#<- gonst to make a new tag for toxic simon

[tojisun]

SPOTIFY HAS BEEN GIFTING ME TODAY!!

https://open.spotify.com/track/21g4aYFcpoD2P30eBmNZc3?si=U9q0lXp_T_OfqokkcdLu_w - Feeling Something Bad gives me dbf!toxic!simon on so many levels!! LIKE THE LYRICS OF IT JUST GIVE ME MMMMM

SPECIFICALLY: “This is difficult; Wanna be your pretty baby, centerfold; (I don't know); I sound delusional; But when we kissed you gave an inch, I took a mile”

anyways thank you for coming to my small rant as I blast my music <3 luv u sunny

OHHH u are right!! this is so toxic dbf!simon </33

i envision this for having been the mindset of the reader when her relationship with simon is just beginning to take shape. how most of their relationship is her, you, begging for his attention, thriving off of the obsession, and so focused on the physical aspect of the relationship because you don’t know how else to keep him interested if not for giving him what he desires.

(there is something different in the way simon looks at you, you remember thinking. he doesn’t push nor prod, but he also doesn’t wait around and stall. you feel like you have all the time in the world to show him why you’re worth it, all the while feeling like things are spinning too fast and too out of your control.

simon adores you, that you know at least. but it is not enough because simon still doesn’t stay. he still doesn’t reach back out. he still doesn’t return anything: not your calls nor your messages nor your whispered confessions.)

but you’re used to it, you say to yourself. you’re used to simon only giving out a sliver of himself. you’re used to him dangling it before you. you’re used to being left starving, left pawing, because.

well.

what does that quote say? “when you are not fed love on a silver spoon, you learn to lick it from knives.”?

…yeah. you exist within that plane.

so you think it is love. that it is affection – whatever it is that simon gives you – so it’s no wonder at all as to why you began to cling harder. to gravitate to him closer.

to feel like you can only ever exist when simon’s there.

AAHH ODDY THANK U FOR THE MUSIC REC!! i love u back <3