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these outfit things on snapchat r a little bit triggering bc some of the creators i see look super skinny in these outfits

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wow i didnt do this at all lmfao. i want to get into it i layed down on my side crying earlier from other things but seeing my fat stomach fall on my bed really upset me more

120 lbs by january 15th i hope i hope 🤞 my goal is to maintain and do a lot of liquids

edit: low and hi restriction switch like every 4 days or something and a metabolism day 2-3 times a month?? i have never done this pls reply with tips😁😁

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breakfast mint/green tea and a tiny bit of noodles with salt when i was making my brother lunch

less than half a banana later when i went to work a little bit before 3 so up to 150 ish? idk

i didnt eat at work but had some cals from watered down lemonade which i add some lemon slices/juice and sugar idc about the sugar cause i like how its crunchy and yea i kind of put a lot

then when i came home i had soup from olive garden with a decent amount of romano cheese- up to 600 tops PLUS my coworker and his mom gave my mom and i cupcakes so i had one but whatever i guess. i never eat all the frosting bc who would ever do that🤢 up to 2 tbs of frosting and the cake was very small it cant be more than 150-75

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120 lbs by january 15th i hope i hope 🤞 my goal is to maintain and do a lot of liquids

edit: low and hi restriction switch like every 4 days or something and a metabolism day 2-3 times a month?? i have never done this pls reply with tips😁😁

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Banned/ relapsing for the 10190182927 time. Yk the drill pls repost if your active.

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my weight (+2 kilograms) is somebody's goal my february.. so in 8-9 weeks i could be even better than what they want

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rn i'm having these, the gummies are vitamin d3 and the other is zinc (25 for all 3). the green tea supplement says to have it with water 20 minutes before eating i'm not consistent with it at all lmaoo but why not finish off the bottle.so after that i'm gonna eat the danish which is 190.

pls recommend me good vitamins to be taking! 🤍

and its super sweet and not healthy but idc😭😭😭😭 i eat poorly more often than not ok

word vomit of completing yesterdays diary: after breakfast i had green beans with a little too much butter for dinner (i ate them while laying on top of my boyfriend hehehe) and then a little while later my mom made noodles which i love so.. i had buttered noodles as well so oops and 1-2 oz of ground beef which is 80% lean and 20% fat if i can remember i can never find the 15% bc it was like too flavorful😭 and last time i had the meat it was like wet with fat so i think i will just have noodles

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yesterday i had 2 medium pancakes but its ok cause the only other thing i had is a flavored tea fountain drink and like 5 tiny bites of a cheeseburger, that i shared with my bf :) he took huge bites so win for me 👍👍 tbh it was a little gross

tbh i havent been doing good even tho i had creamy chai for breakfast. i just ate celery w/ raisins and PB but like we got chinese food so for dinner im gonna have 5 potstickers ...

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idk what i ate this weekend but yesterday i ate horribly at a baby shower but this is what i had for breakfast should be up to 250 cals

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ate a lot at night yesterday bc i baby sat with my mom we went to target for dinner and i got a personal pizza and a very calorie dense ice cream :///// and with dinner i had like 10 oz of mango nectar and a glass of white wine i wasnt even thinking and i never got to see the label on the pizza

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not gonna talk about what i ate before this (2 cheesy breadsticks 190 each :/) but having a healthy snack now.. i'm just mad that lunch was 509 cals

2 yummy clementines 1 egg white

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rn i'm having these, the gummies are vitamin d3 and the other is zinc (25 for all 3). the green tea supplement says to have it with water 20 minutes before eating i'm not consistent with it at all lmaoo but why not finish off the bottle.so after that i'm gonna eat the danish which is 190.

pls recommend me good vitamins to be taking! 🤍

and its super sweet and not healthy but idc😭😭😭😭 i eat poorly more often than not ok

word vomit of completing yesterdays diary: after breakfast i had green beans with a little too much butter for dinner (i ate them while laying on top of my boyfriend hehehe) and then a little while later my mom made noodles which i love so.. i had buttered noodles as well so oops and 1-2 oz of ground beef which is 80% lean and 20% fat if i can remember i can never find the 15% bc it was like too flavorful😭 and last time i had the meat it was like wet with fat so i think i will just have noodles

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starting fresh 🥸🥸 i cried so much yesterday about my mental illnesses (mostly the ED) after my psychiatrist appointment and i have seasonal depression too so she gave me extra medz.

but on another note i feel like i have been eating a little carelessly. or idk i guess it's too much food since nothing's happening. gonna probably try to do like 200-250 cal meals except buttered noodles which is like 400 bc i love that shit lmao. anyway

see my reply! i would recommend this i love egg whites since i was a kid

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i had some gummy bears but that's alright i guess.. and i bought gum

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10.24

junk today lol but the wings are 400 at the most, i didn't have breakfast but i had a cookie too. going to try to only eat a little dinner i think this was worth it lol. i'm rly bad at having an ed

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10.23 wieiad

my mom made the pizza i'm eating it rn and i feel it in my stomach🤢 i would have ate my salad in the fridge but she would be sus

chai with oatmilk creamer~60

purple cow mango popsicle~60

pizza~ 150ish each> 300

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plus graham crackers and diet coke at work (90)and i'm going to brush my teeth now so i can't have anything before bed!

WIEIAD so far 10.22

chai tea w almond milk and oat milk creamer ~100

cinnamon apple~ 70