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happy pride! joking of course! <3

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You complain so often that I do nothing but you won't let me do the things I say I'm going to. It's gotten to the point that I say it multiple times even the day before

Yeah Im gonna cook dinner tomorrow I planned this days ago I already know what to make they're in the fridge no I don't need help I got it

Yeah I'll wash those dishes just let me finish what in doing

Yeah I'll help you with laundry just let me know when you're starting

And when you fail to communicate it's somehow my fault. It is not my fault that you decided it wasn't done fast enough. But you'll hang it over my head anyway

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It's that time again

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Man I wish I was ultra feminine and not built like a brick wall. I wish I looked good in dresses and that I experimented with makeup more when I was a teenager. I wish learning to drive wasn't so terrifying. I wish I didn't have to wonder if I'm getting better or if I'm just being manic again.

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Just love having a breakdown of some sort a couple times a month

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I'm so angry I don't know if I'm going to cry or throw up. You just can't get through to some people with only words, can you? Some people just think your space is free real estate that they can invade anytime they want. I'm sick of it. If she touches me again I'm going to hurt her

I have been asking nicely for *over a year* and I'm done. This is my limit. You don't want to listen? You want to go as far as to make vulgar jokes at my expense when I'm trying my best to explain to you why this bothers me? Then you fucking deserve what happens next

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Officially too fat to ride rollercoasters. I hate myself

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Why why why why why why why

I was doing better please why does this happen. I dont want to be awake. I dont want to exist. I have to constantly remind myself that what I've been through, what I'm going through ***is not normal***

I'm so tired

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So great at looking like I did not just cry my eyes out

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I feel Not Good™

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So fucking stressed out and anxious that I feel like I am going to throw up or burst into tears or both. My neurologist's office just called me at 7am to discuss payment and specified an amount that is way wayyyy more than what we were told. God I wish I could find the fucking envelope we received that said it would be like 200. But no! 1400 fucking dollars.

Hoping and praying and manifesting to the god I dont believe in that this was an error. The employee was looking at the wrong information, the insurance told them the wrong amount, or something. Please please please dont make me a burden to my family.

Please please please please please please please please please please please please dear god please we cant handle paying 1400 for anything right now

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I'm so burned out. I have no energy for soxial interaction to the point that I'm ignoring messages and I feel bad about it. I have someone messaging me everyday and I'm watching them slowly get upset that I'm not responding and I dont know what to do. I dont have the energy to be polite or normal or gentle and I'm worried I'm gonna go off on this person that I'm supposed to be friends with

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Wrong hekkin tumblr hhhhhhh

If you see this I'm sorry about the depressing mess

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I feel so much worse. Every day for the past week I've wanted to curl into a ball and cry. I dont want to wake up. I dont want to get out of bed. I want to sleep and sleep and sleep

I dont think this medication is helping

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I want to cry I want to cry I want to cry I want to cry I want to cry I want to cry I want to cry I want

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DISfunction you wack ass fruit fairy

I'm learning so many things about myself

Executive function go brr

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I'm learning so many things about myself

Executive function go brr