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Hi

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ED TWT

Although edtwt be giving me some good thinspo some bitches on there be acting like having an ED is their only personality trait, posting shit like fatspo saying how being obese are unhealthy like they aren't out here abusing laxatives, going on multiple day fasts etc. And they also talk shit about edtumblr like wtf?

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Already reblogged this but my life is going down the shitter

Reblog for a miracle to happen tonight

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Day 10

not having to rely on food as a crutch I'm really starting to find that difficult

(Yes I know I'm not consistently posting this challenge but life is low key falling apart for me lmao but have some thinspo)

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Day 9

Not really. Everyone tries to convince me I'm not but my BMI and size 18 Jeans say otherwise. My mum does make comments about how much I eat saying how I think about only food. And that does hurt because its true and I wish I could stop and not rely on food so much

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So I'm starting to realise that I may have to lower my ugw to achieve the body I want by like 5kg. I'll see what I look like when I reach my current ugw (which is still pretty much 80lbs off why do I make things difficult for myself)

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I have a problem with binge eating

Does anyone know how I can stop binge eating, I seriously hate it I feel so sick afterwards and apart from the obvious weight gain it's starting to do shit to my mental health. I want to get into restricting again but whenever I've done so in the past I've ended up binging again. I'm so lost

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Day 8

I don't work out, I don't lose weight and I bulk up when I do which is the last thing I want

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Day 7

No and even if she did there's not much she can do about it. Plus I'm hopefully going off to uni soon so I can do whatever the fuck I want to myself lmao

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⚠️ATTENTION⚠️

Just a friendly reminder that if you use fatspo in any way, you are 🌺✨fucking trash ✨🌺

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TW// Self harm, mentions of blood

So I had this VERY weird dream last night. So basically I got into this car and starting driving but then I saw this guy and who I could only assume to be his gf cycling in front of me. Normal right?

But then whatever turns they made so did the car I was driving, like no matter how much I was trying to steer control of the car I couldn't. It was like whatever the 2 cyclists, so would the car and these mfs were going pretty fast so obviously i did as well. I kept shouting at them "STOP CYCLING YOU'RE CONTROLLING MY CAR!" but they didn't listen and just kept on cycling even faster until eventually we both made this sharp turn and I crashed.

I was knocked out in the car for a good while until I came to and emerged from the car wreckage. I felt no pain strangely enough although I did have a bleeding nose and a massive gash to my forged. I'm pretty sure my face was covered in blood but again no pain.

Anyways I see the 2 cyclists and I immediately went over there ready to cuss them tf out but as I got closer I realised that the 2 cyclists was the person I used to like with his gf. Idk why but this got me even more furious so started screaming at them saying why didn't they listen that could've died shit like that. They didn't listen they had these blank expressions on their faces whilst I was shouting at them, after I was done they just simply got onto their bikes and cycled off.

I'm not exactly sure what it means just thought I should share someone. Also the other day I had I dream where I slit my left wrist pretty badly. That one still worries me because I used to self harm

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Day 6

Yes unfortunately, I use food as a coping strategy and the past month and a bit I've been binging the worst I've ever done because things are getting really hard for me and I'm struggling. I try not to but it's so hard because I'm so weak and I lack so much self control. I hate myself after I do it but I still binge

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Day 4 and 5

My greatest fears about weight loss is probably losing hair and potential ability to have kids. Plus my boobs since they're already tiny as it is lmao

I'm losing weight for a variety of reasons which I've already made a poster for

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We just gon' pretend I didn't forget to update for almost a week lmao

Day 3

This is my ultimate thinspo but I know because of my cursed genetics my legs won't ever be as thin as that. I would be happy if mine ended up looking like this

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Day 2

I'm 183cm/6'0 I used to struggle with my height being always the biggest girl in class and in school but I guess it's not so bad

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Thought I'd hop back on this with it being the new year and all. Plus it's time for a fresh start

Day 1:

HW:101kg

CW:99.5kg 😬🤢

GW 1: 80kg

GW 2: 70kg

UGW: 60kg (may change it to 55)