!

It's why the main Byler fandom on tumblr isn't appealing to me anymore, because one thing I kept seeing is people getting pissy about folks 'pointing out stuff that's been talked about already too many times' or 'I already thought of this theory first and this user is copying me now' as if everyone watched and thinks at the same pace? As if people innately know every post that's ever been made on tumblr or added under the tag? Calm down. Yeah, if it's a rage bait opinion, or blatant plagiarism, but that's not what I'm talking about.

[the-skrunkle]

intro below the cut <3

sideblog of @the-skrunkle so feel free to apply this there too c: stuff abt me!! i use she/her pronouns, they/them is okay too as long as its not used exclusively or for the majority because then it feels like its purposefully avoiding the alternative, obviously for ppl who dont know though that doesnt rly apply c:

im demi aro+ace! i also find relationships very cute in like shows and books and stuff (well um as long as they're done well..) despite finding them kinda gross and weird when they involve irl people (including actors...) sorry,,

um. i would talk about my interests but i feel like they're a bit random sometimes. ill like basically anything if i enjoy their vibes which is so vague that i dont think i can elaborate. i guess i like any creative works, in particular music and art!! (generic i know...) my favourite book series atm is skulduggery pleasant, my favourite show recently is saiki k and my favourite visual novel is starry flowers :3 i dont have any favourite artists though (musicians included). erm . . i like celeste!! i dont play it that often anymore but thats just because ive kind of been losing interest in games in general,, i still play it sometimes though. same with genshin but the main reason i like that is cus i like the characters a lot

idk what else im meant to say tbh- ill block people who's vibe i just dont really like, or sometimes if its just something i dont really wanna see and tumblr keeps showing me for some reason

oh yeah. since this is my blog for like. more personal stuff, there will be vents sometimes. sorry. ill tag them with #vent (or #mini vent if its something less serious!) so feel free to block that tag if you dont want to see them, thats totally ok!! ill also end up deleting them after i feel better so hopefully they wont randomly pop up too much - i might also use #not a vent sometimes for things that might be kinda negative but not actually venting!!

yeah thats kinda it i think-

[roughentumble]

i know too much about supernatural