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First As I show.  I'd like to think it went well.

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I haven't been on here in awhile.  At least not posting. 

I've decided that many of the people I know are a waste of my effort.

I don't have a lot of effort left. 

2013.

If I waste this year I'll waste myself.

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i THINK you probably know, but the record is officially released. it's a buy option to download, but it's priced at $0.00 with a pay what you want option. i don't expect you to download or buy it, but they are the final mixes and such and it's my first full length, and it'd be rad if you gave it a listen and (should it turn out you DO like it) encourage others to do the same. At this point, aside from doing shows (which at this juncture would be just me and the music ala laptop over soundsystem. which terrifies me.) and bugging everyone with my own constant reminders that "Hey, I make music. Look at me! Look at me!" The only way is for me to ask those of you who take something from these songs to get your copy (REMEMBER: It's FREE. ) Besides, it's streaming, so you don't even have to download it to listen. Booyah.

Available in Lossless Audio and high-quality MP3

SCHEMING DREAMER by AS I

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This is my first full length.  It was a rather interesting process in my life to write/record in this manner.  Thank goodness I've got good friends to help where I needed it.  It's available for download (either for free or for whatever pocket change you'd like to throw at me) at schemingdreamer.bandcamp.com

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Sarah, I'm gonna need two dozen of these.  Okay?  Thanks.

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,,,,hail satan.

reblog if you're satan

the fucking notes what the fuck is this website

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I do not live in the pursuit of happiness.  I do not kid myself by believing the world is inherently good or bad. I do not presume that truth is anything but perception.  The only details that matter are in between darting eyes and awkward instances. "Happiness", like romantic love, is nothing more than an ideal, and if I'm going to spend my life chasing an ideal I'm going to do it on the condition that this life I'm dealing with is exactly what I need it to be.  It is a test. It is not a gift, or a curse.  I feel no emotion more than the other and all of them are rooted in one inexplicable fire that I will deliberately direct inward and release in righteous gusts of anger or affection.  I enjoy the bitter, because unlike the contentment, it can be trusted.  I am not here to spread joy, I am not here to cause pain.  I am here because for some strange reason I was born and have not yet had the courtesy or courage to die. 

Yes, I am a cynic.  I am a void. I am a machine fueled by cigarettes and coffee. I am righteousness and envy.  Simultaneously full of hopeless adoration and hopeful discontent.  I am not empathetic. I have no concern for the masses, save those that show me they're worth my affectations. 

I am a sun.  I have dug further into my own paradoxical persona than most people could ever hope for and have found myself empty on more than one occasion.  I choose to fill myself with vitriolic melodies that I sometimes send out in hopes of reaching past the wall.   

I will say what you need to hear, not what you want to hear, because honestly, I don't give a shit what you want to believe.  I am right.  If I'm wrong, I'll let you know.

I know who understands me, and I know who doesn't.  For the most part I keep that knowledge to myself.

I am a series of scars.  I am a demiser.  I welcome my shadow.

So keep deluding yourself with fairy tales, I'm writing my own story.

I die at the end, and that's okay.

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seriously...do you?

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for reals.

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pretty sure i'm only counting nine pair.  

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Well, it's up for streaming.   Will be available for download and purchase soon.  

  LISTEN HERE

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Sooo...I cut all my hair off and shaved my beard.   I also appear to have the eyes of a man who never sleeps.  Awesome.

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